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tortellinigirl · 2 years
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I feel like recently, ADHD has kind of become shorthand for “a person who is annoying online and has no real problems,” and I don’t really think that’s awesome news, given the context that ADHD has a long history of being disregarded as a made up disorder that’s just an excuse for poor/obnoxious behavior, no matter how much scientific research proves otherwise. ADHD is not by any means the only disorder that has people making a thousand misleading tiktoks about it, so perhaps do some critical thinking about why specifically ADHD has become the poster child for that behavior. There are certainly valid criticisms to be made of the way we discuss mental health online, but maybe use your brain and determine why this disorder in particular is the one that’s easiest to point at for being “annoying” and “not that big of a deal.”
#idk maybe if u actually watched a couple of the tiktoks u might learn that the lack of focus thing is reall not the main issue#its just what the people around us are most likely to notice and be bothered by#not saying it doesnt get obnoxious seeing people say the same thing over and over#and yes some people are like purposely vague and disingenuous about the symptoms to get views from people thinking they have it now#but i see that with everything. like autism PTSD depression OCD anxiety#im always getting tiktoks saying that im a lesbian or i have repressed memories or “x normal thing is a symptom of y disorder!!”#and yes its annoying but its probably somewhat helpful to people who actually are dealing w those things#and also like. if u simply stop treating ur for you page like a crystal ball that sees into your soul and reflects it back#and realize its just an algorithm designed to make u interact whether thats bc u like what u saw or fucking hated it#then u will not be as bothered !#but yes our generation seems to have a habit of constantly trying to find the right box to out ourselves in so we can be like. “marketable”#like people seem to want to design their personality like an movie character or something#but its so shitty that we’re dog piling all that on ADHD as if our specific disorder has anything to do with it#also personally i think its kind of normal to be really focused on a particular aspect of your identity when u just discovered it#and it usually evens out and just becomes part of the background of your identity#but yes there’s often a problem with pathologizing normal things#but i think its important to recognize that lots of things that are normal occasionally are pathological in excess. like thats how it works#like we’ve all been through how being sad sometimes is not the same as depression#why cant we grasp that occasionally going into a room and forgetting why you’re there isnt the same as ADHD#my posts
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Hi, I want to ask you for advice and vent with someone, I have suspected that I might be autistic from around a year ago, everything started because I love reading discoveries of neuroscience and some of them were articles about how the autistic brain works, then some social media videos appeared about social cues and things related to autism, that's when I agree with those internet people so much, and thought maybe I'm autistic, I started to do some research Wich I feel pretty similar to the things that were describe, then I took a test online ( I know that doesn't mean an official diagnosis) and my scores were pretty high, so seeing more experiences and research I felt like that explains most of my life, since I was kid I have sensory issues, mostly with clothes and noise, I love routines and I freak out when things chance (now I don't go with strict time sets but an order of how to do things) and I always eat in pairs so I felt that maybe that's why I'm like that. Now I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, PTSD, OCD and a problem with my inner ears. I accept that I have things that describe me that way but I feel like it's not everything I have. I told that to my mom and my psychiatrist and both of them said that I'm "normal" and have nothing to worry about. That stops me from calling myself autistic, but at the same time when I'm done with things I start to cry, yell, hit myself and most of the time I can't control it. I really don't know what to do and want some comfort. (Sorry for the bad English and a long text)
*warm autistic auntie hugs* I know these things can be difficult. Especially when people tell you that all your research has been for naught.
Firstly, you are welcome in this community, diagnosed or not.
Next, all those things you've been diagnosed with commonly co-occur with autism, too.
Lastly, here's a helpful TikTok that is an autism/ADHD life coach helping to explain self-diagnosis to a parent or loved one.
Please take care of yourself.
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☾Atsushi Headcanons!☽
TW FOR EATING DISORDERS, MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, SELF LOATHING, SWEARING, VOMIT, MALNUTRITION, MENTIONS OF TERRORISM, SU!C!D3(Dazais song), UNSAFE BINDING, PANIC ATTACKS, DEATH, ABUSE, CHILD DEATH, RELIGIOUS TRAUMA, ACCIDENTAL CANNIBALISM,
•He is trans masc(Hasn’t gotten top/bottom surgery yet) He uses He/They Pronouns
•He is a Polyamorous Demisexual Pansexual
•He has a whole slew of mental and physical disorders, he found out because Kunikida took him to get tested for autism
•Disorders he has: PTSD, OCD, ADHD, ADD, Autism, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, 3 Eating Disorders, Psychosis, Malnutrition, Schizophrenia, Borderline Personality Disorder, Tics and Tourette’s, restless leg syndrome, echolalia, and Cervical Dystonia
•After hearing this he just looked at Kunikida and asked, “Why am I collecting them?”
•He is a really good singer, he used to sing to younger kids at the orphanage who couldn’t sleep or were just having a bad day, it was the one thing he couldn’t hate about himself
•Once Kunikida learned Atsushi had never had a good father figure he started subconsciously acting like one towards him, checking in on him, teaching him things, defending him, buying him things, taking time out of his schedule to make sure he’s alright, driving him places etc
•Atsushi has and will eat small animals if given the chance
•He really likes Tangled because he finds Rapunzels story relatable, and because he likes chameleons
•He is a really good artist, he used to draw whenever he could in the orphanage
•Some of Atsushis Tics are: “We’ve been accused of Terroism!”, “Meow Meow!”, “Beep”, “Fuck you”, “Buzz Buzz”
•He has echolalia, and repeats a lot of things, such as: Dazais Su!c!d3 song, “Super Mystery Solver!” And “Rashomon!”
•Byakko is sentient and says the weirdest things, ex: “You should eat your ginger friend”
•Atsushi has a reflex similar to a cat where he will slap someone if they surprise him, leading to him accidentally bitch slapping Dazai
•Atsushi has VERY strong teeth, one time Ranpo brought jawbreakers to work and gave Atsushi one, Ranpo then started talking to Yosano when they heard a loud *CRACK*, and just see Atsushi chewing on a jawbreaker as if it was taffy. Everyone just stared and Atsushi was confused. (Kunikida panicked)
•After he ate all that Chazuke in the first episode, he actually ended up vomiting because his stomach wasn’t used to that much to eat
•He used to bind with bandages, But when Kunikida found out, he taught him how to properly bind
•He chews on everything he can, strings, yarn, rubber, electrical cords, you name it. Atsushi is basically a cat in that sense, Kunikida has bought him teething toys for this
•Tanizaki and Atsushi are best friends, Tanizaki knows the most about what happened to Atsushi at the orphanage, and Atsushi knows the most about his insecurities
•One time Atsushi was falling asleep on the agency’s couch and nobody had the heart to wake him up, eventually he had to. So Kunikida shook him awake, and in a soft tone said, “Cmon kid, you need to get up.” Atsushi mumbled and replied, “Just five more minutes dad….” Needless to say Atsushi got a lot more than five minutes, and if Kunikida cried, nobody said anything
•One time Kunikida arrived at the agency(He’s usually the first one there, only to find Atsushi there already started on work) Kunikida was very proud of him and pat his head
•Yosano made it her goal to get Atsushi to stop apologizing for everything, every time he does, she will stare at him until he takes it back
•Kunikida teaches Atsushi math whenever they have time
•Atsushi can only get drunk/high if something has catnip in it
•One time Atsushi broke a glass object at Kunikidas house, and in a panic attempted to clean it up with his bare hands, Kunikida comforted him and made sure he was alright
•Sometimes if someone praises him or pats him he will purr
•When he gets over emotional sometimes his ears and tail will pop out
•Atsushi stress bakes
•He’s not that good of a swimmer(Never got proper lessons)
•He tends to cover his ears whenever things get loud
•He enjoys sitting in sunspots
•He could decimate anyone with insults, you insult someone he loves? He will absolutely DESTROY you
•Atsushis favorite number is the date he met Kunikida and Dazai
•Despite not liking physical touch he is a clingy drunk
•He doesn’t have a lot of pop culture knowledge, so Dazai set up annual movie nights to teach him
•He has freckles
•Gets super bad nightmares
•He has really sharp teeth
•He has HORRENDOUS spice tolerance
•He’s never had “The Talk”
•He will sit in a box if given the chance
•Just like how a cat slow blinks at people it trusts, so does Atsushi
