May include a side of Kummerspeck.

Im having the time of my life it simply does not get better than this

Boyfriend shirt 👕

Seeing all the snow for the first time in daylight has everyone hyped to hit the slopes. Summer snow fun loading...

it’s been real 🫡 im killing myself

I’m going to write it eventually but I’m thinking hard about a takutowa wedding. Towa grew up thinking he just doesn’t deserve good things in his life. He even questions why Taku continues to be with him and if he even deserves someone like Taku that treats him so right. Obviously Towa’s not the showy type and Taku wants Towa to be comfortable more than anything so they didn’t really have a ceremony when they got married, just signed papers and called it a day. But when Rei finds out they never intended to plan a wedding he’s like OH HELL NO and goes all out and while Taku doesn’t mind (he can’t say no to Rei) Towa is still conflicted about it up until the ceremony and he just blurts out about how weird this is all making him feel. Like him being dressed up all fancy and their friends doing all this for them when he doesn’t think he deserves it, and Taku just kisses Towa to ease his worries and tells him “you deserve the world, and I’m gonna do my best to give it to you.”

Taku making Towa feel seen, anchoring him when his thoughts are being too much, telling him he looks beautiful right now. He tells Towa not to look at anyone else and only him and to pretend they’re the only ones that exist at this moment. Man Towa just can’t help but fall in love with this man even more.

Taku is sure a dream come true.

love waking up every morning, logging onto tumblr dot com and discovering what emotional damage rote fandom will be causing me today

dnd this last weekend was intense af!

shoutout to the paladin pulling a clutch move to juice up the goblin with god powers and giving him a power trip 2 seconds after he got brought back from death saving zone

"Dr. Osamu just realized that senior homes are gonna look really weird when he's old enough to be in one."

"Like.. he's absolutely certain that once he reaches that point, there's going to be someone saying something like 'Oatmeal? more like GOATmeal' and Dr. Osamu is going to accept that statement without a second thought and his children are going to think he's insane for doing it."

to be quite honest i'm not entirely over having my teenage body scrutinized and deemed overly scandalous and inappropriate at various times by insane staff and faculty in evangelical high school for existing in leggings or a dress. just things i'm thinking upon and getting enraged over this nye. imagine having a normal body image

Thank you for being an amazing part of Zedweek!!

aw, thank you so much! it was a pleasure to participate in, and i needed to add a bit more zed to my ao3 profile. everyone else was fantabulous too!!

praying i can avoid losing my mind entirely by the time next thursday rolls around because i will talk to ppl outside this house finally on thursday and. i am . feeling the effects of being isolated. pretty hard. like there is mold growing in my brain i swear to fucking god

ough ough ough headache need food need water augh

well... i just bought a copy of folklore: the long pond sessions from rough trade uk

[ knowing ] sender has been holding receiver's hand all this time without realizing it and hurries to let go [TDMG? Cuz she got lost in the crowd earlier? 👀]

THE ROMANCE OF HANDS & TOUCH | Still Accepting?

Another press party came and went. Yasuo had always found them somewhat boring, but with each press party came an afterparty that made them worth it. The pent house the brand had rented out was packed to the brim with people he hadn't particularlly cared to get to know, let alone feign interest for. Instead he stuck near his bandmates with his drink in hand.

Qiyana had paired away with him as each of them had begun to find their own trouble to get into-- Ekko for one spared no time to do so. And at first, the DJ was simply content judging other guests alongside Qiqi, a past time the two indulged in funnily enough. It is then when someone with a obnoxious outfit had crossed their path resulting in a look exchanged between the two of them. It tears a strained noise from the confines of his chest as Qiyana covers her mouth to stifle her own giggles.

They keep at it for a while, point out different things about the outfits people had the gaul to wear here much to their delight. All this before the spot they'd hidden away at began to be overrun by other guests, to which Yasuo suggested they move elsewhere. He's given a sideye as a response before she nods.

It was all the signal he needed before he gets up and begins to weave through the sheer amount of bodies that had crowded them. Yasuo holds his drink high above some of the heads of the guests, god forbid he spill one of his all time favorites. The sudden grip on his freehand though briefly stops him in his tracks. Peering behind him as he watches how Qiyana's fingers intertwined with his as she focused on someone trying to speak with her as she walked past. He leaves it. Tries to see how long it'll take for her to notice what she was doing.

It's funny to him just how long she stays clung to his arm, even after they'd found a new spot to gossip at. Truly it isn't until he points out their intertwined hands that she finally realizes. Just as quick as she clung to him she yanked her hand back, her cheeks blooming a dusty red.

