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Adora, not your typical Chosen One
!!SPOILERS!!
Adora is piled with expectations. She's the Failsafe, Shadow Weaver's Prodigy, She-Ra, and Force Captain. All of these duties she has had to put over herself since she was a child. She is denied her agency.
Shadow Weaver only took her in because Adora had this power that she could harness and use for herself. Before she could even think for herself or even speak her future was decided for her. She may have been Shadow Weaver's favorite, but that doesn't mean Adora has privilege. She was given conditional love and was taught to be ashamed of Catra.
Catra was Adora's first expression of her personhood. She chose to be friends with Catra. Catra is the only flaw in her perfect pet project. So, Shadow Weaver tortures Catra in front of Adora just so she knows that Shadow Weaver doesn't approve of the person she cares about. Adora was taught to be responsible for the actions of others. Attachments are a detriment to her responsibilities.
Adora was raised on conditional love, denial of agency, and favor handed out like breadcrumbs. She finds this sword that turns her into an 8-foot tall warrior and suddenly everyone loves her. Adora cannot let these people down, so she does anything she can to help them, even if it costs Adora her life.
She-Ra is not the same person as Adora. She-Ra is invincible and strong and loved. Adora is an ex-horde solider who's broken. In the second episode she presents herself as She-Ra, not as Adora. Queen Angel accepts She-Ra into Brightmoon, not Adora. What's Adora to think besides that this is conditional acceptance. If she wasn't She-Ra she wouldn't be allowed in Brightmoon and no one cares about Adora, they just care about She-Ra, the mighty warrior who will save them.
What Adora can do will always take precedence over Adora herself, and she's been taught that since she was a girl. Adora isn't important. Love, care, and acknowledging herself isn't useful because it is hard to control.
Adora realizes that her attachments make her who she is and that she's fighting for them, but she doesn't need help giving love to others. She needs help giving love to herself and accepting the love of others. She can't seem to see that Adora and She-Ra are the same person, in her mind She-Ra is something she wields and something she wields can be taken away.
Adora has a crisis of identity. She was told to not be like Mara, she was the She-Ra who went nuts. Now she has to live up to her legacy. Adora was the successor of a She-Ra so burdened by a warped narrative it preceded her. Adora witnesses how cruel this type of rewriting can be, because it’s happening to her while she’s alive.
In Hero, Glimmer blatantly tells her that she failed and hasn’t done enough. This destroys Adora. Friendship with Glimmer is off the table to Adora, Glimmer doesn’t want to be friends with her because she failed and she’s not useful anymore. Adora doesn’t feel like she deserved love and she’s so disconnected from herself. There is a difference between a friendship that is fixable and one that isn't. Her relationship with Glimmer is unfixable and she's lost yet another person.
But, she has to connect to the world and to herself in order to connect to her powers. She has to admit that she’s human and deserves love. If she realizes that she is worth being loved, then she’ll learn that she never had to prove herself to earn it and it is accepting her innate value as a human.
Adora is sacrificing herself all the time because they want what Adora can do rather than Adora herself, or that's what she thinks. She can't help but wonder if they would've been her friends if she wasn't She-Ra.
Beast Island is the first episode where we see Adora's eyes glow before the sword. The sword hadn't been working all episode and when it does the light comes from her eyes rather than the sword. Adora powers the sword. But, it's easier to be calm and confident if there's something to rely rather than rely on yourself, because she's insecure about herself worth. If she can't become She-Ra, Adora is no one.
Adora chooses to smash the sword. She chooses to not be given a destiny. She wants to choose who she will be. Without choice you aren't a person, you are stripped of your identity. Adora has to live with the question, Who is Adora without the sword? She has to live with the consequences of losing She-Ra.
But, she's at war with herself. She choose to break the sword but how can she reconcile destroying what gave her purpose and worth. So, she starts neglecting her health and sleep. If She-Ra is gone that means Adora has to work harder to make up for her actions. She continues to struggle to intergrate She-Ra (duties, usefulness), her aspirations, and her self worth.
“I AM She-Ra.” “Okay She-Ra, I know YOU’RE in there.” “I don’t know I just lost HER.” “I hear Horde Prime’s looking for ME. Figured it was time we met.”
Adora either wields the power or she is the power. Something she wields can easily be taken away, but something she is cannot be stripped away that easily.
Catra is in the hands of Horde Prime. Prime's light strips everything of choice and identity. Adora allows herself to make a personal resume mission to act on something that matters to her, Catra. She chooses to save Catra without She-Ra and she accepts her identity and choice. During "Save the Cat" she allows herself to feel grief, not only for Catra but who she was with Catra, the Adora Catra knew. The first expression of her personhood. This is the first time we see Adora's self-actualized She-Ra form, fitted with Glimmer's boots, Bow's heart, and Catra's headpiece.
Even with her new She-Ra form, Adora can't decide if she is She-Ra or if she wields She-Ra. When she meets Melog, she says "You're magic aren't you? Me too." In She-Ra magic typically represents the authentic self and self-actualization.
Shadow Weaver is the one who convinces Adora to take the Failsafe. Adora is She-Ra, she'll hopefully, ideally survive. No one else stopped her. She was dead set on saving Etheria and she's broken enough to want to sacrifice herself. Adora is determined to ignore her humanity, but Catra's last appeal to her hits her.
"What do you want, Adora?"
The others might have given her unconditional love, but Catra's works. Catra is the only person who knew her before she was She-Ra. She was the first expression of Adora's personhood. Adora wanted Catra.
In Adora's future wish, she's surrounded by the people she loves and her responsibilities and humanity are balanced. Adora found peace.
When she believes she least deserves it, she's failed and she can do no good no more, Catra yells and she listens. Catra tells Adora that she is loved, but she always has been. So, she chooses to save herself and she chooses Catra.
Adora’s story is one of self-sabotage. She constantly betrays herself for the expectations of others. There will always be people telling us what to do or who to be, but we can’t let them tell us what to do. Adora doesn’t understand that her identity is hers to make and that she is allowed to have a say in what happens to her. But, the cycles and patterns that come with a child whose mind is in trauma mode are hard to break. She has to learn that she has agency, something that she’s been denied since she was a baby. Just because you have this power within you doesn’t give people the right to use you to their advantage. Adora has to learn that the opinions of others don’t have to control her, that you can’t define yourself by what someone else is saying. Only you can define who you are and what you want to do.
(my own interpretations backed up five by five takes)
#she ra#adora#catradora#gay#lgbtq#trauma#breaking the cycle#self sabotage#self sacrifice#betrayal#love#identity#choice#agency#sapphic
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been sitting on dusks toyhouse profile for a week and im embarassed bc the photos of her so far are just memes or whatever and then her description is the most depressing shit
#girls who cannot break the cycle they are in and girls who self sabotage and girls who struggle to find where they belong#idek if her typically being a snarky ass comes through in this its just so...#its also long its easily the longest profile so far#tho once i get to bruno his will be just as long#like what she ends up doing is still wrong she still deeply hurts castor by leaving and he has every right to resent her but god#her situation is just. :(#no i dont know why i wasnt content just leaving her as a deadbeat mom (and like shestill is tbf but now shes sad)#echoed voice
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you convince yourself that worrying equals being safe.
- the mountain is you, brianna wiest
#the mountain is you#brianna wiest#worried#worry#worrying#safe#safety#self sabotage#learned patterns#learned behavior#breaking the cycle#growth#growing
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i feel like "leftism" broadly defined is a coalition, best thought not as being between "marxists" and "anarchists" but between two groups that could be called "technocratic communism" and "politics of the oppressed" which are frequently wholly incompatible with each other on almost all major points of doctrine, but which can exist under the same banner so long as it exists a fringe extremist political movement in most countries in the world. Where leftism breaks out of this cycle of infighting and self-sabotage, I largely expect that only one of these two popular currents prevails, but where it continues to circle the drain of irrelevancy, likely both currents can be found even within the same individual activists, who are so torn that they are helpless to notice the contradictory nature of their ideology.
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ℜ𝔞𝔥𝔲 𝔦𝔫 𝔓𝔦𝔰𝔠𝔢𝔰 & 𝔎𝔢𝔱𝔲 𝔦𝔫 𝔳𝔦𝔯𝔤𝔬 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔰𝔦𝔱 𝔪𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔞𝔤𝔢𝔰
October 30, 2023 — May 18, 2025
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You'll look back at your childhood, early teen years or even the eras before you that you haven't lived and take inspiration from there when it comes to your creative expressions. Might revisit old films, old forms of media, music etc too.
You'll feel detached to modern life quite a bit. I believe for a long time you've been quite cynical since even the field of creativity moves too fast being heavily reliant on content generation so you had kept your hobbies aside till now or were worried about learning anything new and allowing yourself to develop in your craft.
However, you'll have this unabashed sense of confidence which comes from simply catering to that version of you that wants to find joy and awe in the arts and whatever makes you feel less doom and gloom.
You might adopt a pet or find yourself feeling closer to animals. Also, do not worry too much about your finances. They will pick up.
Some of you might rent out a place or move into a new house.
Some of you will have prospective romantic suitors or an existing relationship will bloom slowly but with assurance.
A word of advice is to invest your money properly and not mindlessly spend it at the same time the harder you hold onto it the quicker you'll find your funds decreasing. Find a middle ground.
Detachment from what you have pushed yourself to hustle for tirelessly for so long and allowing yourself to dream, explore, rest and take it slow is going to eventually bring you what you truly want without you having to lose your sanity in the process.
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Life seemed to have been filled with toil and labour that may have been showing it's adverse effects on your health. That and the need to achieve perfectionism has been constant but the results have been futile.
Either you have been working towards something you're passionate about and will see the results finally come through or you'll finally find a reason to be passionate about or something that is worth the dedication and labour you put for the long haul and you'll appraise it's results by the middle or towards the end of this transit.
You may be realizing certain connections (likely romantic) however established will not be making it. But that's okay, you'll be eager to take steps towards a new direction even if the past seems to come snapping at your feet. (Literally, take care of your legs and feet.)
You'll also eventually be pushed to become your own boss and validation. Learn and break the cycles of your own deliberate ways of self sabotage. What does that bring? That success you have previously slaved away for.
When illusions and distractions fall away, true transformation occurs. A clear mind is a gift of it's own, a power you can confidently weild. You can finally move forward without the constant anxiety of looking back.
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You've been impatient for your own metamorphosis, your rewards, your blessings as well as your rebirth. The previous month's felt like someone grabbed you by the head and pushed you down in an effort to make you sink at some point, you prayed that it's done with, just so the suffocation would end. That's exactly what has happened but you don't realize it yet, but will in the coming months, the old you is gone.