•He does the making biscuit thing that cats do
•One time the ADA found Atsushi curled up in a cabinet
•If Atsushi ever learned how to drive he would have EXTREME road rage
•He’s never been on a plane
•Naomi, Tanizaki, Atsushi, and Haruno get together every Wednesday after work, and just mess around, it’s a double date of sorts (Haruno and Naomi are dating) and Tanizaki and Atsushi are pining for one another
•He has a quiet sneeze, because people at the orphanage would get mad if he was loud
•He likes sitting out in the rain, Kunikida scolds him for tracking in water, and raising the chance of him getting a cold
•He is oblivious to flirting, you have to be VERY forward to get him to notice, and when he does he turns into a flustered mess
•At the orphanage he would take on a parental/Big Brother role for the younger kids
•He figured out he was trans when he was 13, after an older kid told him about it
•He’s not that good of a cook, he can make the basics but other than that he’ll get lost
•He’s not very good at fashion
•He had two close friends at the orphanage, Roberto(I named him after the bird from Rio 2) and Yūki
•One day during a cold winter, Yūki was punished for accidentally breaking a vase, she was thrown outside in the cold with nothing but an old cloak. The next morning Atsushi and Roberto ran outside to look for her, they saw something In the snow, and when they got closer they realized it was Yūkis dead body, she had died of hypothermia
•Roberto faked his death and ran away after this, leaving Atsushi all alone. I like to believe he ended up somewhere in Yokohama
•Atsushi loves strawberries, the first time he tried them he couldn’t help but just scarf them all down
•He can eat raw meat
•He has religious trauma, everyday at the orphanage he would pray that he would become someone worthy of life
•After Shibusawas murder, the headmaster fed Atsushi bits of his body. Atsushi was confused at the fact he was given more to eat and more often. He thought that he finally earned his right to live. He is completely unaware that he did this
•Everyone at the agency takes turns teaching Atsushi different things
•He wants to learn how to play the flute
•He can’t whistle
•He can see in the dark
•He likes to draw on his skin
•He hates the way his eyes look
•He has a cat-like tongue
•He can understand cats
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NINJAGO HEADCANONS FROM THE REAL KAI NINJAGO
Picrew by naylissah :)
Please refer to my age headcanon post for reference
(Warning for brief mentions of s/h, suicidal ideation, eating disorders, canon typical violence, and gender dysphoria)
A character named Day will be mentioned sometimes, that’s my s/i— he’ll be in the next post :]
Cole (he/him, gay)
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(The picrews depict him as a human and as a ghost— I would have made early seasons vs late seasons, but I headcanon that he used to straighten his hair instead of actually taking care of it, and there weren’t many straight hair options lol— anyway)
6’1”
Afrolatino
Has anxiety, OCD, depression, manageable aquaphobia (leftover from being a ghost), and PTSD
he has had a crush on Day since like early season one, but they didn’t start dating until after season five
Smoked cigarettes as a younger teen until Sensei made him quit when he started training— only Jay knows this
His best friends are Jay, Nya, and Day
Still feels kind of awkward with Zane, cause Zane and Day were dating for a few years
Has a tattoo of rocky on his back
Never really liked Sensei Garmadon, but still respects him
His hobbies include cooking, listening to music, dancing, drawing, and calligraphy
He actually becomes really good at cooking over time, he just sucked in like season one because he was still learning
Attended fancy private schools before running away
His favorite genres of music are classic rock and classical (like piano and shit)
Contrary to what some may think, he’s not actually naturally gifted at dancing. He still dances for fun, but was never exceptionally good at it
His OCD manifests through checking behaviors, like making sure all the doors and windows are locked
Used to s/h a lot but fell out of the habit when he became a ghost and has been clean for a while since then
Jay Walker (she/he/they, transfem sapphic bigender)
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(The picrews depict them in early seasons, like s1-3 and then later on, once she’s further along in her transition)
5’7”
Mixed white/japanese
Has anxiety, bpd, autism, and severe PTSD from the abuse they suffered on misfortune’s keep
Bleaches her hair, it’s naturally brown
Stims by playing with her hair— during prolonged periods of stress (like during any of the show seasons where they’re fighting bad guys for a few months) they get bald patches from tearing out their hair
Also stims by chewing and humming
Was homeschooled
Her special interests are Starfarer, space, robots/technology, and dinosaurs
Gets around four hours of sleep on average, spends a lot of time reading or playing video games at night
It took a really, really long time for her to learn to cope with everything that happened in season six. For a few months she couldn’t even train with the others because seeing someone raise a hand against her, even to spar, would trigger a panic attack
Infodumps a lot and never really feels shy about this because they grew up with the most supportive parents ever <3
Realized she was not cis all the way in season one, but didn’t bother to figure it out until they had some time away from the team in between seasons three and four
Started casually dating Nya in season one, fell really deeply in love, was heartbroken when Nya broke up w them for being too attached, was still in love with her all the way until several years later, when Nya fell back in love with her and they rekindled their relationship several years after season six. Nya was willing to try dating again because over the years Jay had matured and become more emotionally independent
Gets lichtenberg scars from using her lightning powers
Eyes glow when powered up
Over time she becomes really self conscious about her body, and no longer feels comfortable wearing anything that reveals their scars out in public— doesn’t mind changing clothes along with the rest of the ninja, though
The scar over her right eye is from something completely unrelated to ninja business, however— it’s a burn from an explosion when Jay was building an invention prior to meeting Wu
Her best friends are Cole, Day, and Nya
Kai Jiang (he/him, bisexual trans male)
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(Picrew depicts him in like season one vs the end)
5’4”
Mixed Latino/chinese
Has autism, depression, extreme aquaphobia, has recovered from an eating disorder, and PTSD
Nya is the only person who knows his deadname
Used to be extremely underweight because they had the type of body where, if thin enough for the fat to come off his breasts, his chests almost looked flat
He has since been able to go on testosterone and had top surgery, and is more comfortable gaining weight
The habit to always just say he’s not hungry was also influenced by him and Nya not having enough to eat as kids, so he’d always let her have as much of his food as he could get away with
After years of living with Wu (who is old and rich) he’s also grown slightly more used to having things and being able to eat as much as he needs
Doesn’t s/h on purpose, but subconsciously picks and tears at his skin, so he’s always covered in bandaids. He also acts recklessly in battle when he’s feeling suicidal
Always gets his hair cut by Nya— in fact, most of the ninja do
His joints are all weird from breaking them and not going to the doctor about it
Dropped out of school when his parents disappeared so he could focus on running the blacksmith shop— he wanted Nya to be able to stay in school, but that only lasted until around jr high, at which point they couldn’t afford tuition
He stims by hitting himself and doing repetitive motions (like clapping his hands or bouncing his leg)
He’s really insecure about his appearance because he thinks he doesn’t look as masculine as the rest of the team
Has a stuffed animal as his comfort item. He gave it to Lloyd as sort of an olive branch when they first started living with the team, but has since gotten it back
Had a crush on Skylor— they dated for a while, but broke up cause they realized they’d be better as friends lol
His best friends are Jay, Zane, and Day
Zane Julian (ai/him, queer, nonbinary)
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(Picrew shows Zane’s “human” appearance and after ai was rebuilt)
5’11”, 6’5” (rebuilt)
Dr. Julian modeled Zane after himself, so both of them are black and albino
(However, Zane has purple eyes because that was Dr. Julian’s favorite color)
Zane’s magical power source gives ai a more human consciousness, meaning ais capable of having depression and PTSD despite being a droid
Only uses “he/him” for convenience because ai presents masculinely— ai feels indifferent to the standard pronoun sets, but uses “ai/ai/ais” pronouns with close friends because it gives ai euphoria
(Ai/ai as in artificial intelligence)
Would definitely be dead if ai didn’t have Pixal to calm ai down during ais depressive episodes
Zane is the calmest and most levelheaded of the group; ai isn’t shaken by much— the one thing that truly scares ai is the fact that ais friends are mortal, and ai is not
Only ever talks to Pixal about being depressed. Pixal understands ais fears best because Pixal is also an immortal robot
Ai was dating Day from season one until the beginning of season three, when ai broke up with him because ai realized ai didn’t really love him that much.
