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#and like u kno ive seen some people like it and make a pretty good interpretation of the character that i enjoyed
this-should-do · 2 years
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video: *has or shows gordon with any sort of personality or voice*
comment secrion: ROSS SCOTT? FREEMANS MIND? ROSS SCOTT! ROSS SCOTTROSSSCOT? MINDS FREEMAN! ROSS SCOTT.
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luvuwite · 1 month
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LUVULUVU HI I HOPE U DONT MIND IF I GHIBLI RAMBLE FOR A BIT, IK U LIKE ASKS N STUFF LIKE DAT
SO I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE CAT RETURNS IT WAS SO GOOD I LOVED IT SM I ENJOYED EVERY SECOND MY EYES WERE LITERALLY GLUED TO THE SCREEN I WAS AN IPAD KID BRUH I LOVED THOSE LITTLE CATS ON MY SCREEN AUGH ‼️ IT WAS SO GOOD I NEED A SEQUEL (even tho it technically is a sequel supposedly)
IM ALSO SURPRISED ITS OLDER THAN PONYO?? CAUSE LIKE PONYO IS A CHILDHOOD CLASSIC FOR ME,, BUT PONYO JUST FEELS SM OLDER THAN THIS MOVIE. BUT THIS MOVIE CAME OUT 2002 AND PONYO CAME OUT 2008, THAT SURPRISED ME IDK?! THE TONES AND VIBES R SO DIFFERENT
BUT ANYW ANYW YEA!! ik u like ponyo, which encouraged me to come and yap ab my ghibli thoughts to u rn,, and i too love ponyo it is technically my first anime. have you watched the cat returns as well tho?
BC I RECOMMEND IT AUH IM LITERALLY HAVING A HYPERFIXATION FOR NO REASON ITS SO GOOD 😭 to me at least it was rlly fun i loved the characters it was a pretty movie as always, ghibli is beautiful
but anyw yea IM SRRY IF THIS YAP SESSION IS BOTHERSOME u don’t seem to be bothered by ppl talkin to u but im gonna be hesitant just in case. but no like i don’t have much ppl to ramble about this to bc most of my friends r like “ANIME EW” or wtv so im the nerdy one or wtv and i thought “wait what if i share my thoughts with luvu LUVU LIKES PONYO”
NO WAYYYYYYY OMOGMOGMGGM DUDE I LOVE STUDIO GHIBLIB SOOOOOO MUCH I LITERALLY HAVE WATCHED MOST OF THE MOVIESSSSSS AHHHHH
DUDE ok it sucks sm bc theres only so many friends that kno about studio ghibli PONYO IS MY ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIE OF ALL TIME AND BRUH I HATE PEOPLE HO ARE LIKE EWWW ANIMEEEEE GROW UP BRUHHHH
actually funny enough im not super into anime myself I JUST NEVER COULD GET INTO IT IDK WHY IVE ONLY WATCHED SOME ANIMES EVER BUT STUDIO GHIBLI IS THE ALL TIME TOP 10 BEST THINGS EVERRRRR
ALSO YES :333 I HAVE SEEN THE CAT RETURNS AND I FUCKING LOVED IT I WATCHED IT WITH MY GF AND WE GIGGLED AT HOW SILLY THE MOVIE WASSSS
Also literally Ponyo is my die hard movie if anyone says they love it more than me theyre AI Discord Bot 100% Trust guys
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ITS ACTUALLY MY HBO ICON LOLLL
BUT ANYWWAYY IM SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT I LITERALLY CAN GOMY ENTIRE LIFESPAN HAVING A HYPERFIXATION OF GHIBLI MOVIES AND NEVER GET BORED OF IT
ALSO i highly suggest if you watched Cat Returns watch Whisper of the Heart!! Studio Ghibli never really makes "movie part two" BUT the movie CAN SUGGEST a correlation together! ALSO HERES A VIDEO TALKING ABOUT THOSE TWO MOVIES!!! HIGHLY RECCOMEND WATCHING IT
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carpsurprise · 3 years
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bro 👁👁 if u wanna talk more abt jodi and her parenting i would LOVE to hear it :D honestly you worded it much better than i could asdmsbf ty!!
THANK U SO MUCH IVE BEEN DYING TO TALK ABOUT THIS FOR A HOT MINUTE ok im gonna bleed this in with some of MY headcanons personally and some of the canon dialogue!! i’ll bold my headcanons so its easier to differentiate what im talkin about bopbop also this is SO long im sorry
also this makes it seem like i don’t like jodi i do!! (thats my mom in law hehe) but like... just some of the stuff she says points to deeper insecurity issues. 
so in short: this is kind of a jodi analysis.
it’s def touched upon by multiple people that she doesn’t seem happy (her dialogue is full of ‘i wants’ and ‘i wishes) but i do think that’s not entirely the case, it’s just a classic mother thing to feel sort of (lack of a better word) trapped into motherhood and her responsibilities. and i def think kent being away probably worsened that.
with kent being away she was pretty much a single mother, and as seen in sam’s canon character, he has to do a lot to make up for kent’s absence... financially and emotionally, for both her and vince. vince needs a positive male figure to look up to to inspire him to be the best he can be, and jodi needs stability and help with her own responsibilities. sam tries to fulfill all of that and even some of his marriage dialogue (and his three heart event) it definitely puts stress on him.
so, sam tries his best! but in some dialogue and sam’s heart events you can see she still gets on him for things that makes him like :/ she still views him as a child occasionally despite being a full adult who is also sorta-parenting vincent, acting as some sort of doing-good role model for him, and i believeeee he says he tries to be his best specifically for vincent’s growth.
jodi still treats vincent like a child, but she still treats him better than she treats sam often. which kinda ties into the point i made about sam being the trial/error kid. i’ve headcanoned and i’ve seen others also say that kent and jodi got married straight out of high school. u kno typical military stuff. this also kind of explains her sort of ‘trapped feeling’ dialogue since it seems like she didn’t get much time to explore the world or maybe even explore herself as an individual. caroline likes gardening, marnie loves animals to death, and robin knows woodworking/a trade but jodi... just has regular ‘housewife’ things like cooking and cleaning.
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^ like this doesn’t sound like someone who had a CHOICE in what her life has turned out to be. and i think sam got the BRUNT of that.
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and here ^ she’s kind of immature in some of her dialogue, esp since (like u said in ur post!!) that sam caught on to it and has reacted negatively to it. i would venture to a point and say she most likely suffered with post-partum depression for sam especially if she felt trapped with kent as she does in game. i def think that with this and in canon, sam was probably used as her guinea pig for parenting. obviously no one is a natural born mother but if kent had just gone away in the military and she had sam, i can definitely see where some resentment for kent and sam would come in... along with resentment for herself for getting herself into that situation.
which that kind of train of thought could be an explanation for some of her self-deprecating/wants and wishes dialogue. once the issues of raising sam had kinda smoothed out, and he became old enough to realize exactly what was going on with his father/the war and his mother’s reactions to that stress, she probably already figured out how to parent vincent. esp since sam and vincent seem so similar (adhd imo) what didn’t work with sam jodi was able to figure out.
but going back to how she treats sam! i do think she would still kind of hold some resentment. obviously she loves sam but she still views him as a child, despite how mature he really is... like in his marriage dialogue and his three heart event. i honestly think his whole sunshine/golden retriever boy personality is ofc true but. partially true. i think he does it as a save face for how he really feels, which is anxious (about his fathers return and vincent growing up).
but one of the first tags i put! def more headcanon-y just from the stuff i mentioned above. jodi definitely gives me the ‘weaponizes basic needs’ in an argument type of mom. u kno the whole “i feed you, you have a roof over your head, i put clothes on your back” kind of manipulation. which.. yeah jodi you should! i think she’s very insecure about herself and very anxious over her situation and is at a constant state of trying to prove to herself her own worth. like.. the only thing she is/does is be a mother so when sam (or not so often vincent) fuck up, she takes it personally because raising those two is the only thing she really does. if she sees herself as a failure there... then what as she spent her life doing (instead of travelling/having hobbies/etc)
kids naturally fuck up she learned through sam!! one of the things my mother told me all the time while growing up was that it was “her first time ever being a mother” and i think jodi would honestly... have those same thoughts. she’s tired and overworked and on top of that has to raise two boys as a ‘single mother’. i think she’d snap easily on sam from too much pressure, whether he was younger (by accident) or as he got older (on purpose). it seems like there’s little room for accidents on anyone else’s part in her house.
like sam’s four heart event. ignoring the obvious why-the-hell-are-you-handing-me-an-egg issue, sam very obviously drops the egg on accident, and jodi storms in and creates an issue out of it. which... it’s an accident. it seems out of character for sam to drop the egg on purpose and cause an issue for his MOTHER. obviously he does stuff that makes lewis mad on purpose, but he doesn’t do stuff like that to jodi. but she still gets upset over... his hand slipping.
and his ten heart event. why don’t we talk about that more often? from her dialogue its hinted at that she thought he was ... y’know... but still had said if i recall correctly!! “i’m coming in”. there was no question and it gives sam no option to tell her no. so it seems she has that kind of ‘control’ in their house where she can just invade sam’s privacy (granted.. she knocked but still) even when she thought he was doing THAT. idk i don’t like the “i’m coming in”... it seems like she is not giving sam the further consent for her to enter his room (or private space)
ok this is long i need to wrap this up but bottom line she loves her kids. of course she does! but i think sam definitely gets treated ‘worse’ and kinda has as the firstborn/oldest. jodi, with her kids, finally has some control of her life back since she is their mother and they have to listen to her. she doesn’t know exactly what she’s doing still, and once one of the boys (sam) messes up she takes it as a personal attack since the One thing she does in her life is be a mother. this was very long but thank u !!!! i love doing a lil character analysis
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gayspock · 2 years
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you mentioned in some of your tags that you don’t know what the fanon/general fandom opinions were. from what I’ve seen (I’m also a new fan) vi/caitlyn is pretty big (my guess would be because of how blatant it is), however, with...idk how to put this? average LOL fans think it was rushed and don’t like it. tumblr, of course, is into it tho. jayce/viktor is also huge. a lot of people seem to resonate with jinx and silco’s familial relationships. I’ve also seen a lot of people in the fandom not recognize the ableism in Viktor’s arc, which is worrying. if you don’t care to spoil yourself on where these character’s arcs will go in future seasons, I suggest you look up the LOL lore of: vi, ekko, viktor, and jayce. some are just...a slap to the face. anyways, have a good day/evening.
OHH okay omg (nods) tysm for a brief little insight, bc i was looking in the tag a little but it feels like tumblr's tag algorithm is a lot worse thn wht it was even before. unless the fanbase on here is smaller than wht i thought or sth HELP OK lemme dump this reply under a read more bc im rambly pjhpsrgjssfpgs
but a lot of tht hm? i THINK thats just about wht i expected - so no big surprises.
i dont blame the average LOL fans- a sentence i never thought i'd say skpgjsp - bc i can deffo see a lot of the places where it was like..eh. yknow. i said it myself. it feels a little undercooked in some places, and seemed more paced to keep it fast and snappy. like they kinda like they really could have spent more time on a lot of things- and so i presume tht'd be rllly frustrating if u were deeper into the pre-existing lore.
then regarding these little guys.... yeh i think i heard abt vi/caitlyn bein p big. :3 i still stnd by not rlly giving a damn (HELP, thats said with love i prommy)- but you kno nonetheless im happy tht ppl are enjoying a wlw relationship..... like its good they arent being sidelined by ppl. even if im not into tht scene i'll just nod from a distance.
BUT, THOUGH DO YOU KNOW WHATS SO, SO FUNNY? like ok. viktor and jayce obviously, like, occurred to me- but i also just kinda. kept pushing it to the back of my head? does that make any sense? like- jesus like. WELL DUH THEY'D HAVE SOME TUMBLR GIRLIES GOING WILD... silly me... and its like i feel like i sorta figured tht'd be going down, but it was in my peripherals out of clear sight HELP. wasnt helped by the fsct they kept separating the besties in the latter half- which i mean, obviously tht was bc of them drifting away frome ach other and stuff, but oh sniff sniff im emo nonetheless bc i rlly loved their relationship... 💖 LIKE i think its just in my head i kkinda just . i have no idea i never labelled them as anything i just kept jokingly mentally referring to viktor as his little bestie with a heart above the i, keeping them fun an ambiguous whilst medara gets her shit rock'd by him HELP PGJS[0JDH[PGKBPSD.
but also, on the subject of viktor- ah... yeah. :/ i wasnt sure if tht'd be sth tht'd be talked abt and.... the more it rlly became apparent, the more i hoped it wouldnt just be glossed over but . also ik tht happens a lot with things like this. god. i do hope tht those conversations are had at some point, more openly- like,granted im probs not gonna be knocking abt the communities on here tht much (and even if i was, im not sure how much i could really input into that?!) but yeah. thats a shame. 3:
and hm.... you know i might look into it. just bc theres some guys here im GENUINELY pretty into and idk if the show itself will fully give them their dues, even if it doesnt diverge- bc im INTERESTED... i love viktor. and ekko. and vi. sooo badly. and im super curious abt jayce. so help. i might go spoil myself now (bc in truth ive never been tht mad abt spoilers irpdgphjdhj and idk how much it counts here anyways).
THANK U FOR THE LITTLE THOUGHTS ANON. ITS NICE TO HAVE ANY JUMPING OFF POINTS TO CHATTER AWAY. i will have a good ... norning... <3 its like 2am here omg
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whaleofatjme1920 · 3 years
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HEY B GIMMIE THAT SWEET SWEET RIVAL MATCHUP U ALREADY KNO
You already know who this is but ill still give u a hot rundown: My names Ally, im 20 years old 5’7’’ and a Leo/year of the dragon/INFP. She/They pronouns and im Pansexual but i dont think that matters much in this situation >:P. Appearance wise i have shoulder length curly red hair and green/grey eyes, suuuuper pale skin and freckles. Im def an ambivert, very protective of people who mean alot to me and kind of sharp tempered, especially when people start talking about shit they dont know anything about. Im also a pretty big perfectionist and people pleaser and will beat the FUCK outta myself if i feel like i let people down or made people upset when i could have helped it. But thats all about me, heres those wacky questions!
