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p4nishers · 1 year
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remember obi wan kenobi?? man was he gay
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hatchetno1 · 2 months
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sage forest mental institution.
chapter 4. in which you dissociate the day away. word count: 3.5k note: im not gonna lie at this point this fic is so bad i'm gonna label it crack so at least it seems like it's bad on purpose /hj cw: dissociation. descriptions of domestic abuse. READ NO FURTHER IF YOU CAN'T it's the paragraph literally under here.
Dissociation. It’s a pretty foreign feeling to you, and yet it’s so familiar. You can’t place where you felt this before, almost like deja vu, but with an aftertaste of impending doom. It was a topic you’d researched extensively back in your old home—no, house. Scouring the breadths and depths of the Internet was your entire coping mechanism back in the day and your occasional background music would be the smashing of glass, your mother crying and your father’s yelling reverberating across the walls. You liked to call it something of a live, interactive band, because sometimes if you were lucky your father would come barging into your room in his drunken anger, grab you by the hair and throw you against the bed, or the wall if you were particularly unlucky.
Sometimes you wished you’d be able to cut your hair short. But your mother would threaten you with a kitchen knife, crying and screaming that she only had one daughter and she would not have a son. Your poor (?) mother had an innate fear of men, so you’d understand where she was coming from, but you hated her nonetheless, and that hatred still resides in your heart.
“…not enough, you can ask for more. We should be able to lend you some of ours.”
You blink and jerk back to life.
“Are you okay.” It’s more of a perfunctory sentence than a genuine question. Hoodie gazes almost blankly at you.
“Um. Yeah. Sorry.” You try to keep your answer as short as possible. When faced with law enforcement officers, it is advised to keep your answers as short as possible and not to give away any information that’s not required of you, is what you always read on Reddit under r/getoutoftrouble or whatever it was named. The “sorry” at the end is just insurance for your life.
Masky gives you a look, then returns to droning on about household rules. Stay out of others’ ways, don’t play with Ben unless you’re looking for nightmare fuel, stay especially away from Jeff, don’t eat anything in the freezer that’s labelled because those are human organs for EJ’s consumption, don’t talk to EJ about his diet (which you already did and are now concerned for your life), and don’t go looking for The Operator, or as the proxies are to address him, their master.
Sometime halfway through showing you around the mansion, each proxy would disappear one at a time, leaving the other two still in their ridiculous hospital getups to continue bringing you around. The first to go was Hoodie, who came back in, like his namesake, a yellow hoodie. The second was Masky, who came back in a tan jacket. Just as you thought they’d both just let Toby walk around in his hospital gown, he left, and came back in a brown-and-blue hoodie and orange goggles sitting atop his head, his cheek bandage nowhere to be seen. It was only then that you saw his cheek wound.
You still stare at it now and then, the wound going all the way through to expose his teeth, leaving you wondering just what the hell this boy has been, going so far as to bite his cheek so often that there’s now nothing left to bite.
Besides those few moments, the house tour, which is actually not as fun as it sounds because you are at the mercy of these people, is a blur. The only thing comforting you is the fact that you got your own room, which leads you to believe that they’ll keep you alive, at least for a while.
“Lock your door just in case, so Jeff and EJ can’t come in. Though the Operator is powerful and could easily guard you himself, he’s never explicitly stated that you will be protected from harm. He only needs you alive,” explains Masky. You appreciate that they’re looking out for you, though it’s not straight-up protection. Still, it’s a luxury; they could just leave you to fend for yourself.
“We’ll be keeping spare keys to your room. Don’t try anything. I’ll break both your legs, reset them, then break them again,” reiterates Masky. But honestly, you’re far past trying anything. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Well, the last part probably isn’t true, but it’s either you maintain your status or gain something. Either way, your life can’t get worse…unless they torture you, or you start hoping for some unrealistic shit like being able to escape for freedom. That, you could lose. Hope is a precious thing, and you’d rather not conjure it out of nowhere just to lose it. You’re given food, shelter and clothing. You can’t get greedy.
You next find yourself in The Operator’s office. Again, you have no idea what to expect; this whole day has been an absolute mindfuck. But this office isn’t anything fancy, nor is it bare-bones. It’s just…a desk, a chair, and…nothing else. You either can’t process what’s going on in your state of dissociation, or you’re not meant to perceive what it is. Indeed, The Operator is powerful, and can alter your perception of things.
You aren’t given a seat to sit in.
Leave us, he commands his three proxies, and they retreat. You wonder if they’re willingly working for him.
The Operator’s hands are large, fingers bony and fingernails extending into claws. They’re placed on the table, fingers interlinked with each other. You’re reminded of a Disney villain or something equally cheesy, but you remember that if he has telepathic powers then he can probably read your mind or something, and your life is in his hands, so you immediately cut off that train of thought.
You, begins the voice in your head, are to keep my proxies from insanity. If they fall to it… He leans forward. Static begins to fill your mind, and you feel your own sanity slipping from your grasp. You see red. You lose control of your body.
Just as quickly as it appeared, it disappears. You’re on the floor.
It would be in your best interests to keep their insanity at bay. You are hereby allowed to administer whatever form of treatment you believe to be most effective. However, he pauses here, I see through my proxies’ eyes and ears. I will know whether you try to defy me. That is all.
Before you even manage to say “huh” in a really, really dumb voice, a door appears in front of you, identical to the one that leads to the office. Just as you wonder how the fuck he made a door appear, you realize that you’re outside his office, and you feel the presence of the three men behind you. You have no time to think about whether or not he was being literal. If he wasn’t, that was a really shitty riddle.
Slowly, you stand up, carefully brushing any dust off your uniform before realizing the interior of the mansion is surprisingly clean and you’re just obnoxiously brushing nothing off you. Saving yourself from second-hand embarrassment from your own actions, you cut that train of thought off in favor of wondering how much information has been imparted to his proxies. And anyway, what the fuck is this Operator guy on? You want to believe that he actually gave a shit about these three, but don’t want to jump to conclusions. Given the authority to administer whatever treatment you want, you’ll be able to extract information out of them.
As you wonder what kind of treatment The Operator meant for you to administer, you flick through multiple options in your mind. Talking to them, saving them from insanity…
Therapy?
No fucking way, some faceless fuck brought you all the way here to give his three little servants therapy.
At this thought, you howl with unrestrained laughter. Laughter containing your amusement at the situation, containing your despair at this situation, your confusion, your anger, everything. You just wanted a goddamn normal life. Now you have to give therapy? Damn, you really just found something floating in thin air for you to lose. Your prospects of having a normal life.
God damn, you really are God’s strongest soldier.
God favors me, God favors me, God favors me, you try to convince yourself.
“Ahem.”
Oh fuck, you forgot that there are three whole ass men behind you.
