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#and it's my best option rn until something more aligned with my ideal career is available to me
revelmaven ยท 1 year
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every time my father says he wants to talk to me i know im preparing for at least an hour and a half of hearing him get progressively angrier and answering the same three questions until he can find some way to make my life decisions his idea. and usually it'll end with my mother getting exhausted and asking him to calm down or make his point, at which point he throws a huge tantrum and says he'll never speak again. ive lost count of the amount of times this month he's determined he'll never offer an opinion again
#he got really offended whrn i told him he did not need to be afraid of this decision im currently about to make#he spat that i can resent him all i want but he'll never stop 'loving' me which means he'll always react like this#and is entitled to question everything i do because he's my father and it's his job#this maybe sounds petty ok 'uwu my dad questions me i hate him so much'#it isnt that simple#it's the fact that if he finds out ive done anything that could invovle my future and leaving his house#he interrogates me with increasing aggression until i either apologise and promise not to do anything without him#or agree that everything i do is his idea and i want him to make all my decisions for me#and for everyone (correctly) who's gonna say thats abuse and i need to gtfo asap#thats exactly what tonights tirade was#im getting promoted and am gonna be making another few hundred $$$ a week so i might actually be able to get away#trust me im doing everything i ever can to get out#but like i tried to explain to him - while i dont necessarily want to do this business forever im not Against doing it#and it's my best option rn until something more aligned with my ideal career is available to me#fuck whatever#i feel gross and trapped#mum cut him off after he'd derailed for seven minutes to just talk about how much he hates his boss#which had not been connected to his previous point#and thst sent him into a tantrum#and i do see how it was upsetting to be spoken to that way - i also dont care bc he needed to have shut up half an hour before#i told her i was grateful actually and i didnt need her to come timidly apologise for ruining my night like he'd made her do to him#i fucking hate it here and i hate him#i just want to be treated like im capable of thinking for myself#trauma files#vent
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