ok is it just me or does Adrien Agreste feel suicidal to me? LIke I feel like if they made mlb into a teen/young adult anime he would totally be the suicidal depressed kid of the show. Especially as cat noir, He attempts suicide multiple times and there is visible sadness in him due to his fathers psychological and everyone’s neglet for his feelings due to the fact that he is always the one who tries to seem happy all the time and avoids spewing his problems on everyone else. Out of everyone in the show adrien is definitely the teen suffering from the worst depression, and I feel like his character has attempted suicide multiple times off screen based off of the way his character behaves throughout the whole series.

being in a constant state of distress where anything can trigger it is so hard. i can get distressed at the simplest of things, but i’ll get blamed for ✨being distressed✨

I keep having this moment and it feels so light and airy and special. It feels like a sigh of relief, like that moment when you lay down in bed after a long day and feel your muscles exhale. Last year, on my way home for Christmas, I was begging my parents to get me help because I felt so suicidal and burdened with depression. This year, after a suicide attempt and long recovery, I finally feel happy. I don’t know when and I don’t know how, but at some point, lightness slipped back into my mind and made its home there. I can’t help but be brought to tears at the beauty of it all. I’m still here. I’m still here. Against my will. I fought hard to leave and some part of me saved me. Something in me kept me alive and brought me to this moment. To this joy. To this peace. I am grateful for that now, though there was a point in my life where I wouldn’t have been. It is truly a miracle that I survived and I feel that in every molecule of my body.

Am I crazy or is it kinda stupid that antidepressants are considered addictive? They're addictive in the sense that "the body is trying very hard to kill the patient and these make it more difficult for it to". Are cancer patients addicted to thier chemo pills?

I don't want to live in this reality anymore. Put a fluffy blanket over me and let me be in my dreams.

To all depressed and suicidal black people:

As one myself who struggles every single day and feels like I’m always being ignored and treated like some kind of “disease” by society, I see you, I hear you, I acknowledge you.

It may seem like nobody else is listening, that nobody cares, but I want you to know that I care, and I refuse to be quiet. Nobody deserves to be neglected. NOBODY.

Your mental health matters. You matter. You are black and mentally ill and you matter. Always.

dazai moodboard

I feel alone today...

I don't feel like I'm in a good place I feel hated by everyone...

Wish they could end me....

Let this end of me

I will always acknowledge depressed and suicidal black people cause nobody else wants to. And as one myself, I see you and I hear you.

why is it so difficult to get help for mental illness?

Drew this at work it’s been a tough week.

i'm in that 1 am questioning everything about my life mood

It's kind of surreal when you realize no one around feels everything as deeply as you do. No one cares as deeply either. No on understands because to them, I don't matter enough for them to even try and yet my love never wavers. Even when I'm hurt, I forgive. Even when I am left alone at my darkest moments, I am still still there when they need me. I don't need to question my worth or how much I am loved, it's obvious from their words and actions. I have done so many hard things by myself, things I shouldn't have had to do by myself and some still have the nerve to call me weak? Well that I will not answer to, you can insult me and call me crazy or whatever else but don't you dare call me weak.

Long distance love is so frustrating most of the times cause you can't just come over to each other to give them a hug and some kisses if they're not feeling good. And you can't receive them either. So you can only rely on texts and calls. And the feeling of desperately needing a hug from the person you love the most will just break your heart in bits and pieces. And you never realised before how badly you can physically miss a person. And yes you will get stronger through it... But there are times where you don't feel certain of this at all and where it's such a battle to get through this until you see each other again.

A reminder to depressed and suicidal black people:

It is okay to still be positive, and to encourage positivity, even if racists try their damndest to make you feel miserable and regretful for that.

It is okay to spread kindness even when racists hate you for existing. That’s their problem. Not yours.

It is okay to still find happiness even when the world tries to take that away from you. Snatch it back and hold onto it with all your might.

It is okay to still find contentment and hope and joy in small things, such as flowers, little bugs, leaves, the soft golden rays of the morning sun, the little dew drops on flowers and leaves as they wake up to another day, and dogs walking by, even if you feel like giving up. Even if you feel like this is the last straw.

It is okay. You are allowed to feel happy and content. You are allowed to be kind. It is right. It is rebellion. It is important. Many people will still hate you for existing in the “wrong” body but don’t let them keep you from doing what you want to do.

Being black and happy is the most rebellious thing that you can do. So be a rebel.