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majimemegoro · 3 years

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kiryu meta, remastered

im reposting & remastering this because its one of my most important posts but for some reason never shows up in searches and i need to be able to find it sometimes. im making some minor changes and additions but ill put a link to the original in the reblogs. also the codeword is whackusbonkus and thats what ill search if i ever cant find this on my blog. also i am censoring any words that tumblr might think are Bad Words, again to make the post more likely to show up in my blog search.

*HERE BE SPOILERS FOR KIWAMI 2/Y2*

I wrote the original in response to an anonymous ask that said:

I finished YK2 and while I loved it, that ending got me rolling my eyes and sighing "UGH MEN". Massive [no] measuring context ever. What was the point? And don't get me started with the "Haruka will understand". Understand what Kiryu? That instead of taking the elevator, get to a hospital and save yourself you decided to have a pointless fight that served no purpose or whatsoever knowing full well you would leave her alone in this world? Like, I get that’s not the true ending. But damn it’s just such a stupid move. Kiryu I love you but that was dumb as [dumb]. (SORRY FOR THE RANT)

now buckle your seatbelt this is where the rambling starts. OK SO I totally get where you’re coming from and I think your criticisms are totally legitimate, but i actually had a completely different reaction to this part and i consider it one of the best ending sequences in the series (if not the best). Ill try to explain why.

For me, Y2 is the story of kiryu trying to die.

We see him go to meet with the omi when everyone is telling him its certain death. we see him trying to get kaoru to take his life as some kind of stupid reparation for his negligible involvement in the death of her parents at the age of twelve. (TWELVE.) we see him pull a knife out of his gut wound. then at the end theres a) the fight with ryuji and b) the fact that he doesn’t take the chance to leave before the bomb goes off. there might be other examples but i can’t remember. So over the whole game we watch kiryu trying to die, at first in the service of “worthwhile” projects, in the service of utility and honor, but none of it pans out and we see his self-destructive behavior gradually become more pointless, e.g., the knife. but hes still alive.

then in the ending sequence at the top of kamurocho hills, we reach the - in a way natural - conclusion of that. kiryu is left with the absolute thinnest justification for seeking death, a sort of existentially (in the sense of the specific philosophy) valuable activity that is valuable/honorable/meaningful at all only because he decides it is. only because he can’t see beyond not wanting to live. only because he knows that going out with dignity in the midst of a crisis is a “good” way to die. so he gives up on even pretending to have altruistic motivations and he admits to himself at least on some level that, yeah, he wants to help people, but he also wants to die. and people have been helped - the day has been saved as much as it could be - so now he can die.

I think thats why he stays to fight ryuji. on some level it is absolutely a shallow machismo contest, but its also kiryu grabbing onto the only thing he can see that has meaning. its also kiryu getting a way out that will feel strong and dignified and almost metaphysically important. it’s su*cidal ideation masquerading as thymos. physical combat makes an apt stand-in for meaningful activity because it is inherently tied to life and death: physical combat can make a division between life and death, and life and death are important, so fighting ryuji must be important too, right? and then he can die, right? and then-

and yeah, he’s going to be leaving haruka behind. he doesn’t have a justification for that. but i think he really can’t see beyond just wanting things to stop.

is it selfish? yes, in a way. is it psychologically compelling? I say absolutely.

YOU’RE WELCOME FOR THE RANT

(interestingly, I think the soundtrack supports this interpretation - A Scattered Moment is NOT the background music for an *purgatory announcer voice* EPIC MANLINESS CONTEST !!! its the background music for something that is sad and almost beautiful - something trying to be beautiful - and impossible to stop.)

#kiryu kazuma #kiryu #meta #yakuza #kiwami 2 #ryu ga gotoku #majimeta #memecomradeoriginal #whackusbonkus

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noidsome · 7 years

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Digimon tri: Loss rant aka butthurt

So there are things that bothers me a lot about these Digimon tri movies and this movie, well lets just say its teh drop that tipped the glass. I dont really like rewieving things..but i am very passionate for digimon, so i suppose this will do.

So what is there to say about Digimon tri? or spesifically... loss? hehe loss..more like loss of my intrest in these movies..

TLDR; the movie is long, boring, little action, meiko is shit as always, the conflict with sora, tai and matt doesnt exist, some scenes go nowhere and are more filler then plot, still questions left unanswered, 02 kids are dead and gone and nobody cares at this point, and shitty, limited, boring, bland and dissapoiunting animation.