Zane then pursued a queerplatonic relationship with Pixal, who ai felt a strong emotional connection to
Ai was rebuilt a lot bigger and stronger than before because the people on Chen’s island who repaired ai made ai to be the ideal fighting droid, and when ai had been built the first time ais only purpose was to enjoy life, not fight
The scar on ais face in the first image is from when the great devourer tried to stab(?) ai with it’s pointy tail, but just barely got a piece of ai’s face. Part of it fell off, but Jay welded it back on
Ais best friends are Pixal and Kai
Knows literally everything (is a robot) but ais weird power source can cause them to experience some human flaws, like forgetfulness
Nya Jiang (she/her, bisexual and demiromantic with a female preference)
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(Picrews show season 1 vs the end)
5’5”
Mixed latina/Chinese
Has OCD, PTSD, anxiety, and bipolar disorder
Younger than Kai by one year (they’re siblings fyi)
Doesn’t remember her parents very well
Feels responsible for making everyone in the group feel happy and safe
She gets recurring nightmares and experiences insomnia during stressful times in her life
Picks at her skin when anxious and has some scars on her face— she used to feel self conscious about them, but doesn’t really care anymore
Her best friends are Day and Zane
Used to straighten her hair
Ends up having the most tattoos and piercings out of the whole team
Is very competitive
When she and Jay were first dating, she didn’t view it as anything more than really casual kinda stuff because she saw them as more of a friend back then
Has always put a lot of pressure on herself to not be a burden ever since her and Kai’s parents disappeared
She has a really hard time asking for help because of this
She is closer with Sensei than the rest of the team, and views him as kind of a father figure
Secretly liked being samurai x more than the water ninja
Has an undercut now
Is really good friends with Pixal and Skylor
Okay that’s all for these characters— in my next headcanon post I’ll talk about my s/i, Morro, Pixal, Skylor, Ronin, Lloyd, and maybe some others!
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Okay, I need advice or information or something because I'm very confused right now.
So the name "Neurodivergent Brain Goblins" comes from these bits of myself that I've named and given an identity to in order to help other people understand my brain.
I've had neuropsych testing done (4.5 hrs of testing, surveys, and forms). They agreed that I have C-PTSD and dissociative symptoms with a somatoform disorder, but they don't agree that I have DID because I don't lose time and don't have other personalities that take over/replace mine.
My brain goblins are their own people but also are just me. Mini little parts of me that sometimes control more of my life than I often do.
Reynold is my logic. He is my assistant manager who definitely wasn't given enough training and is more of a glorified babysitter than anything else 😅 I honor the amount of shit he puts up with every day. He is second in command and acts as a buffer to all the other brain goblins.
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Then there is Jeff 🫠 I call him my ADHD goblin. Jeff loves buttons. He loves pushing them and watching them light up and hearing them make noise. Jeff also loves running around, jumping, making ridiculous noises, and seeing how many times he can do the same exact thing in a row before it pisses everyone else off 🤣 sometimes Reynold will give Jeff a tennis ball to go bounce against the wall for a while just so he can get some real work done.
(I'm not done drawing Jeff, but this is him so far 😊 he is a very mischievous little shit lol)
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I also have Frank my OCD Goblin. He carries around an abacus instead of a calculator because 1. He is obsessed with numbers and 2. Physically moving the pieces to count calms his anxiety 😅. Frank loves simple repetitive tasks that he can do on repeat so he can count them over and over again. He often teams up with Jeff because of this and then they bug Reynold all day. Kind of a "hey! Hey! Hey check this out! Look what we can do! Hey!"
Bobby is my Autism Goblin 🤣 I love him so much but like sometimes I just.. he tries so hard and his effort is absolutely beautiful, but he just isn't good at any of it 🙃 he is the director of communication, so anytime I socialize Bobby shows up to help navigate talking. But like he just REALLY isn't good at it 🤣 the heart and soul he puts into it though is why he is still the communications director 🥰
I also have Manic Manny, Depression Dave, Sensory Sally. Though they like to work from behind the scenes. Their control is really strong but everything they do is by sneaking up and whispering in Reynolds ear and *poof* disappearing. He can't ever see them, but the weird creepy crawly feeling they give him makes him act on what they said every single time.
There are lots of other Goblins that work in this factory, but they are more like background characters? Like, everyone has a job, but most are just quiet office workers that help to keep the lights on 😅
If you have read this far thank you so much!! My question now is, what are my brain goblins? Is this DID or is it something else?? Tbh I don't really care what it is because these are my Brain Goblins and I love them no matter how much they annoy me 😅 but I also like learning information because sometimes it can really help me with managing life lol
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chaosismynamemf · 1 year
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Here are headcanons bc i decided im not going to wait for someone to ask for them bc im not a wuss PT. 1
I SAID IT BEFORE AND ILL SAY IT AGAIN
REGULUS ARCTURUS BLACK IS REALLY FUCKING TALL
Remus and lily are also pretty tall
James and sirius are short kings
peter's average height and hes chill with that
hes also carries himself really like idk proper? idk. He just unconsciously has really good posture. its so fuckin elegant (Bc you KNOW that shit was drilled into him asap. sirius was the same way i think lol. I think my mans literally trained himself to slouch.)
ALSO- I regulus has autism (ik its a popular hc but idc if its popular i agree with it and i love everyone being nd and gay and pwinpiwnpinqfp I NEED REPRESENTATION ALR??)
Reg also has bipolar disorder and anxiety ptsd and depression
Sirius has bpd and ocd and ptsd bc i have bpd and ocd and i said so
james has adhd
remus has depression and anxiety
peter is the token nt friend lmao once again hes just chillin
hes vv supportive tho and is as helpful as he can be you wont catch him slippin and being ignorant and weird about his friends and they mental illness. Nuh-uh no sir.
Ok so i dunno much about the slytherin skittles or like Marlene, dorcus (is she apart of slytherin skittles?? idk man) ,mary, etc etc
But i see them everywhere in the fandom sooooo yall best be aware ive gotten attached to these fuckers
Marlene
She is SO FUCKIN HOT
Gods
So hot
She could step on me
Her and sirius are besties. Leather jacket duo if you will.
OK BUT REGULUS IN PLATFORMS???
Just thought of that and i am in love
Ugh this man is my everything
i honestly just wanna be his best friend
deadass
but anyways
i actually like the idea of regulus and sirius having similar music tastes and exchanging music reccs
dont come at me lmao
Literally reggie and sirius are just 2 sides of the same coin
this post is getting really fuckin long. BUT IDC
i wanna talk about my VERY MUCH ALIVE AND WELL AND HAPPY gay wizards
i dont know much about other cultures or anything like that.
so im not gonna go willy nilly and assign a bunch of headcanons on race or ethnicity or whatever
but i am TELLING YOU, YEA YOU
my wizard babies were not all white
We can all agree on this yes?
james has a little bump on the bridge of his nose.
And dimples
regulus and sirius getting drunk would either be really really funny or really really depressing
There is no in between
regulus is the type to not heavily drink all too often but when he does? my mans is blackout
the next morning? he dont know shit, legit if he DOES remember anything? hes like "mustve been a funky dream"
Yes regulus says funky
i honestly dont gaf that marauders era is set in like the 70's
Regulus deadass acts like gen Z incarnated, and you wouldnt be able to snatch this from my cold dead hands
even then i wouldnt let go
id wake up to bitch slap you
bitch
ANYWAYS
I think that regulus has like really explosive anger and sirius actually has like the quiet, you know im angry, what'cha gonna do about it?
my logic is that regulus has for the longest time kept all of his emotions and opinions to himself bc he literally couldnt express them because he was barely surviving as is
regulus speaking his mind about anything would be suicide
Now the opposite is for sirius ofc
sirius from pretty early got to scream and shout what he thought and felt until he lost his voice
He got a lot of it out of his system
he hasnt HAD to bottle up enough anger to be explosive
Also jus sayin i set all of this in a everyone lives, nobody dies universe
voldemort is killed in the 1st war because regulus survived the cave and ended up on Order of the phoenix's doorstep bein like
"Let me in, i got sum shit to tell you"
Man's is soaking wet and has a look so intense noone can tell him no
And so my mans joins the order and ends the war MUCH MUCH EARLIER
pop off buddy
love ya, mean it
nobody really trusted him at first
and i mean it
regulus was vv alienated at first (Not by dorcus, but dorcus is only one person and cant keep the caution and disgust and animosity away completely)
and you know what??
He was hurt he was angry he was depressed and he was so so over this shit
So he screamed until he was hoarse and told them to get their heads outta their asses bc he was here to help and here to stay
he knows he fucked up and he is self aware to know that he couldve been called the "bad guy" on many occasions
but that doesnt fuckin matter anymore because hes apart of their little hero club now and he is not being shunned just because he was a dumb kid who made mistakes
long story short my dudes like "SO-if you're going to talk shit, either say it to my face or keep quiet. ight?"
vv quickly after that people choose to keep quiet and actually yknow interact with him and see for themselves that he is not the boogie man hiding under their bed waiting to fuck them over.
