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ego-meliorem-esse · 27 days

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Along with the idea that several nations should be older (India, Egypt, china, and even Arthur and all Nordics) I am an avid promoter that the USA and some others should be younger like teens. It would make so much more sense and imagine the kid holding up the power and the older ones unable to do anything BC it's a kid what do you expect??? Remember when *insert nation* broke havoc just because he likes something and was an infant? (America steaming in the background that he's old enough!)

Ill let you cook anon.

And if by some grand evil miracle the nations of today were personified, i think you might be on the right path with this one.

But

I just put these nations (specifically the younger ones like US, CAN, NZ, AUS) in situations where no adult, let alone a teen should be in. The problem for me with making these young nations teens is that i don’t have that retrospective narrative of how things have progressed in their lives. For instance, Alfred was a young teen during the revolution and had different viewpoints and goals and ideas than he does now. He is still young but has a developed enough brain to grasp the reigns of power with confidence. He needed time to learn that, and now that he is a young adult he can understand things he just couldnt when he was a child. Same for Matt. A child who grew up forgotten and called an inconvenience, grew up into a reserved young man with empire/daddy issues who took care of his younger siblings (jack and zee who werent really his siblings), just because he can’t imagine them experiencing what he did as a child. And all of that because he grew up and became a young adult with a story to tell.

I section these lads lives out into seperate parts: the birth, truma times - aka childhood, the Big change (Matt with meeting his brother and living under Arthurs roof and Alfred finding himself in the revolution and enlightenment), Breeching (development of self throughout history), Now and Future. I just really need that distinction of where they were to where they are now. And yes it would make more logical sense if they were teenagers and younger, but its just less fun for me. It doesnt let me tell the stories and narratives i wanna tell. Its kinda limitign i think.

The most simple reason would be it’s just easier and more fun. :))))

#answer didnt need to be long but i am passionate #but you are right #hetalia #ask meli #hws america #hws canada #meli speaks #historical hetalia #my headcanons

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itz-nari · 1 month

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✨️Ranpoe headcannon✨️

🐇✨️Ranpo✨️🐇

Ranpo has body dysphormia and is very insecure about his weight. He is not fat or chunky, but is pudgy with love handles. He basically has a softer body type. This is obviously an affect of how much he snacks and how little activity he has.

He has a habit of comparing his body to others and wishes that he didn't eat so much. He especially compares himself to his boyfriend, Poe. Who has a very slim and muscular body. So early on in their relationship Ranpo never showed his body to Poe and would avoid it at all cost. He felt that if Poe saw how pudgy and imperfect his body is, he wouldn't love him anymore. ( This of course wasn't true, for Poe loved Ranpo no matter what but when it came to his body Ranpo wouldn't think right. )

🦝✨️POE✨️🦝

Poe has severe childhood truma. He came from a family of actors, actresses, and models. And he had very narcissistic parents who only cared about money and making sure that Poe became either a actor or a model. So they neglected him of food, affection, and other essential needs of a growing child. They even thought of him as a dissapointment after he told them that he wanted to write instead of becoming a model or actor. And where even harder on him.

The truma is still with Poe as even now, as an adult eating feels wrong to him unless given permission. So he only eates when he REALLY needs to. And when he does he feels that he immediately needs to walk it off or workout. It's like part of him want to be able to eat and live comfortably but is locked away deep inside of him, while the other more dominant side of him still feeds off the horrible things that his parents would tell him and how horribly his parents treated him.

🐇✨️Conclusion✨️🦝

Poe actually is jealous Ranpo's body and how he eats without a care in the world ( or so he thought ) and praises him for it. And Ranpo even though wishing he had a body more like Poe's; after finding out how Poe practically starves himself makes him eat. And now they both help each other get through how they feel about themselves and their bodies.

I plan on making a fanfic that has Ranpoe fluff and angst and is about them comforting each other. Basically it will feed off of these headcannons.

#bsd ranpo #ranpo edogawa #bsd edgar allan poe #bsd ranpoe #ranpoe #ranpoe fic #bungo stray dogs #bungou gay dogs #fluff #angst #bsd poe

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lizards-can-be-bookmarks · 4 months

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OK, so.

