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randombubblegum · 2 years
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Comment 1: My take on song girl is after the Ciara dog girl stuff Awsten probably doesn’t want his gf talking about that stuff online. Not to hide it just don’t be public. When song girl was on twitch years ago she’d have little chats w people & I don’t think she thought this time would be different. At the end of her most recent twitch she went oh. Oh. And her eyes got super wide & I think she realized this was a mistake bc of who was watching & the questions. She hasn’t gone on since.
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you make good points in this ask!! lemme go point by point lol
i didnt watch all the way to the end of her twitch stream (got bored) so i didnt see the moment youre talking about but yeah, she did get uncomfortable when people would hint they knew she had a bf. but even after she was CONSTANTLY talking about her bf, dropping hints she was seeing someone, talking about getting on european time for the exact duration awsten was in europe……. i dont think its like an unavoidable compulsion for ppl to talk about their significant others so that was like, a choice she was making in conversation to an audience? like i think she didnt realize people already knew, but also a really poor way to keep something apparently ~top secret~ private lol
also, i have to argue, she kinda is public?? she has an insta which is normal but she also has a twitch, with apparently a decent following/mods/subs/etc. id hardly call that private like you or me, yknow? before awsten she dated another musician, albeit one w a much smaller following, so its not like shes new to the idea of online fanbases i think
all that aside tho, like, i get what youre saying about not meaning to open herself up to scrutiny. i think you have a point and thats rly valid. my main thing, and a core belief i hold thats the reason i do literally any amount of discussion about parx on here: my tumblr is not meant to be viewed by the people im talking about, its NOT easy to find (ive never even typed her real name), and theres zero reason song girl (or dog girl, or awsten, or like literally anyone who knows parx) should know it exists much leas be seeing the things i say about them!!!! i rly dont believe they are. i dont wish this girl any ill will, i dont condone (and have specifically warned yall against) leaving comments or messaging her directly or like trying to make her feel bad/harass her. this is just a little tucked-away gossip corner to note the things she and awsten are making public. i guess i am a little harsh when i talk about her sometimes but really the one im mad at is awsten for treating girls like interchangeable clones lol -_-
but also that shit w your ex—i know EXACTLY what youre talking about and honestly your ex and his friends are assholes lol. without getting into too much detail ive been in that situation in different roles and like, friends of mine have actively unfollowed/cut off other friends for slinging mud about their (not abusive just regular) exes after a breakup. if youre warning people that someones abused you thats one thing but talking shit about your ex and having friends join in just to take them down a peg is shitty childish behavior. and it sucks!!!! so i get why you feel that way. i dont think this situation is the same but i get you lol
basically in summary yeah i think she doesnt know what shes gotten into but thats on awsten for not warning her lol. i dont think us making idle chatter on a tiny internet corner shell never reasonably see (and thus will never feel bad about) is the same as harrassment/bullying/deliberately trying to make her feel bad and thats def not my intention. i also dont care about her specifically but ya i agree w u on the principle of the thing. and no worries ur ask was rly thoughtful i appreciate it!!! :) thanks for expressing a logical opinion in a reasonable way lol i feel u
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better-call-mau1 · 1 year
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Congratulations! You’re being smothered with a completely random headcanon about Mandalorian marriage customs rescued! Please do not resist.
The Rite of Riduurok Akaanir, aka “Lover’s Quarrel”
Alright…so I gotta be honest and say that even though I can’t remember how exactly this headcanon came to me, I’ve been carrying it around for years, ever since first watching Rebels and shipping Sabezra 😅 …and at this point, I feel like it’s burning a hole in my head, trying desperately to get out, so I’m gonna save myself the expense of reconstructive cranial surgery and just share it:
Mandalorians like to fight. Actually, they don’t just like to fight, “weapons are a part of [their] religion,” or at least their culture—and for many, their entire lives are built around that. In the case of the Children of the Watch, strict adherence to a No-Living-Being-Can-See-You-With-Your-Helmet-Off orthodoxy even gets in the way of basic interpersonal behavior, like eating a meal together. The implications of that are…interesting…and not in a “wow that’s cool!” way…more like a “kark, that’s depressing” way.
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Basically, I started to wonder how the “BAM! BOOM! BAM! BOOM! BLOW STUFF UP AND KILL THOSE FORCE-WIELDING MANIACS!” portion of Mandalorian culture (so…most of it?) intersects with intrinsic parts of human…wait, nope, sorry Grogu sentient life—namely romantic intimacy. (Paz Vizsla has, presumably, not taken his helmet off in decades…and he has a son who’s probably 12ish years old, tops…so do you think he ever stares at his kid and tries parsing out his own features to get an idea of what his wife looks like?) It’s an extreme example from an extreme sect, but there’s application to Mandalorian society as a whole. Where does love fit into a worldview or galaxy-view, I guess where conflict is a core tenet? When do individuals stop existing as warriors and start existing as people? Do they ever?
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Anyway, the point is that on its face, the cultural dogma doesn’t seem to leave much room for authentic social and romantic intimacy, especially the latter since, ya know, the beskar has to come off both literally and figuratively in order to procreate. It’s difficult for me to see how the necessity of physical and emotional vulnerability can coexist with the rest of Mando culture—so let’s just leave it at that.
But for a civilization to survive as long as Mandalore has without totally disintegrating, those intimate relationships have to exist, and there’s plain evidence that they do. For all their problems, the Wren family clearly loves each other, and we even get a glimpse of some soft Alrich/Ursa PDA in “Heroes of Mandalore.” Then there’s Bo-Katan, who still cares deeply for her sister despite…well…joining a terrorist faction to help overthrow her. That says something, right?
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Wrapping my mind around how authentic love can exist in a fictional warrior society really got me thinking—so much so that I headcanoned a ritual (Riduurok Akaanir, “Lover’s Quarrel”) to help myself work it all out.
The general idea? On Mandalorian wedding nights, the bride and groom have a private duel. A duel to the death? Maybe if it’s an arranged marriage and one party really wants out and I’m gonna speculate that Bo-Katan widowed herself at least four times before running off to join Death Watch.
