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volklana · 2 days
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My Woman. My Woman. My Wife.
Title comes from this song:
Request: All the sihtric fics😭 just fluff…mingled with angst. I just know he’s the most attentive lover ever. Always bringing flowers, making you laugh(bc his one liners are hilarious), sharing his furs with you… but I know he must have a temper. And he’s always gone away for so long. Poor rat boy probably thinks he’d be a terrible husband because of how often he’s gone for long periods of time. But he’s not😭 he’s the best husband ever. Anyway I got carried away, just all the sihtric things
@canyonmoon-2 I really hope I did your idea justice xx
Warnings: Details the loss of a baby and the grief in the aftermath of that loss. If that isn't for you, or it's too traumatic please don't read, protect your peace and you can catch me next time xx
Not proof read but mistakes will be corrected in time.
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The ride back to Winchester seemed to be taking longer the closer he actually got to the city.
He was beginning to feel lightheaded with dizziness at the thought of seeing you again.
Sihtric was besotted with you, had been from the moment he laid eyes on you, catching your eye across the square, hauling your cart of produce to sell at the market.
At first he was too shy to even look you in your eye as he paid for apples he didn’t even need, but as soon as your fingers accidentally brushed, he couldn’t help but delight in the shy smile that you shot his way, as you wished him to have a good day. 
He couldn’t help but offer to escort you to your homestead that night, he had claimed it was to keep you safe but instead it was to steal a few more moments with you, you had walked in easy silence until you suddenly stopped and turned to face him.
“You haven’t told me your name.” you giggled and Sihtric’s face lit up “You’re walking me all this way and I don’t even know your name.”
“You would let a man you don’t know walk you home and you never even thought to ask his name. A pagan man at that. What would your nailed god say?”
“I know you are one of Uhtred’s men,” you considered.
“And that is the only reason you would allow me to accompany you?” Sihtric teased.
“That is the main reason, but I do have others,” you teased back.
“And what would those other reasons be lady?” he quirked his head to examine your face and you smiled, that gorgeous smile his way again.
“Perhaps we should start with your name first,” you giggled and goddamn it Sihtric wanted to get down on his knee right then and there for you, “I am Sihtric, lady,” he smiled, suddenly shy and you considered him for a moment, “I am y/n.” 
And so that became your weekly routine, Sihtric would walk you home from the market and you would chat easily. He would linger awkwardly outside your home, neither one of you wanting to say goodbye until the day when he got a sudden surge of confidence, Thor knows from where and sprung forward to press his lips against yours. You absolutely melted into his touch and giggled when he pulled away, his whole face lighting up with a smile, “I have been waiting weeks for you to do that Sihtric,” you giggled and for good measure he kissed you again.
“Sihtric, you barely know her,” Uhtred warned.
“I know enough lord,” he uttered shyly and Gisela considered him gently.
“You love her,” she eased after a while and Sihtric’s face broke out in a smile again.
“And she loves me. She tells me all the time,” he rushed before his cheeks lit up crimson with embarrassment, and Gisela couldn’t help her amused smile. 
She reached a hand to Uhtred who frowned her way at first, a silent conversation happening between their eyes.
“Very well Sihtric, you may marry your lady,” he sighed but Sihtric had already taken to running.
“Thank you. Thank you lord,” he shouted over his shoulder and he was away to find you scooping you into his arms, peppering kisses to any part of your skin he could reach.
Sihtric was the most attentive man you had ever known. He loved you in ways you hadn’t even known possible. There was not a single moment you were together that his hands were not on yours. You joked that he should climb inside you and live in your skeleton more than once, but you had a feeling that he would’ve if he could. Opting instead to be inside you in the only way he could, as many times a day as you would allow, and you would never refuse him.
Nobody had ever loved Sihtric, no one had ever been tender with him. No one had ever shown him that he was worthy of beautiful things and you vowed to spend every day of your life proving to him that he did. 
Gentle hands traced scars and kissed the parts of his skin that had been broken by his father’s cruelty and sometimes the feeling was so intense for Sihtric he could barely bring himself to look you in the eye.
