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minarinnn · 4 months

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girl dinner anon here please can I have more crumbs of Kunigami and Barou your writing for them was so good and I haven’t seen anything new for them in a while 😭🙏

I dunno if I want anything specific- maybe like breeding or something but you can do whatever your heart desires desires 🙏🙏🙏🙏

OMG I ENJOYED WRITING THAT SM NGL, this took longer than expected but honestly it’s bc i kinda forgot to post it so yh sorry for the delay lmao

content/trigger warnings: afab! reader, characters are aged up, breeding, mentions of pregnancy, pregnancy kink, degrading, praising, groping, rough sex, implied size kink

BAROU

barou always pulled out. he didn’t mind it. there was never any real desire to get you pregnant. that was until he saw you with his baby nephew at a family event. the kid was around 2 years old and you spent almost the whole night fussing over him

you played, fed, and even cuddled with him. he saw his nephews sleeping figure in your arms as your soft hands caressed his back. he doesn’t know why but barou felt all tingly inside. he never had the urge to do it but the thought of you carrying a kid that looks exactly like him turned him on immensely

so when you get to your shared apartment and barou pounces on you, you think nothing of it. you’re like putty in his big, rough hands. you really couldn’t get enough of him

the way his dick stretched you out perfectly, bruising your cervix as you moaned out his name. your pretty nails scratching and leaving marks along his back while his heavy balls smacked against your ass

your eyes rolling back over his rough pacing that immediately makes you go dumb on his fat cock. his hands groping all over your body as he growls lewd things in your ears that make you clench impossibly harder on his dick

“it hasn’t even been ten minutes and you’re already dumb on my cock, huh? you pretty little slut” the words making you whine and your eyes water. “i’m gonna fuck my baby into you” he grunted, reaching deeper into your soaking cunt “you’d like that, wouldn’t you pretty?”

you nod, babbling incoherent words as your second orgasm washed over you, making you buck your hips towards him. “i’m’a make you a fuckin’ mommy” is the last thing he said before dumping his seed into your cunt, thrusting it deep into you, making you take every single drop

KUNIGAMI

kunigami has always been a big family guy so the though of having a family of his own always excited him. but when you said you didn’t wanna have kids yet, he respected it. though he did have the habit of asking questions like ‘when do you think you’ll be ‘ready?’ ‘how many do you wanna have?’ ‘do you want any at all?’

so when you told him you were getting off the pill, not because you wanted children, but because of the side effects that came with it, he was oddly weird about it. maybe it was because he enjoyed cumming inside of you and now he had to pull out

the next few times go by with him pulling out, he didn’t like doing it, but he respected you and your wishes. as much as he’d like to dump his cum into you like he used to, he knew he had to restrain himself

but when the words “im ready” and “please cum inside” slip out of your mouth while he’s pounding his dick into you, he goes feral. his pace immediately picks up, making you moan in pleasure as his thrust went from gentle and loving to rough and quick

kunigami’s mind was filled with images of your belly growing and your boobs heavy and sore. the thought of you carrying his baby just fueled him to the max

you could feel his dick twitching within your gummy walls as his lips feverishly kissed along your entire body, his thumb rubbing circles on your thigh. “you’re gonna be such a good mommy” his sweet words contrasted his rough pace. you could feel his big cock pushing past your cervix and his breeder balls smacking against your plush ass

with a few more thrust and a few whines, he painted your walls white. resting his sweaty body on top of yours while he kissed your shoulder. both your chest’s heaving up and down while your hand roamed his fluffy orange hair

“i hope we have twins”

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petals2fish · 4 months

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Hello! I was thinking about you recently and realized your petalstofish account was gone, and I started to worry about you. Because that’s what I do. Maybe you said something about leaving your previous accounts and I missed it, that would be likely on my part. So I was thrilled when Dumbest Witch Alive showed up in my inbox and I found you here again! I hope you’re well!