I have rewatched Nope in a quiet room with no interupptions as God (Jordan peele) intended and I have some new opinions on some characters specifically Jupe so buckle up motherfuckers cause this is all I'm going to talk about for quite awhile!

The first time I watched the movie I hated Jupe and thought he was a egotistical moron who doomed himself and everyone he loved for another chance at fame but on the second rewatch I realized that I felt nothing but pity for him.

Jupe was a traumatized child til the very end and was never able to move on from the Gordy's home incident. He had to believe he was chosen or special because if he didn't then that meant he survived unscathed for no reason other then a tablecloth and and good timing and that truly would have broken him more then the truma ever could.

From that point on that was all he was because he could never move past it to the point where he got all the pieces of his personality and brand from before the Gordy incident, because he genuinely did not know how to move away from it, so he just...didn't. He recycled these pre written parts from his past to be his future, the western theme and the over the top cowboy persona, for God's sake the costumes his kids wore were just old camera reels on monkey bodies (a detail I never would have pieced together with scrolling through the nope tag)

The parallels between childhood Jupe looking at Gordy through the tablecloth to adult jupe looking at Jean Jacket was the final moment where I decided he wasn't a character meant to be hated, he's a character meant to be pitited. He has always been a scared kid both outrunning his past and chasing it in this never ending cycle who finally found out that he wasn't chosen or special or magic. He was saved by a table cloth once, but once was all he got.

#nope movie #nope 2022 #jordan peele #oj haywood #emerald haywood #ricky jupe park #angel torres #jean jacket nope

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randomrando767 · 10 months

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Dragon (httyd) au, what dragon everyone rides and how they met.

Luffy- Triple stryke, saved kid Luffy's life and stuck around. Stromcutter, deiced to protect Luffy and his Dragon because otherwise they would die. Light fury, this time Luffy saved her.

Zoro- Rumble horn, had a staring contest. Zoro won.

Sanji- deadly nadder. He spent his early childhood with dragon hunters, left saving the dragon on his way out.

Nami- Skrill, also raised by dragon hunters. Her and the Skrill truma bonded and now will die for one another.

Ussop- death song.

Chopper- razorwhip, it saw Chopper thought that he was cute and started following him.

Robin- death gripper, it's supposed to smart and looks like it's straight from hell.

Brook- Boneknapper, obviously. In this au brook just wears a cartoon skull mask.

Franky- gronckle, he found it with only 3 legs and made him a 4th.

Jimbei- scualdron. Fed it some fish as a child.

Buggy- screaming death, young buggy found a young screaming death in a collapsing cave, grabbed the fucker and ran.

Shanks- timberjack, raised from a young age.

Roger- night fury, saved him and they have been together ever since.

Coby- Luffy's stromcutter, Luffy wanted her to protect him and stromcutter stuck around.

#httyd #one piece #monkey d luffy #shanks one piece #ronoroa zoro #nami one piece #ussop one piece #sanji vinsmoke #franky one piece #nico robin #chopper one piece #buggy one piece #gol d. roger #dragon au #cobylu #kobylu

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mertylmylove · 12 days

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⚠️Okey this may trigger some people. But this why I don't really think Lancelot and Tristan are best buds as everyone else see them as. And other things I wanna say.

When they interact Tristan seems the only one that tries to start a conversation. Because if they were really best buds than wouldnt lancelot also try to work on their relationship? After they meet eachother after 3 years lancelot didn't even bother greeting Tristan at all and got the more important things. Meaning that he wasnt intresserad at all in Tristan.

From childhood they were best friends back than ,but nowdays they had grown apart with time. It is obvious that lancelot prefers Percival and his friends than Tristan. And cares for Percival platoon more than Tristan, it not that he dosent care for Tristan, but just not the same way. It has been proven multiple times in the story that Lancelot is 100% closer to Percy platoon.

And too add to that nobody in the Tristan platoon even likes Lancelot, they just bear with him. Lancelot also seems to bear with Tristan too. But he dosent hate Tristan tho.(Tristan stans don't come at me)

Tristan platoon is absolute infintie trash to be honest, first things first they don't act like friends more like servants to Tristan their leader. Which I personally don't really consider to be a platoon, because isnt a platoon also supposed to also act and be like friends? Because why are they even a platoon in the first place than?