Anyhow where do i even start? first i suppose i should start off by saying the things i DO like about this movie. I did enjoy seeing tai more in the spotlight, and it was nice seeing tai, matt and sora talk again. And not to mention, digivolutions! Where most of the digis became ultimate! hell yeah! and my boi machinedramon, i always loved that fella. And more digi kaiser?? YES PLS FUEL MY NEEDS FOR FOOTAGE!! and of course, the animation was well done with the fight scenes and the action was really neat! My favorite part of the movie was the last part.

and now, onto the... MANY many problems these movies had, with none other then shitty animation, awkward scenes, bad art styles, scenes that go nowhere, meiko, and FILLER!! clench your asshole because this is going to be a long one...

Ok so we start off the movie strong. This flashback goes well with me because its this old timey wimey film effect, and we get to see the backstory of himekawa and black hair teacher typography mcgee, i forgot his name..anyway thats cool, we get plot! and then cuts to meiko being left out with her dark evil special digital device. GOOD. she has no way to enter now. she should be left out like the shitty written character she is. im glad shes out.. but would i be like this for long?? NOPE, NOT HERE IN DISSAPOINTMENT LAND I WONT!!

So then we get tehse cute bonding scenes, which are just very nice. its good they take their time with these, and boy....do they take their time :))))) the shitty happy music desu comes so abruplty that you just sit back and say “nice here it is.” so the rest of the digimon get along just fine with the kids again, which is nice i guess....except for pyokomon or whatever. For some reason she is the ONLY CONVENIENT one that wont like her. now, im fine with this, because things never happen the same way twice. however, she is THE ONLY ONE, and the others open very fast, so why?? eh whatever wont bother explaining too much about that ;))

so after this kawaii desuka moment, after toei “””””””””””””””animation”””””””””””””””” show us a slideshow of their best drawings of the kids just sitting there, with no movement, we get on with it.

There is one thing i learned in animation class, and that is that YOU NEVER HAVE ONE STILL FRAME in animation, and these movies have a lot of them, and so fucking shittly placed as well. Just sometimes to save time, or just because lazyness, the animators just pan a akward still filler frame. i know things are hard, and horrible in NEY-HON, especially with animation, but for gods sake i cant help but go “animation is hard XDDdDdDD” whenever watching these movies....because sometimes....SOMETIMES.......

anyway so onto the story, “special super powerful” meikoomon appears, crying because she is adult and remembers meiko. why, you ask?? WHY??????? WELL who cares stfu. so she runs away and jumps into a distortion. did she make it? did the digital world provide her with some? will we get answers??

so then, PTaiSD starts doubhting if we can save the special boy cat, and Yamaha has to of course get angry about every single little thing tai does, and walks off in a huff. Was this scene forced like all hell?? is yamiffedo being a bitch for no reason?? Yes. yes he was. at this point, it feels like they just put this here to give matt a reason to be angry because they have nothing left to bitch about to eachother, or yashitto just wont let up. either way, it is so frustrating..but i digress.

we also cut to black haired crocks wearing mcgee again, in and out, of him saying “i cant figure this out” and we get told this 2 times. ... ANYYYWAYYYY then the kids remember their personalities again and tai suggests we do something now, and the digimon digivolved. HURRAH!”

byomon is still not trusting sora, which is fine i guess bonds take time, and they did take their time, which was fine. so they keep cutting to this trolly, the one they slept in in digimon adventure. HEY GUYS, REMEMBER THE TROLLY???? REMEMBER DIGIMON 01?? WASNT THAT SERIES COOL???

special OP baby cat meikomon just sits and laments because she cant find meiko, so she gets all infected and fucks up everything again, making the reboot for NUFFIN if she keeps this up. BUTT WAIT, why does she still have this infection?????? OH NO SHE TURNED EVIL AGAIN!!!! but does the movie explain??

so here we are with the blank kids club as izzy expositions the shit out of the other kids, which is nice. its nice to get plot... BUT ITS NOT THE PLOT WE ACTUALLY NEED, just...just a little bit of it. just a little bit.......... anyway everyone cuberbullies meiko and basically says that she is a shit and wont fit in here because all she would do is cry or fuck up something beyond repair. that is what she would do.

so then sora walks off and sits by a trunk and is sad because her tamagotchi doesnt like her anymore. BUT.......and this is a big but...Taishit and Yaman come to the rescue. BUT...they are both stupidly blank and doesnt know waht the fuck to do or say, but they try. how will they tackle this point??