Hi friend!! thank you so much for reaching out and for reading DWA!!!!I told @gryffindormischief last night that I genuinely threw up words onto paper and that’s the mess that came out lmao

Alsoooooo…I am so sorry for dropping off the face of the earth. I had mentioned only a couple of times that I was dealing with some health issues, but I never went into full detail, so I’m sure it looked odd when I just disappeared. 2023 was really hard year, and I stepped away from all social media except for my instagram for quite some time…but I’m really really excited to be back here and feeling more like Petals again. I missed everyone, and even in the year or so away, I knew eventually I would come back. I just didn’t want anyone to worry if I told them what was going on, so I figured a cold cut was easiest ♥️

Short story:

I was very ill, but I’m feeling SO much better!

Long Story:

Essentially, I had just moved back to Florida after being gone for four years in Arizona. When my old doctor in Florida saw me, they decided that the plaquinil treatments that I have been taking for my chronic illness for the last few years in Arizona had not been working. They decided to put me on this drug called methotrexate. It was chemotherapy in pill form, low dose, and it’s commonly used for people who have rheumatoid arthritis and lupus. My genetics love me so I have both RA and Lupus. So they thought it was a perfect match for me. It’s rare for people to have a super bad reaction to it, usually just fatigue and hair loss, but of course I managed to have like the worst reaction of all.

Due to multiple side effects, I ended up bed bound within a few days of starting my daily doses. During this time I could barely sit up and eat a meal. My mental health was plummeting anytime I allowed myself to have my phone in bed. I knew I had to do something else, before I totally crashed off the deep end. I would go on and see all my friends at Taylor’s era tour, and I’d had to sell my tickets. I was missing birthdays, movies, long planned trips with friends. I was SO lost in a way I can’t even begin to describe.

Even though my wonderful parents moved me in with them and got me a second opinion, by the time the new doctor got me off of the methotrexate and onto a new drug, it took another few months for my body to complete expel it from my system. So I was down for the count from March to October.

Thankfully, I’m feeling SOOO much better now and have a wonderful doctor who listens to me and never tells me my feelings aren’t valid. Once I had a better grasp mentally and physically, and I felt okay enough to start writing and reading and reviewing again, I decided to return to social media. Im actually super excited because I start physical therapy this week, which is a huge step, and I no longer need to use FMLA every week at work. Yay!

ALSOOOO not wholly related but some bot stole PetalsToFish SO HERE I AM WITH A NEW NAME. THANKS BOTS🤪

Xoxo

If u read all the way thru this I owe you an ice cream sundae

#petals talks #a long explanation #some know #some don’t #figured I’d explain for anyone who cares

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virginiaisforhaters · 2 years

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in light of EvErYtHiNg happening at the moment it feels like a good time to mention that there is a non-iud birth control implant. it only lasts three years (at least the one i have) but if you for some reason cannot get an IUD you have other long term non-daily options. i previously had an IUD, it was not compatible with my body, and tbh i would have chosen the implant over an IUD if i knew they existed (but this is not to say either is the superior form of birth control, just that different things work for different people and you should know you have options- my doctor certainly fucking didnt tell me i had to find out on my own). ive had a nexplanon implant for almost six years now, so two implants so far. it is easy, and not very painful (i am a person for which iud insertion was the most intense pain i have ever experienced and would not be able to endure again, it made me scream- the side effects of insertion also caused me to spend the night in a tiny ancient bathroom throwing up in a ballgown at a black tie event at the corcoran for a sculpture i helped create and install, still mad about that, in the interest of full transparency). in the current climate it would be ideal to get the longest lasting form of birth control, but just know if you cant get an IUD there are other options.

and whats an arm implant like? honestly, like my tattoos, 99% of the time i forget its there. they shoot it into your arm with like, the medical equivalent of a claires ear piercing gun, which is really cool and not very painful. i make a lot of jokes about being a cyborg. you get a large, weird ass bruise, mine went away after 1-2 weeks and was shaped like a dick and balls which was super funny. when the time comes to replace it you go to the doctor and they numb your arm, make a tiny cut to get the old implant out, and pop a new one in. takes five minutes tops, and the bruising is less bad the second time around because theyre using the same hole. is it weird having a piece of plastic in your arm? i guess? no weirder than having a piece of plastic or copper in your uterus, or taking a pill at the same time every day. i worked extensively in physical jobs after getting my implant (ropes course facilitator/climbing instructor and hardware store) and pretty much always worried about it snapping, because i was working jobs that heavily relied on using my arm muscles, but it did not break despite all that, which was pretty impressive. i will say i have heard stories from people whose implants snapped, and it was not pleasant. im not here to sugar coat it we have to be realistic in this new hellscape. if you hit your implant its not gonna feel good. i have a high pain tolerance, so insertion might have been less painful for me than for others. you will have a tiny scar on your arm, its barely noticeable.