Second being the the characters in the platoon. Isolde personlity only revolves tristan. Thats the truth honey every time she only screen it all about tristan... I don't have a problem with her having a crush on tristan but where is her own personlity?? And her goals/dreams?? Everything dosent have be about tristan🤦🏻‍♀️ Think about yourself for once.Besides she has so much potential both as character and strength vise her powers her powers can be more than it is currently! Or othervise isolde is good character!

Okey to Chion the only that nedds to change about chion is his attiude to others thats all. I KNOW IT FROM HIS TRUMA,SOME OF HIS ACTIONS IS A TRUMA REDOPONSE BUT some things he as done is with purpose. Like attecking percival despite knowing he was one of the four. Chion has lots of potential ! His backstory and power are interesting. He also needs a personlity of his own and a goal/dreams and a lore!

Jade...he was wasted for no reason nakaba why???😭😭 He the only normal one tbh ,he has some brain..and thinks before acting. People say he is a copy of tristan but thats bullshit! Jade needs a story of his own,goals/dreams, lore, power up! Such a wasted character, really hope he comes back...😭😭😥 Everyone misses you!

There so many things the Tristan platoon needs to work on to become better! So many things they are missing as platoon too! Compared to the percy platoon.

It is a good thing that Tristan isnt the main character. The story wouldnt had been the same ,and it would had follwed up with the thing of the former mcs son has become the new mc in theirown story..which is boringggg....glad nakaba deside to wake up one day and say lets make a new main character!

#seven deadly sins #four knights of the apocalypse #4koa #Lancelot and Tristan #Best friends #Thoughts/opinion #Mertylmylove talks #rant post #idc what anyone says

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gxdsetmxnsters · 2 years

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I don’t care if I get hate for this but I am SICK and tired of “endogenic systems” making a joke out of a serious disorder.

OSDDID is NOT just another quirky identity label just because it has the word “identity” on it. It is NOT a thing you “get to try out” or “choose to have”. It’s a fucking TRAUMA DISORDER and people need to start acting like it is instead of some fucking LARP game.

“Sysmed” is a transphobic term because it stems from Transmed. If people can’t see the blatant OBVIOUSNESS of where the term came from then they’re fucking stupid. You’re adequating being transgender to a fucking mental disorder. How fucked up is that? Not to mention that, AGAIN, such terms as “cisOSDDID” and “transOSDDID” ARE NOT REAL, ARE NOT POSSIBLE, AND YOU’RE BEING FUCKING GROSS FOR USING SUCH TERMINOLOGY AND SAYING THAT HAVING OSDDID, A DISORDER FORMED DUE TO REPEATED CHILDHOOD ABUSE AND TRUMA, IS JUST LIKE BEING TRANSGENDER OR ANY OTHER LGBTQ+ IDENTITY.

If you’re going to pick and use “system” labels the same way you pick and use LGBTQ+ labels then you seriously need to realize what you’re doing is horrendous and making a joke out of a serious mental illness and a community of people who’ve suffered enough. The only way you can be a system is by having OSDDID. End of story.

P.S. If you are endo, support endos, believe that endos don’t cause harm to REAL systems, &c., get the FUCK off my blog.

#enigmatic fear oc #syscourse #system discourse #anti endo #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder

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lizzie223 · 1 year

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Okay so cause I needed to be happy I watched destiel on crack or smth.

But there is a scene in season 9 when cas is human. And after some events(I do not remember what events) Cas was back in the bunker with Sam and Dean. Dean wanted Cas to stay but Gadreel in Sams body said that if Cas stays Gadreel will leave with Sams vessel. So Dean goes to Cas to tell him to leave. For better understanding here's how it went:

D:"Cas can we... uh.. talk?"

C:"Of course, Dean you know I always appreciate our talks, our time together."

Afterwards Dean kicks Cas out, but now not about that. It's conon that Cas and Dean have talks and do spend time together.

I'm purely just wondering could it mean that Cas is one of the VERY few who got to hear about Dean's childhood and truma J*hn and Mary gave him? And if that so is it possible that Cas was one of the first if not the only one who got to hear Dean's confusion about his sexuality?

I won't even start on time they spend together.