“What is it love?” you murmured pressing kisses to his his worried brow.
“I have to go away with Uhtred again.” 
“To battle?” you asked gently, caressing his face.
“To battle,” he confirmed.
“Sihtric, you love being a warrior. What is this about?” 
“I don’t want to be without you. To go back to how it felt before I knew you. The darkness…”
“I will be here waiting for you. Right here,” you took his hand and placed it over your chest, “Feel my heart, know it is real and it belongs to you. I will be here, loving you.” 
Sihtric surged forward and pressed his lips to your needily, feeling reassured that his woman would be waiting for him.
You had built a wonderful life together with Sihtric, and you were happier than you had been in your life, but Sihtric struggled with leaving you every time.
He was weary from the ride but the thought of you pressed him forward. 
As soon as he and Finan dismounted, Finan urged him to come for a drink in the alehouse but Sihtric was furiously shaking his head and excitedly told him he was away to find his wife. 
He burst through the door of your home, flowers in hand, calling your name but the smile slipped from his face when instead of being greeted by the sight of his wife, he was instead greeted by Hild.
“Where is she Hild?” he almost shrieked, panic coursing through him, making it hard to breathe.
Hild squeezed his arm gently and as reassuringly as she could, but her face was grave, and she led him through to the bedroom, where Sihtric collapsed down to his knees by your side, the sight of your deathly pale skin and gaunt face, enough to send him into a spiral.
“What is it? My love? My Life?” he was begging, stroking your hair, he wanted to pull away from the coldness of your skin. You were always warm, his warmth his sunshine. 
“It was a little boy,” you whispered weakly “We had a baby boy, Sihtric.” 
His head was reeling, he hadn’t even known you were pregnant before he left, nor had you.
“I couldn’t keep him,” you suddenly cried, giant sobs wracking your weak body, “I lost him. I lost him.” you were hysterical and all Sihtric could do was crush him to you and wrap you up in his arms.  
Sihtric held you, letting you cry on him until you had no tears left, repeating that he was sorry, he was so sorry, and none of this was your fault, and when your eyes finally slipped closed he allowed his own tears to fall. 
Hild took him into her embrace when he finally re emerged from the bedroom, and they made their way outside, where under the shade of a leafy oak, he found the small arrangement of burial stones, that he threw himself upon and wept.
“She insisted we honour your traditions,” Hild finally broke the silence. “I had Gisela’s help, but she arranged the stones herself, nearly killed herself in the process.”
“Will she live?” he finally mustered the strength to beg.
“She is very weak, and if god..if the gods are good, she will live,” Hild reassured 
“She has to,” Sihtric whispered “Or you may as well place me here with my boy.” 
You regained your strength over the next few weeks, slowly and with the help of Hild and Sihtric. Sihtric never left your side, fetching you food, bringing you extra furs to keep you warm and at night, he pulled you as physically close as possible, lamenting the loss of your warmth, for now you always felt cold to him.
But soon you were back on your feet again, well enough to walk, well enough to have Gisela and Uhtred over for dinner and well enough to make love to Sihtric for the first time in weeks since he had got home. 
Sihtric was wound tighter than a leash the past few days, his face constantly pulled into a frown lately, and no matter how much you tried you could not seem to pull him from the depths.
“What have I told you?” he snapped suddenly, and you lowered your gaze to the floor, “You are my woman, there is no need for you to do these jobs anymore. I will do it!” he snapped.
You had been attempting to help him ready his horse, as you had done a million times, lifting his heavy saddle bag up to attach to his saddle.
You watched him silently as he roughly threw his things together. You were rarely on the receiving end of Sihtric’s temper but lately you seemed to be finding yourself under it more and more. 
He made to mount his horse and you couldn’t help the phrase that fell from your lips.
“You blame me for his loss?” you stated but it was more like a question.
Sihtric stilled all action, but he did not turn to face you.
