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recordedscratch-blog · 7 years

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oh dope a response to the question thing n shit thats cool

it waaaaas for my fav band my future piercing n the last time i cried

soooo uh i think the last time i garbled upon the subject i was fuckin spurtin like crazy bout milo who is still fuckin like

legit to the heart n core of my soul not even kiddin hes like my musical spirit animal

buuut since goin juts about him twice is redundant ill just go fuckin crazy over soomeone else for a tick

iiiid say probably aesop rock

i fuckin went bananas over him before when i found out that he skated despite him saying that he could in “lotta years” but like knowing that he can still pull off impossibles is slick so i got hype off that anyways

but hes legit for real his instrumentals are absolutely fuckin excellent on their own but his bars are worth their gold on their own since usually they are just drippin with some kind of meanin

he just has a great way of wording shit man the way that he can be so fantastical with his lyrics is absolutely inspiring

there was even a study that compared rappers and their word diversity and aesop was so above fucking EVERYONE that his result wasnt even properly represented in the graph because youd have to expand the whole thing at the cost of space to the other rappers so hes just stuck at the end like outlier georg

i mean hes outpreforming a high number of major players like drake n mf doom n the ENTIRE WUTANG CLAN PUT TOGETHER its fucking outrageous

you can find the chart here https://pudding.cool/2017/02/vocabulary/ hes just so fucking dope

in terms of piercings id like to say either on my fuckin butt or something or like lobe and industrial bars cuz those are cool n shit

i wanted to get like a tongue stud for a while but then i heard its super easy to idly chew on those things and fuck up your teeth something real good which sounds exactly like something id so nah lmao

i can see myself swallowing em by accident too and id probably like cut up my insides and then die like a big old idiot

the doctor will look over my corpse and point and laugh and be like hahaha what the fuck this isnt even a thing that fucking happens what a loser

anyways the crying one uhhhh

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k so like i normally fuckin hate sharin this shit cuz its a bit too much

since shit doesnt matter to other people and all bein fuckin open bout it does is like

make rando people worried about me n shit?? n i dont wanna do that cuz it feels like im just jumping people with my bullshit n forcing them to feel bad

n then it becomes a fucking assblast festival in my honor and name and people will put down hard pity about it and bother me bout it like they know my shit

some rando fuckin internet strangers actin as my moral compass as if i asked

as if im this idiot puppy dog who needs to be pitied and babied and guided cuz boohoo he feels bad

even talkin bout it openly is essentially a call for attention and i aint no pussy

but my therapist be tellin me i need tbe more open more so ill spill this shit i guess

by the way if you copy paste this shit or put it somewhere or fucking do anything with what im spittin i will fuckin hunt you down and expose you like the piece of shit pussy coward you are

i dont even give a fuck if you pass me on this i will fight to put down your ass n get your ass tossed off your job or some shit

but uh

yeah anyways

last time i cried was like a few weeks ago cuz like i was at work n it was a tuesday and since jack shit happens on tuesdays right

cept the only thing was some new album was coming out that day but thats chill

but some fucker came in with this huge trade in and is making me go through his dead granddads music movie collection of 100+ which is horrible but fuckin FINE whatever

i end up having to juggle this transaction with people trying to buy said album and calling to ask if i have said album which stressed me out like fuck cuz this trade in guy was a bit of a fucking grunch when i had to do other things that werent his thing because “he was there first” but other people would get grunchy when theyd get ignored or put aside for trade in guy because it “they deserve just as much attention as the next customer”

or theyd be forced to wait a good bit because im busy with something else

not like everyone was like that but one person is enough to ruin the mood right

anyways that wasnt the thing that really set me off to cry

well not directly anyways

in foresight i could have just said bad work day and not give an essay bout my horsecrap but i already typed it all out so fuck it you asked

it was just a bad day and there was a lot of moments that made me feel stupid and i just really hate feeling stupid

so anyway i finished my shift n finished up and just rushed off to the employees bathroom since it was the closest secluded place n i just needed a fuckin moment to just

destress i guess

enclosed spaces make me comfortable i guess idk

so im just on the toliet lid down holding my head in my hands holding the weight with my elbows on my knees and im just

getting more and more upset

like ill think about a mistake ive made that day then ill think about a worse mistake ive made in the past and get upset more

then ill get upset at myself at me holding those past grudges and get upset how i cant just let go of shit all together

and then ill get upset about getting upset about this SAME issue AGAIN and it just keeps looping through it over and over again like feedback between a microphone and a speaker

which is so infuriating because i KNOW that its happening all over again but i cant stop being a just

huge pussy and crying about it

so uh yeah i cried all like that and it was pretty awful

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fuckin stubbed my toe haha it sucked

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