Some of you may be feeling drawn to dark Goddesses (learning about them or working with them however this applies to you)
You'll be pushed in the spotlight now, unknowingly, suddenly and inevitability. The metamorphosis is complete see? You haven't noticed but the people will. And although there are so many fulfilling offers both in career and love, why must you run from it? Maybe cuz you've chased all of this or wanted all of this for so long, now that it's here, you feel a sense of detachment. And although aloofness is soothing and maybe even attractive, live a little. In fact, you should unapologetically live out loud.
You have this pent up energy of wanting to beautify, nurture and bewitch everything and everyone around you and that you will, it will start with yourself first. A lot of you will venture into an artistic field that will require travel, travel in turn will also help you in connecting with your soul tribe. Listen to your heart a little more because you certainly love being in your head.
You've also been worried about your family, you'll see them happy and fulfilled.
There's so much to create, to achieve, to learn, to teach, to explore to give and to receive. So don't hold back.
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Sometimes realizing that what you thought brought you joy because it looked exciting and good in the pictures was sucking you dry after all, can also feel like a heartbreak or an afternoon cry under the shower. You've been sick likely and devoid of true merriment. Perhaps some of you aren't as happy with the company you keep. Good thing is, that's about to change, even though at first it may not feel like it.
There's conflict internally and externally, it might bleed into your proffesional/academic life. Is everything really supposed to be competition? How much of your authenticity have you compromised so far?
I do see you managing your finances/material life/academics/work/business etc efficiently. Finally resting, recharging and looking after your well being too.
At some point you'll encounter someone unlikely who will feel like a guiding star to you and might end up being a friend, a muse, a mentor or lover and if you're lucky, all of them in one person.
You have courage but you also have Intuition and foresight, trust it, use it. So that the joy you feel and what you celebrate next, fills your soul not just your glass.
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🌑New Moon in Leo Forcast🌑
(August 16th, 2023)
(I will generally talk about the Ascendant but check for Sun and Moon as well)
(Another note I do also recommend for people with signs overlays through the houses to read this through the Placidus system and the whole system to get a better idea)
Please take what resonates
Aries: You'll find a new appreciation of life through a hobby or a flash bulb sparking a creative endeavor. New Moon Leo in the 5th house is all about the greener side of the grass. You might've been feeling burned out for a while, or depending on the natal chart in aspect to the new moon transit, have been emotionally distant from the characteristics of Aries. Now you'll find a sense of fervor trickling for things you love coming back again to you, so go out there and live your best life!
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 5th house, a habit of overindulgence or a toxic social scene is being addressed. The juvenile emotional cycle is being brought forward with the new moon, although it would take time to resolve, you'll be able to start the first steps to move on from such habits and/or environments. Monetarily, don't push your luck with something, take a gamble with something but be advised that with Lilith the results would be exaggerated, performing on a stage or attending a performance.
Taurus: With the presence of New Moon Leo in your 4th house you may have been distant from others, feeling out of place, guarded. Your health and mental well-being have been suffering for a while. Your continuous cycle of isolation and self-sabotaging will be unveiled to you as New Moon Leo squaring your Uranus in your 1st house will shift your heart to the right place. You'll take those baby steps back into society, starting with your private and close home environment of the 4th house. The New Moon Leo in the 4th suggests a new set of boundaries and authenticity will come with emergence. You may not be ready to "break out and go clubbing" kind of ready but, nonetheless, you'll reconnect with those closest to you and your surrounding with a fresher emotional state.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 4th house, a hard conversation with a family member or loved one will be made. A secret or karmic debt may be revealed within your home or about someone close to you. This revelation will ultimately set you with a new mindset on how you view or feel about someone. Monetarily, there could be a difficult move from your home, whether yourself or someone close to you, distancing from the family, or leaving your childhood home or a place you had many good memories living in. A sweet yet bitter departure.
Gemini: Your head feels darker around this time. New Moon Leo in your 3rd house can grow an unrealistic sense of resentment towards others. You may feel left out and uncared for. The New Moon is in Square to Uranus in the 12th house bringing illusions, and worst-case scenario thinking and getting you to fill in the blanks through unrealistic thinking. Don't make any rash decisions or say anything without thought. This aspect is giving you major FOMO and you're starting to feel on edge. It's important this time to stay positive and remember the good times you have with your friends instead of growing bitter. Be honest with how you feel but mind your words so you won't come off cruel. Your emotions may get the best of you, as such doing something you love to do or any act of self-care will help you exponentially.
With Lilith in conjunction to New Moon Leo in your 3rd house, beware of what you say, your words hold greater weight this time and you may say things you don't mean to say. Talking about heavy feelings is easier this time but make sure not to trauma dump or overshare, and if you do, be careful of who the person is. Transit Lilith in the 3rd house also suggests an untrue friend or someone from your constant surroundings (home, work, school, etc) doesn't have your best interest at heart, pairing it with the New Moon in Leo, their schemes will fail, and will be revealed to you by someone else. Monetarily, be careful while driving during this time. An incident of road rage may occur and it could cause an accident, car problems, or construction in the neighborhood, your usual way to and from somewhere you regularly short-travel to may go under construction for a while.
Cancer: You're experiencing burnout. You've been working hard for a long time and now with New Moon Leo in your 2nd house, you feel the need to escape into solitude and quiet. With the New Moon Squaring Uranus in your 11th house, people have been depending on you a lot to generate money or to create something new to generate income. You could be a business owner or someone that is heavily depended on to make sure everything remains stable and secure. You're being pulled and pushed in all different directions and now it's a snap! This snap would be quiet on your part, as you may simply decide to step back into your own zone and leave all the "above and beyond" you have done to turn into the "bare minimum" and that is okay, it's what you need right now. New Moon Leo in your 2nd house desires comfort and enjoying all the hard work you've done alone. No spotlight sharing! It's okay to pat yourself on the back, congratulate yourself and say "I did that".
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 2nd house, you may have feelings of insecurity or inadequacy. Don't try to overextend yourself to others all the time to feel valued or wanted, because you already are. New Moon Leo here is challenging Lilith's whispers of self undoing. Don't fall back into old habits of overindulgence or dependency, you have come a long way of fighting demons. Let your inner light banish those demons. Monetarily, the time on a loan or a debt is up and it's time to collect, someone that owes you money may not plan on giving back, an argument over money and finances, or someone may steal something valuable of yours out of jealousy or spite.
Leo: "New phone who dis?" That is the energy New Moon Leo in the 1st house is going to give. A newfound sense of identity, a change of heart, taking a different trajectory towards life. This is exasperated by the New Moon's Square aspect to Uranus in your 10th house. You may take on a new career, a new persona, or you may even change your name. Your heart is taking center stage this time and you want to live authentically and unapologetically as yourself. This could include any new major change that affects your person, be it plastic surgery, trying out a new style, a tattoo, getting a buzzcut, coming out, etc.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 1st house, you may try something risky or initiate a risky act. Something that you would've never done before will have an appeal to it. You may draw yourself people that are involved in risky or even taboo things. Monetarily, "out with the old and in with the new", new wardrobe, wearing something sultry and revealing, heightened sensuality, flirting for game, taking breaths away, an exciting night out or an eventful night in.
Virgo: As the New Moon Leo enters your 12th house, a vortex of delusions will start. Supported by the Square aspect between the New Moon and Uranus in your 9th house, everything that you know seems foreign. Your ideals, your beliefs, and the connection between you and the world around you all start to melt away. You may have been feeling lost or stuck in a maze made of mirrors. The challenges of the square will put your knowledge and faith to the test. You may emerge spiritual or religious, and maybe you'll become an atheist, either way, you will embark on a new journey that'll have you undergo a period of self-unbecoming to reach the next chapter. For some, this journey is academic or related to your profession. Perhaps you will start going to university or an institution of higher education of some sort. For others, this journey would be symbolic in the sense that it is transcending or you may start counseling or going to therapy. Mental health and hidden trauma could also be unpacked here with the New Moon as a fresh and raw emotional state.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 12th house, the illusionaries of the 12th are pugnant. Beware of constant rumination as Lilith here is confusing your temporary feelings for permanent states of being. The Square aspect with Uranus in the 9th house eludes to hidden enemies that are older or more knowledgeable than you. There's also the possibility of shady dealings with an older gentleman or someone that is considered a fatherly figure or mentor. Monetarily, there could be an indication of urgent travel to another country, traveling for mental health reasons, traveling for study, abrupt cultural changes, disheartening religious experience, or embarking on a soul-searching journey.
Libra: New Moon Leo in your 11th house will bring changes to your social life. You may find a group that gives you a new sense of belonging or that you share similar interests. The Square aspect between this New Moon and Uranus in your 8th house suggests breaking out of the mold and bounds that you're currently in. You may find yourself a part of an underground group. With the energy of Leo, this group is quite theatrical or visually taboo and risqué. You might join a biker gang, do drag, enter a coven, or join a cult. In any way, you'll find your tribe that defies the norm and you're able to be authentic.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 11th house, there will be an uncovering of a betrayal within your current social circle. Although this betrayal is not about you personally, you will become a witness to it and become emotionally affected. As Uranus in the 8th is in the Square aspect to the 11th, this betrayal has some sort of cheating, whether in a relationship or money. In the most extreme cases, violence and assault could occur. Monetarily, change of social dynamics, money loss, witnessing a betrayal, joining a new group with familial-like or occult bonds, losing innocence, and muddled boundaries with a friend.
Scorpio: As the New Moon Leo enters your 10th house you'll develop a new identity or attitude. Your work or something you have created will be showcased or pushed onto centerstage, this could be literally for some. However, with Lilith in the 10 and Uranus in the 7th Squaring, the house of partnership is at odds with the house of public image and career. This newfound attention could stir up jealousy from a coworker or partner. Watch out as someone could publicly try to humiliate you or defame you. However, their attempts would be futile as you'll receive the recognition you deserve.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 10th house and depending on the aspect made to your MC, you could abruptly decide to leave your work because of the behavior of a coworker, you could also decide to go on to create your own venture. For some, you may be put at a crossroads with a partner where your relationship is at odds with your career.
Sagittarius: New Moon Leo in your 9th house suggests attaining a new skill or having a newfound passion for something. As the New Moon makes a Square aspect to Uranus in your 6th house this passion could be related to your health or daily routine. You could be starting to take on a new sport or in contrast cut out unhealthy activities. Mental health-wise, you may start to take a holistic method of improving it, which could be through art or studies. You also may dabble in some drug usage. For some, you could become especially obsessed with certain topics or activities to the point that it is affecting your health.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 9th house, you may start taking a keen interest in studying occult subjects such as witchcraft or astrology. Other subjects could include death, spirituality, religion, philosophy, other cultures, or a new language.
