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26|05|2023
21/50 days of productivity
Today was a bit chaotic. I am happy with everything I manged to do in the morning, because I was losing focus, but I still got a lot done. On the other hand, when I got to the hair salon to get my haircut I had to wait over 40 minutes because they were late, and that made me very unproductive in the afternoon. My goal was to write down notes for an entire chapter, and by the time I got home and everything I simply didnìt have enough time and energies to do so. I did a part, and I'll finish the rest on Monday morning. I am still planning on taking the weekend off from studying, because I really need a little break if I want to be able to work well in the next couple of weeks. I plan on doing a bit of work in the garden, and continue reading my book, and then who knows?
Productivity:
practiced Irish on duolingo (still on the bare minimum side of things but it's all my brain can handle atm)
posted this update of the 2023 genre bingo
set up the next weekly spread in my bullet journal
finished writing notes for the second chapter of M. Detienne's Creation Of Mythology
read the whole third chapter
started to write notes (and highlight them) for the third chapter
planned what I'll have to study next week to stay on track (and somehow got ink all over myself while doing that. no, I don't own a fountain pen, I am just a fool)
started downloading the recorded lectures of another class (I am downloading them just in case, I don't want to risk them being deleated. One of these days I'll download the rest)
Self care:
read first thing in the morning
got an haircut (I'm embracing the short hair for the summer, I even went a bit shorter in the back, and I am really feeling it atm)
📖:The Creation Of Mythology by Marcel Detienne, The Left Hand Of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin (little update for those who have been asking. So far I am intrigued by the story, I knew very little before going into it. I am struggling a bit because it's not the lightest read and at the moment my mental energies are not at their best. I find myself struggling the most with longer chapters, so I am pretty sure this is a me problem rn. Anyway I am enjoying it so far, I particularly like those in-between chapters that tell short stories and legends or that simply give you a bit more insight on the world it takes place it)
🎵:Calm Down (A Little Bit Calmer Now) by All Time Low (there will come a day in which I won't be obsessed by something they release, but this is not that day)
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𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐦 𝐀𝐔 - 𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬
𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟐 𝐅𝐢𝐜
Cast(s): Actress!Reader & Actor!Suna Rintarou
Warning(s): Swearing, slut-shaming, reader is using she/her pronouns, slight semi x reader
A/n: I recommend you to read my drabble first. But this could be read separately
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yourinstagram un cappucino s'il vous plaît
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bellahadid Love you, ma fée🧚♀️
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rintarousuna Me after downloading duolingo
↳yourinstagram 😀😁😐🤔
↳ynfan1 LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, THEM!
ynfan2 SHUT UPPP. THIS WHOLE WEEKEND YOU'VE BEEN SLAYING😩❤️🔥
yn.sassy Another day, another slay
↳ynln.xo Perioddd
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itsunadaily WIRED Interview ft. Rin and Y/N is out now!
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sunafan1 PLS PLS PLS THEY'RE SO FUCKING ADORABLE
↳sunafan2 IKR
ynfan3 Okay okay, I'm curious. WHO IS Y/N'S S/O?
↳ynfan1 I think it's clear that there's something between them
↳ynfan3 I thought Rin has a gf? I mean, that mysterious girl?
ynfan4 I NEED TO SEE THESE TWO AGAIN! CANT WAIT FOR THE SEASON 2😩
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rintarousuna Thanks @wonderland and everyone who played a part⚡️🖤
Order now.
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yourinstagram Damn boy, can I get your number?
↳rintarousuna I'm taken, sorry
↳ln.dailyyy Atp I don't believe you guys are just friends
aquariusuna JAW ON THE FLOOR
sunafan3 RINTAROU SUNA THE MAN THAT YOU ARE
netflix [CAR CRASH] [GLASS SHATTERING] 'GOOD LORD!' [GENERAL COMMOTION] [BABY CRYING] 'WAAAAH WAAAH' [YELLING] [POLICE SIRENS] WEEWOO WEEWOO [HELICOPTERS] 'WE'RE REPORTING LIVE-' [EXPLOSION] 'MY LEG... MY LEG...' [DOGS BARKING] ARFFF ARFFF 'OH MY GOD MY CHILD!!!' [CRASHING BUILDING] 'MY FUCKING HOUSE IS ON FIRE!!!!'
