#and there's this prof who thinks im deliberately downplaying my skills
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#definitely not feeling my best lately#the end of the semester is always hard#bc understandably im tired#but have to study more than during the semester for the upcoming finals#but really it's more than that#ive been trying to make peace with who i am academically but it seems impossible#i can't fit in anywhere#not with the ~great~ students bc im not good enough#not with the indifferent students bc i study all the time#and there's this prof who thinks im deliberately downplaying my skills#which is both frustrating and painful bc im literally giving it my best already#im just not that smart!!#you know i was positively excellent back in school#and now im average#not bc im not trying#im doing my absolute best!#what else am i supposed to do?#so now it feels like befriending my lab partner was a mistake#i adore her but she's so brilliant and i feel like im dragging her down with me#it also feels like asking my favorite professor to be my thesis supervisor was a mistake too#bc i adore him as well and he thinks way too highly of me#and i am so going to let him down#oof#txt
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