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lesenbyan · 16 days

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you know, I might be Stepping In It, but I really hate people's tendency to "you're lucky" when finding out someone's naturally skinny really piss me off.

I'm not saying there's not privilege to being skinny, there absolutely is in this fatphobic world. But as someone who has spent literally over half my life wishing I could gain any fucking weight ever it makes me so fucking mad. I've tried working out, I've had physically demanding jobs, I've tried, back when i could afford it, eating as much as I could handle. I have literal dysphoria about being skinny.

and then when I Go Off at a coworker for being the second person in a week to tell me I'm lucky- while wearing braces digging into my joints bc I am physically too small to wear them right but they don't get smaller- I'm told "oh but you have to realize we never considered the other side" sure! but I'm still allowed to get pissed! you would be too!

#personal;#i get it i GET IT we're not allowed to talk about skinny shaming.#I know this is nothing compared to what fat people have to go through #I know. I get it. I know.#but it's also so fucking invalidating to have to caveat my every complaint with 'other people have it worse'#like fuck maybe no one should be shamed for their bodies #maybe no one should be making off hand comments and assumptions about weight high OR low #like yeah the movement's not about me and i hate when ableds point out how accessibility can help THEM TOO so like #i get what I sound like #but I'm SO tired. I'm 29 and I've been trying to gain weight since i was like 13-15 #I've never even managed to hit 130 #I got close and then all my disabilities kept getting worse so then i couldn't work as much #and thus I can't afford food #so what i had built has been burnt #and I'm back to 120 and clinging with both hands to the hope I don't end up back at /115/ (I am 5'7". you can see my ribs)#like. I am NOT lucky. I can't sit or lay on a hard surface bc it hurts my bones #I can't cuddle well when I DO want to bc i'm just sharp bits #my proportions are so fucked that it's hard to find clothes that actually fit #like #I get it #I get what you're trying to say #but it hits trauma (ignored (JOKED ABOUT) eating disorder bc I'm skinny so it's Fine; repeated skinny shaming; etc)#and it's so exhausting not being allowed to be mad about it #If i had three wishes with no downsides the first would be to gain 50-100lbs and i've been saying that for over a decade #I'll probably regret posting this #ask to tag;

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