↳ynfan5 Bro... you good?😭
↳ynsangel I believe this is an easter egg for season 2
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rintarouflorals RUMOR (via deuxmoi): Rin was seen with Y/N in Paris
P.s I beg all of you to not believe everything you read on the internet. Please keep the comments respectful, thank you.
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sunafan4 Isn't it obvious that they're more than friends?
↳sunafan5 Maybe, but I think people should leave them alone and mind their own business lol💀
sunafan6 I will never trust that stupid gossip page
sunafan7 Idk bout you all, but Rin and Y/N don't make any sense
↳ynfan6 FINALLY. Someone say this! They don't give any romance energy imo
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florenceflorals Florence via instagram story!
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florencefan1 OKAY BUT Y/N IS IN FRANCE RN?!? I WANT TO MEET HER
↳ynfan7 She has been in paris for a week😭 That ig story is from yesterday
↳florencefan1 WHA–😭
florencefan2 Are we going to see Ms. Flo and Y/N work for the same project again👀
↳florenceflorals 🕯manifesting🕯
florencefan3 Y/N and her are together. Those people who ship Y/N with Eita or Rin could go😍
ynflorals I LOVE THEM SM OMG😭❤️
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rintarousuna.com RINTAROU FUCKING SUNA VIA IG STORY
P.s GOODBYE Y'ALL IM DEAD RN. THIS ACCOUNT IS NO LONGER ACTIVE
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privyn My bf is hotter than hell
↳sunafan8 Girl, he's OUR bf
↳privsuna lmao
sunafan9 Oh God... Idk how many people died because his whore behavior
ynfan8 FUCKKKK I JUST ORDERED HIS MAGAZINE AFTER THE WEBSITE IS GOING DOWN FOR AN HOUR AND NOW THIS MOTHERFUCKER HAS THE AUDACITY TO BE THIS HOT
ynfan9 @yourinstagram, ISTG you're the loml. But babe, I am this close 🤏 to steal your man
sunafan10 WHY THIS PIC IS TAKING ME BACK TO THAT VIDEO EDIT WITH "WHY'D YOU ONLY CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE HIGH" AS A BACKSOUND?!?!
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enews The fans have been speculating about L/N and Semi's relationship for months. But after attending his concert last night in Paris, the "I Know Places" star was seen having dinner at César Paris with co-star Rintarou Suna. Click the link in bio for more👀 (📷: Instagram/Getty)
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ynfan10 You guys need to stfu and get a life. Leave my girl alone
↳ antiyn1 Your fav is a hoe, just admit it lmao
↳ ynfan10 "TPWK🌸" in your bio is bs. Your fav is ashamed of you lmao
semifan1 Ok but imagine being that pretty and people make rumors between you and these two fine men🥲
privsemi Wtf is wrong with these people💀 @privyn
↳privyn Apparently netizens can't see a woman supporting her male friend😍
sunafan11 Rin ily, but you and Mr. Rockstar need to leave and let me be with Y/N
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lnandsuna.media “I don't think I owe anyone an explanation about it (his romantic relationship). For now, both of us have agreed to keep our relationship out of the public eye and as long as we're happy, it doesn't matter what strangers think about us.” — Rintarou Suna for Wonderwall, 2022
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ynfan11 Um... where is this coming from?😭
↳lnandsuna.media papz took some pics of him with his girlfriend kissing in the alley earlier this year
↳ynfan11 OH YEAH SHIT. I JUST REMEMBERED. THANK GOD WE CANT SEE THE GIRL'S FACE.
sunafan12 Even deep down I wanna know his girlfriend's face, these paps should leave them alone omfg.
sunafan13 I feel so sorry for him, he deserves better:(
ynfan12 Paps need to chill omg. What if that girl isn't a celebrity and suddenly everyone in her life knows that she's dating a famous actor?
