#anyway. if we are mutuals and you make and post fan art YES THIS IS ABOUT YOU. YES I HAVE SEEN IT YES I AM IN AWE OF IT
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Inspired by recent interest in this blog, and for ppl newly landing on it, I made this pinned post as a welcome, a warning, and some tags I would recommend that are specific to my blog for my favorite stuff. Here's why it's called i-want-my-IWTV.
🤘 A welcome: I'm Burnadette (21+) and this blog is an unofficial Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles appreciation blog started in July 2013, but it's not an authoritative resource, I'm just collecting fanworks and other dash goodies based on my own rubric, sprinkling catnip out to the fandom, and answering asks for ppl who are curious about my opinions on things. I encourage positivity and optimism! ✨
My AO3: Burnadette_dpdl
Co-mod @wicked-felina and I typically run the @vcsecretgifts exchange, you can check out the archive there. We had to take a 2 yr hiatus for real life reasons, we hope to revive it in 2024 💕 In the meantime, go check out @vamptember (@hekateinhell and @monstersinthecosmos), for a wealth of VC fanworks!
⚠️ A warning: You may encounter things you dislike on this blog, such as ship art of ships you dislike, discussions about dark fiction, problematic characters, and other such topics. My free time for fandom is limited and I do this for free for my own entertainment, so I don't engage in bad faith discussion, and I'm generally picky about engaging* in all discussion posts or personal posts.
You may have noticed that I don't post/reblog much about it if I can help it: While I do not like the current IWTV AMC 2022 adaptation, I can talk about it, and I do appreciate that it's brought fresh blood 🩸 into the fandom, a lot of talented fanart and writing! And yes, ppl can enjoy IWTV '22 and other adaptations and canon and absolutely whatever 🤝, these things are not mutually exclusive 😎 (I tag it #iwtv 2022 and #iwtv amc if ppl need to block those tags.) With that said, I think there are some fabulous ppl who can embrace it all, like @xxhellonursexx! There are role models like Nurse, able to venn diagram the VC content with a sense of humor and respect.
So I welcome new fans, and encourage them to ask questions and engage with ppl like me, there is limitless room for everyone.
ANYWAY.
Behold, my STUFF: Some of my favorite tags in no particular order, this may evolve over time:
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Lin, get in here and settle this - (Not a tag but this is my 20 second magnum opus 😎✨)
vampire physiology - Both about Ricean and other vampire media, studying them like lab animals and talking about it!
Fandom laws - Fandom's been around a long time, and I think a big part of having a great experience in it is mutual respect, which ppl have codified in fandom laws. When/if you break them, you may turn other ppl off and that can spread quickly; you build your reputation by your actions.
digging up an oldie from the archive - when I need to throw an older post on the dash to share again, maybe there's a reason, or a great addition.
hello dinner - Various amusement about vampires and their dinner.
messy eater - Related to the above, it's less common (canonically) for a Ricean vampire to spill a drop of blood, so it used to be more dramatic when we'd see art/fic of spillage! There are vampires from outside VC in that tag, too, I couldn't resist reblogging them.
vampiredevelopment/interviews and rec - this is some of my favorite textmeme content 😂
memeything - y'know, memes, some are embedded in more serious posts, but I think when I first heard the word "meme" I didn't think mine really counted? So I made it "memeything" so as not to land in a "meme" tag if they didn't count, but eventually I decided that "meme" can be pretty widely defined, so mine kinda do, but by that point I was far into the habit of using my own word, so there it is.
how to make a post a vc post - when you just gotta insert your fandom into an unrelated post bc it FITS.
VC fandom hunters - when you're looking for other VC fandom ppl to role play with, etc.!
Lestatiquette - Lestat ettiquette.
Lestatuesque - Someone/something is acting like Lestat.
Lestats closet - Something you might find in Lestat's closet, a resource for fanartists/writers looking for inspo 🙏
Its a coffin - fanart and works involving coffins!
We appreciate and love Louis in this house - There was a wave of sentiment criticizing Louis for various reasons and these are thoughtful responses to that criticism. Tag started by the magnificent @covenofthearticulate/@theballadofmrslovett (go check out her ideas, and her AO3 covenofthearticulate, she is so so good 💞)
Defending Antonio - There's periodic discussion about Antonio Banderas as Armand in the '94 IWTV movie, I love him, and I'm totally rational about it
Louis has canon hair I know that will make at least 2 ppl I know very happy - and idk if I would even reveal privately who they are but definitely not publicly! I don't want to put them on blast! 😅 I appreciate Louis with different hairstyles and I've debated about it enough that like... I can appreciate Options but some ppl would prefer to see his hair as it's described in canon 😙
VC wedding hysteria - What it says on the tin.
iwantmyiwtv has opinions - a way to signal that these are my opinions only and not presented as fact.
Iwantmyiwtv rp - I sometimes take asks for Lestat or Louis to help inspire my fanfic. Specify who you're asking and they might respond 😎, Lestat response starts with ♛, and Louis with ♠.
vc news/vc casting - For sharing news and post casting ideas, as there are multiple adaptations and there's always fantasy casting! It never ends.
not vc/vc adjacent - I see some ppl have adopted these two! I made these out of a kind of purist approach, I wanted to reblog smtg and share it but it wasn't exactly VC, soooo, it's my acknowledgment accordingly.
VC - I may have used this in the past but I don't anymore, bc there are tons of things that could have that abbreviation, I assume, so I don't find it too be descriptive enough for use as a Vampire Chronicles tag 🤷🏼♀️
*You may see older posts that were written in a bubblier/sassier manner than I'd be comfortable with now, but I find those to be charming now, it's a 10+ yr old blog, after all! Our internet experience has evolved. What's cringe or even rude now was normal then and I know that my intention was always positivity and anti-censorship, so that includes not censoring myself. ✨ I ask that you have patience with those responses that may not have aged well as you have patience with an artist or writer's earlier works, or your own growth over the years! 🌱
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Hey!
Just wanted to say that I a a huge fan of your MasterGrinder artworks, and I've probably said it before but I am saying it again, they are all so lovely!
They have inspired me to write several different stories, and I've just published the first chapter to one story tonight!
This is the link, but only if you want to read it, of course!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/55174846/chapters/139924744
I know that it is not a scene depicted by your works, and if you would rather not be associated with a darker story, that is perfectly fine! But I was hoping to credit you for the inspiration you have provided me with those beautiful pieces of art!
If you do not want me to credit you, just let me know!
Anyways, I hope you're having a lovely day, week and year so far and I just want to say again, I love your art!
Your Sokol is so cute and Dallas is so handsome! I love them both! :)
Ahhh! Thank you so much! Yes! Of course, I remember your kind replies! having mutuals in the same ship is a huge motivation to keep making fanart of them♡
I really enjoyed your fic and want to read more! And sorry, I am terrible at describing my thoughts but note: your fic made me rob a few banks recently.
And thanks for the willingness to credit me but since the causes in the fic aren't originally mine, I don't bother how you depict them! there's just happy Neom, reading a new fav ship's fic.
Talk about the originality of headcanon, who would say that Dallas isn't the first member that a newcomer will meet? especially since Sokol meets the Butcher before arriving in America, possibly he smuggled some parts of BFD and needs a ride to the safehouse privately. and In Crime.Net, we can hear Bain's description of Sokol that he reminds him of younger Dallas AND he might be the one who leads the Payday gang in the future. it's a clear clue that Dallas is the person that Sokol would look up to!
(this made me ship them a bit too much because turning admiration into affection is one of my favorite dynamics heehee<3)
I hope you have a nice day and week and year too, as you made mine u_u
+I'm sorry for all who don't receive my answers…. actually, I drew things to answer but it always turned out not in a good condition than my usual posts. also I deleted scribbles for this ask because it looked ugly ;_;
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First of all, sorry to all of those who didn’t get my boops in return!! I send them even now but mentally. Boop.
I ended up spending all my writing time on headcanons… but still, here are some regular replies!
A couple about Idia, a couple about fandom stuff.
Anonymous asked:
THE GAY THOUGHTS ARE OVERTAKING IDIA
this seems like a pre-photo of that one art you did with idia and Lilia in the concert bathroom ngl... perhaps they are related??
Ohh, you remember that one!!
Technically yes, this is pretty much the same story, just the before and after thing lol Although they’re dressed differently in these two posts (my bad), both of them stem from the same scenario Katsu and I came up with a year ago.
Anonymous asked:
Alright, so we see how Idia reacts when someone reacts aggressively against the crap he says but what would happen if he says a snide remark to someone and then they proceed to verbally and psychologically obliterate him on the spot? Would he freeze up, talk back?
We’ve seen it with Sebek a couple of times, even though Sebek doesn’t really obliterate him psychologically (he is much weaker than Idia in this sense…), but I think Idia tends to talk back. Idia is quite stubborn, and talking back and escalating the situation is one of his biggest defence mechanisms. He is the master shit-talker and a genius of snark, so he might win against the majority of people + he is so self-deprecating that not a lot of people would know what to say to him to actually hurt his feelings – Idia berates himself much worse than that on a regular basis + expects that everyone hates his guts anyway.