So basically sora is suprised to figure out that tai and matt cant read her mind, and just runs off and is understandably angry about the situation. so as tai and matt is visibly upset they cant fix this, which you couldnt tell because their expressions are about as vibrant as a piece of wood, Taichi basically says something good for once. Sora spends her times worrying about other people and doesnt say anything about her own worries. which is....good??????

im sorry but to me thats not good at all. if you fix everyone elses problem, and you shut your own problems inside, you are going to suffer. THIS IS NOT A GOOD THING HOLY FUCK WHAT KIND OF MESSAGE IS THAT??!?!?!?!? unless i am completly misunderstanding this kind of behaviour but to me, this is not good. fuck that shit. so that scene ends. nothing gets resolved. then finally, after fucking FOREVER with filler scenes and awkward crappy animation, machinedramon finally appears and is here to fucking kill this second hand emberassment. they run from him, and the others see whats going on. so then they try to do something and fails, and then meikoomon isnt evil anymore...........????? and then something which i think is one of the biggest, STUPIDEST cop puts of all time happens.

macinedramon shoots them at point blank, and really hard and long too, like so long the camera makes sure to show ALL of their faces as they slowly burn to death by the giant super death cannon...and so they all get fucking obliterated and die... EXCEPT THEY DONT!!!!!!!!!! A DISTORTION PORTAL APPEARS AND JUST... TROWS THEM ACROSS THE ENTIRE ISLAND!!!! AND THE KIDS ARE ALSO UNHARMED!?”!?”?!?

WHAT THE FUYCK IS THAT SHIT?!?!??! WHY DID THE DISTORITON APPEAR??? WHO MADE IT?? WAS IT MEIKOOMON??? EXPLAIN!!! EXPLAIN FOR FUCKS SAKE IM TOO AUTISTIC TO UNDERSTAND THIS DEEP LEVEL OF STORY TELLING!!!

oh and we get a cute flashback to actually knowing what himekawa wanted. she just wanter he digimon back.......which is why she acted this way all along? so she could get her stupid digimon back=??? thats why she had to act like she was secretly the one fucking everything up?? ....eh idk ANYWAY

byomon sees sora cry and decides wew lad....that changes everything.,..so that scene ends, and what does byomon find?????? WELL WOW ITS MEIKO WHO JUST FELL INTO THE DIGITAL WORLD JUST BECAUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

it was at this point i got really upset with this crappy movie. The scenes drag on for too long, scenes just end and go nowhere, and GOD DAMN IT IM SORRY FOR SAYING THIS BUT MEIKO IS A FUCKING MARY SUE. she is such a classic example of shittily written self insert characters that it fucking hurts. if i wanted to read your shitty digimon fanfiction from 2008 then i would of done that. Its fucking insane to see this level of writing from a professional writing team, holy fuck.

and then........this.......this takes the cake.... fucking tai and kari are together. finally, they get to talk a little about things, like for example bringing up whats bothering tai all this time, or why he has to be such a tittybaby with yamato, or maybe have a little chat about character development. but no we dont get none of that. shitty sad music plays and....no tai just says “oh man im so angry i didnt make it” and kari says “its ok” and then tai just looks down.... AND THEN THATS IT!!! ....OK??

so then a whole lot of fucking nothing happens for a while, and i mean, they just.....dont say ANYTHING worthwhile. tai goes all “man i wish tai would read my mind and not be an asshole. my name IS MATT AND I JUST CANT TALK TO MY FRIENDS SO I WALK AROUND LIKE AN ANGRY PISSY BABY BECAUSE THATS MY TRAIT, WHICH IS NOT FRUSTRATING AND TIRED AT ALL”

and byomon being a little warmer, going to meiko just because shes a cunt at this point, like now shes just being a dick, and generally everyone just walking around having a grand ol time. i guess its nice, and cool and all...but it drags ON FOR TOO LONG WE DONT NEED THIS LEVEL OF CALM WHEN YOU HAD ONE ACTION SCENE TROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE MOVIE!!!!! and just generally....just stuff that goes NOWHERE!! like that train scene???? literally filler. was it a trowback to 02 where agumon came back on the train after being with the dark master?? i dont know!! fuck!!

