“I guess you didn’t mean what you wrote in that song about me”

“I should have known all along I was only the next one to take your love songs as a promise”

WHERE ARE THE SONGS JOSHUA?!?

Olivia and Sabrina busted ASS making two killer pop albums out of this whole love triangle bullshit and what has Mr Basset given us??? A few songs here and there which I love, don’t get me wrong, Crisis is one of my faves but I want a whole ALBUM SIR. I want to hear his side of the story, is sorry about all of it? Does he miss either of them? Was he hurt by the breakups? I want the tea and I want another fire album!!!

#this just in: khaotung is a capybara?

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

it takes less effort to keep your mouth shut than it does to be a horrible person, and i hope people are aware that cruelty gets you nowhere.

one thing about me is I Will make a playlist. this is an ongoing threat and there is no stopping me

Ok so everyone describes A New Dawn Kanan as a womanizing asshole but there's literally NO mention of anything like that in the book. All it says is that he drank a lot. LIKE IT LITERALLY SAYS "he saw all women and mythical creatures," and would literally MOVE every time a random girl wanted to marry him. That's not womanizing, that's just boundaries and, you know, getting away from weird people.

He doesn't even mention he wants Hera in a sexual way, EVER! Yeah he thinks she's hot and flirts with her a bit but it's never derogatory and he never describes her as if she were an object. (Not even Okadiah does and he's an over 40 year old bartender on a shitty planet) Also, Kanan hating or abusing women is NEVER mentioned. Like bro didn't even need to SEE Hera to fall in love so idk what y'all talking/writing/commenting about😤

YOU! 👏AIN'T!👏NEVER!👏 CATCH!👏 KANAN! "He saw all women as mythical creatures"👏 JARRUS!👏 SLIPPIN'!!!👏

Thinking about how deranged this thanksgiving was.

I hit a kid with my cane. I popped so many painkillers. I hit a kid with my cane again. I went black Friday shopping and came back only with things that weren't on sale. I hit that kid with my cane so hard in the shin he's gonna need a cane, too. I had a religious crisis. I threw my cane at that kid in the passenger seat because he said I don't need handicap parking. Some dude dressed in a really nice santa costume was just standing at the end of his driveway waving at cars and I barked violently at him. I fucking punched that kid. I spent more money on a dog than my family. I still bought that kid ice cream because I hate him but I hate the company I took the money from more. At some point I just fell asleep under the dinner table. I played Minecraft with that kid and he's a fucking loser. I had a whole therapy session in the car trauma dumping for the two hour drive home. I'm going to ruin that kids life I'm just too tired right now. It's been days and I still feel hungover. I didn't even drink.

Needless to say I think the spirit of doctor House possessed me for thanksgiving. Either way 10/10 would do again and Christmas is either gonna put me in jail or back on Lexapro

yellowjackets rant time :)

people whining that natalie’s death was “shitty writing” makes me want to bang my head against the wall. like are you seriously shocked that the show about tragedy and murder has tragedy and murder in it. are you seriously shocked that the show about fucked up people has fucked up people in it.

Hey guys I wanna make it clear I am going to specifically delete the Lucy post I made back in high school because certain people are either 1) not reading my post and getting offended that I dare to have a critical opinion about one character 2) using said post to send me horrible things and at this point I’m beyond tired of that shit 3) using said post to level accusations at me for no reason and with no evidence all because I have an issue with inconsistency.