I love angry, unhinged, doesnt gaf anymore regulus
Hes been through too much to be calm cool and collected towards people who he doesnt give a shit about (i mean he will but still)
ANYWAYS (can you tell i have adhd? if not i vv much am)
Regulus yanks his school besties (Even and barty) away from voldemort. I think my mans straight up yoinked them.
after the war he reaches out to pandora
this is getting really long so i will make another part lmao
LOOK YOU CANT BLAME ME
these characters couldve been so dynamic and complex
and jkr ROBBED US
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lilflowerpot · 1 year
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Ok, so I just read your Q'tskraal post and I know it was was literally posted yesterday, but I have a question. What if a child was disabled enough that they literally could not complete Q'tskraal? Also, how would the Galra in general react to a disabled child? What about a child that was seriously injured by an adult? And finally, do the Galra have an equivalent of neurodivergence, such as autism or adhd?
(cont.) Also, little side note: I was the person who asked if an altean alchemist could create a person, and which lion Lotor would pilot. The reason they were anonymous is because I was too lazy to make a tumblr account until recently lol
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albinism, melanism, & genetic mutations | PTSD & service animals | mental health & disabilities | galra coming-of-age (Q'tskraal)
So because I'm not sure whether you meant to ask this in terms of physical or mental disability, I'm going to address both while still attempting to keep this answer as short as possible (which, because it's me, is still not especially short rip).
What with the Empire's emphasis on strength as a core cultural value, they've naturally invested a great deal of time and energy into prosthetics, something we see plenty of evidence of in canon—bionic arms for Shiro / Sendak / the Beta Traz Warden, a bionic leg for Ezor (s07), bionic eyes for Sendak (again) / Branko / Ranveig / Janka, and what is seemingly some sort of respiratory apparatus for the Archivist—and considering that this technology is so apparently commonplace in Imperial circles, I imagine that any and all of the Empire's physically disabled children would be offered whatever aids they required long before their Q'tskraal. As I said in my post on albinism/melanism, "Imperial medical science is excellent, and their prosthetics are often superior to the biological counterpart," meaning that there's little reason any child with a disability of this nature would be unable to participate. As for less obviously visible but still physical disabilities, such as chronic pain, I would be inclined to say that the galra, with all their millennia of scientific advancement and quintessence experimentation, have likely found a way to mitigate these conditions if not cure them entirely.
Mental disabilities, however, are quite often more complex and nuanced than their physical counterparts.
In imperial circles, mental health is almost entirely destigmatised; as with everything, there are always exceptions to the rule, but broadly speaking the galra don’t think of poor mental health as any more a show of weakness than, say, a broken limb… it’s simply a medical issue that needs professional treatment and support so that the affected individual may be as happy and healthy as they are able. [...] For things such as PTSD / anxiety / depression / OCD / bipolar / schizophrenia, psychiatric service animals (such as Laika!) are quite common throughout the Empire, and the support and companionship that they provide to their assigned individuals is considered invaluable.
So disabilities of this nature would be taken into account by the organisers of any given Q'tskraal during the planning stage. Said organisers do, of course, ensure they are intimately familiar with which members of the community will be eligible to participate when the time comes, as this ceremony is such an important one, and all pains are taken to ensure that any and all necessary accommodations can be made for all those that might require them (such as designing a Q'tskraal that avoids any individual participant's notable triggers).
Neurodivergence as a whole would, I think, exist in most (if not all) sentient beings across the universe, because brain chemistry is so varied and complex that I fail to see how it could not? To use your examples, the galra likely wouldn't know autsim or adhd by the same names that human do, but I've no doubt they'd have an equivalent! Just as with physical disabilities, every effort would be made to best accommodate any neurodivergent participant's needs as illustrated in the previous paragraph, so that they too may participate on equal footing with the rest of their peers. That being said, these things do exist on a spectrum, and this brings us to the most severe of intellectual disabilities / developmental delays, which I am,,, wary of addressing incorrectly, because I know that infantilisaion is a huge issue faced by the disabled community, so I //obviously// do not wish to add to that in any way. That being said, the purpose of a Q'tskraal is to serve as a marked transition "from the role of protected to protector" which, if an individual's condition were exceedingly severe (ie. the person in question will never mentally progress beyond a certain age, or be able to function independently in any way) is not a role they would be called upon to fulfill. Such a person would instead become known as ghijmiitah—translated from zaalkh to mean "frozen youth" and thought by those who believe in reincarnation to be souls newly born of Sa—remaining a very much loved and cared for dependent throughout their entire lives, and being attended to by the local community as a whole.
As for how imperial citizens would react to a disabled child, I've addressed almost this exact query before—
By virtue of being galra, any given individual would be considered a beloved child of Sa, and there is an inherent and entirely unmatched value in that; the true glory of the Empire is, after all, only as brilliant as the kindness and dignity with which its most vulnerable members are treated.
—and so whether the disability in question is mental or physical, it wouldn't matter! Children are immeasurably precious to the galra, so any half-decent member of the Empire would be nothing less than unfailingly gracious and compassionate, as to do otherwise would be widely viewed as a disgusting breach of etiquette and quite the indictment on the individual's character. To answer your final question, any adult who (deliberately) harmed a child would not only be tried to the fullest extent of the law, but as such a thing goes against the very core values of Imperial culture, they'd also become a social pariah and likely be disowned by their blood-family for their unthinkable actions.
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mossyotherkin · 11 months
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Welcome
Hello! My name is Mossy or Oren I go by they/them pronouns and neos I dont want to list so heres a link to my pronouns page. This is a side blog for my therianthropy and otherkin related things! My main blog is an agere blog so I follow from there, that being said, there will most likely be things that could be scary to people who are regressed on this blog.
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Some info:
• Minor
• I am a shapeshifterkin (main forms of fox/cat) and gobelinkin.
• I have autism, C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, fibromyalgia, sjogren's syndrome, and many other things that are currently in the process of being figured out
• I am native american, specifically Sihásapa Lakota or Blackfoot Sioux (both are names for the same thing)
• I speak English and a little bit of ASL and have been trying to learn Japanese and Lakota
• I love everything that has to do with forests and leaves and moss (hence my name)
• I also love liminal spaces
• My friend is in the process of raising money to get a trained service dog, you can support them here or by reblogging this post
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Resource Lists:
I love doing list of resources for people! Feel free to request one based on your kintype. If you want to include specific things on the list go ahead! Or if you want specific things not on the list thats cool too. Sometimes I cant find specific things for certain kintypes so please be patient with me.
I may decline requests due to feeling uncomfortable or other factors. In that case I will dm you, the cause may be explained or may not. Before making a request check to see if I've already made it.
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Resource lists typically include:
• Documentaries and shows
• Gear
• Video games
• Conservation projects on your kintype (if applicable)
• Picrews or other maker things
• Comics, books, or legends
• General info and ways to feel more connected to your kintype
• Really just anything that might be useful or give you species euphoria!
Things I will NOT put in or make resource lists about:
• nsfw
• living people
∙ South Park
(this section may be expanded)
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#mossys art - my art on this blog
#mossy rambles - random little things and textposts
#mossys sources - alterhuman resources
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• those with disorders such as DID, OSDD, BPD, ASD, ADHD, OCD, (C) PTSD, schizophrenia, anxiety, depression, clinical lycanthropy, ect.
• those with delusions and hallucinations
• alterhumans
• BIPOC
• those of any religion (my dni says christians but its only if you post christian content, it just makes me uncomfy because of things I've been through)
• sfw furries
• those with eating disorders as long as they are trying to recover and not spread unhealthy body image
• those who are plus size/fat (fat is not a dirty word!)
(will add to this)
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• MAPs of any variant (even NOMAP)
• kin for fun
• trans-abled
• racist
• ableist
• sexist
• xenosatanism
• homophobic or exclusionist
• transphobic
• terf
• anti-therian/otherkin/fictionkin
• anti-sfw furry (this is only if you are against them, I dont want to interact with people who are actively hateful)
• anti-system
• thinspo or proana
• anti-agere/dre
• anti-petre/dre
• ddlg, abdl, or related things (even "sfw")
• post christian content
• post about anything nsfw
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isitautism · 9 months
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I first started researching Autism
when people started asking if I was Autistic just a few years ago. At first I was like, "what?? no!" because it seemed so far-fetched according to the information I was familiar with at the time. But the more people asked me, the more I started wondering why they were asking. It was too coincidental that different people, unrelated, never in contact with one another, months or years apart, would ask me the same thing. That's what prompted me to start looking more into Autism and symptoms of Autism.