“Oh. Uh, yeah. Ahaha.” You highly doubt that you’ve said anything intelligent today, so you try to convince yourself that it’s okay and it’s valid and whatnot. Oh yeah, so very valid. But aside from that, you have no idea how to break it to these three that you’ve been brought here alive just so you can give them therapy. Knowing most people’s reactions to therapy in your area, namely “Therapy is for pussies and the crazy,” you wonder how horribly this can go, so you briefly consider not telling them anything and just hitting them up all like, “Hey, any pressing issues that are stressing you out right now? We can talk about your feelings.”
One thing at a time, you remind yourself, before asking, “Any spare rooms around here?”
For better or worse, they show no signs of judging. Toby’s shoulders jerk every so often, fidgeting with his hands and peeling skin off his dry lips, but aside from that, he doesn’t seem to be judging you either.
“Yes,” replies Hoodie. “Come.” As he nods at his companions, signaling something that leads them to leave you both, you hope this spare room isn’t right next to The Operator’s office.
Thankfully, it isn’t. It is, however, run-down.
Hoodie flicks the light switch on, and it’s…an interrogation room? White walls, greenish-blue tiled floors, a mirror behind the table, a rickety old chair and what seems to be handles on the table for handcuffs to slip through. Upon noticing your visible confusion, he speaks. “This room is the only spare we have at the moment. We don’t really use it anymore. Nowadays we take them straight to the dungeons.” You have no idea how to respond.
“Okay.” Is what you settle for. You want to bang your head on the metal interrogation table. “Is there, like, a store room or something? For furniture and decorations and whatnot…” Nice save.
The man before you pauses. “No.” Then he adds, “Write down what you need. We’ll get it for you.” You briefly wonder how they’re going to procure what you need, but then decide that you probably don’t want to know.
After Hoodie leaves, telling you he’ll get you a pen and paper, you sit down on the old chair and make yourself comfortable after making sure it won’t break beneath your weight. For the first time today, you’re left alone and able to think about all that has transpired today.
“So I tried to work my job.”
Uh-huh, replies your second inner monologue, like an angel and a devil, except both are now equally confused.
“My coworker tells me I don’t have to do shit and then skips off.”
That’s right.
“Then I see a patient and try to carry out my job.”
Yep.
“It was probably not a patient. Wait, it probably was. Wait, what the fuck am I gonna do? I just let my responsibilities escape.”
You’re a victim of kidnapping and technically off the grid. Society and rules don’t apply here.
“Right. Anyways, he tries to kill me.”
Yes.
“Then this dude named Masky saves my ass. And then him and the not-patient threaten me and manage to free their friend, then I shove them all back into the cell because I’m so fucking smart.”
Yeah.
“Then I come across a nice guy. He’s not a nice guy, he’s a cannibal. He saves me from not-patient, then tries to eat me. Then a floating Link cosplayer pops up, and I have no idea where he is now, and tells all of us that I’m supposed to be alive. Then they pop me into a truck and drive off, and I have no idea where I am right now, or what time it even is.”
Correct, check, all accounted for. Except you don’t know what time it is, where you are, and whether you’ll live to see the next day.
It’s now that a pen and paper slide over to you, and now you’re worried about how much Hoodie has heard.
“…when did you get here?” You ask meekly.
“You have no idea where you are and what time it is. It’s 5.57pm. You’re free to use whatever you need in the kitchen. And give us the list by 9pm,” He states flatly.
Okay, those answer all your questions. It could be a lot worse, like an actual kidnapping where you’re given absolutely zero information.
Hoodie slips out of the doorway, expression as unrevealing as ever, and closes the door. You don’t hear the lock click, a silent signal that you’re free to leave this room if you want. You really wonder why they’re not straight-up restraining you right now, but then again, how do you give someone therapy when you’re all tied up? And why even would you drag a rando to give your proxies therapy? Huge plot hole. Even if you were asylum staff, there’s no guarantee you’re actually able to treat them, especially since staff there were notorious for poor handling of patients…
You come to the conclusion that no way in hell The Operator, such a powerful entity, would call on someone as incompetent as the average asylum worker to treat his own proxies. He would choose based on merit and skill, but how would he even determine that? Does he have an archive of every single human in existence or something?
Doesn’t matter. You finish up the list, which is probably more akin to a half-hearted scrawl of the bare bones you’ll need for the office. Bean bags, a table and a carpet large enough to cover up these ugly goddamn tiles. And that’s pretty much it, aside from some simple writing equipment— files for each member of the household (save for The Operator, you fear at the idea of having to treat him) and a couple stacks of foolscap paper, along with some pens. You also throw in a sketchbook, pencils and erasers because why not. It’s time to learn a new motherfucking skill while you’re in this hellhole.
You’re pretty much only “awake”, that is to say, not spaced out when you try to find your way down to the kitchen. Given your dissociated state earlier, you expect not to be able to find it and instead get lost so fantastically you end up in the backrooms or something, but your muscle memory seems to bring you to the place you actually intend to be, conversation flooding the hall from inside the kitchen. It’s faint, but it gets louder as you approach. Very, very loud.
“Tobias Erin Rogers, I swear to fuck if you don’t come down here right now—”
“WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO, HUH?”
“I will kick your fucking ass!”
“NICE TRY, GRANDPA, I DON’T FEEL PAIN!” A whistle and a whoop.
You’re met with the sight of Toby perched on the top of the refrigerator, Masky’s face an angry red (because he’s literally angry), hands on his hips like he’s a 40-year-old mother scolding her child, and Hoodie pinching the bridge of his nose. All heads turn to you the moment you approach, which is kind of…no, absolutely fucking creepy.
You stand there. You have absolutely no idea what to do. Hell, you’re hungry as fuck, but if it saves you from awkwardness you’ll just grab a glass of tap water and run.
“Hey, Y/N!” Toby chirps like a baby bird, which is very strange given his size as a full-grown adult male.
“Uh…hey, Toby,” you choke out, forcing a smile as you awkwardly shuffle between the men to grab yourself something, anything, to pretend you know what you’re doing and you’re totally not panicking right now. Yes, you are composed, in control.
Then a loud THUD sounds behind you and you feel a presence very close behind you.
“Whatcha doooooin?”
You never, EVER expected to hear that annoying phrase after you left elementary school.
“I’m. I’m, uhhhh…” You chide yourself for literally not having spoken a single proper sentence today. God, you’re so off your game.
“You want the chili, right? I gotchu!” He speaks so fast, it’s a wonder he doesn’t trip over his words, though he does stutter a fair bit. A stupidly lanky arm reaches up over your head to the highest shelf and grabs you a jar of chili, then plops it into your hands. You stare at it and contemplate if you should take the entire thing and book it out of this situation. Fuck your spice tolerance, there are two men who are currently definitely staring at you right now, making a fool of yourself.
