Please for the love of god normalize attraction to fat people I can't take this anymore.

tw: vent, antiblackness, assault mention aka coughed and sneezed on, I hate everything:

As a black person living in the south, when I was a child going to this one racist elementary school… I got coughed and sneezed on…. SO casually. Like oh let me just sneeze right in your fucking face. Space where? I don’t know her? Cough and sneeze elsewhere? What is that?

Even back then before the pandemic, people just casually viewed black people as trash cans to dump their slimy little germs on AND YES I FUCKING GOT SICK EVERY FUCKING TIME, I GOT SICK SO FUCKING MUCH.

I pretend this school doesn’t exist. Teachers with bad attitudes, children telling me I don’t shower, mfs sneezing and coughing on me. Oh yeah fuck that school and fuck everyone in it and also fuck antiblackness.

And the worst part was being autistic and having no idea what was going on, and just being flabbergasted every time.

So that one time I was coughed on by a white person in Oregon this year…. Fuck oregon. When I make an outfit, I will make sure to sew “Fuck Oregon” onto it because fuck Oregon and everyone in it. That state is a fucking fever dream isttg.

acknowledging my symptoms are a product of my disabilities is not me fucking pathologizing myself. mental illnesses have symptoms. they are not a choice. trying to subtract my disability from my behavior not humanizing somehow, and y’all only think it is because you do not view disabled people as human. fuck you.

“you should forgive them” girl stfu

It makes me go nuts when ppl go: ,,so someone did something horrible to you? Don't worry, you'll find someone better"

Like wdym by "someone better"?

Why the fuck would you go through the long process over again with someone else just cuz the old person decided to be a piece of shit?

Why the fuck do you assume everyone's so social, likeable and stable that they'll be willing to go through people like a maniac just to replace someone they were w for a long time?

How can you think that everyone wants to go through people or just they CAN go through people so easily and just change the person you were w?

And it doesn't matter if it's in platonic or romantic relationships. It's horrible to tell it to ANYONE, no matter the situation.

Some people are just irreplaceable so stop acting like they fucking aren't.

Thinking about how different my life would have been if I had been treated for my adhd at any point and that I might have had graduated with my masters degree and practicing as a licensed psychologist, have a stable social life and a routine keeping my body cleaned, fed and healthy and my home tidy and clean

I will forever mourn the youth I could have had. The life I might never have. I am trying to stay alive and fight to get help, but my body is tired of treading water and the black bottom of the sea is feeling more and more like peace

How could you ever understand the anger I feel? My anger makes me crave blood and pain. I want to tear open my body and consume the blood pouring out. I need to feel something. Anything but anger. I've been angry for too fucking long. I'm going fucking insane.

GIRL i want to talk to someone about Bob's Burgers SO BAD. It's like I'm about to puke but I can't find a TOILET to puke in.🙂 gross analogy, I'm so sorry😕 But I'm so like. Um. Shy, so I never get too. UGH🤬

The fact that everyone gets so uptight about a headcanon or some shit about a fictional serial killer is so wild to me like who gives a shit he isn’t even real

TikTok when they realize that intrusive thoughts are actually intrusive and not some quirky little trait

seriously, this is so fucking annoying as someone who has intrusive thoughts

I can't seem to understand how so many people want to be loved by someone with no malicious intentions and no hidden agenda. So many people want someone that's patient, understanding, thoughtful, and someone that values them, respects them, listens to them, and truly honors the human being that they are - flaws and all.

But it seems like each time I give that to someone (platonically or romantically): they either take advantage of me or feel very comfortable disrespecting me. It hurts me to have to block people out of my life because they treated me badly when I did nothing to earn this treatment.

Don't be my friend because you want to sleep with me. Don't be my friend because you want to be in a relationship with me. Don't be my friend with alternative motives of your own. Don't be my friend to use me to fill a void within yourself that is your responsibility to fill. Don't be my friend if you are going to hold a one-sided friendship that only works in your time frame. Don't be my friend if you can't prioritize me in your life in one way or another. Don't be my friend if I'm disposable to you. Don't be my friend for any selfish reason - be my friend because you want me to be a part of your life.

Be my friend because you enjoy my conversation. Be my friend because you enjoy my energy. Be my friend because we make each other happy. Be my friend because we hold space for each other and have fun together. Be my friend for all the simple reasons that children are friends - We can share clothes, and secrets and smoke all night while watching stupid movies. Genuinely, innocently and honestly be my friend, or leave me the fuck alone.

ISTFG IF ONE MORE SELF ABSORBED DICKHEAD ASKS ME MOCKINGLY IF I EAT THEIR FUCKING CATS OR DOGS IM GONNA FUCKING FIGHT THEM

THEY CAN SUCK THEIR DICKS FOR ALL I CARE

Vent post (PT RELATED)

I feel really left out in the pizza tower fandom. People only like my artworks and posts if there's plushies or i drew something related to a popular ship like cheesecake (i don't even like that ship anymore, in my opinion it doesn't make sense!). Plus, there's barely any lesbians in this fandom. Most of it is just girls Simping for unconventional looking food men. I also have social anxiety and I barely interact with anyone not unless I'm already friends with them. Seeing other people share art of each other's characters and talking about their lore and having mountains upon mountains of fanart fills me with jealousy. This fandom has normalized being attracted to guys yet has a "ew you're simp" attitude when it comes to Simping for girls. Like shut the fuck up, let me simp for girls. I can't feel the same way when some female PT fans simp for guy characters cuz I feel devoid of interests of those characters because of my sexuality.

I've been ignored for long enough no matter how many attempts I make to be notice. I'm overshadowed by artists with skills I could never reach. This is draining my mental health and I can't take it anymore.

You are not an accommodating university when all your online courses are fast-paced

You are not an accommodating university when you barely give accommodations for those online courses, and when you do it's accommodations that will never matter to the online courses

You are not an accommodating university when the website used to make meetings with Disability Services and Student Affairs and very important offices is completely inaccessible and extremely hard to navigate

You are not an accommodating university when your head of Disability Services believes and will tell students with conditions that flare to, "know and plan around the flare and manage your time (to complete work)"

Don't say that you're an accommodating university when it's extremely clear you're not.