“That is why you cannot speak to me with tenderness these days. Is it not?” your voice was small and you fiddled with a thread on your sleeve.
“If you cannot love me anymore. If I cannot make you happy, then I set you free. I told you the night we first made love that you deserved to be happy, and If I cannot do that for you, I set you free. I set you free because I love you more than anything on this earth and I cannot bear you to be this unhappy” 
“How can you still love me?” he snarled, turning to face you, wild eyed.
“I was not here. I left you alone. I left you to endure his loss alone,” he was clawing at the skin on his left forearm, leaving fresh nail marks, an old habit from when Kjartan would lock him in the cellar, knowing a beating or some other form of humiliation was coming his way. If he hurt himself first, the next hurt would never be as bad. 
“Set me free because you would be better off without my weight around your neck. Set me free so you may find a man who can love you the way you deserve. A man who will never leave you alone another second of his life. But do not dare set me free because you love me. I do not deserve your love, not now and I certainly never did.” 
You reached for him, but he pulled his arm from your grasp, your head reeling from his lack of tenderness.
“If you leave me now Sihtric, in this moment here, that will be the only time you will have abandoned me. The only time you will have left me when I really needed you.” 
Sihtric looked at you conflicted, two mismatched eyes trying to frantically find the right thing to say.
“I can’t forgive myself,” he finally mumbled “And to think you could ever believe that I blame you for his loss. There is only one person at fault here and that is me. Because I cannot promise that I will never leave you alone again.”
“I knew who you were when I agreed to marry you. I knew you then, as I know you now and I know for every time you leave me you will always return.” He finally allowed himself to be pulled into your arms, and you tutted at the unmistakable scratches on his arm, he had been hurting himself for a while. 
“Oh my love,” you cried “All this time I have thought you were blaming me, but you have been burdening yourself with the blame of this loss.”
Sihtric nodded in your arms and you traced your thumb across the scar on his face, before placing a gentle kiss to his lips. 
“Neither of us are to blame my love, the gods were cruel.” he nodded in your hands finally allowing his eyes to soften, boring into yours and when he looked at you this way, you could always see the small, skinny boy who only ever knew hurt, fear and humiliation but never love. 
“Talk never of setting me free again my love,” he begged, closing the distance to lean his forehead against yours “My place, my only place is here by your side. My woman. My woman. My wife.”
Tagging: @canyonmoon-2 @sihtricfedaraaahvicius @whitedarkmoonflower @shamrockqueen thenameswinter99 foxyanon
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Just Some Guy OC Tourney - Side A: Round 1
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do NOT be mean to anyone or any characters in these polls. you MUST clarify if you are joking/teasing or you will be blocked. if you are someone who entered an oc into this and you are mean to other contestants you will be disqualified
do NOT claim a character doesn't deserve to be here. yes including your own. be nice
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Evergreen | She/her | @insertsona
shes just kind of chilling tbh . she's technically unemployed (didn't feel like it) and spends most of her time vibing . her ex recently returned to the city after randomly disappearing for years and she was just kind of oh hey glad youre back . her most interesting trait is that she takes part in a fighting tournament once a year and wins it usually . and shes transgender
Promos: evergreen is a character in my oc universe teunia! shes a side character in the main story the tourney and a slightly more main character in the unnamed prequel that i think abt very often (but have yet to develop . bc im too busy thinking abt my dr oc constantly)
teunia's folder -> https://toyhou.se/InsertSona/characters/folder:3849690
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Zephyr Fey | He/him | @lord-plague
An averagely built guy who somehow managed to join the military force of his fortress city without a birth certificate, ID, and with dyed hair. Nobody knows where he came from, nobody knows why he is here but there he is. No magic or superhuman abilities or prodigal skills but my god does he make great goo bowls with greater personalities (nobody wants the goo bowls and he does not know why). That one friend that keeps trying to alleviate awkward situations with jokes and random laughter.