- Stated before, but im an August Leo! I would say my aura would probably be a pinkish/ purple color? For dislikes i def dont like bitter foods, being too hot, rumors, people talking behind my back, ppl who act like they know what theyre talking about, ppl cutting me off when i lose my train of thought, conservatives, not caring about climate change/the planet in general, tight or restrictive clothes, not having enough time in the day, capitalism, ect. Honestly the most off the wall thing for me that would make me throw hands on sight would probably be someone saying some shit about my close friends behind their back to me.
- Once when I was 14 me and about 10 other people squeezed into a mini van at about 3am and drove around the town, not a single one of us had a license or were over the age of 16, and we were all ridiculously drunk and high the entire time (except the driver. we were underage, not stupid). After driving halfway across the island we got pulled over by cop on the interstate, and he walked up to the car, looked at the driver, then into the passenger seat and saw literally 10 KIDS OBVIOUSLY DRINKING and the car absolutely reeked of bud, then looked back at the driver and simply told him “Your tail light is out. Get home safe” and drove away. Ive never seen god faster than that moment LMAO
- I could never willingly fight a raccoon, youre sick for suggesting that >:/ They are precious boys and ive saved too many from drowning in my pool for me to lay a finger on one. And as for dealbreakers? My biggest one in a relationship is cheating, but thats pretty basic LMAO. I would also say one that’s definitely second in rank would be expecting someone to stay the same through out the relationship and getting upset when the person changes. We are human beings and developing and growing, if you dont support me in that nothing is going to work. I explained a bunch of things i dislike in people above, but ill also add in here people who hurt animals in any way/ litter for no reason. If one of my friends throws a piece of trash out of my car im slammin on the brakes and youre getting out and picking it up. And god forBID you touch an animal around me il doing whatever you did to it to yourself no hesitation.
- I would hate being stuck in a room with anyone, i have decently bad claustrophobia and if we were in there for more than a day i would start bugging out LOL But probably the worst type of person would be someone who just doesn’t shut up and trys to act like they know everything. Those are like, the most insufferable people to me. ESPECIALLY if theyre wrong and refuse to admit it. Whenever i think of being locked in a room, somehow i always imagine like a dark navy blue room with one small window and completely empty floors and walls, everything made out of carpet. Dont ask me why, i have absolutely no clue.
my feed back is ily bitch gimmie a good one i wanna fight a bitch
Your enemy is… Eyeless Jack!
In general:
I told you this yesterday but I wasn’t expecting you to send this in and must've spent like 5 straight minutes wheezing reading this. My gut reaction was Jeff, but based on what you wrote about the room, I’m going to say your enemy is actually Eyeless Jack!
Things he doesn’t like about you and how he pisses you off:
EJ doesn’t like that you’re a Leo. I’m not elaborating on that. He’s such a cold, clinical, heartless bastard that everything you are just goes against whatever tf he actually believes and acts as. I feel like you being a perfectionist would just brush against his perfectionist tendencies and habits. He’d say everything you’re doing is wrong. Just a dick. EJ may or may not exploit your weaknesses but that’s just because he thinks it’s fun and doesn’t like you.
EJ is a god of knowing what he’s talking about and it leads to this cocky, know it all attitude. It’s gonna brush you the wrong way. He knows that and takes joy in it. He will always attempt to one up you in knowledge and grin when he sees you falter. On the other end, if you catch him off guard he’s gonna be SO MAD. He will purposely turn up the heat in your presence just to make you upset. He will breathe down your neck and get in your personal space just to make you more uncomfortable. EJ isn’t anywhere NEAR a conservative or a climate change denier but he will take those positions just to make you mad and laugh over your attempts at arguing with him. Like Jeff, he’s a huge devil’s advocate and will start shit just because he can. I don’t actually think he’d talk about your friends negatively in front of you though, but he would definitely say stuff about you to your face.
EJ thinks it’s stupid you drank underage and will poke that memory. He will use insults about alcohol and the brain despite drinking a ton himself. If you call him out on it, he will fold. Literally throw everything he says about you back at him and he will get puffy and fast. EJ can’t always handle change that well so like, he’s a stubborn guy. Despite how logical he can be and how smart he is, socially he is so uncouth!! EJ doesn’t litter so you don’t have to worry about that but he’s definitely gonna do things that push your buttons, mostly say things that put you off. He’s not claustrophobic. He will put you in situations like that just because he can. The dark navy blue of his mask is going to haunt you. EJ will act like a god in your presence and snarl when you dare question his abilities. CALL HIM OUT. HUMBLE HIM PLEASE.
He agrees on the raccoon thing ngl. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, but EJ has such a soft spot for animals - mostly birds - but he can’t fault you for the raccoon thing. He's also not too fond of litter so he has to agree with you on that one too.
Closing Thoughts/Other Things:
Knowing you for as long as I have, I was so, so ready to actually put you with Jeff. However, the more I read into this the more my intuition screeched that you would actually throw hands with EJ and I find that HILARIOUS. Just the arguments between you and this tall, muscular demon man is just - “what? What? WHAT” It’s beautiful. I’m serious, Merida vs. a literal demon. That’s all. Ily. <3
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wildgeese2017 · 3 years
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You: what makes you happy?
Stranger: His smile
You: thats so nie
You: nice
Stranger: But I haven’t seen in in a while
You: :(
Stranger: What makes you happy?
You: i like lying down and feeling the earth cradling my whole physical body i like listening to music by myself
You: but i feel like its all sucks bc it never lasts
You: like his smile
You: i dont know how to make sense of it all
Stranger: I feel you
Stranger: Seems like nothing lasts
You: it scares me
Stranger: And you never know when the last time is going to be the last time
Stranger: You always think you will have more
Stranger: Until you don’t
You: i feel like an animal i feel so blind to what fate has planned for me
You: i want to believe in something to sort of see everything through the right lens but i just dont know whether i cud
You: like i dont know what gods means to me
You: what does it mean to you?
Stranger: I try to trust in him
Stranger: But the faith is being tested
Stranger: I feel like so much unfairness couldn’t come from god
You: i used to know so surely that the whole point of this suffering was that it was a test or an inevitabilty but i worry that my conclusion was false
You: im scared that my faith is just learned helpessness
You: do you have anything you wanted to say
You: like why you are on this platform
Stranger: I just hope you get enough motivation to hold on
Stranger: Even if it’s the bare minimum
You: thanks im fine i just feel so confused
Stranger: I am pretty sure that someday something will come that will make it worth it
You: im doing well im being nice to my loved ones im going to work im having fun im just existentially terrified
Stranger: For everyone
You: yeh i think so too
You: i kno u dont kno me but im rooting for you
Stranger: How old are you ? Sorry if that’s too personal
You: im 20
Stranger: I’m rooting for you too!!! 😄
You: thx
Stranger: The confusion starts at the twenty’s
Stranger: I’m 25 and haven’t figured it out
You: lol ive been confused 4 so long tho
You: i think being confused is the whole point
Stranger: Maybe the meaning of life isn’t to find it purpose
Stranger: But to live and live while it lasts
Stranger: Love*
You: like its all just fluctuations of energy and the universe is just reminding itself that it exists bc being is the point of being like a perfect circle of belief and truth
You: yes i think so too
You: but it leads me to chasing empty bliss
Stranger: You should write a book about it
Stranger: Or poems
You: i want to feel more purpose but i dont know how im scared of nit finding peace and my vulnerability being exploited
You: i write poetry but i feel as tho i havent developed craft
Stranger: You must be brave to feel extraordinary :)
You: how do u express urself?
You: :)
Stranger: I dance
You: <3
Stranger: I’m a dancer
You: thats so wonderful
Stranger: Not good with words
You: does it make you feel free? i can only dance with the lights off
Stranger: Sometimes I turn the music up and close my eyes and just dance whatever I feel inside
You: that sounds nice
You: what kind of music do u like?
Stranger: And most of the times it feels like breaking my own heart
You: :(
Stranger: But it flies itself back together right after
You: in a good or bad way?
Stranger: Glues*
You: sometimes i wish i cud crack open my heart and show people
Stranger: I feel like a slightly cracked heart must fall apart to be build up again
You: i always paraphrase kafka when he said the reason for everything he did is to try and express the unexpressable
Stranger: People tend to ignore small cracks
Stranger: But take it serious when it’s all in pieces
You: :( i wish we cud all b more gentle with each other
Stranger: Same
You: i wish i had more energy to see everyones breaking hearts and fill up the cracks with my own love
Stranger: And I wish we would only fall in love with people who fall for us back
You: are you in love with him?
Stranger: I am
You: i dont kno whether ive ever been in love love what is it like?
Stranger: I’ve been in love once before
Stranger: And I swore I’d never open myself up for anyone
Stranger: And my best friend convinced me to go on this date with this guy
Stranger: And when he kissed me I just knew
You: that must hav been terrifying
Stranger: Took me 5years tho
Stranger: To fall like this again
Stranger: It was
Stranger: In it’s ironic way
Stranger: And it still is
You: i can tget close to anyone like that bc ive got all this stuff i cant let anyone see its brave for you to let someone in even if it hurts
Stranger: You know what?
Stranger: It wasn’t a decision I made !!
You: huh i never thought of it that way
You: maybe it was god
Stranger: Im fact the decision I took was to not let him in before we went on that date
Stranger: It wasn’t something I was in control of
Stranger: And it took him 5 hours to kiss me 😄
Stranger: And when he did time stopped
Stranger: And so did my senses except for feeling
You: what makes him so special? is it just the way he makes you feel or is there a big reason in your mind?
Stranger: It’s …
Stranger: How can I say this
Stranger: He was a surprise
Stranger: I didn’t expect him to be that good
You: did you feel like you had met before?
Stranger: I thought he’d be just another mediocre guy
You: so he suprised you
Stranger: But when I saw his smile and eyes I just knew I was screwed
Stranger: Yeah
Stranger: Feel good to finally talk about all this haha
You: ive never felt that way about way about anyone it sounds so confusing
You: is he kind?
Stranger: He was
You: is he not anymore?
Stranger: Sadly no
You: :(
Stranger: He decided to take a step back from me
You: what did he do to make you feel this way (if you dont mind me askin)
You: oh
Stranger: I remember when he called me to tell me he’s not ready for a relationship
You: what are you going to do? i cant imagine never seeing anyone i care about like that again
Stranger: Last time I saw him was three weeks ago
Stranger: And last time I heard from him was one week bwfore
You: did you know him long before ?
Stranger: Three months
Stranger: Not that long
Stranger: But I knew what he would mean to me when I first saw him
Stranger: So it felt like a smaller eternity
You: that sound so difficult
Stranger: I miss him terribly:)
You: i cant imagine feeling that way it wud really scare me everyone i talk to ive known for like 8years i cant give so much of myself to someone new
Stranger: You don’t have to give yourself to someone all at once
Stranger: Be protective of your energy
Stranger: And never trust the other person to not hurt you!
Stranger: But trust yourself and how you will react to it
Stranger: Trust that’s you would be strong enough to handle it
You: do you think he saw the real you? its so weird to think that everyone percieves you differently and out of your own control i worry that i focus too much on an idea of a person that i cud be
Stranger: Yea and no
Stranger: What I showed him was the real me but I also know that I didn’t show him everything that I am
Stranger: I feel your fear ! You got to know who you are as a person first
Stranger: And you got to be authentic with the people around you
You: i think it takes so long to show a clear picture of urself and its always moving and running away from the person you were when you last talked to that person who you want to really see you
Stranger: Exactly!
Stranger: That’s probably the most genuine talk I ever had
You: im so tired of trying to be a person i wish i cud just melt into everyone around me but theres so much i dislike about those around me and its not possible anyway. its just hard knowing the reason for everything is human connection and not living in a way that respects that truth
Stranger: Thank you
You: thank you too
You: i really appreciate your sharing its so scar to be honest out loud
You: *scary
Stranger: True
Stranger: I guess being anonymous makes it easier
You: yeh i just i was going to see a friend today who i feel like understands me but i couldnt in the end and i needed to express a part of myself u kno even tho im talking to other people who know me and care its not the same
You: i hope ou feel better soon regardless of what he chooses for himself
Stranger: I know exactly what you mean
Stranger: After all I have to choose myself over him as well :)
Stranger: Sometimes love isn’t enough
Stranger: Who am I fooling… most of the times it’s not enough
You: i have so many kind lovely friends and family who is trying but i cant let go of this heavy thing its like theres always some invisible chain wrapped around me
You: yeh :(
You: why cant we all help each other more
Stranger: Not many people are spiritual enough to say love is enough and all that matters f*ck the rest
You: i know so many people in pain and im too tired to be there all the time
You: its easy for me to say love is enough when i dont hav so many real problems that cant b solved with love alone
Stranger: I really pray for you to break out of those chains
Stranger: You seem like an amazing loving and caring person
Stranger: You deserve happiness
You: thanks i dont kno whether my hope has any power to reach you but i really hope you get some relief from your pain too
You: you too
You: i think we all do but i cant know that im so lucky to not meet people who are cruel enough to take that belief away from me
Stranger: And if you ever do meet people like that do me the favor of removing them immediately
Stranger: If it costs you your peace it’s too exoenz
You: i guess but i always think what happens to them when im gone?
Stranger: Expensive *
You: where do they go?
Stranger: ALWAYS !
You: what do they feel?
