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Stage Patalliro -Stardust Project- Super Long Ass Review Pt.2

It’s because of love - oh jealousy♪ - the BanMara perspective

Pt.1 What makes Patalliro so special compared to other 2.5D productions?

Suggested reading : Beauty is Sin for sufficient context from the 1st play to understand why BanMara is where they are in the 2nd story.

In the manga, Bancoran was introduced first in the story and didn't meet Maraich until a few more chapters later. Thus readers had a better understanding of who Bancoran is before Maraich came into his life (i.e. when he's still single and whoring around). Maya-sensei didn't initially create Maraich to be a reoccurring character so it took him time to incorporate Maraich into the story as a regular instead of killing him off as he originally intended. But because Maraich became such an important character to the series later on, the stageplay will have no time for the pre-Maraich side stories. Not only must Bancoran and Maraich be introduced into the story at the same time, but Bancoran's playboy lifestyle was also significantly toned down. That explains why in the 1st play, they fell in love at first sight and spent the rest of the play chasing each other.

（(^w -)—❤; 2016）

Similarly, after they became a couple, there were a number of manga chapters that illustrated Bancoran's paradoxical attitude towards Maraich. On one hand he always tries to get away with cheating, but on the other hand he remains deeply, deeply in love with Maraich. Bancoran's infidelity is a running gag in the manga, but to tell the truth, what matters most to fans is that he still sees Maraich as the love of his life DESPITE his uncontrollable dick, so eventually we tolerated this character flaw even though nobody actually likes that about him. But in the play, the audience simply do not have the time to digest how Bancoran can be devoted and unfaithful at the same time. The anime likely saw the same issue, so in both anime and stage, Bancoran never once cheated on Maraich, only intentionally/unintentionally flirted with others from time to time.

Along with the toning down/elimination of Bancoran's philandering, the play also made Bancoran more expressive. In manga/anime, though we know Bancoran is very in love with Maraich, he is stoic and seldom voices his feelings, especially in the Stardust Project arc where he never properly addressed whether he was over his dead ex (whom he killed btw) so Maraich was left hanging all the way till the end. The manga had other chapters to follow to make up for that, but in a play such subplots need to be properly wrapped up. On top of that, Tsune sees Maraich as crucial in his portrayal of Bancoran. He has repeatedly explained in interviews how Bancoran cannot exist as a character without the presence of Maraich. So he really sees Bancoran's love for Maraich as an indispensable part of the character. With that in mind, Tsunecoran is not only a lot more affectionate towards Maraich, but he is also constantly reminding you that he is proud to love and be loved by Maraich.

And then there is Maraich. In the manga/anime, before he met Bancoran, Maraich was also rather cold. He seldom smiled and liked wearing monochrome outfits. To put it in his own words, his life before he met Bancoran was like a "nightmare" every single day. But after they started dating, Maraich showed his more emotional and even hysteric side. He started to dress in colorful and adorable clothes. He threw childish tantrums to his older lover (keep in mind that Maraich was still a teenager in the canon). All because he finally found love and shelter in Bancoran with whom he no longer had to twist himself to please someone just to survive. Bancoran is the light of his life and loves him for who he is.

Sana read the entire manga, so he obviously understood this very well. That's why just like Tsune, Sana also puts Maraich's love for Bancoran at the center of his approach. Since the 1st play in 2016, Sana spent more than a year to prepare for this role, and his biggest focus was on Maraich's love for Bancoran. He put a lot of thoughts into it. He envisioned their life together, what their shared home would look like, how they'd interact like any ordinary couple... In the 1st play, Maraich was desperate and scared but ultimately saved by Bancoran's love. In the 2nd play, not only did Sana perfectly portray the "paranoid lover" Maraich, he also added his very own boyish, bratty demeanor into the mix, making him distinct from the anime Mariach who was voiced by a woman.

（(｡•ˇ‸ˇ•｡); 2018）

Putting all these factors together, what was initially marketed as a "love triangle" in the 2nd play didn't feel all that obvious.Because for every moment that implied Tsunecoran's conflicted feelings towards Andresen, there were three other instances where he explicitly voiced his love for Maraich. So there really isn't a place where you felt that Bancoran was indecisive. There was never really any doubt that Maraich was the one on his mind.