↳sunafan14 That girl is a public figure (my aunt used to work for her stylist) and everyone around her knows her bf
↳ynfan12 So what if she's a public figure? She deserves a privacy
↳sunafan14 I didn't say she didn't deserve privacy. I just said that she's a public figure
Another a/n: I'll do a part 2! (If you wanna be tagged lmk) Stay tuned mwah<33
#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x female reader#haikyuu x f!reader#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu smau#hq x reader#hq x female reader#hq fluff#hq smau#suna x reader#suna x female reader#suna x f!reader#suna fluff#suna smau
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barely surviving saturday chlo😞. i love love LOVE YOUR DRESS. all your outfits radiate fairy energy fr. you are so so pretty <3 also what are some coping mechanisms that help you when youre having a bad day? :{
thank you angel ily always i can always tell who you are even tho ur anonymous by the loveliness coming through my screen <3 im sorry to hear your day has been crappy honestly sometimes some days you just want to explode the whole universe with your mind once and for all. anyway i'm going to link you to my fav coping mechanisms pdf because it's the only thing i rely on when i'm feeling like this and ive already used it today a lot too!! if you don't have time to look at it rn i'll list my fav suggestions from it below for you to consider. they all sound like crap btw and they kind of are but they're Something. ever since i read that post that was like coping mechanisms aren't meant to make you feel great they're just meant to put some space between you and your thoughts/feelings i've been more receptive to them, and i hope at some point you're able to be as well. sending a giant hug x
coping mechanisms i resort to often: guided meditation (there's great 10 min ones on youtube from the channel great meditation), breathwork, laying on the floor with music on and slowly stretching my muscles out from that position, crying, punching pillows or dunking my face in cold water, free writing (opening a google docs page and just writing without judgement or pausing just letting it go), tensing my fists and muscles for 10 seconds then relaxing them and breathing out (repeat 5 times), watching studio ghibli movies, doing duolingo or crossword challenges, downloading a book pdf and reading it, doing this quick easy vagus nerve reset, repeating affirmations that aren't overly positive or empty platitudes but are just neutral e.g "i am not better or worse than anyone else." "i have survived difficult situations before." "i can survive this, i'm doing it right now." "i am grateful to have a body." "i can feel the fear/pain and do it (survive) anyway." "i notice i handle things better when i identify and correct my thought distortions." "just for today i will..." " "doing something is better than doing nothing (e.g if all you manage to do today is brush your teeth then that's truly better than doing nothing at all.)
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busuu has other people correct your lessons. I don't know how I fucking missed that considering the logo is literally two speech bubbles. but it just didn't. occur to me. I saw that it was a good language learning app and I hit download and free trial. bro I don't fucking talk to strangers what the fuck. I don't even like playing online games bc I get freaked out by other people. and now someone can hear my real life voice and tell me I said the wrong thing???!?!!!?? uninstalling that rn!!
also idk what's a good app. I'm beefing w Duolingo bc they're only good for vocab and their lesson structure pisses me off. I looked at mango but they charge too much. I'm just trying to do Spanish (I did it on Duolingo before they restructured the course and fucked up my progress, and I did it in high school so I'm fairly intermediate, or at least I used to be) and mayybbeee french.
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I’m so mad that I got cheated out of learning French when we had to move from Oklahoma to Florida
#Apollo’s Prophecies#like literally the only language option at my small ass school is Spanish#like had we moved to Florida this year I could’ve been able to have conversations with the French exchange student#LIKE DUDE ID BE ABLE TO AMKE A NEW FUCKING FRIEND#I’m very mad about this#and it’s not like I can just download duolingo rn#my phones storage is too full because I’m stupid and I have too many photos that are taking up all that storage#ANGY >:{{{
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Listen,, fratboy hockey player Matty trying so hard despite his mere 2 brain cells, to seduce his exchange student liney Leon. For plot reasons, I'd think it would be interesting if Leon only kind of understood English (esp Matty's accent and niche slang terms). Do with that what you will. - 💖 the one from mattdrai and girouxs blogs sjfjdjsks
I 🥺🥺🥺🥺 the way i’m smiling behind my mask rn
ok so i have SO MANY THOUGHTS BC
-matty is already so enamored with this foreign exchange student even tho he just glares at everyone?? like matty just wants to hold his hand and listen to him curse out opposing teams
-and listen matty isn’t a hit it and quit it kinda guy...he downloads duolingo and everything bc he goes above and beyond in everything especially for this cute foreign exchange student
-leon is always so confused bc he’s seen matty be an asshole on the ice and he doesn’t get that matty isn’t being a dick,,like matty genuinely wants to be his friend
-actually more than friends as they hang out more and more
-matty is constantly flirting, in english when he forgets, and then in broken german as he’s still learning!!! leon never knows how to respond so he just gives him a thumbs up and skates away
-and everyone is trying to tell matty to cool it bc leon’s a recuit and they don’t want him to scare this german superstar away
-matty obvi doesn’t care...just compliments leon and his hockey and his english...this boy is losing it
-ok last thought: maybe leon gets fed up with the dancing and finally goes “you, me, date tomorrow.” and yes, there’s no angst bc they deserve some peace and happiness
ok i can go on forever...so i’m gonna write a fic brb
#I JUST#THEY-#they live in a frathouse OBVI and someone gets matty a poster of leon#do with that what YOU WILL#im not kidding i planned out the fic while i was out#mattdrai#prompts#headcanon
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french in 1.5 years anon
Kinda random but I just found out that I’ll be required to be intermediate/advanced in French by the next 1.5 years; ALL I KNOW IS THAT MEIRDE IS A BAD BAD WORD! Idk if you’re a native speaker but I was wondering if you could provide me of any good French language resources (or language in general since I’ll be needing to learn Arabic soon as well), and like tips for language learning and how to go about it? Sorry to bother you haha this is MY stress but I appreciate any help! Have a great day!