Stranger: That’s none of your business
Stranger: Let them find their own way
You: yeh i think we all need to respect ourselves to let go of toxicity
Stranger: You don’t have to guide them
You: i just feel like i want to care more i want to love more but i dont and that makes me feel small and selfish i wish we cud all connect our love its so scary not being able to reach each other
You: im scared to change and become better it sounds so hard i feel so selfish
Stranger: You’re not selfish if it means protecting your energy
Stranger: But don’t stand in your own way
Stranger: Be brave
Stranger: Can’t stress that enough
You: thanks i think i do need to be braver i try and look more people in the eye but maybe i need to be brave against myself more than against other people
Stranger: Have you ever watched greys anatomy?
You: since they arent in my control
You: no but all my friends love it
You: its on my list loll
Stranger: So Meredith grey said something like :
Stranger: Maybe she wasn’t opening up to people not because she was scared of the love she would receive
Stranger: But scared of what would happen when they took this live away from her someday
Stranger: Once you get a taste of love
Stranger: It’s like a drug
Stranger: Love*
You: like you and him, i find it hard to accept it when people choose me over someone else so i push them away to other people and i get upset that they replaced me
You: love is so scary
You: its too much
Stranger: Me and him …
Stranger: I feel like this story is not over yet
Stranger: :)
Stranger: And that calms me
You: i think if you have so much love inside you, u will succeed and find yourself in a good place if you focus on that love
Stranger: Yeah
Stranger: I literally believe in love because of the way I know I am capable to love
You: sometimes i worry that im not capable of love like that like i have something inside me that puts people off even though on a surface level i seem nice and passionate or sweet or whatever
You: like i worry im just playing a part and soon ill get tired of acting and i wont be what people need anymore
Stranger: Don’t worry too much
Stranger: Just truly be yourself
You: thanks i will try too
You: its so weird loving life this much and still not being happy
Stranger: Damn
You: like im so happy but its never enough
You: its not the right kind of joy it wont fit
Stranger: And this whole convo started with this simple question
You: loll
Stranger: What makes you happy
Stranger: Lol
Stranger: You know what I just realized
You: wot :0
Stranger: My answer was wrong in so many ways
Stranger: Your happiness shouldn’t be depending on someone else
Stranger: Cause you can’t control other peoples behavior
You: thats so real
You: its so scary tho since you cant b alone but you cant rely purely on others
Stranger: Your happiness should only be in your hands
Stranger: So controversial
Stranger: It’s a daily risk lol
You: like other people are all that matters but to them you are the other people so we all need to be kind to ourselves to be kind to each toher but we're all to hurt and scared to do all of it in the right way
You: we're all walking around with a piece of the happy puzzle and we have'nt figured out how to put it together
Stranger: sometimes we forget that all people are vulnerable and maybe hurting too
Stranger: When someone hurts your feelings you tend to forget you might have hurt theirs too
You: i always remember but i dont always respect it and that makes me dislike the kind of person i let myself be
Stranger: You will learn to
You: i hope so
You: i think thats the point
Stranger: Don’t pressure yourself
You: like we live and we all learn the same lesson
You: but it seems like its always repeating
You: like why haven't we learned it yet
You: like we're all one soul
You: and we can't reach the end of this problem or is the point how good we feel at points of it? i cant just chase joy if its fleeting iworry that even love is fleeting
You: idk i know we only hav the present
You: like all the advice uve given me i trust it
You: i just freak out thinking of the big picture
Stranger: Relax 😄
Stranger: It’s not all that serious
Stranger: Don’t forget to live along the way
Stranger: Love was never meant to be safe or measured!
Stranger: You got to be brave and love irritationally
You: i think that that is fair i just i go long stretches living and then i remember the whole question of why and how shud i live and i get all tangled up again
Stranger: And instead of being scared, trusting yourself with it
You: i think i need to trust more and i think faith is trust
Stranger: Grow and learn to trust yourself
You: i want to have more faith in myself in others in the future i just worry the way i acheive this will only be a bandaid i want more than blind faith i want to see the world and see it as it is and still feel love and joy and trust the universe and myself to experience it correctly and even let go of the whole concept of correct.
Stranger: I also think I might fall asleep soon lol
You: thanks for listening i think i will too lol good luck i wish you all the best <£
You: <3
Stranger: That’s what I wish you too
Stranger: From the bottom of my heart
You: :-)
Stranger: Take care strangee
You: u 2 :-)
Stranger: Stranger*
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HI GUYSSS bricky here ^_^ with a topic thats been SORT OF a BIG thing here in the brickhead fandom lately 😥!!! now i know there are a LOT of new brickheads here (HII welcome to hell LOL!!! we have fruit punch and cookies in the back hehe ><) but ive seen some veteran brickheads do this too 😐😐.....
(ALSOO srry i cant put this under a read more im stuck at da store LMAO 😭)
ok so basically there are a couple types of brickheadsona thingies!!!! there r some that are just like brick sized little dudes but a lil personalized or whatever (likeee the guy at the top there!!! 😋), but there are also some that are brick objectheads!!! basicllyy that means that instead of a human person head, its an object or animal or WHATEVAR (i have one of these too!!!! 😞 but people r so much harder 2 draw than cute little boxes....)!! but theres been a new kinda trend thing lately that id like to address!!!
u CANT make a bricksona out of a structurally unstable or volatile material just for the aesthetic!!! 🤬
it makes me SOOOO MAD as one of the first bricklovers/supremebrick fans when i see bricksonas based off of paper lanterns or dirt covered in FUNGUSES or FIRE or something??? 😐😐 like okayy i dont wanna sound like the bad guy here but if you build ur ""bricksona"" out of something not conventionally found in a brick, you're not makin a bricksona thats just a fucking objecthead!!!!
like YEAH, i know its fun and i kno its neat but UNLESS U CAN MAKE A GOOD ARGUMENT FOR WHY UR BRICKSONA IS MADE OUTTA STUPID LEGO BRICKS OR SOMETHING YOURE NOT MAKING A REAL BRICKSONA!!!! get with the program or go back 2 minecraft or something 🙄🙄 fake
ALSO ANOTHER THING!!!! 😤the REASON this is bad is because it normalizes the idea that building structures out of unsafe materials is fine as long as it looks pretty!!!! DO U REALLY WANT PPL TO BE BUILDIN UR HOUSE OUT OF AQUARIUM GLASS AND SHIT?? 😡😡😡 JUST SAY YOU SUPPORT RECKLESS BUILDING TECHNIQUES AND LEAVE!!!!!
AND!!!!! ANOTHER ANOTHER THING!!!! BEFORE PEOPLE START GOING AFTER ME FOR HAVING MY OWN UNREALISTIC BRICKSONA DESIGN!!!! 😡😡😡😡 SHES NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS U SOGGY WAFFLES!!!!! she only turns into her catbrick (catgirl but for bricks 😋😋 coined by me originally so dont say u came up with it!!!) catbrick form when she puts on her heart earrings!!!! ANY OTHER TIME, SHE IS A PERFECTLY USABLE CALCIUM SILICATE BRICK WITH RED-PINK PIGMENT TO SIMILATE THE LOOK OF A COMMON RED BURNT CLAY BRICK!!!! so DONT try comin after me if u dont know what ur talking about 😤😤😠 ill EAT UR BONES!!!!!
thank u for reading 😒 im just tired of seeing this reckless miss information being spread all over da place!!! im not saying get RID of ur "unrealistic bricksona", but at LEAST accept that its dangerous promoting the idea of unsafe building materials. and just call it an object head FFS!!!!!! 😣😣 god!!!
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seriaph · 4 years
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valentine fandom asks. do ‘em all for homey stuck
oh dang... ALL of them? here we go!
Your favourite non-canon ship?
probably junedave!
Is there a ship you didn’t like at first but ultimately started shipping?
roxygen def
What is the rarest rare pair (that you ship)?
davepeta/karkat purrhaps? or most of my wlw ship tbh lol. vrisrose, jadevris, jadekan, others...
Name a popular ship you don’t get the appeal of.
g4mk4t. is that still popular actually? i dont rly know tbh
What is your most fluffy + happy ship?
pale davenep maybe? i like da angst factor of my ships
What is your most angsty ship?
rosemary & vrisrezi are both so angsty and i love them so much but rosemary gets the crown for “has caused me to shed the most tears”. dirkjake is also angsty but they can go in their dang corner its rosemary time
A non-canon ship that should be canon?
janeroxycallie make it happen
Your oldest ship; the one you’ve shipped for the longest time?
my very FIRST ship was karezi but i dont ship it as much anymore, but i still do get the Nostalgia Pangs. as for a ship that i currently ship v hard that would be davekat, ive shipped them for 8ish years? and counting! :D junedave would also be up there but i wasnt to wild about it back then, junedave was def v weird in fandom in 2012-2013 lol. i mean so was davekat but june was just so...... meh u kno? like she was not even june anymore, fanon june was horrid
What ship represents the kind of relationship you’d love to have?
i cant think of one! :)
Is there a ship that makes your skin crawl?
*looks at the clown* *forces a smile* but as for a ship i have to see a lot that makes me absolutely uncomfortable? it starts with a stri and ends with an est, i have to filter soooo many tags just to get *most* of it outta my sight haha
What is a character you can only imagine in one particular ship?
this is a tough one! i woulda answered with dirkjake if dirkkat wasnt a thing that i ship now. i’d say jane i guess? with roxycallie. i dont really ship her with anyone else, sorry jasprose
What is your favourite canon ship?
rosemary and davekat
Name a ship that deserved more content.
roxycallie
Is there a ship you feel gets undeserved hate in fandom?
davejadekat got undeserved hate in *canon*. also give eridan ships a chance they dont have to be Like That, keep her away from women tho and im fine
What is the first ship you had?
karezi! i saw someone mention homestuck once and i looked it up and saw some karezi pictures & immediately fell in love with terezi t-the ship yes definitely (i was a repressed gay aksdljgakdslg)
Is there a ship that made you realise something about yourself?
no :)
Is there a type of ship you always go for?
rivals to lovers, or just people who bicker lovingly
Is there a ship the writers have ruined for you?
hey writers? whats up with rosemary? hey writers? hey? okay real talk davejadekat
Is there a ship the fandom has ruined for you?
tavros. just in general. oh and junekat but ive been coming back around to that one recently
Have you ever created fan created content for a ship?
yeah obvs
Favourite thing you’ve ever created for a ship?
one time i drew a picture of rose sleeping in kanayas arms but she was not a pretty sleeper let me tell you
Is there a ship you’ll never admit you have?
i uh... still like karkats shipping chart & the patron ships. junerose, davejade, jadekat, junevris, rosemary(this ones good tho lol), and kinda daverezi but tbh i dont rly ship it that much
Have you ever started shipping a ship because of the fans?
yeah def i depend on fans to see like 99% of ships tbh
What is one scene you want to see happen for all your ships?
kissy
I there a ship you wish you didn’t know existed?
i could live the rest of my life comfortably without ever having seen gamjane
Name a ship that ended like you wanted it to.
:( i guess davekat? they WERE together in homestuck proper, but the epilogues retconned that? and then they got back together in hs2 so i guess thats fine...
Name a ship that deserved better in the end.
rosevriskanrezi
Is there a character you have several ships for?
yes absolutely, im a multishipper at heart. june & karkat are my biggest targets
What is the ship you ignore 98% of canon for?
any ship that involves a dancestor, but leb8ifins definitely. i have to ignore a lot of canon to even like a dancestor tbh. i also like to ignore the epilogues because i still havent read them :)
Is there a ship you like but you dislike the fandom?
i guess gamtav has rights... i just dont like to see what fandom hands me in regards to gamzee and tavros tbh. idk i dont like when theyre baby-ified like theyre assholes let them be assholes lol. two jerks in love bonding over their traumas u kno. plus whenever gamzee dates a person it always ends up bad so its like tavros u ok there buddy... u gonna be good there... i guess gamzee fans ignore a lot of canon tho to like him haha. can relate, i like jane. (oh i didnt mention but sometimes i see really gross stuff? and its usually tied to that ship, so i guess its like a red flag or something even when i see a normal picture because i Remember)
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the-coolest-mallard · 4 years
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Like a Kickass Guy | ASC
Louie gets high at Mei’s party and texts Nemo and Tae.
