WHUMPTOBER 2022 - DAY 9 - Tossing and Turning

Realizing this is the first time I’ve drawn Hu Tao for serious.... Sorry sweetie 😅 Being ill + having bad dreams... Hu Tao doesn’t see Zhongli this distressed very often. Thankfully she has experience handling people who are less than at their best. -NO ROMANCE INCLUDED-

about halfway thorugh riddler secrets in the dark and i havent looked this up yet but i feel like it MUST have a different writing team than batman unburied like the vibes are so different. i'd seen stuff about bruce's characterization and thats very clear like its obvious they felt that they HAD to make him unsympathetic to the rogues in order to provide an opposing viewpoint to the Message in the show but like. that is simply a bad way to go about it.

but also theres just a lot of dialogue that feels very empty-social-justice-buzzword-y. like i hate complaining about that bc its not like i dont want these subjects to be discussed, like i'd love if they were exploring racism and racial profiling and colonialism in a real way but thats not what theyre doing. its all very liberals patting themselves on the back for doing nothing. and from what i REMEMBER batman unburied didn't have a lot of those vibes, at least not in the snappy one-liners way

"the joy of creating lies not within the finished piece itself but the process." i say, as if im not about to start crying any time soon

pov: you get an email from lawyers representing your old coworkers about sueing your old fucked up work place that didnt let anyone take any breaks on a holiday bc there was a line out the door and fired you because it took two days to fix your TWO car windows that were broken into (got robbed) because you were profiled FOR your workplace and being told by the manager “i had to leave my car in a flood to get to work”.

yes that is one sentence.

his name is Tetanus Fever

ppl weren't lying about that nere fight huh

You guys don’t know how mad I’ll be if the Empires rift does connect to the Hermitcraft rift for the charity stream and I’m at fucking work for it

i amb. Dissociating

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I know most people consider 'pro-ship' and support of SA kinks to be a very 'online' thing and not a real issue and like years back? I would have agreed but I've been avoiding psychologytoday website to search for a therapist since I went on one time and they had an article about how "its ok and normal to fantasize about rape" because it was so triggering. I've had to avoid people who label themselves as "sex positive" or "kink positive" because after those therapists who released ridiculous articles (one which had the audacity to include "and no, you are NOT offending rape survivors by fantasizing about rape and incorporating your fantasies into your sex life" lol.), they were ALL preaching that. They were ALL saying how anything you're into sexually is valid. And it had a Real Life effect on me to see this stuff so supported. Because of the article being front and center on the psychologytoday website, I had a part that was refusing to trust any therapist bc in their mind, it was on the Therapist Finding Site so they must all support it (obviously not true but like. how are you going to convince a hyper-vigilant part that's been that way for years of this). They didn't want me to find a therapist anymore. They were no longer willing. and I have had to battle with that ever since.

sorry but I kind of consider that to be a real world effect and a real issue.

u guys im so obsessed w mary frances bags theyre just so .

huffy bitch

im o tired and i cant even sleep cus its the wrong kind of tired even tho it kinda is that kind of tired and i have absolutely zero moivation to do absolutely anything and ive turned my sleep schedule around again which ngl makes sense. im alone with zero human contact and nothing to do and its been that almost a month i think and im starting to run out of food so i actually ahve to go buy food but i also REALLY wanna go to the thriftstore and see if they have any ctlery or a desk or something and it just feels. illegal somehow. like im not Allowed :tm: to buy a new desk or even buy cutlery or go there. cus then id need help getting the desk home and like. if i ask mom or dad for help i risk them being al "bUt YoU hAd A dEsK" like yeah but its a desk i ever use and it doesnt fit and i dont use it and id rather have a smaller one. but also cus it feels like im not allowed to buy new things if i want them?? also a lil bit cus i dont wanna go alone but i have noone to go with and i Could go alone but like. its been a month. since i talked to anyone. and noone is willing to spend time with me unless were Doing Something. so yeah, tired, probably depressed, bored ou of my fucking mind, need food and feel bad about it cus ill have to ask for a ride home and i dont wanna bug grandma but i also just. dont wanna go visit mom or dad. and i wanna see if i can find new cutlery i like and a desk and that feels illegal for no reason. FUN.

I need to havr a nap right now or I’m biting my arms off

I WANTED TO WATCH QSMP SO MUCH WHY SCHOOL EXISTS

ok but Joel Miller……!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hate that im so shite at rendering