But I don’t think it’s impossible to shut him up using only verbal abuse… Lilia might be the one who succeeds at that, actually.
Anonymous asked:
warning, ranting here im so sorry I just need to get it off my chest :(
even if you do not see this that's ok, im a big fan of your art plus headcanons and the fact you also ship my rare pair. but recently my mutuals found out I follow you and like your art and I have troubles talking with them. sometimes they say that im supporting that type of behaviour by interacting and im torn. I am not sure what to do. I personally do not mind your shroudcest, they are fictional and you probably do not support it. sorry for the rant and assumptions. English is not my first language so im sorry if it's hard to understand.
Hi, Anon! I am very happy you like our stuff and I really appreciate that you just ignore the things that you don’t particularly like: I feel very lucky that we have people like you now.
It’s very unfortunate that your friends make you feel bad about following us, I am very sorry to hear that. And I can’t tell you how to deal with your friends, since I don’t know what kind of relationships you have, but I always say it: a friend should be able to see past someone’s interests and be open-minded, and not make you feel horrible for liking certain things that don’t harm anyone. And you don’t even like those things – you just ignore them and like something completely different. How is it supporting me? It doesn’t even affect stuff that we post and draw – I would’ve drawn all that anyway.
If you want to hear it: I don’t support any of the problematic themes that I draw in real life. This is such an obvious thing to me, such a given, such a common sense thing, that it’s honestly very offensive that someone might even consider that this isn’t the case simply because I draw certain stuff. Please note that you are not offending me, Anon, you’ve done nothing wrong and I’m just venting back. People throw assumptions so easily just to harass us or their friends for supporting us, those are such big words and allegations, it’s honestly messed up that this is a norm.
But I digress. I could only suggest you to reflect on your relationship with those people and try to make compromises that make sense for you. It’s easy to say, but try not to let them bully you. Try not to let people who don’t trust you enough to know that you wouldn’t condone stuff like that irl dictate you how you live your life. This is a game that you can’t win: even if you stop supporting me, it’s not a guarantee that you won’t get smacked for something else in the future. I don’t know your friends. But a lot of people experienced that. It’s mentally challenging trying to walk on eggshells all the time, especially because of something that’s not even true, so take care of yourself.
Thank you once again for your message. I hope things get better.
Anonymous asked:
I hope this doesn't come off creepy but as someone who creates art and fic of an incesty oc!shroud x Idia ship. It makes me happy to see you supporting and creating weird unhinged stuff. For now I live vicariously through you and maybe one day I'll be bold enough to post the newer sketches I have for my story.
Thank you for your message, Anon! I am super happy that our stuff gives you some comfort and confidence to create things that you care about; it means a lot to hear that.
Also! Kudos to you for creating an incest Oc!Shroud x Idia ship hehe ^w^
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your art is making me go absolutely feral about wondermagic. I never looked at Zatanna comics before (or much comics in general), do you have any recommendations on where to start? I need more of this funky gay stage magician and her huge dork girlfriend in my life.
oh god. I MEAN first of all YES!!!!! WONDERMAGIC W!!!!!!! im so happy to hear it. they make me actually crazy im glad youre enjoying The Art
however SECOND OF ALL i must confess (as i have confessed before!) that i am a fake ass comic book fan. i've barely read Anything for Any character (LOL) i am not at ALL versed in her various appearances/history. so tbh i hope my more knowledgeable followers can drop recs for both me and you if there's anything particularly noteworthy
but i can talk about what i HAVE read bc my journey with her has been very . memorable to me. THIS IS NOT A HELPFUL POST this is just me infodumping--AT LENGTH--about my and zatanna's relationship. but i do talk a little about what ive read. like casual rontra followers can stop reading here its just rambling
anyway my first exposure to ms zatanna was in the first proper dc comic i ever read. which doesnt count because its extremely not about her (this is a tangent) but its notable for making me out loud go "who is this MAGICIAN" which prompted my partner to immediately reply "you mean zatanna zatara". oh you know her. you know the magician. bitch who the hell is--
you gotta appreciate the experience here. its babys first ever comic. i know superman i know batman ive seen them around (from being alive as a human). i have never in my life heard of the stage magician who hangs out with them (in full costume??) and is their friend(?????)
SHES VERY MEMORABLE. WHO THE HELL IS THIS MAGICIAN
anyway that's all a tangent. flash forwards to last month. i was already working on CTDE from the kara^2 angle (bc i majored in n52 power girl w a minor degree in supergirl: woman of tomorrow, of course) but i was like "i should expand this roster". my friends suggest their blorbos ofc and i have a fun time reading wiki pages from multiple storylines/continuities just getting a wide array of impressions from different places. just snooping around the Vibes. and im like. man i should look at that Magician. read some of HER pages
you gotta appreciate knowing nothing at like 3am, to figuring out ctde zatanna's palette at 5:43 am
i can't resist her.
anyway i already knew here that i was going to do something weird with her in the CTDE that wasn't necessarily connected to any of her published material. i was cooking independently. the stove was on before i had ingredients on hand bc i had the IDEA first. but i was like "i should look at some of her stuff first-hand and try and refine the Vibes" yknow. like theres limits to how much of a fake zatanna fan i can be
so we put out a call in the Mutuals Network and someone was like "you Could watch the justice league dark movie from 2017 she's in that". i was like ok 1hr15 animated movie i can handle that EASY
i didn't love the movie. so i'm not going to say anything else about it. however something VERY IMPORTANT TO NOTE:
thats right. wondermagic took hold before i read a single zatanna comic. just as it has for you anon.... we're not so different you and i...
couple days pass. im just relaxing. hanging out. looking at random tumblr blogs that post comic stuff bc im curious. so i stumble on this one post and it has a clean edit of This Fateful Image 👇
this. GODDAMN image
i was like Wonder Woman is HOW TALL? excuse ME? (>he has also never engaged with a single piece of wonder woman content)
SHES SO TALL........??? and Next To Zatanna? (diesel voice) back in my day we called this spitting distance. and we would post it on /u/
im like okay what comic is this from im going there and im going NOW. to view her. like it's that easy folks. just show me wonder woman, Tall, next to another woman. and i'll go read it
nyway this is Justice League Dark from 2018-2020 it's like 30 issues or so and theres a stretch of chapters where diana is a real hunk its unbelievable. then the art changes but it was amazing while it lasted
(and then i immediately stumbled and wondermagic ctde real)
i really enjoyed this comic actually. i have NO idea how its generally regarded by zatanna nation, but i had a fun enough time. absorbed a lot of DC Comics Magic Lore for my AU which is important
at some point it starts doing Weirdly Umineko Coded dialogue totally unprompted so if you've read that it might tickle your funnybone to see comic book characters asking each other "was this a trick or was it magic 😏". made me feel right at home
my main complaint is that SHE'S NOT DRESSED LIKE A FUCKING MAGICIAN IN IT!!!! COME ON!!!!! they chickened out on the full magician garb in this whole era. which is just so sad. the fishnet fingerless gloves are funny though i might steal that. but i think she is so funny when she's wearing the full magician costume. like call me shallow but her commitment to the bit is so important to me
on the upside she interacts with wonder woman A Lot. the rest of the team is fun too. the justice league dark team is just wonder woman severely failing to put together a squad with any star power at all and i think that's adorable. her failgirl era. now she's out here with her also-rans. i like them all im fond of them
diana scruffs zee like a cat??? she's just hanging there like she's ok with it LOL
it technically jumps off of another comic but tbh if you're willing to hit the ground running and just Accept some stuff in medias res and go with it it's pretty easy to pick up if you wanted
("Just Going With It" is a vital survival skill for getting into comics in general because even if a comic isn't part of a longer continuity its always like "omg glup shitto is here!!! for the fans!!!" and you just have to be like Okay someone else will know who that is. ill just go w it. yknow 😭)
anyway i got a lot of DC Magic Lore (Strangely Familiar Edition) and Zee Content AND!!! Wondermagic Content. in this one. so even if i had an inkling about them before, this comic is really what detonated the charge so to speak. they interact so much
and the dynamic created w their relationship to magic and stuff is really interesting. brainwormy for sure. it took me from "who the hell is this magician" to "DO PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT WONDERMAGIC????? FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO???" in one comic. i have a LOT of thoughts about them like genuinely i think there's meat on the bone conceptually for wondermagic
but i think pretty much any time they appear together in general they're just Like That. whenever theyre both in a comic they have to be gay about it (what the fuck did she mean by this). i was losing my mind when i was catching up on DC/RWBY (ABHORRED. avoid if possible) and zatanna is immediately on her bullshit again. IS THAT HOW YOU GREET HER
anyway to sum up my rambling here's a peek into my league of comic geeks library of Shit Ive Read Since Then (that had zee in it). basically i have no further wisdom for you but for the knowers this is where i'm at (click to enlarge)
it's a totally random selection LOL my strategy is that i look at comics that list her as a cast member and spin an actual roulette wheel in my brain to decide whether i should read it or not. there's very little else going on here. just monkey sees funny magician -> neuron activates
that pretty much catches us up on my zatanna journey. youll notice if you paid attention to the date/time stamps that it took a mere matter of Days to go from "yeah i can watch a movie" to "i think about her kissing women every night before i sleep". it is DIRE in here. im not sure ive ever had such a Severe escalation of worms
i love her. she's my funny girl. anyway. zatanna nation. if you're still reading this. if you're still with me. what is your wisdom. what should me and anon read. please.
this is a matter of international consequences.