“For god’s sake, Toby, why the fuck would she want the fucking chili?” Groans Masky from the corner of the kitchen. He probably shifted his position since his little monkey brother jumped down from the fridge.
“I like it! I want some!”
“Not everyone eats it straight out of the jar, Toby.” Deadpans Hoodie.
Your head whips around to face the boy.
TOBY EATS IT STRAIGHT OUT OF THE FUCKING JAR????
He grins innocently at you. “I can—mm, fuck—can’t feel pain!” He proclaims it like he’s won the Nobel Prize for it. Your concern for this boy grows by the second.
“That’s…good to know, Toby,” you reply, then curse yourself for being an in-real-life dry texter. “What can you feel, then?”
The boy seems to think for a bit. “Hmmm, I can feel pressure… and I can’t feel tem-whu-woo, fuck—tempera—woo!…” His brows furrow as he concentrates, but you feel some frustration coming off him too.
“Take your time, Toby,” you reassure, now feeling a genuine human connection with this boy. Maybe he’s not that bad. “You can do it.”
“Temper-rature!” His face lights up at his success. “Temperrature!—woo!” He throws his fists up in the air as celebration and you feel an impossibly strong urge to protect this boy.
“Well done, Toby.” You find yourself smiling at him, surprisingly, which causes him to gasp.
“Y-y-you see that, guys? Ha, Y/N’s smiling! A-a-at me!” He beams, then wraps his arms around your waist, lifting you up into a painfully tight hug.
“Ah… Toby, too tight…” You wince. He stutters an apology and puts you down, then sprints away.
Now, you’re no genius, but you know something’s up with that boy. You look to the other two for, hopefully, an answer.
Hoodie answers your unasked question. “Toby has something called BPD. Borderline personality disorder. It tends to affect his relationship with other people,” he states, but doesn’t elaborate. A test of your knowledge?
“I see,” is your short reply; you’re still processing the information you were provided first-hand. Should you write this down? “Thank you, Hoodie.”
“Call me Brian,” he corrects gently.
“Oh. Brian it is, then.” Huh, he doesn’t seem so touchy with his real name, unlike Masky. “And that’s Tim,” he says, nodding at Masky. Okay, guess not. This time, he elaborates. “You’re the only human from normal society for miles here. You may as well call us by our…human names.” Must be a way to preserve their sanity, then.
“I’m Y/N. Nice to formally meet you,” you say with a polite smile and an extension of your hand. Brian takes it and shakes your hand, a firm grasp on it and a hint of practice in it. This guy knows what he’s doing. “And you as well, Tim.” It’s his turn to shake your hand, and he grunts and shakes it too, with a significantly stronger hold, just enough for it not to hurt. Youch. Must be the aggressive type.
With a polite nod of acknowledgement, you confidently leave the kitchen, before stopping in your tracks.
You forgot your food.
plot twist you're an underqualified therapist ig. part 5 coming soon. chapter 5 is out.
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tennessoui · 1 year
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Could u rec some more (obikin) fics please?
sure! to shake things up a bit, here's a list of wips I'm really excited for (for a variety of reasons, but mostly because i want more people to read wips)
(i've tried to include a mix of ratings and tags, but i just went through my history for these, so if there's a lot of a specific tag, i had a micro-obsession and no shame):
Passion by why-is-my-nose-a-carrot (updates to this story and their previous one literally make my day, I'm obsessed with their writing style and story choices and i could literally go on and on this is probably the wip i'm most hyped about)
Taking Care by @ragnarlothcat (always obsessed with a good mission fic paired with a feelings realization that then blends seamlessly into 'i did not just have that feelings realization what are you talking about don't be silly.')
earthshine by posthumous_vigor (deaged obi-wan and emperor vader and baby twins who just want their uncle ben back while vaderkin misses his master but appreciates the younger version, but really, really misses his master's kisses)
do you know the name faith by heian (padawan obi-wan & master anakin, force dyad, so promising, huge love and huge anticipation)
How Hondo Ohnaka Accidentally Saved the Galaxy by DontCallMeShirley (super funny, love the concept, love Hondo's voice--he drugs obikin so that they don't interfere with his plans. they don't. they get married instead. Just. So good.)
Νόστος by NFx (I love a Hades/Persephone fic, I mean--I did write one myself but I'm just so excited to read one. I never get tired of these! This is just chef's kiss on my favorite sort of possessive and protective tropes.)
Blindfold me (I'm the only witness) by @lilredghost (jeez i love this, very explicitly porn very 'speaking to the id'. consensual somno so as to sidestep obi-wan's massive guilt complex)
Any Other World by @mysticmjolnir (I was so excited to see this update!! it's been one of my favorite Post-Kenobi show release fics. Like. Just the angst! the hurt! the longing! an anakin and an obi-wan who want their anakin and obi-wan but also want each other because they're the closest they may ever come to the their obi-wan and anakin again)
Welcome Surprises by nephilimswitchlight (such a sweet fic, where anakin surprises obi-wan with his presence on his birthday)
soft, warm, mine by lovbaby (oof. salivating at this fic concept, cannot wait for a second chapter. i can already tell the misunderstandings will be BEAUTIFUL)
if this isn't nice, what is? by anonymous (anakin learns how to jerk off with his new mechno hand. he also learns how to jerk off while thinking about obi-wan. delicious. cannot wait for more)
this land is mine, but i'll let you rule by travellingcircus (i would follow travellingcircus wherever they lead; i love their fics and have probably reread them constantly. in this one, anakin buys a slave to help him on his moisture farm but like. obi-wan's definitely a jedi. right? right??)
bodies (& the celestial reimagination) by @noona96n (i just found this fic last night but it's absolutely darling, i love any fic that starts with anakin as a baby padawan and him hero-worshipping obi-wan im a weak gal i have simple needs. i cannot wait to see how this story develops going forward!)
we're swimming with the sharks (until we drown) by @coldwaughtered (another fic I found just last night, but in love! high-powered, put together lawyer and smitten anakin with probably equally smitten obi-wan but the pov is anakin's so that comes off stronger at first + fake marriage for more money which i guess means obi-wan was like if this twunk marries someone else i'll stop being distracted and NOT fall into a consensual workplace relationship only for that to majorly backfire! love the playing with the timeline as well)
The Other Half of My Soul by RedMetalWitch (It took a few months to convince myself to read this as I wasn't quite sure on how absolved of his sins/darkness Anakin would be--my greatest fear unless i'm in a particular once a year sort of mood is a uwu darth vader--but i absolutely adore this fic. i don't know who isn't already following it, but worth the read!)
