#but bc of leap year my bday went from saturday to monday. missing mother's day by a day ❤️ | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

orcelito · 1 month

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My nails r getting kind of long. Almost to claw mode. I kinda don't wanna cut them tho bc I kinda wanna paint them for my birthday weekend

Nonzero chance of seeing my mom on mother's day. By my own choice, I guess. And I'm still not sure how I'm feeling about that. But ykno what, it'll be my birthday weekend, and I'm going to make sure to live it to the fullest..!!!

#speculation nation #my thoughts about her are all jumbled up after losing my dad & then her hospital visit a few weeks back.#and i bought her a thing of earrings from the farmer's market. i havent bought her a present in Years.#idk if it's just compulsory reaction to How Things Are rn. but. idk.#it never has been simple i suppose.#god i really do hate that my birthday is always near mother's day..!!!!! my forever curse!!!!!#at least leap year made me dodge a day-of event this year. the last one was when i turned 21 #but bc of leap year my bday went from saturday to monday. missing mother's day by a day ❤️#makes me wonder what sort of life i'll be living 6 years from now. when i think the next mother's day event will be.#will i still have a mother then? i have no fuckin clue #my heart tells me no. but i also have 'everyone in my life is going to die soon' paranoia now so thats probably biased.#Oh Well. either she dies or she doesnt! i'll deal with it either way.#in any case. birthday! nail painting!!! i think i want to do color changing nails #my favorite blue/green polish that ends up being teal on the in between. love that shit so much

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