That is when I realized that Autism explains everything. All the questions I've ever asked myself, all the ways I've felt different from others, and gives reason to the way I've always done things and felt. The diagnoses I've received have been like wearing shoes that are half a size too large all your life, and although they're not quite right, you can wear them, so you do. But reading about Autism and stories from other Autistics' perspectives feels like receiving the first-ever correctly fitting shoes in my life. I never realized the old shoes didn't fit me until I received these and felt how comfortable they were; I didn't realize how much I felt like my diagnoses of depression, social anxiety, C-PTSD and OCD didn't quite fit. I aligned with some symptoms of each, but others didn't feel like me. While researching the Autism Spectrum Disorder, I realized that this is it.
I had to start by reflecting on my childhood. Instead of applying the symptoms to myself as I am now, I started thinking about what applied to my child-self, and I realized that I fit the bill. In fact, much of my behavior in early childhood was telltale of Autism, but my family was unaware and therefore I never got assessed or diagnosed. I was just "weird," "quirky," "shy," "quiet," "smart," etc. and I excelled with school work, my teachers loved me and I had an impressive vocabulary from a young age. In reality, though, I began the masking process at a very young age. Walking on the balls of my feet was corrected by my mother, avoiding eye contact was corrected by my uncle, and any other behavior that I noticed family members or teachers or friends in school mention was a little strange, I began self-correcting in order to call less attention to myself. I didn't realize what was happening.
My entire life until now has been a long road of masking and internal emotional and mental battles I fight by myself, that no one else can see. I realized Autism is called a hidden disability for a reason.
This blog is dedicated to writing about my experiences and reflecting on feelings and discoveries I have along my journey of self-discovery with Autism.
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it's so interesting to me that mental health and neurodivergence have long been interests of mine, and I've always looked at them from an "outside" perspective. not in a sense that I've looked down on them or thought they were "other" or anything like that, but I've just... always thought they were something I had no personal connection to? something that I had a mostly-academic interest in and no real ties to lived experience with.
but in the last few years, I've come to the slow realization that... I think mental health struggles and neurodivergence possibly run in (both sides of) my family?? and most of my extended family from previous generations would NEVER admit to it because they come from a time and culture where those things are kept very private and just not something you talk about. 
but like, I'm fairly certain that OCD runs through one side of my family. I know that tics/Tourette's do. I suspect that AD(H)D might as well. I also know there's at least one cousin who's already been diagnosed with autism, and I can see pretty clear autistic traits in multiple other family members on that same side of the family, including myself and my mother (some of the reasons I think this: I was speaking in full advanced sentences at about 18 months old, reading college-level literature at 8-9 years old, and at different points had to have sit-down conversations with my parents about needing to make a deliberate effort to make eye contact and refraining from "compulsively" talking about and comparing everything to a special interest. I was actually formally banned from talking about one media series I loved for a whole week, because it was literally all I talked about, and it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do at that point in my life. I struggled a lot with twitches/tics and repetitive behaviours when I was young; I still find it very easy to lapse back into those behaviours if I'm stressed or tired.) 
my mom has struggled with significant depression during various points of her life, as have I. at least one of my sisters has social anxiety; I suspect that my father does as well. I know one family member who likely has PTSD (due to experiences during military service) that's never been dealt with, and another (who was the victim of a violent crime) probably does, too.
and it's just... I've struggled to apply any of these labels to my own family because there's nothing official there. no doctors have assigned any titles or labels to us. I don't want to be the person who takes one college-level psych class and suddenly starts diagnosing everyone they know. but somehow, everything makes more sense when I start to look at the people around me, the ways they've been raised and have learned to operate in the world, and the ways that have in turn affected me, through these lenses? suddenly, we aren't just bizarre and dysfunctional, but our dysfunction has a rhyme and a reason.
and most importantly, I start to see hope. I see where the struggles and sins of my family members don't have to be repeated, where help can be asked for and received, because suddenly the real problems at the heart of all this mess have been uncovered, and instead of just trying to muscle through to prove my own worth, to show that I am worthy of a place in this world without needing any "special favours," I see where I can ask for grace and compassion and love and receive it.
#idk maybe none of this makes sense?#but I heard a family member say recently that another family member is incapable of showing affection#and that the same is true of their parent#and I worried that it might be true of me. that maybe people who could someday love me are destined to always be hurt and let down#because I'm incapable of showing love like they've said those others are#but... struggles to show care and affection in ways that other people (neurotypical people) can understand and accept#is a very common autistic trait#and so this all makes sense if there's a possibility that the people in question here are on the spectrum?#and not only does it comfort me that we're not just messed up. we're not just aliens or freaks or broken.#but there have been other people who have lived this way. and people who have lived with them.#there have been many people who have loved and been loved by autistic people (and people with other mental/neurodivergent issues)#and so maybe if I can just understand myself and the people who have created me as I am... maybe I can do life better than they did?#maybe I can avoid experiencing and inflicting some of the hurt?#and maybe I can reach a hand back through history and try to help them too? and if they're not around anymore#or if they can't really be helped like that#maybe at least honouring them by acknowledging them and trying to understand them and who they were... maybe that's worth something too?#neurodivergent#adhd#autism#idk even how to tag this y'all#2 a.m. ramblings with gurt are back#I may delete this in the morning but for tonight...#for tonight I just need to say all this and get it out of my mind so I can sleep
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allthislove · 1 year
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There's merit in self diagnosis (especially for people without access to good Healthcare/mental Healthcare and because of stigma that can come with formal diagnosis), but TikTok has literally everyone convinced that they're neurodivergent because of behaviors that are typical. There's a reason why diagnosis has thresholds. Like, a lot of people are bothered by certain sounds or smells or whatever, but what makes it a sensory issue is when it's chronically disruptive or you need special ways to cope with how the sensation effects you. People will hear "sensory issue" and be like "omg when I was 5 I couldn't stand the way the glue felt on my fingers in class!" Yeah, that could be a sign of autism, or you... just didn't like the way the glue felt.
Neurotypical doesn't mean "automaton with no variance from the other automatons". People have different things that they like, that bother them, that they don't understand and do understand, that they are averse to. And yes, that can make diagnosis difficult, but that's why there are diagnostic thresholds.
Just like being afraid isn't the same as having an anxiety disorder.
Just like being sad isn't the same as having clinical depression.
Maybe you just didn't like peas. Maybe you just bounce your leg when you're bored. It doesn't necessarily mean you're autistic or ADHD or both. It can help you recognize that you might be neurodivergent in some way, but these are not diagnostic. They're just quirks, and anyone can have them.
Neurotypical doesn't mean you are a cookie cutter person with the exact same temperament as all the other neurotypical people. I see far too many TikToks like "Omg I liked to color code my crayons when I was a kid! I was so (insert diagnosis)". A lot of kids color code. You spend a lot of time in elementary school and daycare/preschool learning about colors and sorting. Those are developmentally typical things to do. That's why schools aren't just calling every kid who hums and daydreams ADHD. It's developmentally normal for children. It's why schools don't call every kid who is afraid of loud noises autistic. It's developmentally typical for young kids to be afraid of loud noises.
Further, not everything about a neurodivergent person is because they're neurodivergent. Their neurdivergence might affect the way they communicate or how they react or something, but they are still people. Just like there's a difference between a true concern (I am worried that my son has diarrhea today) and an irrational anxiety (I am worried that my itchy arm is really skin cancer, though there's no evidence and low risk.) Neurodivergent people can just like things or not like things or do things. Just because an ND person does something, doesn't mean everyone who also does that thing is ND.
I say this as a person with a lot of diagnoses. Self diagnosis can be very helpful. I knew I was OCD before anyone told me professionally. I knew I had PTSD before my therapist confirmed it. But you also have to recognize when symptoms overlap and they don't apply to you. OCD makes me feel paranoid, and schizophrenia also makes people paranoid sometimes, but my symptoms don't align with schizophrenia because my worries aren't based in delusion and I don't experience psychosis. (Although I'm aware that some anxiety disorders and depressive disorders can coincide with psychosis and mania, but these aren't things I experience.)