@justkeepdancing-nemo​ @moon-yeongtae​
Louie: holy shit u guyyyyyy Louie: shit has been going dowwwwwwwwn. Or upside down? down and up really lol Louie: i may not have muscles n shit but guess WHAT I DID Tae: hulked out and killed someone? Louie: woah man no! Duuuuuude have u seen me? impossible Louie: i'm too cute to go to jail yet Louie: i mean EVER Louie: im too cute to go to jail EVER Louie: did a keg stand lol. sorta Tae: whoa nice Tae: how you feelin? Louie: a m a z i n g Louie: you won't BELIEVE how good i am Louie: i felt like IRON - no. i felt like CAPTAIN AMERICA. LIKE A KICK ASS Louie: GUY Tae: nice dude i'm glad ur having fun Tae: is mark there Louie: he was here somewhere. he asked me to come Louie: dunno where he went. maybe he's with johnny idk Louie: but who cares lol Louie: i'm great Louie: no more sads Tae: wow you're really drunk huh? Louie: nooooooooooooo Louie: haha I was gonna drink Louie: but then this weird girl showed up Louie: and now i'm super
Tae: but you said you did a keg stand Tae: that's like drinking isnt it? Louie: is it? i thought it was just a hand stand on a keg lol Louie: who knows? not me Tae: i mean i guess Tae: what weird girl Louie: idk blond. weird. she wanted me to CHEAT ON MARK WTF Louie: i mean she seriously helped me out but also Louie: wtf Louie: weird. so weird. but we went to the bathroom and she Louie: gave me t his stuff n i'm like Louie: wow i mean i can't stop talking Louie: i think I've said some seriously stupid shit Tae: wait Tae: what? Louie: what? i didn't tell you anything stupid did I? Louie: i don't think i did. thank god. imaigngi f i told u that Louie: lololol i'd die forever Tae: louie what are you taking about what stuff Louie: stuff? which stuff Louie: im not tellig Tae: what did she give you Louie: ohhhhhhhhhhh Louie: oh i can tell u that haha Louie: she called it all kinds of weird stuff like snow white or whatever which is bizarre af but whatever Louie: i like sniffed it and it felt super whack Tae: LOUIE WHAT THE FUCK Louie: and then it was like Louie: wow Louie: idk man i wanted to not feel sad and i feel good now Tae: holy shit what the fuck i cannot believe Tae: louie that was so dumb Louie: you're so dumb! Louie: no that's not true Louie: you're my faovriedgof person ever Tae: where the fuck is nemo why isn't he here to tell you how stupid that was where are you Tae: you're at mei's right Louie: yeh i crashed lol Louie: well no mark and johnny wanted to crash Louie: and since mark's been cool and let me stay at his place i was like Louie: well i should probs go Tae: yeah well THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD'VE FUCKING DONE COKE OR WHATEVER YOU DID jesus fuck Nemo: wait wtf did i just read Tae: yeah Tae: i have to go fucking get him Louie: why are you maddddd? im not bugging anyone! i'm having fun! Nemo: wait whats going on! Nemo: louie are you okay? Louie: i'm FINE Louie: i'm super Nemo: he did cocaine? Louie: super human Tae: he's at mei's party and he fucking YES Louie: you could say Louie: ughhh stop making this so big Tae: do you know how many kids my brother had to see in the hospital bc of drugs louie? Nemo: yeah that stuffs really bad Nemo: its human chemicals Nemo: do you feel okay? are you dizzy? Louie: do you know what else is bad? life. being sad. freddie mercury leaving too soon. presidents. earthquakes Nemo: louie D: Louie: tthe hunger games Tae: hey louie seriously how are you feeling like Tae: in your body Louie: that's a weird thing 2 akks dud Louie: im fine! Tae: okay but like Tae: if u close ur eyes and like idk try to feel what's happening like is your heart beating really fast? do you feel like puking? do you feel like you're moving? Louie: oh i mean yeah lol Louie: my heart is skipping faster n when i Louie: wait i gotta shut up shut up Nemo: tae yah is that bad? Nemo: would jun hyung know? Tae: i'm asking him right nwo Louie: so fussy you guys are fussy im gooood Nemo: louie just keep texting u ok Louie: look how good i am Louie: 
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Nemo: very pretty Tae: yeah gorgeous how's your breathing Louie: wouldnt u like 2 kno Louie: how's your butt Louie: bet its still kicckable Tae: you have literally never kicked my ass at anything Tae: nemo does your appa know about this stuff? you probably shouldn't ask him huh? Louie: DON'T AOISFJPDOGN Nemo: its human drugs Nemo: so not really Louie: 4 THE LOV OF GOD Louie: that guy lredy probs haaaaaates me Nemo: his magic wouldnt work either i dont think Louie: im a toxin to freidn parnets Nemo: yeah if he ever finds out we woudl be banned from being in the same school i think he'd transfer me to that catholic place and appa hates catholicism Nemo: this is why you shouldnt do drugs louie :heart: dont yu wanna keep being my friend Louie: :cry: :cry: :cry: Louie: you're my best mate wgodidpsdggdfh Louie: you too tae Tae: wow rude Tae: oh okay Louie: wow Louie: dont be such a bitch tae Tae: well you started it when you did cocaine Louie: i used to think u were the coolest but maybe  im demoting u n promoing Louie: nemo Louie: nemo ur the new hottie Tae: the what Louie: what? Tae: louie i'm coming to get you Louie: whyyyyy the partys still partying Louie: ppl be FITIN Louie: man ud fit right in with your muscle bod Louie: well cept one fitghts girls Tae: where are you in the house Louie: idk the dance place. the life space Louie: where everyone is? Nemo: is jun going too? Nemo: aghaldkfjaskldfj Tae: yeah Louie: wait wait wait wait wait Nemo: ugh im sorry i cant be there Louie: where u going Nemo: louie im so sorry just keep texting us Louie: no Louie: i should dkslefadkad Tae: hey louie what's your favorite queen song Louie: skedlolde Louie: what? ohhhhh wow tough choice man i mean Louie: there are soooo many good SONGS Louie: lately i've been listening 2 somebody to love a lot cause i been dfpsogdpsjsd Louie: buuuuuut Tae: i like don't stop me now Louie: that's my OTHER FAVORITE Louie: man u vibe so well with me i hate it Louie: ha ha ha Louie: j k this is why we're bffs Nemo: hey queen was on the CD you gave me Nemo: ive been listening to it! Louie: reallyyyyy? did you like it? Louie: hey hey tae tae. taeeeeeeee. tae you should send a slefdie Louie: slefit Louie: sel fie Nemo: course! i love it Nemo: maybe i'll pick a song and choreo a dance for it Tae: you want a selfie? Louie: oooooo yes please nemo Louie: and def yes pls tae Louie: do smehthing cute Nemo [deleted]: ugh louiealkf Nemo: where's mark again? Nemo: im gonna text mark Louie: idkkkkkkk Tae: 
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Louie: he went to do some stuff with johnny Louie: woahhhhhhhhh Louie: waogdisjdpsgjosg Louie: shit Tae: that's me coming to get ur dumb ass Louie: wait ur coming to get me? Louie: shit shit shit wait i gotta skedoled Louie: skedadled Tae: what? Louie: well much as i think ur great im ok Louie: also i thinkk hoooo shit Louie: gotta ifnd a window lol Tae: louie if you don't stay there i will fucking murder you Tae: i'm serious Louie: deth by tae or tdeth by uncle d when he fins out Louie: shit mn if i stay its a double featur Nemo: :/ Nemo: please louie, we're worried about you Nemo: we love you! we just want to make sure you're okay Tae: yeah Tae: you're gonna stay the night with me okay Louie: oh god Tae: it'll be great Louie: hahaahahahahahaha Louie: N E M O Louie: tell him why i suddenly Louie: sgosigdsgsdg Nemo: louie  i think you should Nemo: um drink water Louie: im good ill just find Louie: makr Louie: mark Nemo: that's also good please find mark Louie: n go to his place? Tae: what did i say Nemo: nothing he's on drugs Tae: i said stay put Louie: im really good thouuuugh Louie: n mark will look out for me Louie: marks nce Tae: well mark left u alone and you did cocaine so i mean not that that's his fault i'm just saying Nemo: ugh what if mark did cocaine Nemo: u dont think mark did cocaine did he Louie: dont blae me him 4 ME BEING ME Tae: DID MARK DO COCAINE Louie: honestly i dont dieossgodkh Louie: NO Tae: fuck Nemo: he might not have! we dont know Louie: i dont deesrve mrk naywayl ol Tae: nemo never do cocaine please Nemo: i cant see mark lee doing cocaine unless someone told him it was fun dip Louie: he n johnny were just doing fun stuff 2gether Tae: lmfao Nemo: id probably DIE if i did cocaine so dont worry ahha Nemo: big no no for fairies Louie: speaking of immenditd death Louie: we sure windows r no go Nemo: which is why u shouldnt do it solidarity c'mon louie Tae: if you aren't there when i get there i will be very upset Nemo: he will be Nemo: wont u louie Louie: im scared i dont want the lady 2 yell at me Louie: pls i wanna leave Tae: I'm almost there Louie: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD= Louie: what if i hid in the bathroom Nemo: its gonna be okay louie :heart: Nemo: just um, sing a little queen Louie: no its not ill be ded 4ever n dragged home n stuck with my asshole fam n never escape n ded Nemo: you won't be dead you'll be safe Louie: shit someone said its the COPS Louie: im double triple dead Louie: n thats bullshit Louie: my fam isnt safe they suuuuuuuck Tae: WHERE ARE YOU Tae: fuck there are so many people Louie: trapped in the prison of xistance Louie: a house of horrs Louie: horors Tae: i'm serious louie i can't find you Louie: just make urself taller Louie: ill see you Tae: i'm gonna yell for you Louie: ok ok ok Nemo: ugh fksjf
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control [jeremy h. x squipped!reader] pt.2
now to give y’all what you truly only follow me for: more writing about musical characters. catch me sitting here thinking abt hadestown amongst all of this. the longer its been since ive seen it, the more in love with it i fall, i s2g. 
warnings: squip bein a piece of shit (so just... manipulation n the like). thts rly about it but let me kno if i need to tag anything else!
      All in a moment, you were seeing stars. Rich’s arm had been clasped tightly around your waist, his other hand covering your mouth in an attempt to muffle the screams of anguish that had crashed over you in waves and dragged you under. There was a stinging in your hand, and as you went quiet, you felt Rich tense behind you. Slowly, he drew his hand back from your mouth, letting you go and, regretfully, watching you collapse onto the ground. And then you were seeing stars again - real ones, twinkling overhead as you breathed heavily. The pain tapered off, bit by bit by bit, while fatigue settled in it’s place. All you could do was lay there in the cold dirt, staring up at the the night sky as your chest heaved. Rich finally offered you a hand, waiting until you finally managed to muster up the strength to take it. In a swift movement, he pulled you back onto your feet with ease - and you noticed how buff he was compared to how he was in the past. Dirt covered your clothes, and you noticed that the sting in your hand had been due to it being sliced open by a rock that cut into it during your struggles. Fuck, you were going to have to make sure that was taken care of as soon as you were home. Finally, your gaze fell back to Rich, the headlights of his truck illuminating the entire scene in front of you. Before you could even fathom a thought, you reacted, swinging a punch at his arm and catching him off-guard. Immediately he stepped back, staring at you as he rubbed his arm, brow furrowed in confusion and anger.
      “What the fuck was that for?” He asked, voice running a little high for a moment. “Also what the fuck, you throw a pretty mean punch for a-”
      You didn’t give him time to finish the thought, curling your hands into fists and ignoring the stinging in your palm. “What the fuck, Rich - you said it’d hurt a bit-”
       “I said it’d hurt for a bit- you didn’t ask how bad-”
       “He is correct. Reviewing your memories shows that he did say it would hurt for “a bit” and not that the pain would be minor-”
       “-What the fuck?” You stumbled back slightly, looking around for the source of this new voice for a moment. “Holy shit.”
      Rich cracked a smile as you straightened up slightly. “It worked, didn’t it?”
      “I.. think?” You said, voice oozing with uncertainty.
      “It did.” The voice said, “like I previously stated, I am your Super Quantum Unit Intel Processor. Your SQUIP.”
      Was that annoyance? You frowned, looking back to Rich with uncertainty oozing from every movement. “You... you weren’t scamming me-” And you cut yourself off there, “holy shit.” You stood there, processing the events that had just occurred. It wasn’t until Rich glanced to his phone with wide eyes that you realized how late it was.
      “Hey, shit, uh - we should get going,” Rich said, “you can... deal with that later,” he picked up the box, “c’mon. I said I’d give you a ride.”
      With a slow nod, you followed him back to his truck, and pulled yourself up into the passenger seat with a small leap while Rich rambled off an apology. The whole seizing you and trying to quiet you down because, y’know, you’d been screaming and he didn’t really know how to explain that kind of shit to people without getting arrested. On one hand, you were bothered by that - the immediate instinct being to grab and hold you down - but... you understood. The thoughts of what could have came flood into your head, and - fuck, you didn’t need for the police to show up. He followed every direction you gave him, getting him to stop down the street from your house in order to make your sneaking in easier. With a quick thanks, you hopped out of his truck and shut his door as quietly as you could before crossing your front yard. As you reached your doorstep, you heard his car pulling off, and you glanced over your shoulder to watch him make a u-turn before driving away.
      “You need to bandage your hand before it gets infected.” Your SQUIP said. You shut the door behind you, locking it back as you pressed your back against it.
      Lowering your voice down to a whisper, you respond. “You kinda sound like-”
      “I know. My default setting. Of course, if you dislike it, I have other modes for your perusal-”
      You shook your head, “that’s... fine. You’re fine.” Glancing down at your bleeding palm, you head towards the bathroom to find the first aid kit tucked underneath the sink. The sting of disinfectant made you let out a hiss of pain, and you internally cursed the fact that it happened to be your writing hand that got hurt. Note-talking was going to be the highlight of your day, that was certain.
      “You should wrap it and keep the wound dry.” Your SQUIP said, right as you were about to unwrap a band-aid.
      You found the bandages, and nodded a little. “Okay.”
      “You should also avoid speaking aloud when responding to me.”
      Pausing, the bandage loosens slightly around your palm, and you looked up into the mirror for a moment. “Then how do I-”
      “Think at me.” It said, “like... telepathy.”
      You resumed your work for a moment, before going to respond. “Like-” You stopped, “like this?”
      “Indeed. I can sense some discomfort whenever you’re responding to me.”
      “Yeah,” you wrapped the bandage tight, wiggling your fingers, “I guess... it’s just... it’s kinda weird to just talk to a voice in my head.”
      “Think at me.” You frowned at the command, but it continued on with it’s thought nonetheless, “would you prefer something visual? I’m capable of manipulating your senses in order to create something for you to see - albeit a bit more holographic in order to differentiate myself from those around you.” There was a pause, before it finally spoke again, “but it would still be a visual nonetheless.”
      Processing the information, you nodded slightly. “That’d be nice but... You could still turn it off, right?”
      For a moment, you’re sure that you disappointed it - speaking aloud again. But it finally spoke once more, almost sounding resigned for that night.“Yes. You need to change. You’re still covered in dirt.” You looked down at your dirt-stained sweatpants and shirt. So you were.