HEY. so i really fucking dropped the ball on this one, i’m sorry. 2019 has been one health fiasco after another (or more like the same fiasco again and again) and i kept telling myself i want to sit down and make a proper post for this, until i realised that that’s just never going to happen given the way things are rn. and i’d rather give you a quickly-written post which is actually helpful than never write that perfect bullet-pointed one.
first of all, i’ve been in your EXACT position (so no, i’m not a native speaker) except i had about...six months to go from je m’appelle teesta to voyez-vous, le problème qui se cache derrière tout ça n’est pas le manque de respect mais la personne dont il s’agit or whatever. i was like, i can so do this. (spoiler: i didn’t, because i was 18 and overconfident and stupid and didn’t actually know how to learn a language.) GOOD NEWS: having learned 3 more foreign languages since then, i am now REALLY GOOD at learning languages REALLY FAST. 1.5 years is a good amount of time, so don’t stress.
i’m going to go generic on this, with some extra tips about french since i speak it, unlike arabic.
first thing, that typical thing everyone hates to hear but knows is coming from the mouth of an accomplished person (pat on my back) in any field whatsoever: you’re going to have to work really hard and practice like fuck.
there’s just nothing else that can replace it. i’ve filled up notebooks and notebooks with japanese verb conjugations, once i did like 1800 of them in one sitting. but you better believe that a bitch will never forget those now. resign yourself to putting in at least three hours of your day to this until you get to the level you need. (and three hours is...kind. at my peak i was literally reading through french dictionaries at the library, 10 AM - 8 PM. i treated it like a workday.)
now, what you need to establish is: are you a hands-on learner or a digital one.
i don’t really care for all the auditory learner and visual learner stuff, i don’t know about anyone else but i personally used those as excuses to avoid certain exercises. unless you have actual disabilities preventing you from accessing certain methods of learning, you can train yourself into anything. it’s a matter of practice. i could barely understand a new song without reading its lyrics first, now i eat up podcasts.
SO. the question here is different. a hands-on learner, like i used to be more or less throughout my bachelor’s, is someone who absolutely cannot retain information unless they’ve written it down BY HAND at least once. pen and paper. (i’m still like this but i’ve learned to combine it with digital methods to go faster.) if this isn’t a hurdle for you, congratulations. your process is going to go that much faster, at least for french. (you’ll have to spend hours practicing your written arabic however, if you’re not familiar with the script.)
now, if you’re a hands-on learner, you need to add an extra hour to your daily time. no matter how fast you write, you will take that time. and you cannot shorthand your way into languages. you need to understand how french is spelt, what accents it uses, that they put a space before exclamation points, question marks, and semicolons. (side tip: learn the IPA. it will be useful to you forever in language learning, at least for the romance languages.) i’m not gonna teach you how to make notes since i’ve never benefitted from copying someone else’s style, so if you don’t have a set method start establishing that. you need regularity and rhythm when you learn a language. my grammar notes look the same regardless of the language. i don’t have my french ones since it’s been years and i didn’t take good ones then anyway, but here’s my japanese and russian stuff.
JAPANESE NOTES // RUSSIAN NOTES
now, it bears mentioning that these notes are NOT the notes i take when i don’t know shit. these are final level notes. they’re brief, idiosyncratic, and only reminders. something to refer to when i’m revising and suddenly forget a rule. the first notes i make are much more elaborate, whether they’re pretty or not. i’ve gradually lost the fucks i had about really going ham on academics so my russian notes are very messy, but my japanese ones from back in the day are magnificent. here’s a look. during lesson one i realised that japanese and my mother tongue, gujarati, are syntaxically similar as shit, and i started taking notes with references in gujarati. it sped up my learning process 2x while my french classmates were still going “BUT WHY IS IT LIKE THAT”.
