1C for Naji 👉🥺👈

⭐ 1 (one) starry boy coming right up ⭐

The new love languages: biting, slideshow, written words, forehead bonk, frolicking

choose an animal (real or fictional) to be transformed into during a full moon ? and why

Cat. I could hang out with Waffle or the nighbourhood cats!!!

^^ Waffle in question

I AM SO LATE BUT 🌹

@shadowtigress2 @spiccykels @yivurnkani Another snippet for you all to enjoy ;)

When Maker arrives home, Sawbones does not return with him.

He walks along the burnt ashes of the long-condemned building and digs His feet into the warped wood that snaps under his weight. What once was His proud Kingdom now lays to dust, as He had until the previous night.

It hurts, even now, to be apart from His Sawbones. Although they parted amicably at His grave, although He is aware His Favorite is safe, His soul longs for him. His body aches to connect with his, to gaze upon and slot perfectly against his once more.

Magic, while patient, is a tease, and its cruelty far outweighs its benefits. However, while this conundrum remains an issue, He must call upon it as Sawbones did these past few years and seek an answer to its misdeeds.

And when it is all over, when there is no one left to harm them again, He can return to His Favorite's side and return what He seeks, brushing the fear and doubt of these troubled times aside as it they were a mere dream. He will reunite with His Sawbones, and their passion will outweigh even a perfect night such as the last.

They will be reunited. They will never be stolen from each other again.

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ughh im not allowed to come until beloved gets back from helping some friends move i am so lonely and desperate i keep grinding against the bed but its not enough and im not allowed anyway aughhh

beloveddddd [gently cups your face in my hands] tell me about CIFL <3

HI BELOVED <333

your ticket of admission is a kiss on the forehead <3 as i try to remember what developments have been made since i last talked about it on here...

mmm!!! one that's been haunting me lately (i probably won't actually get around to writing it so i'll share it here): i've been thinking about. well it's an intersection of inspiration from mawce by everybody's worried about owen and a troubled mind by noah kahan but. 22/23 year old maggie (pre-transition donny) going to eli (pre-transition ellie)'s college town— based on the a troubled mind lyrics 'i took a bus out to the city where you live / eaves dropped on strangers' conversations with their kids / in hopes that maybe they'd say something relevant / to ease my worried head'— while in a Weird Headspace (even a manic episode, but more on That later). doesn't get a whole hell of a lot out of it, other than more of The Weird Headspace, especially if (he) sees someone who looks vaguely like eli and/or gets spooked by any deep water around (another point to be elaborated). while somewhat Dissociated in the headspace, makes (his) way down to boston, then to new york, has a mini break in a new york hotel room including shaving (his) head. DOES, then, get home safely and shows up at the hurleys' door— the specificity of new york being important because the shaving of the head leads to (his) hat era and the hat (he) got first says NY on it. marian, god bless her, is a bit shocked at first but. she loves (him) like her own so she fixes the rough/uneven patches of hair, makes sure (he's) well-fed/comfortable, defends (him) when Joseph gets a bit prickly about the whole situation (I HAD ACTUAL DIALOGUE BUT I FORGOR; anyway, i'll elaborate on the prickle AS WELL). lets M— who does want to temporarily go by M since part of the break is gender shit— vent where (he) needs to. and. the part i'm gnawing on the most is, in the morning M's like 'hi annie...' and marian's like 'hi peach :)' because!!! dat baby's a fuzzy little peach right now!!! and. and. joseph, coming to made Some acceptance with the situation, puts a ballcap of his on M's head, probably a chicago cubs cap or something...

ELABORATION 1.) usage of 'manic episode' as i always do, i use the phrasing with careful consideration just because. i know it's not verbage to just throw around. and i use it apprehensively here just because i STILL have not determined whether donny is more bipolar or BPD, but i AM leaning BPD more so. probably in part because of pieces of him that are so very me. but i am also NOT ruling out the possibility just because in some scenes in my head, i can see things that could be a manic or could be a depressive episode. POINT BEING I'M STILL DOING MY RESEARCH AND I'M DOING MY RESEARCH AT ALL, I SWEAR.

ELABORATION 2.) fear of deep water something i really need to do is note all the music inspired lore, particularly the noah kahan inspired stuff. ANYHOW. noah's song fear of water inspired the lore that donny's scared of deep dark water, like any dark parts of lake michigan and for sure the ocean. the other side of the coin (because of course it's a coin) being that ellie was a swimmer in middle school / high school after getting over her own fear of water (inspired by 'you used to be scared of the water / you're safe by the side of your father' from glue myself shut). –– E2a.) naturally, there's a scene in my head related to all of this. in The Awkward Period after ellie moves back— another point for elaboration— what really ends the tension, besides hashing it out, is ellie making him face that fear of the water. not quite fear immersion with, like, going into the depths of the ocean, but taking a dunk in the lake, even against donny's better judgment. and grumbling about it just because it doesn't FULLY reduce the anxiety (just staves it) but he also can't fully complain because if following her word means he's regained some of ellie's trust and bond, then by god he'll do it

