Tumgik
#avoidant pd
astrangerthatlovesyou · 8 months
Text
Having AvPD is like: I’m so open, everyone knows everything about me. That’s terrifying, everyone must hate how much I share. God I feel so exposed I feel sick. And the last time you opened up to someone was October of 2021 when you told your mom you were a little stressed.
631 notes · View notes
avoidantblob · 4 months
Text
reaching peak avoidant by avoiding the account i made to vent about my avoidant personality disorder because i think other avoidant people looking in the avoidant personality disorder tag will think that i’m weird. this is great. i’m going to get a good grade in avpd, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve
238 notes · View notes
avpdpossum · 1 year
Text
psych assessment: do you ever feel like your thoughts aren’t actually your own?
me: no, never, absolutely not
also me: *regularly saying “shut up” out loud to my own thoughts because sometimes when i think bad things about myself i don’t actually mean to think them and they catch me off guard and it feels like someone else using my mind’s voice and i don’t like it so i have to tell the angry brain gremlin that now’s not the time*
919 notes · View notes
personalitysystems · 6 months
Text
i feel like what a lot of people dont understand about npd + avpd comorbidity (or even npd + social anxiety) is that they are not opposites. they can function like opposites for others or they can just be an addition to someone's npd or someone's avpd.
i am someone with covert npd, however i have very overt avpd. i am so timid and anxious you wouldn't even think i would have npd, and for the longest time i didn't think i had npd either. so many of my npd-like behaviors were covert to the point i didn't even realize i did them until someone pointed out to me.
i would try to subtly nudge people into believing i'm really good at things. i would practice so hard just to be better than everyone. i was so competitive because if i wasn't the best then i was not good enough. but it was all unnoticeable. no one knew anything about why, they just thought i was really that good. i wouldn't brag, i wouldn't overtly show any of this, it was just something i subconsciously did. i didn't even believe i was good.
but it felt good to be admired, i liked when people would tell me how good i was at something. i was so happy with every good grade i got, i was happy to even follow the rules because i was then labeled as a good student. it was the only thing that made me feel like i was actually someone worth something.
but overtly, i struggle to make friends. i'm scared to talk to someone to order something, i show feelings of inferiority, i don't have any friends besides from two, i can't talk to strangers and other than very close people (and/or safe people) social interaction is basically impossible.
i didn't realize i had npd for so long, even after my avpd (and other disorders) had been apparent to me for years, because i felt like i was "too scared of people" to have npd. my partner who also has npd with social anxiety disorder had felt the same way, despite when we both looked into why we did some things we did, it was very apparent that it was npd.
npd and avpd can act like a cover for each other, in my case it was avpd covering the npd, but it is very possible for npd to cover avpd, or social anxiety, or any disorder. disorders can cover up others to make you look more neurotypical than you actually are.
the point really is that npd and avpd can present a lot differently than others with just npd or just avpd present, and that goes with every disorder. the more disorders you have, the more differently your symptoms will present from other people with that disorder.
137 notes · View notes
Text
Here’s some positivity for systems with AvPD!
AvPD (avoidant personality disorder) is a serious mental illness that can have negative affects on many systems. However, the plural folks living with this disorder still deserve to live happy, healthy lives to the best of their ability! This post is for the systems out there with AvPD!
🐠 Shoutout to systems whose severe social anxiety led them to develop AvPD!
🌊 Shoutout to systems who struggle to maintain relationships or form bonds and positive connections with people in their lives!
🦀 Shoutout to systems whose trauma history led them to form both a dissociative disorder and AvPD!
🐬 Shoutout to systems who don’t want many friends, and who feel the most safe, happy, and comfortable when they are by themselves!
🏝 Shoutout to systems who have been diagnosed with AvPD professionally, to those who have self-diagnosed, and to those who are questioning if they have this disorder!
🐟 Shoutout to systems who are in treatment for their AvPD, and are trying to learn how to cope with their symptoms in positive ways!
🐚 Shoutout to systems who do want friends, who feel lonely all the time, and whose AvPD causes them lots of pain and distress!
🐡 Shoutout to systems whose AvPD has caused them to feel hopeless, listless, sullen, and dismayed! We promise there’s still hope for you yet!
🐳 Shoutout to individual headmates who are AvPD symptom holders, or who struggle with their disorder more than the rest of their system!
🏝 Shoutout to systems with dissociative disorders whose AvPD has caused them to split new alters!
🦈 Shoutout to nontraumagenic systems who consciously created their system as a way to cope with their disorder!
It can be so hard existing in society with a disorder that makes it difficult to form interpersonal relationships or have positive interactions with other people. However, for folks with AvPD out there, we want you to know that there’s hope in your future, and potential for peace, joy, and happiness!
Please treat yourself and your system with kindness, and try to not judge yourself too hard by societal standards! Having a disorder that affects how you form and maintain relationships does not make you unwanted, unloveable, or unaccepted by the people in your life or the plural community. Whether or not you’re too scared, nervous, or shy to interact, please know we care about you, we’re rooting for you, and we wish you the very best in all that you do!
Tumblr media
(Image ID:) A pale orange userbox with a cluster of multicolored flowers for the userbox image. The border and text are both dark orange, and the text reads “all plurals can interact with this post!” (End ID.)
103 notes · View notes
the-cluster-c-culture · 6 months
Note
AVPDt culture is feeling like there's a line dividing you from other people and it is Illegal to cross the line
-🐺
48 notes · View notes
april-likes-lilacs · 2 years
Text
constantly feeling like i did something wrong
even if i literally did nothing
1K notes · View notes
ask-me-about-therapy · 4 months
Text
using ERP strategies to heal yourself from Avoidant Personality Disorder (AvPD):
Identify Avoidance Patterns: Take time to identify specific situations, activities, or social interactions that trigger avoidance behaviors and anxiety. Pay attention to recurring patterns and the underlying fears driving your avoidance.