#this post is actually so long if you hit the readmore But i do circle back to you.#sorry i just took the opportunity to infodump. its my funny magician post and i decide the focus (there is no focus)
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HII ELISEYY my friend. thank you for the ask! and sorry it took so long the sleepies and school and etc. I HOPE COLLEGE IS GOING WELL FOR YOU BTW!!!!!!!
this got so long sorry you know how it is with novels. but hey before i read more the rest of this guys if anyone else wants to send me hater asks you still can... i only got one 🥲 does nobody else want to send asks to their friend nico? i've actually been so dead lately guys that is on me. but i still love you all.......
anyways um 8 is "common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about" and 10 is "worst part of fanon" pretty similar really going for the haterisms here okok. hmmm i honestly don't even interact with the orv fandom that much like most of the orv posts that aren't just art that i see are mine and my few orvie mutuals' which i usually respect i don't see a lot of posts from outside of this orv echo chamber i've created for myself which i'm ok with tbh. but something i see a lot that i don't like is the depiction of kdj as a scammer type like the breed same as cale tcf and others? i haven't read regression instruction manual but like he's a common comparison and such. and it's true that they're all from the similar mold of like "isekai/fantasay coming to real life but i have an upper hand because i read the book it came from nyeheh" and in that specific aspect yeah kdj has his moments where he takes advantage of his knowledge but it seems like some people attribute him being a liar an unreliable narrator etc to that part of the story also and i don't totally agree with that. he's not an unreliable narrator because he's trying to be sneaky and smart the dude is depressed. he's been so depressed since he was like 13 and he's a grown ass man now it's totally changed his outlook and makes him unable to see the world and his interactions with others properly for what it is. he didn't lie to our faces about smiling when he was actually crying because he was trying to be smart and sneaky it was cause he's sad as fuck and can't even recognize it because he's lowkey wanted to kill himself since middle school. i do agree that cale is similar in that he downplays how insane he is almost dying all the time and getting hurt forever but not caring and driving all his friends up the wall with it without even realizing and like he's also depressed as fuck but when people group them together for being self sacrificing bastard scammers or whatever i just feel like it's different a lot of the time. we aren't seeing the same thing there.
i guess that's my soapbox for 8 umm for 10. the way yoo sangah gets pushed aside so often peeves me for sure. she's so everything where did you put her....? and the kids too the kids are so important to me and to kdj but they're never given justice i feel. honestly i think all of kimcom doesn't get enough love most of the time or maybe i've just been bad at finding content that actually does them well it just feels like there's so much joongdok yaoi and not enough friendship and mentorship and everything. jihye and joongdok are so everything but i never see the two of them together ever. heewon and hyunsung also. even if you're not the biggest fan of them romantically like i respect the lesbian heewon grind don't you care that they're the sword and shield.......? and of coures sys and yjh have a lot of interesting potential but no one ever does anything with it. and there's never enough lee gilyoung anywhere i love you gilyoung. yes that's my fanon complaint. too much yaoi focus... there's so much love everywhere it's a main theme but the story ain't a romance there's so much more out there. take my hand we can discover friendship together
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yes that anon who sent
"tag all of your mutuals and put beside it the kind of person they are im really curious :)"
WAS ME AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA 😏😏
anyways im ready for that kiss 😚
I love u for sending in this ask but my stupid self accidentally posted it when I wasn't done so now I'm answering this one instead. Ok where do I start,
@icedhoneyy : my #1 my 4 lifer my online best friend at this point. Isa is such a sweet and bright person it's amazing to be around her, she had a way of reassuring me that things were fine and making me feel better. Her ideas are all so cute and her writing is so so good she's terribly underrated, once she is back from being inactive I will be the happiest woman alive ok.
@boo-kugo : one my early made mutuals, so so nice and I know she will always be reblogging something of mine. Such an interactive mutual I love that you're always in my notifications and that I can feel so easy with you (read: not wonder if you actually like me or not as I usually do with people) and that your themes are always so CUTE
@kurootosis : lem where do I even start. One of my special kuroo made mutuals (read : we bond over our love for the silly guy) I love the ideas you implement into your writing so much and I love how we both write to comfort ourselves like girls who think about their fictional boyfriend to cope relate to each other so hard yk (I have some of ur work in my drafts but forgive me for not having enough time to read and appreciate it I am heart broken </3)
@mushiemin : my FIRST haikyuu mutual, and when you followed me I was jumping up and down and giggling from excitement cause wow your art is so amazing and if someone like that follows me then I must REALLY be something. I hope you're having a wonderful day whenever you're seeing this !!!
@rayesloveletters : my dear friend ray reblogs all the cutest stuff in the world, whenever she's on my dash I just experience visually pleasant thing like God I am SO thankful we are mutuals. Plus you've been so sweet and so nice to me, especially by reaching out first because I'm deathly afraid of rejection so I'm terribly glad you talked to me first otherwise idk where we would be rn (silent mutuals probably)
@sunamour : I can't put into words how much I love your work. I've probably told you before but everytime I feel like hurting my own feelings I go through your masterlist because your writing is THAT good!! I couldn't believe myself when you followed me actually, because wow.. it's like Beyoncé herself acknowledged my existence okay. Definitely check scar out for suna related works she's amazing 10/10
@sookisaurus : risu is one of my early mutuals too and I remember stumbling across your blog and also feeling excited about having a kuroo mutual. When you wrote me that one shot?? My god I died and went to heaven. Risu is so easy to interact with and she is so talented if you ever don't know where to start in the haikyuu fandom she's an amazing person to talk to!!
@tahdashi : I think everytime sayu reblogs something of mine I get more recognition than I've gotten the whole time I had this blog, safe to say I couldn't believe when she followed me because??? The sayu?? Liked my work?? That one winter kuroo piece is my most popular one now. I also love the way your mind works and I associate you with study boyfriend akaashi (rip sunkeiji)
@wakatshi : miss daria... so cool, so amazing, I feel like she's a huge star and I'm this journalist who she will talk to from time to time and I'm actually just her biggest fan. Amazing themes, amazing energy, such a cool person, and no one is more worthy of the mrs ushijima title. Can't picture him without her popping up in my head actually
@miyasann : I remember when you answered my first ask ever and you called me by my name and I was so surprised that you knew my name like it wasn't right in my pinned post... but basically another incident that felt too good to be true because you are so nice to be around and your Journaling will always have a special place in my heart. You remind me of orange blossoms ok I don't know where that came from but it makes sense !!!
@rinoomi : she's inactive as far as I'm aware but GOD I loved her art so much, I remember coming back from school and checking her blog to see if she drew kuroo again and those were the good old days
I feel like I've forgotten some so I will return to edit them in if it's necessary!!!
#oh and here is ur kiss#💏#i just realized this has turned into a mutual appreciation post ok#but ive already typed it all and i think this is pretty telling of their personalities#— kuroo's answers#god how did i type all of that out#im so tired ok good night#thank u nat for this i think i needed something to positively think about#♡ natasha
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Hello!! For that ask game thing that you recently reblogged, I would love to hear your opinions on everyone's dear friend Booster Gold! :)
YAY yes i can do Booster of course. I've loved Booster for over 7 years now I'm sure I have a few things to say hehe. This ones also long so here we go.
– Overall opinion of them
I think Booster is a genuinely amazing character who just happens to be placed in the hands of incompetent unsure writers all the time. But for the sake of things I'm not going to rant about writers right now but know a lot of my opinions and love for Booster comes from accidental themes thrown in by writers or stuff that can be taken and made better.
A lot of my love for Booster also comes from the situation I was in when I first started reading his comics (around after I read Ted's BB comics bc I was a Ted fan first and the very same goes for Ted too) so i'm very aware a lot of my perceptions are based in that.
I believe that Booster's backstory is really interesting and hits hard. Booster gold volume 1 can easily be read as someone who is closeted trying to find a place in a world where they do not fit in (Now please take in account that this is not the intention of the writing from the author and was a total accident writing wise). I wish more respect would be put into his backstory especially currently I think in the right hands it can be transformed into something really meaningful...but anyways.
– Gender/sexuality headcanons
I am a Trans Nonbinary Gay Booster believer. I think booster goes by any pronouns but especially he/him and she/her. I also believe he knew this when he lived in the 25th century way before he went back in time, but had to deal with being in the closet AFTER time traveling, not before.
– Favorite moment in canon
SHEESH…um…A LOT OF THINGS are my favorite moment. for the sake of everyone I wont go through every comic he's in and post my favorite moment but in booster gold volume 1 I love every scene where it touches on that "outsider" aspect of his character and his struggle with it.