Shutting the eye of reason by anonymous (another guilty pleasure fic, where anakin is extremely jealous of qui-gon for taking up all of his master's time, and decides to do something about it. mainly by seducing him.)
and of course to round off the list, my beautiful and constant obsession and pipedream that one day it will update if only i keep the faith:
Open Circle by Calyss (my absolute favorite take on sith obi-wan i've ever read. I cannot explain more. It's just so good.)
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reddie-ao3feed · 29 days
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do you know what i'm seeing?
read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/R0BAolH by reddje "i know it's sad, but i never gave a damn about the weather. and it never gave a damn about me." "that literally makes zero sense, eds." - or the one where eddie is perpetually irritated and mean and hates everyone and everything including richie tozier until he doesn't. Words: 2806, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English Fandoms: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier, Beverly Marsh, Bill Denbrough, Ben Hanscom, Mike Hanlon, Stanley Uris, Audra Phillips, Henry Bowers, Henry Bowers's Gang (IT) Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, Ben Hanscom/Beverly Marsh, Mike Hanlon/Stanley Uris, Bill Denbrough/Audra Phillips Additional Tags: Eddie Kaspbrak is Bad at Feelings, Eddie Kaspbrak is a Little Shit, Richie Tozier is a Little Shit, Richie Tozier Loves Eddie Kaspbrak, Beverly Marsh Knows Everything, One Sided Rivalry, eddie is truly mean for whatever reason, eddie kaspbrak is perpetually pissed, richie tozier is just obsessed with him, do you know what im seeing by panic at the disco is the catalyst, no one knows whyyyyyyyy eddie is like that he just is, Mike Hanlon & Eddie Kaspbrak Are Best Friends, New Kid Richie Tozier, Jealous Eddie Kaspbrak, Richie Tozier is a Dork, richie Tozier is a flirt, richie cant stfu or read the room, Slow Burn Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier, but not like reallllllllly slow burn just a little, bc eddie thinks theyre rivals, so they have a one sided beef for a bit, Enemies to Lovers, Academic rivals, Alternate Universe - No Pennywise (IT), Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier-centric, Eddie Kaspbrak is So Done, Eddie Kaspbrak Has Issues, Richie Tozier Has a Crush on Eddie Kaspbrak, academic rivals bc eddie is smart, like top of his class smart, and richie comes along a month b4 graduation and is also smart read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/R0BAolH
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h-doodles · 9 months
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hi, can I ask for your top ten favorite fics ? :)
Hi anon hiiiiiiii welcome!!! u caught me at a good time, ur soooo lucky bc i just glanced at my notifs and saw this ask get sent <3 KDBDKDKK its been literal years since i checked my ask box 👉🏻👈🏻
BUT ANYWAY! top 10 of all time???? be warned that while i am currently enchanted with ONE (1) 6 ft 3 in actress, I still do consider myself a girlie with varied tastes so. my old & other fandoms are mixed in my current list!
without further ado:
#10: knowledge for knowledge's sake by tigriswolf (ao3) || quite an old piece detailing how a change in the personality of one Hermione Granger could have had a massive impact to the story— and while I don't fuck with JKTerfling, the fics I've read from the old fans in the HP fandom are still honestly, some of the BEST I have EVER read. This one in particular irrevocably changed me as a teen, and is one story that I continue to draw inspiration upon when I create dark!AUs for my SI/OCs.
#9: Zutopia by itslivybear (ao3) || the fluff, the worldbuilding, an AU where Izuku is mentored by our beloved Rat God & together, they fix the world problems? GIRLIES catch me forever LOVING this concept like you could NEVER believe <3
#8: (not so) Bad Idea by @sarahpaulsonsoftie (tumblr post) || HEE HEE ITS LIVING IN MY MIND RENT FREE LIKE HELP THESE BITCHES GAY!!!!!! GOOD FOR THEM!!!!!!! ft a meddling plantita who really mothered; Marilyn Thornhill <3
#7: Hold my Soul by connyhascontrol (ao3) || I got into Trixie/Katya completely by one @montaguehphm introducing me to UNHhhh (HIIIIIII bestie I hope everything is going good and that ur gay keeps slay <3) and I haven't recovered ever since— reading the fics by writers on AO3 was a happy little accident, but one i will FOREVER love, nonetheless. Anyway, this particular fic was SO brilliantly original and YET so entrenched in the personalities between T&K that it ABSOLUTELY just wrecks me everytime I reread it. anyways hi @connyhascontrol pls know ur brilliant <3
#6: I think I'm gonna call him out by hellelf (ao3, users only) || again, another AU for Hermione fic, that's chockfull of world building and interesting relationships! It's been unupdated from its 5 chapters since 2021, but I still LOVE to look back at it from time to time 💖
#5: The Confectionary Chronicles series by cheshire_caroll (ao3); Into the Black series by angelholme (ao3); Hermione Granger & the Serpent's Renaissance series by epsi1on (ao3) AND New Blood by artemisgirl (ff.net) || if it's not evident, i am an absolute slut for fics ft. Hermione being badass & put into a v cool plot w/ insane amounts of world building, so yeah, def a top 5 most contender <3
#4: The Infinitely Curious Woman by chararii (ao3) || literally ALL of their fics are absolute bangers, and while I forever mourn their decision to stop all Naruto fics thanks to the great harddrive incident of 2022, I have nonetheless the GREATEST respect to their skill & talent to bring SUCH LIFE to their stories. In particular, I chose this particular fic of theirs because the premise of Sakura making her own way by shedding off her morality the more she learned & got influenced by her 2 greatest teachers was absolutely nothing short of DIVINE. It was and IS such an inspiration to read, reread & explore, and I will forever love @chararii for this brilliant piece of a fic
#3: The Endgame that never was series by @heleneplays aka me (tumblr masterlist) || ok I know this seems self-absorbed but DEAR MOTHER OF CHRISTIE i literally WENT OFF for a whole ass day and a half going feral for the Relics of the Lost Age series book 3 finale (hi @jamesshawgames pls know im still here and STILL simping even tho i am currently having a brainrot for a different thing on main sjdhdkdk i hope ur doing well dearest mr. chief author sir!!!!) and created this series from my dreams + nonstop ben&ben playlist— and honestly, I think it's VERY sexy of me <3 bc I rarely like things that I do after a while, but THIS— alongside Universal Constant (ao3) are truly my BEST work <3
#2: Across the Stars by nomisunrider (ao3) || I CAN NEVER STRESS THIS ENOUGH, HOW MUCH THIS FIC ALTERED MY BRAIN CHEMISTRY LIKE. its been 4 YEARS since it was completed but HOLY. MOTHERFUCKING. GOD. The story between Michael & Philippa persisting beyond the odds, in a twist of the canon happenings in Star Trek: Discovery is FOREVER ingrained in my heart and soul and honestly once again THANK YOU @nomi--sunrider for SUCH a beautiful story 🥺🥺🥺
and drum roll please!!!