In the 1st play, BanMara passionately kissed and made out to show you how they fell in love. In the 2nd play, they did not kiss for the entirety of their Tokyo tour, and only added a brief peck on the lips in the last 5 performances in Osaka which I was lucky enough to see.

But the brilliance of the 2nd play is that you actually don't need to see them kiss and fuck to know how in love they are. On stage, they are almost always standing close to each other and lovingly touching each other's hair. And because they omitted Bancoran's pre-Maraich life in the 1st play and reduced Bjorn's presence to a short flashback in the 2nd, it really feels as if Tsunecoran has never truly loved anyone before he met Sanaich. In the manga/anime, Bancoran almost never blushed in front of Maraich(I can remember only 2 or 3 instances in the entire story). But on stage, Tsunecoran looks at Sanaich with such pride and tenderness in his eyes, even to the point of flustering like a teenager, you honestly do not need to see them get physically intimate to know how in love and inseparable they are. In the manga/anime, Bancoran can get all workaholic and neglect Maraich's needs and feelings. However, you really cannot imagine Tsunecoran be that kind of guy because he is so attentive and Sanaich seemed to be absolutely spoiled with love.

（Patalliro cockblocking his gay parents; 2018）

One important difference the play made to the original manga story is that it gave Maraich a bigger voice. In the manga/anime Stardust arc, Maraich's role was very much marginalized and his feelings were not properly responded to by Bancoran. But the playwright(a shipper) made sure to give Maraich the center stage and all the time he needs to address his feelings to Bancoran, as well as let Bancoran answer to those feelings in a clear, unambiguous manner. They adore each other, remain supportive of each other throughout, and both had an outfit with their partner's name printed on it because they are disgustingly cheesy like that. They are each other's biggest fan.

（The secret outfit that will not be in the DVD; 2018）

Underneath their sweet interactions was a strong sense of trust in each other. They are both very flawed and problematic human beings, but neither pretended to be someone they are not in front of their partner. They love each other despite their flaws, and opened themselves up for the other to become their biggest weakness. That is especially obvious in Tsunecoran who otherwise is an invincible man with no weak point either physically or mentally. But just like what I told Tsune in my fan letter, Bancoran's greatest courage came in the form of his love for Maraich, that he was willing to make himself vulnerable because he fell in love. That's where his true bravery lies and it really shines through in the plays. Last time, he purposely missed a shot to save Maraich's life, and this time, he is willing to make mistakes and even risk his own life to do the same.

（The moment when you forgot this was a comedy; 2016）

And Sana's performance just makes it so clear why Maraich is so special to Bancoran. Sana has this insane ability to swim all over the masculine-feminine spectrum, making a thousand faces and changing multiple voices in the same song. His Maraich has such a strong presence on stage I can never take my eyes off of him. He can be both delicate and rough, lovesick and strong-minded, cute and vulgar, understanding and jealous. It's so much fun to watch him on stage because you have no idea which mode he'd enter into in the next moment, but you just know whichever face he decides to show, he will make sure you never forget it before changing to another face and surprises you again.

And like I have said in the past, Maraich is unique because his love for Bancoran is so straightforward and dignified. He exposes his true self to Bancoran, loving him with all his heart and demands to be loved with the same force. Sana's natural boyishness gives this love such a raw, unstoppable energy that is both hilarious and extremely endearing.

（Tfw you just called your boyfriend an asshole but you also don’t want to hear other people call him an asshole; 2018）

In the end, the underlying message from Stardust Project is not so different from all the other stories BanMara got themselves into in the manga: there is nothing in the world that could break Bancoran and Maraich apart, and anyone who dare to stand between them will end very, very, very badly.

Oh and by the way, Maraich is totally pregnant.