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More commonly, though, it’s just a playful act to embody love transcending conflict. Alrich Wren, for example, isn’t a traditional warrior, but Ursa didn’t assert her superior combat prowess on their wedding night by firing a wrist rocket at his face something Bo-Katan probably did to a few of the short-lived husbands Satine picked out for her. (“Parry this, you kriffing casual.”) Instead, I’d like to think Alrich and Ursa went through the basic motions of a hand-to-hand duel, not necessarily to prove who’s the better warrior, but as an intimate prelude to the actual consummation of their marriage—almost like a mutually disarming dance. (Could it be light-heartedly competitive? Sure! As the first Mando to perform the Riduurok Akaanir with a Jedi, Sabine would go all-out to make sure she doesn’t lose to Ezra! 😆) When the dance-duel ends, they set aside their warrior identities to become something more: husband and wife. It’s like a way of saying, “As Mandalorians, what we do is fight, but we’re more than mere weapons. We fight so we can love. We wear armor to protect ourselves, our homes, and our families. It’s an important part of who we are, but we’re ultimately made of flesh and blood, not cold beskar.��
So that’s the point of Riduurok Akaanir, a term I came up with using this nifty English to Mando’a online translator (before I just called it “Wedding Night Fight” in my head). It’s not supposed to be a blanket explanation—but intimacy and vulnerability don’t have clear utility in a warrior culture, and this is my best attempt at bridging that perceived gap.
If you made it down this far without dozing off, enjoy this Sabezra incorrect quote! 😁
Fenn Rau: I trust that Sabine briefed you on Mandalorian wedding customs?
Ezra: Yep! I know exactly how not to get myself killed before officially becoming a married man.
Rau: The trick is not getting yourself killed *after* becoming a married man. Did she explain what happens on the wedding night?
Ezra: Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Rau:
Ezra:...yeahthatsnotreallysomethingIneedorwantSabinetoexplaintomeandKanankindofgavemethelowdownbackduringmyJeditrainingdayssoIthinkIknowwhattodobutthanksanyway.
Rau: Kanan taught you about the Mandalorian ‘lover’s quarrel,’ then? His instruction was even more thorough that I imagined. Or maybe he always knew you and Sabine would end up together.
Ezra: Sorry, did you say...?
Rau: The Rite of Riduurok Akaanir is usually non-fatal. Sabine seems to be genuinely fond of you, so I’m sure you’ll survive to see the sunrise.
Ezra:
Ezra:
Ezra: Oh kriff.
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justmeinabigolworld · 3 months
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You wanna know why I love middle grade books so much compared to YA?
One, they feel much more optimistic than YA, and more likely to try new, off-the-wall things
And two…
They don’t have all that gratuitous romance. Like, I already don’t read a huge chunk of YA books because they’re pure romance, and even in the books that aren’t explicitly about romance, there’s romance. Just when you think you’re safe, it pops up.
Oh, look! A fantasy book with a creative setting and a female protagonist! I’m gonna read it! Okay…good so far…wait, there’s this guy…oh, I don’t like where this is going…aaaaaaand they kissed. And the guy tends to be awful, too. Really mean to the protagonist, but she loves him anyway, because…she has to. It’s YA. I mean, sometimes the guy is fine, but sometimes he’s a piece of shit.
It’s like there’s some kind of law stating that all YA with a female protagonist must give her a love interest, complete with an angsty romance subplot, no matter what the story is about or how much (or little) it fits with the actual plot.
And you know what? I’m seeing more books that give the heroine a female love interest, which is great, even though that means the book has to be marketed as a “queer book” (so as not to upset the homophobes who would otherwise pick up the book or whatever). Still, a love interest is a love interest, and even though I enjoy seeing more queer representation these days, what I’d enjoy even more is a YA section that’s not dominated by romance.
Come on, people. We teens aren’t that horny. Not every book needs romance. Like, with how prevalent love interests are in teen fiction, why are you guys surprised that teens feel bad for having never kissed anyone? Hell, I’ve never kissed anyone, and I’m 19 at the time of writing this. Do I feel like a loser? Yes. Is it because of teen media? Yes…and it’s also due to seeing my classmates in relationships and feeling bad in comparison, but shush.
Also, this is gonna sound weird coming from a girl, but I’d like to read more YA with male protagonists. Everything seems to be about girls these days, and it’s good to have female protagonists, but let’s not leave guys out. As a plus, they have less of a chance of having a love interest. Hooray.
Seriously, though, not every girl constantly thinks about romance, and not every girl wants to read about it. Okay?
Hell, who am I even talking to? It’s not like the publishers are gonna listen to me.
But, uh, yeah. Read middle grade, it’s awesome. I’ve got some recommendations if you’d like.
I’ll probably make a post that’s just a list of good middle grade books and series, but here are a few:
The Thickety by J.A. White: really good dark fantasy, stuff that would even disturb adults, great worldbuilding and characters, and yes, there’s a love interest, but there isn’t much of a romance element. Feels really unique.
How to Train Your Dragon by Cressida Cowell: yes, it was a series before it was a movie, and yes, the books are better. Very different from the movies, but that’s not a bad thing. The series gets darker as it moves along and Hiccup grows up, and things the characters took for granted are looked at with a more critical eye. Really interesting.
My Life With the Liars by Caela Carter: a book about a girl who grew up in a cult. Every time I read it, it gets more disturbing because I realize things that a younger me didn’t. Still, the book is more about Zylynn’s trauma and how she begins to heal and reach out, even as her worldview crumbles.
The Secret Series by Pseudonymous Bosch: witty, charming, and secret! Apparently, some people find the author’s frequent asides and footnotes to be annoying, but I love them. The sequel trilogy isn’t nearly as good, though.
Okay, that’s it for now. I hope at least some of you can understand my frustration, and I hope you’ll check out these books!
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celestialscribbler · 1 year
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Nice mini comic on Philip accusing Catherine. Do you think Caleb not stepping in and disciplining his brother is one of the reasons he’s goes down the road he did? For the mini story shows two things that sum up the core of Philip’s issues: lack of empathy and he’s inability to accept error. I mean you can see how his schemes start off harmless but slowly get more dangerous and his attachment issues lead to some messy things happening. Do you fail that Caleb being too nice and young himself meant he never wanted to put his foot down on Philip(sorry for ranting just getting off my chest)?