ELABORATION 3.) joseph prickliness it prickles me to forget the dialogue i had BUT the main subtext behind it is. prior to donny's transition, he's seen like a daughter to both of the hurley parents, so in some part joseph's always prickly about that, not because he doesn't Want a daughter but because he doesn't know how to have one (not that he knows much about having a son or a kid in general, between him & annie having ellie young-er AND his personality). and it's something he admits to ellie after She's transitioned, saying that he Still doesn't know how to have a daughter. BUT at least he's made an effort in both cases and continues to make an effort for his Blood daughter

ELABORATION 4.) The Awkward Period the awkward period is ALSO music inspired but it's more a conglomerate than anything. like the major components are two song inspired scenes i'll explain in a second but. the general notion with The Awkward Period is that it's a span of a couple months after ellie gets back where things are, well, Awkward. she's trying to handle her grief and readjust to being back home (after four years in vermont, four years in philadelphia) with whatever weird grudge she doesn't understand being held by donny as a cherry on top. and donny's still sifting through said grudge, still compartmentalizing his anger. so it's a lot of tension filled stares and cutting words for a minute –– E4a.) the major component is the Funeral stuff inspired by orange juice... which is particularly the first/last verse with the placing of the setting as a party. in my head it's the wake, everyone choosing to drown their sorrows are drinking, cue joseph & ellie in the kitchen, with donny walking in; the tension is thick as donny and ellie look at each other, and ellie, out of sheer politeness, wants to suggest that there's stuff to mix a drink with. only for joseph to interject that there's orange juice in the fridge for non-alcoholic drinking, which confuses ellie slightly but only because she doesn't know that donny's the lyric of 'and i haven't drank in six months / on the dot'. which does irk donny a bit more in stewing since that means his sobriety is yet Another piece of information that's been withheld from her / that she doesn't know and therefore another piece of him that she hasn't known –– E4b.) the other major component is the hashing out scene. which also has some orange juice inspiration but is mainly homesick (and even a hint of new perspective)... so Given homesick, it's set like two months after the funeral, donny coming over to the hurley (now just joseph's) residence to Try to make some amends, at least lure ellie out to talk some, in the VERY least go on a walk. tries to talk a bit, though superficially, about things she's missed while away, but that sours quickly. sours quickly because it easily falters into orange juice's talking of waiting so long for a homecoming that there wasn't a thought to ask where they had gone (but now asking Why they had gone). and more importantly into the fact of '[doesn't ellie] find it strange that [she] just went ahead and carried on? ... the last time [donny] drank [he] was face down passed out there in [her parents'] yard / are [they] all just crows to [her] now? / are [they] all just pulling [her] down?' WHICH. is where it turns into a hashing out because ellie bites back with the fact that her heart and her soul, more importantly her life, have changed— even the city had changed, but Somehow donny had not. and all of this continues the awkwardness and tension since now they've rubbed salt into each other's wounds, as much as they needed to hear what the other had to say (as general fact And for communication's sake)

because of being on my orange juice insanity, i'm thinking about 'you didn't put those bones in the ground' in relation to how it's worked into the story. and i forgot about 'now i'm third in the line-up to your lord and your savior'... BUT I'VE ALREADY SAID TOO MUCH IN ONE SITTING AS IS (and i haven't even touched other parts of the stick season album, like northern attitude and all my love, or anything else noah-turned-inspiration)... but do tell me if you want more insanity <3 i am willing and able to offer <3

would you still love me if I weren't real?

if I were simply a figment of your imagination?

would you still love me if you weren't real?

if you were nothing more than fleeting memories of a past that never was?

and if it never was, then does that mean it never will be?

what if we are just the playthings of a child we cannot see...

what if we are just sand at the bottom of the sea?

sure

why not

would you still love me if we were merely worms?

or the whisper of the wind and moss on stone that's left unturned?

do we truly matter?

or are we just like sand?

floting in the wind alone

with no guide nor helping hand

but I think its safe to say,

who cares if we exsist?

because that each and every day

well give eachother a little kiss <3

(an original poem by @pixel-mess inspired by @trashshouldnt)

love sending my partner things. here's something pertaining to your interests. here's a little guy. here's some of the most insane and fucked bullshit i've read in a bit. I love you I love you I love you

Sherman eating my hair in the morning

just managed to finish this in time (its like 11 pm over here)

happy 7 months @pixel-mess, thanks for sticking with me for so long. here's to many more months to come <3

hello everybody. six days until i can tackle river egopocalypse melody in person and also listen to them plot horrors for you in person.

God I love my QPP he made me a birthday PowerPoint and now I want to cry /pos

your ass is not sleeping

Good point, I'll think about it👍

7 + 13 + 69

7) I think you know what's coming

13) Not surprised this is as high on the list as it is

69) I don't have anything funny to say here 😔

and when hes done and i couldnt come just from his cock he pulls out and flips me over and spoils me even though i whine and beg to be made to come, he has such a strong will and he thinks for me when i cant and helps me be such a good girl and he says things like "awh puppy, maybe tomorrow then, your body will learn eventually" ugh what did i do to deserve him

re: going to coffee shop together—i would ALWAYS do this with you <3333 we could go to that park we went to last time and then go explore the antique shops and get treats from the candy shop :)

OH EM GEE PLEASEEEE that would be so fun and cute :') <333