#patalliro #cock robin killed me again #sana hiroki #aoki tsunenori #review #BANMARA SAILING TO THE END OF THE WORLD #maraich #bancoran

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nayeon-sadly-owns-me · 7 years

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Welcome back for the final part of my mini series revolving around Gold Dust if you need to read my Part One and/or Part Two here are the links. Depending on if people want to hear my theories, I’ll leave that up to any feedback I get. I also might do Fool’s Gold, who knows. (I know.) Yes this is still long af because you gotta go out with a bang.

Part 3

Chapter 2 Second Half

Spoilers beyond here-

Last time we left off with Nayeon and Momo overlooking the city on the same cliff that Nayeon learned that having sex with someone you have feelings for is beyond comparison to having manipulation sex.

We pick things up with Nayeon returning to Seungyeon’s room after being forced to actually be on time for once via Momo. Funny seeing as it’s hinted at the beginning of the group session mentions that Momo tends to be a few minutes late so she is the last one to enter and first to leave.

When asked if she likes the Starry Night, we get another view of just how much Momo has affected her thinking. She lets it stay up because the stars remind her of Momo. Interesting facts about this painting is that it was painted after Vincent van Gogh experienced a mental breakdown and sought treatment in a mental asylum. The painting itself has been interpreted as him painting his darkest night but still finding hope in the star’s light (and the houses below). It really is a painting suitable for Nayeon and how Momo has given her hope.

On the surface, Nayeon buying and giving Momo a phone so she can be there in case something is wrong, is a pretty simple answer to accept. Except, Nayeon has strong emotional ties towards keeping her phone on her and making sure she can contact her dad and now Momo. Her strong push for Momo to take the phone is now physical evidence that Momo’s concerns are now hers just like with her father. She needs to know that they are okay at all times, so it’s important Momo has a phone. Also she has hit the lovey stage where any minute they’re apart she misses her but you didn’t hear that from me.

Like any addict, if you give them an easy route to obtaining their drug of choice, they will probably cave and do it. Despite all her ramblings about how Seungyeon’s preaching was bullshit, she finds herself having an identity crisis because her grasp on who she is has been altered. It’s out of spite that she tries to force herself back into the game, but she can’t. Momo has become too important to her to except any less now.

Bringing it back to Nayeon describing how different sex with Momo was compared to all the others, it was the first time she had felt the ecstasy that is supposed to be felt. Anything less than that will now feel unacceptable as she is now experiencing.

In comparison to how Momo makes her feel, not even substances can top it.

It’s why you can’t knock this couple as having an overly toxic relationship because despite their flaws, they make each other better. More on this though when Chapter 3 comes out, whenever it does.

For all the talk of Nayeon wanting Momo to have a phone in case she needs her, it’s actually Nayeon who calls Momo. It leads to another situation where it could be late at night but if Nayeon calls then Momo will be there. Just like if Momo called her, Nayeon would be there.

We get to see the difference between Momo and Nayeon when it comes to how they feel about coming to each others houses sort of how they were when they came into each others lives. Momo gives warning and politely waits outside to be invited in. Nayeon speeds over and announces her arrival like it’s her life’s mission.

Earlier in the scene, it was briefly mentioned that a movie was playing in the background. Nayeon treated it as no big deal and used it as white noise. Now we have Momo who is completely fixated on the movie because she doesn’t have the luxury to watch tv. In fact, I’m sure she would have been captivated by anything on the tv. What seems small and insignificant to Nayeon is large and important to Momo.

Blanket forts have always been a sanctuary of comfort, especially for kids who are afraid of the dark. They always were portrayed as a place where your demons can’t reach you. It’s a beautiful idea for Momo to suggestion when Nayeon is on the brink of an emotional breakdown from watching Cameron sink, just like how she feels. Despite the fact that Momo has no clue about her extreme anxiety over water or any of her core issues in general, she still triumphs at giving Nayeon a safe space. She doesn’t ask questions, and for the moment it’s the best thing Nayeon could ask for.

It’s arguably the softest scene in the entire two chapters, where they can just exist just by being together.

We get our second scene with Momo and the Maid. It’s important to note that the maid really supports Momo being in Nayeon’s life because of all that she’s seen. Momo has made her better in almost every sense of the word. We have already seen Nayeon changer her attitude towards the staff from when Momo dropped her off and she woke up. This is a nice comparison to Jeongyeon/Seungyeon who haven’t seen the real and fake Nayeon in all her glory.