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I have some very specific ideas about their upbringing that I'm gonna explore in the main comic but yea, Caleb absolutely helped feed Phillip's burgeoning god complex. I don't see him as completely lacking empathy as much as having a twisted worldview that justifies denying empathy. If a kind person had snakes appear in their bedroom he'd probably feel bad for them and think they'd been cursed by a witch, but when it was someone who wronged him he'd justify it as a divine punishment they brought on themselves even tho he was the one who put the snakes there.
Kids are very bad at appropriately disciplining other kids, but Caleb was put in an especially hard position. He doesn't have the same authority as a parent but seeking help from adults in town would likely result in overly harsh punishments to the point that he would instead feel the need to cover for Phillip to protect him. When he could actually enforce a punishment he would be easily emotionally manipulated into rescinding or at least apologizing for it to keep his only surviving family from hating him. If it was an especially serious offense that he'd hold his ground on it could make Phillip feel bad enough to confess to others and get both of them in hot water. At this point it's spiraled into Phillip being perfectly willing to threaten Caleb for even a gentle suggestion he doesn't like (getting rid of the mask) so what is Caleb to do about something like the Catherine situation? And I had already made this lil Pip comic just for myself but it kinda fits so here ya go xD
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sailingshellsgames · 2 months
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Writing Update
I'm trying out this new bullet-point format for updates - I think it's easier to read. (If you like the old format better, lmk in the replies)
This weekend's updates:
Chapter 11 is done! 🥳
I got a tiny bit of Chapter 12's outlining done.
I checked in with the portion of Chapter 9 that needs rewriting, and found there's at least some content I can still use (cue me sighing in relief).
I did some work on the stats screen.
I did some work on refining the characters' worldviews. It might seem late to be doing that, but with how characters evolve and grow, I like to track things to make sure I'm writing them consistently.
I'm not sure whether I'll start on Chapter 12 next or go back to Chapter 9. I'm leaning toward the latter, mostly because when I finish Chapter 12 I really want to feel that accomplishment of "I have a whole first draft of a game," ya know?
Here's this week's preview :)
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I can't see it clearly - the magic trapped behind my eyes coats the world in a painfully bright glow. But I can feel the grass beneath my feet, dry and brittle where minutes ago it was soft. I can feel the stillness in the air.
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vioisgoinginsane · 8 months
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I would say i had a nap but i am not positive that is actually true.
Anyways, resolving myself to finish silvio's route for Gilbert. And I don't just mean for the crumbs, I mean it on like. A moral sense too. "I'm gonna romance silvio for gilbert" sounds so fuckiny stupid tho ugh. I still don't wanna romance him. It's NOT for some boil the frog effect to see how terrible things could get so then i have a better opinion of gil,, but like. If I'm gonna have to argue the value of lives in front of him, even those of terrible people because ultimately no one should get to decide whether someone else lives or not(remembers his pet event story) and if I'm gonna fervently disagree with chev's idea that conquering the continent could bring peace and that instead learning to understand and respect each other is more likely, silvio is... A real fucking test of that. an experience i must have. We might be well past the point of me ever liking him. I will still think he shouldn't ever be allowed in the same room as a woman never ever. But. I still don't understand him. I can't even imagine what could have led to him becoming like this. I can't really connect the dots from his childhood trauma to now. Of course i don't know all of it i know stuff from rio's route. That their mom was a murdering psycho and emidio just took exactly after her while silvio at the very least acknowledged that she "paid for her crimes." I can also smell that projection oh him. Like. What kind of injustice did ya suffer that now you take it out on people around you?? Pojecting that feeling of powerlessness that gives rise such burning rage. Again, it's pathetic, it reeks of "i suffered, why shouldn't they", i cannot like a person like this. But if it's a point of view that i cannot imagine, there may still be worth in getting through this shitfest. It is, afterall, a core reason of why I read so much. People read about thing they cannot imagine or understand. *lol like that time i said that to roast chev cuz he kept reading about love cuz he never really had it*
I just wish i didn't have to pay for the lore by having to romance silvio cuz like???? Fuck no. No woman deserves to have to deal with this guy. And it's funny that I think about the romance and love part as shit i have to pay with for the lore rather than the reward at the end of suffering and shit cuz like. I don't think you should suffer in order to get love. (We accept the love that we believe we deserve. ) i might still rage about how horrible silvio's behavior is or how the route itself is written.
The investment I have in this fictional universe is insane.
Ughh The things I do for that man (expanding my worldview and maybe even my kindness)
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un-local · 3 months
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What do you think stops Rogier from being emotionally vulnerable? Do you think it’s something tied to his pride?
Hi anon!
Oooo, this is a fun question >:3
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Really, it could be any number of things. This game is incredibly vague, so it’s very much up to reader interpretation/preference. Here’s my own personal read:
It’s a defense mechanism of sorts. A way to deal with the fact that no one really seems to in his corner. Fia’s using him to get to the cursemark, and D’s had a nasty falling out with him. (If his dialogue about Rogier is anything to go by.) I don’t think anyone else in the Hold even mentions him. 
Which is all to say: he’s on his own out there. He doesn’t have anyone to turn to, despite how much he may or may not need it. (And the way I write him; he needs it.)
Maybe this is a personal opinion, but the one thing that feels worse than opening up is doing so and getting something that completely misses the mark in response. God, that’ll kill ya. It’s a gut punch. As alienated as Rogier is implied to be, that kind of “misattunement” or whatever might feel even worse.
So, opening up invites the risk of an interaction turning sour. 
Given both D and Fia’s vast schisms in worldviews/values with Rogier, it might feel like a gamble to be vulnerable with of them nowadays. So, by never opening up at all, there’s no guessing game. No dice roll, no Russian Roulette. Utter Detachment = Utter Invulnerability. You can’t lose the game if you never play, right?
To quote one of my chapter endnotes: 
Rogier keeps a lot of emotion under the surface. He refuses to express it, and behaves with utter detachment in doing so. So, any interaction that could caused heightened emotion... it puts that aloof facade he clings to at risk. In a past post, I've summarized Rogier's mental state as this:
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There's a fear, when you keep everything bottled up so tight. When you've never had that "safety" to be upset. That when you finally do crack, the whole dam will break, and everything will come out, and it'll be a goddamn mess. There's a fear you'll lose yourself in the flood. It'll be too much for you or anyone else to handle. Visions of avalanche. So on, so forth. [Ch 17 Endnotes Essay]
So yeah. I think it started out as a way to protect himself in his (presumed) life of nobility before. Something to keep interpersonal interactions predicable and tame; thus easy to navigate. But as time progressed, it’s something he’s become more and more dependent on. Without it, there’s a fear of losing himself in the deluge, so to speak. 