      Throwing everything back into the kit, you tucked it back underneath the sink and head to your room, glad to be back in this little sanctuary. You stripped off the shirt and sweatpants, kicking them underneath your bed for the time being, making a mental note to throw that in with the rest of your laundry on Sunday, and searched through your drawers for something else to wear. You snatched up an oversize t-shirt, slipping it on before curling up underneath your blankets. Everything felt quiet. You tugged the blankets closer to you as you turned over, and soon you felt drowsiness take over, sooner than you expected. Nonetheless, you were asleep within minutes.
      The next morning, you woke up to quiet and found yourself wondering if the night before had been some fucked-up dream. Then you noticed the bandage around your hand, stretching and popping your fingers as you stared at the covered palm. Not a dream, then - but you felt alone, no voice in your head. Maybe it was broken? You scowled a little at the thought - fucking Rich Goranski who scammed you out of six-hundred dollars for a faulty pill that worked for, what, a few hours? What the fuck kind of drugs did he-
      A figure glitched into being in front of you. “Good morning.”
      You let out a shriek, hand clasping over your mouth as you jumped at the sudden sight and sound before staring at this strange holographic figure in front of you - glitching slightly with it’s movement. You opened your mouth to speak, before closing it, remembering the whole ‘telepathy’ shit. “Good morning?”
      “Is this to your liking?” Your SQUIP walked over towards your door, and you just sort of sat there staring at it’s newfound presence. “I can adjust as necessary, but-”
      “It’s fine.”
      It shot a small frown at you, but looked toward your closet. “We need to discuss this Jeremy that you’re into.”
      “What about him?” You bit the inside of your cheek, combing your fingers through your hair. There... was honestly a lot to unpack about Jeremy, if you were honest.
      The figure glitched before you, staring at your closet doors. Taking the hint, you walked over, pulling the doors open as you swore you saw a small smirk play upon it’s lips - and, to be honest, you weren’t sure why. “Why Jeremy? There are far more popular boys and girls at Middleborough that would benefit you more to date. For example,” it paused, analyzing as you watched the faintest trace of binary flash through it’s eyes, “Jake Dillinger: kicker for the football team, very attractive, popular... or Brooke Lohst: popular, pretty, and...” It paused again, “... Jake would be better for you.”
      Had you thought about dating Jake Dillinger? Sure - a lot of people fantasized about it at least once or twice, because he was Jake Dillinger. But nonetheless, you never had a connection with Jake. Not like you did with Jeremy. “I don’t... I don’t want to date Jake. He’s cute and all, but... I like Jeremy. I want to talk to him again.” Shifting your weight, you stared into the back of your closet absentmindedly. “I miss him.”
      Your SQUIP reached past you, fingers fazing through the articles of clothing hanging up before finally withdrawing it’s hands. Slowly, it extended its arm once more, tapping towards a piece of clothing, “take this out. You need to put all of this away - it isn’t cold enough for you to wear things this heavy,” it glanced back at you as you reached out, pulling article after article out of your closet, “once the weather gets colder, then you can bring back... this. But for now, you need to dress to accentuate your figure, [y/n]. Stop hiding.” Over the next few minutes, your hands begun to move on their own as the SQUIP took control, tired of your slowness compared to its own movements. Soon enough, your closet was thinned out a fair amount. How many hoodies did you own? “Too many. We need to buy you more clothing.”
      “You do realize I spent all my money on you, right?” You turned to your bed, the mountain of clothes sitting there. As you moved to take care of it, you watched your SQUIP process info once more.
      “Thrift shops are an alternative.”
      “I know, but have you considered...” You stopped folding one of your hoodies, looking back to the SQUIP, “I literally just spent all my money on you?”
      “Save up.”
      You stopped what you’d been doing. “What?”
      “You receive a weekly allowance. Besides...” It paused, a small smirk playing at the corner of its lips, “if my calculations are correct, you may have work lined up for you right about-”
      As if on cue, your phone buzzed against your nightstand. Your gaze didn’t leave your SQUIP’s form as you reached to pick it up, finding your aunt’s name scrawled across the screen. You answered, pulling the phone up to your ear only to have a request: babysitting, because somebody got into another fight and she can’t trust him to stay there alone - and then rattled off more information, talking about how Sarah has a ballet recital, and Katherine’s science project is due Monday, and in an attempt to break away from the phone call, you quickly informed her you’d be over whenever she needed you. Delighted, she gave you a time and thanked you a thousand times before saying she’d see you later.
      Immediately, your focus was on your SQUIP. “How the fuck did you know that?”
      “I see possible routes and events. This was just one of them, as, judging by your memories, there was a note about your cousin’s upcoming recital - and, knowing Thomas and Katherine would have their own reasons to not go, your aunts would call you to babysit.” You furrowed your brow, trying to process what it’d just told you before it finally let out a sigh. “Try not to think of it. I’ll take care of conjuring these things. All you need to do is listen.”
       You hesitated to agree.
       Babysitting your cousins earned you roughly fifty bucks - which was enough for you to dip into a thrift store and find a few things that your SQUIP approved of. Come Monday, you were sporting a pretty sweet jean jacket-hoodie combo and you’d found a pair of black jeans that fit rather nicely. It wasn’t much, but it was a difference from the you that hid themself as best as they could. You looked... different. You felt different, staring at yourself in the mirror, your Hylian shield pin gleaming in the light and reminding you of the battle you had over it with the SQUIP - it advocating against, and you for in an attempt to have some sort of familiarity - that you were surprised to have won. In exchange, your SQUIP directed you away from the cafeteria come lunch time.
      “You’ll still have time to eat,” it clarified, “we just have some business to take care of first.”
      “Okay,” you watched as it trailed in front of you, hands folded behind its back, shoulders squared and just oozing confidence you wish you had. “What business?”
      It peered over it’s shoulder at you, before turning it’s attention back to where you were going. “We need to get you involved in the show. If you want to get close to Jeremy, you have to spend time with him first.”
      “Wait - but it was already cast a few weeks ago, it’s not like I can-”
      “There’s more to a play than acting, [y/n].” Your SQUIP faltered in it’s gait for a moment, “Perhaps it’s useful you’re an artist.”
      The two of you neared Reyes’s classroom, chatter loud and clear. Mr.Reyes with his strong, clear voice - and then you could hear Christine Canigula, chipper as ever, and you couldn’t fight back a small smile at the mere passion she held for theatre. Standing out of sight, you gathered your confidence as best as you - it was only Mr.Reyes and Christine, after all. You could handle talking to them, finding a place for you to help out. This was going to be fine-
      And then you heard him, The moment Jeremy’s voice rang out, you turned on your heel and ducked into a bathroom - your SQUIP rematerializing in front of you as you checked the stalls. Once you confirmed you were alone, you turned to face your SQUIP, its eyes pinned to you with utmost boredom.
     “What the fuck!” You hissed, keeping your voice quiet and low. “I can’t go in there if Jeremy’s - did you know he was going to be here?”
      “Stop speaking aloud.” It chided you, before pressing its lips together. “And... Yes. The probability was high, but this is good for us. Now Jeremy will see you’re serious about this - he’ll see that you’re passionate about art. And theatre, I suppose. Calm down,” it’s voice goes softer, “you’ll do fine. I’m here.”
      You nodded slowly, turning and walking towards the sink, staring at yourself in the mirror. With a sigh, you turned back to your SQUIP, fingers grazing the cold porcelain as you nodded. “Alright,” you finally said, “what’s the plan?”
      It smiled. “As I said before - we need you to be involved in the show. Perhaps you could put those art skills of you to good use and paint scenery - or you could be running crew. Both gives you a good excuse to stay in the auditorium and near Jeremy.” It walked behind you, pressing a hand against your back, “straighten up. You need to be confident. You’ve got this.”
      You turned, looking up at it. “And if I don’t?”
      “That’s what I’m here for.”
      After a moment of hesitating, you finally nodded. What do you have to be afraid of? You took a deep breath, slowly exhaling as you stepped out of the bathroom and towards the classroom. Once more, you hesitated outside of the door, your SQUIP giving you a small nod as you finally knocked. When you stepped in, Jeremy’s eyes widened.
      “[y/n]?” He said, brows furrowed as you walked closer into the room.
      You uttered some sort of greeting, Mr.Reyes making some quip about not having any money for cookies as you grew nearer. You forced a laugh.
      Your SQUIP’s laid a hand on your shoulder. “Ask.”
      So you did. “I was wondering if there’s anything I could do for the play?” You fought to keep your voice steady, anxiety already biting at you. Your hands slowly drifted towards one another, only for a small shock to tear your fingers apart before your habit could bubble up.
      “...Really?” Mr.Reyes said, watching you - as if this was some weird prank. Maybe drama wasn’t nearly as popular here as you thought, considering what you’d heard about the cast....
      With a nod, you spoke again, “I haven’t really been into theatre for long-”
      “But you’ve always wanted to try.” Your SQUIP said, and you nearly nodded except for the thought of how weird that would make you look. Gently, it’s hand landed on your shoulder. “Calm down. I’m right here.”
      “I’ve always wanted to try, though. And I thought that maybe-”
      “You’d start with crew and audition for the spring show.”
     “-I’d, uh, start with backstage stuff and, uh, audition for the spring show?” You tried to make your words flow together effortlessly, as if you weren’t being fed lines - and, somehow, they bought it.
       Mr.Reyes nodded slowly, before looking over to Christine and smiling as he turned back to you and launched into an oddly dramatic speech about the importance of a production team, and how - if you’re interested - there’s a few zombies that they’ll need stage makeup for. But his words began to fall into meaningless dribble behind you as you caught a glimpse of your SQUIP trailing around to where Jeremy sat, giving him a slow once over. And slowly, it’s gaze turned to Christine, lips pressed into a thin line. Part of you was terrified of whatever it was thinking, about what judgement it was passing on Jeremy... the other was merely curious. Perhaps it had a better idea about-
      “As soon as you’ll need me,” the words were out of your mouth before you could even process what happened. The blend of your voice alongside your SQUIP’s as it spoke for you, and then the soft whisper of a “you’re welcome” was enough to give you goosebumps. But then Jeremy smiled at you, and everything that felt wrong melted away in an instant.
      After school, you’d typically be driving to the mall or driving home to sit around and either play video games or draw until your homework became too pressing. But this time you shoved your books into your bag and walked from your last class to the auditorium at the request of Mr.Reyes - who wanted you to watch rehearsal and get a feel for the show. When you nearly asked if that could wait until tomorrow, your SQUIP chastised you immediately - this was a chance to get close to Jeremy. So you smiled and agreed, shooting a quick text to your parents so they wouldn’t worry if rehearsal ran late, and hesitated outside of the doors for a moment. Gathering your courage, you pulled the door open to find the room completely empty as you walked down towards the front row, slinging your bag into a chair and sitting in wait for anyone to show up. Part of you hoped it’d be Rich first, because then at least it’d be a friendly face - and you could maybe ask some questions if you had them, considering he knew more about SQUIPs than you did.
      Your SQUIP materialized in front of you, arms folded across it’s chest. “Jeremy will be arriving soon. You have approximately four minutes and twenty seconds alone with him.” When you snorted, it merely glared before looking past you.
      “Sorry.” Then you felt a shock travel to your fingers, tearing them away from one another as you looked up. “What the fuck-”
      “You were picking at your nails again. You need to stop.” It sighed as it looked back to you, “we need to make the most of this time alone. It is imperative you make a good impression.” It trailed past you, aimlessly wandering back and forth as you stopped paying attention for a moment.
      The sound of the doors opening with a screech caught your attention, the loud whine making you turn to see Jeremy hesitating for a moment upon seeing that the room wasn’t empty. But the moment you laid eyes on him, he continued down, fingers curled tightly around the straps of his bag. Ever so slightly, he relaxed as he drew nearer to you.
      “Hey,” you called out with a smile, “how are you?”
      He was caught off-guard for a moment. “Fine. Why are you here?” He stopped near you, swinging his backpack into a seat and unzipping it.
      “Reyes asked-”
      “No, I know that - I just- I mean- why are you here?” He paused for a moment, fishing around in his bag, before tacking on “I thought you weren’t into theatre.”
      Shit. “I, uh-”
     “It’s a recent interest. You’re exploring your options.”
      You swallowed your panic. “It’s, uh, a recent thing. I, uh, wanted to maybe try something new...”
      Jeremy looked over at you, still suspicious, before he looked back to his bag. Shit. “Okaaaaay,” he said, obviously not entirely convinced by your answer. He paused, finally finding what he was looking for as he pulled out a thick script with pages tabbed with different colors, and then he looked back at you. “Shit, sorry, I just- I didn’t expect to see you here.”
      “No, it’s - it’s fine, Jeremy,” you insisted. The SQUIP phased through him, side-stepping and nodding towards his script. You continued on, “So, uh, who are you?”
      For a moment he stood there, just staring at you with furrowed brow and utter confusion written on his face before he finally glanced down to what he was holding. “Oh! Uh, Lysander.”
      “That’s great!” You chirped, trying to play it off as if you knew who that was.
      “Ask him if he needs help with lines.”
      “So, uh, Jeremy,” you started, “if you ever need help running lines - I’m, uh, I’m here.”
      “I’m fine.” He said, “I’m sorry, I just - you never mentioned being into this stuff before, so...”
      “I mean - it’s been a while...” You trailed off. Uncertainty began to leak in as the conversation died down, and then before you could process what was happening, you were speaking. “I’m really excited to see you perform, Jeremy. I’m sure you’ll be amazing.”
      His cheeks grew pink as he fumbled with the script slightly, looking away from you in some attempt to compose himself. “Oh. Uh. Thanks, I guess. But you should really see Christine,” he began to smile, face red, “I mean - she’s the real star, y’know?” He looked back at you, completely starry-eyed. “Have you seen her act?” Fuck. “She’s just - she’s amazing, [y/n]...”
