we are all made of bits of stardust that were once all so close together. hold your loved ones. let those particles come together again. maybe they miss one another after trillions of years. maybe everything is more human than we think.
โYou will earn the respect of all if you begin by earning the respect of yourself. Don't expect to encourage good deeds in people conscious of your own misdeeds.โ
Does your faith in humanity ever get tested? If so, does it affect your line of Avenging at all?
Sure it does, unfortunately. Iโve learned a lot of things I wish I never knew, especially things related to kids. Things that just break my heart. Things I literally cannot wrap my head around.
And Iโd be lying if I said it didnโt affect my line of Avenging, but how itโs affected isnโt always the same.
Sometimes it just makes me want to go out more and do literally anything I can think of to make the world, even a little corner of it, much better. And I bend over backwards to do it sometimes, the Energizer Bunny Avenger on speed, as if I could fix humanity myself. Which I know I canโt but still.
And then sometimes, it just sucker punches me and leaves me feeling wretched and defeated almost. And thatโs when I have to dig deep and not let it pull me down. I think about those people who canโt fight for themselves and think about what if I was the only one who could help them. And then I just gave up? No. No, I couldnโt do that.
I keep going. I keep going because if even one person needs me, then itโs enough. If I can represent the good part of humanity and help make things better if even for one person, then itโs all worth it.
Recently life has been a little chaotic, but chaos isnโt always bad chaos can bring so many new ideas or people into your life. My family is really chaotic but the good kind where everything is happening all at once and you need a second to breathe but you gotta jump back in because of all the love and play. Sadly this is not the chaos Iโm experiencing and this past week I had on of my first rounds of finals before my AP testing and some of my loved ones are staring to feel left behind, this chaos and stress is the kind where you need a good cry and a pint of Ben and Jerryโs to drown out your thoughts.
In this case my breath was a morning with this lovely lady before our AP Biology review session. This is us getting slurpees from 7โEleven in baking tins. Later we washed our cars and spent the day outside. I canโt stress enough how important having others around you who support you unconditionally and love you just the same.
Sometimes when people on the Internet are like "ADULTS CAN NEVER INTERACT WITH MINORS IT'S CREEPY" I remember how, at 12, back in 1997, I was on the Witchvox forums with people ranging from me to people in at least their 50s, and no one there was ever a creep to me, no one ever made me feel uncomfortable or asked for my personal info, and when I finally broke down after a particularly brutal day of bullying at school and posted about it they were the first adults I'd ever met in my entire life who told me the bullies were the problem and it was okay to be angry about it.
Kids need to interact with adults who will listen to them.