I’d like to point to Alberich here. If we want to, we might see Alberich as a sort of corrupted, twisted version of Rogier. A malicious externalization of everything he’s ever let fester inside him. Or at least, what Rogier fears he’d become should he express the depths of his “anger, grief, regret, [and] fears.” A jungian shadow, to go with Crunchy’s style of analysis. (Not that I’ve finished that video yet…)
And if you want my batshit thoughts on Alberich as Rogier’s foil… more here. Cursed art included. 
So, uh…. Yeah. I think it’s a defense mechanism, one that’s become the source of many of his problems. A vicious cycle. He can’t trust others because he’s alone; and he’s alone because he can’t trust others. 
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I know I kept you waiting a while on this answer, anon. Thank you for your patience! Ngl: Baldur’s gate came out on console recently, and… uh… huh? Who am I again? What day is it? I think I finally snapped myself out of it, though. (Lie)
Jokes aside, thank you for the ask anon! :D
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twilightmalachite · 5 months
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Raison d’être - The Nameless Girl 10
Author: Akira
Characters: Shu, Mika
Translator: Mika Enstars
"…Tell me, what on earth did you see, Kagehira?"
[Read on my blog for the best viewing experience with Oi~ssu ♪]
Season: Winter
Location: Paris Townscape
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A couple hours later, at the town nearest to the forest “MADEMOISELLE”’s grave’s at…
Mika: ……
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Shu: —Kagehira!!
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Mika: Nnah? Huh, wha? Oshi-san…?
Shu: Goodness, Kagehira, what on earth are you doing? Think of the season, you’ll freeze to death walking around so lightly dressed this late at night!
Mika: Ahha~, like the “Little Match Girl”~
Shu: Hah?
Mika: There’s no way Oshi-san would be way out here… Guess I’m so cold I’m startin’ t’see things or somethin’?
Shu: Fool! Can’t you tell the difference between a false hallucination and the real thing? How can you call yourself an artist with an aesthetic eye of that degree!
Mika: I never really called myself one though~…? I just go along with what Oshi-san says~…!
Hm, huh? Yer seriously the real Oshi-san?
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Shu: There’s no fake of me. You’ve grown quite a big deal, but I can’t yet say you’re equivocal to me, huh?
No, your solitary and unique worldview is exactly what makes you an artist.
Even as equals, you and I would draw out different pictures of the world. Rather, don’t you think that’s exactly what makes it so meaningful?
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Mika: Nnah~… Ahh, I feel so lost. Ya really are the real Oshi-san, aren’tcha?
Shu: So noisy. Here, at least put this jacket on.
Mika: Mgmph.
Nnah~… Yer hands are so warm, Oshi-san.
Yer alive, arent’cha, ya really are the real Oshi-san! ♪
Shu: You’ve gotten way too cold. You’re just like a doll.
Goodness gracious. Take better care of yourself. I’m always telling you this.
By hurting and dirtying yourself, you also hurt and dirty those who love you, you know.
Mika: Nnah~… Then, I guess I can’t be too reckless.
‘Cause that means if I get dirty, then the beautiful Oshi-san will get dirty too.
Shu: That’s embarrassing for me to agree to, so I’ll pay no attention to it. However, what are you doing in a place like this?
Well, I can more or less guess why. Rather, that is how I was able to locate you.
You most likely are here to unearth “MADEMOISELLE”-san’s grave, weren’t you. You can decipher the location of this mysterious person through the diary entries.
Mika: Ahaha, if I’m able t’decipher it, Oshi-san most definitely can too.
Shu: But of course. Who do you think I am? I’m your mentor!
Mika: Ah-huh, that’s why I call Oshi-san “Oshi-san”!
Shu: I mean, would else would the reason be? What, some pet name spun off of my name “Shu”?
More importantly. …Tell me, what on earth did you see, Kagehira?
Mika: Nnah~…?
Shu: Your complexion is terrible. I don’t think you, who has an affinity for the grotesque, would be this affected at the sight of a decomposing corpse.
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Mika: The corpse—
There was no corpse of “MADEMOISELLE”-san.
Shu: Hm?
Mika: There was a coffin fer her. And a diary, too. But…
Inside the coffin was a life-size doll of a beautiful girl, who looked the same as the pictures inside the diary.
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Shu: ……
Mika: It seriously looked like a human… I got scared, I felt “MADEMOISELLE”-san came right outta the diaries, I didn’t know what was real an’ what was fiction anymore.
I was walkin’ around all confused, and before I knew it, I was here.
Shu: I see.
A “MADEMOISELLE” doll, huh… Then, I believe I understand most of what’s happening.
Mika: Eh, fer real?
As expected of Oshi-san! Yer worth all the praise, it was all jus’ a big mess t’me!
Shu: You have great intuition, but you’re an idiot. You’re not well-suited to thinking.
Those sorts of things are my job, got it? Here, don’t keep straining your dim-witted brain over what you can’t understand and stand on up.
There are no trains or buses running at this hour, so we’ll be walking home.
Much like when we first met.
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Shu: That time, when I had gotten separated from Ryuu~-kun and got lost, you took me by the hand and showed me the way, like a fairy from a fairy tale.
It’s thanks to you that I was able to return back to the right path.
This time, it’s my turn.
Mika: Right… B-But, Oshi-san…
Ya said ya understand most of what’s happenin’… So what’s it all mean, then?
Shu: You can tell you’re not smart by the way you listen. As I always am telling you, you must organize your thoughts a little more before you speak.
Well, I suppose that is just also just a difference between our styles. I carefully and logically design my works from scratch, while you intuitively extract your desired image from chaos.
Mika: So, what is this “truth”?
If yer Grandfather actually was havin’ an affair? Who this “MADEMOISELLE” person is? Why she never aged?
Why is someone so strange in the diary? If she were fictional, then why was there a “MADEMOISELLE” doll in the coffin?