Another favorite (ICONIC) moment I love is the reveal that he is Supernova and FAKED his death in 52 #37 to fool Mr Mind/Skeets. It is genuinely such a good moment in my opinion and shows that he's actually very cunning and capable and also sets the stage for what his strengths are as a time master. It takes the whole idea that "lies and deception" don't have to be negative but can be a useful tool in heroism (in a way directly challenging Boosters past and his perceptions of himself because of that past).
Oh I also love his arc in extreme justice before he wishes his disability away.
– Favorite moment in a fanwork
It is so difficult to decide this FOR ME because I care so much about a lot of my mutuals interpretations of Booster to pick one! I really enjoy seeing how other people perceive Booster as a serious genuine character. Like In @slettlune's works (sorry for at-ing you again lol), or @queenretcon's art or @bigturtl or @starringbeetle or nowadays @mattdcblog or my bf's old art @clickbaitcowboy. all of them have inspired and shaped the way I see Booster so I don't think I can pick just one favorite moment or piece.
– Favorite line, in canon or otherwise
ANY line from volume 1 where Booster doesn't understand phrases or sayings is my favorite.
– Characters I love seeing them interact with
Um..well I'd be a liar if I didn't say Ted Kord- but there is a lot of newer stuff in comics that I feel falls flat with them and I think that comes from making them one note outside of each other and that both of them BENEFIT from having lives outside of each other in canon.
NOW...FIRE...is one of my FAVORITE Booster friendships! I need to see more of them I feel like too often its brushed aside that Fire was one of Boosters besties too! Or even just the fact Booster in the 80s-90s had a lot of friends who were women without being romantic with them which is honestly unique and cool. NOW.. I understand narrative wise (post toras death and everything that was done wrong to Bea) why they all fall out of being friends. I just miss it.
– Last thing before sleeping headcanons & Sleeping habits headcanons
I honestly don't have any strong opinions about this at all other than I think that Booster would be the type of person to need white noise or something to sleep. Uhhh I think he would take up the whole bed no matter what though not even just because he's 6'5 but because he sleeps like a star fish.
– First thing after waking up headcanons
Unfortunately he is the only morning person in existence I think.
– Favorite locations headcanon
AGAIN...he's a time traveler...he's a huge cowboy fan so I'm sure for that reason he loves being in the wild west era even though in reality it sucked but this is comics ig.
Other than that I think he loves going to the beach, not just like the ocean front but just like towns near the beach too, ocean wind...beach vibes, maybe he should try surfing.
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Okay, so, somewhat of a response I cannot make to a thing I saw pop up on my dash. I cannot reply directly because the OP is someone who has me blocked (don’t ask). I just saw this thing re-blogged by someone who is a mutual about fandom-obsession and person showing off their merch. Their... many things of a same thing... yeah, wow. More power to you. Still, wow.
And, yeah, it did make me feel better about my various fandom-obsessions. I don’t own any wearable She-Ra stuff, save for a couple of pins affixed to one of my game-system carriers, mostly because I don’t want to have to explain it to people... but I do own a lot of Zelda-shirts. Mostly Hyrule-crest, I had one Wind Waker stained glass window shirt that I wore out that I would like to replace. Zelda is a little more of a mainstream fandom, so I feel “less weird” in my geekdom with them. My shirts are different, though. Even the Hyrule crest shirts are... one that’s gold, one that’ s green-gold gradation. And it’s a solid design - just a good royal crest. Got jewlery, too, because the Triforce makes awesome jewelry.
But... OP’s character-specific obsession makes me look back, specifically, to my Trigun-obsession from several years back and my ongoing love of Vash the Stampede. I had large official-merch dolls of him, both regular flavor and the toy-only Dark Vash that I used to cuddle like a teddy bear at night. Yeah, I did that, so maybe if they somehow read my post (unlikely) that will make them feel less weird. That was in my 20s. And I know how weird that is. But, man... Vash was like... it for me. And I’m glad that he was my main obsession for a while, my “character obession 101″ course because he was the kind of character that people wouldn’t harass you for being “immoral” over liking since he’s the hero of his story and is an interesting combination of a badass pacifist. Now, people would get into arguments with you over a love of Vash back in the days of late ‘90s early ‘00s anime-fandom precisely over the sustainability of his philosophy and the way he goes about it, but it all boils down to the kinds of arguments people have been making about “a time to kill” since the beginning of time and people really couldn’t fault your personal morals in liking the character - a paragon hero. In other words, comparatively, being a Hordak-fan is much harder because we both live in a wankier fandom-age and he’s a villain. Liking the guy who crushes nations is a tad different than liking the misunderstood outlaw who goes out of his way to not-kill and bears scars from doing everything necessary to save *everyone.* I do both, going from paragon hero to tragic villain in my character-loves, so I’ve seen the difference.
... If I ever crossed the streams, Vash would spare Hordak - absolutely no doubt. He’s with She-Ra on this one. Hell, Vash would probably try to make an argument for sparing Horde Prime if he could be contained / put in a place where he could no longer harm people. Vash be like that. *Imagines Vash and Hordak getting into a conversation about having abusive brothers.* (I actually read a fanfic once where there was a bit of Trigun crossover! It was a She-Ra main fic that crossed over a lot of different sci-fi through mention of other planets and the Planet Gunsmoke / Nomans Land was one of them, so yes, crossover can be feasable). God, there’s even some potential parallels in Clones and Plants... (Stop it, Shadsie, you’ve already got that Fallout crossover chewing your brain, you don’t need this)!
By the way, you might see me wink off this blog into the ether when the 2023 reboot of the anime “Trigun: Stampede” comes out. First loves, you know. Even though by the trailer, I *hate* the new art-style, but...my boy will be back, so yeah.
Anyway, I just felt like rambling. The OP did make me feel a little better about my weird fandom fixations, because... I’ve never had that many of the same shirt? Not even when I was going to anime conventions in a red longcoat I had commissioned with a garage-kit fake gun and belts over my arms to make a pretend prosthetic doing a cross-dress cosplay of my Fave of All Time.
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My Top Posts in 2022:
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Scrolling through your blog like my morning newspaper, I was reading your tags and—as someone who was part of the HTTYD/RttE fandom for years, Hiccup and Toothless were a pretty popular romantic ship (in fact, second only to Hiccup and Astrid). I spent all my time shipping Fishlegs and Snotlout so it wasn’t my circle, but boy did I see a lot of it adjacent to my ships! Anyways, no point to this ask besides seeing your tags and it like, unlocking a deeply buried memory within me but lmaooo I hope you’re having a nice day!
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THIS IS A PART OF FANDOM I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF BEFORE LMFAOOOOOOO
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My LARP weapons!!! I'm very excited lol
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DROP KICKS YOUR ASKBOX. HEY! LISTEN! /P MUTUAL VALENTINE TIME ART FROM ROSERRIE! MJ YOU’RE EPIC HAVE AN AWESOME DAY W YOUR PARTNER!
LUNA BELOVED!!! THIS IS SO LOVELY, I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY TOO!!!!!
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Hi! I'm a huge fan of scarecrow au (literally have read it minimum 5 times now, each part) and was wondering if you two plan on continuing it. I'm sooo curious about what bad & sapnap were talking about 😭😭
Hey!! Thank you so much for reading our silly little au, we're so glad you enjoyed it!
Short answer: yes!
Long answer: What we have left that we want to write is a short coda set five years after the end of the sequel. However, we're both working adults and are insanely busy - I think we have about... 1/3 written? Unfortunately, it is neither of our top priorities rn, though I am hoping to get back to it before Christmas.
Once the coda is done, there will most likely be no more mainline installments. We may end up writing a couple of oneshots (I have an SBI one shot floating around in my brain for scarecrow au) but that's no guarantee of anything.
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anyway you don't normally hear from me but I am trying desperately to cultivate my online experience and if I block anyone it isn't a condemnation it's just me trying to make my dash for *me*
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Two fun weekends in a row (Tekko and Otakon trip ramble blog?)
Other than random sadness thinking about niche Etrian game issues /Nintendo shooting themselves in the foot by not taking advantage of their huge games library by offering official emulation support or anything even tho it would be IMHO a huge win win where fans can play older titles and Nintendo can get money, I am quite happy rn. For the first time in my life ice finally gone to another city!! Made the physically and financially tiring decision to join two friends to go transportation to Tekkoshocon and Otakon in a row lol. Literally just. Two weekends of con madness /fever dream lol. Tekko isn't much of an issue for my bc I love in Pittsburgh and can use the bus system quite well but my friend (I will call friends C) let me and another mutual friend (I will call friends F) stay at their house overnight and also their mom drove us to and from the convention (the night thing was big for me bc I don't want to ride city busses alone at night lol). So yayyy.