      The door screeching open was your cue to bolt out of your seat, coming up with some excuse as you tore past Brooke and Jenna and down the hall. Your breath caught in your chest, as you turned a corner and pressed your back against the lockers as panic filled your every thought. Your SQUIP materialized in front of you once more, watching as your breath grew quick and tears began to stream down your face. Fuck, you should have known Jeremy would still be in love with her - but you didn’t think he’d forget you were with him the first time he saw her perform. It had been you and him and Michael. Just as it always was. And now, when you need someone, your SQUIP stood idly by, staring down at the ground with furrowed brow and jaw clenched, arms folded tightly over it’s chest. You focused on slowing your breathing, trying to calm down for a moment - just a moment to resurface yourself back to reality.
      You finally looked back at your SQUIP, growing frustrated. “Aren’t you going to say anything?”
      “I’m processing.” It merely stated, “are you certain you want to keep pursuing Jeremy? There are other students at this school who don’t harbor feelings for Christine Canigula. Jake Dillinger, from my calculations - or that boy in broadcasting, Link. He’s also attractive. Brooke Lohst is also attractive and would be more than willing to-”
      “No!” You snapped, before calming down. “Are you - you’re saying this is hopeless, isn’t it?”
       Your SQUIP pinched the bridge of it’s nose, growing more frustrated and leaving you to grow more anxious. “No. I’m saying pursuing Jeremy will be difficult considering we have to account for his feelings for Christine. We just have to show him that you would be a much better match for him,” your SQUIP said, staring at you.
      “But how-”
      The moment you heard footsteps echoing from around the corner, your SQUIP looked back at you - and, for a split second, you thought you saw a smirk. “Tear ducts, activate.”
      That was the moment everything in your world started to tumble down.
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meet me in the tree house
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Yoongi x Reader Y/N
fluff, romance
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A/N: This was a request from @snowflakeu25 💜
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Three knocks on his studio door.
A gruff voice, muffled by the walls enters your ears and you twist the knob and push into the room with your hip since your other hand is preoccupied carrying a shallow box of takeout containers. A boy sits in a computer chair facing a mountain of recording equipment. Speakers jut from the two corners of the ceiling. Three large monitors sit atop the mountain, an expanse of panels, keyboards, knobs and sliders filling the valley below. At the sound of you entering the room, he turns around, his mouth twitching into a quick smirk before his eyes fall to the food in your hands.
“Hey,” you say.
“Hey,” Yoongi replies spinning around fully to face the coffee table as you set the box down on its surface.
“Working hard?” you ask and take a seat on the leather couch that sits adjacent to him.
Yoongi stretches, arching his back and raising his arms in the air with a groan. “Always,” he says. “Chinese?”
“You know it.”
The two of you are quiet for a while as you work at getting all of the take out containers open and onto the coffee table. Then you pass him a pair of chopsticks before taking your own pair and grabbing the closest container. You’ve watched Yoongi become a big time producer, his songs winning award after award. You’ve seen him on tv, standing on stages, making speeches, wearing designer clothes and being adored by people that don’t know him.
Yet every Wednesday, you come to Bighit, the security guard giving you a smile and a nod of recognition and you take the elevator up to the fourth floor, carrying take out, walk down that hallway lined with albums that have gone gold and platinum before reaching the studio. And there you find him, in his baggy sweats and baggy shirt, sometimes a beanie to keep his hair out of his eyes and he’d turn and greet you with that same tired smile. He’s never treated you different. He’s never let the fame get to him. Probably because he knows how far of a fall it would be back to the bottom where he started if he were to let it all go to his head.
You moved to the city not long after Yoongi got the job at Bighit. The two of you have been best friends since you were in fourth grade, when he moved into the house next door to yours. He had a tree house in his backyard that you had been eying for a while and when his mom had forced him to come over and ask you to play, you’d been ecstatic to finally be able to see the inside of it. It was as cool as you’d thought it would be, and that was where you’d spend a lot of late nights during the summer.
As you got older, the tree house transformed from a playhouse to a safe house. If your parents were fighting or lashing out at you, you’d send a quick text to him asking him to meet you there. And by the time you climbed up the rope ladder, the hatch would already be open and Yoongi would be waiting for you, his ears open to listen or his arms open to hold you, whichever you needed. Usually, it was both.
Once he moved away after college, there wasn’t much left for you in your small town, so you followed him, getting a job in the city and hanging out whenever he was free. Which wasn’t as often lately.
“So what have you been working on?” you ask before shoving a piece of orange chicken into your mouth.
Yoongi perks up, swallowing his mouthful of food before spinning to face his desk again. “Tell me what you think of this. Then with a couple clicks of his mouse and a press of a button on one of his keyboards, the room fills with music.
You close your eyes so you’re not distracted by anything and listen to the steady rhythm as it builds. After a few measures, Yoongi’s familiar voice starts in, delivering the deep lyrics he’s become so well-known for. You can feel the smile spreading your mouth as you listen, your head automatically bobbing to the beat. You’re really enjoying the song when suddenly it cuts off and you open your eyes to find Yoongi looking at you, his hand poised on his keyboard. You frown.
“What did you stop it for?”
“I just wanted to give you a sneak peek. You can’t hear the whole song until the mixtape is done.”
“Mixtape?” you ask as your smile returns.
Yoongi smiles back and looks down at his hands shyly. “By the way, I’m making a mixtape.
You let out an excited squeal, reaching out to hit his arm over and over, his smile growing bigger with every hit. “Are you serious?” you finally ask when he’s rolled out of your reach. “You’ve been wanting to do a mixtape forever!”
“Yeah,” he chuckles and scratches the back of his neck. “Yeah, I’ve finally gotten some time to work on it so I’ve been kind of messing around, writing some stuff.”
You pick up the container of pork fried rice, poking at it as you shake your head. “I’m really excited for you, Yoongi. It’s going to be amazing.”
“I hope.”
“It will be,” you say. “You’re crazy talented.”
Just then you feel your phone vibrate in your back pocket and when you reach for it and look at the screen, you can’t help but smile. The room is silent as you type a response to the message you received.
“Who has the audacity to interrupt our Wednesday night dinner?” Yoongi asks jokingly as he wheels back over and swipes a container off of the coffee table.
You send the message and set your phone onto the table before taking another bite of rice. “Just a guy I’ve been talking to,” you say. “Sorry.”
Yoongi blinks, obviously caught off guard by your response. “Oh, no, it’s okay. I didn’t know you were talking to someone.”
“Yeah,” you say with a shy smile. “I met him at a party last weekend and, I don’t know. We got to talking and now we’ve been texting each other a bit.”
Yoonig lets out a grunt, suddenly very interested in the container he’s holding.
“I don’t know,” you say again. “I think I’m finally in a place to start wanting to date again…you know, after everything that happened with—”
“Y/N,” Yoongi says cutting you off. “It’s okay. You don’t have to talk about him. I’m glad you’re able to move on now. I’m happy for you.”
You tilt your head as you study your best friend. His words sound genuine but the sentiment doesn’t seem to reach his eyes. “Thanks,” you utter. You hear your phone vibrate against the coffee table and you watch as Yoongi’s gaze falls to it for a split second before focusing back on poking his chopstick into his food.
*
*
Y/N: So Chinese again tonight or something different?
Yoongi: Ive got a lot of work to do tonight. I dont think I can hang out.
Y/N: Oh ok. See u next week then?
Yoongi: Sure.
*
*
Y/N: Hey, did u want to go out tonight instead of me bringing something? Theres a new ramen place I wanted to try.
Yoongi: cant hang out tonight. Busy.
Y/N: …ok. Next week then? I miss u.
Yoongi: Sure.
*
*
Y/N: ok. Im kidnapping u tmrrw night. I kno u dont rlly like going anywhere on Wednesday nights since u hav to work but we havnt hung out in like 3 weeks and I want to take u to see this new horror movie with me. And I kno that telling u Im kidnapping u kind of negates the whole “kidnapping” thing but I kno u dont like surprises.
Yoongi: cant.
Y/N:…really?
Yoongi: Sorry. I have to work.
Y/N: man…ur working a lot lately, arnt u?
Yoongi: its my job, Y/N. Maybe next week.
Y/N: Next week Im going to be back home to visit some family.
Yoongi: oh ok.
Y/N: Whatever, Yoongi. If u dont want to hang out anymor, just say it.
Y/N: Or dont. Whatever.
*
*
Yoongi: hey
Yoongi: Y/N
Yoongi: I know ur mad at me but please respond.
Yoongi: Y/N I was just being an idiot.
Yoongi: Y/N
Yoongi: Please talk to me.
Yoongi: look, I kno ur reading my texts and I kno u probably wont respond but if u end up seeing this, please meet me in the tree house in like twenty minutes. Alright? Thats where Ill be. I need to talk to u.
*
“The tree house?” you utter as you re-read his last text. As in the one at his parent’s house? The one that’s over an hour away from the city the two of you live in now?
You’re at a family dinner at the moment but you’ve all already eaten and now your parents are just talking to your aunt and uncle and though you’re a bit reluctant to actually meet up with Yoongi (since you’re still pretty pissed at him for ditching you for the past three weeks) he’s the perfect excuse for you to duck out early. And you do just that, saying goodnight to your extended family before telling your parents that you have to run but you’ll see them back at home later. Then you head out before anyone can argue.
It’s about a thirty minute drive from the restaurant back to your house. You can’t even bring yourself to pretend to feel bad for making him wait those ten extra minutes wondering if you’re even going to show up. It serves him right. The two of you have been best friends for as long as you can remember and have been doing Wednesday night dinner together ever since he got the job at Bighit. After all this, he decides he’s too busy to hang out? He’s never been too busy. Has the fame finally gotten to his head?
A terrible thought occurs to you as you pull into the driveway at your childhood home. What if he wants to meet you to break things off? To tell you that he doesn’t have time for friends anymore. That you shouldn’t come around anymore because it’s interfering with his work. That he’s outgrown you.
With an angry jerk of the stick shift, you jam your car into park and turn off the engine, yanking the key out. You can already feel yourself getting worked up as you slam the door and stomp across the yard to Yoongi’s house. When you get through the gate and enter the backyard, your eyes trail up to the tree house where it resides in the tall maple in the middle of the lawn. The sun is almost all the way set and the sky is already turning a medium shade of blue. It’s getting dark fast and you can see golden light filtering out of the windows in the tree house. He’s there. Good.
You take a deep breath then make your way up the rope ladder. This was a lot easier when you were younger, and smaller, and you can’t help but wonder how much longer this rope will even hold. With that thought, you scurry up the last few rungs, hoping the whole time that it won’t snap on you. Then, when you poke your head up through the hole, your eyes fall on Yoongi.
He’s laying on his back, hands on his stomach and his eyes fixed on the ceiling. At the sound of your arrival, he turns his head, his gaze locking with yours.
He sits up quickly. “I thought you weren’t going to come.”
You back away from the hole in the floor until your spine rests against the wall. “I wasn’t going to but it was an excuse to duck out of dinner early.” You cross your arms. “What are you even doing here, Yoongi?”
Your best friend gets to his feet. “I wanted to talk to you about…everything.”
“Well?”
Yoongi sighs, bringing up a hand to scratch behind his ear. A nervous tick you’ve always thought was a bit endearing. “I guess I just got kind of…jealous.”
Um…
You stand there against the wall blinking for several seconds, not really sure if you heard him right. “Jealous,” you finally say. Yoongi nods. Your brow furrows and you let out a humorless laugh. “I’m sorry, Mr. Big-shot producer, what the heck would you be jealous of?”
As if on cue, your phone chimes in your pocket and Yoongi’s eyes fall to the outline of it against your thigh. You’ve still been talking to that other guy from several weeks ago and now it kind of dawns on you, just what Yoongi is jealous of. The two of you lock eyes again.
“Yoongi…”
The apples of his cheeks dust a light pink, contrasting against his pale mint hair and he shifts on his feet. “No, it’s stupid. I shouldn’t have been like that. Not when I’ve never even told you how I feel. I just wanted you to meet me here so I could tell you that I’m sorry and I want to keep doing our Wednesday night thing and you can text that guy all you want. And I know you don’t need my permission but I’m just letting you know that I won’t be a jerk about this. And I won’t start acting all weird. Date him. Marry him. I’ll still be your best friend as long as you want me to be. And if you don’t, I understand that too because what kind of person freezes their best friend out over another guy? You’re more important to me than that and…Y/N?”
His words finally trail off when he looks up and realizes you’ve been standing there gaping at him the whole time. Your heart is in your stomach and your breaths have become shallow. Are you having a panic attack? Here? In Yoongi’s tree house? In front of Yoongi?
“Y/N?” he asks again.
“What did you say?” you utter.
“What?”
“What did you say?” you ask louder. “Just now. What did you say?”
Yoongi fumbles with his hands for a second, running his fingers through his hair and switching his weight to his other foot again. “Uh…that you’re my best friend?”
“Before that.”
“I’m sorry?”
“Before that.”
“I was being stupid?”
“After that.”
Yoongi bites his bottom lip, the pink in his cheeks becoming darker. “…that I haven’t told you how I feel?”
“Yeah,” you say. “How do you feel, Yoongi?”
“I feel like…” he takes a tentative step toward you, keeping his eyes locked on yours even as the blush spreads down to his neck. “…like I’ve been in love with my best friend for the past five years.” He takes another step toward you. The tree house isn’t very big so even after just these two steps, there’s only about a foot of space between you now. “How do you feel, Y/N?” he asks, his voice much lower than it was before. You peer up at him, heat creeping up your own neck to settle on your cheeks.
“I…uh…I—” your phone chimes in your pocket again and Yoongi sucks in a sharp breath. “Give me two seconds,” you whisper then pull your phone out of your pocket with trembling fingers and check the screen. Yoongi leans in a bit to peek too. “It’s my mom,” you say and you hear him chuckle under his breath. “She wants to know if I want them to pick up ice cream on their way back.”
“Do you?” he asks leaning in more, his dark eyes now drilling into yours. You’d back up if you could but you’re already pressed against the wall.