Ah, it’s one question after another, they won’t stop! I wanna know the answer!
Shu: Even I don’t know that. I’m merely guessing, no, imagining.
This story of Grandfather’s half a lifetime is full of mysteries.
And, it doesn’t matter what the “truth” really is anymore. The story I’ve imagined is more beautiful than reality.
All that’s left for me to do is reproduce this beautiful story l, this ideal, I wove within my mind into reality, using my own two hands.
Because, I am an artist.
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Shu: Now, let us get to work, Kagehira. Let’s fire up the atelier and oil the spindles.
This farce has solidified us a concept for our work to submit to the Funeral Contest!
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Once more I need to be a massive school for good and evil movie hater. I feel like no one has acknowledged how tedros entire character has been wiped away and now he's just male in way of lesbian love intrest AND I HATE THAT.
Really stupid nitpick but wasn't this the medieval times why are they in victorian era clothing? I need to personally beat the wardrobe director with a pipe.
Also can people please like keep in mind that they are 13
Their decision making and the way they treat eachother lies heavily in that please ignore the movie where they look more like random college students.
What was the point in saying the whole you can't interact with eachother while they eat in the same dinning room 💀
Everytime I am reminded of this movie I begin to get the largest case of hateritis ever
Oh my god Tedros was so bland in the movie I literally forgot he was in it
They robbed my boy of every personality trait, every character flaw, his bullheadedness, him kicking beatrix’s bunny because she named it Teddy, his good test from Dovey that was drenched in red ink, his hatred and confusion over Agatha because she doesn’t fit within his narrow worldview
All of this was thrown aside in favour of making him this mind numbing my boring character. The average love interest in a ya novel no one will remember. The exchange of enemies to lovers for snarky sarcastic frenemies to lovers is infuriating to me.
I feel like with the wardrobe (and the set and the casting and the script and almost everything else) they went for aesthetics and luxury over actual consistency with the books. The time period is never explicitly mentioned in the books as far as I can remember but they literally had the Ever Never Handbook which had fully illustrated coloured images of the uniforms and the castles to go off of so there was no excuse for the poor costuming.
In terms of age the characters seem to be between 13 and 15. Though their exact age is never confirmed, they have to be below the maximum age of 16 as they would have been there for the reaping four years ago and, given how pure their souls are, they 100% would have been chosen. I prefer to think of them as like 14-15 because Tedros is described as having abs I think so he has to be at least around 15 and it would be weird if he liked a 13 year old. Also cuz of the description of Sophie having ‘long creamy legs’ feels weird if she’s too young. But you are correct: they have to be young- having adults play the characters makes their actions appear irrational instead of pretty normal given their ages. No one under the age of 18 acts rationally or maturely.
I will never not be a hater for this car crash of a movie
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Jumu'ah Sohbet: 19 January 2024
Subhana'Allah (glory to the Divine) for another providential week at the macro-and-micro level of our worldly existence! Without further adieu, bismillah ...
#1. During our monthly Halaqa (spiritual gathering), where we murids get to practice Rabita (heartfelt connection) and share our insights. Our newly appointed Wakil (Senior trustee) is your Abbu, who was wisely enstated by Shaykha Muzeyyen, who convened this Halaqa. She has equally astutely identified fitting leaders as Khalifa. Shukran Ya Allah (Divine gratitude) for her apt and soulful leadership acumen.
Our Wakil, your Abbu, inadvertently answered my query at its onset, needing clarification as to why we, as Sufis, ought to avoid politics. He referred to how we ought to accept that a plurality of experiences and perspectives exists in the rope and light to Allah. Especially within a Tariqa! We ought to be like As-Shahid (the Witness) and look for the Manifestor in the manifested. Instead of wanting others to comply with our worldview, we must simply get our nafs out of the way so that our focus is automatically on Allah.
He powerfully added an undeniable truth that politics perpetuates power and greed of the nafs, where we are trying to be Allah! Similarly, we have to be wary whether we are trying to be Allah in our responses! Or are we submitting, without taking away the human experience, but where we keep seeking Allah's haq. So whatever is being done incorrectly, we will respond, because there is a Hadith (Prophetic saying) which says we must try to stop a bad action, but if we can't stop it then we should speak out about it and in the least, we must feel the pain in our hearts for its occurrence! That is the Prophetic injunction, but this must not be done in a way where it is hurting the soul of another human being because their essence is also purity and haq!
#2. After Inna's powerful testimony as to how she wrestles her conscience as an original Jewess, but later metamorphosised into a Muslim Sufi. She was led to delete Facebook like me but for different reasons, her out of dismay of the extreme and unapologetic reactions of her cousins, and me out of dismay of my ignorant pre-accident life that unwittingly only celebrated nafs! Your Wakil Abbu beautifully reflected that we continue holding onto the rope of Allah as a community and family. Despite our different perspectives, we choose to be a spiritual family of love, peace, and unity in goodness.
Thereafter, Iliona added a thought-provoking idea that this whole situation with Israel and Palestine has brought her to an existential realisation where every single one of us has in our genetics, the experience of genocide! Every single human is carrying that, and irrespective of the team that are identified as the culprits. The way it can be seen is that it can either inflame one's own genetic pain or it can be treated as a signal to meditate and get over it, if possible. That is because all of our ancestors have done something destructive, and the question becomes about how we put an end to this in our own energy field. That is why we are amongst a family of unity above all else!
Your Wakil Abbu finally reflected that this is a really difficult time for the world, but Shaykh Taner taught us that we are always after the truth. With what is happening around us, are we acting with nafs, or are we acting for truth? What we see around us is human beings' nafs (egos) multipled exponentially, and we're all reacting to the hurt and the pain! We can not shy away from either the pain inflicted by others or responding responsibly, but at the same time, we must constantly search for the Truth, as crafted in my recent poem about the current situation. Shukran Ya Allah, for the blessing of our marriage as a "good cheam," pronounced early on by our late and beloved Shaykh Taner.
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#3. After attempting to counsel a distressed and dear Sudanese friend in the depth of worsening national uncertainty, with the following message:
I just want you to know that I observe the Monday and Thursday fast for Sudan and Palestine. I am confident that Allah will relieve the collective suffering at its divinely ordained time.