Create an Exposure Hierarchy: Develop a hierarchy of anxiety-provoking situations, starting from the least distressing to the most challenging. Break down each situation into smaller, manageable steps.
Gradual Exposure: Begin exposing yourself to the least distressing situations or triggers from your hierarchy. Start with small, controlled exposures and gradually progress to more anxiety-provoking scenarios as you build confidence.
Response Prevention: During exposure, consciously resist engaging in avoidance behaviors or safety-seeking strategies. Refrain from escaping, avoiding, or seeking reassurance. Instead, focus on staying present and tolerating the discomfort.
A Helpful Tool for Those Who Want to Work on Themselves . https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0B86H2BCK
Tumblr media
22 notes · View notes
avoidantarlo · 2 months
Text
I have a weird relationship with self esteem, I think. it's bad, yeah, but it's not the "I hate myself" or anything that I hear about. I don't really hate myself, but I don't really like myself either. I'm not content with myself, I find myself really embarrassing actually. I'm horrified that someone's going to see the "real" me and feel the same disgust I feel about myself. but it's not full blown hatred. I'm not angry at myself enough for it to be hate, it's just pure disgust.
13 notes · View notes
occhiolism888 · 2 years
Text
it’s so crazy. i met someone. i like him. he is a walking green flag. he’s so charming. and we get along so well. but the closer we get, the more we text, the more i get the feeling this is getting serious, he even told me he likes me… i get this urge, deep inside of me, like a knife that is turning in my stomach, to distance myself. i don’t want him to get to know me. i don’t want him to know what i think.
but… why?
i like him?
why am i acting like this?
why can’t i just for the first time in my life when the right person walks into my life act right?
i want to let him in but it’s like the more i want to let him in… i automatically try to build a polar energy that tries to dim this desire.
it’s like i don’t allowed it myself.
how do i end this cycle…
148 notes · View notes
astrangerthatlovesyou · 11 months
Text
I feel like it isn't talked about enough, but AvPD is frequently caused by trauma. It's totally valid if you have AvPD that wasn't caused by trauma, but I want to shoutout:
Folks who have AvPD because of childhood abuse
Folks who have AvPD because of childhood neglect (physical or emotional)
Folks who have AvPD because of overly critical parents
Folks who have AvPD because of parents who were doing their best. And parents that truly loved them (That doesn't change how damaging their actions were)
Folks who have AvPD because they had another form of neurodivergence
Folks who have AvPD because of bullying
Folks who have AvPD because of being LGBTQIANP+
Folks who have AvPD because they’re physically disabled
Folks who have AvPD because they’re mentally disabled
Folks who have AvPD because they’re intellectually disabled
Folks who have AvPD because they’re developmentally disabled
Folks who have AvPD because of domestic violence
Folks who have AvPD because of abusive relationships
Folks who have AvPD because of another PD
Folks who have AvPD because they were undervalued
Folks who have AvPD because they weren’t believed
Folks who have AvPD because they have physical differences
Folks who have AvPD because they’re a racial or cultural minority
Folks who have AvPD because of poverty
Folks who have AvPD because of religious trauma
Folks who have AvPD because of medical trauma
Folks who have AvPD because academic trauma
Folks who have AvPD because they’re alterhuman+
Folks who have AvPD because of sexual trauma
Folks who have AvPD because of manipulation
Folks who have AvPD because of gaslighting
Folks who have AvPD because of reasons I forgot
Folks who have AvPD because of multiple traumas
Folks who have AvPD because reason they’re unsure of
Folks who have AvPD because something other than trauma
Folks who have AvPD
You’re doing a great job
I’m proud of you
You deserve to take up space
You’re perfect as you are
I love you.
314 notes · View notes
avoidantblob · 1 year
Text
hanging out with other autistic people after being told that you only feel isolated and overwhelmed in social situations because you’re solely socialising with allistics and then coming to the soul crushing realisation that even around other neurodivergent people, you still don’t fit in and you’re still just the weird little girl in the corner of the room that doesn’t speak to anyone and nobody really likes
387 notes · View notes
avpdpossum · 7 days
Text
me: i know they’re you’re friends and they’re really nice but that just makes them even scarier because i really want them to like me and would be genuinely devastated if they didn’t so it’s just easier to never engage with them and endlessly wish i was friends with them without ever risking being rejected by them even if that means i never actually get to be their friend. like sure, strangers are scary too, but they’re easier because i’m not super invested in whether they like me or not. the people i already like? those are the most terrifying people ever. you know what i mean?
my boyfriend, who doesn’t have avpd: no. no i do not know what you mean. that is literally the exact opposite of how my social anxiety works. i can’t even imagine how that would feel.
105 notes · View notes
caffeinatedlittle · 1 month
Text
I'm so tired of being alive 💔
9 notes · View notes
fantasy-store · 1 year
Text
Cluster C Disorder flags
Flags for cluster c personality disorders. do not use unless you have these.
transx stay tf away.
--
cluster a, cluster b
--
Tumblr media
Avoidant Personality Disorder
Tumblr media
Dependant Personality Disorder
Tumblr media
Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder
Tumblr media
Cluster C flag
Tumblr media
77 notes · View notes
the-cluster-c-culture · 6 months
Note
AvPDt culture is feeling intense loneliness because you have no or minimal human connection but in order to get the connection you crave you need to put yourself out there and risk being rejected/embarrassed so you're stuck in a self-fulfilling prophecy
-👑
34 notes · View notes