#draining!!!!!! and if I'd so much as hint to it she'd make me feel guilty. not on purpose. but it still happened ! | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

starlingskulls · 4 months

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also one of the cats i work with really fucked my shit up last shift and i feel very upset about it One because uhmm. rude. but also because ohhh that's deeper than i've ever gone and it didn't hurt that bad .. very interesting information

#🐦‍⬛posting #mostly just stung yk. didn't bleed too bad either #and like .. yk when the cvts look pretty or whatever LMAOO it looks Nice. like I'm so fucking pissed but good work little dude #downside is I keep looking at it like hmm...... could make more!#if anyone is reading this rn could u tell me if it's dangerous to cvt on the upper thigh. like High up the thigh #bc that's where I've been doing it but I think I remember someone being like hey. Don't Do That. like don't cvt at all but #Especially Not There #but also like goddd that's the only place I can hide it #I can't do arms I wear jackets a lot but also I wear this one shirt a lot and its like. those tiny tiny straps I forgor what they r called #and I'd simply rather die than tell anyone in my life abt this #even though their guilt Would be fun <- hate that I want it though #like I hate it BAD. makes me feel fucking evil. but god I want ppl to feel bad for making Me feel bad #but then also I'm terrified of ppl feeling responsible for my stupid actions like that yk ?#fun me lore I was on Tumblr at the ripe age of 11 #in a tiny fandom #and managed to befriend this woman who I Knew would cvt and was suicidal or wtv #and ofc she didn't Know how young I was till I finally confessed at like 15 but. well that is a Lot of pressure for an 11 year old #Especially bc she'd vent like. every fucking day. I felt bad of course but that much? for like 4 years?#draining!!!!!! and if I'd so much as hint to it she'd make me feel guilty. not on purpose. but it still happened !#nowadays I feel so fucking guilty for every little thing I do lol. which is why I can't tell anyone abt this #if I ever made Anyone I love feel that same way? that's it I'm done I'm dead #so now silly and curious strangers get to read my yapping !#hiiiiiiii !

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