Momo also has considerable character growth with the fact that she now longs to be somebody to Nayeon. She’s long since abandoned the notion that she is nobody important which is huge for somebody like her.

I like to pretend that Nayeon made her her sandwich because she doesn’t trust anyone in her staff with the job. I can hear her reasoning that if Momo is gonna have practice ALL day then she should have a decent lunch and well she knows what she likes better than the staff so she might as well do it. Then staring at the clock until it was close to the soccer teams lunch time (that she totally didn’t make Dahyun tell her) so she could personally deliver it (absolutely not because she wants to see Momo).

If Momo wasn’t so convinced that Nayeon only sees her as a friend, she would have noticed Nayeon staring at her like she was a 5-course meal. Of course, she rationalizes that it’s because she’s messy and not because Nayeon’s head gets fuzzy when she looks at Momo’s body in general. Subtle isn’t in Nayeons vocabulary.

Something to note, Momo is fiercely protective of Nayeon when it comes to Jeongyeon. She gets much colder. I was actually surprised that the ending line came from Momo instead of Nayeon because we had that little line spoiler during the update phase. I have my own theories on what Jeongyeon is referring to, my thoughts is that it connects to how Momo got into therapy in the first place. My question is what had happened to trigger Momo and how did Jeongyeon discover it? Gotta wait.

They say that when you are attracted to somebody, you begin to show more physical affection because of compromising needs and wants. Up until now, Nayeon had always been extremely cautious to not engage in physical contact because it goes against what she was taught to believe. However, with her mental state constantly reminding her that she’s attracted to Momo, she has to give in to that urge slightly so that it doesn’t drive her insane. Meanwhile, Momo lets it happen because she is openly aware that she likes Nayeon and is happy about this change in her.

If these were two stable people, they would have already come to the conclusion that the feelings of interest are mutual and would stop pretending that they’re just friends. Instead, they continue to never use the term ‘friend’ at all, because they’re not friends at this point. Their not so subtle attraction and die-for-you attitude extends beyond being comfortable with using the term ‘friends’. That’s why you only see them use ‘barely-friends’ or ‘sort-of-friends’ ect ect. If anything, you should already stop reading it as implying of friendship and start implying it as dating.

Even more so that Nayeon is THAT bitch that has to call her person of interest (on speed dial no less) just to hear her voice in the middle of the night. Then calls three more times because obviously something is wrong and she isn’t just sleeping.

Think back to the panic Nayeon showed when she wasn’t sure if her dad was alive still or not because of a missed phone call. Her fear that something happened to Momo might be irrational, but it’s still a fear she has. She has a very real fear that something bad will happen to the people she loves and it bleeds into her daily life.

Their relationship becomes a game of ‘How can I turn this into a reason to show im attached to you without having to say it’ leading to reading, cuddling/sleeping together, and playing footsies. Although Nayeon is comfortable just reading with Momo, she still wants that interaction that leaves her physically satisfied. Admitting you find the person cute is the first step of acceptance. Coming to the realization that you want to kiss them is the second. Her steps of acceptance are messy, just like her.

This scene makes me hope that NaMo adopt a puppy to raise together because it would make Momo the happiest girl alive. It also shows how hopelessly devoted she is towards her even when Sana makes blunt attempts to gain her attention and they fail. It only succeeded in reminding her that the people around her only would only want her for shallow reasons. It seems that it’s her way of dealing with what she thinks is one-sided feelings so she thinks the worst to try to make these feelings go away.

Because of those thoughts, she misses the fact that Nayeon would cut down anyone who tries to get with Momo. Specifically Sana, who has eyes on Momo because of her physical attraction (and Jeongyeon’s manipulation). She also misses Nayeon’s growing fondness of being Momo’s only person, something that will be entertaining to watch when Mina comes into the picture.

