ft/ mom’s dupatta

Sometimes, just some times... Losing oneself feels great... The need to express and show in human beings is nothing new... I'm not new... I am changing... And while the changes look desirable, will fondly store these... For future self ... And moreover, he likes them ...

#selfmuse #distantlove

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okay ! so , i dont know if its just me or all of us desi girls are brought up in a way that no matter how modern we think we are , our traditional upbringing sometimes makes us react unconsciously in a way that is very misoginistic , sexist and patriarchal. i tend to undermine myself and realize later on how badly i was treated and how come i let that happen. and lets keep in mind that i am a very educated person with 2 bachelor degrees and another masters on the way and i was born and brought up in one of the major cities of india.

for example, since i am in my mid twenties my parents want me to get married asap, they have me registered on various portals and services for the same. and then a few months ago , my parents set up a meeting with this guy and his family and you know what was going on in my mind the whole time? i hope they like me , i hope i am presentable, i hope i dont bring shame to my family, i hope they dont say anything bad to my parents because of me ? like , HELLO? WHAT THE HELL! shouldn't i be hoping that the person is upto my standards? shouldnt i be judging him and his family? instead of acting like this very good mannered girl! I WAS SO STUPID. and the AUDACITY OF THESE PPL ! after talking for a bit the person who knew both our families and had set the meeting asked HIM AND HIS FAMILY if they wanna move foward ? FUCK ! and i am sitting there like ... HELLO ? IS ANYONE GONNA ASK ME FOR MY OPINION? .... after discussing for like 15 min they say that they would like for him and me to meet once and go on a date to see if we are compatible , and my parents immediately say yes , WITHOUT ASKING ME ! FUCK! I asked them on our way back home why they didnt ask me when he was being asked for his opinion , and you know what they said? they said that they would ask me but after getting home , not there .. LIKE FUCK! WHAT DOES THIS MEAN ? WHY SHOULD I BE ASKED LATER ON? WHY NOT THEN AND THERE? okay so now the day of the DATE.. everything is going on fine ... and in the end he has the audacity to say that " can you please try to lose some weight for me?" like hello? who the fuck are you? i just had to smile and say that yes i am trying to loose weight but like it should not be his place to comment , we are practically on a first date ... if he doesnt like that i am a big girl then he should just call it off... and yes i am a big girl and i am on a diet and exercise regimen to manage my weight but he has no right to say anything seeing he is also a big guy and i didnt comment on that ... AND according to my family i should be grateful that he is willing to marry me despite my weight... and me being the fool i am with my inferiority issues due to my weight think that he is good for me .... OMG! now that i think about it i cringe so hard and i am so thankful things didnt work out else i would have to marry him and he would comment on my weight for my whole life... i am just like HOW DID I LET HIM DISRESPECT ME?

My Mother’s Day smile

Reading these lines since ages and finding solace in the world disrupted.

Matthew Arnold's 'Dover Beach':

Ah, love, let us be true

To one another! for the world, which seems

To lie before us like a land of dreams,

So various, so beautiful, so new,

Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,

Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain.

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हैं कई दिवानियां तेरी, जानती हूं,

पर मुझसी नादानियां हर किसी में कहां ।

-A.

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