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EVERGREEN IS LITERALLY SO JUST SOME GUY. despite being a repeat champion for the tourney she lives in a shitty studio apartment . she had a girlfriend that was also her rival and then they broke up and she was just oh ok! her hobbies include vibing, hanging out, etc. shes like those old guys you see watching planes take off or construction occur . nobody knows where she gets her money from . her ex's new partner is a friend of hers. she doesn't even bear any relevance to the first main plotline because she's too busy doing other stuff she just happens to also be in the city while the horrors occur . sometimes shell go to the local coffee shop and just not order anything . i wanna be her friend . i havent actually posted her on tumblr . shes so some guy that most of the facts abt her character i can think abt are so mundane i never even bothered to write them down
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kaethefangirl · 3 days
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saw you mention you're anti edwin 👀👀 may I ask why? Im curious bc I know that ship is p popular in the fandom but I've just never vibed with it personally.
yea that FIASCO that happened aside, edwin just doent seem very healthy to me or in character with each character, not to mention it's the most basic, cliche couple ever and really came out of nowhere.
i cant see ed settling down that young, especially not after all the action he endured through his childhood. he would get tired and restless being a house husband really quickly, and i cant see him with a regular 9 to 5 working anywhere. Not to say he isnt dad material, but that probably wouldnt come until hes had his fill of traveling and he's actually ready to settle down.
winry is a good standalone character, but with ed i just dont like who she becomes. her and ed give more best friend energy than anything else, and the whole ship feels like the writers didn't put much thought into eds love life. it just felt like they said "winry will be eds love interest" and then forgot to add anything to that until the one episode where hawkeye mentioned ed loving winry. im convinced that ed loves winry platonically, theres just NO WAY that relationship lasted.
in my delusions of canon, ed and winry broke up on good terms and then laughed about it afterwards, and then winry ends up with someone else and theyre happy, and ed meets someone on his travels who ends up following him around and they end up together. ed, al, and winrys kids will all be best friends.
thanks for the ask! <33
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getougender · 2 years
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okkotsu yuuta one of the characters ever. he’s a failboy. he’s bisexual. he’s a former wallflower. he chased his classmate through an abandoned city with a sword. he’s a nice young man. he has a complicated relationship with his childhood ex-girlfriend and hangs out with the echo of her ghost. he’s a monsterfucker. he even has beam attack.
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scintillyyy · 2 months
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the thing is that there are interesting ways to play with the idea that thomas and martha weren't the perfect parents that bruce will always venerate them as on account of they died when he was 8 (i feel like the ones i'm most interested are the throwaway lines that imply they might've sent bruce to boarding school + the idea that thomas was maybe a little too focused on prioritizing his work over family), however dc seems to constantly go for ~but did thomas cheat on martha?? was he imperfect in his potential unfaithfulness???~ (they do this for a lot dad characters in general i feel like) and it's just overdone and tiring and i hate it so.
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oatbugs · 2 months
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little bit worried abt the class difference ngl
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dutybcrne · 7 months
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A little known fact is Kaeya usually tends to cry out of frustration. Little known, because he tends to be so good at masking it and holding back when it comes to a head, with only Adelinde having been the one he felt comfortable enough to cry around, back in his youth.
Nowadays, he will adamantly refuse to cry in front of anyone, even those he’s closest to. But if one who knows him well enough might happen to witness his lashes seemingly fluttering as he rolls his eyes after a verbal bout with Diluc, they’ll know.
They’ll know.