#1 (current): I literally cannot pick between Better than Gold + Little Cat by @lady-dimimi / @azu-zu (tumblr post for BtG | LC ao3); How to woo a Hot Principal by @softshrimpy (ao3); and Lipstick Stains by @weemssapphic (ao3) || LIKE HOLY SHIT THE FUCKING AMOUNT OF TALENT, PLOT, FLUFF, DRAMA AND UTTER GAYNESS THESE FICS BRING ME— its SOOOOO insanity inducing in the best of ways <3 also, i really count myself lucky to get into a very active (x reader) sphere LIKE ITS SOOOOO INSANE i get to consume CONTENT daily for such wonderful characters and these special morsels be like. authors, I am sending you all a MWAH from me
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professional-termite · 6 months
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alr so far in the haunted mansion 2023 mall cop human au i have planned:
- chapter where ben and kent have to take care of travis because gabbie is a full time doctor, so she drops travis off at the haunted mansion store (owned by william gracey) every day during the summer (usually will takes care of him but hes busy or smthn, probably having trouble from alistair crump at hatbox supply (theyre rival store owners))
- leota and harriet investigate a break-in featuring police chief ghost host (google says his name is george gracey jr in the comics so imma just call him george and hes like williams nephew or something...this is my au, and im not bothering to base it off of the comics too heavily when the 2023 movie literally ignores everything from them)
- kent tries to get ben something because dead wife anniversary coming up but hes stupid (affectionate) and has no idea how to give people gifts so bruce tries to help (bruce is bens adopted dad in this au and he also does not know how to give gifts...but I KNOW WHAT THE GIFT IS GONNA BE BUT IM NOT TELLING YOU YET :3333)
- d&d night featuring the hitchhiking ghosts, constance, the mariner, william gracey, ben, kent, and bruce (probably with a brief cameo of the brothers who shot each other to add to the chaos)
- harriet and kent are both clueless gays and look for relationship advice from the "haunts" and all of it is terrible and they are both failures
and now i have run out of ideas...maybe after dinner ill come up with some more nonsense and give crump a bigger role as a villain instead of just being annoying and filing dumb complaints against william...
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illfoandillfie · 8 months
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Hello! For your sat/sunday sleepover, how about your top 5 roger fics that you have ever read? 😊
(Id probably say all of mine are written by you lol)
Okay first of all you're so sweet to say that! Secondly this was a tough one. I've not read any roger fics recently so all of these are ones that have stuck in my head from back in the day lmao. Also, they're in no particular order. Also i've linked them where possible.
Ask Nicely from the Try Series by just-my-sickly-pride I mean the whole try series is incredible and i still think about it on the reg, but this was the first roger chapter and its top fucking tier. If you're into brian as well and havent checked out this series i HIGHLY recommend it will make you both very wet and also crush your heart (god the brian sexting chapter changed my brain chemistry)
The Art She Loved by brian-maybe-not - Winter was an absolute genius for writing this and I'm so sad she's not active anymore because holy shit she could write. Maybe I'm a little biased since she was one of my first friends in this fandom but I've literally contemplated printing this fic out and binding it like a proper book because that's what it deserves. It's fucking art.
Pretty Little Present by 90sbrianmay - Unfortunately I can't link this one because Ezra deactivated a little while ago. I'm also potentially a little biased because this was the fic she wrote for me for a fandom secret santa so it was literally made for me lmao. Fuck it was hot though. Ezra was the absolute queen of threesomes tbh (also she had another one who's name escapes me but reader was brian's daughter he'd only just found out about and she cornered roger backstage at an event to seduce him and it was soooooooooooo hot)
At first glance by queenmylovely - listen, i could not make a list like this and not include something written by Lauren (even tho maybe her ben fics are what im more likely to go back and read dhskksjfs). At first glance is so so so good and sweet and cute and ugh it just made me fall so in love with roger and it's a criminal crime if you haven't read it yet.
Diamonds and Pearls by redspecialty - C came up with so much good shit, she really fed us there for a hot min, but diamonds and pearls is like the ultimate sugar daddy rog fic. it's a whole ass 15k (god if you thot my fics were long khfksfkfjs) and it just hits all the right notes.
also as a bonus i have to shout out Be My Pet by mypassionfortrash because its just delicious and i've defs gone back to it a few times. And also 10 Easy Rules by stormtrprinstilettos which is incomplete but hhhhhhh rog is so mean in it and i think about it so often
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dilffactory · 8 months
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name : Ben
pronouns :  he/they
preference of communication : I prefer tumblr IMs until I feel like we're familiar enough to add eachother on discord. Nothing bothers me more than following a new mutual and they just constantly say "add me on discord to chat" and then I end up with a bunch of people on discord who I don't know and never talk to
most active muse :  Copia, Aether, Rabbit. Terzo was at the front for a little bit but he's kind of touch and go with me. His voice sometimes just isn't there.
experience / how many years :  I've been roleplaying since I was eleven, so... for about 23 years, which is older than some of my mutuals and that's terrifying. I started on old ICQ chatrooms and Furcadia, moved to message boards, and then started on tumblr w/ Darcy when I was 22, about 12 years ago.
best experience : outside of meeting my rp besties @quickdeaths on gitp forums years and years ago, and my early days here on tumblr where I got to be friends with @kneeltoyourking, @charcorner, CJ on her 18 million blogs, etc -- I've really enjoyed the Ghost fandom rpc! All of them have been super great, and I would kill people especially for @iomadachd, ey literally just have to give me the word.
rp pet peeves : people who don't actually rp on their rp blogs -- I think there's a great many people who think they like roleplaying but don't actually like it, they just like the serotonin drop of people liking their starter calls/sending asks, or people writing things for them. Hyper-insecurity -- like we all have moments or days where we don't feel great about ourselves, but if it's all the time, or if what goes on on tumblr is seriously affecting your life negatively in meatspace, you need therapy. You cannot rely on people on the internet for your sense of self-value; it's not healthy for you and it's also a really shitty burden to put on other people.
fluff, angst, or smut : fluff's only purpose is to make the angst hurt more
plots or memes : I am plot-centric. Memes are fun for little things, but can't keep my attention for long
long or short replies : medium. I can't do anything meaningful in short replies, but if all of my threads are long, I start to dread them
time to write : early early morning or the afternoon
are you like your muses : some of them. I was watching the Ghost Chapters back in late January when I hit Chapter Six and was like "THIS MAN HAS AUTISM!!!! HE'S JUST LIKE ME FR FR" and that was when I was like fuck it I'm writing Copia. Some of them really are not like me -- I don't consider myself much like Varric or Terzo or Lobo. But then there's Darcy and Copia and Ethan, and I consider them pretty similar in aspects.
tagged by: @muutos, like forever ago tagging: u
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topperscumslut · 2 years
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my thoughts reading the first umbrella academy comic book as someone who’s been a fan of the show for years (spoilers for all seasons of the show and the first book)
•damn so we’re really getting right into reggie being an alien huh??