Capricorn: Your shadow work will bring to you many revelations under this phase of the moon. New Moon Leo in your 8th house is all about the difficult work that needs to be done and the hard conversations that need to be had. For some, the Square aspect between this New Moon and Uranus in your 5th house suggests that this could be revealed through or about a child or a lover. There is an indication with Uranus that this work or conversation would be through a an artistic discourse, could be a journal, a picture, video or a drawing. For others, Uranus here suggests a creative endeavor that is centered around the dark themes of life. If you're a writer or an artists this is a good indication to showcase or work on this art as it will be received better under this New Moon and you'll be able to channel it freely.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 8th house, you may experience paranoia and become distrustful of others. Lilith here is activated by the New Moon and Uranus in the 5th, and it's giving you false information about others and how they feel about you. You might be torn between gut feeling and false messages. Stay grounded, don't act without thought, even with reason or proof. Monetarily, there's an indication of plagiarism of likeness, creative fraud, breaking into someone's phone or journal, losing sleep because of paranoid thoughts, getting over someone by getting under someone else.
Aquarius: The New Moon in Leo entering your 7th house will trigger the position of your relationship with someone close to, whether romantic or platonic. Uranus in the 4th house making a Square aspect to the New Moon in the 7th suggests that you have been harboring feelings of neglect, resentment or irritation in private but now it's going to be dealt with. In the matter of relationships, this could be a test to see the strength of your bond. The level of closeness between you have widened and perhaps you may not feel comfortble about opening up or in being vaulrnable with this person. This could also be a matter of discussing the future of a relationships if it is romantic. For others this could be a legal matter that you have been dealing with privatly or that it regards your home or someone in your family.
With Lilith in conjunction with New Moon Leo in your 7th house, you're experiencing doubt and starting to second guess your relationships. As Uranus in the 4th make a Square aspect, you may have been reassessing those relationships in private, extending your boundaries and receding. Monetarily, the 7th house deals with the matters of legality and contracts, custody battle, inheritance dispute, foreclosure, marriage and divorce, moving forward or moving apart.
Pisces: With New Moon Leo transiting your 6th house there's a focus on your health. During this period you may experince a migrain, get a fever or catch a cold. Paired with the Square aspect made by Uranus in your 3rd house you may lose your voice, feel foggy or generally under the weather. You also might be recieving some kind of test resualts, be it health related or not. The 3rd house also suggets a trip to a clinic, hospital or any medical/health related facility. For some, this could also be an indication of starting to work in a new you place where you might feel off or that you don't belong. Perhaps you find it difficult to communicate or integrate into the already existing rhythem of things.
With Lilith in conjunction to New Moon Leo in your 6th house, you may feel stressed and very overwhelmed. This will have an effect on your health, so be sure to check your blood pressure and take any medicine or supplements you need to take. Aside from health matters, you may forget an important date or will need to follow up on something regarding paperwork, admission, files or a schedule. Perhaps an email needs to be sent or checked, a phone call to be made, or a document to be prepared.
-Overall this New Moon in Leo is urging us to take care of ourselves and do what needs to be done no matter how difficult it may be. This energy promises us to be bestowed with radiance after the darkness. Trick is we just need to have faith in ourselves, remain true, and put hearts forward purely and everything else will be taken care of.
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I am having so many Roy Kent thoughts this morning. Like, just how deeply lonely has that man been, for a very long time probably but especially the past year? He doesn't seem to have...friends? Like, sure, he has his fellow coaches, and he has Jamie. But it's not exactly like Ted's been in the correct headspace for most of the season to be pal-ing around with Roy in his free time, and Beard is friends with everyone and I expect has a million and one social commitments at all times, dictated first and foremost by Jane. We get the sense in the Chelsea episode of the sort of easy rep Roy had with the staff and community there, but also that he's cut himself off largely from all those good parts of his former life; clean break since the day he left. So by now, Roy's social life is fully just work and his 10 yr old niece...and eventually, Jamie Tartt.
Before he started training with Jamie, though, I fully think Roy was isolated and depressed as all hell, probably much more than he realized or ever acknowledged. Yes, he had the Club, and sometimes Phoebe in the evenings, but the rest of the time? Come home alone to his empty house that wasn't anything like Keeley's, and try to read his book, and make his dinner. Maybe watch some footie on the telly. Yoga once a week, if he's even still going, but in a way even that's lost its charm, because it's not like he can tell the mums anything, they don't even know who he really is! Try not to think too hard about how much he misses Keeley. Rinse & repeat. And the cycle becomes so unbearable that god, does he welcome training Jamie.
But even training Jamie, at first, is just...a way to extend work, isn't it? Work, work, work so he doesn't have to think about anything else, or linger on his own encroaching loneliness with the world. We don't see him and Jamie do anything but train until Amsterdam, which is the start of the breakthrough, and then until the very end of the season. Because Roy very stringently doesn't let Jamie into other parts of his life, even though he maybe (definitely) wants to. Jamie is part of work, not part of his personal life, and he forces himself to keep those rigid boxes up even after they've begun to bleed through. It's Jamie who has to push through them, slowly force his way in past Roy's defenses. And it's a good thing Jamie is a persistent little fucker, or Roy would well and truly have had no one.
And the whole time this is happening, Roy is forced to live with the fact that he's brought this all upon himself. He left Chelsea. He left Keeley. He's cut himself off from nearly every good thing in his life, and the worst part of all is, he can't stop doing it, even knowing it's made him miserable! even knowing he can't go on like this! He still can't bring himself to consciously allow Jamie fully into his life even as he increasingly relies on Jamie and their time together to keep him afloat. They're together all of the time, but for a long while, Roy won't even call him his friend.
Just...god, Roy is the most insane blender of fierce love and arrogance and protectiveness and repression and rage and self-hatred and self-sabotage and isolation and, and!! all the things he won't allow himself to have and all the people he won't allow to love him!! We wasted so much time on Shandy and Zava this season when we should have been cracking Roy Kent's skull open like a nut and examining every inch of his brain, me thinks.
#i need to write a character study of him asap tbh. no one sees how dark and dangerous and mysterious and repressed he is but me!#(jokes)#remember in Waterfalls when i wrote him comparing the end to his football career to an entire family perishing in a tragic plane crash?#in full seriousness?#yeah. that's the sort of deranged thinking I feel is happening in that man's brain at any point in time#he is soooooooooo!!!!!#also I genuinely think jamie saved him this season mentally. i really truly do.#ted lasso spoilers#roy kent#ted lasso meta#ted lasso
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I love the scarab from Fionna and 🍰 I feel like there’s no posts about them .
Can we please have a yandere scarab oneshot please 🙏
𝚈𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚂𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚋 𝚡 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛
Requested by: Anon
Ask: I love the scarab from Fionna and 🍰 I feel like there’s no posts about them. Can we please have a yandere scarab oneshot please 🙏
Warning: General Yandere Behavior
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From the moment the scarab sets eyes on the you, it becomes consumed by an overwhelming obsession. It sees you as the perfect one, the one who will complete its life. The scarab's innocent and playful demeanor begins to fade away as it becomes consumed with jealousy and possessiveness.
Initially, you are oblivious to the scarab's feelings. You view it as a charming and harmless companion, unaware of its hidden depths. As the scarab's obsession intensifies, you begin to realize that something is off. You begin to resist the scarab's advances, but your resistance proves to be futile.
Scarab's relentless pursuit of you begins to take a toll on your mental and emotional well-being. Scarab becomes clingy and possessive, constantly seeking your attention and approval. Your, feeling overwhelmed and suffocated by scarab's demands, you try to pull away, but to no avail.
scarab's jealousy becomes evident as it exhibits signs of insecurity whenever you show interest in other people or activities. He tries to sabotage your relationships, creating tension and conflict.
Despite your best efforts to resist scarab's advances, you find yourself be falling under its curse. scarab's manipulation and charm make it difficult you to see beyond the surface. You become trapped in a cycle of codependency, unable to break free from the grip of scarab's obsession.
Scarab's obsession becomes all-consuming, leaving you feeling isolated and trapped. You long for freedom and independence, but fear the consequences of breaking free from scarab's grip. scarab's possessiveness becomes a source of anxiety and fear, as you questions their own sanity and self-worth.
Ultimately, your resistance is futile in the face of scarab's obsession. You are forced to confront the reality of the situation…
#x reader#adventure time#adventure time x reader#fionna and cake hbo#yandere x reader#yandere one shot#yandere x you#Scarab#scarab fionna and cake#scarab adventure time#scarab x reader#yandere scarab#yandere scarab x reader#yandere scarab x reader fionna and cake#yandere scarab x reader adventure time#scarab x reader fionna and cake#scarab x reader adventure time
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I’ve been on a baaaaad Sanemi kick recently. I’ve always hated how most headcanons with him in a relationship portray him as so aggressive and dominant when he’s easily one of the softest, sweetest characters (there’s no way this boy isn’t a sub). That’s part of why I like your writing! You do a good job at showing what’s underneath the posturing. How do you think Sanemi would behave in a relationship in canon? (I think he’d be a hardcore siiiiiiiimp)
• Sanemi very much does not want to be in a relationship— an unfortunate mixture of self-loathing and the fear of getting someone he loves hurt make it difficult for him to face his feelings. He can't see himself as capable of a proper, loving relationship, not with the guilt haunting him and the blood on his hands. Your love makes him feel like a cornered animal, and he'll lash out at every turn in a self-sabotaging attempt to escape. You deserve better than him, so he has to push you away.
• Even once he's opened up to you enough to commit, Sanemi doesn't know what to do with himself. The reality of his own attachment borders on unbearable— you make him feel soft, and the sheer vulnerability of that is more painful than any wound. He's terrified of hurting you at the same time that his ability to be gentle with someone should have rotted away years ago. It's a constant cycle of shame, longing, and pulling away in a reflexive attempt to avoid his own feelings, all while you refuse to do what any sane person would and give up on him altogether.
• No matter how tough he tries to act, you can tell that Sanemi cares about you. His words are harsh, but his actions show something much softer. The more time he spends around you, the more his long-forgotten caretaking tendencies start to resurface. He's overprotective of you in a way that borders on paranoid; you're certain he's worrying himself sick over every little interaction with you, with no idea how to properly express it.
• Tenderness breaks him. He hates it, but soft words and gentle touch cut right down to the most pathetic parts of him. It's been so long since Sanemi could let himself be vulnerable in front of anyone, and by now, he's so very weak to your affection. The way you make him melt is utterly shameful, but it's impossible to find the will to protest when this is the first time in his life he's felt so safe with someone. He's reluctantly, desperately attached.
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hi! ive listened to some of chonny jash's songs but did not realize that there was really a story? Or i vaguely knew but didn't have the time/energy to get into it and with the release of the bidding animation ive realized theres like a bajillion awesome animations and art and i want to get into cccc but have no clue how. also why does soul have a trident.