“Do I what?” you ask him.
He hesitates for just a moment, a smile quirking the corner of his mouth. “Want ice cream?”
You both know that’s not the question he’s really asking and for a split second, your eyes dart down to his lips. You pull your own into your mouth as you try to conjure up the words. You’re already a flustered mess with this boy so close to you, looking at you the way he is, his body heat radiating across the small space between you.
“Of course I want ice cream. I frikin’ love ice cream.”
The tension in the small space seems to burst as Yoongi falls forward, his head landing on your shoulder and laughter bubbling up out of him. You can’t help but laugh too as you feel his shoulders shake against yours and then he’s wrapping his arms around your waist to keep either of you from tumbling to the floor. The room is filled with your giggling and tears have sprung to your eyes and finally, once the muscles in both of your stomachs are good and sore, he lifts his head back up.
The laughter dies down as the two of you lock eyes again. You watch with bated breath as he reaches up to brush the hair back from your forehead, his fingers sliding down the side of your face and lingering on your jaw. “Can I kiss you, Y/N?” he utters.
You don’t even hesitate to nod before he closes the small gap, his lips moulding to yours along with the rest of his body. His one hand tightens on your waist and the other slides to the back of your neck and then he’s tilting his head to kiss you deeper. Of course, then your phone chimes AGAIN causing him to jump back with a small gasp.
“Sorry,” you mumble, your head swimming as you look down at your phone still in your hand. You look back up at Yoongi again. “Flavor?”
Yoongi stands there breathing hard for a second, staring at you as he processes your question. His tongue flicks out of his mouth for just a second. “Chocolate,” he finally says breathlessly.
You type the word as fast as you can, getting frustrated when you keep screwing up, before hitting send and dropping your phone onto the rug. Then you reach out to grasp Yoongi by the shoulders, pulling him to you once again.
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“Just listen to this one,” Yoongi says as he pulls you back down into his lap.
The computer chair creaks under the weight of the two of you and you grip the arms to keep from toppling over. “Yoongi, I have to go. I have to get up early for work tomorrow.”
“Just this last one,” he says and slides the headphones back onto your ears. You’ve tried taking them off for the last five songs but every time you do, he wants you to listen to just one more. This is the last one, I promise.
“Yoongi, you’re really making me seem like a jerk of a girlfriend that doesn’t want to listen to your music.”
“But you do want to listen to my music, right?”
You smile and reach up to touch your palm to his cheek. “Of course, I do,” you say. Yoongi’s mouth lifts into a gummy smile as he nuzzles your hand. “You know I’m your biggest fan.”
“I know,” he says with a contented sigh.
He’s too perfect for his own good. So talented and so soft lately. Yoongi has always been more on the reserved side. Never cold but a bit closed off, even to you. But ever since the two of you talked—if you can even call it that—in the tree house, everything has changed. He’s revealed a different side of himself to you. A softer side. A happier side. You can hear it in his music, too. How happy he’s become.
“Alright,” you say. “Just one more.”
Yoongi claps excitedly before pressing a button on his keyboard and then settling back in under you, wrapping his arms around your waist and resting his cheek against your arm. He loves watching your expression as you listen to his music. Loves seeing how it affects you, loves seeing the uncensored reaction. He knows you’ll always be honest with him, because you want him to give his best. Besides his colleagues, you’re the only one who’s opinion he trusts.
As you listen, Yoongi starts playing with your fingers, pressing the pads of his own against yours so you mirror his movements, and then when he glances at the screen and sees that the song is almost over, he slides his fingers through the gaps between yours and locks your hand in his. You knew he wouldn’t let you go after this song.
You shake your head until the headphones slip from your ears. “Yoongi,” you say.
“Just one more,” he says quickly and releases one of your hands to pull the headphones back up.
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catboyology · 5 years
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speaking of fursuits i literally Just found this out and apparently albinotopaz (aka tayerr, lamarr, most recently tarr) is making a  Luxury Fursuit Brand
the brand name is zweitesich and their website is here
and idk personally i can understand that. its definitely not for me, but ive been looking into furry fandom and fursuit stuff a lot lately and like. sniper cost 11,000 dollars and bieberr cost 8,000 dollars so massively expensive fursuits exist and a fursuit maker catering exclusively to that market is understandable. bougie and capitalist of course, but i’ll leave my politics out of this analysis
these are the three suits being sold. theyre PARTIALS and they were originally placed a 6,000 usd but have been adjusted to 4,500 for the partial and 7,000 to turn it into a fullsuit
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like uh yeah theyre nice but uh.
6,000 dollars for a head and arms
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they also have little vests that the arms are attached to
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ALSO SUCH PRICING IS MAKING ME EXTREMELY PICKY LIKE. if ur gonna cost more than a fullsuit for ur partial it better be fucking perfect
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SIX THOUSAND DOLLARS FOR THESE HANDS + A HEAD AAAAA THESE LITERALLY LOOK LIKE MY HAND MADE HANDS KJHAJKLFGH NOT TO BE MEAN THESE R GOOD BUT    6K
its like. idk chief the furring and symmetry arent 100% perfect but like. IF U COST  THAT MUCH SHOULDNT THEY BE
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they are p unique though of course, especially with how hard and angular they are and while the fur lining is uneven the actual like.  LACK OF SEAMS in the first place is p nice looking. but ive also seen people say the sculpting is all identical which is true lel they look like edits of the same base
i swear half the price comes from these added things that no one asked for
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but i mean u can get sth like this THATS CUSTOM AND NOT PREMADE LEL for 5,000 so idk chief
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like the partials r good but im tearing them apart bc theyre so damn expensive stop it u bougie FACKER
its also weird that theyre so flat and brand, considering albinotopaz’s other suits r pretty perfect 3d representation of wild cartoon characters irl
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LIKE U WANNA KNO MY ONION?
i just think albinotopaz still has some bonus ego from selling bieberr / lavender corgi / jay for 8,000 which was a record until sniper was bought for 11,000
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ok im done ranting sorry but furry fandom stuff is literally becoming my next hyperfix like it isnt at that point yet but i can feel it like... its possible!!
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skzdrabbles · 5 years
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skz london experience
hi hello everyone!!!!!
i haven’t been reblogging as much the past few days because i was in london seeing stray kids! i had a GA (CAT1) ticket and was queuing from ~7am but it was so worth it! even managed to get some freebies hehehe,, anyways! i wanted to tell u my impressions of the members now that i’ve had a few days to fully let it sink in!
woojin: wow. WOW. he was on my side during the ments so whenever he was talking i just had the best view of him. woojin is legit SO good looking irl i was so shocked. even when one of the other members was talking i couldn’t help but still look at him. his voice is HEAVENLY i really cant believe that man eats CDs for breakfast lunch AND dinner, making me second guess his chicken addiction frfr. but yes i’ve never been more in love w him than right now
chan: THAT MAN!!!!!!! CRAZY. i dont know why but his accent in person was so much stronger than what i was expecting so it was lowkey harder to understand him than what is what for say changbin. but chan is legit such a sweetie whenever he was talking i was just paying attention to his words and really taking it in that that’s my comfort kpop boy right there u know? his voice is insaneeeee irl. he started using an english accent and i was like shshdhdhdhhd noooooooo but it was so accurate and cute and just yeah. chan is great
minho: that boy is STUNNING i dont know what else to tell u if i’m being honest. i was watching him a lot during the performances and i was just mesmerised with the way he was moving and being able to do all the moves. hes so cute im really goinf through it with him. the girl beside me in the standing area was minho biased so whenever his parts came on both of us were just like OHHHHHHHHH MY GOD THATS BEAUTIFUL BRO he was acting all playful during the ments too and just :( i love him
changbin: what can i even say about him. yall. he came for my bias spot so hard im literally still trying to process it all. changbin has got to be an angel because there is NO way he was real i refuse to believe it. he was beside woojin on my side during the ments and i could not take my eyes off of him i was just in shock and i legit got so flustered (??) because just Wow he is a boy. his raps and singing live whew chil i done almost died hes so passionate and talented whilst on the stage. at the beginning of the show chan told us it was changbins mission to speak in english for the duration of the show AND HE DID FOR THE MOST PART AND I WAS SO PROUDDDD HES AMAZING so in conclusion. changbin is an angel.
hyunjin: this beautiful mf was going OFF he did not let up once and i dont think ive ever seen such good stage presence in my life. this boy kept calling himself “sexy boy hyunjin” for the whole thing and before they did my pace hyunjin did the “nanananana” part sexy ver. and i was like !!!!!!!!!!! for WHAT. for WHO. he was crazyyyy. the amount of screams he got from my section were SO loud hes a popular one for sureeee. i dont even know what else to say about him besides the fact that he was being so flirty with the whole crowd ahhhhh
jisung: han jisung. my baby. my boy. my everything. the light of my life. the only boy in existence. u guyssss :(( <3 im so in love with him like i really am :( jisung is the best boy in the entire world :( his voice when he spoke in english is so cute!!!!! hes gets like so excited and his voice was deeper too and he was so enganging whilst talking abt the show :( guys im really going to cry again he’s so beautiful in person his lil baby face when he was giggling and laughing with full chest i couldnt believe it. yo there was that one part where he’s like “everybody make some noise!” and he was YELLING i was like damn ji is it that serious but his whole presence on stage was incredible and i cant believe i was even allowed to be in the same room as him and i cant help but feel like i was so lucky to be able to see him in his element u kno??? :( man im so soft for him can somebody pls knock some sense into me i need it. i kept subconsciously filming him (like a fancam) during the performances and i didnt even realise it until i got home ahahhash whipped culture but yes. jisung is the best boy
felix: i could feel that boy’s voice in my GUTS because of how strong the bass was i was living my best life with him. felix is so pretty in person too like from my view the lights hit his face so nicely and his nose whew the highlight on that must have been expensive. his part at the beginning of victory song is my FAVOURITE THING EVER SO I WAS DEADDDD WHEN THAT HAPPENED. his accent in person too whew also like chan, lowkey found it difficult to understand in comparison to the other members but i got it still! u can see how much fun he was having on stage and im just so happy i got to experience it with him
seungmin: SEUNGMIN IN THE BUILDINGGGG again another ANGEL. he was being all cute and smiley during the ments and the cheers for him were so loud and he knew it too and just wow im so glad he was getting the appreciation he deserves!!!!!!!! whenever he spoke i was like all heart eyes he’s so lovelyyy seungmin is only a babyyy :(( his singing LIVE yall u all gotta go see them once just to hesr seungmin sing i could praise him all day if i could. u could really tell how much he loves london with his ig posts even now! i’m glad he had fun hereee
jeongin: that is my kid yall idc i birthed him in advance he is EVERYONES baby he’s literally the cutest boy ever. all of skz were hyping him up whenever he spoke and so was the whole crowd like :(( <33 before he even got the chance to speak the whole crowd would not stop screaming for him and he was all!!!!!!! giggly smiley just being the cutest. he done his parts so well and was interacting with the crowd a lot and just woahh i cant believe the nations baby just looked like that irl.
yes so anyways that was just my thoughts on each of them. im really happy yall i met so many cool people at this show and had the time of my life hearing my favourite songs live and PLEASE if u can, go see stray kids whenever they are near u they wont disappoint
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lampsofcuties · 5 years
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Sorry my theme is shite lmao, thank u for the ask! (Also cause u seem to like HS a lot i will do both that and my current fandom)
😑 (HS) A really popular one that im kinda indifferent to is JohnDave, I like the ship but it isnt really something i look for. (RWBY) Im kinda indifferent to seamonkeys even tho i do ship it, i am just not into it right now even tho i love those good bois.
✌️(HS) Now this one is tough because as my description suggests i am a multishipper thru and thru so i ship pretty much every homestuck ship. I guess I could count Grimdorks in this cause tho i do ship it sometimes, its very conditional. (RWBY) Same problem here buuuuuut i guess we can throw in Lancaster here cause i do think its cute but not my cuppa.
💚 (HS) MMMM GUILTY PLEASURE SHIP IS CROFEF IDK Y DONT @ ME LMAO (RWBY) secretly ship yang♠️neo NOT TO BE A FUCKINNNN HOMESTUCK BUT thats some good shit
💘 (HS) GamSol, EriAra, DirkJane, i could go on... (RWBY) Hmmm, not sure about this one, Probably Bumblemeleon, mostly cause i dont think people think about ilia and yang interactions enough yet lol
👀 (HS) maaaan ive seen em all at this point but like i guess i am curious about legit any ship from the hiveswap friendsims cause i havent played any lmaooo (RWBY) i guess i am cutious about any ships that dont center around the main cast cause ive pretty much explored all those ships, maybe like whats glynda up to ya kno?
💖 (HS) TERIDAN, MOTHERFUCKER, ITS SUCH A GOOD SHIP, go spam @vantasarcastic about it, we love teridan so much lmao. (RWBY) LADYBUG IS SO UNDERRATED, THAT SHIP IS SO HECKIN CUTE.
💢 (HS) Honestly? In my experience Karezi is almost always simplified or misrepresented, even by fuckin hussie his goddamn self, who wrote about it a while ago and completely misread his own two characters lmao i have no idea what he was thinking. Karezi is always seen as this “low hanging fruit” type of ship, the “main guy character falls for quirky girl character” trope. And although it definitely started out that way, by the end of the comic (besides the lack of interaction after [s] game over) the characters grew and changed and their relationship would have also had it been explored more in the story. NOT TO START MYSELF ON A RANT HERE BUT: the retjohn and “you dont need him” was not the “end of karezi” it was just poorly handled and because hussie has clear favorites in his own story and was out to write mindfuckery, not an exploration of characters and their motivations. APPARENTLY. ANYWAY. (RWBY) Whiterose. As my favorite (non-polyamourous) ship, i CONSTANTLY see whiterose misunderstood and mischaracterized and honestly its super painful cause i fuckin love both of those characters and it pains me to see some people just not get like any of it. I saw a post recently that described the misunderstanding as people taking the ship and shoving it into the “genki girl/tsundere” category, which is exactly what i hate most: simplifying characters into their most base concepts, and then literally stopping there. Makes me ANGERY.
