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#but that time wasn't wasted even if I may not have hit the same benchmarks as my peers
cookinguptales
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today's mantra is "time spent healing is never wasted"
#just me
#vent post
#I often feel like my childhood was taken from me due to trauma
#the medical trauma the physical abuse the religious trauma the csa
#and then I feel like I 'wasted' my 20s trying to bounce back from that and feel like a person again
#but that time wasn't wasted even if I may not have hit the same benchmarks as my peers
#I studied and I traveled and I tried new things and I went to therapy
#I learned healthy coping mechanisms and how to navigate the world with a broken body
#I learned to make fun and silly and beautiful things
#I slowly got back into writing and found an outlet for the waves inside me
#I honestly very genuinely did not think I'd make it to my 30s and some days I have a weird sense of
#'well what do I do now? I never thought I'd make it this far'
#'I never made all the same preparations that everyone else did. I never had the same experiences. I will never catch up now.'
#but one of the things I learned in my 20s is how to live for small things
#a view from a mountain or a nice night with your friends or a very fancy cookie
#my life might be small and quiet and... I don't know. not what everyone would exactly aspire to.
#but I'm in less pain now
#I can start to appreciate the beautiful things around me from mundane to truly special
#and that's enough
#it has to be enough
#I didn't waste a decade
#I was dealt a shit hand like a lot of other people are
#and I slowly forced myself to heal from it even when I wanted to give up
#my life is not a waste and I am not a waste so that time was not a waste either
#and I think... these days I probably do improve lives by still being around and being who I am
#just a little but a little is enough
#a little builds up
#I want to finish this embroidery and I want to write stories and I want to try a strawberry-rose linzer torte and I want to see Roswell
#I want to learn the people around me and myself
#so... I guess that's what I'll do now
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