Also be mindful that social media makes neurodivergence and mental illness seem trendy and cute. I remember when it was popular on this sight to claim everything was an anxiety disorder. Self diagnosis can be helpful, but be mindful that it's not always accurate.
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pelle-ohlin · 2 years
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I want to talk for a little while, anonymously, about how hard it was to get diagnosed properly with mental illness as a person “assigned female at birth”.
(For the record, I don’t consider myself “female” except as in body. I recognize all people with this anatomy will share a certain experience and bond that can not be undermined or even shed. I have always been male on the inside since I was a child, but the world was never ready to give me the . . . uh, reception I desired, so I repressed it - More on this later. At this point I honestly consider myself a “starseed unconcerned with gender, but somewhat obsessed with its presentation due to toxic patterns from the previous generation.” I think of gender presentation as a way to fuck with people and get what you want, and nothing more.)
But anyways. 
It took me ten years and more false diagnoses than I could count to get diagnosed with the proper conditions and to find a medication that would actually help. The conditions I actually have are “Autism Spectrum Disorder” (formerly known as aspergers, which I greatly prefer. I hate the new umbrellization of it), ADHD, and OCD. There is also some schizophrenic overlap, but my psychologist can’t really figure that one out to this day and says it’s probably just the autism and OCD manifesting in weird ways. He does not think I have true schizophrenia.
The only drug that actually helps me is Adderall--also known as Amphetamine-Dextroamphetamine--basically meth. Benzos would MASK the symptoms but not HELP like Adderall does. (And thanks to constant fuckups from doctors and endless misdiagnoses, I’m still addicted to Klonopin to this day, although now I mainly use it to get to sleep)
Things I’ve been misdiagnosed with:
General anxiety disorder
Panic disorder
PTSD
Schizophrenia
Bipolar disorder
Depression (I probably do have this because I talk about killing myself like every other day lol. But it was a symptom, not a cause)
And this is ALL BECAUSE DOCTORS CAN’T ACCEPT THE FACT THAT PEOPLE BORN WITH FEMALE ANATOMY “CAN’T HAVE AUTISM OR ADHD.”
After FINALLY. FUCKING FINALLY. getting diagnosed with (SEVERE) ADHD as an adult last year, I’ve completely turned my life upside down. I’m serious, it’s fucking clown world levels of bizarre. I’m able to function socially on a level that makes no sense. I was able to get a job that pays more than both my parents combined in like 2 months. I can sit down and write 4,000 words in one day where before I would struggle with a couple hundred.
And when I look back, the signs are fucking absurd. I have fucking EVERY PRESENTATION of early childhood severe ADHD. Screaming in the halls, getting up and walking around during class, doing bad in school despite being really smart, blah blah blah. I was abused by the Catholic school system instead of actually being treated, but that’s another story in itself.
Same with Aspergers. Jesus fucking christ how obvious was this one? I used to run an entire fucking blog focused entirely on dead. I get hyper-interested in things and lose my goddamn mind. Socializing is like navigating a fucking mouse maze in flowers for algernon for me (after he starts getting stupid again). I’ve felt like an alien since my first sentient memory.
But no, since I was born “female,” doctors always wrote it off as “anxiety.”
When I take Adderall, the anxiety is gone completely. It feels like I can focus. It feels like I was blind all my goddamn life and now I can fucking see. 
The benzos would just fucking put a god damned blanket on the fire. This shit actually calms me down and makes everything clear. Imagine the shit I could have done if I got on it before I was 30 years old.
But anyways, I was also thrown countless antidepressants, weird anxiety medications, even antipsychotics . . . But when I for the first time took that little blue pill . . . I was like ...... Oh.
I’m not talking “I shift around a little bit in my seat and feel edgy” I’m talking the ADHD was so bad my mind would be racing in fucking crazy thought loops LITERALLY 14 hours straight sometimes. It was literal torture combined with the pure O-type OCD. Horrible.
It feels like I’m alive again when I take this shit. When I take the benzos I feel dead.
(I have an atypical response to all SSRI-type antidepressants so for anxiety benzos are my only option. But surprise, IT WASN’T ANXIETY you god damnd idiots)
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poppyseed799 · 2 years
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People are so ridiculous about people “faking mental illness” nowadays
Like I get it, there is a sudden influx of people faking disorders and such, and we should be wary of that, BUT YOU CAN’T ACCUSE EVERY PERSON WHO SAYS THEY HAVE TOURETTE’S OF LYING! It’s unrealistic that nobody on Earth has Tourette’s!!
I see people list the like 4 mental illnesses that they have and people say “ugh another person faking mental illness for attention” FOUR??? THATS NOT A LOT!!! ITS NOT UNREALISTIC!!! Especially when there’s like depression, anxiety, ptsd, etc. Those things are fairly common in this day and age, PTSD could happen to literally anyone as there are many traumatic events a person could potentially get into.
And then ADHD and autism “oh that must be fake” THOSE TWO COMMONLY GO TOGETHER A LOT. IT’S REALISTIC. If someone told me they had autism, adhd, depression, anxiety, and ptsd, I would believe it because there’s no reason those things wouldn’t possibly go together. Not saying they have to, I have autism and no depression after all, but it’s not unrealistic that they would.
And things don’t even have to go together! My mom has autism and bipolar disorder. Those things aren’t connected (as far as I know?), they’re just two things a person could have, and she has them. Yet if some random NT on the internet heard me say my mom was autistic and bipolar they’d say I was lying. HOW IS THAT UNREALISTIC. Unless they think autistic bipolar ppl can’t have kids, which is another issue entirely 🤔
Another thing is when someone says they think they have something, and people instantly jump to tell them they’re faking. WHY??? “You can’t just say you have it” THEY DIDN’T?? THEY SAID THEY MIGHT??? “You can’t SUSPECT you have something, you need a diagnosis” HOW TF DO YOU THINK PEOPLE GET A DIAGNOSIS. THEY SUSPECT THEY HAVE IT FIRST. I was never tested for schizophrenia cuz there was never any reason to think I had it! The only reason people get tested for it is when they think they might have it! How is this so hard to understand?
I currently think I might have OCD, can’t wait to be told “quit faking for attention” when I’m not even claiming to have it. You don’t know why I think I might have OCD. You might assume it’s for dumb reasons and I’m just stupid, which is possible, but YOU DON’T KNOW FOR SURE. In truth my therapist (and psychiatrist) wanted to get me a diagnosis but didn’t notice any compulsive behaviors, since mine aren’t that noticeable/can look like stimming (and everyone knows I have autism). Even without a diagnosis he tried to give me therapy strategies meant for OCD ppl and described my anxieties as “OCD-like thinking”. I only googled OCD AFTER all of that and while you can say “googling disorders and deciding you have it isn’t good” FIRST OF ALL I’m not diagnosing myself and SECOND OF ALL the fact that all of the lists of OCD symptoms made me go “oh shoot” probably means SOMETHING lol. I only did it after what my therapist said anyways.
And then my mom said “oh yeah your grandfather was OCD” and I said GOD DAMN IT because I seem to have literally everything he has for some reason (idk if he was diagnosed or if my mom just said that tho)
Anyways my point is it’s REALLY annoying when people claim someone is faking a disorder with NO EVIDENCE. Like if you’ve been around them a lot or it’s one of those tiktok things so you can see a lot of what they’re doing, then maybe you could think “this seems fake”. BUT IF SOMEONE JUST SAYS “I have ADHD” THERE IS NO REASON FOR YOU TO DENY IT.
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YuuMori has a lot of villains (it’s, y’know, about the villains). YuuMori has a lot of characters with mental illnesses and neurodivergences.
Most of the time when you see this combo, well. Mental health issues have a pretty strong stigma.  Usually the reason they’re evil. Something’s just wrong with them, and their mental health and inability to fit into society is another sign and symptom of it.
And yet, in YuuMori, we have these characters who call themselves demons, who are actively, intentionally, the villains of their story­—and their mental health issues are not one of their sins. They do not add to their villainy.
So Albert is obsessive-compulsive. Whether it’s OCD or OCPD can be argued, maybe (although I lean toward OCPD, myself), but he is in fact seriously mentally ill, desperate enough because of it to commit murder. Personality disorders especially are hard to treat, in part because they’re so ingrained into a person. Someone with generalized anxiety might see their anxiety as separate from themselves, but personality disorders are harder to distinguish that way—and it’s part of what makes them so easy to demonize, even more than most others.