Tbh I like tekko being in April better just due to the temperature / air conditioning issues that convention center had. Plus it's probably better for cosplayers so that they can wear heavier costumes and wear make up without worrying about heat stroke or runny makeup. Loved the ribbon game. While I didn't do much of it, my friend C and their siblings loved it. I got 3 ribbons overall, but it was fun seeing ppl wearing long scrolls /scarves of ribbons lol. I'll have to post a picture of my tekko badges later lol. A little sad that I accidentally missed the FFXIV meet up bc an Emet Selch cosplayer was handing out Warrior of Light ribbons. Tbh I think I. Bought an ffxiv standee from them at the flea market on Thurs??? It was weird. At least I got the verlive verlaugh and verlove ribbon lol. Plus educational Charles Dunbar panels are always a highlight that I try to go to every year. More fun academic books on shinto and Japanese culture to add to my list to read at some point in life. Yayyyyyyyy? (Some books are expensive oof but like. The carnegie library of Pittsburgh is decent and maybe I can look into getting an alumni library card from my college so I can use the EZ-borrow system that all Pittsburgh colleges are share (thinking of the time I snuck into the big Pitt and Duquesne libraries, can't remember if I successfully snuck into the CMU one :/) or Iliad program (nationwide college library loan system (yes I was a student librarian I had to do shipping and packaging for these systems)).
Then my friends F is going to school in Baltimore and living with his aunt. So we got to see Baltimore and Washington DC, which I've never done. And go on the MARC and Amtrak trains, which was fun bc I've also never done that either. Basically sure to financial issues and other things I've never been able to see other cities or go on vacations ever. Like. When I do go places, it's usually my aunt and uncle taking me and my siblings to like. Weird hillbilly county fairs ans art fairs in the back woods of Ohio, Virginia, Pennsylvania, West Virginia etc. And we went to Erie once. That's like. That's it. I've literally never seen another huge metropolitan area before in my entire life except for my home city lol. Like. My friends C and F and their families have moved countries and traveled before so going on airplanes and trains and seeing big cities is like mundane to them. I told them that I've basically never done anything or been anywhere and the most I've traveled is like. Manually walking /house back riding in skyrim /genshin impact. And they were like "Oh no you poor thing" lol.
Anyways i had a fun time at the Smithsonian Postal museum that's right next to the train station and saw the incredibly beautiful Library of Congress. I feel like I could stay there and look at stamps or the ceiling for hours. Learned about Owney the postal dog too. What a good sweet boy. Then we got to the glass vase with him inside. My friend and i were like. What. Is that the dog. Google it. Is that a replica. No. Wait. It's the dog. The beloved adorable dog in many many stamps and postcards and stuffed animals in the gift shop. It's just a taxidermy dog. We had such a good laugh it was insane and surreal to see such a display in a museum lol.
The stamp collection is so fun and interactive you can pull out glass cases from the wall. Stamps from different eras of us history and from around the world. Wow.
Otakon was Friday and Saturday. So many fun panels! So many ppl! Turns out that this year was insane due to Anime Next bring canceled so ppl had the options to get a refund or have their tickets roll into Otakon. So. Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. The wifi of the convention center both paid and free was awful with so many ppl using it and the escalators shut down at some point. Let's just say that the center's architecture had some questionable staircase choices of "how did this pass a safety inspection?" Also when not going to panels I hung out in artist alley most of Friday and then Sat I got hit with FOMO really bad in the last 20 minutes of the dealer room being open so I got a ton of merch. The funniest were the meme tip jars of artists. There was one artist that I gave like. $100 to in merch buying. I was the only one to recognize End Roll and the only one who wanted Pandora Hearts merch. Sadge kinda but also the artist seemed happy to at least see another fellow fan lol. Also. Literally the only pandora hearts merch I've ever seen so like. Yeah I snatched that up fast. Plus I got a lot of ffxiv fan merch. Happy that it's super popular and all so I could find it easily unlike my other niche interested or my friend F's niche gacha game Tokyo After school Summoner. Uggghh so much money spent. Like. $800+..... But also as a temp I keep getting stable for a few months boring office jobs. Like. Allegheny Elections division for 3 months during the primaries (sooo stressful it was call center for 3 months begging poll workers to get their shit together and actually show upto work or having g to break bad news to them that someone who wrote themselves in got like 2 votes and suddenly ppl who worked at a polling place for years lost their job bc they don't know how location elections work or they don't even work in the area or anything and then the last week I was manning the physical absentee ballot box downstairs. Ppl literally like. Yelled at me and everything I was scared tbh. Like. I'm just here to keep my job and all and like. It was physically in my face totally different and way more stressful than someone getting angry at me over the phone but with no physical way to hurt me you know. I hung up signs outside about turning in others ballots without a form filled out bc its not allowed anymore or something and ppl still played dumb or got angry and were like I wanna talk to your manager (she told them to complain to their congressman bc there's literally nothing us average govt office workers can do about it). My temp superior was like "wouldn't it be funny if I put you in the election office again in November?" (Plz no Amy my heart can't take it uuuu) at least this summer assignment is just. Mail room WIC FMNP stuff. Like. So relaxing. For 8 hours a day 5 days a week for $15. Yay for ok semi stable office jobs. I was the only person in my group of 3 with a semi "proper adult job" and saved money in my bank account and it showed in the amount of stuff I got compared to what they bought lol. But also if I get yelled at for like 3 months straight and earned money with blood sweat and tears I think I can afford to splurge a bit for like. 6 days a year for anime cons.
The most insane thing I saw was a prize figure of Joker Persona 5. I love prize figures bc every year the quality gets better and better but as prize figs and not huge scale ones they stay in an affordable range of $25-$50 rather than the big $100-$400 ones (deep sea girl miuk kill me lol). But like. The price on this prize fig was $95. Holy shit. I know that they just jacked up the price bc persona 5 is still popular and relevant. Even worse when we got back to stable wifi at friends F's aunt's house I looked up the figure and he's just. Regular prize figure price of $35-40 depending on the online store. Lmaoooo. Looking at the good smile pop up parade joker now as well bc again a nice affordable price of $35 (tbh might be $55 bc GSC uses a flat rate of $20 for shipping priority with tracking and all but it's still not too bad). I'll make a final decision later but first after work today I'll probably get an itabag so I can actually put this stuff in something to show off next year. Plus my friend C offered Anime Expo September bc its cooler and more affordable to travel and stay in a hotel in the boring month of Sept rather than the summer next year? I've never been to California (or on a plane but I guess we could take a train instead depending on prices?) so it sounds fun.
OK rambling blog/mini rant about being a temp office worker over lol. Might put pics here or on my semi-dead Instagram lol.
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sometimes i really think about how i have so many dear lovely friends that are just. crazy good visual artists. and i go a little fucking insane bc you guys can just. draw stuff. you can see it in ur head and get ur pen or ur pencil or ur digital stylus pen thing (i dont know how digital art works im sorry) and you can just. draw it. how does it feel to be a god amongst men. to be able to draw the little images you see in your head. this BAFFLES me i CANNOT draw and i specifically Cannot Draw People i am CURSED by having sooo many little pictures in my head and NO technical skill to draw them. i am in awe of visual artists every day. i envy your skills so terribly and i am so deeply impressed at the same time. my beloved artist mutuals do you ever think about the gift you possess?? do you ever look at a piece of your art and think “wow this was in my head and now its right here and not in my head any more. now other real people can look at it with their eyes.” like THINK ABOUT THAT. what i would give to be able to draw. i love you all so much. i see ur art on my dash and i am filled with awe and love and pride like that is my FRIEND. they DREW THAT. and its BEAUTIFUL. look how TALENTED they are!!!
this is incomprehensible. art is insane.
#i love u all its crazy i have so many talented friends#also to my friends and mutuals who are NOT visual artists i love you too and i also think you are so talented mwah#i also have so many talented author friends its just. different bc i CAN write and so theres not the same level of. awe and envy#anyway. if we are mutuals and you make and post fan art YES THIS IS ABOUT YOU. YES I HAVE SEEN IT YES I AM IN AWE OF IT#i dont CARE if you dont think your art is as good as other artists it is WONDERFUL and i LOVE YOU. YES. YOU. READING THIS#if you want me to tell you directly that i think your art is wonderful i WILL this is a THREAT.#be PROUD OF YOUR ART. I WOULD GIVE SO MUCH TO BE ABLE TO DRAW AND PAINT HALF AS WELL AS ANY OF YOU#im very tired and i should go to bed. but i am filled with a relentless kind of love and appreciation for my battalion of wildly talented#friends. i love you all so very much.#savcore to virtually yell compliments at your friends so you know you love and appreciate and are proud of them and their wor#*work#ok. shutting up now. mwah
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perfect now - a close reading
only pure and true love for this one. it’s soft and sweet because the one he wrote it for is and needs cheesy uncool romcom soundtrack-worthy affirmations and it’s the most wonderful thing oh my the flurries
some album booklet art for your viewing pleasure
((just a warning for below: while the lyric analysis was kept fairly neutral and close to the words and their meaning, more and more parallels did ensure me larrying out by the time the analysis kicked off so if you’re not into that, you can skip this one!))
