"Mmmm, happy Detrans December everyone! I am so excited I won the latest tag war, sorry Kara, better luck next year.... Or maybe you can join in with me and we can have ourselves another healthy competition? Just dm me if that sounds like fun, or do you just wanna jerk it to me going through male puberty and losing my gorgeous boobies? Either way....

Ever since I first found this tag I was so turned on by the idea. I started transitioning in like the sixth grade and I'm 20 now, so I've had no shortage of people try and detrans me already. Every single time it makes me rock hard. Always a new doctor, or boss, or some coworker that finds out. They start exclusively calling me by male pronouns and tell me how great I'd look if I detransitioned, that I'm already mostly a guy anyway, that I don't pass very well, and they always say me 'moobs' look ridiculous and I have to feel really embarrassed going out looking like this.....

I know it's just people being bigoted creeps, but every time it happens it turns me on so much. I have to run home and jerk off. You wanna know a secret? One of these pervy transphobes was a doctor I had a couple years back who put me on penile growth meds, despite me being on estrogen and progestrone. He said growing a 'fat cock' will make me realize I'm supposed to be male. I..... can't say he was wrong. He kept me on it for six months, and I had to find a new doctor when he outright prescribed me T, but I did fill my first script and have it waiting and ready to go. ❤️ I never post bikini pics or anything tight because my cock is already about a foot long and really thick. My balls are the size of plums! They make it kind of hard to sit sometimes. I bet if I went off my estrogen for just a day my body would be totally flooded with T from these things. Unsurprisingly I jerk off a lot, like a regular guy, I love having such a big fat cock. How could I ever pretend I'm a girl? I'm so silly......

So, as soon as I discovered Detrans December I looked up all the vids and whatnot and got totally addicted to all the pretty girls shooting up T and losing their girly bodies.... So the second I started getting tagged, you legit could not pull me away from my computer, I was scrolling through your tags and comments for hours a day, jerking off like a good boy.... Mmmm, I'm going to love finally taking T, although I love getting fucked too much to say I'll wind up as one of these straight gym dudes you see trans girls turn into.... Hey, Kara, you only live a couple hours away. What if we both became femboys.... dressed all girly, you have a big cock you were forced to grow, to.... I want our cocks so big they're impractical for fucking, they'll be way too fat.... They'll be perfect for our fans and random guys we meet at the club to abuse and smack around, same with our oversized testicles.... Won't that be so much fun? A couple of flat chested boys finally going through male puberty, hung like horses, just begging for our guy parts to be mistreated. I think we'd have loads of fun together, don't you? Oooo, we can even get top surgery together! I can't wait to lose these silly, fat boobs, and I know you can't wait to lose those ridiculous looking JJ-Cup boobs of yours..... I bet you're jerking off watching me say all this, aren't you? Good boy, now cum. ❤️"

The world is good, sometimes

So... I was getting pizza at this kebab joint today (Germany be like that).

And it was in this wreck of an Eastern German town, with more skeletons of former shops than is probably healthy for a town, with the kebab shop nestled into the side of a big chain super market. The town itself, btw, is about as conservative as the rest of East Germany right now, which... it’s not great. Quite the opposite of great, tbh.

Anyway, I was getting pizza, and as I was about to pay, the woman behind the counter gave me this look. This once-over that my mind immidietly filed as “oh no, this person heard of trans people”.

For context: I was wearing a binder, an MCR T-Shirt, men's shorts, and shoes with rainbow-coloured laces. I also still have a mowhawk, and had managed to give my order in my best approximation of a male voice that I can do without T. I also have zero reference for how well I pass when like this.

See, I'm an idiot, who's (relatively) fresh out of the closet, and still relies on being able to fall back on the old "oh no, I'm just very flat and gnc, haha" trick when necessary (or panicking), because that had and has worked for years (even on myself). Only that the trick hurts more, now, and I'm a really shitty liar when caught unawares.

So the woman gave me this look and I hurried to get my defences up. In my mind, I had been clocked, and this would be the first time I would have to deal with a bigot directly, and I was not prepared.

She counted out my change, handed it to me and asked, in a friendlier tone than I expected, as if she legitimately just wanted to check: “You are a boy, right?”

And I hesitated for maybe half a second (”This town is way more dangerous ground than uni, But you’re out of here within the next thirty seconds anyway, and this is the least painful way to get to the end of this exchange, so fuck it, you can bluff being cis.”), before I gave a nod (which, in retrospect, probably looked a little too enthusiastic and relieved for plausible deniability, but what can you do when social anxiety rules your brain). And she smiled and nodded, and I thought the exchange was over, but then she said:

“You know, there is someone coming in here every now and then, looks like a boy but is actually a girl.”

And I kinda stood there like... 'huh?', and I didn’t say anything to that, just took my pizza, nodded, said “Thank you” and disappeared onto the street.