But Albert’s? Instead of making his mind looked warped and twisted, his very soul seeming wrong, his reasoning makes more sense now than it ever did before. This was a boy desperate for relief from constant discomfort, from the dissonance between how he knew this should be, how he’d been taught things were meant to be, and how they so obviously were. And it’s very obvious that he is suffering from something outside himself. He is not suffering because he is evil and his soul is wrong. He was suffering before he’d done anything wrong at all.
His discomfort was one of the most rawly emotional moments he’s ever had: Albert is usually quite cool and collected, sometimes angry, sometimes smug, but he has typically felt quite distant, even on the rare moments his internal thoughts are shown. His mental health issues, his suicidal ideation, his OCD? Those were not villainous, not cool, not collected, not careful. Those were human and desperate and fragile.
And while autism is not a mental illness, in this case it performs a similar function for William. He and Albert both have brains screaming at them constantly because that’s not right. That’s not Just. That’s not the way things should be. That doesn’t follow the rules. This can bring people with obsessive-compulsion disorder to their knees and claw their own skin open. It can bring autistic people to wordless shutdowns. It brought Albert the brink of suicide and William to murder.
They are in agony. Unless they fix the wrongness. And they have tried, so many ways, to fix it, and so many of those ways have fail.
William’s guilt may also be agony, but he’s choosing between two different forms of torment. And he thinks one helps others. Not much of a decision, that, not for someone with a soul and a heart, someone who burns so hot with love and hate that he has to turn it into something.
William’s depression, his mental illness, the way his brain doesn’t conform to society, his guilt, his understanding of his own misdeeds is so deep and his self-image so wholly negative, compared how virtually every other character in this series, even John, who barely knows him sees him, and especially compared to how the audience who adores him so much they overwhelmingly voted him their favorite character sees him.
We know he knows what he did was horrible. We are confronted with it constantly. And we are inclined to forgive him even when he might not, because we know despite it all, he has a solid moral center, a good core, the moral understanding of right from wrong. His depression is so all-consuming how could he not? Those things cause his depression.
Albert and William are the focal point of the villainy of the story in many ways: the two who started everything. The two who birthed James Moriarty, Lord of Crime. But while Albert and William may have started everything, they are not the only two with mental health issues.
Louis has always been quite stable. Anxious, to be sure, type A, very high strung. But not really mentally ill—everything he was ever anxious about was entirely reasonable (of course, I have an anxiety disorder myself, so my evaluation of that might be off—but still, worried Sherlock might ruin William’s plan, might lead to his death, might ruin something, worrying about William’s death, worrying about Milverton? All entirely reasonable, thank you). Informed by trauma, surely, but not necessarily mentally ill.
Moran, though? Louis’s behavior is informed by trauma, but Moran’s is poisoned by it.  That double-dose PTSD not only from the war, but from his actions in The Final Problem tore him apart, and we saw it tear him apart. His PTSD pushed him into crime the same way William and Albert’s mental health did.
When Moran first gets his character focus, when his personality and character is delved into properly, it’s to show his trauma and mental health issues. His character is deepened, given structure and reasoning and understand, by showing us his mental illness, the way Albert just was in chapter 62. The way William’s has been for several arcs now with his depression.
I find Moran particularly interesting, because he’s not the only character with Shell Shock: John is also a veteran, and has a psychogenic illness from his time at war. When you take those two, loyal bosom friends of William and Sherlock, who are also set to contrast and parallel each other, down to their mental health issues and neurodivergencies, it becomes very apparent how differently the two teams have portrayals of their illness. Of course, John’s not a villain. Sherlock, for all that he can commit horrible acts, is not a villain.
But Sherlock suffers from bouts of listlessness and gloom just as William does—and he hides it even less. He doesn’t quite manifest as traditional depression the way William does—it really reads more like manic depression—but Moran and John’s PTSD doesn’t manifest the same way either. And Moran’s physical disability rooted in something more concretely physical than John’s and his struggle much more debilitating. The way he suffered pushed him to do worse things than John ever felt pushed into.
But suffering, like it did with Albert and William, makes us feel closer to him. It makes them these powerful men who call themselves devils vulnerable.
Human.
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Is it possible to be neuro-typical and still have mental health obstacles/issues? Like honestly…I am AWFUL at self-discipline. I lack focus and sometimes I have to force myself to finish things (even if last minute). But, I genuinely, truly, deeply at the bottom of my heart, DON’T believe I struggle with any mental disorders. Whenever I do research for things like adhd and what not, and I interact with fellow classmates with adhd, I don’t find myself relating to those issues on a deep profound level other than lack of focus/discipline and occasional anxiety.
It is definitely possible, but I think you're comparing yourself too much to Internet articles and your peers. I will give you facts just for your own convenience and you can decide on your own. It doesn't hurt to think about it.
Everyone with ADHD represents differently, considering there's ADHD Inattentive Type, ADHD Hyperactive-Impulsive Type, and ADHD Combined (that's all of it together, which is me!). This creates a stark difference in all of us with the disorder. Primarily Inattentive especially presents drastically different due to the low population of those who have it. It creates imposter syndrome, when it's not any less debilitating. There are even uncommon symptoms that go under the radar, that we didn't even know was ADHD.
Another thing to consider is if you are POC, AFAB, or identify as a woman, it's severely under diagnosed in these populations due to the stigma. And to speak to my demographic, Black women, we do not notice there's something off until we find difficulty in late adulthood due to the ableism and bias in healthcare. Most BW will believe ADHD is something different than what it actually is, and avoid getting knowledge from the right sources (because most are for children, or little boys...). We downplay a lot of our symptoms with mental illness.
The thing is, ADHD is specifically unique because it's a disorder that is neurologically based and developmentally based.
Let me explain executive function!
Executive function helps us manage time efficiently, switch between tasks without conscious effort, problem solve, avoid impulsivity, retrieve information, and regulate emotions. ADHD impacts the development of executive function through neurological structures of our brain, so that becomes executive dysfunction - peep this comic from ADHD-Alien to see it in a situation played out. And another!
I like to use the analogy of neurotypical's dopamine neurotransmitters (thousands of them) completing their job at work while ours don't even show up, even though they really want to. Here's an example of how severe the symptoms are in a comic from ADHD-Alien.
Therefore, it's a deficiency in dopamine and norepinephrine. This is why medication becomes important for a lot of people with ADHD to bring it back up. Beforehand, self medication is usually an issue, through other stimulants like coffee. The low chemicals in our brain will cause those of us afflicted with ADHD to seek stimuli to compensate for that, usually involuntarily.
Tasks with high stimulus are more attractive to our brains. What has some sort of incentive is at the forefront of your brain, and that's why you're not able to do things that you should do. Your brain legit screams, "Do something else, or I'm turning off!!!" This is also why those of us with it have endless amounts of hobbies because we go through various phases of what is the most interesting.
Before diagnosis, most people will be told they're lazy, just need to try focusing/try harder, or that everyone has this same problem. That is all due to professionals not advocating for ADHD properly, having a view that ADHD is just a little boy kicking, being hyper, screaming, and a belief that ADHD is tied to poor academic performance/low intelligence. This all prevents people from seeking treatment and creates internalized ableism. This also leads to feeling like the ADHD diagnosis is invalid due to childhood symptoms being suppressed until adulthood.
I must also mention... it's well known people with ADHD WILL have AT LEAST one co-morbidity... which means it can attribute to the development of these disorders if the symptoms go unnoticed. Depression, OCD, Anxiety, Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, Substance Use Disorder, and more. Autism and ADHD counts as well, and often people have an overlap because they are basically brother and sister in casual speech.
A lot of us were already diagnosed with a co-morbidity, anyway. So our brain already had to seek chemicals and that can make it even harder for diagnosis to occur and make it easier for misdiagnosis or increase risks. ADHD also creates the likelihood of suicide, doesn't matter the age bracket.
There is a lifetime prevalence for other disorders for those of us with ADHD either way, because of how difficult it is. So, even if you feel you may be "milder" in presentation, that's not invalid, and don't be put astray by TikToks or Twitter posts. Know your facts and be careful, because social media will say everything is an ADHD symptom, when it's not, especially TikTok. They will also use the wrong words or invalidate less common symptoms. Don't buy into that.
