I honestly don’t know why I don’t come to study here more often?

hey why did bill’s ex-wife move to clivesdale? literally no one from hatchetfield would do that. people die and go missing all the time and they refuse to leave. and if they do they don’t move to fucking clivesdale

i need a griddlehark roadtrip type au but they would kill each other chapter one i fear

I am currently in bed realizing if I have dyed my hair pink I would have Zarya's hair from Overwatch

Now I am even more tempted to color my hair pink, Purple or Seafoam green(Also maybe go to the gym)

i was talking to my therapist last week about how i'm kinda excited but also equally apprehensive about starting grad school this fall because yes, i so so desperately needed a gap year otherwise i think i literally would have killed myself and/or had a breakdown big enough to land me in the hospital, and even beyond that i just needed to figure out a more concrete plan of what i'm going to do with my life in general -- while all of that is true, and i'm glad i took the gap year for it, i'm also apprehensive because i genuinely feel like an entirely different person than i was even at this exact point in time last year, nevermind anything earlier than that. it's only been a single year of me being out of school but my life has changed so dramatically, mostly for the better, and my whole personality has flipped on its head, it's just going to be so fucking weird going back to the same school, the same campus, potentially seeing my old friends around. augh

As a young sapphic who's still in high school and coming into her identity, it gives me chills sometimes when my mom laughs and talks of a possible near future where she hopes to marry me to a boy(and goes on to talk of how he must be from the same community and I should be glad I'm not marrying my cousin). It makes me wanna work harder and get a scholarship to go abroad as far as I can. Any advice or hope?

Hey anon, first of all, thank you so much for sharing, and know that you're not the only one who feels this way.

This is a bit anecdotal but let me tell you a story of how, literally two days ago, I went to this local south asian pride event. In hindsight, there weren't a lot of people there. Maybe upwards to about 80 to 100 people? However, when I arrived, I was overwhelmed by the sheer amount of queer desi people just present. And I'm talking trans people, genderqueers, asexuals, people in poly relationships, and people of all genders in lehengas and kurtas and rainbow saris. There were people out to their parents and even more not out, preferring to live freely and safely.

Even as a queer person myself, I could not comprehend how many people there were like me and different from me. And I am fortunate to live in a very tolerant country. I remember saying out loud "Oh my god there are so many people here," and someone replying "Yeah, we exist outside of the screen too." I think it occurred to me then that maybe it's not a matter of me being alone, but me choosing to be because I'm always overwhelmed, shy, or terrified of the consequences of not meeting expectations.

Basically, anon, I'm trying to say that there is always hope. And often, community is much closer to you than you think. There are many of us living in similar circumstances. However, just like you, we fight in our own little ways. Some of us push back marriage to "focus on our careers", some might indoctrinate their parents in tiny ways until they are a little more tolerant than before, and others straight up come out after they have established themselves independently (these people are braver than any soldier to me). Either way, no matter the circumstance, we are always fighting.

Study hard, and go to a college far away. Or study hard and go to a college close by. Stay with your parents or don't stay with them. Get a job, or don't. Either way one day you will be an adult and you will find that community, and you will learn how to fight even harder than before.

AAAA college applications AAAA college entrance exams AAAAAA COLLEGE AAAAAAAAAA IM NOT READY FOR COLLEGE AAAAUUUUUUUUGHHHHGGGGGGG

getting to a point where everything on my phone feels like a weight around my ankles and i'm fantasizing about ditching social media but if i don't use tumblr every single day i die so :/

Managed to skirt through a year and a half of college without any classes before noon. The universe decided to smite me with two 9am’s.

And then a FIVE HOUR GAP BETWEEN CLASSES ON THURSDAYS

I commute college and as a directionally challenged person I figured something out this semester that my mutuals with cars may find useful.

When you need to go somewhere urban/that has a parking deck, don’t enter the address of your destination into your GPS. Instead enter the address of the parking deck into your GPS.

That way it takes you to the shortest route to where you have to park instead of the shortest route to get there. Cuz you gotta put your car somewhere before you do anything else.

Cuz let me tell you, if I just enter the address of my school into my GPS it always leads me to an entrance/spot way on the opposite side of campus. So realizing that I could instead use the address of the parking deck itself has been a lifesaver.

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woughh,,,,, busy,,,,,,,,,

i think people should be writing more icemav aus where they arent in the navy

job opportunities in the city but i cannot afford the rent v no job opportunities in my hometown but at least i’d have a roof over my head. life is unbearable

Yay!!!! Thank god tomorrow is a snow day!!! I had spring break for the last 2 weeks and have told everyone I’m too sick to go in lately but it’s just my period + mental health. This officially will mean I haven’t done school in 3 weeks😭 need to get bad to my passionate hardworking gurl era so bad. Advice???

(P.S this semester I only have classes Tuesdays and Thursdays)

epic shit seen at the beach today