i have periods... sometimes. more often i just get weird random spotting, maybe a few times a year i’ll get an actual period, but nothing like the two week hellfest i used to, which is a bonus jonas if you have Gender Stuff. it did take some time for my period to stop happening at first, a few months maybe before it just went away. i like my implant a lot but people always think its super weird because theyve never heard of them, so here we are. implants exist. if you like to mess with people you can poke it around under your skin and people freak out. its really funny. would rate them 9/10 with the caveat that three years isnt a full presidential administration and it may become impossible to replace. you can also tell people you were abducted by aliens and they left a weird rod in your arm. honestly the opportunities for fucking with people are endless.

#current events #birth control #long post

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solardick · 4 days

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Alright. Think im getting back to normal. Haven’t needed much in pills fir the last couple days. Sugarless monster drinks, yogurt and oatmeal. Doesnt fwel like i got dry fucked bloody.

Naybe we may go vack to tarot, if i havent exausted what i can make. Thinking of replacing the tower. Cause its sucks beinb connevted to the masculine “ patriarchy”

Well, or Ну, as well as one can be in a social prison.

Logic just released a new song today. Have ‘t heard it yet. Hope its as good as his last one.

Feels good though. Battling a desease or an issue. Unless its s scial issue. Then im fucked. Cause then one has the motovation to o aonething. Proavtice. Rererrerrrrrrrerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

The tower could be a throne. Cause everuone is meant to rule their own lives. Plus the russian side of the arguent. By pronounciation. Makes the emperor interchangeable. To the tower.

To something like this from a top google search. Though remove the femine jinx or whatever “they” are though, i do not like using they anymore. Fail to the missing plural Its.

The И is interesting. The play on mirage is neat. Are not to picture it as an И over an N. -> Fun.

Damage to the image of masculine. Is not.

To all those snigering ghosts. When one plays a magic word like sex. Are still machinating “their” image as plan.

There is not what do you mean? -A question mark that should be lacking a period. - thr product is effective, none thee least, only with a litle powtic flare.

Now ask, how do you feel? The question is as solid as heritage.

There is still a very dark tred in the field of these cards. With its own fear. Of approaching the experiences. The image of the woman wrestling thr lion. Is grotesque. Even if it can be viewed being attached to the throne. Or the tower. It’s… it shouldn’t be. A flaw.

The image of man raising, civilization, elevating or enduring its weight pressing down. The card used may be modified some to aid the positive projection. By association. But it’s a band aid. And easily manipulated however the artistry used. The backwards N used here. -Neat to whomever placed it out to find.- to the “emperor” in the land of forming “folklore” aside from the reality shown, in this world.

The word Fortitude, here, is a better fit over strength. When one compares to the various depictions of strength. While being taught that it used to be “fortitude. I have the card ive chosen for it. Plus its association to nationalism. Patriotism. It conforms to civil conditioning. Used in Unifying,-waites strength card,- a populace. Truth is here to those whom are unable to perform in a strict way aside from the natural, the word here is used selectively. Stand negative chance at collective effort.

When using N for its negative form. As in No and Negative. Compared to the russian Нет “ Nyet” shows the images of the lovers, the petulant fool, and the tower. No to that. Or if one adds in the Y of the judgement. It plays its own theme. The lovers judgement and the fools calamity.

The foreingcy, from without is locking it down to tongue.

This is why, i’ll say, that the lovers card works beautifully well, better, for the younger mind, being urged towards debauchery. Live alitle. “Yolo” ugh. The “judgement of an old man.” For its serves as wisdom. The job of the elderly, when as jesus,” serve to educate the young. It nestles well in the functional family upbringing. This being the third stage of life as taught by the church as the holy ghost completing the trinity. For they are foundational pillars that remain active on ones compass. Will one listen to every elder’s wisdom? Or the select ones one has confidence in?