PRACTICAL GRAMMAR // THEORETICAL GRAMMAR
if you plan to learn more languages in the future, this will be so valuable. sometimes a phrase i learn in russian doesn’t make sense in its french explanation, but a phrase in english might use the same logic. bam, put down the translation in english then. you get what i’m saying? the more languages you learn, the easier it gets to learn languages.
now if you’re a digital learner, i’ve got great news for you. duolingo and anki are your best friends. duolingo’s memed to hell and has a system that might not work for everyone, but they’ll do the brunt work of compiling grammar notes for you in the beginnings/ends of their lessons. note those down and transform them into anki flashcards, and you can learn grammar concepts without doing 20 exercises. (do those exercises if you can, though, nothing beats mindless practice.) now anki is an intimidating-looking but actually super intuitive app that basically builds digital flashcards for you and shows them to you in a rhythm based on your own learning speed. it’ll show you the front of a card, let’s say merde. you say the english translation out loud, shit, and hit enter. correct! was that easy? anki’ll show it to you in 10 minutes. hard? it’ll show you in 1 minute. super easy? merde won’t come up again until tomorrow. eventually you get so good at it that you can bury a card for 2 months. anki will also show you the same cards reversed, which is harder but trains you better. you’ll see shit and have to remember what it’s called in french, which is more difficult than you’d think it is.
you can use anki for more than just vocab, like i mentioned. it’s a little tricky learning to convert grammar concepts into front/back flashcards, but you can do it. for example, here’s a sample of one of my russian grammar cards:
front ^^
back once i hit enter^^
see? not that difficult. now don’t be an idiot like me who manually entered every single flashcard into anki. you can find pre-made packages online (but you can’t guarantee they’ll be correct) or you can make your own without killing your fingers. what you wanna do is open up a spreadsheet and make two columns, A for front of the card and B for back. it’ll look like this:
then you’re gonna save that spreadsheet as a .CVS (comma separated values) and import that into anki. bam, your flashcards are made for you with half the effort. there’s also a script floating around somewhere to make excel translate words automatically for you, but i don’t recommend that unless they’re really easy words. google translate can fuck up. reverso is your friend.
you need to review your anki cards every day. it’ll take less and less time as you go along. i can review 300 russian cards in 15 minutes now. but you need to keep the rhythm going. download ankiapp and sync your cards, review them on commutes or in the hallway or whatever. trust me, it’s magic.
apart from this, if a traditional textbook helps, go for that. i’ve always used textbooks and workbooks, more as supports than as principal methods, but it does help. it’s structured and organised and these people know how to train you. bescherelle is a good go-to for french.
media is always a great way of immersion too, until you get to the country itself. it’ll show you how french people speak french. when i first came to france i didn’t have that experience and even though i spoke an arguably decent amount of french when i got here, it was like, if this is french then what the fuck was i learning in high school. if you like watching movies this is your chance. watch the classics first so that you can get an idea of french pop culture. amélie (though the pop culture aspect here is about shitting on it) and les intouchables, for starters. watch your favourite films, first subbed, then subbed and dubbed, then just dubbed. i watched all ten seasons of friends with french subs, it was wild. with music you want to start off with some indie-ish singers since they will universally sing softer and slower, making things easier to understand than idk, la tribu de dana. (if you’re into bts there’s a hilarious video of their baepsae choreo set to la tribu de dana.) anyway - angèle, cœur de pirate, céline dion, fréro delavega, uhhh that fucking french sufjan stevens. what’s his name. VIANNEY. don’t fucking listen to biglo and oli or like, fatal bazooka right away. you will not understand shit. i barely understand it. white people are wild. ooh listen to stromae. orelsan too, he’s a rapper but he has a relatively clean diction imo. he also sang the french opening for OPM. they call him orelsan-san in japan.
last but not the least: if you have the opportunity to interact in french with people, DO IT. native speakers will do their best to help you and be kind about it. people who learned french might sometimes be assholes from experience. it’s a whole superiority complex thing, and very hypocritical. anyway - online or IRL, wherever you can practice your french, do it. it’ll be immensely helpful. there’s nothing like the frustration of not being able to express simple things to get you motivated to get better. do your best to immerse yourself - changing the language on your devices can make a difference too.
i think that’s all i have and again, i’m sorry for taking this long to finally deliver, thanks for your patience! if you have any specific questions don’t hesitate to hit me up, on anon or not.
good luck - it’s not going to be the easiest but nothing is as gratifying as beginning to understand the workings of a language. you’re gonna love it!