#hc; kaeya#//He felt comfortable w/ Addie bc he wanted to be strong for Crepus & Luc. She was safe to confide. Nowdays; he feels ashamed to w/ her#//Back as a kid; he only (genuinely out of heavy emotion) cried in front of Crepus and Diluc ONCE; each#//Him crying crocodile tears to get something out of them is a WHOLE different story. But yeah#//Crepus; after he got scolded for going to Sumeru—bc he realized then how much the man cared. Crepus realized what it meant to him; too#//With Diluc; he never once legitimately cried in front of him up until The Confrontation#//Would make faces and almost tear up; at times yeah#//But he TRULY cried only that time; and it wasn’t even BECAUSE of Diluc himself#//It was because of Kaeya's Vision#//Kaeya had already only been in a bit of a spiral over Diluc lashing out & conflict of his loyalties; of Crepus' death & guilt of mourning#//But it’d been made worse by the Vision bc how was it KAEYA got to have a Vision & thus be saved from certain death by the gods#//But CREPUS; the good; kind man who’d taken him in and been nothing but loving to him; & courageous to the end was left to DIE?#//WHY would the gods spare a SINNER and not HIM?#//It had been too much to bear and utterly broke him in that moment; his sobs more akin to screams drowned out by the downpour#//Of others he’d cried in front of; Lisa and Rosaria are the only others. And even then; it's been AWHILE since either event#//Even with the extremely vulnerable moment he had with Jean after Diluc left; he kept it together for her#//Lisa and Rosaria both caught him while drunk and his fears and frustrations (respectively) bubbled right to the surface#//Significant others/close friends will NEVER see him actually cry unless it's MASSIVELY serious. Like; genuinely life-or-death serious#//Anywho BACK to the post's actual subject#//With Diluc; ever since he's come back; Kae gets so easily frustrated with how they can't get along; even if he gets Why it's so#//But it's much rarer for him to actually get upset enough to tear up in the moment; so unless you're LOOKING for it; it goes unnoticed#//Those times tend to coincide with when he up and decides to head out early for whatever reason#//Bc he Knows he's about to break; and thus tries to get away#//It's not really that he doesn't think Luc would care; it's that he Knows the man would be utterly Awful handling it#//And thus Kae would much rather take the L and lick his own wounds alone than let Luc's rep take a hit#//He does cry a LOT more than most people think; but Diluc actually has nothing to do with it then—it's actually over his paperwork#//It frustrates him the most of everything; esp since he'd always struggled with writing and reading; no matter the help he recieved#//In the privacy of his office compared to his lessons as a lad; he's actually able to get his frustrations out#//Which does help LOADS bc he's forced to take a break to cry it out; then continue a lot calmer after he's gotten it out of his system#//It's one of; his not his Only; healthiest coping mechanisms
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gazelessmenagerie · 7 months
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So did he only burn down her village or
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( it went more than that aalsfssjg )
( Broly got insanely jealous over a human woman he fancied quite a alot at that time showing Mirin more attention than him and This happened, followed by This happened after he lost his shit being jealous, and then This, )
( Extra bits that could give further context and all that Good Stuff bc this was a extensive little development thing spanning over months.
#|| Tag: Answered#Anonymous#|| Tag: OOC#( truth be told. a lot of it went on with discord and that's a whole ass novel I don't have the energy or time to really dig through )#( but long story short. )#( broly was even WORSE than he is today and you can imagine what Mirin had to go through dealing with this mean af asshole )#( punting her/ bullying her/ calling her names and so on but she still viewed him like an older brother she never had. )#( she taught him a lot of things with earth and for a time even Broly was beginning to calm down his shit a bit )#( and learn things about the village he would've lived in had he not gotten so insanely jealous )#( and nearly broke mirin's spine and burned her village to the ground in a fit. )#( and it was something that had to happen over a coarse of months before he began to feel what we call Guilt )#( and Remorse )#( bc he genuinely did care to a certain point and he WAS actually happy but then his toxic personality )#( of only ever knowing how to be a full blooded Saiyan / Monster / Devil )#( came up and it came at the wrong time )#( it's ... how do I say.. iTS REALLY A LOT TO DO WITH HIS INTERNAL SHIT TBH )#( bc he's in a constant state of being at conflict due to my personal HC of Legendary Saiyans being far more gentler than their brethren )#( but Z's case was beign traumatic with nearly being executed not even a day after his birth )#( planet vegeta being destroyed and the course of his life