It’s frustrating as a reader to watch Nayeon agonize from being sexually frustrated when we know Momo wants the same thing. It’s just dramatic irony playing its role and you have to reminder yourself that both of them think that what they’re doing right now is what the other wants and needs. Nayeon is use to playing the puppeteer so it’s no surprise that she feels a surge of guilt when she makes herself come to the mere idea of it being Momo doing it. It reminds her of her days using people, connecting physical activity with using. Because any slip of want feels like it’s coming from Nayeon’s darker days of having ultimatums instead of her being close to being in love.

Pair of eyes is what I assume to be belonging to Jeongyeon seeing as she has such a harsh reaction later in the scene.

There are subtle hints that Nayeon is about to have one of her irrational breakdowns, Jeongyeon unknowingly is the catalyst for this one. Which is pretty ironic considering she tries to make Momo forget about Nayeon using Sana thus trying to sabotage their thing (one of which she doesn’t know what she’s sabatoging). Like I said, it’s frustrating to read but can’t be written any other way.

When you’re trying to defend your relationship to someone you fucked over (in more ways than one), describing said person as fragile as your defense is not the best way to go. It already shows that her defenses are weak. If Nayeon had a more stable mindset, she could have given a better answer. All it took was Jeongyeon saying “All the more reason to keep her away from you” to cause her into a spiraling breakdown.

Because Nayeon isn’t listening when Momo tries to explain that whatever version of Nayeon Jeongyeon knows, it’s not the same as the version she knows. However, you can’t explain that to somebody that already has their mindset made up. They’re still going to believe what they want to believe.

So, Nayeon does the only thing she can do in this situation. She kisses her and lets herself loose despite all the warning signs. Because, like I mentioned earlier, Nayeon associates sex as a game, she hasn’t gotten to the point where she has separated the two yet. She also ignores Momo in the process and choses to believe that she is only using her.

It’s even worse when Momo starts to blame herself and asks her not to leave her. They’re a dangerous mixture that’s bound to hurt Momo the most just like Nayeon thinks. Nayeon has the ability to come back to reality where she remembers that she wants Momo in her life. Momo, unfortunately, can’t think of this fact (despite Nayeon having already done this several times) because of her abandonment issues.

Seungyeon isn’t blind by any means. Im sure she knows by now that there is something going on between Momo and Nayeon. She is waiting for Momo to speak up about Nayeon, she needs to her for herself how and why they ended up finding each other and what makes it different than Nayeon with her sister. If you think that Jeongyeon is clueless, Seungyeon is arguably more in the dark.

Momo’s coping mechanism isn’t strong enough to combat Nayeon’s latest meltdown, and it shows just how worn down she is. She draws stars in the night sky, although it’s not the comforting kind. It’s the kind of picture that makes her remember what it was like to want to kill herself. Having both these scenes back to back creates a genuine emotion of feeling hurt for these characters because you see how broken they really are.

With Nayeon back down to earth or as close as Im Nayeon can be, she explains her self-created fuck up to her father. Fighting against her latest substance hangover, no doubt the pills from the living room. Although her defenses are lowered enough to admit her feelings, it’s not enough to stop the fact that she can’t say it to him while he’s awake. It’s the third step towards acceptance though.

This isn’t a quick fix though and too many things around her make it impossible to ignore it. Such as, a letter from her mother in prison. We don’t get the context of what the letter says, but we know the anguish it causes her.

She takes being over-dramatic to new heights as she tries to show Momo just how destructive she can be when dealing with a crisis. Her mother treated her like shit and now she feels like she can only treat people like that too. Granted, she has followed through on that in the past. No good deeds will ever replace that, and Nayeon is all too well aware of this fact.

She destroys her mother’s favorite car and topples it down a cliff as a grand message to Momo as physical proof of the point she is trying to get across. I want to remind you that Momo has no context on what happened with Nayeon and her parents. All she knows is that it’s bad and she is trying to scare her off because of it.