My father was a freedom fighter who won Bangladesh's liberation from Pakistan. We have lived in war-torn Iran vs. Iraq, we managed to escape economically declining Zimbabwe, and we have lived through numerous upheavals in South Africa!
Please hang in there!
I realised that the reason that I am naturally attuned to political happenings is because my family has been led to overcome numerous political turmoils! Subhana'Allah for the Divine merit of retrospection, where I learned the following:
- Facing political turmoil is taxing, yes, but they can also shape us into resilient beings.
- My respect for my developing country parents mushroomed for enduring the uncertainties of numerous contexts, Alhamdulillah! Even the inherent racism of Denmark where your Nana was after Iran and the racism that we contended with in post-apartheid South Africa.
- Especially that despite the personally arduous passage of time that we each embarked, we have been blessed to realise what we pray for in:
Ya Wadud Ya Salaam Ya Jami Ya Nafi (Allah's loving and peaceful unity in goodness)
#4. 16 January 2024 marked the third year of our worldly separation with the sweet soul of our spiritual brother Fazeel. I was inspired by Mevlana Rumi to reframe my sadness into something more apt and emancipatory. You see, he was a constant feature of my rehabilitation from our accident.
Just as our beloved Shaykh Taner was unexpectedly taken from us, brother Fazeel was equally unexpectedly taken a short time before that. Immediately after both their passings, I reflected with their other halves that I had wished Allah had taken me instead. However, they both compassionately urged me to trust Allah's hikmah (wisdom / rationale) in spite of their sorrow. This was my inspired ode to him:
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Above: A beautiful family photo at their eldest's wedding.
Urs of our Fazeel
In Sufic terms, an urs literally refers to a wedding
A union of the lover with the Beloved
Even though our humble Fazeel is not a Sufi Saint
With his deeply caring heart and his family's subsequent resilience
They attest to our worldly parting with him being his Divine urs
Urs is a death anniversary that is commemorated at a dergah
It's not an occasion to lament but to rejoice
An idea taken from the Hadith:
“Sleep just like the bride.”
And the Angels say to the Pious in the grave, “Sleep with restfulness and comfort just like a bride.”
Beyond Fazeel's incredible heart that was thirsty and ever-ready to serve
Is his equally incredible wife who continued and continues growing
All their children were even inspired to take Divine allegiance
Maintaining a connection to their beloved Daddy
Above all to Al-Hay, as the undying, ever-living, and eternal
#5. Shaykh Anjum reflected on the definition of being considerate, which is "putting others first before ourselves." It was identified as a key requirement for all Sufis as we wrestle with several questions ...
- Will this action bring people together or be divisive?
- Will it be a source of gaining humility or a source of boastfulness?
- Will it clear any assumptions or perpetuate them?
- Will it make people aware or further their ignorance?
- Will it make people appreciative of their bounties or nurture selfishness?
I marvel that when I am least able-bodied and thus less able to be distracted, it is when I can be the most considerate of other's perspectives and experiences of life. Subhana'Allah to reaping the rewards of refining ourselves as Sufis and hence becoming considerate. Anything contrary to this indicates a lack of consideration, being self-centered, ignorant, and caught up in Nafs-al Ammara (at the mercy of one's commanding / impulsive / prompting lower-self).
In conclusion, deep gratitude that your Wakil Abbu reached the cyclone affected shores of Mauritius safely. Insha'Allah, our Mauritian spiritual family, remain safe there, and your Abbu returns to our hearts:
Ya Muhaymin Ya Hafiz
Ya Wadud Ya Salaam Ya Jami Ya Nafi
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I know it’s been said that Iroh’s character becomes inconsistent through the series, which, yeah, I’m sad there are things about his season 1 iteration that didn’t last - but I’ve always sort of felt like he changed because that was another part of his own sort of arc in being on the run with Zuko.
For 3 years he’d stuck with Zuko after looking away from his scarring; but he has always been sort of in the backseat; suggesting to zuko ‘have some calming tea’, or ‘come soak in these hot springs (take a minute sweetheart you need to count to ten and just breathe; you’re too young for this stress poor kid)’. Iroh just remains kind of placid while also getting Zuko to calm down while he’s on a wild goose chase. (however, Zuko NEEDS a calm sounding board, something Iroh obviously already knows; but his placid nature also isn’t helping anything in the grand scheme except in keeping things calm(ish) aboard the ship. I have so many more ideas about Iroh’s behaviors and tying them all together through the series but I have work soon and trying to pick at my ideas is like grabbing bubbles in a tornado lmao)
Personally, I feel like Iroh’s feelings about Zuko as a son become realized when the pirates blow up the ship. Iroh is then active in stowing Zuko away, and he ensures their safe exit from the North Pole.
Iroh could have turned away again when Azula came to ‘take Zuko home’ to their father. He could have ran with his instincts and let Zuko get captured, he could have said ‘lmao see ya I know a trap’. In the end, Iroh knew what was going on, and if he didn’t go with Zuko, then they would have been separated - and they didn’t really stand a chance against Azula and her crew without each other. If Zuko was captured first, then they would have come for Iroh, and he would have been alone. He could have very well taken the soldiers, but Azula? She’s just as clever as he is, and she would do him in quickly.
But he can’t look away because it is Zuko - it’s his boy. Who isn’t his boy, but... he is, more so than he is Ozai’s. To look away again? To watch him back in his father’s clutches? Iroh can’t bear to do that again.
Thus begins their life as wanted men, running through the Earth Kingdom, a place where they’re absolutely not wanted at all. The irony of being wanted back home - but only in chains.
Iroh spent three years on that ship, most likely a time that was an extension of his depression after losing Lu Ten. It’s only been 6 years since he lost his son and his worldviews changed, but he is no longer the Dragon of the West. In so many ways. Change can come unexpectedly and with time - and Iroh feels so disjointed from the man that ravaged Ba Sing Se, mentally and physically.
I’ve felt that a lot of his advice to Zuko is advice he’s giving himself as well, because he’s starting to be able to actually verbalize it to someone he loves more than he probably cares about himself. And he won’t look away again, no matter how bad the circumstances. He’ll do anything to ensure Zuko’s survival, not only to make things count for losing Lu Ten, but to also make things count for Zuko, who deserves so much better than everything he’s had on his plate.