The reason I write this post is... Like, I know how that last sentence sounds? But I’m telling you, I’m telling you, her smile was so warm and nice, I legit think she was being affirming. I don’t know if she was talking about a gnc woman or a trans woman (or both?), but I am quite certain she wasn’t talking about someone like me. And I am that certain, because... because she kept smiling at me like that, warm and friendly, even as my stupid voice cracked on the first syllable of “Thank you”. See... I think she knew, and I think she wanted to be nice and not assume, and so she just asked me, and then tried to reassure me, and...

And...

Well. Do you know The Grin? If you're trans, you most certainly do, and if you're cis... I guess it depends.

The Grin is a thing that happens when gender euphoria happens. It spreads across your face, and you can't stop it, you can't escape it, and it will stay there, it will stay and you will grin like a fucking idiot ("like a honey-cake horse", if you're German (gods, how I hate that phrase)), and it is the most wonderful thing in the whole world.

I was grinning like that all the way to the car, and for a good while after, and as I am typing this now, it is coming back to tug on my face yet again. Honestly, I'm kind of suprised I even made it to the car, because it wasn't just my face that had to yield to the joy. My whole body felt light as a fucking feather, my legs were half-way to jello by the time I got to sit down again, my chest felt like I could breathe fully and freely for the first time in millenia, and the whole time, I was feeling like I was a kid again, like nothing was wrong in the world, like magic was real and I alone got to see it.

The world is good, sometimes.

The world is good.

Genuinely so annoying when antis wish death on people for ships, someone responds with "Hey that's messed up, you're being a horrible asshole"

and the anti is like "YOU'RE HARASSING A MINOR"

No one had the time to check the profile for age/dni of every person whose post they interact with. Antis are unbelievably entitled to expect that and imo it's a bad faith shield to make threats against irl people consequence free.

I'm sorry that person was being horrible to you. Antis don't belong in the snapedom.

Yeah, I never check people's blogs before I reply, if they make their posts public and add tags then it's assumed that they do want others to see and possibly reply.

On a side note, I also think that I don't give a single fuck about DNIs, legit the only DNI that makes any sense to me is for minors, incidentally. "Bigots DNI" is always particularly hilarious, as if people do go around fully aware and proud that they're bigots. Though I guess DNIs do work in a way with me because no matter the DNI and whether I fit it or not, I assume the person is too immature to be on the internet and will certainly never interact with them.

I didn't think they were being that horrible, but I blocked both so it's all good now.

It's a shame though that even though we are part of a fandom that does get pretty intense hate at times, including threaths, some people lack the mental faculties to think that if it's bad for them to be insulted based on their fictional character, then it's equally as bad for them to do the same to others.

A minor who is capable of saying that others should die and that they'd help make it so, is also capable of being told that what they're doing is disgusting and this behavior doesn't belong in the Snape fandom.

Anyway, stan Snamione, Snarry and every other Snape ship!

The another anon talking about writing fanfic. Makes me wanna actually publish my stuff, but lately with all the hate and deactivating it’s spooking me off. Any advice on how to get the confidence to post that first fic? I just feel like everyone would hate it

okay as someone who has legit been bullied out of a fandom for my writing (not this one, Harry Styles) I do ACTUALLY feel qualified to talk about this:

you absolutely can and have the right to decide whether or not you want feedback/ what to do with it.

The ONLY feedback that you are morally REQUIRED to take whether you like it or not is if you accidentally write something racist/ bigoted, etc. (which....happens VERY RARELY) . Like if you accidentally did something like that and someone was like "hey thats not okay to say in a fic." thats the only time where you're wrong if you don't listen to feedback.

Other than that? tell people to fuck off.

If you're just doing it for fun, then as long as you are having fun you are doing it right. If other people also have fun reading what you write, great! tats even double the joy! If anyone comes across your work and doesn't like it, nobody is forcing them to read it, lol. the options are endless. they could browse for other fics.

Like a comment I constantly got on my Harry Styles stuff is that it was "dull" and "boring." But when I went back and looked at the fics that the hater anon said were boring, I saw that I wouldn't change them if I had the chance. I'd do them the same way all over again if I could. Cuz, in my mind, the level of detail I provided was necessary to the story. If they were not entertained by it, all they had to do was scroll away. But the kind of hateful energy that would compel someone to click on your profile, find the ask box, type out a mean message, and hit "send" without any regret....that tells me THEY are the ones with the problems, not me, lol.

HAS EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF FICTION YOU'VE EVER READ been perfectly to your taste? idk about you, but not for me. I've DNF'd many actual literary novels. no hate to the authors. Just not my vibe. Have i then sent hate mail to every single one of them? NO! cuz I have a functioning brain, lmao. and human respect.

So....why listen to anonymous strangers on the internet? just have fun! write what you wanna write! and if someone hates it, well, then they can take their hatred and shove it up their own ass. Nobody asked them anyway!