then expositionmon comes, and its vague, and leaves. and then whatever anyway

meikomon cries and when she gets back to meiko again she tries to slit her troat, and meiko supringly tells her that she isnt good.....wow..thats nice. but they reuine and FINALLY gennai arrives again. in his kaiser disguise. why does he have that avatar to go back and forth troughout the world? why did he chose to use kaiser?? my guess is just to be a dick to the others, because thats the only good explanation at this point.

and sora does say “oh hi ken please dont” but thats it. im sorry but at this point, the 02 kids are oficcially dead and gone. there is no logical explanation to why they act like this anymore. none that are actually good. forget about them, the others have. just....forget about it.

so distortions appear again and everyone reunites again, because hell we needed SOME explanation to them meeting again. so action happens, and everything is nice and fine and then gennai just

hes so insane im kind of liking it..... ANYWAY stuff happens and so they run away while gennai talks to them about some answers to our questions, which they might not hear because of the BIG HEAVY STOMPS AND ROARS from the digimons but whatever... yuggrasil i dont remember who is and at this point i just wanted the movie to be over, so this last part, there isnt much to say because i liked it.

however sora getting BTFO by a giant mountain and machinedramons claw should have killed her, but nah whatever. and the scene with tai and matt drowning??? i jsut... dont understand it. what the fuck happened??? why did they just not drown anymore?? what?????? did the power of magic save them or somethin? I DONT GET IT!! and i mean...they should have drowned at that point jfc

then half the movie is the digimon digivolving and now im so god damn sick of writing, but meikomon fucks everything up again and NOW IT ENDS ON A CLIFFHANGER!! REEEEEEEEEEEEE

SOOOO yeah thats it...the movie was slow, boring, fun, and overall awkwards. the kids had ALMOST no personality, and the scenes that the movie advertized, like the conflict with sora, tai and matt was nonexistant, and just....i myself, and a lot of people, are fucking dissapointed.

if you read this far, thank you. but i have no big hypes for the rest of the movies anymore because the shitty animation, no facial expressions, crappy storytelling, boring character interactions, and MEIKO makes me hate these movies more and more...........and that makes me sad.

#digimon tri #digimon adventure tri #digimon adventure tri loss #review

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lamolati-13-blog · 6 years

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My Definition of Perfect.

You're my definition of perfect.

I dont give two shits that you think I'm lying when I say that.

I dont care that you dont believe me.

I dont want you to change your whole view of yourself just for me.

I never said that.

I never wanted that.

I never specifically told you that.

If you think you're ugly, imperfect, disproportional, etc. I dont care.

Because it won't convince me otherwise.

Regardless, I still will think you're perfect.

No matter what you look like physically, you will always be perfect.

Now the moment you change half or your entire personality, or enough for it to make an appearance, is the day I will think you're far from it.

The day that you end up telling me I'm worthless, ugly, imperfect, etc.

But you're probably thinking "why would I ever?" Unless you're an actual dick

But you do.

You constantly say that dumb shit.

Just not to me.

To yourself.

What makes it any better?

If you wouldn't say it to a close friend, why would you say it to yourself?

Now, thats where I get a lil hypocritical considering I think all that dumb shit about me

But the difference is

I dont let people know because if I do, what if I'll be perfect to someone?

What if someone thinks about me the way I think about you?

Thats an insane thought considering I seem obsessive over you but I stg I'm not and im not a creep I'm just a friend who doesnt want you hurt like I've been.

Its just, what if someone loves me as I love you?

That scares me.

Because if that person ever sees how I think of myself, they would be struck by a bolt of guilt.

Kinda like how I've been.

And yah know nothings better than the intrusive thoughts telling me I'm the fault you think this.

"While he was your partner, you didnt tell him he was everything anyone could imagine enough. Now he won't ever feel like he can ever be because of you."

"You didnt tell him how every detail on his body and face made you feel like you could conquer the world. Now he will forever hate his body and face."

"You forgot to tell him how strong you felt around him and how you finally felt at home just by being near him, now, he thinks his personality is repulsive."

See, in my mind, its all my fault.

You might not understand that but let me break it down,

What if that girl you like told you she wasn't beautiful?

How would you feel?

I get shes your crush and you're not my crush and how that doesnt seem to prove anything but emotionally

You

Would

Crushed.

And don't tell me you wouldn't.

Well, how you would feel if she said she wasn't beautiful and she felt like it because her body did/had/was this or this or this?