OH man!
The story of CCCC has an overall seeming narrative, but much of it's smaller points are interpretive due to Jash himself leaving it up to fans of the album. But! Overall it kind of goes like:
-Jash or, what most people call Whole, splits as due to mental dissonance and waning mental health. (Time Machine Reprise).
- Whole fades into Soul (End of TMR into Dream) and from there its Mucka Blucka as a sort of introductory song. The recap for a story you have or haven't heard yet.
- (The entire album is a time loop! Which is a big metaphor for the cycles of mental health and illness people go through.)
- From there its the section called "Cacophony" which starts off with Soul, but eventually it turns to Heart and Mind + their fighting and inability to see or listen to one another or their points of view. Of course, as Logic and Emotion, they both have valid ideas or opinions, but believe themselves so contradictory that the other must be evil or out to get them.
- Heart attempts to shoot Mind, as referred to in Ruler of Everything. Literal or Metaphorical as you take this, it is seemingly symbolic for an attempt at one's own life if not self sabotage. If not then both.
- The rest up until Soul Eclectic is sort of just the Mind and Heart fighting and their own personal views each on the situation.
- Soul in The Soul Eclectic reaches his breaking point. Threatening to kill them all (A more direct attempt at suicide)
- Mind and Heart in the subsequent songs decide to get their shit together.
- (Two Wuv) Soul realizes that not only can they be happier now but that trying to force themselves to conform to society's ideas of mental health or belief or love is just plainly unbeneficial. Sort of a song about unapologetically being yourself.
- Welcome To Tally Hall is a tribute to Tally Hall themselves more than anything.
- This transfers into Concord soon after! Concord is Whole or Jash by himself, though many of the songs seem to carry themes from Cacophony in them. Self sabotage, disagreement, importance placed on the wrong thing, the idea that no one person is better off than another. It concludes with Taken for a Ride. Which is also sort of CJ's epic "im burnt out as hell" song towards the end. But exaggerated to my knowledge for lyrical shenanigans.
That is CCCC as neutrally told as best as possible. I highly recommend forming your own ideas on it, but I'd be happy to also discuss more in depth my opinion on each song should you or anyone else express interest!
Getting into the Trident: The fandom took the metaphor of "Tridential Sovreignty" and "This trident he formed (found? Lyrics.) is both weapon and motive" and said "Soul's got a trident" to which Jash responded with "Absolutely yes he does now" Same with the crown most people put Mind in, and that is referenced in the "Trident, Crown and Blindfold" line.
Soul really did get noose imagery, a trident and a mask. All Heart n Mind got were a blindfold and crown. Lmao
Though Heart is also commonly drawn with wings. Which is semi-canonical according to album covers. I choose to ignore them because I don't particularly have an attachment to the idea!
Getting into the fandom itself, I can recommend looking around for the Chonny Jash Fan Server (CJFS) Discord link. But it can be extremely intimidating and even I just stick to discussion and one other thread channel. (Sides from my au channels which pop up every once a month or so).
Important note is that only Tally Hall covers have to do with HMS. Any of Jash's other music (of which I highly recommend, always) is unrelated. There is also a fan QnA somewhere that was done like a year ago now which has some neat answers in it.
I, again, am happy to go into my interpretations of HMS and the music as a whole but skdmsm saved you the reading hopefully should that be undesired!
#chonnys charming chaos compendium#asks#voidthoughts#i def reccomend looking at analysis of the album too! calamarispider has good ones but idrm if kai ever put them here or if it kept them on#twitter only#i have my own but its been taking me too long so lol maybe people asking would help motivate me OSNFJSNS
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What do you think of this?
I was oddly disappointed when I came across this.
I honestly feel sorry for anyone who couldn't see what this story was all about. They missed out on so much, they missed out on emotions and feelings that could have been their unraveling, a catharsis, something that could have led to a more accepting heart, a more sensitive mind, a sharper intuition, a keener emotional intellect.
This story is about Naruto and Sasuke and their bond. A bond that changes their current corrupt and chaotic shinobi world for the better. That they were fated and are soulmates is not a SNS headcanon, it is an intricate part of their dynamic, their portrayal. It's literally canon. They are supposed to be yin and yang, they are fire and wind, sky and earth, they are light and darkness, sun and moon, they make each other stronger emotionally and physically, they are the main act. This is all literally text.
The point of this story is that true love transcends all constructs made by humans. True love is a greater motivator than hate and revenge. True love is the solution that will bring the world together, that will finally break the cycle of revenge and hatred and bring about peace. Even if this concept has its own problems, the point is, that's what Kishi wanted to portray, at least till chapter 699.
What would even be the point of this story if Sasuke was shown to not love Naruto? Like apart from all the symbolic and literary elements, the larger narrative itself will be cancelled out if Kishi meant to show only Naruto as obsessed with Sasuke, no?
So why do these fans think this way? Denying the narrative, denying the story, denying the visual imagery, denying the characterisation of the hero and the anti hero, denying the major themes that make this manga, denying the whole point of this manga?
Projection and/or they are almost incurably dumb.
Like I don't know how many lies they have had to tell themselves to believe in their wacky theories. Their sense of comprehension is worse than a tween's. And given that a lot of them are adults, it is so embarrassing for them. Like if I were in their shoes, I would go back to school. I would burn all my degrees in the society bonfire. I would spend all my savings to relearn about the world.
Like if 700 exclusive freaking chapters of Sasuke and Naruto's bond weren't enough for them to get this story, they should maybe burn all their books. Apologies, I doubt they read. My bad.
One really doesn't need to be a media expert to get that they love each other. All they have to do is to be open minded and read the story for the story itself. Literally, one doesn't have to put any extra effort. Leave the extra effort to the bloggers and analysts who write about the literary, socio-political, narrative and visual influences and such. Just do your part. Just be the reader. Follow the story for the story's sake. That. Is. All.
But you know...fans will be fans. They find a character hot, so they would project, self insert, be dumb, deny, whine and cry, fight uselessly, embarrass themselves on public platforms, reveal themselves to be raging idiots of the first degree, etc.
Anyway.
Thesis statement of this answer : Naruto loves Sasuke and is surely obsessed with him because - Sasuke inspires it in him. Sasuke is equally obsessed with Naruto, and one would think it is subtle and it certainly is as compared to loud Naruto, but objectively, not subtle AT ALL.
At. All.
Sasuke is so in love with Naruto, is so damn crazy about this funny, cute, earnest, raw and determined little urchin, that his brain practically turns to mush when he sees him.
You know why Sasuke wanted to kill Naruto in Shippuden? He keeps saying that Naruto is his closest friend, his one and only.....friend, which is why he needs to kill him. Why?
Because Sasuke is so in love with this boy, that he self-sabotages his goals when it comes to Naruto. It has been a damn pattern with him from DAY ONE.
Naruto is Sasuke's WEAKNESS.
Sasuke trains so hard, resolves to accomplish his goals so determinedly, promises himself to be strong, but when it comes to Naruto, all of it goes right down the drain. And it is a BIG problem for Sasuke. A practical problem. Because how is he gonna accomplish his goals if Naruto keeps coming in his way, distracting him, making Sasuke's knees weak, his heart thump, his eyes tangle with Naruto's gaze, his mind completely focused on Naruto's every move?
Team seven formed. Naruto and Sasuke hadn't even spent much time together exclusively. Naruto had just been an ass to Sasuke, kissing him in public and embarrassing him (Why didn't you beat him up Sasuke? You clearly said you would lol) then tying him up, gagging him and impersonating him, but what does Sasuke do when he sees a perennially hungry Naruto? This.
Even though he very well knew that he would be disqualified and wouldn't be allowed to train as a shinobi which is required for him to get stronger so he could one day, kill Itachi.
#self-sabotage
Sasuke goes on his first important mission with the team, and ends up protecting Naruto from the bad guys like a damn romantic hero on the way to land of waves country, tries to match his pace with Naruto while blushing, worrying for him, training with him at all hours of the night while everyone else including Sakura is resting, and he is having fun at it too, asking him for help and not Sakura who is 'supposed' to have better chakra control (only because she has a very small amount of chakra as compared to Sasuke and Naruto), and then out of nowhere, freaking sacrificing his life for him. He really was totally prepared to die for this boy at age 12. For love.
#self-sabotage
His "Body moved on its own."
Naruto couldn't believe his eyes. Naruto was still oblivious as to how Sasuke felt for him before this point so he was flabbergasted at Sasuke's sacrifice. But Sasuke can't actually tell him he loves him, that would be so embarrassing for him. Lol. Hence the awkwardness later.
But Naruto now knows Sasuke really cared for him. He valued him. And so what happens?
Sasuke inspired this in him. It didn't come out of oblivion. That's not how it works.
Then comes the forest of death arc. And we see how much Sasuke and Naruto work in close partnership, how much they know each other, how their instincts are so attuned to the other, especially Sasuke. Sasuke is certainly an observant person but his knowledge of Naruto is just too accurate. Not just his appearance (and why wouldn't it? Just see how much Sasuke stares at Naruto throughout, because it's too difficult for him to escape that 'gaze' of his lol) but his mannerisms, his insecurities and weaknesses.
His laser sharp focus on Naruto is so evident. And it's not only that, he goes OUT of his way to protect Naruto.
These fans should really ask themselves if this was really needed. Naruto was being flung around by a transformed Gaara left and right before this. And Sasuke was already injured and completely out of juice. Naruto would have gotten bruised at most here. Why would Sasuke go so out of his way to cushion his fall? And why would Kishi make Pakkun point it out too? Sasuke doesn't do this type of thing for ANYONE else. Absolutely no one. So what impression does it make? How exactly do these fans read this scene? Or they just conveniently ignore whatever doesn't satisfy their agenda? That's how denial works lol.
Sasuke retrieval arc. Not only is it remarkable that the entire arc is about Naruto trying to protect Sasuke, to bring him back so that his life isn't jeopardized at the hands of Oro, but just the sheer amount of space and footage Kishi gives to vote 1. Eight freaking chapters. A world famous manga where every single panel counts, eight chapters were devoted by Kishi to make sure that their bond, the intensity of that bond, their intimacy comes out clearly. Why? Is Kishi dumb? Like these fans are? No. He wanted to make sure that absolutely no stone was left unturned for the reader to understand what their bond is really about and how freaking intense it is. The whole point why Naruto simply couldn't digest the fact that Sasuke would actually be trying to kill him, was because Sasuke, at every point, SHOWED Naruto how important he was to him.
