personally i do not allow many people to love me. when someone says they like me, i don’t believe them. or i just look away

i be like “im fine and im over it” and then i post on tumblr

I’m so sick of people prying my walls open just to have ulterior motives and not really care

Hi. If you're searching for positivity, this is not it, you may skip if you want.

We're talking about feeling alienated.

Now, my experience may be "contaminated" but I think my point still stands.

Being aroace/aspec sucks when you're surrounded by friends who have partners. By friends who put their partner WAY above friends. It sucks especially when you and your friend used to talk all day, and suddenly, it turns into a message per day. Then one per week.

It sucks because you know it's 'your fault' and that you can't blame them�� they're building their life, it's fine if you're not in their daily routine. It's common.

But it hurts even more when, they break up, and your friend begins talking to you all day again. It feels like you're a quick-fix, someone that is there when they feel low, but never when they feel high. Sort of a substitute to love.

And it's a loop.

It also sucks when every one of your friends has a partner and you start to feel less. Sure, it's society's fault for pushing amanormativity, but you still feel like that.

It's funny because your 'inability' to fall in love is a joke among them.

"You're the only one I know who doesn't long/search for a relationship," but you do long for the closeness, for the trust, the mutual caring.

And here it goes. Feeling like you never fit in.

Everyone around you is searching for love, even finding it, going as far as disappearing from your life for it.

And there you stand, wanting to hang out with your friends. Just have fun. But they have other things! They have their partners. They have their partner's family—

Anyone but you.

And they talk about love, they talk about intimacy, and they talk talk talk.

You wonder, is it really that good? Is love worth all this hype?

Why not me?

Why everyone but me?

all i needed was for u to stick to your words

— Life is Strange: Before The Storm (2017)

just a quick reminder that is still in fact a life is strange obsessed blog. we r just taking a quick detour to mommyclan

silly thing i did last night at 23 or so

oh jeez i could say so much right now but i wont. i'll be nice

Me, to myself: Alastor is bad cluster b rep, Alastor is bad cluster b rep, Alastor is

Also me: *accidentally projects my own cluster b symptoms onto him while writing fanfiction*

Me:

Me: Oops

Cluster b culture is jealousy’s, I’m so damn jelous all the time but I know it’s a toxic trait so I deal with it.

Fp lije: I Like it when ur jealous…

My heart is hard for you And you alone.

I would die for you, I would live for you, either way, what bliss

.

He told me I was the most lovely looking girl he’s ever seen. I found downloaded on my laptop a link of thousands of photos of ladies with zero likeness to me He said that he learned the lesson, laughed it off as i felt lonely. He had another lapse of judgement, and I dyed my long hair darker to not be a liability. He told me we can talk more and try therapeutic things. I tried to keep tabs of transgressions, only I would have no one to tell them to. He would turn the tables, take our troubles to others, something that I never thought to do. He would secretly tape me as if I was a traitor, while I didn’t know we were on different teams. He told me he could comfort me or show me compassion if I need him to back off. I tried to communicate an apology calmly during confrontation, coming off as cold and callous. He was content with being combative, committed to coerce me to combust. He followed me to the car, chastised me, called me crazy, and I was crying so hard I’d cough. He told me we could take pictures at the pumpkin patch. I know he’s plagued with bad memory, but refuses pen down any plans. He will never come home when he says, postponing promises because it’s prefered and he can. He perseveres without pause, and I was put in a place with a wristband and gown to match.

Allison Morgan

Damn I'm impressed with tumblrs for your algorithm. It sensed a bpd episode and has switched from hardcore porn to sad bpd posts and poems about loneliness. Way to follow the vibe I guess, very thoughtful of u

I freaking love your au and your latest comic because MAN

I FELT THOSE LAST WORDS AND I WAS LIKE "OH FUCK"

First panel was already a bit unsettling itself - like you get it's just intimate manners as you do as a couple but he felt so possessive already and

Sunny's inner thoughts

I'm sure 100% his abandonment anxiety will increase drastically the more he stays with nick and honestly slay

I mean it's kinda obvious

But like I felt that

Yeah

Nick is unhinged

Nick is crazy

Y'all are gay for him

Good 😵💥

Sunny has soooo many issues. So many of them. He's so vulnerable and he makes himself vulnerable to Nick while still being intimidated by him, it's... Dude's got some problems.