•WE FINALLY GET TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED AT THE EIFFEL TOWER???
•LUTHER 🥲
•can we talk about how he named his lil moon robot ben and still has newspaper articles about the academy and one about ben’s death 🥺
•literally how anyone can hate him i don’t understand
•TELL ME WHY I JUST SAW VANYA’S WHOLE CHEEKS- was the thong really necessary gerard???
•also it still feels transphobic calling her vanya even tho she doesn’t become viktor in the comics bcuz viktor’s transition was written for elliot page like ik she’s still a cis female in the books but saying vanya still makes me feel… grimy idk
•”father’s really dead, isn’t he, pogo?” LUTHER ILY
•he still calls allison rumor and is still wearing the academy mask wow luther hargreeves really is the right where you left me by taylor swift character huh
•tears are streaming down my face in a barnes and noble cafe luther are you OKAY
•someone get these siblings therapy i beg
•KLAUS!!!!!
•klaus definitely seems very similar in both versions
•”because what i found wasn’t just a place where i could hide” five trying to time travel not cuz he’s a stabbing a table with a butter knife cocky little shit but a literal child trying to hide from his abusive father is going to make me combust anyway fuck reginald
•more crying
•the A+ on luther’s paper and the D- on diego’s diego deserves better i am sobbing
•so it’s diego that thinks reggie was murdered in the comics instead of luther?? interesting
•luther and diego are so angsty jesus
•”so start acting like homo sapiens so we can bury your father” POGO PLZ-
•WHY DID DIEGO JUST STRIP GRACE????
•i have SO many questions
•i think im too dumb for this book
•which is embarrassing cuz it’s a comic book
•NOT LUTHER BITCH SLAPPING DIEGO GOODBYE-
•who in the motherfuck is dr terminal
•aidan gallagher was such a perfect casting for number five omg
•”i guess you’re right… [reginald] didn’t love me. but i haven’t spent my life pretending he did.” hello???? are we sure this is the same luther as the luther from the netflix series??
•is it just me or does klaus kinda look like mikey way???? like ik gerard wrote the series so…??
•not five bringing pogo into the fucking coffee shop- 💀🤚
•the way agnes literally does not question the fucking MONKEY god i love her
•five brutally massacring the commission goons and yet still stopping to pay for his drink and thank agnes omfg
•how are y’all shocked allison SAed luther in s3 when she literally SAs him hardly five chapters into the first book??
•it was literally out of nowhere too like- there was BUILD UP and CHEMISTRY and FLIRTING in the show and at least some villain era motivations for allison but in the book they’re literally just talking about claire and allison is still calling her Luther’s NIECE and then she just rumors him into kissing her out of nowhere??? i just audibly gasped in this barnes and noble i am sorry
•vanya is SLIM THICC
•everything is happening so fast in comparison to in the show omg
•is there *something* going on between diego and vanya like there is allison and luther?? or why is he so emotionally attached to her?? please tell me there’s not istg-
•REGINALD?????
•klaus saving the day slay!!!
•i don’t know how to feel. i just got so much information in so little time.
•FIVE AND KLAUS CONTENT YESS!!!
•POGO’S EXCERPTS ABOUT THE KIDS IM GONNA CRY
•OMFG KLAUS ACTUALLY WAS INSPIRED BY MIKEY I AM SCREECHING
•i have so many feelings
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hollywoodsargeant · 4 months
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omg miamis the writer of hit fic boyish is alive??? im barely through chapter 12 but want to say you’ve perfectly encapsulated the build up to coming out experience as a gay man myself (only thing is im still in the closest soooo. hoping though that i won’t do a logan and come out whilst drunk)
yes!! i am alive!! and thank you!! i’ve been trying to write both from my own experience and from what i know from other people — i will say (and idk if i’ve mentioned this before i can’t remember) i gave ben my literal coming out story lol it’s really dumb but. funny. shoutout ben (even if he blocked oscar on instagram)
and i would not recommend coming out drunk logan is an idiot for that one… BUT for the record that scene was originally different aka originally logan also came out to kyle that night at the party by making some nonsense claim about wanting to fuck oscar. i still have it somewhere on an old doc bc i wrote it fivever ago but in the writing process i changed it so logan came out to kyle a lot earlier (it felt important). which also means i have an earlier version of the scene where kyle is arguing with logan about not letting mia wear his football jersey to the first home game where kyle doesn’t know logan and oscar have kissed… shoutout to my like 50k word og boyish doc there are still scenes on there i haven’t posted yet
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mymarifae · 1 year
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Speaking of Deltarune, i dunno if you've talked about it before but What's your general opinion on Papyrus' role in DR? i've ben thinking about this a lot after it came to my attention how much of a mystery he really is. The thought that he could be the knight is both kinda funny and kinda scary (also and correct me if im wrong, but if DR's story was here before UT was made, i can imagine Toby going "hehe what if i made Papyrus (my antagonist) a goofy comic relief in this)
oh this was sent so long ago... um...
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ok anyway. even though it's taken me several months to answer this. i'm so glad you asked!
there's a lot about papyrus that's shrouded in mystery - namely the sheer amount of power he seems to have compared to the rest of the cast and the evolution of his relationship with flowey over the timelines. it makes logical sense that deltarune will elaborate on what undertale only hinted at, but like.
the theory that he's the knight doesn't click with me. if someone wants to explain where this conclusion is being drawn from, i'd love to hear it! because - and no offense - it just feels like the title of The Knight is being slung onto him solely because he's a powerful character we kind of don't know a lot about (but that's like 85% of the cast at this point..) and we have yet to see him. i won't write it off entirely because who knows what will happen with this game, but i do very much doubt that the insight deltarune will give us into papyrus's character will be through him being. The Knight.
my personal thoughts on the knight's identity are, like... among these possibilities:
the knight is a character we haven't even been introduced to yet
there is no singular knight and it's simply a role that anyone can take on. the darkners' concept of The Knight is an amalgamation of every person who has opened a fountain ever
there is no knight. like at all. this is on a similar vein of the above bullet: because it's just a conceptual role, there just is no fucking knight 👍🏾
it's dess.
it really Is kris, and this reveal was made in Chapter Two because the identity of the knight is ultimately inconsequential in comparison to the concepts and plot points future chapters will introduce.
perhaps i just have a very particular and even incorrect interpretation/assumption of what the knight's role in this game will be. but at the moment, i'm not going to be easily swayed from these ^ theories. so.. as cool and kinda funny as it Could be, no knight papyrus in this house. it doesn't make sense. to me. with how i've come to understand the knight (which is to say i barely understand the knight at all because we literally barely have any tangible info about it).