Naruto simply couldn't compute that Sasuke would do this to him. And this is exactly why Naruto was pushed to say - Can you kill me calmly, Sasuke? in a big ass panel. So much build up man. Like goddamn. Kishi put so damn much emphasis on it because of this. Why?
Because it was contradictory behaviour. Naruto couldn't believe Sasuke would even consider killing him because of the kind of insane lengths he went to, to protect Naruto. Even at the cost of his own ambition and freaking life. Why would Sasuke do it for him? Why would Sasuke jeopardize everything that is important to him, killing Itachi and restoring his clan's honour ie, for someone he doesn't care about? Does this look one sided?
I mean if even after all this, one feels so convinced that Sasuke doesn't care about Naruto in this manga, maybe go back to reading Archie? lol.
And even after the fight, the crazy power ups, what with breaking out hidden strengths with Sharingan evolution and kyuubi chakra and kyuubi cloak and curse mark transformation, they fight and fight, their faces incredibly pained at hurting each other like this, and Sasuke manages to overpower Naruto with SO MUCH effort........all for this.
Sasuke hovering over an unconscious Naruto. This scene has so much tenderness, so much emotion, so many panels were drawn to highlight this emotion. The clouds finally breaking through to give way to a beam of light that centres on Naruto's face and then gently fades away, while Sasuke is standing atop Naruto, looking down, at his face as he lies there unconscious and injured at the hands of Sasuke. As rain patters down on Sasuke's face, he says with such anguish and emotion - Naruto, I.....
But then dramatically falls down on his knees as the aftereffects of his curse mark make themselves known and ends up right over Naruto's face, looking at his closed eyes with so much pain and longing.
What was that about? Is Kishi stupid? Are all his editors stupid? What about the publication house? So these fans are the only smart ones in the universe? That must be it. Lol.
Think about it.
Sasuke was planning to kill his closest friend at Itachi's suggestion because that would have given him access to Mangekyou Sharingan and he would have come much closer in strength to Itachi, right? Naruto was completely disabled, right at Sasuke's mercy. Sasuke had the PERFECT opening. Sasuke was one second away from gaining that power. Something he battled hard for. Like hard hard. But what did he eventually decide? He decided not to.
Why? Do fans not see the contradiction in Sasuke's behaviour? Why would Sasuke have abandoned the perfect opportunity of gaining the power required to kill Itachi, someone he was absolutely ITCHING to kill, in favor of training with Oro, a man he despises, a man he very well knows has evil intentions towards Sasuke, for THREE fucking years when he could have skipped all of that here by killing Naruto in a matter of seconds??
Why?
Because he loves Naruto. Sasuke decided if being powerful enough to kill Itachi meant that he would need to kill his most precious, his usuratonkachi, then he would rather come up with his own way to become stronger. Even if it took him waaaay more time and effort, even if he could taste the desire to kill his brother on his tongue like blood, even if it meant giving up his body to someone like Oro, he would do it if it meant Naruto would still keep living.
#self-sabotage
During the reunion, he tells Naruto that he would give his body to Oro over and over if it meant he would be able to kill Itachi. So all of THAT is acceptable to Sasuke but not killing Naruto. Sasuke is not Itachi. Sasuke is his own person, and he would make his decisions based on his feelings, he will not pander to his brother. Because he is him and he loves Naruto.
But that didn't stop him from being entirely devastated at being separated from Naruto. Crushed. Heartbroken. As he is shown having left Konoha and entering the darkness, his face, paralleled with Naruto's own as he is carried away by Kakashi, shows his true feelings about separating from his most precious person. Someone with whom he feels like family.
During their reunion, Naruto asks Sasuke why he left him alive? Why he didn't kill him off? Naruto knew Sasuke had the best opportunity to do it. But he didn't do it. Naruto knew very well that Sasuke didn't kill him for the same reason he protected Naruto all those other times. Because Sasuke really cared for him, he valued Naruto.
Sasuke deflects. He tells him he doesn't need to explain it to him. Naruto looks skeptical. Then he says he left him alive on a whim. And of course Naruto doesn't believe him. Naruto knows Sasuke is lying. Is Sasuke a person who would do things on a Whim? Is that how he is characterized in the manga? What other thing did he do on a whim? Sasuke says that even Oro was not powerful enough to take on Itachi, let alone himself. He could have made things so much easier for himself if he had killed Naruto and gotten MS, but no. If Naruto didn't mean so much to him, what was stopping him to kill Naruto? Even when the stakes were so damn high?
When Naruto asks him why he let him live during the reunion, Sasuke is actually struggling to answer him. He feels vulnerable. Look at his face when he says that emotions weaken a person, causes confusion. He knows this from experience. Because he couldn't kill Naruto. He again sabotaged his own objective, like always, because he just cannot bear to have Naruto hurt. He just cannot. Someone who couldn't even let Naruto be freaking bruised by a tree trunk, who cannot even let Naruto go hungry for a mere few hours even at the cost of his own freaking disqualification, can he kill Naruto so easily? Heh. The narrative is doing its work. Sasuke is a simp for Naruto man. Even if Sasuke isn't able to say what he feels due to self preservation and his own tsundereness, the reader knows the truth. How? Because we aren't blind or stupid. We know how to read. We enjoy stories and storytelling.
The crux of it all was that Sasuke wasn't able to kill Naruto even though it would have had been really really advantageous for him in reaching his goal. But. At what cost? By killing Naruto? No way in hell. Heh.
Honestly, Sasuke says everything himself. No one has to look anywhere else. He knows Naruto is his weakness. He simply cannot help himself when it comes to Naruto. That's why he says he needs to cut him off in vote 2. As long as Naruto is alive, and keeps getting in Sasuke's way, Sasuke would never be able to help himself. Everytime Naruto comes along, Sasuke's objectives and goals take a backseat, in fact, go right out the window. Sasuke is defined by love, led by love, motivated by it, inspired by it. Itachi taught him how to hate. But Naruto was the one who caught his nerve, who reached his heart, who made him warm and fuzzy, who taught him to love, to accept love, to let himself be loved. By Naruto.
Sasuke says he will be the darkness, and live on by eating the ashes. He needs to be the darkness to be the true hokage, that's his goal. But how can he be the darkness if Naruto, the light incarnate, fills him with the light of his love? With his warmth and care and affection?
Sasuke's actions towards Naruto are often contradictory. During the reunion, Naruto is urged by Kurama to draw on his power, but Naruto resists and then Sasuke (who just couldn't stop staring at him throughfuckingout) enters his mind space and makes the kyuubi retreat. Why should it matter to him? Why should he even feel the need to be there? He already knows that Naruto has a special power. So he glided down like an angel, hugged Naruto (which he really really didn't need to do), whispered in his ears (why are you here Naruto when you could be out there training huh? huh?), and then was so damn focused on him that Yamato found the opening to attack Sasuke even though Sasuke is a person thoroughly anal with being on guard all the time?
#self-sabotage
And I only mention this because Sasuke's character is already established as someone who is not a touchy feely guy. When a character does something out of character, it registers itself in the reader's mind. You simply cannot deny it. Kishi put so much effort in writing and drawing him, do these fans think all this comes out of oblivion? No thought, no idea behind it? So if Sasuke is made to do something out of character, there must be some reason for it, no? Except when it comes to Naruto, it is in character for Sasuke to do something he doesn't rationally intend to. Because love is not rational.
Sasuke was already reminded by Sai of Naruto. Sasuke is told that Naruto is still looking for him. And then Sai proceeds to disparage Naruto, and how does Sasuke react? He genjutsues his ass. Lol. Don't you think it is a disproportionate action for Sasuke to do this if he didn't care about Naruto?
Like when fans are used to big actions, big gestures and big reactions, which are typical of shounen, they often miss out on more subtle actions and reactions. But just because they don't see them doesn't mean they aren't there. I am sorry (not) but SNS fans cannot be blamed for other fans' ignorance and incompetence at media comprehension.
This might be subtle by shounen standards but it's not that subtle. These fans would certainly benefit from watching a wider variety of media. Learning more about how narrative and visual language works. If they can't see that Naruto and Shippuden are a love story, it's a problem, for them. Because what a waste of their time and energy.
Sasuke looks at the Great Naruto bridge and smiles fondly. Why do you think Kishi put this panel here? Why was it needed? What purpose does it serve? Every panel counts right? When Sasuke is told of Naruto defeating Pein, he smiles like he is proud of Naruto. Why? What was even the need to do that? If Kishi means to tell the audience that Sasuke wants to kill Naruto because he hates him or doesn't care, why the hell would he put these panels there so strategically that give exactly the opposite impression to the viewer, and the impression that they give is completely consistent with how Sasuke acts with him in part one? I seriously cannot fathom the amounts of denial these fans must need in order to simply erase and sweep these multiple moments, scenes and dialogues under the rug.
What is even the point of reading this manga? And what exactly makes them so righteous about it too that they have the audacity of criticising SNS fandom for shipping the boys? Who told them they could do it? Who the hell are these people to say shit like this? Who told them they had the qualification? Because the comprehension that they show indicates they should still be reading nursery rhymes. Like learn how narrative works, learn how imagery works, learn how a scene works, learn how mise en scene works, learn what an arc is, learn how characterization works, learn how literary tools and tricks work and THEN talk about it if you are so sure. But hell, if they actually cared to learn all that, they wouldn't be saying this shit. Hell, don't do any of it, just be honest with yourself. That is enough. But no. They are way too precious for that. Learning is beneath them. Lol.
Ignorance breeds more ignorance.
Sasuke saves Naruto during the war arc over and over again, even when it wasn't needed or doing it with so many extra measures, they were unnecessary, so much so that even Naruto is taken aback by it. Why? What impression does it give to the reader? Isn't it reminiscent of part one, when Sasuke saved Naruto from the evil tree trunk? Because he is just so damn protective of his precious boyfriend, his one and only........friend. Lol. This is how narrative works man, psychological and emotional manipulation. That's what storytelling is all about, and talented writers/storytellers/creators understand the concept of perception very well. Perception of text, visuals and sound effects.
Think of the story as a patchwork rug that is patched with complementary coloured pieces of fabric stitched with connecting threads that bring out the brilliance of the rug. An audio-visual story or a film works the same way, where the visuals/scenes are thoughtfully edited and joined together with strategically placed complementary visual effects, text and sound effects to bring out the messaging and impact that the storyteller wants to convey to the reader. The talented a writer/creator is, the smoother and believable the narrative is, the more perceptive he is, the more his intent comes out and makes itself known to the reader, the greater its impact on the reader.
Kishi wrote them as the main act. That is the truth. Everything is intentional.
During vote 2, Sasuke is so damn emotional fighting with Naruto. He climbs on his lap and punches him senseless, and Naruto takes it. It's obviously a parallel to vote one when Naruto climbs on Sasuke's lap and punches him senseless and Sasuke takes it. Does this look like a normal fight? Where else do players fight like this in the manga? Any other example?
