all i ask ~ jj maybank x reader
pairing: jj maybank x fem!reader
warnings: language, angst to fluff, world ending, definitely not a happy ending.
notes: I recommend listening to the song while you read.
this was hard to write lmao, I was watching 'Don't Look Up' and this came into my mind, idk if it makes sense but I tried. I'm also obsessed with Adele rn, so whenever I feel like writing angsty stuff I'll probably add more to this collection.
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Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
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"We advise you to stay indoors, find your loved ones and-" the reporter on the TV paused. He never finished his sentence. "Good night America, and in this case the world, this is James Harper signing off."
Then the TV went black. You took a shakey breath, looking around the room at the pogues. Sarah was sitting on John B sobbing into his neck, Pope was deep in thought beside them pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration. He had finally stopped pacing at least.
Kie was laying sprawled out like a starfish on the carpet, eyes glossed over and tired. A breeze flushed through the open window of the chateau, you looked out to see JJ smoking and staring up into the sky.
You stood from your spot on the couch and walked to the front door, it creaked open and you stepped out towards JJ. He tensed, acknowledging your presence, breath hitching as you leaned against the railing beside him.
"Hi," you said.
"Hi," he whispered back, looking down at both of your hands and passing you his joint. You took it from him, fingers brushing and sending sparks up your arm. Carefully bringing it to your lips you inhaled and let out a puff of smoke, feeling your body relax and ground into the floor. It was calming.
Out in the distance you watched an orange streak flash across the sky, it was closer than ever and you took another quick puff to try to halt the nervous shaking of your body.
"Cupcake," he turned to you and brushed his thumb over your knuckles, you shivered at the contact and squeezed your eyes shut at the nickname "I know you hate me right now... but, can we just pretend that you don't?"
Pretend. You looked into his eyes, the eyes you used to adore. Well, you still did, but they also held new signs of remorse and frustration.
You tried to push those thoughts out of your mind, "I don't hate you Jayj. I could never hate you,"
A flash of gratefulness flashed over his features, leaving quickly though. You looked down knowing he could see in your eyes that you didn't fully mean what you said.
"I ain't asking for forgiveness," he whispered, "Please, can we please just pretend? Like we're not scared of what's coming next?"
You nodded slowly.
'What's coming next... you mean the giant meteor hurtling toward Earth that would likely kill us all by morning? Yeah, let's pretend.' You thought.
"Look, don't get me wrong, I know there is no tomorrow. All I ask is if this is my last night with you..." he stumbled over his words, "Love me like I'm more than just a friend."
'It matters how this ends, what if I never love again?' you told yourself, thoughts continuing to scramble.
You stepped towards JJ and buried your face into his shirt, tears that you didn't know you had been crying soaking the fabric, "I'm so scared," you heard yourself say.
He wrapped his arms around you and brought his face to your hair, "I know," he said, "I am too,"
"Can we go inside?" you asked, looking up at him. He nodded in agreement and grabbed your hand, interlocking your fingers with his. You sulked back into the chateau closing and locking the door, as if that would do anything to protect you.
Kie was now sitting up and gave you a soft smile at the sight of you and JJ holding each other. You sat on the floor at Pope and John B's feet, sitting in between JJ's legs, leaning back into his chest.
You sat in silence until Sarah spoke up, "I love you guys, your the best friends I could ever ask for-" she sobbed.
You brought your hands to your face, covering your eyes and letting out a shakey breath.
"Love you," everyone whispered back into the silence of the room.
You felt the ground shake and you let out a sob, eyes growing blurry. Kie scooched over to the couch and leaned against Pope and John B as well closing her eyes and fiddling with her bracelets. You shifted around in JJ's lap to face him, arms and legs wrapping around his torso.
JJ felt his heart break at the sight of your tears, "I love you cupcake," he whispered to you and only you.
"I love you," you choked on your tears. The room began to feel hot, your clothes felt like they were sticking to your body. "And I forgive you,"
"No, y/n-" he started. Your ears began to ring a high-pitched noise.
"I know you don't want me to but I do, I forgive you JJ. And I love you. You are the only one that gets me." you rambled.
You wiped the tears off his cheeks kissing him deeply. The sky outside got brighter as you broke away, you looked over at Kie and grabbed her hand. She squeezed it back and grabbed Sarah's with her other hand.
"Shit, shit, shit." Pope cursed leaning into John B and JJ as you all felt the house shake more rapidly.
JJ started frantically humming his favorite song into your ear, you held onto your friends for dear life.
'All I ask,' you started to pray.
And then everything went black.
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