TL;DR: Though you may have mild anxiety to begin with or depression, my concern is that executive function requires the ability to self regulate. Through this you have the ability to essentially force your reward system, so that way you can prime your brain for a greater reward in the future. Anyone with executive dysfunction has a deeper problem than they realize, and I would've been doing my brand of mental health and improvement a disservice if I didn't at least try to define the reasons why you should also consider that you may display lesser known symptoms. Even if you are neurotypical in your world view, mental illness has been defined so concretely by certain people that it becomes confusion. I can tell you're having difficulty. It seems you're having trouble either way with something, so you should seek services if you are able, as well as think more about what's been going on lately.
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Batfam and Mental Health
orOkay so I love Batman and all the things surrounding it. Like the idea of a random rich man who happens to be an orphan just suddenly adopting a ton of children is ridiculous, and thoroughly entertaining.
But I am also a big fan of psychology, and learning about the mind. So mental illness and related things are fascinating to me. 
I notice that like strangely there is very little stuff about the batfam having mental illnesses or dealing with psychology or therapy. Don’t get me wrong there is still a lot addressing these things, but still with the things the family experiences you would think it would be a lot more prevalent in the writing about them, and especially fan fiction about them.
Like I think showing mental health through  beloved characters would be really cool and could be a tool to destigmatize them. Like showing hero's with them would make really great representation, people could see them and think Oh I can still be a good person and helpful even if my mental disorder makes it hard and for things like depression or ADHD showing which misconceptions are harmful and don’t work. 
I can also see this in the physical aspect, like I wish a hero would have something like chronic pain or one of the many invisible illnesses. To give representation and show how pushing through the pain can shut a person down for days. 
The specific disorders I think would be really interesting of the top of my head is, depression, Anxiety, POTS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic pain, eating disorders, nerve damage, ADHD, Bipolar, OCD, Chronic fatigue, PTSD, c-PTSD, Autism, Elhers Danlos syndrome, And the one I really think would be interesting DID. 
Like fore depression, showing how hard it is to get out of bed. Not showing constantly being sad but showing how it can be numbing. Acknowledging that in a disorder like this logic doesn’t always win even if you are the most logical person to live. 
For anxiety showing how debilitating it can be. Looking into their minds to show the thought process, the mind fight itself and logic. Knowing their fears are unreasonable but not being able to shake the feeling. Show how for different people different things cause anxiety. 
POTS or Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, (super simply put it is a circulation disorder where upon standing up blood rushes to extremities and can cause all sorts of problems like fainting, pain in your feet, Dizziness, poor temperature regulation, etc. Also I am assuming people know what depression and anxiety is.) would be fascinating to me. Like having a hero that is constantly sitting down or biting down and pushing through the pain even a hero that has to slowly stand up. So in the middle of a battle being shoved down having to slowly stand up or risk fainting or vision completely blacking out for a while. Showing a hero who has learned to fight with no sight because of that very thing. 
Or Fibromyalgia (This one I am a little less educated about but from what I understand, it is a disorder characterized by muscle pain and tenderness usually with no known cause, so from what I understand it usually is diagnosed after a ton of other disorders are eliminated and the pain is still occurring, often also has affect on sleep and memory/mood.) Like showing a hero having a particularly hard patrol and having to take a couple days off and constantly going places or trying things to help with the pain. 
Or Chronic pain ( from what I understand the main difference between Fibromyalgia and Chronic pain is chronic pain has to do with the nerves and Fibromyalgia has to do with muscles, also Fibromyalgia has other thins to go with it like energy levels and mental functions so memory/mood.) Like a hero having constant pain even if they didn’t have a big fight, maybe showing them icing, heating, or taking pain meds and the rest of the family or team being super confused as to why. Before they know showing them freak out and worry that they went on a mission without telling anyone. Showing how it is a constant battle, that sometimes treatments will work and other times, for seemingly no reason they won’t. 
I would also like to see eating disorders portrayed by the bat family. Showing how it’s not always a conscious choice, sometimes it is more along the lines of choosing something else over eating. Showing how people can use it for control or to punish themselves. Letting there be a male example, reminding people that they can happen to anyone. Allowing people to have representation. Show a recovery, how it is not impossible for anyone but not down playing how hard it is. It is a true and hard fight, and show how it can sneak up on you and drag you back. Not just one easy recovery, that recovery is a choice. You have to want it but you also need help, it is a long hard process and accessibility is everything. Show a family member making them food, show them sometimes eating it and others not. Also don’t only show under eating show how people can’t stop themselves from eating. Having cabinets locked to keep people out, for their own safety. 
Or nerve damage, showing how years of their work and fighting can really mess someone up. Show someone suddenly losing all feeling or sensation in certain parts of their body or constant pain or even pinched nerves. Show how confusing it can be to not know what you are feeling. Show how weird it can be when you realize you are fine or that nothing is touching you or taking it in the opposite direction and not realizing you are hurt or someone is trying to be your attention. I would also love to see the batfam explain any of these injuries to the hero community or to the public. Maybe show the hero community really starting to look into mental and general health services. 
ADHD or also ADD, showing how people can use it but also showing how hard it can be to control and fight. How much it can impede focusing and show situations it can put people in. Show a hero forgetting a huge part of their plan and falling but because of some random information from a hyper focus they still save the day. 
Bipolar, showing the wild swings and how confusing it can be. Feeling like a different person, struggling with identity and their own decisions. Show them accidently pushing people away but also how hard they work to maintain family and friends that despite how unpredictable they can be their friends still stick around. Or if their friends can’t handle it show them peacefully and respectfully stepping out of their life. Show how hard that can be to except but that the future can end up better than you could ever hope. 
OCD is really one I wish we saw in the hero's. Show their routines and things they do. Show the thought process, like if I don’t properly put the dishes away in fourteen seconds the joker will escape arkham. Show how terrifying the thoughts can be, but show how detail oriented it can make people and the beautiful art and amazing work that they can do. Show a person putting them selves at risk to comply with their routine. Like ignoring injuries to write a report. Show them and family or friends working to change the routine. Show how hard it is the moments they want to turn back and continue and how much they want to stop but show them not giving up and making the differences they want. Show them accomplishing things, show their compulsions actually keeping them safe.
Or even chronic fatigue, Show the fight each morning. Them saving energy, the disconnect between how exhausted you are mentally vs. physically. Show a hero that 50% of the time physically is too exhausted to be in the field so they offer technical support. Show a hero crashing, suddenly just not having enough energy to finish patrol or even get home. So someone has to come pick them up. Show them getting stuck in a fight and how hard it can be to do anything much less a fight. 
Let the characters have PTSD or c-PTSD, show flashbacks and being stuck in your head. All of the bat family has lived through horrors please show it affecting them. Show how they get help how they work through it show what can happen and how bad it can get if it is unaddressed.  
Show them having autism and how it is just a different way of life that there is nothing inherently wrong with it and how the ignorance that surrounds it and similar disorders can hurt and affect people. Show how it can be simple things that can show it or affect it. Try and look at it from their perspective and what things happen that should not just because they way someone is. 
Elhers Danlos syndrome, show the pain, the misdiagnosis, the process, the fight. Show how disabilities like this and several others including ones I have mentioned can cause a person to need medical equipment such as wheelchairs and braces. Show how not everyone using a wheelchair can’t walk. Show how limiting it can be and the precautions you have to take but don’t make everything about how hard it can be. Show how using a Wheelchair while not ideal can open up so many opportunities. Show them actually being able to go on family vacations and amusement parks because they have a wheelchair. Show how important it is to have ramps and accommodations for similar things so people can participate and so people can actually go places they want. Always show how hard people with disabilities and such work. Show them trying to get treatment and trying new treatments show how it isn’t as simple as getting a knee brace or two. 
And finally coming to one that absolutely fascinates me, DID or Dissociative Identity Disorder formerly known as multiple personality disorder. But don’t do this one completely uneducated, it is already a very stigmatized disorder. Show how Alters communicate. Show how they all work together and that they were made so the body and mind could survive. Make full characters just put them in one body. Show the confusion once they find out, show them slowly realizing and learning signs and what happened to them. Show each of the Alters having different friends and maybe understanding and knowing the family different. Show the different reasons and setups systems can have. Show system responsibility and each Alter working on themselves and to make a life for the system. Show the roles Alters will take. Show the horrible process of fragmenting and what things can cause it but also show healing and people supporting and accepting systems. 
Overall showing good parts of all the struggles people can have but not ignoring how hard they can be or glorifying them to people who don’t understand. Showing misconceptions and how support can affect these disorders. And most important in my mind, giving hope and a future to look forward to for the people with these disorders.
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