"Okay, okay. I know things have been...not-so-great on the dating scene." "People are kinda mean, and they just don't get my vision, you know?" "BUT. I believe in the magic of Love Day."

More bug appreciation smhhhh

☆´｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+✧new chances☆´｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+✧

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Masterpost of Order Sol's tight gayboy leggings. 1-4: Artworks of Guilty Gear X 2000-2007, 5: Guilty Gear XX SLASH character art, 6: Guilty Gear Complete Bible, 7: limited edition A3 poster included with a Sanwa fightstick for the PS3 release of Guilty Gear Accent Core Plus.

anyway ive now finished the lantern rite quest with just under an hour before it goes and

I thought, Mhok needing to to be at most a phone call away from any of his close ones because he thinks declining that call was THE factor in Rung's death, is kind of like in Lilo and Stitch where Lilo thinks forgetting to feed pudge the fish lead to her parents deaths, except Mhok's anxiety quashing rituals manifest as socially acceptable "green flag boyfriend" behaviour and not stuff like giving sandwiches to fish

where’s my son where’s my son where’s my son whERE’S MY SON WHERE’S MY SON  WHERE’S MY SON WHERE’S MY SON WHERE’S MY SON-

not so patiently waiting for deus ex seagull

okay at first i was like, why is ayan threatening to tell people akk's the one bringing the curse back when he already said he wouldnt. ayan also claimed he didnt believe akk anymore about not stealing the notebook bc of what he’s "now" seen akk do - but he’s known akk was behind things since the beginning. and actually the only motive i can come up with is that he was worried about what akk would do if he was left alone that night, because akk kept trying to get away from him, and not letting ayan help him. so ayan threatened to tell people that akk was bringing the curse back if he didnt stop.

and i realized that... something huge about ayan's past is that he witnessed his uncle’s suicide. and IF im interpreting this episode correctly, you have to consider that aspect of trauma alongside the way he acts towards akk, & the reactions he gets from akk.

akk pushes ayan away when ayan says he needs to think of himself first. akk leans into ayan’s hug at first but then pushes him away again and tries to leave. so ayan follows and does what he’s done in the past. he threatens. he gets a rise out of akk, a confrontation akk can't back out of rather than an attempt to escape. and maybe ayan only does that because he’s scared. maybe he’s scared of leaving akk alone, not knowing what akk will do - whether it be continue the curse or something worse. he needs to make sure akk will stop.

so throughout the rest of the episode, as ayan drags akk back to the school to search for his notebook, it’s possible that what he’s really doing is just keeping akk busy. and it works because they settle back into the same teasing/exasperated relationship they had before. it smooths things between them. but the balance doesn’t truly tip into where it needs to be until ayan has his nightmare, and akk hurries to comfort him. after their conversation on the beach, things couldn't go back to the way they were before, but couldnt move forward either. akk isn’t the only one who needed to show weakness in this ep, ayan needed to as well. especially since while they were searching for the notebook he avoided akk’s question abt why it was important again. they both needed to lean on each other this ep. they both need to learn to trust each other. so i can’t wait to see what comes next, and how ayan eventually opens up about the truth of his relationship with dika and what happened to him.

february 💌

as much as it emotionally destroyed me, i do have to say those last two pages of bsd 109 are like. the perfect cliffhanger. and i'm kind of super glad bsd releases monthly rather than weekly so it can actually hold the weight it was given

omg i get a little stressed and to cope i end up playing esthetician until 130 am and go to bed feeling worse than before. and like id pluck every leg hair out but haven’t brushed my teeth yet. and after that my skin gets soo bad and im like whattttt why is this uappening.

Me: "I'm going to finish my physical TBR pile first this year!"

Libby: "But here are 6 books you've had on hold for months that are ready to be read now!"

Me: *....checks out more library books...*

One of the things that I've realized in the first few days of 2024 is that when I stopped writing last year (or mostly stopped, there were a few bits and bobs along the way, but not in the same way as years past, and I didn't post practically at all), I also just...stopped coming on tumblr. I knew one of my motivations would be checking how a new fic was doing or if I had any new requests or things like that, but I didn't realize how much it was correlated. So when I stopped writing, I also stopped interacting with other fandoms, even ones I didn't write for. And maybe most importantly, I stopped reading new fics, and probably missed out on quite a lot of excellent content by friends, mutuals, and writers that I love/respect.

So I'm not usually one for New Year's Resolutions, but I think this year I'm going to make one: to separate writing fic on tumblr from using tumblr, and to make more of an effort to continue reading fanfic.

And if you're one of those writers that I used to engage with your content and I haven't in a while, I'm truly sorry (and hopefully someday soon I'll make up for it with a massive binge).

Happy new year from me and my beastie 🎉