The opposite happens of course, it’s Momo after all, and she admits that she’s tired of pretending and just wants to be with her. Making it clear that she is aware of Nayeon’s indecisive behavior that keeps Momo from standing on solid ground for more than a couple of days. Despite the fact that we know how horrendous Momo is with words, she is the one who comes up with what to say in order to snap Nayeon out of it. (for now)

It’s true that Momo gives her more chances than she deserves and that is what has given Nayeon the ability to not think about the consequences of her actions. With the apparent idea that Momo is done, it brings her back to reality that that’s not what she wants but she’s conflicted.

In the end, Momo demands an answer for the second time, and gets nothing.

Instead we’re brought back to Nayeon’s thoughts and how they reflect Seungyeon’s words when they talked about hating the sunset/sunrise. Nayeon tries to burn things to the ground to avoid the pain of liking something and having it not work out. If it doesn’t work out. Throwing away her own words/thoughts along with a bottle of wine (her failed coping mechanism), Nayeon gets her act together roughly the last time of the chapter.

If there is one thing I want to know out of the Sana/Momo thing, it’s if Momo was the one to approach her because of the offer Sana made at the park. My guess is yes.

It’s nice to know Seulgi is as amused with Jeongyeon messy scheme as the readers are.

Nayeon could have threatened Sana, curse her out, physically dealt with her. Instead she just tells her to get the fuck out. Because THIS Im Nayeon doesn’t hurt people. Especially not in front of Momo (until she feels like she has too).

(You can ignore this section. This is my bitch about the situation even though it makes sense in story section)

As someone who has played both High school and college lacrosse, these next few scenes bother me for it being the fact that its arguably the least realistic part of the whole story. No coach in their right mind would allow their players to fuck around with the crowd to stall just because one player isn’t there. Stalling can lead to forfeiting by default. Jeongyeon wouldn’t have time to talk to Sana because nobody is allowed on the field except for staff and players. Not to mention I’ve never met a coach that is okay with their players using their phone before a game much less the starting goalkeeper. Don’t get me started on how may rules Nayeon broke tackling Lisa and Momo just leaving-

What’s worse is that it moves the plot along so I can’t even be properly annoyed at this. You win this round Stormy.

Anyways,

What Nayeon couldn’t say in the locker room, she lets out by tackling Lisa who had just slide-tackled Momo to the ground and calling her out. At worse she should receive a yellow card for an irresponsible tackle but alas, we are treated to an angry Im Nayeon. Remember what I said about her never wanting to physically hurt anybody in front of Momo? Yeah, that goes out the window when somebody dares to hurt Momo even if it is not on purpose.

Despite the drama, Nayeon’s actions are self-justifiably (although not excused) fueled by emotions that have been boiling since she left Momo in her car.

Now that she has released all that pent up energy, she is now left to come to terms with what she has done. By the time Momo finds her, she’s drained and arguably at her best to talk to about feelings.

Except they don’t talk. Instead Nayeon does what she knows how, and that’s to kiss Momo into believing that this time she isn’t going to leave her. I keep being brought back to the time when Nayeon first tried to kiss her when Momo asked her to show her something real. Although in fic time it was only a few weeks ago, it shows that now the definition of real has changed for Momo. At least when it concerns Nayeon.

Rest assured that her feelings are returned, she finally admits to wanting Momo back. There were three times that Nayeon had come to find Momo to talk about her feelings- whether to keep her in her life or finally admit her feelings. 3 seemed to be the magic number for this fan fic.

Throughout this story, there would be thoughts put in parenthesis that would be repeated three times. 99% of the time, they were thoughts that were untrue or wrong in some way. When Nayeon repeats I promise aloud 3 times for Momo to hear, it has me wondering if that is what makes it true. It is a noticeable difference if you’re looking for it. I’m going to give it the benefit of the doubt.

Also NaMo are THAT couple that will bang in a classroom because of the pent up sexual frustration and just can’t wait because they have each other right there and why stop at kissing.

We’ve seen Nayeon make strides to get over her addictions (although she has a long way to go). Most impressively would be Momo. For years she practiced hard to become a star soccer player. I would put money on the fact that she has never skipped a practice or game. The fact that she was willing to leave a big game to go check up on Nayeon shows just how important she has become to her. It’s enough to leave the thoughts of her parents behind, whether she still has lingering thoughts about them or not.