being pretty much Hell to live with as he grew up )#( forced him to become what he is right now. unstable. unable to control himself. violent. )#( but Mirin came along and she had an impact on him to start slowly controlling himself a little but then shit happened. )#( everything went to hell. )#( and he pretends he isn't guilty for what he knows he did. knowing he ruined that village and the little runt he lowkey was beginning to )#( care about more. )#( given she was the last living remnant of his bygone race and when Goten came along )#( broly didn't care Goten was Kakarot's spawn bc of Mirin's influence. he just accepted the little runt bc its the closest thing he can get#( to having Mirin back. )#( its just layers upon layers of his personal shit and when he gets reminded of what he's done. It's like a goddamn shotgun to his heart. )#( esp when he's buried it so far and for so long )#( just jfc this man is not okay and no one taught him how to deal with his own emotional traumas and mental traumas )
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coloursofaparadox · 4 months
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💙💙💙
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i think i've finally come to understand why i'm so bad at communicating with friends 👍 at one point or another i've thought i was in love with every single person i've ever been friends with (for the most part, at least) because i don't expect other people to like me. OBVIOUSLY this is not true but platonic feelings are not dissimilar to romantic ones (baseline they're the same: you want to love and be loved by someone) but i always end up realizing that i'm not in love with them, just that they matter to me very much and i wouldn't know what do to w/o their presence in my life. BUT this brings me to facet number 2 of my awful communication skills: i hate it when things Get Real. i find myself retreating any time it seems like Something Could Change in my day-to-day life due to them being around and "forcing" the change. i run away from talking to one of my only irl friends on almost a daily basis bc i dread the idea of having to do anything she might want me to do. i think, at the end of the day, my problem might just be that i don't want to change... ANYWAYS
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#i actually think the funniest example of this comes from the irl guy friend i think i actually DO have romantic feelings for#i never used to have feelings for him but i always kind of nursed the idea of such a thing (as i said i think i could be in love with most#friends before i realize i'm not - but with him specifically i never had a moment where i realized i... wasn't?) also my previously#aforementioned irl friend kind of insinuated he might have feelings for me or we might end up with one another and now every time i think#abt him i think about THAT so.#anyways a few years ago he came by my house and picked me up and we got ice cream and talked for hours bc we have a lot in common#and he actually manages to keep in contact with me despite how hard it is (how hard i make it) to talk to me on a consistent basis lol#like we don't talk a LOT but he's also the one who convinced me to contact my former other irl best friend that i hadn't talked to in 6 yrs#anyways back to what i was talking abt from a few years ago... it was 4 yrs ago at this point but after the ice cream - i got a job#and we talked a lot - he took me and my irl bff out but she had a HUGE fight with her bf and he tracked her down and it was. a disaster#but after that they made up (lucikly she broke up with him not too long after lmao) but me and him were put in the middle of it#and anyways we went to the mall with the annoying couple LMAO but we broke off and it was just... really nice to be with him?#and then we went to walmart and rented a movie and went back to my irl's apartment and i tried to dye his hair in her bathroom LMAO#and it just felt really natural to be close to him and whatnot. we really get along and i really don't dislike him and i'm not NOT into him#but yeah anyways a few days later he messaged me and asked if he could pick me up from work but i told him no because at that point i was.#afraid. because i had a dream that i had kissed hik and he turned into rick sanchez and drowned LMFAOOO IT SOUNDS RETARDED BUT.#like i think the point of the dream was that if i showed him that i had some kind of feelings for him he would change or die or disappear?#i always assume the worst. but yeah the dream literally put me off so bad that i cut contact with him for almost 2 years#because i was afraid of him and i was afraid of my life changing#idk. maybe i should give it a try now. i'm still scared but you never know.#i at least wanna say 'thanks' for him convincing me to message my friend from 6 years ago so 🤷‍♀️ who knows
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muteflames · 7 months
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i’m rewatching riverdale bc i felt like it but i forgot how dirty they do my girl veronica in season 4!!!! i hate it here and i’m gonna start killing!!!