And last of all: go fuck yourself every last anon that has sent me rape threats and has threatened to show up outside my house I am TIRED of all of it. I’m taking a goddamn break from everything to do with this fandom you lot are reminding me why I hardly ever open this app.

what are the chances my dad (known music nerd especially when it comes to bass) would be aware of any of the context or lore around Dark Alley

hope HBO at the minimum doubles the episode count for season 2. since Bill and frank the story hasn't had time to breathe. theres a great deal of rushing to get plot exposition out. jerking around from one scene to the next, some more jarring than others. the shows relying heavily on nods to the game and scenes from the game to cover for the weaker plot additions. which have grown more glaring since episode three. a consistent episode length with a larger season to tell the story and pace it out proper, especially with abbys side of things, would be a benefit.

that being said, the cast is really putting their all into it and even when their dialogue is less than stellar or they rush through a plot point to get to the next scene, the characters, for who they are in this iteration, all feel very grounded in the shows reality.

next season really needs more time. with so much pain, it'll be a struggle to watch if they're forced to speed through it all. the best part of the games is how the story takes its time getting from one plot point to the next. enjoying the growth of the characters (or screaming "just go home!" at the screen for 10 hours) and the plot unraveling even further after you get a total soul crushing breather before making your way back into the emotional thick of it.

dreamt about reuniting with my friend on the 5th anniversary of the last time we talked. hm. not a big dream interpreter but I feel like it might mean something

I'm so bewildered by any time loop media where the protagonist doesn't at least try to tell someone what's going on. Literally anyone. Just once. You're gonna live it again, dude! They won't remember! Who cares if they think you're mental, you're just gonna fast-forward to your do-over point anyway!

if it has "orders" that vague, would showing obvious enough dismay that Jean doesn't accept his agreement to them be "refusing"? In a situation where he is aware that having those tells caused him to get out of the order

I envision that as part of the ramping-up: the magic, as it grows out of control, starts actively reacting to anything Kaeya does to evade Jean's orders. Enforcing less and less explicit orders over time comes hand-in-hand with shutting down each new way Kaeya finds to work around them.

In fact, the cause-and-effect might even be the other way around! I'm tempted towards the notion that aside from the issue of a Vision's power being way more than the spell needs (and the Pyro-on-Cryo complications), the fact that a Vision responds to the intentions of their bearer is also playing into this. At the time Diluc does this magic he is still reeling from the revelation that Kaeya was deceiving him for all those years, and afraid on some level that he's going to somehow be able to wriggle out of this safeguard by fooling Jean as well. He does not want Kaeya to find any loopholes! And if I go with that, then the spell, turned by the Vision into an active rather than passive restraint, closes said loopholes as soon as Kaeya finds them--each strategy, including that one, has only a limited window before the magic starts triggering on it. And if that's what's happening, then forcing indirect or non-orders is just part of that overgrowth, because 'she didn't make it a direct order' is just another loophole, as far as that nasty mess of Abyssal magic and Vision power and Diluc's mistrust is concerned.

Even if that's not the specific mechanism I go with for why, I do know the magic is shutting down even that kind of passive resistance. The incident that makes Kaeya decide he has to tamper with it involves him being completely unable to give Jean mission-relevant information because it would have changed her strategy and the magic takes that as 'arguing' even though she would want to know. People get hurt because of it (including him)! No one gets killed this time, but... it's worth the risk to him not to put Jean in the position of being unwittingly responsible for someone's death. Because Diluc's coming home someday, and there's "so uh we might have anchored this on you without your knowledge or consent," and then there's "so uh someone died because we anchored this on you without your knowledge or consent," and there's both a moral event horizon here and, on the personal level, only so much forgiveness they can beg.

IAMALIVEHEREIWILLNEVERLETYOUFORGETABOUTMEEVERYDAYIWILLHAUNTYOUFOREVERMORE

this is especially funny because I've been asleep for the past half hour or so, I haven't sent you shit. youre the one whos fucking obsessed with me and can't stop thinking about me, you literally spent five hours going through my blog and getting mad and typing up paragraphs. die about it I dont care

You are a ray of sunshine in this world full of darkness and demons. Do not worry about the ones that screech at you. They're only jealous of you cause after all, only demons are made of negativity. It is your light that makes me smile.

I don't have the right words to express how happy this makes me, but the Tom Hanks gif is a good substitute