#dean winchester #spn #headcanon #bi dean #castiel #castiel novak #deastiel #deancas #spn season 9 #gadreel #sammy winchester #cw supernatural #destiel fluff

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old-lorarri · 7 months

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─ paper rings . . . ❨ send me a description of yourself + a fandom and gender preference, and i’ll ship you with a character. ❩

I'm really chatty, I enjoy learning languages, I enjoy history, love f1 with my soul and being, I love planes, very energetic, terrible childhood and parents

Formula 1, female

LEWIS HAMILTON

he loves just listening to you talk

your voice is very soothing for him

will learn/quiz you on languages

both of you explore you root and heritage

the two of you adore f1 with everything in your heart

mile highclub...

the two of you bring out the chaotic in each other

lewis def helps in healing some of your truma

your safe with him :)

#꒰ ִ ֺ ⊹ 3k celly ⊹ ֺ ִ ꒱

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jess67123 · 7 months

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Fun Facts about Eric and Eleanor! Also ( warning⚠ sad truma/ homophobic ⚠️)

Eric fun facts

He's mix (Mexican/Japanese) he knows his Spanish, but not Japanese, he does not know his language on Japanese his kind and of course he speak English and he does understand about Spanish and English, but not well in Japanese.

His favorite food is fish nuggets that was his childhood food but he doesn't like eating chicken cause his opinion was fish nugget was better than chicken.

He likes being called his nickname Kitty boy pretty boy and handsome cause he loves the way himself being positive or pretty/handsome.

He's transgender female to male and also bisexual.

The silly thing is that he likes to do, catnip but not really much, but he doesn't quit, but his sister Eleanor, does make him quit doing it.

Funny thing is that he's fear of cucumbers cause that was his worst childhood fear that when he was younger, he was afraid the cucumber was behind on his back him.

He really dislike when everybody are some random people/puppets call him a girl or looks like a girl cause it made him more mad that he doesn't like it when ever his parents called him precious little girl and stuff like that to his past.

Eleanor fun facts

She's mixed (Mexican/Japanese) she knows her own language Japanese very well, her language of Spanish, she tried her best to speak it, but she could be considered be " no Sabo kid". She does understand Spanish very well, but she doesn't know how to speak it very well in her own kind and she quite not well much speaking English, but she does understand a bit.

Her favorite food was cookies/treats but a cat I like she likes any cookies or any treats that she enjoys it.

She likes to be called her nickname cutie pie Kitty and honey pie that's why she likes being called by that cause the nickname of Kitty was howdy and cutie pie was from Barnaby.

She's transgender male to female and also pansexual.

Cute facts that Eleanor likes pet's and pats when someone do it for her and she likes all her attention that how cute she is and a sweetheart.

The sad fact that She doesn't like haircuts cause of her trama past when she's was younger kid, she really likes it longer hair to look pretty her self, but her own mother doesn't let Eleanor to leave it longer, so mother wanted her cut it like a boy a like. afterwards she began to cry that she misses her long hair that she really wishes to be so pretty again without long hair.

She doesn't want to left alone by herself her own adult self she needed her brother to be her side to be promised to stick together, that's what siblings do and twins.

She's scared of big dogs like Barnaby she could be so nervous around him, but sometimes she was hides from him or sometimes she get me a little brave stood up to barnby but Barnaby likes to see her but sometimes Barnaby can get sad sometimes that he's big and scary but he ain't thought.

Handwriting

Ok, here's the silly things about the neighborhood and also Eleanor and Eric. Of course, they have their own handwriting for Eric, he kind of have a messy handwriting for Eleanor she tried her best to do cursive quite well at it.

Last name

They have last names like Claws it's pretty unique last name but cat a like.

Their Favorite colors

Eleanor's favorite color is coral it's our favorite color that she likes pink.

Eric favorite color is aqua color blue I guess but he likes it.

What does Eric think about the neighborhood?

Wally- whenever he makes Wally the first time, he can be a little bit of tease of Wally's height and Wally can be a little offended by Eric but it seems like these two are like a friend enemies.

Barnaby- Eric is okay with Barnaby he doesn't mind at all, but he likes his jokes to make him cracked up. And yes he knows that his sister Eleanor is scared of big dogs he always protects her from it and tells her "it's ok to be scared around Barnaby, just try not to be nervous or scared around him".

