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stil-lindigo · 2 days

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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starwarjotta · 3 months

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looking for someone on Tatooine

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egophiliac · 3 months

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Please elaborate on your twst Pokémon headcannons I’m very interested

I had planned on drawing everyone for this (I made a LIST!) but it. hasn't been going well. 💀 soooo here's what I have so far!

Riddle - Roserade (I was going with 'no legendaries', otherwise I would've given him a Shaymin) (and I don't think Togedemaru is actually a hedgehog or I would've given him one of those too) (...they kind of do fit though. hmm.)

Trey - Alcremie (clover/mint cream + strawberry/ruby cream)

Cater - DITTO SQUAD! DITTO SQUAD! DITTO SQUAD!

Ace - Impidimp (I feel like there's probably a better one for him, but I can't think of it)

Deuce - Scraggy (meanwhile I KNOW deep in my heart that this is true)

Leona - Pyroar (but like. a nasty Pyroar. just a grizzly old Pyroar with the shittiest attitude imaginable. they pretend to hate each other but secretly they are a bonded pair, do not separate)

#art #twisted wonderland #pokemon #poketwst #i'm trying not to pressure myself too much art-wise right now #but i would like to do more of the characters!#(especially considering this started with my insistence that malleus would have a dragapult)#gotta draw something i don't immediately hate first ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #ANYWAY enough art angst!#i'm not aiming for full teams or delving too deep into lore or anything #just one or two per character that i think fit!#i was pretty torn on leona for a while because pyroar is at once the obvious choice but also. not really?#(i did consider luxray and ultimately decided it doesn't really fit either)#but i kind of love Nasty Lionboy's Nasty Pyroar #i think there's probably some. like. ~royal tradition~ that they all bond with this one specific breeding line or whatever #and leona deliberately chose just the absolute worst one #took one look at this shitty rude pokemon and immediately went 'that one'#falena was like 'are...are you SURE' and leona cops an attitude like 'i'm choosing my OWN pokemon you're not my DAD'#as pyroar is actively attempting to eat him #actually it probably tried to eat kifaji first and that's when leona decided he liked it #me: this is just for funsies i'm not doing lore (writes a whole fanfic in the tags)

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hadrianblackwaters · 5 months

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If Tumblr gets shut down we should take this party to the comment sections of Warrior Cats books on www.barnesandnobles.com

#specific ass reference to one of my fav internet things that i did not myself participate in #i have never read #warrior cats #but barnes and nobles cannot ban us all #alternatively we start posting in the comment section of those is tumblr down check it websites :)#the way everyone does when ao3 is down haha

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starflungwaddledee · 4 months

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alas, it seems the christmas mystery shall remain unsolved 🎁 happy holidays!

#running a little late on this one but i was determined to get it out this year!!!! i hope you'll enjoy it nonetheless!#there was an additional page i had to cut where kirby bid them all farewell; smacked the wall; and a whole workshop of stuff fell down #but it proved too clunky and too hard to capture within my time limit so you'll just have to imagine it 😂#also this is featuring my festive designs from the advent stickers i did this year!#finally i get to draw boggle eyed kirby and V-face meta knight. christmas present to myself.#happy holidays and best wishes to everybody for the new year!#kirby #bandana waddle dee #meta knight #king dedede #magolor #my art #my comics

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taxinealkaloids · 3 days

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kill your darling, it's just that easy!

#tlt #my art #i reblogged these outfits the other day that were giving me big ianthe & naberius vibes so i wanted to draw something with them #got really funky w/ this one! i just wanted to play around i havent had the chance to draw in a while #so i just kinda let myself do whatever w/ the colors and art style and everything #idk how i feel about it but it was fun #anyway ive seen some posts suggesting that ianthe somehow cheated the system by sacrificing naberius and like...#no she absolutely did not? she paid that price exactly by the book (making her one of the few to actually do so)#and now she suffers forever for it :)#oh the line on top is a quote from the book and the caption is a lyric from 'kill your darling' by cloudy june #(which aside from that one line is not at all a ianthe&naberius song lmao)

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theabigailthorn · 4 months

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spent ages preparing to audition for a role I really really wanted and it's looking like (still unconfirmed) they might not even be holding auditions at all but have just given it to someone directly

which, meh, that sucks but that's the industry!

I'm just like now what? I spent a lot of my free time the last few months prepping and I genuinely don't know what to do with myself now!

#guess I'll... have a bath?#call my mum?#keep prepping anyway on the off chance the rumours are false?#I already asked my agent to investigate but she can't find out either!#that's hollywood baybeeee #sorry mario your blorbo is in another show #I should get myself a treat as a reward for all my hard work even though it didn't work out #I have 3 criteria for this sort of thing and if I tick them all off I can walk away happy #Did I approach it from curiosity not ambition?#Did I make it known in the industry that I wanted the role?#Did I prepare for the role?#I did all three of those things so audition or no audition I can hold my head up high #might get myself one of those nice cookie dough brownies from the coffee stand this week as a consolation prize

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avalencias · 1 month

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red moon rising….

