#cyggie ramble
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I gotta stop almost fuckin dying in November — this is two years in a goddamn row now. Almost the exact same way, too:
(scary medical shit under the cut. Near death close call, allergic reaction)
So last night during dinner, I found a hunk of cashew (not supposed to be there) in my smoked tomato truffle jam. I could tell I was in danger because I've officially been able to notice something (and I pray no one else deals with that!) that goes with danger level allergen exposure:
The single "BAH-BAM" of a heartbeat in my ears, way too loud, way too slow, followed by the immediate temporary disabling of my left side.
Until I looked down at my empty, idle forearm and saw the freaky shit going on there, the abnormal ripple in the muscle, and veins that got so itchy inside I could see them...moving around, shifting.
Then the chest punch hit me and we both remembered we're supposed to DO something.
It was absolutely a close call: we couldn't find the epipen. But it was a MUCH slower reaction than the juniper, which gave my husband a chance to think clearer than I could at the time — throat open, sinuses closing, head fading — and tossed me three Claritin (chewed them) followed immediately by three Vistaril, because you gotta get the immediate reaction AND anything possible later.
Once again my husband's fast thinking kept me on this planet. The screamy bus was fast enough, but the ER goes "well we see people in order of severity" and I sat idle in the waiting room for like 4 hours only to find out that even if they HAD seen me sooner even with the steroids they'd only do a 6 hour monitor. That's all.
We live an hour away and decided to do the monitor part at home. I'm on bedrest today, and I'm not about to argue with that today. I remember enough of last November. We got home round 1 AM.
The good news is I'm awake and alive.
The BAD news is ✨ literally everything hurts ✨ right now and I'm tired.
And until we read Every Label in the house again I'm not supposed to touch the pantry. Which right now is fine by me. I'm not planning on dying for the ultimate grilled PBJCB (peanut butter and jelly with cheese and bacon) sandwich today.
#cyggie ramble#tw: medical#tw: hospital#tw: anaphylaxis experience#I am disturbed by the fact that I think I've now used that last tag twice
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Welcome! Call me Cygnette, or just Cyg (Cyggie, if you’re feeling cheeky).
I’m currently developing my first game COVENANT, an urban fantasy horror romance game about resurrection, eldritch deities, and kissing demons. It will be an interactive fiction otome with visual elements, and I’m planning on releasing episodically. Release date is... pending. :)
Lots of info on the game & endless rambles coming soon... In the meantime, stay safe and take care out there. ✦
#upcoming game#interactive fiction#visual novel#otome#indie otome#horror game#indie horror game#romance game#covenant visual novel#covenant#cygnette
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Anyways Juneteenth is coming up
If you want to do something for a Black person but don't know where to start, I got an infected tooth and anything that'll help me get pain management until the 11th of July will help
$CyggieStardust1 (Cash app)
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Ok so like right now, I would kill for one of these. The lymphitis has gotten to the point where I can feel the nodes under my tongue from inside my mouth. It kinda feels like I'm trying to hold a kidney bean under either side of my tongue. It's going to take frequent enough massaging to keep just the ones in my neck/head under control that my EDS is gonna be hell to deal with.
If I could manage to overnight this thing, I'll suffer a lot less this cold-dark season.
If you can help a little on it, send a little to my cashapp so I can suffer a little bit less this winter.
... if I'm being honest I could use a little help in general. I've actually been technically terminated while I'm healing from this, so we're a one-income house right now. We're McStrugglin right now. I still have to do physical therapy for my ankle, recover from this case of pneumonia, AND get reinstated at my job—all my bosses raised hell at corporate about their call there—but even when I do, I'm going to have to go back to bare part time.
So basically what I'm saying is every little bit helps.
https://cash.app/$CyggieStardust1
Thank you, for whatever you can do.
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I've taken my meds early in the hopes that they knock me out before I have another night of pain so unbearable that I basically can't do anything but cry because of it.
This is the end of my antibiotics, and according to my doctor's office I can't be seen about the lymphitis until something else comes with it—otherwise I'm on my own with Advil.
I can't let anything touch my face.
We're still in trouble, financially speaking. We were gonna retool my resume in search for a WFH job, but y'all, today a one-hour conversation drained me so bad and made me spike a fever so hard that i had to tap out of the rest of my day.
I absolutely could not work in my condition for an entire shift right now, let alone 5 days a week.
The struggle is realer than it has been since I lost my old apartment.
We can't go through that again.
My fiance is working overtime but it's a 2 income rent on 1 income until we can actually talk to management.
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I also included my code today, in case anybody uses those instead of the links.
Now I gotta get off this screen and lay down, before I hurt myself.
Thanks for reading, y'all. Boost up, if you see it.
Every little bit helps.