Eddie- sometimes Eric get excited from the package that Eddie has it, and they both like to chat together, like friends do, and at the end it's funny, that Eddie, ask Eric "what is inside the box"?and Eric said, "wee- I mean food" and smiles at him friendly".

Julie- Eric is best friend with Julie and yes, Eric likes board games with Julie and he always wins on any board games that he plays with great money, that he likes to do whenever Julie gets crazy.

Frank- when Eric met Frank, the first time Eric think that Frank is weird and afterwards he began to change his mind that Frank and weird at all cause Eric likes to catch bugs and getting distracted sometimes that he always help for Frank to collect some bugs for him.

Poppy-whenever Eric saw poppy, he always get a crush on her so bad, but until the end, that poppy told him that she's a lesbian, but some times he gets sad and understanding, and after that, she said and also "im trans" and Eric gets excited said, "oh my gosh me too!" and they become best friends.

Sally- Eric is alright with Sally whenever she needs him to be performed and all that for her help or anything like advice or anything like a to a friend.

Howdy- sometimes Eric goes to howdy does a Bodega and he likes getting free stuff from howdy, howdy likes cats whenever they're cute, but Eric doesn't like being cute enough, so he has no choice to get paid for howdy ( very canon CATpiller).

What does Eleanor think about the neighborhood?

Wally- Eleanor likes to hang out with Wally very much, much often that she always likes his interest, and he likes her interest to as well that she doesn't know that Wally has a crush on her.

Barnaby- for Barnaby he won't bite her or anything like that, he's just want to be friendly with Eleanor she does like to chat with barnaby be much so often, but sometimes she gets so nervous around him, Barnaby doesn't mind at all but he thinks it's cute.

Eddie- she always be so friendly with the mailman and she doesn't mind that Eddie and Frank are a good couple together but she think it's adorable.

Julie- Eleanor loves her best friend Julie, they both are amazing girls to hang out, but however, Julie has a crush on her, but its hard to like to ask her out, but even though Eleanor doesn't have interest with Julie as an couple, she's always remind of her best friend.

Frank- she likes to hang out with Frank and visit Frank to having a tea party, and sometimes Eleanor gets so many questions to Frank that Howdy, Wally, and Barnaby that she always get cute compliments of her what that meant that Frank explains to her that they trying to explain to her that what that meant is flirting, and she was like, "Oh I didn't know"? That's what Frank is for helping her out her to understanding English what they're saying and what they're talking about.

Poppy- she always visited her every single day to bake cookies together that she likes any cookies that she likes with poppy.

Sally- for Sally she didn't know that Eleanor is a amazing artist, singer, Japanese, and sometimes a bit of Spanish, of her albums. Eleanor has a love interest with Sally of her performance and the way Sally likes her songs and the way Sally loves Eleanor singing.

Howdy- whenever Eleanor meets howdy for the first time going inside the Bodega. Howdy has a love interest with Eleanor he really thinks that Eleanor is super adorable cat in the world, but for Eleanor she kinda like howdy as a friend the way he was sweet of her it's not because of for struggling her English but sometimes she does understand well a bit the way howdy was talking with Eleanor and she's always listens with howdys conversation.

#welcome home fandom #welcome home #welcome home oc #wally darling #barnaby b beagle #eddie dear #julie joyful #frank frankly #poppy partridge #sally starlet #howdy pillar #welcome home puppet show #welcome home original character #EricClaws #EleanorClaws

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ramonag-if · 1 year

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Heya! Firstly absolutely LOVED the update and can't wait for future ones ❤️

Now let's get into this : starting with mother dearest 👀 , at first like most all I wanted was to find out what happend to her - you know the childhood truma of losing your mom and all However , upon being found I'm taken aback by how she is basically like " oh , hey I have a family and they need me -so bye " I mean feel some guilt or something ( I live for angst and loved every bit of this part . Thank you 😊)

Next : the romances are super sweet !!! Love the nickname our little prince gave us 😍 and sir knight is just to die for - especially when he starts getting all flustered .

My question though is if we get to meet our childhood friend in the future ( oh and did he only think of us as a friend or could there have been something there ) ?