From Nayeon worrying about Momo ruining her reputation, to now being regarded as Momo’s girlfriend by probably the whole student body- she’s come a long way in that regard.

You know Nayeon must have had a good time earlier when she doesn’t try anything after seeing Momo in just her underwear and a shirt.

Despite Momo’s attitude of accepting the idea of Nayeon not wanting her- I really don’t think that’s what she truly thought was real deep down in her subconscious. Because when Nayeon finally told her how she felt, Momo showed no signs of believing it to be false. She just hesitated to make sure that Nayeon wasn’t going to have another meltdown. Despite what she may or may not believes, she has to hear it from Nayeon so it’s good that they got to talk that out.

We get to our third maid and Momo scene, the one where Momo can finally introduce her as a somebody because finally she is now with Nayeon. It’s a little concerning that she felt like the only way to be somebody to Nayeon was to be romantically linked to her, but that is just another one of her issues that I hope to see worked out someday.

(I also want to say that I think it’s adorable that Momo associates home with Nayeon now.)

At some point Momo had to have told her where she gets her gum because Nayeon goes to Seungyeon for it of all people. Nayeon could have bought a whole counter of it if she wanted to. Instead she goes to the source that has helped Momo out even with small gestures.

Going back to the text that Jeongyeon had sent her sister, you have to understand that she only has that to go off of. Seungyeon had to have been there for Jeongyeon when the whole Nayeon thing was over. She knows how much damage Nayeon can do to Momo. That’s why she is so concerned. A part of me wishes that she just ask them about it, but that’s against therapy code (no really it is). Although Momo was never an open book with her, she still knows how unstable her mindset is. Just another case of the missing details factor on Seungyeon’s part that leads to her concern.

We get a tease that Nayeon had something to do with her father’s hospital stay, sadly we haven’t been told enough to be able to think about what that something is.

Instead of flying off the handle about the hospitals lack of contacting her about her father, she goes to Momo in perhaps one of her most vulnerable state.

Up until this point, neither of them have genuinely cried in front of each other because the other has walked away or turned away before they could. Now we see Momo embrace a sobbing wet Nayeon with as much love and care as she can then proceed to get her dried off and wearing clean clothes. The moment feels very rewarding. (Also, this is the first time we see Momo be the one holding Nayeon for a change.)

I have a theory about this water dream- That her mother is in prison for trying to drown her for causing her father’s hospitalized condition. She is recreating the scenario in the form of a nightmare probably brought about from her panic over her father being missing earlier. The reason why she is drowning Momo can be because of her expressed feelings of treating people the way her mother taught her and treated her.

Of course now she has made an effort to escape that way of expressing herself in the form of her thinking she is drowning Momo but can’t stop it. As most nightmares representing trauma do not give you the freedom to change anything from the scenario that it was developed from. While I sincerely don’t think this dream is suggesting Nayeon would actually do something like that to Momo, it’s ominous and could be foreshadowing about their relationship. For now, Momo is still with her and everything is fine.

I don’t need to analyze anything to know that Momo’s parents were two atrocious parents for what they’ve done to their child. It’s a wonder that it took Nayeon so long to figure it out seeing as they’ve both been left alone in their own respectable houses.

If we are basing their birthdays as the same as the irl NaMo, it would mean that Momo had to be 11 when her parents abandoned her. (Nayeon would be a year older, making her 18) (BUT, their birthdays could be adjusted to only being a few months apart making Momo 18 as well. Dunno. It’s up to Stormy.)

Regardless, now that Nayeon knows the root of Momo’s issues, she makes a promise that I don’t know if she will be able to keep. I want her to be able to keep it because they both need it, but habits are habits.

We end the chapter with the revelation of what we already knew, Nayeon is falling in love with Momo.

Will Nayeon’s mom be released from prison? Will Jihyo come back for revenge? Will something bad happen to Nayeon’s dad? Will water be involved at some point? What role does Mina have to play? Will NaMo be happy for once in this god damn fic?

Tune in next time.

Thank you for reading : )

#namo #IM FREE #gold dust

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