Is it just me or do any other neurodivergent people out there need to be told in far advance before being asked to do a chore or you freak out and cry or get really overwhelmed over it? Like my parents will be like “oh hey can you do *insert chore or task* today?” and I’ll just be like 🤯 today???? Idc that it’ll only take 15 minutes or less it was not on the agenda??? I have to work my way up to it I can’t just??? Do it without knowing about it for more than a day

Being disabled is like. Gets made fun of for being dependent on people. Gets made fun of for doing things for yourself. Gets made fun of for doing things for others. Gets made fun of by the people you’re doing things for. Gets made fun of for pointing out ableism. Gets called ableist for being disabled. Gets made fun of

What I don't see a lot of people talking about the disabled community, probably because dyspraxia itself isn't really talked about a lot, is the way dyspraxia alienates me from my body

Like I get crippling period pain and other issues from my period, have asthma, and have minor injuries that cause discomfort and I do have to work around when it comes to the way I move around but these are things I can work around

I can take pain meds and other meds for my period, exercise more and take antihistamines for my asthma (allergy induced rather than exercise), and lay off the injuries or work around them, I can't make these annoyances go away but I can alleviate them and know that I can make a difference to my experience by doing so

But I can't really do that with dyspraxia and it alienates me from my body, makes me feel significantly less in control of my body than others are to theirs

Sure I can do exercises and move my body which make me more coordinated, which helps, but the moment I am really caught up in my emotions, I might break something because I apply the wrong amount of force because dyspraxia just be like that

I can become more coordinated but I am still more likely to slip than my non-dyspraxic friends, and even with all the coordination I have gained, I still have small cuts and bruises which I don't even remember getting because that's how often my body doesn't move in the way I expect it and I injure myself because of it, not to mention the amount of spills and thinks I drop because of it

It's infuriating to not have that control, to know I need to be more careful than others, and even still I will create accidents because my body is just never gonna move exactly like it is supposed to and that's alienating for me

I will never feel fully in control because I never will be, there is no way to reclaim that and sometimes it gets to me

even 1 day of not hoodie and the movement pattern is much harder

(^message I write to mum earlier on AAC)

I have bath every other day, and only change clothes at bath. I wore onesie, with not hoodie over the top, and only that short time of not practice movement path makes me get stuck and slow and muscle memory hard to access.

I have more trouble with body stuck and slow and “glitchy” recently. I want to explain more but words hard so not right now.

I have other messages from AAC that maybe I will share in future posts. Maybe some posts will be fully from AAC, maybe some a mix of AAC and typing (like this one). Maybe some about AAC itself, maybe some just general random.

I will tag them all “ezra talk aac”.

Sometimes I like looking up dyspraxia on google or tumblr as it makes me feel better seeing others like me, but like everytime I am violently reminded just how much it seeps into my everyday life.

Like I have decent movement, I can't remember the last time I fell over and I rarely bump into things. I can now wear turtle neck jumpers without feeling like I'm being strangled. I can type fast on my laptop and rarely have to look at the keys. I can drive, parallel park and reverse park. I can even now catch stuff thrown at me like 9/10 times! All of this is because I've been working on those skills for 19 years, both by myself and through speech and physiotherapy between the ages of 5 and 9.

But then I still have major issues organising my life, I have problems going to appointments and responding to emails. My main emotion everyday is to feel unemotional and when I do feel a real, strong emotion I have a hard time showing it, often apperaing neutral or like I don't care. I still don't fully get some social concepts. My memory can be really dodgy. My handwriting is quick and spidery as it hurts my hand to write slowly and neatly and I can't use anything but cheap gel pens as anything else will smudge. I still drop food on myself or the table daily. I'm still nervous carrying mugs of tea or coffee around, in fact I actually refuse point blank to carry trays of food in cafes, as I worry so much about dropping them and I find the weight and instability difficult to handle. I get tired easily and find it hard to stand in the kitchen and cook for more than half an hour before I just end up in pain, I can't use can openers and I have a hard time chopping food. I really like doing craft stuff with my hands but I find it so hard to continue with that craft stuff as it always comes out looking horrible and I just don't have the patience to continue.

It is hard living in a constant uphill battle, with everyone around you getting on with their lives and being so "hyper" organised. But I've managed to grow so much over the years and I hope that one day soon I can move some more of the things on my "I can't do or struggle to do right now" list, and move them into my "success" or "I can just in my own way" list.

Hi! Kiku has an important post, please share and help if can.

Kiku is trying to crowdfund the AAC app LAMP because it goes on sale soon for AAC awareness month. It is $150 plus taxes and fees so probably closer to $180.

Kiku would also like to raise funds for food because Kiku's family is low on food. Kiku's husband recently got a new job but we not know what his start date is.