, off track, being the lovers card is also taught a couple pages in as a Ball. An outting, of social class. And this works also. But negates the attention away from the sexual and desires. This could be an added card, for why not have both? The card will need to be selectively tied to the lovers card. By placement, or by number, or by letter. If it can be effectly tied in as a trinity itself (get it? It and a being, it and they) way too intentional)) it will have a heavier, weaving, impact as a whole.

Hahahah hah, awh,

And cause its cut short. The next one they olaced is this.

Okjust because. The line up.

Well, guess that influences my arguement to be true. With the encouraged throne card, and the positive union card.

But pray ignore those songs and the present curcumstances with abusive people.

While they continue to rape my existence.

The amount of lies i catch from them is mind blowing. Most of them if not allnof them involved.

The problem with this Д Т card. Numbering 5 and 20. Here the E fool is given the throne. 20 is Y the rulers judgement. Connects the personage of the fool to throne, to judgment, to tower. Coincidentally the russian and english alphebets both have the letter T on the same number. the judgement cards depeiction shows an open sky, above the throne to the people below. The judgement card is ambiguance to positive,-negative dispositions.

For most, a tower is the closest thing to a home. After the day, after work, when one retires or one invites, the home trumps all.

Grr

But, one needs a home. I havent seen it anywhere in any deck. Not a personal home. Only a collective one. But without the personal one there cant be a collective one. The letter Д≈D on an overlay are numbers 4, empress (seated) and 5 emperor. Or on the tarot as the emperor and the pope.

For the russian Дом, ≈ Dom, the word for home. Is written here, as rulership. And the english letter M here as machination. And not oracular. The english Home equals the lovers and the wheel. (‘machination) the extra letter brings the addition of the E-fool. Which plays itself in to equal the same as Д. Save for the little extra peace of lovers reflecting both the empress and emperor or Czar. Though with less emphasis on passion and more on heritage.

The letter t as seen above was an effort to bring as a signifier of the church or pope or hierophant however ya’ll judgy bastards want to call it. -While staying true russian pronunciation. Still have a hard time with Х. We don’t have that tongue movement in parlance. But… on the russian side of the arguement with what cards have been chosen. Not to be mistaken with reality. Is that the primer is H which is pronounced as N. as strength. So here it does olay in beautiful with waites image of strength. But it seems to be true of my image of fortitude bearing the weight of civilization. While bettering the demons that plague the goal. With И. Confusion.

One can just leave out the marseille card for strength and use it has the reversal of the U nion card of strength. Since the strength card here in question is being used as an overlay with another variation. Two tittle names may be given. Labeled as both strength and Union. And it will go unquestioned.

I thought of not putting numbers on them. Thr ability to distinguish the three layers of cards makes it multidynamic if one just wanted to use the tarot version, the english version or the russian version.

Though the number 16, as placed on the tower card is a significant one. Its the exact number of waking hours. As compared to 8 being the number of hours to sleep. Two times 8 is sixteen. But 1+6 is 7. It preceeds sleep. Sleep in this context is the afterlife and to number the chariot to 7, a usual bad omen if its not being labled as victory.

Nyway, weekend done, time to go back to being serrounded by self anointed enemies. Wonder what life is like not being surrounded by enemies. 39 years and counting. Guess i’ll never know. Thats all there is. And i wonder what it’s like having someone to talk to. Anyway. Same bs. Another day.

Я хочу домой

On a final personal note. I was squeezing hard, exercising those muscles, trying to offset that feeling of rot. And it felt like something moved or came out of the tissue wall, similar to pulling a splitter or squeezing out a big white head. And then the pain came back the next day. And now, it seems to be getting better. So, im guessing that a piece of… crap… uhm corn cernal or what have you that isually gets stuck in your gums got stuck in the tissue after the inflammation damage. Though those IBS pills did work some. Not all the time but did some.

And man, is Russian complicated with that grammar. Adide from that questions sound like statements and statements sound like questions. And in alot of these beginner cases. The only way to distinguish and question from a statement is in the tone of voice. Since a question ends with a high pitch, which signifies reception and the feminine. And a lower pitch signifies a rhetorical and the masculine.