Also if we do get to meet, how would the RO's react if they see us being all affectionate towards him ( like hugging and such ) or finding out that we had a crush on him 🤔

Sorry for the long ask 😅 stay hydrated and happy writing ✍️ I'm looking forward to playing again soon 🤗

Thank you so much for playing! I'm really glad you enjoyed the chapter 💖

The angst was quite fun to write so it's good to know you're enjoying every moment of Salyra's scenes 👀

I'm so happy you're enjoying the romance scenes 💖😋 Each RO will give the MC their own nickname, so stay tuned.

Dena will show up in Part 3 and depending on your childhood choices regarding their scene, they would have reciprocated the MC's crush towards them.

The other ROs will react a little, but not to the point where they're openly hostile/jealous 😊

Thank you again for your support 🌼

#crown of exile #answered asks #chapter 5 #salyra

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nickeverdeen · 1 year

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hello! could i please request a ship from the hunger games, avatar the last airbender and the umbrella academy? i’m ok with being shipped w any of the adult characters in any of the fandoms also. my name is noelle & i’m a bisexual cis female (she/her pronouns). my fav romance tropes are arranged marriage & forbidden romance, and (i think) my love language is physical touch. i’m also an entp & gryffindor! i LOVE to travel & i value experiences over possessions. my family is very important to me and i also really want to have children in the future but not necessarily get married. i’m a people person but i enjoy having some quiet time to myself. i like think i’m pretty nice, but do not cross me 👀 also, my dream job is either a comedian, working in film or something to do with traveling <3 i’m also considered “the funny one” & the ‘wild child.’ i also struggle/have struggled with anxiety, depression, substance abuse & eating disorders. i love to read books and write (mostly scripts & poetry.) i love my job as a barista and i also enjoy going on spontaneous adventures! i love camping, swimming and anything to do with nature. i have a navel piercing, a sagittarius (my zodiac sign!) arrow tattoo below my neck and a fig tattoo on the back of my arm. my style is very 70s mixed with early 2000s. i thrift basically everything i own. i’m 5’3 & have dark blonde hair with blue eyes, i’m pretty chubby but i have a great ass lol. thank you so so much!! :)

Your Hunger Games match is…

Peeta Mellark

After the games he needs physical touch

His love language is physical touch and time quality

Peeta would also like to have children one day

He also prefers to have some time for himself

Likes your jokes and would try to beat you with his

Would fail

Peeta knows how to handle mental/emotional problems ‘cause he expirienced some of them himself

Takes you outside on a date 100%

He is a very observant person so he’d notice your tattoos

Asks if they have any meanings or you just took them because you liked them

Would need you to remind him what’s real and what’s not, sometimes

Your Avatar The Last Airbender match is…

Zuko

Zuko tried not to fall for you considering that being with you - someone who ain’t a firebender - would disappoint others

But he does fall for your personality and body

He ain’t much of a touchy type at first, but would “warm up” after few weeks

Zuko would to your suprise take you to travel on his boat

He ain’t really sure if he wants kids in the future

Likes your attitude

Doesn’t really get your jokes at first, but after a while he would start to understand

Knows exactly how to help you if you’d ever feel down or have your mental problems back

I mean he went through some of them himself

Jokes about your hight

Finds your clothing style funny and real good at the same time

You’re his comfort person and he’s very protective of you

Your Umbrella Academy match is…

Allison Hargreeves

Take in vain her childhood making her touch-starved

So she is seriously into physical touch

Would like to have children one day too

I mean look at her when she had Clarke

(or whatever her name was)

Seriously likes your jokes and puns

Allison has a truma and some other mental issues

She knows how to help you if you’re ever back at it again

Feeling upset in general? Let’s go out or whatever you wanna do

Cuddles 100%

Allison likes your clothing style a lot and would ask for your tips with hers sometimes

#request #headcanons #matchups #the hunger games #hunger games #peeta x reader #peeta mellark #peeta thg #avatar the last airbender #atla #zuko x you #zuko atla #the umbrella academy #tua #allison hargreeves x reader #allison tua

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fox-daddy · 4 months

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Breaking down my Mc's (1/3)

I've been thinking about my Mc's and decided it's about time I broke them down fully. While I would start with Kyle, he feels like he'd be the easiest for me to break down and he's not the reason I'm making this.