No.
It's an emotional fight. They are not fighting for political reasons or to prove a point. The fight is emotional. Just like vote 1. Both are nerve wracking. Emotional overload. Mind short circuits. Lol. Here are two characters who are experiencing them and I can't even read about it without curling on my bed and holding my torso tight because it's just too much man. And I am not easily affected. I have seen all sorts of melodrama and I thought I was immune. Fortified. But damn Kishimoto, he just wrecked me. Sigh.
This sort of reaction doesn't come out of oblivion. Fans who say shit like the one in this ask, have no idea how much effort and thought and emotion it takes to write something like this.
Sasuke didn't show this type of emotion even when he was battling Itachi. He was composed and in control. But with Naruto, he loses it. Why? Because he is doing something he doesn't want to. Not in the heart of his hearts.
Killing Naruto is a requirement for him because for him, Naruto has become an emotional liability. He loves Naruto despite his better judgment. He loses all perspective when he is with Naruto. No matter how strong his convictions are, Naruto makes his heart flutter. His resolve weakens. That is why he left Konoha in the first place. He says to Naruto - Did I get stronger playing around with you?
Hatred towards Itachi was his motivation to get strong enough to kill him. But if Naruto kept making him fall in love more and more, how would he kill Itachi?
The whole reason Orochimaru separated them was because Naruto was changing Sasuke, meaning, he was healing Sasuke.
Naruto and only Naruto, had the power to do that. If Sasuke had completely given over to his feelings for Naruto, no way he would have been able to carry on his revenge plans. A heart filled with love cannot hate. Unless that love is taken away forcefully, then the love transforms into hate.
Naruto tells him he simply won't let him be alone. Naruto understands why Sasuke wanted to kill him. To be alone. To be devoid of love. Love would have been a hindrance to his goals. But it would have meant unending loneliness for Sasuke. Darkness. Pain. Misery.
And Naruto wouldn't have it. No way siree bob. Not on his watch. Naruto loves Sasuke. Beyond comprehension. Just like Sasuke loves Naruto. He simply WON'T let Sasuke be alone because Naruto understands what it means to be lonely. That was the point of their intersection in the first place. Naruto won't let Sasuke be alone because he cares for Sasuke's well being. If Naruto is obsessively in love with Sasuke, and he IS, and proudly too, it's because Sasuke simply won't be swayed with anything less. Naruto had to have immense amounts of love for Sasuke to counter the immense hate in Sasuke. If you want to call it obsession, fine. But the more appropriate term is - Devotion. Something that Kishimoto himself uses when he makes Yashamaru explain love to Gaara. It's called context building.
Sakura? Can she even compare? With Naruto? Bah. She was prepared to kill him in kage arc when Naruto was preparing to lay down his life for him shinjuu style.
She made every confession to Sasuke about herself. Naruto made it about Sasuke. If it weren't the case, Sasuke wouldn't have listened to him in the kage arc. Sasuke was bent on killing Sakura and Kakashi, drunk on power and grief, but he calms down when Naruto confesses to him. And accepts Naruto's proposal. Are these fans telling me Sasuke is shallow and stupid enough to fall for it if he didn't care? Will they not give Sasuke the agency to make the right decision for himself? What he wants to do? Will these fans take away from his intelligence by saying shit that goes against his characterisation and arc development? So Kishi is wrong and these fans are right about him? Lol. The levels of delusions.
When Naruto tells Sasuke that he hurts when Sasuke does, that he hurts so much, he cannot stand it, look at Sasuke. Why would he be so taken aback? Why? Why is he so affected if he didn't care for Naruto? When Sasuke asks him why he goes to such lengths to save Sasuke, Naruto tries to distract him from it and Sasuke gets triggered. Is Sasuke really a person who would get triggered like this if he didn't feel for Naruto? Sasuke asks Naruto with such delicacy and hesitance - But what does friend mean to you? Why does he want to know? How does it matter to him if he didn't care?
Why would Kishi write this stuff in this conclusive chapter? Is it meaningless? Does it not say anything about Sasuke's character? Like I know people twist it and twist it some more, but really, the simplest explanation is always the right one. It might not be as direct, but if you really gather all the data and compute it without prejudice, you can and definitely will see it for yourself. Storytelling can be layered you know. Why be as bad as those dudebros? Even dudebros call him Susgay. Because even if they cannot comprehend much more than that, they can feel it. Why? Because that's how Kishi wrote him. That's how storytelling works.
Dang, when Naruto assures him of his love for Sasuke and his trust in him, Sasuke cries. Fucking cries man. Is Sasuke a person who would emote meaninglessly? The only other person who affects him enough to make him cry is Itachi. Are these fans saying that Itachi meant nothing to Sasuke?
Notice how at peace he looks when he says - I have lost..
Why should he feel at peace? Why? Because he finally accepts love. He is convinced of it. Naruto reminded him of his bonds with his family, something he always wanted, something he missed deeply when they had gone. But now, he can let himself feel it again.
Kishi had already thought of this ending back in 2009, or even before. Not a retcon. Regardless, if these fans had any sense, they could tell it from the story itself.
In conclusively significant chapter 698, in Sasuke's monologue, it is finally revealed that Sasuke, after all that he did to and with Naruto, had always had an eye on Naruto. He had had always felt weak for him. He felt warm and fuzzy. He resonated with Naruto's loneliness. Every little thing that he did for Naruto, all his sacrifices even when the audience couldn't really find commensurate with their dynamic back then in part one, were revealed to be Sasuke's acts of love for Naruto. Because this boy had been loving him since then, since they were eight years old, even when Naruto had no clue. He didn't ask for anything back, nothing in return, he just LOVED. As he knew how to. Not with big declarations of love and guilting the other party, like Sakura or Hinata for Naruto, but with actions and genuine heartfelt emotions. Because that's what unconditional, genuine, devotional, true love is all about. Isn't it? Naruto's zeal, spirit and desire to connect made him think about his bonds with his family, the centre of his emotional core. And it grew more and more as they trained together and fought together being part of the same team. Naruto had reached the core of his heart when Naruto was not even aware of it. Naruto's own acts of love came much later. But Sasuke's were just there, even when the audience couldn't clock it out. This is how Kishi wrote Sasuke. THIS is Sasuke's character. His stans think they really get Sasuke, think he should be a single man and get rid of annoying Naruto. They DON'T get him AT ALL. Sasuke is about love, that he had been giving Naruto unconditionally all this time. Without asking for any thing in return. Because that's who Sasuke is, because that's how strong and selfless his character is. Because he is a fucking legend of a person. He learnt something at age 8 that takes people a lifetime to learn, despite all the odds he faced. Despite Itachi's every attempt at filling him with hate, Sasuke knew how to love. Sasuke IS LOVE.
If these fans don't wanna see it, it's one thing. But don't come for the SNS fandom. This story is a love story. About them. There are more than a dozen literary romantic references, drawn from Asian media and symbology, very evident to people who know about it already. So all of that is wrong and these fans are right who can't even fucking read right? Do I give them a badge of honour? Yep, bravo. Lol.
I have done a lot of cringey shit in my life, but fortunately for me, there's no evidence left except in my own memories. Sad thing is these fans will potentially grow up one day and see it all differently. And mark my words, they will cringely cringe at their cringeworthy behaviour and takes. Which is all DOCUMENTED for everyone to see. Lol. Nothing much they can do about it. But they can always learn. To be better.
Conclusion -
If Naruto is, as they say, obsessed with Sasuke, it's because he learnt from the best of the best. Sasuke. 😏
#well that went on#but you must have gotten used to it by now#this is all Kishi's fault anyway#i am just writing about it#naruto#sasuke#narusasu#sasunaru#uzumaki naruto#uchiha sasuke#naruto meta#sns
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✮ romantic messages about the person on your mind ✮
pile one, two, or three?
˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ pile one
the person that's on your mind, pile one, could be a friend of yours whom views you romantically, or this is a friend that is now your lover (or in between.) they love to celebrate with you, and they genuinely want to support you. they feel like you're spending too much money, or just not investing the way they think you should. they really want to see you again and have a good time. y'all could have a group of friends that you usually hang out with, and they love having you around with them. when you're not there, it feels like something is missing. you help them creatively; you're their muse. they desire having a harmonious relationship with you, and if you two already have this, they're truly grateful for it. they know that at times they can be a bit irritable whenever you're gone for too long, or whenever you give too much attention to other people. they feel like they're addicted to you and that they should be the only person to get that sort of attention from you. you're truly their world, pile one. this person may show some signs of obsessiveness or possession over you because of this. they don't want their world to be taken away from them. they are not playing when it comes to you and the love you two share. they take it very seriously which is also why they don't like seeing you be too friendly to other people. they feel like you give them new ideas when it comes to money and business; you two could talk about someday owning a mall or opening up a store together, or something along the lines of that. you give them the strength to do better for themselves and they're extremely grateful for you. they may sometimes think that you're keeping secrets from them which can cause them to be a bit cold towards you at times, pile one. if you're not keeping anything from them, this is self-sabotage on their part and it's probably because they have never loved someone like they love you. they really do worry about losing you and they could possibly want you to drop certain friends out of your life because of this. this feels like puppy love, if i'm being honest. try not to let this person control your life and please keep the friends that you have (unless you know they're trying to get between you and this person. it's your choice, of course.)
˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ pile two
this person has some repressed emotions that they may be hesitant to express to you, pile two. they are a very intuitive person, but maybe they're doubting their intuition when it comes to you? if you're uninterested in this person, then i supposed their intuition is right, lol. this person cared about you very much. they're practicing self-love at the moment, which could be another reason why they keep their feelings to themselves. even if this person has admitted that they like you, i feel like there's wayyyyy more that they have yet to tell you. i feel like this person may have manifested you into their life unintentionally by focusing on themselves. they definitely view you as a new something for themselves, but i'm seeing that they have been hurt and possibly even abandoned in the past, so they're not going to rush into anything too soon. they may have a hard time trusting people because of a break up they've had. they're possibly even turning away from this connection with you, pile two. they're scared to accept love in again, and they're scared to give love again. but their intuition is telling them that you're what they've been wishing for; you're the end of the painful cycle and the beginning of a loving one. they are going to need to get out of this fear they have if they're going to be with you, pile two. there's a lot that they keep hidden now and it has to do with their compassion and love for you. they may see that other people are romantically interested in you as well, which may make them feel already defeated in the connection. they could've been cheated on and now that's their worst fear with new connections. "if they want you they can have you" this person doesn't want to have to fight others for you because they feel like they've already lost if they have to compete, which i don't blame them. but i do think they will try this love thing again with you. they really do like you and they don't want to lose the opportunity to be with you just because someone in the past didn't appreciate them enough. i suggest you be patient with this person. they're rebuilding the love they once had for themselves.
˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀ pile three
this kind of feels like an extended version of pile two. the person on your mind, pile three, is gaining the strength to finally come out and tell you everything they feel for you. even if you reject them, they're still going to be happy that they at least put it out there. they're letting go of their old mind-sets and gaining new perspectives on life. "rejection is redirection" even if you don't want them, they feel like they can finally stop wishing they told you and get a final answer; although they really hope you don't reject them. i do feel like this person is going to wait a bit (if they haven't waited already) to do this because they want to look for happiness within. they may feel like something in their life is missing and they don't want to rely on you or anyone else to fill that void for them. i feel like some sort of conflict will trigger clarity in this person's mind. could be a conflict with you or a conflict with someone/something else. this conflict took a lot of strength for this person, i'm seeing. once they get over whatever this is, it's go time. i feel like this person was in a really foggy state of mind and was just genuinely confused about who they want to be, where they want to go, who they want to be with, etc etc. but once they get everything figured out, they're going to move towards you quickly, pile three. and by quick, i mean quick. i would be lying if i said i don't think this person is scared to be rejected by you, though. this is honestly one of their biggest fears at the moment, and if you do reject them, this could be the "conflict" that makes them get out of this confusing energy they're in. they worry that you are going to treat them like another option and easily disregard them like you do the rest of your options (according to them.) they don't have a lot of faith that you'll be into them, but they may try anyways. their energy fluctuates a lot, so i'm sorry if this pile was a bit confusing to read. that honestly just shows how all over the place this person is. one minute they feel confident, the next, not so much.
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CAPRICORN RISING♑️
You have been very hard on yourself, I understand the purpose of it but you are doing it all wrong. Self reflection and shadow work is completely different from bullying yourself. You're going through an awakening right now, the universe is calling you out, you guys have a higher purpose in this world. Some of you guys have secret plans that you have been working on and some dreams that you are about to entertain that know one knows. I know you are very protective of your ideas and desires, but being ruled by saturn isn't easy, always working extra hard because the whole thing might fall apart if you don't focus & put your all in oryou'll have to start over. Not to mention having envious people around you that silently sabotage all your projects. Add a mind that is your biggest enemy and you have the recipe for an extremely exhausted human. When will you address that and put an end to it? All those voices in your head, whether it's you valuing your worth based on your productivity or the voices of people who can't see your vision. The best way to stop the noise is by first acknowledging it's there, then you have to find out why you allow those thoughts in, Ask yourself do you think they're right, ask yourself again if you or your talents and skills fit into that low bar that everyone else is setting for you, when did these other people whose drive and skill could never match up to yours have the power to convince you that you can't succeed at all your goals? It's literally judgement time, you are being pushed to cut that behavior out, allowing negativity to cloud your mind and breed self doubt and self sabotage. It's time to become YOU. Reflection, renewal and reckoning is your energy. That plan that you've been working for the past couple of months or years even is finally coming in to play, there's a major turn around coming. You've been tending to your garden well and you'll be harvesting the fruits of your labor very soon.
Overall, success is coming in whatever field that has been your focus for a while now. If you been waiting on an answer this is it, if you are actually about to start something now is a good time. Plant the seeds and wait patiently, the success is guaranteed with consistent care and effort. Celebration is store for you guys, party and go out have fun, you've been working too hard. You give yourself no breaks and you don't treat yourself enough, there's nothing in this world more important than you. Stop putting yourself last in every situation. There are also people that don't mean you well, as you progress and evolve you'll be removing and rearranging a lot of things in your life and finally setting BOUNDARIES. Them people not gonna like that! You have to stand on business though, NO means NO. You plan out your day, if it ain't life or death then you have to prioritize your self and your projects. I feel like a lot of people who aren't dependent on you, always depend on you to show up regardless of what you got going on. You have to discern if they are more important than accomplishing those daily goals. Procrastination is a big issue for Capricorns, no matter the placement, always allowing yourself to be drawn away from your work routine. You set that plan up so that you can properly show up for yourself and have time to handle your other responsibilities. It's wasted if you keep having to remake your plans and routines to accommodate others, leaving simple work that can be done today for tomorrow, now tomorrow is thrown off and now you're burnt out. This cycle always opens the door for you to start beating yourself up. I understand that people need your help and you're the jack of all trades but it can be done whenever you are free, you don't drop everything to go help someone with something they can wait to do or pay someone to do. All humans were born with their own physical capabilities no need to fuck yourself up to show for them. Have strength and enforce your boundaries and do not waver, they can wait, finish your stuff first.
You are safe to move forward with your plans, invest your time, skills and money. You'll have a return on investment WHEN it is successful ( take the word 'if' and change it to 'when'...change 'I think' to 'I know'). Be excited, you escape and find solace in your work and creative endeavors, you complicate that flow by being hard on yourself. You are supported too, remember that. You'll be noticing that all of a sudden you'll have more money in your hands to spend on yourself and invest into you projects. The universe and your spirit guides are handing you support and opportunities, take them and don't hesitate. You know what a good opportunity looks like trust yourself to pursue them and watch the success come true. Movement is happening, this is exciting, changes will be happening all around you! Be happy! Some of you will be travelling really soon, or moving away from where you are or even relocating internationally. Be happy for once and trust that good things can happen for you.
I recommend spending time in nature, you need peace and quiet,observe the animals and the ecosystem. Smudge your surroundings (and yourself) you need to get rid of all that negative energy.(sage,palo santo,sweet grass, incense) Breathing exercises are needed 15 deep breaths for release. Close your eyes and visualize the things you want accomplished, manifest more. Be delusional about your goals.
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pick a pile: "An encouraging message for you"
take a breathe and choose the photo/number that calls you the most to read an ecouraging message for you from your Guides and/or dearest ones (may be also soulmates or your higher self). I think everyone here needs to hear some nice words right now: blood moon might have been emotionally raw and triggering on stuff we thought we were done with.
don’t take the reading too seriously. only take what resonates with you and leave the rest. remember that is a general reading and some things may not resonate with you.
(photos found on unsplash)
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pile 1
I think this blood moon has been pretty rough on you. You may have experienced a lot of triggers, especially hiccups on stuff you thought you were done with. You might have been feeling pretty bad about it. I'm sorry, remember you don't have to feel bad: it's okay to have fallbacks. The message for you is to keep strong and look behind/under this cover of suffering to find the good side and your happiness.
You're being asked to go through this in order to feel better, and grow into your better self. There's no punishment here. Like the bottle in your pic: if you take time to clean it, you'll find a beautiful, maybe old and a bit signed by time, but still entire and perfect bottle (probably even more precious cause of the time that has passed and of what it has been through). Same goes for you. You have no idea how precious you are. But you will soon.
Remind yourself it's okay to stop and chill, take breaks and just close your eyes and regulate yourself. Ground yourself. Take time to do so especially when things get too overwhelming. Breathing work (through your nose, and use your belly too as when you sleep, not just your stomach/lungs. It'll help you relax you lower back).
Remember that you can take control over your shadow's sides, over your emotions: you need to meet them and understand where your unmet needs are bugging you from your unconscious self. Don't let fear and self sabotage block you and your life. Don't let this dark side of you come out and take over as they please, take advantage of you/sabotage you. Sit and talk with it, analyze its needs and why it is there. Allow yourself to feel and experience anything you are feeling and experiencing; validate yourself, and balance that out with healing and learning. But do not rush things. Take your time. You'll be celebrating soon something beautiful. The end of the cycle is almost there. Don't stress over being done with your healing, it will only posticipate the closure. Be open to your new beginning. And remember your worth. Do never think anything bad about you, no matter the hiccups or fears or whatever your trauma wants you to think of you. You are worthy of whatever you desire. And it'll arrive. (444 angel number brings a clear message of calmer days ahead). Give love to yourself (my heart chakra is in pain), hug and appreciate yourself, seek for help.
Your Guides are always by your side (my ear is ringing hard) trying to encourage you and guiding you. Be open to their signs. Be grounded so to hear/see their messages especially when you're overthinking/spiralling. You're not alone. You are never alone. Feel their embrace. You are doing a great job and they're proud of you. (I get a lot of nurturing and healing energy from them, I hope it can reach you)
songs: wicked games | kiana ledé; shiver | amber run
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pile 2
(About your messages: I feel some of you may already be aware them and are congratulated, others are still in the process of understanding/being more conscious. If you find mixed sentences here and there, that's the reason)
Pile 2, you got it. Despite the pain and overthinking, know that you got it. You can make what you want out of your life. You can turn it how it pleases you. You know you can. And you know the message is to keep going on this road, always keeping strong and looking ahead with hope and a bright smile. "Never back down".
Keep taking care of yourself, and remember to drink your water and eat healthy. You probably have already started to do some more meditation/exercising, even taking more walks outside: doing something for your body and mind. It's a very good practice, you're being congratulated here (if you haven't started yet, you'll probably feel called to do this soon).
Someone from the past might pop up into your life by chance, remind yourself it's not always to make you work on a trauma or trigger a bad emotion, they could bring a good news or memory too, something you need to remind yourself from how things were back then. Always look at the bright side. And remember that also people can change (don't be too good though, stand your ground before giving in. Listen about what they want, or what thoughts they're making you re-live). For someone else, it can also be someone new, still bringing with them some news/emotions you need to deal with (but be positive about them: dealing with someone else may be the only way to end your healing: communicate and be vulnerable about your feelings, if your guts are giving you green light about this person).
Beautiful things are coming for you, it's a new start. You have learnt and are still learning your lessons, embracing them and reducing the time you spend worrying on not receiving/not seeing results (also for manifestations) or actual changes. The change has started from your inside. It'll show outside too soon. Keep being patient and indeed, stop worrying if you haven't yet. Things are going to go great, your wishes will be fulfilled. Believe. In yourself and in divine timing. Trust.
Remind yourself that the past has no control over your future. It's about you and now, building your next days. What has happened, doesn't have to reapper again. Stop judging yourself and your life from your past self point of view. Have a talk with that and move towards your new self. Your breakthrough is indeed about embracing your new vision and version of yourself and your life, and change what has been. You have done a great job. Keep going on like this.
songs: saturday sun | vance joy; i wanna be your slave | maneskin
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pile 3
The message is that you are probably going to get a message or a request? How nice! It might be even about this pac. Maybe you are a psychic and knew that somehow some kind of message was coming for you. You also may need to take a pause and close with something from the past. Similar to pile 2, but also different. I mean, your photo has so many reflections... what can be clearer than that? Stop and think about that thing that is bugging you, and take a decision. And honestly, I think it's something that needs closure from how I unconsciously worded it before. Look inside yourself and take action. I think you need to decide where you want your life to go, what you want to do and get. But remember that what you do, needs to fit what you want. You need to be aware of the latter to realize the first. So, what do you want?