For instance with Я хочу домой means i want to go home. Compared to Я хочу дом which means i want home. Grammar is different. I eat “Я ем”they eat “Вы едат.” So many different words meaning the exact same thing. The more i learn other languages the less satisfactory english becomes. Im still made at “it and they.” An It is not a self. Though im never going to learn why that is. Because information isnt free. And google is useless.

And, one goes to a doctor and they prescribe you something on guess work that isnt true. And you get it on your permanent record. No i don’t have clinical depression. I was just surrounded by assholes. It was probably all just apart of their long term plan to fuck with my existence. After quitting anti depressants. I could never remember to take them half the time with the abuse and the physical violence on my person. And circumstance after situation of choatic hardship left me fucked. To be continued to be for years to come. That a past tense only understood by context. They are still oulling the gay crap on me. Wasting my time. With bs. Ugh. Oh yeah and nathan is abusing me the same way jamie did for years. Playing me agaisnt the family and all that. But. I dont like them anyway. So inhabe a cross dresser, a queer or an abusive fag to have to partner with. The queer guy and the cross dresser work well with. Not the fag though. Fucktard. Still doesnt leave me with anyone to talk with. Since, also nothign they say is true. And ive been teying to build a healthy personality. But, im not allowed.

Ok that enougb dont want to ruin this tarot hobby of mine witn the same old bs. But they wont let me leave it be. With the amount of time, people, resources and investment being used to fuck with me they’re obviously being paid. Probably by some millionaire asshole with alot of free criminal money. Doesnt look like im sleeping tonight. Maybe ill stay home. What they gonna do? Fire me. Hahahhah yeah right.

With a more positive outlook day with a weakened conscious state i might be able to further this tarot study. Maybe even donate anotehr couple hundred dollars to charity and help save some children. Of be like everyother ashoke im placed with. And shove dick and drigs in their face instead. And it doesnt look like i have a drivers license anymore. But that diesnt matter anyeay. Its not likeni can make a big step like that until i stop being fucked with.

You bunch of theolophobes. Look at how useless google is.

Homos and nazi, uh? Though it does group homos nazis and christian all together. Im so confused. Is having an irrational fear of religion makes you a gay nazi? The one thing they all have in common? All three try taking over the world. Thanks google for supporting me. And now i hate homos just as much as i hate nazies.

Well think i got half hour of sleep. I dont feel like

Being around criminals, liars, assholes and femmes today.

#tarot #tarotblr #qwerty #Spotify

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lactosefreeapple · 19 days

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Mostly ramble post feel free to skip, TW ED talk ig???

So turns out the "appetite suppressants" I bought where the wrong ones, I ordered the detox on accident, I ordered the appetite suppressant ones but they could take up to a month to get here, so not good. Slightly better news is I do kinda fit into my waist trainer, it’s not great but it’s smthn. And I’ll take the detox ones until the proper ones get here ig. Yaayyyyyyy disorder makes me spend money on it when I could be collecting dollssss wooooo

Also to get free shipping on it I finally decided to invest in a bonet, I have so many split ends it’s about dang time. (I have wavy hair if that matters)

Still feel like a pig bc my waist trainer is an xl and I like barely fit into it with a mostly empty stomach but alas.

Also the detox pills (and the appetite suppressant pills) should be taken with food apparently? So I’ll probably only be taking 1-2 a day, or at the very least at night with no food so I can tough out the side effects. The appetite one I have less worry about bc it like speeds up metabolism anyways sooooo yeah. I’ve heard good things about it so I hope at the very least the detox one will be good in the meantime. Anyways.

Im mostly stoked for the day I can wear the waist trainer when skating and exercising to get the maximum effect from it, but for now I’m a little too chubby saurrrr :(

At least every time I pick up the packages I have to ride my bike like ~1 mile to the pickup area, that’s lovely, burns cals at the very least, and the stuff I ordered should be in like 3 different packages. Only problem is my sprained knee but I convinced my parents that "bike riding will help rehabilitate my knee" it actually hurts like hell but I’m too fat to fully rest soooo

Anyways, that was long winded, toodles!