Hunter;

I think the best place to start with this bitch is with their backstory. Forced to take a passive role in their early childhood, being forced to do what their 'owner' would tell them to do. Being rewarded with fine wine, food and clothes for doing a good job. This early life is the main reason they can't be shipped with Nadia which makes sense in my mind.

Nadia gives Mc fine wine, food and clothes to show her appreciation as early on as chapter 2 of the intro. Even early on in her route (Chapter 6.3) when she asks Mc how she can return their kindness with the options being 'You've already been so generous' and 'I want freedom to come and go'. If you pick freedom Nadia confirms they always had that freedom and Mc replies with 'I... You gave me a room, and kept dressing me... I assumed...' With Nadia confirming this wasn't her trying to exert control over Mc and just wanted to give what she thought they needed.

While it becomes clearer the more you get to know Nadia that she uses gifts to show care and love, for someone who grew up with that being a way of controlling them it makes sense they wouldn't be able to just forget that truma. Even in Muriel's route Hunter giving Muriel a scarf and eel on a stick can easily be seen as them paying Muriel back for going to the castle with them despite not wanting to. For doing this for me I'll do something nice in return. During any route they slowly learn that gifts are given as a sign of caring not control it'll still take them time. Along with the person they were under being able to force hunter to cuddle or lay at their feet at anytime they would've learned to assosiate touch as a bad thing. Either as part of the reward for being good wheather they wanted it or not feeding into their touch-avoidance as the only touch they got at a young age wasn't due to them wanting a hug but being forced to give a hug.

The way they escaped that was killing the person holding them captive. More murder to escape murder. To escape the consequences' of their action they made a deal with a demon, their ability to recognize faces to have everyone up until that point forget about them. Using the deal to try and both escape their guilt for all those they had hurt and to escape the consequences set them up to become part demon despite it only being one deal. Their morality was already skewed, showing them that killing isn't as bad as it actually is. Even after escaping they get hunted down by a bounty hunter who was going to kill the person they already had. Leading to them joining the bounty hunter throughout their entire teen years. Killing more people but this time for money instead of because they have no choice. Blurring their skewing moralities more. Giving them a more dog eat dog world view. The more powerful you are the more you get away with, the catch being there's always someone bigger than you.

Going from pet to bounty hunter they do gain a lot of skills including having their natural ability to problem solve being pushed to the forefront more and more. As they learn how to outsmart people, how to fight smarter not harder with their 5'4 lanky frame. This is shown by one of their familiars and the first they met being a goldfish they keep around their neck. The necklace being a type of metal hard to break but enchanted to be see through. Along with learning how to turn any liquid into clean water, both useful for traveling and for their familiar who needs water to survive.

Having no to little physical touch as a teenager where they also felt free for the first time would only would renforce their avoidance to touch as touch was clearly part of their captors attempt to control them. Just like with the nice food, wine and clothes. So they would see touch as a way people assert their control. Couples cuddle and kiss to show others that they in some sense own the person. Or at least in Hunter's mind at this point in time.

This is where Hunter can break into two different characters;

As the Mc they find the magic shop and settle down in Vesuvia learning more about why what they did was wrong. Slowly coming to learn that the world doesn't have to be dog eat dog and showing some kindness can go a long way. Nobody has to be alone, even as a boundy hunter they weren't alone having their adoptive father guiding them and teaching them the skill for the trade. As they slowly come to terms with these lessons and learn to take back control over their own agency. Then they meet Asra.

Especially with Asra and Hunter romance was not on the forefront as Hunter saw Asra as an example of what their learning about not having to be agressive to vet what you want and Asra sees Hunter as loud and intense, but is able to make the connection between them and the moon. As their able to figure out the loud exterior Hunter uses is more of a mask than who they really are. Spending the next few years learning more about who they really are and the fact their healing from a rough past, showing no matter where you've come from you can always heal. Even though their part demon due to their pervious deal their still able to come back from it.

Then the plague hit and Hunter would've seen is as a chance to fix some of the damage they did, saving people instead of hurting them and the rest of it is pretty much the same as in the game.