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Hi! I have had this account for a while (of years) but I'm a technically new studyblr
So, as I'm in my second semester of university (which actually it's only a 4 months time period, but the concept of semester is the most mm... "similar" I found to the concept of "ciclo de estudios" from my education system. I will look up for the proper term later 😅) I now have a plenty of things to publish on my studyblr. Finally I will use it x'd
I took this photos with b612 camera app
-girl, thy dont luc gud. Wii don wanna know. Like why?
I know, but I swear they looked legit about 30 mins ago when I took them. Till I realized I had been taking them with the blue light filter on 😂.
I was like ~wow, this actually came out good they look like good ("real" lol) studyblr photos. I'm proud :')
(Then saw the filter on and turned it off)
~Nono, my babies are now crappy.
But despite of it, the whole process was fun :)
So to any one who happens to have a blue light filter on their phone (the thing that makes your screen go yellowish) and is curious, go ahead and turn it on ^-^
About me:
I'm a psychology student (2ndo ciclo), my first language is spanish (I'm latinoamerican), my second is my decaying english xd. Man, it's been years ever since the last time I spoke it with a native speaker face to face.
My pronunciation is trash now because my sis and I played to do weird tug accents 🤗 and she became the only person with who I talked in english, so it became an habit. But as long as I can be understood by others, fine for me ;)
Learning english is one of my biggest accomplished goals because I did it on my own basically with duolingo, songs (lots of it) and tv shows (8 year old me loved CSI and everything alike. The genre is police drama series, right?) and I'm proud of that because I was the kid on which the english teacher had gave up all effort and after some months started having constructive polite arguments on the grammar structure with her.
(Postdata: My profesors have never got mad for students being curious or correcting them and I have heard this is a common issue for some people so I just wanted to make clear this wasn't the case)
Nowadays my grammar is also sligghhhhtly trashy because I lost practice and the obsessive desire to learn english.
My interests are: learning french and german, singing, drawing, visual arts, getting a schoolarship (here it works different, but I won't explain it rn because I'm very talkative and get lost on it 😅), make it to a national university, autism research (I'm currently working in an introductory text for family members of children with autism. Is a personal initiative ;) ), rodents (I freaking love them as long as they come from a friend/pet shop or anuwhere but the sewers, don't carry diseases and mean no harm, they are my fav), meeting new people, and learning in general.
Tv shows I currently watch: Euphoria, Trevor Noah's (my other crush) stand up comedy acts, Aggretsuko, Ok k.o. and steven universe. This list would be longer if I were counting my favs, also with all of the homework I don't have enough time :'(
The music I love: I listen to almost anything, but I don't like reggaeton. For party's it's okay, but, me downloading a J Balvin, Farruco, etc. song to my cellphone or even listening to it on spotify just doesn't happen xd. The genre I listen to the most is electro, chill and trap, basically most of what is on cloudkid. I like blackbear songs a lot, if my parents or my neighbors could understand english I'd be punished by now 😂👌😊. Brendon Urie is my crush and I also like soft things like Tate mc Rae songs or "I found" by Amber Run.
My fears: Rn, that my emojis look too different in another phone and send the wrong message. That is why the: xd, x'd, :), :'), ^-^ are my default go to's. Mystery solved ^-^.
I choose this career path because I like helping others and being a psychologist is such an amazing work that allows you to help people reach their goals, to be by their side (and we all have needed someone at least once in our lives), lend an ear, learn to understand better and orientate them towards improvement and to simply help in such a deep and meaningful way. And I find this amazing <3
There is always someone who needs help when you are a psychologist. Even if you don't actually need it and have been obligated to go there against your will, you need it because of the situation itself xdxdxd
I don't have a freaking idea on how to finish this but it was nice to meet you, darling, I promise I won't be as talkative in my future posts ;)
And lastly, a piece of advice to any new studyblr who doesn't have pretty stationary or/and a nice camera:
Don't worry, being an studyblr is about sharing your student work and advancements 😊
See you in later posts 😇
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5 pm and its already real emo hours?