For those that not follow Kiku, Kiku is a mostly nonspeaking high support needs autistic disabled aac user. Kiku currently uses Proloquo2go but would also like to have LAMP for the motor planning aspect which works very well for Kiku.

If you can't help please share.

If you want to donate, Kiku's partner has paypal, paypal email is [email protected]. Kiku is willing to make art for those who help if they want ☺️.

Edited because partner suggested putting paypal email in post.

Thank to everyone who is reblogging. ☺️

Kiku wants to add that LAMP go on sale the 10th (in 3 days) and sale ends the 16th, so if Kiku wants to get LAMP on sale need to get money by 16th.

Kiku currently has $30/$180 goal (to make sure can cover tax and everything)

Update: Kiku tried update earlier but looks like didn't go through but. Kiku's family was lower on food than though so used money have got so far for food and we got luck and managed get a lot with what we had.

So for LAMP Kiku is back to $0/$180 but not have worry about food such good thing ☺️

Update: Had someone donate ☺️

$15/$180

Sale starts today ☺️Kiku very excited

Dyspraxics who menstruate:

Do your fine motor skills get worse during PMS?? What is your premenstrual experience like?

I am very, very interested in your lived experiences. Please share them with me if you are comfortable!

Neurodivergent lightbulb

Lately, I have been having these neurodivergent lightbulb moments. They always follow the same pattern:

1. I have a question about human behavior. Example: How can people call and/or listen to music while riding their bikes?

2. I will, slowly , realize that this behavior is caused by other people NOT being neurodivergent. Usually, this realisation is something along the lines of: gosh dammit, it's impossible for me because I have disorders.

I believe this is a new phase in my journey towards full neurodivergent acceptance. I think I will call it "Oh, right, I am Different(TM)."

Dyspraxia Pride Flags

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Original posts of the learning disorders flags I made a while ago here (link) and here (link).

Symbol design from the Dyspraxia foundation (link). I did not design the symbol, just made a high png quality version of it.

For archival purposes, here is under the cut the flag template with each part as its own separated png. It can be used to make your own flags with the design. But please keep it related to only learning disorders flags and give credit.

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“Haha I must be dyspraxic bc I’m clumsy (even though I also relentlessly mock clumsy people) oh wait what’s that? Dyspraxic people have chronic pain? They’re immunocompromised? Hypermobile? Have breathing issues? Walk funny? Damn lmao what even is dyspraxia" yeah how about you learn the basics before disrespecting actual dyspraxic people with your stupid self centered comments. Instead of acting like all this is breaking news when we (and our doctors) have BEEN saying

Dyspraxic Headcanon Icons!!

free to use with credit!

in order:

Bingo Heeler (bluey), Cody Hackins (ace attorney), Izuku Midoriya (my hero academia)

Leonardo (rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles), Fluttershy (my little pony), Hau (pokemon)

Tallulah (qsmp), Zuko (avatar the last airbender), Leon (pokemon)

no one educating you about your disabilty because now i can search up dyspraxia and learn everything in my life is because of this one thing its so fun

i spill yoghurt everywhere on my hoodie sleeve, bedsheets, blankets...

absolute chaos and disaster!!!

but mum help thank goodness and is just sad that i have to wear different hoodie.

bloody dyspraxia!!

there are two wolves inside of you.

one tells you to wear socks permanently because your feet will get cold otherwise and you will hate yourself more for not wearing them every passing second instead of actually going and putting them on.

the other tells you socks feel icky and you should live your life entirely barefoot otherwise you will be constantly distracted and annoyed by the way they feel and will still hate yourself.

you are neurodivergent.

hi i wanted to ask what "unreliable speaking" means? also im also a werewolfkin ^^!

Unreliably speaking is term that refers to something that people with apraxia and dyspraxia might deal with. Our body's say things we don't want or mean them to. This can range from things like saying no when we actually want to say yes, to involuntary echolalia (repeating what others say). Thank for the ask. Hope this helps. ☺️

if you're going to thank me for adding an ID to your post because you're OP, add it to the original instead, in plain text and without a read more.

This ensures that everyone can find an accessible version of the post + you can make any corrections you want to.

19 ✰ xe/xem or it/its or he/him ✰ autistic, dyspraxic and some kind of tics (???) ✰ UK ✰ aro

I'm autistic and some special interests are Nanbaka, tea, Stardew Valley, Jellycats, and learning (intellectual) disabilities! I'm also a first year uni student and post about that sometimes. Autism and dyspraxia have a big impact on how I study.

Run by a rad inclus and a transandrophobia truther.

Also check out my main @refrainboy and my aromantic blog @aroneu!