I see someone staring at themselves into a mirror. Keep trying to see and know your true self, your secrets and desires. Don't let what has been ruin your present. Don't let others judge you either. Just be self conscious, know your worth and remind yourself about it. About what you've been through and how strong it made you. You didn't give up, that needs appreciation. You are getting accolades from your Spirits. Indeed there's a message coming in soon, it'll sign a new beginning in your life. All you've learnt will be useful into this new path. Don't let your fears sabotage you again as it has been: remind yourself you're different now and things can always change; they do always change. Be brave and focused on your goals. And keep manifesting. You aren't aware of so many things! You're gonna feel so amazed. I feel a lot of joy and happiness, you may be reached by your soul family and possibly by a soulmate.
Things will go great on so many different levels (remember to keep yourself balanced and grounded btw). And you deserve that cause of all you've been doing. Also for others. You've been through ups and downs, you've been dealing with trauma and tough people/karmic relationships, you've been going through dark periods and moments in which you had to put yourself and desires aside in order to be of help. You had to make a tough decision. But now it's time to focus on you, and you alone. Let others find their answers and fight their own battles: it's not up to you to heal everyone. You need to heal yourself first.
songs: lontano dagli occhi* | sergio endrigo; because of you | ne-yo
*you can ask for a general translation if you need
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Can you feel the warm embrace from your Guides and soul family? They're around you, shielding you, protecting you. Always. You may feel overwhelmed, but even if you can't see the light, know that it's there and you'll be aware of it soon. I feel that you're trying to manifest a new life, but you cannot cause of your emotions and past experience sabotaging you. Know that you're close to realizing your wishes, you only need to end this habits of bringing you down and sabotaging you (pile 1?). It's something tough, but really, that's the last step. All you want, is all there ready to flood over you, but the Universe wants you to be fully ready to get it and own it, and not be scared of losing it or push it all away from you by mistake (self sabotage). You need to have a quiet mind to really enjoy the amazing things you desire from your heart. So keep working with love, towards yourself and others. Never forget that being kind and open is a good answer, no matter what we're scared of or what we've unconsciously learnt in our past/childhood. There's always a way out from that that can help us see better and be more balanced. "Be open" I keep hearing that. Maybe you're a bit closed off when it comes to relationships/meeting new people (some social anxiety or fear of abandonment/judgement may be there, and they may cause you loneliness from not being able to create deep bonds with others).
Make kindness/love your first goal, especially with you. The message is strong. It can totally change you and your life. And if something blocks you from starting new endeavours, remind yourself you CAN do it. You have all you need to make it. And even if something is missing, you don't have to worry, you'll find it along your path. Your Guides and soul family are there with you for that reason. You may meet someone or need to ask for help to someone. Let them in/help you sort things out.
Don't be scared of not making it, you can make it. And you will make it. (Be open, again). Maybe not the first time, it may take you a couple of tries, but this doesn't mean you cannot do it. Take these tries as challenges from the Universe to see how ready you are, how focused you are, and what still needs to get bettered in the meantime. (It may be about meeting new people too: maybe the first ones won't stay for long but that's okay, they are there to help you learn/practice/grow and be ready to meet the right people/person and not lose them). Sometimes success has a lot to do with timing and experience. Don't beat yourself up for this or for "failing" sometimes: it's okay to not be immediately perfect (you know perfection doesn't exist right?). Your time is almost there. Give yourself the chance to try. (Bon Jovi "Keep the faith" is playing in my head, I think it can bring important messages here especially about possible childhood traumas and keep choosing love in your life, no matter what. And ofc keeping the faith).
songs: keep the faith | bon jovi; this is what falling in love feels like | jvke
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So excited you’re back, I love your succession fics! Can I request Kendall and “do you think I’m a good person?” He needs so much reassurance on this 💕
here you gooo! thank you for the kind words and fun prompt. hope you enjoy xo
Kendall Roy x Reader
prompt: do you think I'm a good person?
When the cameras were on, he was mesmerizing. In the hushed silence, all eyes were on Kendall. The confidence he exuded in that moment was enough to captivate the world. Whether it was true or not, whether he had anything to back up his claims, none of that mattered. It was the sheer amount of self-assurance that it took for Kendall to tear down his father in front of the world that was so alluring.
But when the cameras were off, when he was sitting beside you in the company car after the press conference, it was a different story.
He couldn’t stay still. Buzzing with adrenaline, scrolling through his phone, fidgeting with his sunglasses, taking calls. Kendall was in his element. Finally, he had found an ounce of his own power.
"The tweets are good, guys. This is really happening."
He suddenly went silent, causing you to look over at him. He was staring at his phone.
"It's Dad," he said, breaking the silence. “This is a trap, right? Jess?”
Jess, who was sitting up front with the driver, turned around in her seat. He showed her the phone, waited for her advise. She only shrugged, looking slightly panic-stricken.
Finally, taking the plunge, he answered. He didn’t say a word, just listened. You could hear the muffled voice on the other end, Logan’s familiar tones. A darkness crept into Kendall’s eyes. That hollow look you knew all too well. The energy drained out of his face. He said “uh-huh” in a deadpan voice, then hung up.
Silence. The car hummed through the congested city streets. Jess peered at him, anticipating whatever was to come.
He laughed. A laugh derived of all joy.
“Wow. Just wow.”
He shook his head and slid his phone into his pocket. Then he stared out the window and didn’t speak for a full minute, the longest he had been silent since the press conference ended.
“Kendall,” you said softly.
“Yeah.”
“You okay?”
Again, a long silence.
“I’m great. This is the greatest moment of my life.”
But when he turned to look at you, to show you his winning smile, tears spilled out without warning.
“Hey, hey,” you said, reaching for him immediately. “Come here.”
It was typical of Logan to destroy his children with just a few words. You had seen it happen over and over. You didn’t know how they could withstand it. Kendall had been so ground down by it that you were amazed there was anything left of him.
“He said I'm not a good person,” he choked.
Jess craned around again, silently listening. Kendall held onto your hand for dear life.
“It’s funny. It’s really fucking funny for him to say that. Because he’s one of the worst people in the world.”
He laughed through his tears, torn between mania and total despair.
“I know,” you said, gripping his hand. “I know.”
“I don’t know, though. Maybe it’s true.”
“What’s true?”
“I’m a bad person. I’m as bad as him.”
He shook his head, unable to cope with the thoughts that had just flooded into him.
“I hurt people," he said. "I disappoint people. That’s all I do. What do people think when they look at me? I don’t think they see a good person. They see a failure who can’t live up to his father’s image.”
“Not everyone thinks that. And if they do, fuck them. They don’t matter.”
“I’ve tried,” he went on, tears still streaming. “I’ve tried so fucking hard. I thought I was doing what was right. But I don’t think anything I do matters. This fucking press conference. None of it.”
“You might have just changed the world, Kendall. Seriously.”
“I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. Am I just being selfish and attention-seeking? I feel like I’m constantly sabotaging myself and I don’t know how to break out of this cycle of self-destruction.”
Then he looked up at you, imploring, scared and confused, like a deeply wounded child.
“Do you think I’m a good person?”
Jess, silent until now, nearly leapt into the back seat.
“I do. I think you’re amazing. You’re the best boss I’ve ever had, and you’re my hero. I’ve never told you that. I should probably say it more.”
Kendall was speechless. Jess shrank back into her seat.
“Sorry. I’m sorry,” she said in a small voice.
“No, no,” he said with a weak laugh. “Thank you, Jess. That means a lot.”
You touched Kendall’s face lightly. He turned to you again, tears streaking his face. You kissed his cheek, the moisture from his tears lingering on your lips. Kendall went absolutely still, waiting and listening, totally rapt.
“You’re a good person, Kendall,” you said. “Don’t pay attention to what others think.”
“I care what you think,” he whispered. “I care what my kids think. My siblings…”
My dad, you finished for him silently.
You wrapped your arms around him gently, allowing him to fall into your shoulder. He held you tight, with a new desperation. The tears had subsided for now. There was a newfound strength brimming from him.
“Fuck the world,” he murmured into your shoulder. “I’m doing this for you.”
You ran your hands over his back. Jess cast him another worried glance. You reassured her with a slight nod. He would come out of this. He always did.
“I know, Kendall. I know. You’re doing great.”
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omg so ik it’s probably just a joke post but i’m curious now what you think as the author of buttefly bandage; do you think bb!chan is actually worse than bb!reader? or are they equally as bad?
ohoho what an interesting question! thank you for asking 😽
i think it ultimately depends on what you consider to be worse, bc their issues are the same at their core, but manifest in different ways. chan is better than the reader in terms of emotional openness and willingness to be vulnerable w her. he’s the first one to open up to her, to release his emotions, cry, and allow himself to be comforted by her. however chan is much worse than her in the self-sacrificing (and to be honest, the self-loathing) department. he made the first breakthrough in sharing his struggles w the reader, but he allowed the guilt of leaning on her to consume him immediately after, which turned all his usual self-sabotaging behavior up to a 100 bc he felt like he had to make it up to her for daring to have a moment where he needed support for once. he doesn’t believe he deserves the reader’s love and care, and he doesn’t see why she’d love him if he isn’t useful to her, bc that’s the only way he’s ever known how to receive love
the reader is better than chan when it comes to acknowledging how she’s been mistreated by others as well as how her skewed approach to relationships harms both herself and her loved ones. she’s more self aware than him and a lil more bitter abt what she’s been through, which is why her view of love is so cynical at the beginning of bb. she’s able to console chan in bb3 and strive for a change in his behavior bc she wants to break the cycle of unhealthy relationships. however, that requires her to let down her own walls as well, and she’s a lot worse than channie in the emotional openness department bc she’s been conditioned to believe that seeking comfort in others will always end badly for her, bc of the kinds of ppl she's been surrounded by her whole life. she's accustomed to her feelings being used against her and feels selfish for having them, and she lost the only person (her best friend) who she was ever able to express her emotions with
so channie is able to open up to the reader, but not able to change himself out of fear of being unlovable if he isn’t constantly sacrificing himself. the reader longs to change herself, but is unable to open up bc she fears the vulnerability that it entails. i guess that’s why they need each other, to fill in the gaps where the other lacks! they fit together like pieces of a puzzle~
in my personal opinion channie is a lil worse, bc the way he treats himself is actively harmful and has more serious consequences on his life that he never seems to learn from no matter how much he gets hurt…but maybe the same could he said abt the reader? they're both just a bit stubborn in their own right hehe
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