⟼ check out @bluewinnerangel ‘s magnificent post with all the parallels to 1d/h&l bc it’s exhaustive and was a source for mine <3 thank you again for your service <3 bc this song really is a fanpiece of every song that has been important to them throughout their career so far, whether they wrote it or not, and it’s honestly kinda impressive
SUMMARY
you’re sad and i love you so much i will do anything to make that undone but while you’re sad know that i sill very much love you and you’re also strong enough to conquer all of this on your own but i’ll be by your side anyway
lyric breakdown ft. the many parallels, incl. little things, through the dark and wmyb
what this says about louis, his partner and the relationship he is in
never gonna dance again frenzy
identity
louis is a marvellous majestic sonofabitch basically <3
walls, track 10
～ little things “you still have to squeeze into your jeans, but you’re perfect to me”
You don’t feel pretty and it’s hard to miss
You don’t feel pretty and it’s hard to miss
later lyric: “like a neon sign” - i see through you trying to hide away your insecurities
I wish that you could see my point of view
As someone staring back at you
“you” is also staring at him, but perhaps is too insecure to realise how mutual the adoration is
i wish i could get you out of your own negative spiral and give you a look at yourself from my perspective
～ wmyb “everyone else in the room can see it, everyone else but you”
～ wmyb “right now i’m looking at you and i can’t believe you don’t know you’re beautiful”
～ little things “you never love yourself half as much as I love you, and you’ll never treat yourself right darling but I want you to. If I let you know, I’m here for you, maybe you’ll love yourself like I love you”
On Friday night when we’re all out
I turn to you and you’re looking down
And you don’t wanna dance
I know you love to dance
You never stop given half the chance
heavy echoes of kmm again, but the opposite: the “nightmare on the dance floor” doesn’t want to dance
when “you” is confident rlly not being subtle with who i think that is, they love to dance <-> tpwk “feeling good in my skin, i just keep on dancing”
“i know you love to dance” = i know what you love bc i love you
“given half the chance”
～ tpwk “giving/given second chances”
given a chance tattoo, making another appearance (see below for more tattoo meltdowns)
Just keep your head up, love, keep your head up
term of endearment <3
～ dlibyh
this album is full of encouragement to keep going and as much as it gives me life it ruins me
Don’t hide away, don’t ever change
“be happy, proud”
～ “just hold on”
“pick someone who’s supportive”
Keep your head up, love, keep your head up
Don’t look away, don’t look away
don’t look away from me
～ through the dark “and I can see your head is held in shame”
Cause everybody’s looking at you now, my, oh my
they have the stage to themselves / new career paths they’re doing on their own
could also mean ppl they’re going out with are looking at them, which “you” interprets as sth negative, which makes them self-conscious, while they’re actually admiring them bc they steal the scene
～ wmyb “you’re turning heads when you walk through the door”
I guess some queens don’t need a crown
And I know why
Even when your tears are falling down
Still, somehow, you’re perfect now
“you” is royalty to louis, to put it simply
they don’t need something on their head to make it known to everyone else - they’re a queen and everyone knows it
gendered: female - also used in drag contexts - the only time L has used any gendered word to identify his partner on the entire album (more on this below)
～ steal my girl "she's been my queen since we were sixteen" can't believe i forgot this one thank you @mortalenemiestolovers for reminding me!!!
～ falling
～ through the dark “you tell me that your tears are here to stay”
You never do, but if you asked me to
I’ll tell the truth lying next to you
“you” never asks for affirmations directly, but by saying shit like their pants are too tight make it clear enough to L that they do need to hear once in a while that it’s not true
Cause you’re the only one when it’s said and done
You make me feel like being someone
Good to you even at your worst
～ always you
i love you so much you are a force of life to me, and even when you hate me i want more
～ drag me down “If I didn’t have you there would be nothing left, the shell of a man who could never be his best. If I didn’t have you, I’d never see the sun. You taught me how to be someone” (sung by louis first, harry second)
～ through the dark “even if you scream and shout, it’ll come back to you and I’ll be here for you
You steal the scene and it’s unrehearsed
reference to working on a stage - their natural presence wins everyone over - that charisma is never manufactured
Don’t you wanna dance? Just a little dance
I’ll never stop given half the chance
L keeps encouraging them, will also not pass by any chance to dance with them
Every insecurity, like a neon sign, as bright as day
If you knew what you were to me
You would never try to hide away
“it’s hard to miss”
L sees through them trying to hide their insecurities, pretend to be strong
～ through the dark “but I know you were only hiding”
SYNTHESIS
Perfect Now is not a fan favorite and I am so not here for that discourse, so please do not pester me with negativity about this chocolate drop of a song.
As others have pointed out, the parallels with other songs written by Louis, Harry or for One Direction are extremely present. Especially Little Things is echoed loudly, but there’s so much more to be read, as you’ve seen. These are songs that are clearly near and dear to Louis, bc he wrote them or bc performing them was special, like with Little Things and What Makes You Beautiful. A lot of the same emotions come back in Louis’s writing, so much so that you can’t help but see the larger story behind it all. Throughout Walls you can hear him singing about not giving up and holding your head high despite hardships, and if you look back at his earlier writing, it’s always been there. Through the Dark is an early and striking example of this style of Louis song: you’re sad and i love you so much i will do anything to make that undone but while you’re sad know that i sill very much love you and you’re also strong enough to conquer all of this on your own but i’ll be by your side anyway
basically through the dark’s chorus:
Oh, I will carry you over
Fire and water for your love
And I will hold you closer
Hope your heart is strong enough
When the night is coming down on you
We will find a way
Through the dark
It is very clear that Louis is faced with a partner - I can freely say it’s Harry now right? are the antis gone by now? i think so - that struggles with his body, with his identity, with how he wants to present himself vs how opinions on that might push him down and dampen his spirit. Louis, always the supportive boyfriend, then tries his best to make him see the light, while keeping that space for his sadness, his struggles, or their joint struggles. Accept the sadness but don’t lose your heart to it.
I’ve linked @bluewinnerangel ‘s post at the start of this post, but I need to stress how good it is once more as I also shamelessly insert a screenshot from it here bc it makes me feel a lot and summarizes perfectly just how deeply Perfect Now is woven into the history of their lives, relationship and especially “you”s/Harry’s personal struggle with their identity/body/confidence...
Because yes, i absolutely think these tattoos are being echoed in the song. “Never gonna dance again” as a lyric and then as a tattoo on Harry’s legs like shackles around his ankles represents the sensation of shame, of being stuck, bc of your desires, bc of your sexuality. Obviously we can never know why Harry got the tattoo, as in what experience pushed him to choose those lyrics or what exactly he recognizes in himself, but it’s safe to say it’s about the struggles of being queer and navigating relationships with that identity and with others.
Most importantly, the sense of shamelessly dancing, dancing like no one’s watching, dancing together with your lover, as a celebration of self, life, love, is the key here. Harry got that tattoo ages ago, at a time when he undoubtedly felt way more stuck. When he couldn’t dance freely the way he wanted to and with whom he wanted to. Perfect Now is a reminder to him, an encouragement to still dance if he wants to, no matter what people say or think. Significantly, then, Harry’s own Treat People With Kindness heavily features that same sentiment, but in an extremely positive light: i have found a place (in life and in myself) where i feel like i have given and was given second chances and now i dance bc i finally feel good in my skin.
Louis has obviously been there from the start, or at least from when or before Harry properly started experimenting with/questioning how he likes to present and how he identifies as. Before he ever dared to consider pulling on a pair of women’s skinny jeans, never mind a ball gown. Louis has seen him limit himself as well as being limited by others ofc and has always seemed to have been there, with a secure hand on Harry’s back, to encourage him. Even at a time when boys wearing nail polish or skirts was unthinkable. Just remember how much encouragement Harry needed when growing out his hair; Louis literally joined him. yes this might make me cry okay i need to stop bc i’m going off track and this is just becoming a larry breakdown while i was trying to hype up this beautiful song.
What I’m trying to say is: Louis has always seen all of Harry. He’s always had his back, no matter what. He’s loved every part of him. And now, on a completely gender neutral album, in the sweetest, softest song off of the entire thing, Louis puts in the word “queen”, and that is so very deliberate it makes me want to scream. It’s Louis confirming his love again and again while affirming the multitudes contained by Harry, including everything involving his gender journey. brb crying
It’s a raw Louis, an honest, sweet, kind, loving partner, and both of them are fucking lucky to have each other, and I also wish that all of us end up in a caring and wholesome relationship like that. I truly do.
#wow i thought this one was gonna be easier#i always do why do i think that???#every time i look closer into l's lyrics i see more depth#this is all just a perfect mushy mess so it's on brand for me#perfect now analysis#lyric analysis#my posts#parallels
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Clones shipping thing ? Dude I had that same problem at the beginning of the month
Someone commented on one of my post on Twitter about how they wanted to dm me something urgent and it’s the “did you know so-so is a clone shipper ?” I said yes (I only followed their main page, not their nsfw, I’m not a fan of clone shipping but I can still enjoy the art style) and they asked me to unfollow, under the pressure I said I’d do it… but mutuals reassured me that I could follow who I wanted soo… I followed the artist back again
“I think Twitter glitched because it shows that you’re still following them”
That is hella scary, and I didn’t know what do do except block them (advise by mutuals) and now guess who got a call out post 😅
On thé opposite side of the spectrum, I had a pro shipper being pissed at me because I wasn’t okay with letting them ship 2 of my clone ocs even when there’s a specific reason in the caption
Uggh, those people need better hobbies than bullying real life people over fictional ships that don't harm anyone and that they can simply just ignore. It's especially irritating when they go after people like yourself, who don't even create/share material from certain ships, but don't condemn the Evil And Morally Bankrupt Sinners™
Sorry you have to deal with that. But yeah, the best thing to do, as usual, is not to feed the trolls and just block them. Because even if they decide you're okay right now, the second you step out of their specific and narrow zone of purity, they'll turn on you again.