#critical role #my things #imogen temult #we’ll not talk about how I haven’t been caught up in too many episodes I just love imogen #this did start as portrait practice but very rapidly……….evolved so here we are #as i’m sure you’ve all sussed out i’m incredibly stressed out and that’s why i’m drawing again #cheers!#ok also in reality I enjoyed this one bc it was a different….method of drawing/rendering? I was essentially re-showing myself how to do it #throughout and frankly I think it worked out for the better #so there’s that!#im sure I have the actual timelapse somewhere too……….

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accirax · 17 days

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a collection of DCAS memes so far

#disventure camp #dcas #disventure camp spoilers #alec disventure camp #fiore disventure camp #hunter disventure camp #ally disventure camp #tess disventure camp #ellie disventure camp #jake disventure camp #gabby disventure camp #james disventure camp #lake disventure camp #ashley disventure camp #the james one was inspired by a doodle by sadlyglad_ on instagram so please support his work as well!#it's really good especially if you like james x aiden #also all of the forest backgrounds were assets taken from the show i did not draw those myself #why the hell did jake appear three times #he's just the man of the hour i suppose #i started drawing these before episode 6 and thankfully nothing happened to make any of these no longer relevant/true #hopefully i'll have more meme redraw ideas in the future but for now this is all. hehe disventure camp >:)#my art #fanart #comic #also i finally learned how to use the text tool in procreate! wish there was a better way to add outlines though #huntessally

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months

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"See you tomorrow"

MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 4 [prev parts]

#better drawn mdzs #MDZS Disco Elysium AU #mdzs au #Lan wangji #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Belated Halloween!#digital art #Thank you all for your patience as I drove myself into a madness only known by those lost at seas alone.#I put a lot of time into this one! It's not perfect but I am very happy with it + I am so happy to put down the tablet pen.#Digital art has some nice features but I'm sticking with traditional! I need a month to recover from the 2+ weeks of torture.#Okay lets talk about the AU and the comic now #Disco elysium has some of the best existential-horror-dream sequences I have ever seen.#The dialogue here is heavily inspired by The Final Dream - A scene I'd love to talk about more were it not so heavy with spoilers.#My AU is a lot more complex than a simple character swap but I really felt like LWJ + YLLZ fit this scene.#The final dream is about being unable to move on from a lost love. From something You made holy. From something You ruined.#It is about realizing that no matter how smart you are or what you offer or how you try to change -#You will never be able to turn back time. You will never ever be able to fix what is broken. That you also have been broken for a long time #You are a fuck-up who worships the nail covered ground of someone who did not want to be holy. And even though it hurts-#You cannot let this nightmare go. The pain keeps the love close. It is worse to forget. You promised to remember.#WWX died thinking LWJ disliked him. LWJ lost someone he thought was revolted by his love.

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esprei · 10 months

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Emmet month - Day 4: Memories

though Ingo may be gone, he'll never be forgotten

#submas #subway bosses #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #subway boss nobori #subway boss kudari #gym leader elesa #nimbasa trio #monthofemmet #my art #whew i am 4 days late ;;#anyway i let myself keep this one much MUCH less refined (as hard as it was to do that slkgj)#also bringing back the kid submas designs i did a looooong time ago #like them as young trainers that one #anyway of course i choose to do something sad with this one hehe #emmet sitting all alone in his apartment looking through old photo albums ;-;#gettin' tear stains all over the pages

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fattylime · 10 months

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screencap redraws <33

5x09 | 3x05 | 2x03 | 5x06

#i've been working on these for agessss #i know i wanted to do multiple and i'm insane so i did 4 #my favorite one is the lalo one ofc >:)#digital art #procreate #illustration #fanart #better call saul #better call saul fanart #breaking bad #breaking bad fanart #screencap redraw #kim wexler #lalo salamanca #jesse pinkman #gustavo fring #walter white #i picked all dark scenes because i hate myself <33333 #lime made art

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chiricat · 8 months

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(don’t) hold back

#souyo #yu narukami #souji seta #yosuke hanamura #p4 #persona 4 #cat’s art #persona #i did like. ten different lighting drafts for this one aough #internal monologue for this one was like ‘i HAVE to push myself harder i HAVE TO PUT MYSELF OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE’#always in fear of falling back on what’s easy for me and never learning because of that #every so often i’m like… have i even improved at all? have i even been trying #very cool thoughts to have. not #yearly cat struggle of ‘wow my art hasnt changed at all and everyone can tell and i look like a joke’#enough moping. ENJOY THE SOUYO THEY MAKE ME CRAZY

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iaxsl · 4 months

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like you're telling me that dragon actually does care about luffy and would watch him whenever he passed by????? and the reason why he left luffy is so that he doesn't get caught up in his fights or be used as a weakness against dragon?????? LUFFY GREW UP WITHOUT A FATHER BECAUSE DRAGON DIDN'T WANT TO PUT HIS ONLY SON IN DANGER????

#shut up bc i just made myself cry right now #like i had no feelings for dragon before this i just thought he was a deadbeat dad like all the others #BUT YOU'RE TELLING ME HE DID IT ON PURPOSE TO PROTECT LUFFY???#im probably reading into this too much #im feeling too much today after this last chapter #one piece spoilers #one piece 1101 #op spoilers #monkey d luffy #monkey d dragon #luffy #dragon #oda when i catch you oda i swear #one piece

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chloecherrysip · 11 months

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