～🎀

#pro for me not for thee #a4a #a4a diary #st⭐️rve #a4a tips #personal vent

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backwardrifter · 29 days

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bipolar diaries

1:00pm. good morning. i filled this up — & am going to drink a glass of water. i know what a concept — i took my bipolar med this morning. a little after that i took my adhd med. im also prescribed a weekly vitamin D tablet (vit d2) ive always made a point of taking vitamin d every sunday. but im trying to start some new patterns in my life & this can be a new tradition of honoring my vitamin routine; so the bipolar medication works great for me. no side effects at all. it keeps me from reaching mania but mostly keeps me from the major depressive symptoms (i am bipolar2) however its not a cure for depression, its a general mood stabilizer. so thats where the vit d comes into play — its like my ‘natural’ anti-depressant. but i need to work on reframing it that way in my mind; so if i encounter a rough week or some set backs, i choose monday to take my mental health back into my own power. its these little baby steps that I hope will grow into a love for taking care of myself

these monday mornings will become a sacred ritual — to re awaken from the week before. to re ground in love. ive been good since the last bipolar update & each morning really has been a choice. i have not been waiting past noon to take my bipolar med. i wake up and take it first thing. then every time — ill question myself should take my adhd med because its optional for me but right now the answer is choosing yes everyday. its that second step that turns my day around on a new path — im actually a totally different person to who i was before.

ill write about the effects more another time; but its truly my miracle drug. its the kind of type you take as needed depending on productivity goals (to simplify) & without this drug, im guenuinly the most unproductive human being; so much so that its become something internalized. i found a magic pill that makes me discover that all those things i believed i am — im not. how amazing is that. im so grateful to have wasted away so much life to be here now in the disbelief that im alive. a new person. im privileged to be here on earth. i am lucky & free to become whoever i dream. late last night at 4am, i thought to myself ‘i don’t want to go to bed yet — i wanna stay up — i really don’t want this day to end & then, hey im actually going to be happy to wake up tomorrow’

#bipolar #adhd #bipolar disorder #girlblogging #hopecore

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chronic-gastro-illness-culture · 2 months

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hello , i would like to request a second opinion related to doctor visits and the sorts if possible , if this doesn't follow up any of the rules or this is too personal of an ask to answer feel free to delete it /gen , some possible cws before i go further : mentions of doctors / tests , food mentions so , last year i had to get some emergency tests done bc the meds i got for my problems didn't help at all , aside from this i was suposed to have regular doctor checkups wayyy before this time but a certain family member has beef with my doctor and usually refuses to take me (i am 19 but i don't have a job at the current moment) a different doctor from my usual one prescribed new meds after this , i only started to take them a few weeks ago bc we couldn't read the doctors handwriting , thing is , i don't really know if they are working :/ , i have been having flare ups again , and some days they have been pretty severe , aside from the meds a family member insists i take this homemade remedy (homemade yogurt) bc someone we know claims it cured them , the issue is that any milk derivates fucking hurt to eat , and this "remedy" is no exception , so for now i am stuck between thinking i should wait more time to see if the meds really work or if i should get a second opinion with my usual doctor (aside from my family insisting the yogurt thing will finally be my cure) , i feel guilty for how much money my issues cost but rn i am almost in too much pain to care , i don't know what to do

im gonna apologize in advanced bc im rlly not that great w ‘delicate’ situations tbh but im gonna be real w u n say that between denying u access to a doc n forcing u to eat food thats a known trigger for u raised hella red flags n sounds like abuse

ik that docs n meds n appt can be hella expensive esp if u dont have proper or any medical insurance but if ur family rlly was only worried abt the cost theyd be working w u to find a remedy that isnt as expensive . instead ur being cut off from someone who can actually help u n r intentionally making u sick w this misguided belief that the homemade yogurt will make u better bc it worked for someone else

if i were u id lay a boundary down- if its safe for u to do so -n say ‘im not eating the yogurt i wanna give the meds a try’ or smth like that bc if ur eating smth that messes w ur guts it will be harder for the meds to work

idk what ur being treated for or what meds ur on but when i got put on protonix for my gerd i also had to change my diet n get rid of food that could trigger reflux that way the meds could work the way theyre supposed to . the same sorta thing works w diabetes n metformin . if someone w diabetes takes metformin they r supposed to watch the sugar n carbs n wtvr they eat n the metformin flushes excess trigger food out . the less of the trigger food a person w diabetes eats the less the pill has to flush out