ya girl kat is back at it again
*deep sigh*
yep, it seems like i have existential crisisies every damn time before i have a huge assessment (which is all the damn time in this hell forsaken ib program)
i just i dont know like always i feel kinda empty, in fact i’ve kinda felt like this for awhile, not just a sorta sadness but also a kind of tiring emptiness
even when i laugh or smile or im having fun, theres still this kind of underlying sadness or worry at the back of my mind
theres a lot of reasons i feel this way, and i dont think i can pinpoint it on one particular thing or event, but i guess to sum it up i feel like im sort of regressing. I used to have these big dreams of being some lawyer and going to a super legit ivy league, and being successful and happy.
but because of this fuckign program i realised i cant do that, i guess yeah its good the difficulty helped me realise that life is hard eariler than later, but a part of me quite frankly would have prepared 2 more years of blissful ignorance. so like last year i decided no i cant do that i cant take the stress im not smart enough that jist blah blah so i guess i kinda haphazardly decided ummm ill do psychology?? its something im interested in and my friends always go to me when theyre down and im pretty good at cheering them up and i did well on the psych course i took
but the thing is im so unsure o fgoing into this when all my friends are doing ““successful”“ majors like comscip or engineering or premed. and im not even sure of the major i want to do....
i know my parents say therye okay with it but like the truth is i know they arent. like my dad looked so dissapointede in me when i told him i didnt apply to any buisness schools
what im also scrae dof is doing psych at uni and having the whole being assesed thing make me hate it. nothing kills passion than having it associated with dissapointment and stress
my parents sort of instilled this idea in me that if something isnt useful dont do it. which is causing me a lot of grief and stress rn with the recent intersts and hobbies i have. there around 3 but ill just talk about one right now
languages, since like grade 6 ive been fascinated baout languages, i wanted to learn more and wanted to be those cool polygots. i didnt get that far you konw preteen attention span, i learned the cyrillic alphabet and really basic german in the brief period of time tho
in like grade 11 i spent time (and still am) spending time relearning how to read and write chinese, that wasnt a struggle because well i am chinese and its a DAMN useful language
but then grade 12 (aka me last 2+ weeks) i stumbled upon the langblr community and i remembered the interest and spark i used to have about languages, and i saw so many people and so many RELALY GOOD RESORUCES and i was like wow.
so i was like ugh whatever i guess il download duolingo just to check out the features ill probably ditch it anyway
well two weeks and 100 lingots later... guess i didnt ditch it.... but then like theres this nagging voice in my head thats telling me to stop wasting my time learning french, russian, spanish (and german kinda but i haveent startred that yet) these languages arent going to be useful for my future i should sjust stop im wasitng my time
im wasting my time just like i always do, i waste my time doing meaningless things i wont even be able to speak or read these languages that well ill forget eventually so why am i wasitng my time now?
this voice is just so damn loud and i wish i could tell it to shut up
i wish i could truly enjoy something that makes me happy wtihout thinking im wasting my time and im a loser i really ohenstly dont feel that im good at anything or have any geniune long lasting passion i feel like ill ditch the whole langauges and the other two hobbies soon i just feel like ill continue my cycle of mediocirty
another part of me just wonders if im seeing tthe past through rose coloured glasses, so i went back to read some of my old journals and stuff and i think with the exception of some periods of time
i was geniunely happier then than i am now
but i also had some unhealthy ideas about myself, interests, and i was kind of unhealthily obsessive over some things, granted i still have some problems with that. but i think the main difference is now i’m aware
and to be frank, being aware im not entirely sure if thats a GOOD thing, in fact it kinda makes my not so good feelings feel worse since im aware.
what is geniune happiness? what is the difference between a hobby or interest that brings true joy or just unhealthy escapism? i dont know well i think i know what the answer might be but its still blury and vague
well from this i think one thing im not that bad is im alright at expressing myself and my emotions, im almost too in tune with myself, but the problem is yes i may be aware yes i may be able to articulate myself. but i dont do anything to change
so my circumstances and my feelings and the general state im always in, i guess its just my fault
i hope to look at this months or a year or maybe even years from now and say i didnt have anything to worry about and that things became better
but then again, maybe in the future ill be saying “wow yo u had it easy, i wish i could go back things are much worse now”
honestly i have way more to say but this already seems to o long so maybe another time i have an exam tmrw anyway
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