When their brought back with their lack of memories it gives them a chance to be who they would've been without their truma hanging above their head. Except that's not entirely true either, since they flinch away from touch at the start and have a lot of small triggers they don't understand fully aside from just assuming it's just who they are. Even accepting gifts from Asra is harder for them than the typical Mc at first, as they slowly accept it more as Asra paying rent than actually giving it to them as a show of care. Since it's easier for them to accept it as payment for Asra living there than just to show they care. Although even if Asra didn't give them stuff Hunter wouldn't just kick Asra out but that would require them to pause and think about it. Which when people have conflicting thoughts or believes they don't tend to overthink it.

This version of Hunter has their own agency, being quiet smart and a good problem solver. Rarely taking a simple 'no' as an answer. Having found a way to keep their fish familiar with them despite them being well a fish, not an easy familiar to keep on you. Even before they lost their memory they never really had a single care for what the public thought about them. This passed down even when they lost their memory and with people giving them dirty looks in the beginning would've only encouraged this closed off nature. However even if they can seem quiet and antisocial they do have a playful streak. Unafraid to match even Julian's dramaticness in public or run after Portia while hiding around the castle even when they don't have to hide. Some time after whatever route they would run into Ruby a red-tailed black cockatoo. Eventually adopting it as their second familiar.

Then you have the version of them that never become Mc. Who settled down in Vesuvia due to the bars and pubs around. Instead of learning how to take their own agency back and learn that what they did was wrong. Instead their surrounded by alcohol, drunks and criminals. This would only feed into their world veiw of the strong can do whatever they want to the weaker. This version of Hunter would also lose a lot of the agency that the other version would've gained and instead would live day to day, drinking whatever, doing whatever jobs came their way, typically unloading boats, acting like body guards and any job a strong tough local can do. This would also mean when the plague hit they would've left with their only freind Bluebell, helping them move the animals out of the city. During this they would meet Ruby their second familiar.

When they returned after a year or two they would've made freinds with a local magician with help form Ruby, who in her eyes is weak and needs their protection. Which isn't correct but also isn't completely wrong since Kyle would've still been new to the world again. It would be through Kyle they would either meet Portia or Muriel. Or if kept to themselves they could run into Julian through hanging around bars. The point is all three of them would in some way conflict with Hunter's world veiw. Yet it would still take them a while to learn their own agancy is important, as they would be used to living for the sake of living.

So if something were to hit them hard the Mc Hunter would probably take it and fight back with just as much ethusasum to sort it out while the Non Mc Hunter would be more likely to roll over and give up due to not having less agancy to begin with. There are exceptions like if their Li are in trouble or if it's something they can solve but unlike the Mc Hunter who is more likely to fight tooth and claw their more likely to decide it's not worth it and give in to their own defeat.

#the arcana game #the arcana #the arcana mc #the arcana apprentice #the arcana fan apprentice #mc hunter #the arcana spoilers

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childhood love and innocence lost (angst)

Vash x Reader (takes place after the ship crashed

[summary: the cute bond between friends during an awkward time in life. and knives had to ruin it all]

This will be dark like really dark but here’s what happen so if y’all have an recommendation.

Y/n is one of the humans alive on the ship that awake. Theyre young around Vash’s age and despite being told to stay away from him at first becomes friends with him.

and when he finally gets his own room and not a cell. they spend time together smiling and laughing.

as they get older they develop feelings for each other maybe they even share a kiss but it’s really awkward and they hide their faces

it plays out like the our home episode

but….. flash forward to the present Vash sitting in the bed in the old room on the ship. After getting his arm fixed

and sees memories of the past of him and y/n and Luida along with the others comes in they talk about stuff and then Luida hands him something of y/n’s that’s old

saying that they would’ve want him to have it

… what happened? ….

when y/n when they went to bring Vash back, nai noticed how protective Vash was of them.

and of course killed them in front of Vash. their blood splattering over his face. nai really had to go all out and did it so fast that they didn’t even realize until blood started dripping from their neck

Imagine Vash loosing his first best friend and first kiss someone he cared for loved even. before his eyes watching them bleed out crying in pain before his eyes and he can’t do anything.

og plan was for Mai to decapitate them and them not realize until their head rolled towards Vash legs

he’s dealing with enough truma that would’ve traumatized him too much..

#Vash x reader #angst #vash the stampede x you #vash the stempede

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