Another thing about the airplane extras that fucked me up which I forgot to mention is the scene where sqh, Shen Jiu, and lqg are on a mission together and sj and lqg are arguing with each other and shit and sqh is like haha but under that he can See shen jiu is trying and failing to connect and he pulls him aside after and advises him on how to properly stop a qi deviation because he Knows that soon Shen Jiu is going to try and fail to save Liu Qingge and he just wants to do that little bit of kindness so sj doesn't have lqg's death on his conscious and it's just AHHHHHUGHHHWH. Scumplane fans you have done this to me. Sqh knowing all of sj's trauma and that sometimes he really is trying, but that no one around him knows that and just pushes him back into his self-defensive shield whenever he tries just a bit to be nicer. Sqh trying to help sj through something that he ends up not even experiencing because he DIES IN HIS SLEEP AND NO ONE CARES EXCEPT YQY AND SQH. Sqh knowing that sj is a horrible person but also that he was the one who made him into that horrible person, seeing past his barbed exterior to all the trauma he wrote into him and hoping, maybe a bit selfishly, that he could possibly overcome it this time, if he just changed the tracks just a bit. But Shen Jiu is gone, and even in this better timeline he'll never, ever have the chance to improve.