(oh but even if he is the knight, i don't think this would make him the narrative's antagonist. i don't think deltarune is going to have a conventional protagonist VS protagonist set-up, period. also i wouldn't call papyrus in undertale a comic relief. does him quite a bit of injustice i think ^^')
i'm not even wholly convinced that the build-up around papyrus won't be some sort of red herring. like, yeah i think he'll play a fairly substantial role (maybe. my initial assumption from chapter 1 was that when we do finally get to hang out with papyrus, he'll just be like. normal. like sans is. and nothing ever happens with him. and i'm not writing this possibility out yet afgngkjf), but not necessarily to the extent that people are assuming. i think there's a lot of other weird shit in hometown that no one is paying attention to because the "a trousle.. growing further away..." flavor text is so fucking distracting. and i think that's on purpose. we're so focused on what we already know from undertale and drawing those connections that everything new and unique to deltarune is kinda flying over our heads. like honestly i personally don't give a damn about papyrus rn (I LOVE HIM BUT) i'm more concerned with, like:
the strange beast that attacked the dog burglars by the holidays' house
whatever the hell is happening with onionsan and the song they're hearing
the fucking caution tape
father alvin muttering to himself over gerson's grave
hometown's religion in general honestly
the bunker?
asgore's soul-colored flowers and the fact that he said they're "exactly" like the rose from the beauty and the beast when sans joked about it (did he mean that in terms of the glass jars or something more ?)
the striped bird npc
temmie's egg
clamperson
hometown's got a lot going on. yes we love papyrus yes the trousle getting further away is weird and concerning but i don't think it's going to be as important as everything else <3..
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mandalhoerian · 8 months
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ayup it’s the person that sent those vera things like a week ago ?? yk the one that made a fool of themself by rambling about ur oc ! anyways i reread it bc ofc i did and. idk. it’s such an amazing fic like genuinely and i felt a need to express it. like outside of how well-thought vera is and how interesting her dynamics with marvin + leon are (and claire ofc) and just. the pacing and story progression. it’s all so well done. and i’m sure someone has told u this in ur ao3 comments but the way ur reinterpreting canon a lil and having vera shake things up is so fun and genuinely interesting which is why i went back and reread it all. it feels like there’s a lot i kinda missed the first time round with the nuances of vera’s character which was. very fun to go back around and see again. hope ur doing well <3
HI OMG WELCOME BACK IM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU
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(you aren't a fool it's my inspiration and motivation juice YOU TAKE THAT BACK🔪)
first of all you are A CHAD. The fic is 100K words oh god I can't imagine -- im happy it was more enjoyable the second time around at least 😭😭😭😭 It's amazing to hear that despite the fat word count, you think the pacing and progression is going well!
Unrelated tidbit but I really didn't know how to introduce Vera before starting the fic and was debating on starting from pre-RE2R in the summer of 1998, spend five chapters and so with Vera assisting Jill in her investigation and unravel things from there. But at the end I was like "literally nobody would read that" and thought what best technique is there by starting right in the middle of action and chaos? And the rest I winged it.
That had to mean I had to go through EVERYTHING about her life and how she got to that point by peppering the events throughout the plot as Leon and her story also progressed alongside it, and I couldn't gloss over anything, so it just expanded and expanded and expanded and I'm sure got boring as hell at places since she hides a bunch of shit from the others and good god do they have to be integrated to the plot of re2r AND UGHHHHHHHH. Thank you for telling me I havent messed up LMAOOOOOOO
About the canon. I have a bone to pick with some of the game and the story, I don't like how they went about a couple of things. This is me trying to lay the groundwork to fix them and everything by tweaking .
For example Leon pulling the "i have to talk to the chief first" bs and saying "Idk what happened it happened to fast" to ada like he was trying to make excuses like a child to his parent really irked me, especially in the original re2 he bent over backwards to get ben out of the cell so he could come along with them. (dont talk to me about how a law-abiding rookie he's supposed to be. that could have been done better. leon simply isn't a person to leave someone like that, and he was hearing about chef irons the writing on that could have been better) And the way Claire and Leon barely interacted when they are the core of re2 together was just not it. The lack of Sherry and Leon together was also weird when Sherry is a big part of why he was taken by the government and stayed, and how Sherry blatantly says he saved her in RE6. (I know they just completely wiped the slate clean off Sherry and Leon with RE4R backstory by just saying Leon just didnt have a choice but like. yeah) and also Ada. God Ada "(to the woman she wants to discreetly capture. since she's A SPY) We're here for the g-virus and i will now proceed to jump in front of the bullets" & "Where's Leon when I need him (has treated him as a nuisance the whole way)" Wong. Im sure there are a lot more things but i cant think of them rn but I am annoyed with Things
SORRY I JUST WENT OFF ON A TANGENT. But like. Having Vera involved and having her existence be a reason on changing things around is so much fun. I could just expand on child experimentation and the truth of the orphanage through her, it was always something wildly bothering me that they kept that plot so subtle in Claire's story. Birkins (or maybe just William. we'll never know) were using children in G-virus experiments WHY DIDNT THEY TALK ABOUT THAT MORE DUDE? That's why canon divergence makes things so much more interesting because it's not just transcribing the game and inserting an OC along the way, it's changing things and making new things up, keeping things fresh
GOD I TALKED SO MUCH SORRY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK!!!!!!
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my-everything-ao3 · 2 years
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Random Things About “My Everything” That No One Cares About...But I Do lol
Like most fic writers, I actually had to do a bunch of research for this story to make sense and I put a lot of work into it so I thought id come on and point out minor details in the story that where interesting but you may have missed while being enticed by the plot lol. THIS CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR MY EVERYTHING SO DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT FINISHED IT YET!
ok Im not going in order of the chapters so i’ll probably miss a few things but whatever.
lets start with ‘the baseball scene.’ When peters getting whipped, i made him dissociate and the memory he latches onto is the baseball scene. Its actually a thing in the comics that peter loves the mets and ben would always take him. The quote i used between peter and tony is taken straight from the comics. (the one that’s like “maybe nexy year.” Its actually something said between Peter and Ben since he took him to a game every year and thats what the whole scene is based on.) And since im a boston girl and a red sox fan, i decided to include a real life game between the sox and the mets. I followed the actual weather patterns, as well as the time of day, and the things that actually happened during the game. I wanted it to be as realistic as possible. 