"You didn't like it?" He doesn't specify, but it's unsaid in the way he skirts the mention of it playfully. "...We should do that more."

Yasuo gives her a knowing look as he knocks back the last of his drink, smirking at her as the burn aches in his throat.

This might be my most Controversial post and if you're someone who's genuinely rooting for tom and greg to have their happily ever after in canon then you might not want to read past this point. Just to be perfectly clear I do love tomgreg in both their canon and fanon forms and absolutely no shade to the unironic requited tomgreg truthers, you're the backbone of this fandom and I love your work etc. But. I'm still skeptical of an actual romantic relationship going canon and even more cynical about it actually ending well so, uh. Dead Dove Do Not Eat and all that

I think that Tom being unable to make a really definitive bold choice is intimately related to why I think canonical tomgreg would end in acrimonious divorce (at least with how the characters are at the end of season 3… obviously character development is real and could hypothetically shift the equation). Tom is the literal human embodiment of that fable about the kid who reaches into the cookie jar and gets a huge handful of cookies but then his hand get stuck and he can’t pull it out and he starts crying until someone explains to him that if he lets go all but one he’ll be able to get it out. Except he’s never realized that last part and he’s so afraid of ending up with no cookies at all that he can’t let them go and instead crushes them into dust and tries to eat the crumbs and goes “this is what I wanted actually. This is fine. This is what normal well-adjusted people do and I am Happy.”

It’s deeply rooted in fear and that’s because Tom’s other fatal flaw is being a little bit of a coward. I say this with utmost affection but he’s always hedging his bets and trying to make the safest choice. This is not always a bad thing, but sometimes you do have to make the bold choice just to learn things about yourself. (Or simply because it's the Morally Right Thing To Do but uh. We don't need to get into that right now re: Tom). You have to make a choice and sacrifice something in the process and that’s how you learn what will make you happy and what won’t. Except Tom is so afraid of being unhappy and making the wrong choice that he can never let himself do that, and that’s why he doesn’t really know who he is and what he wants and instead lets himself be defined by societal images of wealth and privilege. He likes expensive things because that’s what he’s supposed to like. He wants to be CEO because that’s what he’s supposed to want. I think if he actually became CEO he would be miserable, in part because of what he’d need to sacrifice to get there but also because being CEO means being bold and taking risks and I think that’s actually his own personal version of hell.

That’s part of why I’m skeptical of tomgreg going canon because I think leaving Shiv for Greg would be an incredibly bold move and I don’t think Tom’s capable of that. Maybe if his marriage fell apart Tom would go for Greg, but then I think he’d very quickly find himself in a “grass is greener” situation. I don’t think he would really actively choose Greg, internally, so much as stumble into that relationship because Greg is there and Greg is the person he’s closest to, and eventually this would eat away at him. That’s NOT to say Tom wouldn’t have very genuine feelings for Greg, but I think stumbling right from his failed marriage into a relationship with Greg would set the whole thing up to crumble and collapse, especially once the weight of Tom’s emotional baggage sets in. There’s going to be a part of him asking himself “do I really love Greg or was he just convenient,” and rather than making the decision to really commit to Greg and see if the relationship can work he’ll start developing an emotional affair with someone else without even realizing what he's doing, because the problem with really making the decision to try and commit to Greg wholeheartedly is what if it ends up being Shiv all over again? What if he decides to be vulnerable with Greg and open up to him and give Greg his emotional fidelity and Greg ends up letting him down?

And because he's incapable of having an emotionally honest conversation he just starts tallying everything Greg does in some mental T-chart of "he loves me/he loves me not". Meanwhile, I do think Greg would be largely taken in, at least initially, by the idea that Tom threw everything away for him and when he realizes that Tom's marriage to Shiv was going to crumble into dust on its own merits anyway he's going to start feeling like a consolation prize and start pulling away and that's going to make the whole situation worse. When the relationship finally breaks down it will be acrimonious because both of them are going to feel upset and betrayed and misled. And that doesn't even begin to factor in Tom's uglier possessive and abusive tendencies and the pressure that remaining at Waystar would put on the relationship and whatever unresolved issues Greg still has around his gay homewrecking dad. Theoretically, they could go to therapy and start working through this shit and improve as people and make it work but tbh I think that they're far more likely to cannibalize each other first and not in a romantic way.

I would love to see it though. I really would. It would be an absolute nightmare but it would be amazing television and I would eat that shit up. Jesse Armstrong are you listening to me. Jesse Armstrong answer my calls