Is Iroh perfect about it? No. The constant positivity he tries to maintain is both something needed for Zuko, and yet, very stifling for a very, very angry boy. At the very least, he is trying to make sure Zuko knows he has a choice in becoming who and what he wants to be - a choice Zuko does eventually make because he’s known what he’s wanted ever since day one.
He wants to be home.
While Iroh’s view of home is now dangerous, choking, stifling. ‘Home’ turned Iroh into the man that led his son to an early grave.
‘Home’ to Iroh is now the place he turned into a refuge to keep his abused nephew safe. Where he watched Zuko take his first steps at being a real teenager during his date with Jin, where they seemed to be accepting a new course in their lives, possibly having their first bit of peace in years, not sleeping in the steel walls of a ship on uncomfortable cots; and not around soldiers or royals, but around regular people - the people that they, as royalty, were supposed to be serving and leading and guiding.
Iroh, for everything he could offer, was now thrust into the stone walls of a jail cell.
His original crime?
Fighting the Fire Nation against the murder of the Moon Spirit - something that would have doomed the entire world.
Season 3 is where there’s the most conflict about Iroh’s writing. I won’t lie and say it’s perfect; there could have been more going on - ultimately, however, it served it’s purpose as part of Zuko’s story, and the overall story (because Iroh is not the focus, during S3 he’s pretty much just a support character. He doesn’t have nearly the presence he had during S2, but S3 is where most of the climactic action happens and focuses on the Gaang and the ultimate story wrapup)
What would I change? I might actually have made him be a bit more bitter in his jail cell, a bit angrier, but show him actively combating that because he still loves Zuko. He sees a boy led astray, and partially by him. Zuko has NOTHING to apologize for to Iroh because he did JUST as Iroh told him to do. He made a choice. I would love to see Zuko watch Iroh actively stave off anger and bite his tongue.
Let Zuko ask, ultimately, why Iroh is still giving him advice when he’s obviously so angry at him - when the last time Zuko angered his father, it resulted in his scar.
Let Iroh look Zuko in the eye and say ‘because a father never gives up on his son’.
Let Zuko respond ‘But I’m not your son.’
Let Iroh then smile, tears in his eyes and say ‘then it’s because you are my Zuko. That’s why.’
Let us watch Iroh use his wisdom in his times of weakness; let’s see him use his own lessons in his lowest points.
I would have changed that, after his escape, Iroh did more with his White Lotus buddies to liberate prisoners/villages. The story culminated with and ended with Ba Sing Se being liberated, which is great, but what about other places? Smaller places along the way TO Ba Sing Se. IDK small potatoes in the writing room I guess, they already had enough to convey with the time given. (I’m a bit more lenient when it comes to storytelling bc there’s more to tell than Iroh’s side; we have to get Aang in there and his crew and remember this IS a kid’s show with very specific themes and buildups)
I do wish I’d gotten to see Iroh bust up Ozai; I REALLY do. But Ba SIng Se was his story. He was there to break the chains of his own family against the place he’d once ravaged - a place that was once a safe haven for the Earth Kingdom (or so it was believed to be until we learned about Long Feng).
So; yeah, I’m personally not against the peaceful man Iroh became - but I really would love to see all of this work culminate into something other than ‘running the Jasmine Dragon’. Azula now needs care, and the world is healing. If he’s going to remain in one place, then let the Jasmine Dragon be more than a tea shop.
It needs to be a place of healing and wisdom and care for those who need it. It needs to be a sanctuary, run by the former Dragon of the West, who is there to care for weary people who have lost their homes to the madness; or for the simple traveler. Let his wisdom and learnings and knowledge of all of the nations come together in one place where others can learn about the spiritual and material worlds in harmony.
He needs to be active in rebuilding the world around him, and active in helping Zuko as the new Fire Lord, but there are so many issues in him being back at the Fire Nation, such as the world seeing the former Dragon either be crowned or aiding the new Fire Lord, but I would suspect that maybe the Avatar could vouch for him??? But that still wouldn’t placate years of harm.
However, there’s still a lot to be unpacked for both Iroh and Zuko, and then Azula and the family and the world. There’s so much more story that could be told if they were allowed to break out of the moulds built by the finale.
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Bestie, it can't be helped if you don't believe that people who don't fit your worldview don't exist. Trust me I do not feel guilty about hurting people, in fact it give me joy. If I ever regret doing something it's because I accidentally hurt myself in the process.
When I say "If my life starts going poorly" I mean being depressed and hopeless again, not just having some problems. It's not like I have 0 problems or weaknesses now, but I am a happy person now which is what actually matter to me.
My own stability, kindness, and generosity towards myself is so much more reliable. It's bad enough to be physically dependent on other people if I have to be psychologically dependent on them too it will at least be on my own terms. I don't love anyone and idgaf what they "deserve"
Aight who let the sixteen yo out of the shrink's office? Get back in there champ.
I never said people like that don't exist. I just think that you're being immature and pretty much the root of why problems remain unresolved in friend groups and relationships. Y'all think it's cool to completely ignore your heart because it protects you from people who - guess what - also hurt you because they had the same mentality: me, myself & I, as if you live alone on this planet.
My worldview is basic human kindness, now if ya want to not partake in that, then I don't think you'll survive your own species. I can believe that, just how you can believe in the tiktoks that glorify bottling up emotions because it's badass femme fatale or whatever the kids are saying these days. Man-
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mack-anthology-mp3 · 10 months
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Gloria (In Excelsis Deo)
Today is lesbian day, and so I've decided I will share my personal favourite lesbian song - Gloria (In Excelsis Deo) by Patti Smith.
Yes, it was written by a man, yes, Patti is not queer, and yes, I am aware that there is actual lesbian music out there.
But.
I was thirteen when I discovered Patti Smith, and when I was thirteen I had just started high school and had suddenly realised that there were more queer people in the world than I thought. Gloria is the first song on Horses, which I had read about and at some point was like 'hmm yeah I'll listen to that today' - and it was the most brilliant thing I had ever heard in my life. Horses is of course one of the best rock albums ever (in popular opinion, but Radio Ethipoia is my favourite), but not only was it everything I wanted to be - cool, effortlessly androgynous, full of references to literature, other songs, an art-punk masterwork - Gloria was a love song about another woman. She was singing about wanting another woman - something unparalleled in my 13 yr old experience of average sapphic YA books and a *certain* 2008 pop song (you know the one I mean).