#cyggie ramble#cyggie in a pickle#tw illness (physical)#I spiked back up prepping this post so I'm calling it a night
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It's simple facts that my ESA is a dumbass. But he doesn't need brains to do his job today. 🥲
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Health update under the cut.
★★★
Anyways I was looking up a test result and I didn't know if I understood what was happening right...so I committed the sin of asking Bing's ChatGPT to fuckin simplify the answer like I'm five.
The operation concluded, and I double checked the results, and I knew I'd found the source of my malaise:
My liver is wonky again. And I definitely need to see my gastro on principle because of the one number—for urinobilogen—that is flirting with zero and should not be. It should be a number that exists.
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Was having a bad evening when I found out one specific album by one of my favorite artists wasn't on Spotify anymore (it was greyed out)
Recovered when I realized that I had an ANCIENT copy from when I first downloaded it ten something or more years ago living in my YT music library from back when you could upload your own entire damn library
Brain has been reset
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Fuckin fuck me a bill came out when I didn't have the money for it and now I'm overdrafted ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
Even ten bucks would help so I don't wake up to a -40 balance
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I just linked Writing With Color and bounced 😅
Ain't nobody got time for that.
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Actually washed my hair. It was sorely needed after several days physical exhaustion and flashback sweat.
Problem is, ever since my anaphylaxis and last COVID run, it's so physically taxing that I need to sleep after ...which is exactly my plan.
But I do got ambient noise to simulate sleeping on the closed patio in the rain, so that's nice.
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Don't mind me, just cleaning up listening to girl band K-pop and imagining my characters finally fuckin confessing to each other
The k-pop:
Side note anyone else get Orihime×Hikoboshi vibes here or am I nuts
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While I'm nightblogging, @buzzfeed ?
Who hosts your images? I tried to read a throwback ('13) article about nightblogging and all the images are unavailable now, making the list useless, and uninformative, and joyless?
It's this crapola all the way down the article.
You take yourselves to be journalists, but didn't make sure that the content of your article would be evergreen and not just damn vanish? If y'all are keeping older articles/listicles available to read in the future, doesn't it make sense to make sure the context of the content stays put?
You didn't do it here and what it's left you with is basically a blank Word document.
I came here so I could nightblog an article about nightblogging, for the newbie influx that is undoubtedly at this point running into its first instances of nightblogging, and what I wound up doing was nightblogging about about an article that was AT ONE POINT about nightblogging (and I'm going to pause to say here that after that sentence "nightblogging" is starting to look like a fake word) but is now about nothing but dashed expectations.
On that note, listen up newcomers, here's Urban Dictionay's quick and dirty definition:
... a time when people will ‘blog strange things, sometimes deep yet completely messed up, sometimes utterly meaningless, sometimes gifs of stupid things, and sometimes bloggers will even go as far as to question the existence of humanity in those few strange hours’.They also tend to get profound in ways that even the most messed up human could not imagine.
It gets really weird. Super surreal. Like, Salvador Dali if he were a Millennial/Gen-Z kid, who was also at least a 6 on the baked scale. (10 is where it gets really weird though.) They'll either make no sense, or make a freakish amount of sense when you stop to think about them.
A good nightblog post will usually have you going "Wait wtf? No seriously I get it but wtaf?"
A good nightblog post will live quietly in your head for a bit and show up in your memory later to fuck you up all over again.
If you're the one making the nightblog, it'll hit like watching someone split a forbidden corn dog cattail open—going from zero to "BOOM" (well really more like "kerpliffff") in .60 seconds into the unmistakable urge to inflict your new blurse upon the world.
Speaking of which, nightblogging isn't always blursed? but it's pretty damn common. Be prepared to say "Oh no" a lot.
Lastly, somehow most nightblogging withstands the test of time...
Unlike this article.
(Fun fact—those images are two DIFFERENT dead articles!)
Get it together already!
#cyggie ramble#nightblogging#salt water taffy hour#fyi is my nightblogging tag#tutorial aside I'm dead serious#journalists and journalism companies have a responsibility to uphold where it comes to actually keeping its content alive#and this right here was one big fail
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Oh gods
3 hour rabbit hole trying to research rare blood types for a project I'm trying to start
So much dry data
Exhausted
Too tired to put on my sleeping oils
Just gonna drop dead here
oyasumi
#cyggie ramble#writing about writing#if you wanna suffer with me look up blood type u negative#enjoy the almost no research!
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Forgot my password
Logged into my account and discover porn bots on my new follows
It's time for the yearly Block Party
... in the morning, after sleeping and finishing this chapter of Touhou.
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Aaaaand on top of that I ate the new pizza combos?
Unimaginably delicious!
Full of
Juniper
In other news I have consumed all the antihistamines.
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