#bc he's focused on the condo and on longterm saving but i want to like. party and see my friends and spend my money on nice things for | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

clownpassing · 7 months

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um lately i have been feeling so weird because my life w jonathan is great and we have nice things and money is never an issue anymore but then like.. i don't know i still feel hollow and empty and lonely and being with him doesn't really make me as happy as it once did and we are getting into arguments a little more often and i can't help but find myself getting defensive instead of trying to calmly work things out

#txt #op #i dont know whats happening i dont know how to fix this i dont know what i want from him #sometimes it feels like we are just in such different stages of our lives #maybe its the age gap finally catching up #bc he's focused on the condo and on longterm saving but i want to like. party and see my friends and spend my money on nice things for #myself n my friends even though i barely make half of what he does #money has been a big talking point lately #i havent told him about the hundreds of dollars ive been spending on my friends i just cant bring myself to #because my friends make me happy and hanging out and going to events makes me happy #but he would just tell me thst could be better spent veing saved in our joint account #which like.... idk #and of course there is the fact that i want to be touched so bad and i know i will probably not get that again from him for a long long time #ok ive said enough bye

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