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Carly & Drew
Carly: hey Carly: gimme more of what i got last time yea Carly: she had fun on that Drew: Yeah? Drew: tah for the tip-off Drew: doubt she's in the party mood rn though Drew: not seen her for days Carly: ha Carly: heard u need em boy Carly: im bringing the party thats why uve not seen her Drew: who fed you that bullshit like Drew: you still gotta get yours from somewhere Carly: idk 😢 girl @ the other nights party Carly: k so gimme Carly: im not paying tho Carly: u made her sad u make it better Drew: hmm well you know what girls are like, yeah Drew: don't all play nice like yous two Carly: yea & i kno what lads say girls r like too Drew: ain't saying nothing that ain't true me Drew: so I didn't make her sad Carly: dont u kno the truth hurts Drew: better than bullshit though Carly: u like her Carly: u want her to like you Carly: be nice Carly: be fun Drew: how do i know you won't just take it all girl Carly: aw u wanna watch Carly: cute Drew: if it's cute you're doing it wrong Carly: ha Carly: u dont kno her v well do u Drew: I know her well as you do Drew: always up for more Carly: when you run out of drugs you should pick up a 🎤 & try comedy Carly: everyone knows im the one who plays rough Carly: shes sweet Drew: stock is pretty depleted so thanks for the suggestion Drew: reckon you could stock shelves Drew: maccies, maybe Drew: like I said, maybe yous ain't doing it right Carly: ha ty baby 💛 Carly: gimme what i need for free & im good Carly: like i said love that u want an invite Carly: but idk if shed be into it Carly: she dont like ur hair Drew: you expect me to remember what you order? Drew: cute Drew: yeah she does Carly: like u forget anything about her Carly: cuter Drew: where are you then Carly: [sends location] Drew: you together or what Carly: shes on her way if you wanna wait for her Drew: I should talk to her, actually Drew: she's not told you then Carly: that her bro came to you yea Carly: why wouldn't she Drew: so, not total bullshit Drew: just not the full truth Carly: ? Drew: you said she's sad yeah Drew: don't be thick Drew: why would she be sad if he was just getting a few tabs or something Carly: cos he wasnt Carly: im not that thick Carly: i dont need her to spell out his exact order tho not working under the golden arches yet am i Drew: maybe not Drew: maybe if you were paying I'd say different but do you think getting her high is the best thing for her right now Carly: aw u think u kno better Carly: uve got it really bad Drew: so you don't fuck Drew: and you don't talk Drew: what do you actually do Drew: or is it all just for attention like Carly: we do everything Carly: its cute that you think im gonna get graphic so u can wank about it but like Drew: never been shy before Drew: everyone knows Carly: never been in love before boy Carly: everyone knows that too Drew: and I've got it bad Drew: Jesus Carly: this is mutual tho Carly: different vibe Carly: take ur pining to church if u wanna Carly: loves a trier he do Carly: i been schooled on all that Carly: probably keep your hands off yourself tho its a sin Drew: how long though eh Drew: her last didn't last very long Drew: but you know all about that, like Carly: ill take the credit yea Carly: dont be jealous Carly: youre cute too Carly: just not as cute as me Drew: this month maybe Carly: ha Carly: the flavour's 🍓 Carly: what are you? Drew: you already stoned babe? Carly: you gonna be even more 💔 if I am Carly: or that you're vanilla Drew: I know that girl didn't tell you that Carly: do u Drew: like i said Drew: probably lying anyway Drew: idk who you mean Carly: k Drew: you take the piss Drew: no more freebies Carly: after this im not asking baby Carly: relax Drew: yeah right Drew: that rep precedes you too Carly: didnt ask just got Carly: cos yea my rep does Drew: no one gets freebies forever girl Carly: nobodys talking about forever but you boy Drew: you'll still be needing it when you're cleaning up kid's vom from the ballpit Drew: trust me Drew: i know all the types Carly: u get paid for that Carly: be able to afford u Drew: afford my merchandise anyway Drew: my time's a whole other thing babe Drew: speaking of, be there in 15 so be there alright Carly: im there Carly: 💛 Drew: good girl Carly: did that work on the girl from the party? Drew: you wish you knew Carly: ha maybe Carly: but i wouldnt tell u if i did Drew: why not Carly: not me u like Drew: aw don't be jealous Drew: nuff to go round Carly: im not jealous & ur not slick Carly: but k ill try & remember Drew: yeah right Drew: you already told be Carly: what Drew: you so want me Drew: ha Carly: ur pretty ive told lots of people i think u are Carly: so Drew: you're so weird Carly: can be Carly: like you said my rep is well known Drew: yeah Carly: tell me how u like it & ill be that if the day ever comes Carly: but it probably wont Drew: you flirt a lot for someone who's so in love Carly: aw u think im flirting Carly: u havent seen me do it yet Carly: this is talking Carly: im bored Drew: i know Drew: you said Drew: sweet, right Carly: im not gonna tell her ur a good listener Drew: she knows Carly: how? Drew: we talked loads about her brother like Carly: mean then i have 2 ask u to make shit better u kno Carly: shes special u should be trying harder Drew: i can't make her brother not a junkie can i Carly: neither can she Carly: so she dont wanna think about it Carly: feel about it Drew: i'm coming ain't i Carly: u were gonna make me beg tho Carly: least i kno now thats ur thing Drew: this is still my living ain't it Carly: not asking for ur whole stash Carly: bet u gave party girl freebies & u dont even remember her Drew: i bet she didn't need as much as you 2 Carly: ha Carly: if u kno my rep u kno how needy i am baby Drew: ha yeah Drew: not my thing babe Carly: 😢💔 Carly: ur cute Drew: yeah yeah you said Carly: i said pretty Carly: different words Drew: same bollocks Carly: mean Carly: & untrue Drew: i told you that ain't my thing Carly: being nice? Carly: she won't like u Carly: too late to be in her bad boyfriends club Drew: i ain't bad Carly: what are you Drew: wouldn't you like to know Drew: maybe one day Carly: nvm i kno Carly: ur boring Drew: just giving you your chat back Drew: told you it weren't it babe Carly: aw u want my good chat Drew: be less of a waste of time sure Carly: ur one of those lads Carly: cant get hard til ive talked u up Drew: well you ain't paying so Carly: so u want me to fuck you Carly: or what Drew: obviously not Drew: it's a favour for her Carly: so u want her to fuck you Carly: good luck Drew: no Drew: jesus Drew: shut up and i'll be there sooner Carly: be more fun when u are here Carly: so boring Drew: why ain't you with her Carly: shes on her way remember Drew: need a job walsh Drew: no time to be bored Carly: aw u offering Drew: haha Drew: fuck no Drew: you'd be the worst drug dealer in the world Carly: would i Drew: yeah Drew: you can't be doing half the shit Carly: so u never dip in Carly: like i said boring Drew: got money tho ain't i Carly: i dont need money Drew: yet Drew: you've got a few years at best before you ain't young and pretty enough Drew: already told you Carly: i knew u thought i was pretty too Carly: aw Drew: have that on the house as well Drew: you are desperate weren't wrong Carly: never said u were Carly: not here cos i dont want drugs am i Drew: not what i was chatting on but yeah Drew: save some face now girl Carly: u reckon i need you to tell me im pretty Carly: why would i need you to be the first lad to chat like that to me Drew: you're bored? Drew: fuck knows Carly: not trying to get more bored then Drew: me either Drew: g2g Drew: you're next drop Carly: k Carly: have fun
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OFFAL HUNT REMASTER LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 6
another saturday, another series of me screaming. not much of an intro up here just a plunge straight tino desert bullfuckery. here we GO-
Then the mass at the core of them took shape, practically glowing from inside like a coal in a burner. Glynda recognized the patterns of gold surging with Aura along Cinder’s dress, the long strides which carried her over the molten remains of the stone spire.
we’re opening with this quote because i feel like i never did express how absolutely God Damn Sexy cinder is in this chapter. there is something VERY attractive abt having someone become SO POWERFUL they are completely overwhelming. this is going from a candle to a blowtorch. i’m very into it. i don’t think i ever said that before BUT HERE WE ARE.
im pretty sure this is their first real desert encounter but i wonder if glynda would have noticed any marginal increases to cinder’s fire bullshit if she hadn’t been so focused on the hunt..... but no glynda needs to whapped in her face with a wet fish before she notices JACK SHIT,
glynda yr EYES,
Even the slightest graze against her Aura invoked flash sweats, the heat of the desert paling in comparison.
i get that shit from sitting in a 24C bedroom i would be DEAD BY NOW,
i wonder how fire like this feels to cinder... ive written weiss as being immune to cold before (which is hilarious when she’s trying to articulate how cold something is to someone who actually, yknow, feels it) and im like... is cinder like ‘well this is toasty warm’... cinder whats yr body temp.... hello..........................
honestly i just wanna know, as someone who hates heat, what its like, to not hate it,
Too much, if she was being honest, but staying here meant death, and death meant failure.
my favourite character trope is people who think failure > death, and honestly it makes me think of hermione when shes like... we could get killed, or worse, expelled. im just rly enjoyin this HYPERFOCUSED GLYNDA OKAY.............. shes just so 👌 and also a moron,
“It must be the heat.”
/distantly: ‘its cause yr so hot,’
Yet for all that Cinder must have known what rushed at her back, she didn’t waver, her eyes set on Glynda, never straying.
:3c
i mean lets be real you’ll have read to the end of this chapter before reading my blathering like a total Foole so like... consider how terrifying it must be to have yr rival ignoring the danger (because she has nothing to fear) just to focus on u. so powerful! u’d shit yrself! there’s nothing in the WORLD to draw her attention from u..... Oh No,
glynda Yet again refuses to fear Anything do u kno how many times this stupid lesbian ends up in trouble because of this??? Too Many is the answer. too.... fuckign many.
Glynda was as vulnerable as a rabbit in a snare.
velvet scarlatina is en route to break yr bones,
A jolt of terrible recognition shot down her spine at the sight of Cinder Fall silhouetted against the sunlight filtering in, her dress billowing around her as her flame construct faded into nothing behind her.
i stan this Aesthetiq Bitch!!!!! like HONESTLY she stood there, waited for glynda to fuckin look up, posing, silhouetted, the billowing wind.... darth vader who? only one bitch has the pizzazz, the willpower, the flawless Look(tm), and its cinder.
It was like looking into a mirror and trying to parse the empty gaze staring back at her.
oh bitch what a good line THATS A GOOD LINE WHAT THE HELL
oh no like. thats really good, actually, like, oh no. THATS. MMMMMMM-
He would have to take her destroyed body back to Beacon, for she could never return to the only home she’d ever known by her own feet again.
WAS THIS WHOLE BIT NECESSARY??????????????? AAAAAAAAAAAAA-
god thats. Rough. like i love the whole desert arc bit thing because it is Full Of gifts but also. it takes away so much.
Cinder’s toes curled against the stone. “Leave.”
FINALLY WE’RE HERE!!!! THE JUICY BIT BEGINS,
honestly the references to cinder’s sigils are. very good. she is Hot and i would like cinder to step on me, and also kill me maybe,
Cinder stood silent and still as a queen, watching her soldiers lower their heads as they passed her by.
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i was threatened and the threat came to PASS, WHAT THE FUCK,
god cinder is SO GOOD IN THIS REMASTER shes powerful, sexey, a small gay loser....................... i am Lovin It and im EATIN HER UP...... but srsly tho the thirst,
there ARE still a bunch of 👈😎👈 moments but we finally had one of the bigger juicy bits drop (AND WE HAVEN’T EVEN SEEN ALL OF THE JUICE YET..... CHUG CHUG BABEY) so its Fine and also-
Alerted by some miniscule sound, Cinder’s head turned, eyes gleaming like an animal’s by night.
THE GLOWY EYES HAVE COME TO PASS THIS CHAPTER GIVES SO MUCH oh my god i have been waiting on the glowy eyes for. Years. i am 97 years old,
Instead, Cinder examined Glynda closely before crouching carefully before her, one knee pressed into the ground.
‘will u marry me’ ‘wh-’ ‘im attracted to idiots and i gotta say u have maybe 2 braincells going for u rn,’
“The great Glynda Goodwitch, on her knees before the enemy.” Cinder said, thumb smoothing an errant tangle of blonde hair out of Glynda’s eyes. “Do you understand what I could do to you?”
im losing my FUCKIGN MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is. god. u kno in films where the bad guy flirts relentlessly in a position of power.... well i never cared for it because it was almost always hetero but as it turns out, like most things, when its gay i am HERE 4 IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Red-hot and foreign, it was entirely unlike any other Aura Glynda had ever felt. In her years, Glynda had encountered hundreds of people and their Auras—but this was something dark and feral, wine-red and ichor-black, shooting scalding and angry through Glynda’s own body. A steady flow of blood or a seep of decay; Cinder’s Aura was so wild it barely felt human at all.
did i say i wouldnt 👈😎👈? jk i lied
👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈😎👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈👈
honestly? diesel n kc can. die,,
god why is this scene SO...... WHY ARE THEY NOT KISSING YET, IS THE THING, IS THE QUESTION, I HAVE TO ASK-- like seriously this scene became. 3x more queer than it was before. are yall seeing this shit????????????
Just who was Cinder Fall?
YR FUTURE GF AND WIFE WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE GLYNDA,
okay so. okay. did i mention i love the desert arc? because i DO and i continue to LOVE IT and i cannot wait for the bullshit that was chapter 7 now chapter 9??? did i get that right i probably didnt. BUT STILL,
anyway this chapter was powerful and gay and i loved it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CINDER, U SEXY,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
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