It's important to periodically take out the trash. :)
Same goes for anyone, including the shipper you mentioned, who tries to make your online experience anything other than what you want it to be. I mean, in fandom, we've always done what we want with canon characters, but when you have the creator of an OC right here in the fandom with you, it seems like common decency to check in with them about using their characters, and then abide by their wishes. If they don't like it, they can go make their own characters. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Anyway, I hope the pep talk helped in some small way, haha. The world is full of assholes, but if you pick and choose who you want to associate with online, it can be a really fun, positive experience. :) <3
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I don't mean to discourse in your inbox, but I'm not as well versed in Kataang fandom as you and others are. I only ship fanon queer couples. I was wondering if you or maybe one of your followers could let me know the idea behind Kataang fandom being disingenous.
I have a close mutual who ships Zutara. I find that ship weird but w/e. We agree to disagree. Today though they told me some things that gave me pause and it's not the usual anti Aang arguments I've heard.
The main thing they said is that Kataang fandom does not engage with the "unsavory" parts of their canon and that it's an annoyance. I asked for clarification and they mentioned that in The Southern Raiders Aang when tells Katara she has to forgive her mother's murderer, Kataang fans don't understand how unfeeling he was being. I'm assuming my friend used this example because I lost my dad to gun violence because she asked me how I'd feel if I was told that I needed to forgive the person who shot my father. I just said that Katara pushed back on Aang when he said that just as I would if anyone said that to me, and that Aang and Katara have different viewpoints on that but it doesn't mean Aang was unfeeling. My grandmom forgave the guy who shot her son. She knows I never will, and she's never pressed me on it just like Aang didn't press Katara on it.
My friend kinda backed off on that but said that Kataangers don't acknowledge was Aang said was not okay, even though Katara did push back. But he's 12? And has a different mindset?
I'm sorry, I'm losing the plot. I guess the tl;dr is that my Zutara friend claims that most people push back on Kataang because Kataang fans don't engage in good faith about mistakes Aang made with Katara, and I guess I wondered your feelings about that.
hi anon! for one, im deeply sorry you lost your father, and - though this may be just me - im sorry your friend felt it was appropriate to try to compare fictional circumstance to the very real tragedy that befell you and your family. i don’t know how long ago the instance you describe was, but i send healing and good things your way 💛
(also, a reminder for everyone: there is no pressure to ever share personal/life details in my inbox. for one, your life is your life and there’s no reason you should ever feel like you have to put personal information out onto the internet! and two, of course, im just a teenager behind a screen lol.)
moving onto the atla-related aspects of your ask. i mean,, my gut instinct is honestly to just shake my head in amusement, because the fact of the matter is that yeah, i know why someone who primarily (or perhaps only) ships zk might believe this:
they don’t interact with kataang content.
it’s incredibly easy for someone to label the kataang fandom as being “disingenuous” if that person isn’t regularly engaging with kataang content 😂 so that’s my natural conclusion! no, the kataang fandom isn’t disingenuous, your friend who ships zk simply isn’t an active part of the kataang fandom and thus they aren’t going to see kataang fics/metas/arts/etc. related to tsr.
and in that same vein, i wouldn’t be surprised if there are kataang shippers out there who would call the zk fandom disingenuous for similar reasons, i.e. that they don’t feel zkers engage with the “unsavory” aspects of zuko and katara’s relationship (when zuko and katara were still enemies). i guess some specific examples would be him tying her to the tree and manipulating her with her mother’s necklace, as well as his betrayal at ba sing se? like, i can say with total honesty that i haven’t seen any zk works grappling with the severity of those events - particularly the latter - but i can also say that i don’t go out seeking to interact with zk content! just bc i haven’t seen that zk content doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist! just bc your friend hasn’t seen that kataang content doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist, either! you see where im going with this?
and i’ll also admit that i of course disagree with your friend about aang being “unfeeling,” lol. i discuss in this post aang’s comments to katara in tsr, specifically how aang - as the sole survivor of genocide - is essentially the only person who can fully understand katara’s grief. i also touch upon the parallels between gyatso’s and kya’s deaths and the respective discoveries of their bodies, which further reinforces just how much aang does understand katara’s circumstances and was thus not being “unfeeling” with his comments to her. honestly, i still think zuko was such an ass in tsr 😂 but to each their own interpretation! your friend can think whatever they want, no skin off my back
anyways, as i’ve started to do when i get tsr-related asks, time for some self promo: everybody should go read broken pieces still belong, my 20k katara-centric fic exploring her emotional journey from the events of “The Western Air Temple” through those of “The Southern Raiders” 😎✌
i hope this answered your question, anon!! ultimately, i really do think it’s a case of yeah, obviously a zker might feel that way, because they aren’t actively seeking out any kataang content 😂 it’s scarily easy for people to slap labels onto entire fandoms, yk? which is why i always try to emphasize that yes, i’ve had negative experiences with both zk and kataang shippers. i’ve seen content from both sides that i don’t and will never like. but i know that my experiences are not universal, and i know that this negativity does not make up the vast majority of either fandom. pretty straightforward, am i right?
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I agree that larries are more so lharries. I was lurking around HLD today and engagement on a Louis post is more often significantly higher than a Harry post. Why do you think that is? ////
I really want to answer this as a recovering larrie (yeah i know). Their relationship was perfect for me because H had the materialistic success and L had the moral success. H was successfull and super rich with gucci and popular and L was authentic, dealing with contracts and abuse but never giving up on doing his art, real friends and real lyrics. More i talked to other larries more i realized people use them together to create a perfect formula in their heads. Louis' photos have more likes and people always talk about L personally although he barely moves because he has a pretty uniqe aura and is a comfort person for them. When they talk about careers and music they always talk about H because he has a massive success story. When they stream or do projects "1 for L and 9 for H" because L doesn't need a grammy anyways, his husband shares his awards with him.
Larries' behaviour hurt L more than all harries could ever do. I never understood why larries hate solo louies with passion but are mutuals with harries. I get it now, they act like they love louie because when there's no larrie Louis has 0 grammies and Harry is a plastic doll. I'm sure there are people who equally support both guys but they must be very few.
If I may extend your story a bit more.
Without Harry, Louis is essentially the same person that he has been from the beginning. He loves, he makes mistakes, he learns about music in a holistic way— from the granular points of songwriting to a bigger picture of business and industry connections. Louis’ view of himself hasn’t become grandiose or based in fantasy. Despite the incredible and sometimes scary, invasive hype, Louis stays grounded; he knows who he is. He sees 1D for the phenomenon it was and he can let it go. Louis is fallible, but he’s real. The more we see him, the more we know him.
Without Louis, Harry is a money machine, a business creation. His real personality (yes, Harry Styles has one) is subsumed under layers of PR and manipulation. His utterances are all soundbites, crowd-sourced to gain the maximal attention and to please his audience. He is most “eloquent” in written interviews… with friendly journalists. His goal for the last five years has been to be the market leader of 1D and the pop music industry, to be maximally invested for accolades and personal wealth. The more we see Harry, the less reliable our view of him becomes, because “Harry Styles” is constantly changing according to audience expectations. Therefore it is very easy for his fans to make up whatever fantasies they want about Harry, because all realities are possible when the idol is essentially a hologram, a consumable product. Like all narcissists, when the truth veers too close, Harry’s tendency is to deflect or to attack. We’ve seen this repeatedly throughout Fine Line era.
I’m really glad you described the toxic dynamic fostered by Larries, as well as the real harm Larries have done to Louis in the last five years.
It’s tragic that this harm has long-lasting consequences and, in a way, can never be undone. HSHQ has realized this dynamic works wonderfully to Harry’s benefit. And yes, this is indeed why Larries hate solo Louies and are friends with Harries.
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Weird week behind me weird week ahead of me but I’ve done a lot of self reflection and came to the weirdest epiphany. The older I get the more I realize all my ‘problems’ with VivziePop - her thoughts on criticism; the choices she makes in story telling; some of the people she’s worked with (not that any of that’s my business; I’m not her mom) really aren’t about Viv, but more about her fandom.
I’m speaking of the preHazbin era Viv here and as someone who’s only watch horny fish jump at the surface rather than jump straight into the Hazbin-fandom, but given my ‘noncritical’ fellow fans have told me that the Vivziefandom now is also terrible - I guess I’ll go over my experience and make the most out of what I do know.
