Distorted Perceptions is a Women's Fiction, Literary/General Fiction title. Modern Historical, 1980s to 1990s Nostalgia Fiction. The novel is available via Amazon, Barnes and Noble, Lulu, etc.

Distorted Perceptions - a novel by Paula Puddephatt. See: paulathewriter.com.

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He was just being a silly little guy!

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Just gonna say it again- I really hate when people flanderise John to just some “always angry guy” who’s always bitchy but actually an uwu tsundere. Like seriously John in canon is a lot more stoic and composed yet EVERY fan content I see of him has him be constantly angry and hot headed like he’s Fuuta! And it makes me upset because I really love John and he’s probably the most flanderised character I’ve seen so far ever and just. Ugh I want people to properly understand him instead having him be a ship tool.

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Hitting my brain with a hammer

(via From Chapter Thirty-Four - Distorted Perceptions (WIP))

the opening of into the depths - the thought experiment about the swamp - sticks in my head, because, well. because it's interesting why it's stuck in hera's head.

narratively, of course, it serves two purposes: 1) to frame and present a question about what happened to lovelace, and 2) to connect what is currently happening to lovelace to what hera experiences when she reboots. (which: combined with the ways lovelace is also paralleled to eris, one of an infinite potential iterations of herself, serving a similar purpose for the dear listeners that eris does for goddard - there is even a perspective from which you could argue lovelace is herself "an AI" that i think presents some interesting questions. regardless, the struggle lovelace and hera share in having their humanity recognized is deeply significant to me.)

in-universe, though: why was that thought experiment put in hera's head, for her to think about while she reboots? well. lovelace's s4 arc centers on a certain type of self doubt: she fears a loss of self, of personal identity and continuity of experience, and she fears it's already happened. if hera thinks about this thought experiment as she reboots - does she fear the same? does part of her always worry that the version of her that comes back online is not the same as before? i think that's the purpose.

part of it may be general cruelty, in the same way pryce threatens to give her "a new recurring nightmare" as punishment, but making hera doubt her continuity of experience feels like a very intentional aspect of how she's been dehumanized - it encourages her not to think of herself as a full person, and casts doubt on her future. consider ep 52, where hera hasn't done a full reset of her personality program in months, and is notably hesitant to. or ep 48, where she initially votes against leaving (which is emotionally complicated for multiple reasons, but that's a whole other topic.) it's not the only factor, but i believe hera has lovelace's identity crisis in mind, and i think that casts a certain light on these interactions.

most importantly: these things are not true. she's being emotionally manipulated. obviously. but the fear, i think, is very real, especially in the context of trauma. lovelace's death and resurrection as a clone of herself, from a more metaphorical standpoint, is a strong emotional representation of having been changed, on some unseen but fundamental level, by trauma. lovelace fears that she can't go home because she's already died, and whoever she is now is just something else trying really hard to be isabel lovelace. hera has a hard time imagining a life on earth because she's never really had one, but i think part of her also fears she can't go back because of how it might change her - it's not that she prefers things the way they are, but she fears she'd lose something fundamental and be a different person if her circumstances changed. both of them returning home, and having futures in spite of that fear, means something to me.

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I thought your Damian in the Ortega PinUp post was Hollow Ground for a hot minute!!!! I was all “Ah, Ricardo has finally accepted that Daddy Ground kingpin of the city is in FACT, very Hot and charismatic,” but it was just Damien smiling and looking more mature and confident!!

God bless Ortega's heart, these two brothers are destined to look more like each other as they age…

Ortega's therapist is being put in the trenches every time he talks about his ███friend's relation and semblance with the man who killed his father figure. Hopefully they're paid enough by the Rangers lol.

I can't wait to have the three of them face each other in the book. It's going to be so messy 🥰🥰

Thinking about how most of the times we see Kol in tvd he's acting as errand boy for his siblings, starting with Rebekah asking him to kill Matt at the ball. If he cared solely about killing someone to spit in the face of Esther's rules he could have killed anyone else after Rebekah changed the plan. The second time, he's in Denver with Jeremy and texts Klaus to let him know if there's anything else his brother needs from him. And later Klaus calls on him to use his presence with Jeremy to threaten Bonnie into undoing the linking spell. Then he's there again to kill Mary when he finds out from Klaus that the mfg are trying figure out who they're sired from after breaking his cover in Denver. He's not even in series 4 up until Rebekah gets undaggered and suddenly he's there to retrieve the professor for her

I just think it's interesting that he's characterised as the volatile and reckless sibling and in the originals we learn that he constantly feels like an outsider in his own family with Klaus, Rebekah and Elijah making up their own little trio with Finn daggered. And yet anytime they need something he's there, almost as though he's still desperately trying to endear himself to them until he inevitably lashes out and gets daggered for it, his efforts constantly unappreciated. The only time he asks them for a favour that I can recall is when he swears Rebekah to secrecy about the dagger he's working on against Klaus only for her to tattle and get him daggered