Here was Patti Smith, androgynous, very very cool, looking defiantly from the cover of Horses, who I had been listening to for all of about two minutes before she declares her love for another woman in the sort of song which I had previously thought only men sung. It was 1975 when that came out - I heard that and assumed that she really was queer, just cos it would have taken a lot of balls to sing that on record, why would she sing it if she wasn't?
The song is of course a cover, written by a man, and Patti has said that when writing her songs she doesn't feel like a man or a woman, and that if women can be the muse for men, why can she not also use women as a muse? Interestingly PJ Harvey has said similar things about writing from a place beyond gender, and she has many sapphic songs and is also (as far as I'm aware) not queer.
I have since found both Patti songs that I like a lot more, and sapphic songs written by actual sapphics, but this initial act of revolution (in my worldview at least) altered my 13yr old existence on every plane. Patti was (and still is) my straight woman lesbian icon (along with the aforementioned PJ Harvey).
I listened to Gloria many many times, and it is easily still one of my favourite songs of hers, because of the impact of this initial experience, the first time I ever heard this is in a song, that reflected both who I was and who I wanted to be so clearly.
a couple actually sapphic artists for you -
Amy Ray (Indigo Girls)
Courtney Barnett (she's fantastic listen to her)
Kathleen Hanna (Bikini Kill)
Patty Schemel (drummer from Hole)
Ani Di Franco (actually haven't listened to her but I know she is)
Melissa Etheridge (my english teacher tells me to listen to her every year and I still haven't sorry Miss)
happy lesbian day to all my sister sapphics (inclusive of all) <3
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vacantgodling · 1 year
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how i make characters (at least from what i’m currently noticing)
cuz @jezifster said he’d be int and feel like rambling lolol
so basically my character creation tends to work like this (and mind u these steps can be wildly out of order it depends on how i get an initial idea, this is more for how i flesh a character out and help shape and round them ya feel)
i will take a characteristic about myself (or several) that i want to infuse like a tea bag into a character. for example: like n i’m very passionate about the truth and i am a nerd or like hya i am angry about people looking down on me and not taking me seriously, or even tagetes where i feel like i know best and i desire to have control over my life down to the most minuscule ways.
then i’ll exaggerate it. yes i get upset when people look down on me or don’t take me seriously but i internalize it. hya externalizes it and makes it everyone else’s problem. i like having control but tagetes can’t function without it. n is passionate about truth to the point of tunnel vision.
and then i’ll examine what in their surroundings or backstory could’ve caused this behavior? why do they act the way they act? i’ve spent a lot of time examining my own behavior and a lot of the things that i do i can pinpoint back to traumas and key events that played a role in shaping that worldview or why i do and value certain things. it’s nature vs nurture yes but i think the nurture part plays a huge role in how already present or preestablished behaviors end up presenting themselves. this helps me build out the character and then also add on more traits that make sense with how they grew up, what they value and generally who they are. hya is the best example bc when i first started planning paramour his place holder character in the plot (before i knew HIM) was completely different than who he is now. but all of a sudden i just felt all this anger?? and it made me go wait why are you so mad? which helped me learn that he’s an illegitimate child and has been treated poorly his whole life. which then led me to start figuring out his family dynamics and the world of paramour, why would a child out of wedlock be treated poorly? and so on!
not every character i make follows this exact method and there’s more or less steps depending on the character i think but i find this method kinda helps me flesh them out more. idk if it makes sense. but all my ocs (personally) are extensions of myself. so identifying which part of myself and then tracing the origins of why THEY feel that way or act that way in comparison to why i feel and act in certain ways helps me understand them better :)
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Pride asks: 2, 20, 33?
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2.) do you like to use the term queer for yourself? or just lgbt, etc?
answered here 💯💯
20.) do you feel like you "fit in" with the queer / pride community overall?
ya and i give zero shits about anyone who tries to tell me i dont. were past the aspec exclusion era. i went to pride in the cle last year with an aro flag on my back and i think out of the hundreds of people there i was the only person wearing one like that. and i cant tell you how many people were excited to see me doing it
33.) what about your lgbt identity do you feel proud of / want to recognize / celebrate?
all the aspects of my identities are celebration-worthy tbh but personally i think the one that has impacted me and driven me the most is really my being aromantic. like its impacted my relationships its impacted my worldview its impacted my behavior its even impacted my fucking gender presentation. like yea im trans yea i dress masc but not primarily to pass. i need to look like im both sexually unavailable and romantically out of everyones league before i look like im cis cause tbh the aro part of my identity is the least well-known and i really really want to give that part of me thats so important the loudest voice i can. being aro is so incredible to me my experiences with this identity have shaped me and i want the world to know that without my aromanticism there is no Me. i want the world to fucking know i bleed green.
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Cant sleep; walrus and fairy thoughts.
Like. Obviosly i think a walrus is more surprising, but like? Im laying here wondering why isnt fairies surprising?
And im thinking, at least for me, its that maybe i would be a bit surprised to see a fairy, but id mostly feel.. validated? Excited? Afraid?
Cause like, i grew up believing in santa, and the tooth fairy, etc., and when i grew old enough to learn that theyre not real, its sad? You belive so hard, and it sticks with you, you know? So then you grow up with magical wizard story fantasies, and magic princesses, and you lowkey.. want it to be real?
And then the fact a fairy decided to make thier presence known to me in particular? What does that mean??? Did i piss off the fae somehow? Am i actaully a descendent of some magic proncess and this is my fairy godmother?? Am i gonna get a wish or something? Do they need a cup of sugar?? Why me???? Theres a whole lot more things to think about, and honestly id mostly just be excited, cause magic?? Real?? Sign me up please.
But i can also imagine someone more logical, who just accepts magic isnt real as a fact of life, being absolutely baffled, because a fairy being real would essentially mean thier whole worldview gets flipped updide down. You may as well suddenly be able to see ultraviolet light, its such a drastic change. At that point, youre questioning everything, and a walrus being there honestly sounds like an easier problem to deal with. Cause at least a walrus is real, ya know?
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