I followed Viv in 2009 and fell off in 2013 cause I kinda just lost interest and found myself wrapped up in other fandoms. I’ve always felt amicable about her content; I could give or take designs or the way in which she wrote characters -- ((Zech represent!!!)) but it’s honestly surreal and really fun seeing this person I recognize make it big and improve so much. Like I’ve said before I am very happy and very impressed with Viv doing all she’s done in the span of TWO YEARS. wow gurl.
Trouble is, there was the particular breed of fan who really made me...uncomfortable. They felt almost possessive of Viv’s attention. They sang praises about her work in a way that just made me want nothing to do with it because I was worried if I drew those characters these people would be like ‘hey, I’M Viv’s fav artist, not you!”. They would unironically write Viv messages like:
“you are a GOD” -- “I’m so not worthy compared to you” --“I wish I was as talented as you” -- “YOU ARE EVERYTHING AND CAN’T DO WRONG VIV”.
The kind of messages which were meant to sound flattering but, intentional or not, came off as gaslighting, like they were guilt tripping Viv about being better than them. This behavior, treating your favorite artist/internet personality like your superior and groveling like Starscream, it strikes a nerve with me; partly because I was this way with my favorite artists and influences back in the day, but also because once I got a taste of that treatment myself I realized just how bad it could be:
There was once a girl on dA who was jealous of me because of the attention I got on my art instead of her. I told her that I wasn’t gonna stop drawing but also that there was nothing wrong with her art and she’d find her place. It was weird being put in that position where someone is very clearly upset at you but also looking for your approval.
The second was some scumball who I blocked in 2016. He wouldn’t speak to me, only write condescending, backhanded comments on my art; check on my profile daily; call me a bootlicker (cuz I took commissions) behind my back; redrew my art and would talk about me in his personal artist notes about how I ‘probably wouldn’t see this’ - oh yeah all the while he did fan art of my characters but again never spoke to me when I replied. When I finally messaged him about his behavior he said he thought I was “really overrated” and “bad for the fandom” cuz I took money and kept him from getting the love he deserved. It took messaging another person within our fandom, one I had been in spats with online before, to finally realize I shouldn't put up with that bs....
That guy who was stalking me btw did so while I was well under 1.K watchers and am still pretty obscure. Anyway, I had one guy unhealthily watching me for the wrong reasons. Just one. This is why when Viv says she “hates creeps” I 150% believe this woman and am not about to call her a liar who just can’t take criticism. Like, if you really think that, I’m sorry but you don’t know what Viv’s gone through from both her critics AND fans.
Of course, a lot of people will be like “I bet you’re just jealous and really just want that kind of attention yourself so you’re preaching to the choir”, but like...no. I am envious of just about any creator who’s the social butterfly I’m not, but, like, if I'm jealous of an artist none of that is that artists’ fault. Ever. It’s my own issues with being comfortable with myself are at stake. If I criticize Viv’s work it’s not because I see her as competition or my Squilliam Fancyson; it’s because I’m a critical fan of animation and cartoons and have my own thoughts to share on the cartoons of an artist I’m familiar with. Jealousy/envy/mixed-admiration/godIwishthatwereme.jpeg feels are totally natural and valid emotions when you’re a creator. Envy becomes a problem when you internalize, weaponize, and scrutinize people on the basis of them being what you aren’t which -yes - some people do in the name of criticism. ((Although, I would hardly say some of the nastiest AntiViv folk are jealous as much as they are angry that this project they think is harmful is getting attention and using that as justification for some really shitty behavior of their own, which no, this post is not a part of by virtue of coming from a critical fan.))
Critique can come from either a good place or bad place; good critique can be used to bad ends and bad critique can come from a well-meaning place, and vice versa. It’s the difference between many a criticalfan having a sour taste in their mouth regarding the Viv’s base but persisting in a critique+admiration separate of that, and this asswipemonster trying to weasel his way into Spindlehorse while also bashing Viv on a public forum for clearly vitriolic reasons. He was a creep.
So yeah um please stop insisting that every Hazbin critic is just jealous’ because a) there are people who have a past with Viv’s base and that clouds their judgement, but in a lot of cases that doesn’t invalidate their feelings or thoughts on her work separate from that, and b) I’ve seen what clingy gaslighting jealous fans are. Spoiler: they’re not so much Annie Wilkes as much as they are Tommy Wiseaus. You don’t want Tommy Wiseau following you.
Another bad vibe I really picked up on that I can kinda confirm is still probably the case now: people think that they know Viv and the Spindlehorse crew and have the right to send them shit they don’t need or WANT to be seeing.
Like, I talked with Viv once ages ago. I don’t remember what I said other than we were talking about Frankenweenie, I think. She was nice. Outside of that she said “thank you” to my comments on her deviations but that’s it. I DO NOT KNOW THIS WOMAN AND unless you’ve worked with or are a legit friend/mutual of hers, NEITHER DO YOU. But I don’t think every Vivzie stan/critic knows this. Whether it be people assuming she MUST think they’re headcanon is now canon-canon cuz she liked a comment they made; or some critic thinking they must have seriously hurt her pride because they’ve been blocked by her on twitter (or you know, maybe she and the rest of Spindlehorse is tired of getting @s and don’t have to time to read through your analysis so they’re gonna just block and move on cuz they’re busy).
Just because the creators talk with fans doesn’t mean fans are literally their best friends and have a part in the show’s direction. And yes, critics and reviewers fit that bill as well. Know your damn boundaries people.
If you find/make some kind of contribution as a viewer that’s awesome but you should never expect nor DEMAND the creator see it. The most obvious horror stories involving this and Helluva/Hazbin have been the Instagrams made by the crew being harassed by incestpedo enthusiasts, but it applies even to just @ing creators as well.
I’ve seriously had someone tell me to just take my criticisms directly to Viv and like...no. Why would I do that?
I respect Viv and the artists working with her enough to know that they’re working their asses off on an animated series and should not be bothered. I don’t want them to stop all they’re doing and reply to me. I want them to keep working. Also, that kind of logic makes me wonder how many critics Viv’s found because she found it on her own or if some obsessed fan told her about it - which is really messed up cuz if it IS just good critique you’re, again, just pestering her, and if it wasn’t critique but full on harassment WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU MESSAGE HER ABOUT THAT ANYWAY? I’m sure she doesn’t need to be reminded that people drew and said really awful shit about her on Tapatalk. My point being I’m sure what people think they’re doing is
“OOOoh Viv lookitwut this person is doing in our fandom we need to ban together against this toxic behavior”
but what they’re actually doing, and sounding like, is -
“Hey Viv I know you are working so hard on the show and you’re trying to figure out where to go from here but LOOKITWHUTTHISHATERSAID. LOOKATIT! VALIDATE ME VIV AND PUT’EM IN THEIR PLAAAAAACE!”
TL;DR Viv’s fanbase back in the day consisted of everyman artists and interests but there was this one breed of fan -who I hope was just a vocal minority- that ruined it for everything else.
Call it stanning or ‘simping’ or as it’s classically known, ‘white knighting’, whatever it was it really soured a lot of people on her because of those fans.
That’s why the DollCreep drama got so bad from what I can tell. Doll and Viv had a falling out and then called out eachother online where people who took it upon themselves to speak for them starting throwing mud.
Back in the day I remember Viv used to get mad at artists for ‘stealing’ her style. I think this attitude from Viv directly has vanished but I remember it happening because one of the people she thought was stealing her style did art for me at some point and they were basically shamed/chased off deviantART by a gaggle of these really nasty Vivfans.
inb4> “VIV WAS AWARE AND STILL WEAPONIZES HER FANS THO”
I don’t know that. And honestly, where I’m inclined to believe she’d do something like that then I think Viv is really different and has improved her business and public image from her college days. I’d be very disappointed in her if she was pulling a Butch Hartman or Derek Savage, but I just don’t think she is one, k?
Viv is more self critical and aware than any of these uber protective-gatekeeping fans give her credit for. She said on the Pizzapartypodcast that she knows the Hazbin pilot wasn’t perfect; she’s been able to identify the problems with old Zoophobia; this woman knows that criticism of all kinds need to exist and from what I see she sounds like she’s trying to get used to that. It’s just, you know, when you have nasty antis badgering you, stalkers, obsessive yes-mam’ fans, opinionated shit posters, r34 artists, entitled shippers and the NDAs of a company alongside your own branded image - all that negativity, even the constructive bits, tend to clump together and you just want to scream at it so you can finish the damn cartoon already!!!!
TL;DR: PART TWO
VivziePop/mind is basically indie Tim Burton. Her work is fun, shallow and made with love but is marketed as being for everyone when it’s really not. Parts of it I love to watch; parts of it drives me crazy cuz of reasonswhatev this isn’t a review.
BUT any fanbase where people tell me I should just “expect what’s coming to me” when I’m trying to argue against dragging creators into fandrama is troubling. People have a parasocial bond with fandoms and their creators and they need to learn when to back off.
#vivziepop critical#hazbin hotel critical#helluva boss critical#critical fandom#I'm sorry to all the people I messaged n bothered over the past year bout my stupid thoughts#tw: stalker
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