You'd blame yourself.

"How could I have just told her this and maybe shed think differently...?"

Everyday.

Even your good days make me wonder,

"Where did I go wrong?"

Wrong enough for you to get mad at me for just wanting to call you perfect because thats how /I/ feel.

Wrong enough for you to get upset with me when I just try to help you think about how you could change it.

Wrong enough for you to have called me selfish or that "the world doesnt revolve around" me, for putting my time and effort into making YOU happy.

My definition of perfect is you.

Youre someone who doesnt realize how much they've hurt someone, but continues to hurt theirself the same way. Fucked up part is, if they ever figured out how much they'd hurt someone, they'd probably hurt theirself more, creating a loophole. Yet, I still hang on.

Youre someone who is so blind to their own beauty, they won't believe what others think.

Not even the closest of friends.

Im not even talking about you at this point.

Seems as if I'm talking to a void.

Something goes in, doesnt come out.

I tell you all of these things that I believe are true, and I dont see any sort of outcome from it.

Just me saying words

That go through one of your ears

And out the next.

Because, you know, who cares what I have to say???

Its not like you're the only one I care about or anything.

What?

Do you think I just tell all of my friends this?

If you think I do, you have no clue who I even am.

If you think I tell just everyone their perfect and I have a reasoning for it, youre a stranger to me.

You are the only person I've ever gone into such depth, such reason, such deatil for why youre perfect.

Think I'm lying?

Pft well then IG youre not who I thought you were.

Because you know.

I dont.

Lie.

To bring pleasure

To others.

And telling you youre perfect has proven to not be pleasureable as you say it makes you slightly mad. So if I'm not saying it to please you, why the fuck else would I say it other than I believe its true?

If I wanted to lie I would tell everyone they're perfect with an exact reasoning why I think so.

Which would be so easy and quick for me, huh?

No not at fucking all.

because youre the only one I actually have a reasoning behind for being perfect.

And its just my own definition of perfect.

And I can't exactly explain what that is to me yet.

All I have for now is "you".

And you just won't open your eyes to see that I dont care whether or not its pleasing you, making you happy to hear, or even remotely you just wanting to hear that, its my own thoughts. You won't realize, I'm not fucking saying this shit to "cheer you up" or "make you feel better"!!! I'm saying it because if I dont, who will? Who would have the guts to actually tell you something true, not because they feel bad for you, other than me. Because I sure as hell dont feel bad for anyone. I might relate or show that I understand, but I won't feel bad. Because sometimes, people just want that to fuel their attention seeking ways. Not you, because I've never seen you do that, but so many others, the others I dont tell this stupid shit to, otherwise it would be lying. I dont just tell people they're perfect because I wake up and feel like it, they have to prove to me. And even after everything we've been through, your proof remains vaild. And I dont care if you believe me, or even care what I have to say, because I know.

And I will tell you them regardless if you ignore me, tell me I'm lying, or tell me to stop saying it.

Because if you can think it about another person, I can say it to you.

And I will say it

Until you open your ears and eyes

See

And just fucking

Listen.

The moment you realize I probably feel even more strong towards you than you do towards her, is the moment you realize I wouldnt be around if it weren't for you.

because of you

I still go through hell everyday

But you just make the constant emotional and physical abuse

Worthwhile.

Pft. Never thought you'd hear that from present me, huh? "Constant emotional and physical abuse"? Yeah. You make me live through it. Thanks, IG. Thanks for looking at how I feel, rather than taking in how I feel. I love you, but damn, its getting old putting up with everything around me. Thanks a fucking lot IG for keeping me in this world. And thanks for unknowingly being the " I'm afriad of death because..." For me. I'm afraid of death because I know that if I died, you would eventually let me go. Find someone new to tell you youre perfect, just to shut them down too. A never ending loop of lies you tell yourself. Its getting old still walking around, clenching my fist, tears in my eyes as I pound the wall with my head because I can't ever keep my mouth shut. One day, though, speaking up will save me. One day, I'll look you in the eyes and then, you'll know how I truly think. Until then, my head will continue to hit the wall in the pattern of my heartbeat, holding onto life by a thin strand and anyone could be the one to *snap* and I'm gone. Oh and then I'll be gone for good. No more me around to piss you off, huh? Someone new would come into your life to annoy you with how much they actually care about you. I think it sounds delightful, but, youre cute when youre mad, so, IG I'll annoy you for a while longer.

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