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piplupod · 8 months
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WHY DO I NEED TO MAKE /TWO/ ACCOUNTS TO SEND IN A RESUME TO THIS PLACE WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!!!
also i just found eraser shavings in my ear HFSHDGDSJKL
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palms-upturned · 2 years
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#meg talks#jsgsjd i’m… sad#work friends are going to a spooky thing tonight#it sounds fun but 1) im broke and don’t get paid until tomorrow morning#2) my fibro is flaring up so bad 💀 it hurts to walk#and since my boss might go too im like uhhhh 😬 i don’t know if i rlly want her to see me using a rollator… cjdgxhch#she’s a very cool lady fwiw and it’s not like i think she would cause trouble#but it’s a little. scary. u know. ksgsdjxb like hoo boy the last thing i need is to risk my job and therefor my insurance 💀#one friend was v sweet and offered to pay the entrance fee for me but sjshdjdh well#even if i did take the rollator i don’t think i’d be up to it#my whole everything hurts even when i’m just lying in bed 😔#tbh i never got invited out more than like once in a blue moon until now#most of my friends don’t live anywhere near me skhsdjcjcj#but somehow it feels even lonelier now that i do have friends who invite me to things#bc i can’t go…#whether it’s bc of a flareup or bc of money or just bc nobody masks anymore so it’s a risk i don’t want to take#idk disabled ppl talk often abt the loneliness/isolation that comes w being disabled#and i always used to be like ‘’wow i’m abled but i can relate’’#and now since my diagnosis i’m like. oh. 🤡#right. forgot how it’s not actually considered normal to be friendless and rarely leave ur house due to fatigue#anyway. yeah. sorry for the influx of personal posts it’s just v anxiety inducing and exhausting to be living alone for the first time#hitting walls that didn’t used to be there before and having Realizashuns about my body…#and then still having to do those. damn dishes.
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my dad breaking gender roles by being a huge karen ✊🏻
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eugeniedanglars · 2 years
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finished the new season of never have i ever and i legitimately have no takeaways other than #justiceforaneesa
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ayakinari · 2 years
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of all the ways i expected 2022 to go becoming an enstarrie was not one of them
#negative or positively i cant say honestly its just baffling in itself#tell me this last year and i wouldve laughed#acanthe and valkyrie was one reason. another was actually so i could talk to this really cool girl in my class and having 0 social skills i#had to resort to a common interest i didnt think id get in this deep what is wrong w me#well on the bright side i did manage to befriend her and some other nice classmates of mine!!!#got to hang out w her outside of classes a couple times with some of her friends too it was fun actually socializing for once#what i wasnt expecting was being emotionally devastated at nearly every single story i read i was absolutely in shambles in my friend's dms#i thought it was just another idol series. i was wrong!#that all nighter i pulled after finishing the anime reading a bunch of stories and i still went to class. slept through half of it though#terrible experience would not recommend doing that#duck rants about something#honestly was never particularly interested in idol guys considering ive been into stuff like aikatsu and pripara among other things but damn#ok maybe it was also bc of naru her tgirl swag piqued my curiosity and that led to learning what the hell was up w eichi and wataru#somehow#further leading to watching the anime and wow i am never getting out of here am i#○| ̄|_#incredibly sorry for the person ive become. kind of. not really#worst story experiences would probably be sweet halloween‚ meteor impact‚ and human comedy in no particular order#meteor impact especially was. augh. i was crying in a call trying to reread it#ive read it like? three times now i think? it rly broke something in me#chiakana truly the world i love them and their ryusei family so much#and shu's development always makes me. *punches a wall and cries*#you'd think stories with ''comedy'' in the title would be lighthearted and comedic but no all it does is rip my heart out of my chest#and cause me to sob uncontrollably#putting off actually reading marionette though it already broke me in the anime idk if i can sit through the actual reminiscence story#rly like steampunk museum though its just nice!! the ending was :]]]#knights slowly growing on me too next time theres an opportunity i might cosplay as one of them#i think i have a bad habit of making one sentence personal posts and then writing a dozen tags. i will not change this#too embarrassed to make actual coherent posts so talking in the tags >>>>>>>>>#back to agonizing over schoolwork i guess
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