And speaking of weather patterns, all of them are real. Every time i described the weather in my fic, it was actually real. Like go look up the weather in new york on some random day in the story and its real. Like every time it rained, i made sure to include that. Same with the temperatures in the different areas. I was really thorough lol
ok next lets go to the scene between tony and wanda at cho’s funeral. wanda says something to him and tony goes “now you sound like steve” and she goes “i think he got it from someone.” Its actually the quote Peggy tells him in winter soldier. 
okay now lets do random little details. When Peter ‘escapes’ during one of the chapters after ned and mj die, he leaves a little hand print on the wall. In chapter 15, steve and tony walk past it without knowing its actually peter’s. 
When young mason and spencer escape outside, i described the surrounding area as being barren with trees off in the distance. And how they came across a little brook that they skipped stones across. In chap 15, the avengers walk past it, but its very dried up since many years have gone by at that point. 
that clock/countdown in the later chapters (00:00:00) went away after peter was activated because it doesnt MATTER if they rescue him anymore. Hes being controlled now.
All the medical stuff and ingredients in the drug are from criminal minds lol. The characters were always talking about random crap the unsubs drugged victims with and id be like “oh shoot thats perfect for my fic lol”
in the chapter where the bomb goes off, steve has a dream that he has to choose which one of his friends gets to live and everyone else will die. Vision ends up exploding, killing two of his friends. Later on once steve is awake, an explosion causes two of his friends to die (fury and hill), and he has to choose between saving wanda or fury.
tw for rape! okay i needed it to be bucky and nat that killed justin. Justin was a disgusting rapist so he obviously needed to go, but i needed it to be nat and bucky that did it. Nat was kidnapped at a young age and put in the red room where they forcibly sterilized her. Its not hard to imagine they also did sexual things to her too. Same with bucky. He was with hydra for years and in falcon in the winter soldier, there is a scene where zemo strokes buckys face and tells the lady “he’ll do whatever you want” and idk about you but it seemed very sexual to me. And it implied that bucky has been raped before. So writing a story that heavily mentions rape, i really wanted it to be them that dealt with justin.
moving on to the may thing, i literally foreshadowed that ish from the very beginning. Every dream/feeling peter had of it being fake/not real or how it all felt wrong was actually his senses telling him that it was fake. Thats why he was always so on edge during all the flashback scenes. He wasn’t just grieving for four months, his senses were literally driving him insane.
also peter has glowing blue eyes now, dont forget. 
this ones hella random, but i mentioned that mj was going to school in england, and before she was kidnapped, there was a scene with ciaran talking to his scouts about “bringing in ned and mj (the pawns or whatever i called them).” I didnt use their actual names because it was a shocking moment later on, but i mentioned that one of the scouts ciaran was talking to had a british accent. That was meant to show you guys like “oh shit this scout is from/in england...who else do we know thats there right now.....MJ”
theres probs more that im forgetting but its 4am lol so ill add on to this if i remember anything else
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soloorganaas · 2 years
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"red lips and rosy cheeks" - 13, 15, 7?
my beloved Italian romcom
7: Where did the title come from?
I usually come up with a title off the top of my head from a quote or snatchy symposis about the fic's theme, but this one totally stumped me bc I didn't have much of an idea beside fluffy sexy summer in Italy wolfstar. so I went to my default source for titles - swiftie - and obvs wildest dreams was perfect
13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?
wildest dreams for the general vibe see above. BUT there is so much mizrahi music that gave me the inspiration for sirius's character i could for real make a whole playlist for him/this story
literally anything by nasrin kadri but especially albi ma'ak (lyric translation here but obvs the beauty of it is in the original language)
shni meshuga'im by omer adam PLS GO READ THESE LYRICS it literally means "two crazy people" and i stg some of the lyrics are actual scenes from this story (accidental and something i realised just now but that's how well the vibe fits)
la galana i la ma which is a ladino song by mor kabarsi which i ADORE. mor karbasi is persian-moroccan but she works on reclaiming ladino (traditionally sephardic) music because, as she says, 'the blood remembers' (aka her long ago ancestors were from spain) which CRY i could not relate to more
habib galbi by A-WA are an israeli yemeni sister trio. I reference them in chapter 4, and this is my fave song of theirs
chaim sheli by eden ben zaken this song is SO MUCH (lyrics here) it's definitely sirius in all his yearning for moony
i was honestly driving around listening to my mizrahi faves and was like... omg... this would make so much sense for sirius... and so that interpretation was born
15: What did you learn from writing this fic?
this fic started as a silly romcom to have fun with that i brought in a bunch of cultural/historical/linguistic things i know for more realism and its become a full self-recognition through the blorbo moment
like my version of sirius in this story i have a v mixed identity between england/europe/the mid east, switching languages depending on which of my loved ones i'm talking to, mixing and matching food/music/art etc. there are some v conflicting identities (conservative england vs israeli mizrahi for instance) and i felt for a WHILE that i had to pick one in some way, esp bc like sirius i grew up in a family with a long history and v firm identity which i wasn't supposed to shake (rip) although thankfully my parents are incredibly loving and kind. so yeah trying to be loyal to all of these parts of your history/culture/family whilst also going off and pursuing things you're passionate about, making friends who are different from where you came from, falling in love etc has always been incredibly difficult for me, and writing sirius do this definitely a lot more easily than me has helped me figure a lot of stuff out
i also learnt a bit of italian bc whilst i also speak 1000 dif languages italian tragically is not one of them. but now im doing my little duolingo lessons and reading harry potter e il prigioniero di azkaban lmao
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findroleplay · 2 years
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hello! my name is violet, im looking for 13+ roleplayers. i go by they/she and im in GMT!
Literacy: i tend to match my partner, but would prefer at least two paragraphs.
Fandom: IT (I can do chapter two, but I heavily prefer chapter one or just when they were kids / teens)
Pair: I don't mind any type of pair (mxm, for, mxf, nbxnb, nbxf, nbxm) but no ocs, please!
Characters: heavily looking for a Bill to go against my Richie, but don't mind an Eddie, Stan, Ben, whatever. Literally play anyone lol, im really looking to play Richie against Bill mainly though so if you can play him that'd be great
Ship: obviously, Bill x Richie, Richie x Eddie, Richie x anyone lmao
Triggers: i personally don't have any triggers so do what you want! do let me know of yours as i tend to depict Richie with an eating disorder (or a very mild case of one) and as a self-harmer.
Genres: I love angst, and I have a lot of angst plots in mind that focus specifically on Richie (one focuses on them both though). obviously there'll be a horror element, but im open to absolutely anything. for nsfw themes, i strictly play sub characters and make sure characters are of appropriate age.
Plot ideas: i have a couple, which i can send if you get in contact!
Where: heavily prefer discord, but i can rp practically anywhere that suits you.
and that's it! interact with this post if you're interested and i'll be sure to get back to you ASAP!
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