#but i'm inhaling a lot of books as my main source of comfort and constantly MADDing having friends and a caring s/o to cope
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i dont think i've (intentionally) spoken on this tumblr in a bit and i, like basically everyone else, am so so tired and so so sad
#sometimes i make a post for my private rant tumblr and post her here by mistake#my friend stops talking to me every winter & recently said 'thx for being understanding/patient' and tbqh i'm not#im tired of being semi ditched every winter i just have no friends so#ive also been talking to my therapist about how being able to function better in isolation & depression than others isn't the flex ppl say#“high functioning” my ass i WILL have a panic attack if one thing is out of place#i also never understood struggling with hygiene but recently realized its bc i'll have a beakdown if i don't take care of my hygiene#but sure sure i'm “high functioning” and can be ditched for months/dont need support/am not struggling#im not mad at her specifically but i am at the general mental health community and honest have a lot of thoughts about this#anyways i never bought my ipad and now likely never will#the parent i'm a dependent of (bc i cant afford to live) lost his job of 20+ years#and i had to say goodbye to my kitty cat last summer and that has destroyed me#and basically everything is awful#but i'm inhaling a lot of books as my main source of comfort and constantly MADDing having friends and a caring s/o to cope#i wouldnt say its going great theres cracks in my daydreams and im reminded of how isolated i am & have always been#anywho this was a lot of tmi and i miss my snuggle bug
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