normally ur supposed to start taking meds n adjust ur diet n after everything heals up or u find a dosage that works u then u start slowly introducing more foods into ur diet w exceptions to trigger foods . but if ur eating trigger foods while trying new meds it would be hard to tell if they r working or not

if u want a 2nd opinion thats up to u theres no harm in getting more opinions n getting more info n more perspectives can help u make a more informed decision when it comes to ur own personal health care . if u trust that doc n feel better w them bc they know ur history w ur digestive disorder then go for it . maybe they can tell u what to expect when it comes to how long the pills take to work what side effects u may have maybe they can find smth cheaper for u to try etc etc

but tbh the rlly alarming thing here is ur family/family member n their behavior . having a chronic illness sux but there is no one who suffers more then the person w the chronic illness . it would be great if there was some magic pill or remedy thatd make it all go away but it isnt . yeah its a pain in the ass . yeah it sux having flare up despite ur best efforts to manage symptoms . yeah it sux to have dietary restrictions n being That Person who has to ask if their food is safe or cooked correctly . yeah its expensive being chronically sick getting meds seeing docs getting tests for diagnosis or just symptom management . but ur family should be there supporting u thru it instead of making u feel guilty n denying u access to a doc n making u eat smth that hurts u .

wtvr u decide to do i hope one or both of ur docs r able to help u find meds that do work . the inbox is always open if u wanna vent or scream into the void or give updates etc etc

#anonymous #digestive disorders #chronic illness #stomach problems #abuse mention

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qnewslgbtiqa · 3 months

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I’m still here: living with HIV since 1984

New Post has been published on https://qnews.com.au/im-still-here-living-with-hiv-since-1984/

I’m still here: living with HIV since 1984

Peter Schlosser has been defying expectations ever since he was first diagnosed with HIV in 1984. He told QNews about his experience.

My name is Peter Schlosser, and I’ve been living with HIV for nearly 40 years.

It’d be no surprise to tell you that I’m now 60. What may be surprising is today over 50 percent of the 10,000 people living with HIV in NSW are 50 years and over.

I was first diagnosed in late 1984 aged 21 when I was kindly told by my GP that I’d not have a 25th birthday. I’m still here.

Six years later in 1990, after a diagnosis of Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, I was given two weeks to live. I’m still here.

In early 1994, my partner of 10 years died of AIDS just after Christmas.

In early 1995, I was diagnosed with five AIDS defining illnesses. Family and friends were told that I could go at any time. I’m still here.

Later in 1995 I had a Grand Mal epileptic fit due to scarring on my brain from one of the AIDS-defining infections, and I also started a toxic antiretroviral treatment.

Two years to live was the expectation. Regardless of the damage from chemo and HIV meds, it saved my life. I’m still here.

Since 1997, with the newer and improved treatments with less side effects, my huge pill burden has declined, and I was expecting everything to return to normal. For a time it seemed that it was …till it wasn’t.

In 2003, aged 40, I had a sudden progression of osteo-arthritis. I needed a double knee replacement which was denied on the grounds that I was too young. After living with this progressive disability for 10 years, pain has become my companion. I’m still here.

In 2011 after some frightening cognitive issues, I was diagnosed with mild HIV-related neurocognitive dysfunction. I’m still here, just a little more confused.

In 2012 my gallbladder was removed. Most of me is still here.

In 2013 I had my knee replacement surgery, 50 was no longer too young. The pain relief was amazing. Even less of me is still here.

In 2015, I was invited to participate in an anal cancer prevention study. My first biopsy revealed very early anal cancer. After surgery, I’m still here.

In December 2019, I began chemotherapy for Hodgkin’s Lymphoma for the third time. My new goal is five years of remission. My guess is that I’ll still be here.

What I’d like you to hear today, is that’s not the end of my story, it’s not the end of our story.

Living with HIV is not just about treatments, it’s about quality of life. It’s about social connectedness, belonging, visibility, inclusion, being heard and acknowledged. Nothing about us without us. Please don’t leave us behind! Please don’t forget us! We are still here.

-Positive Life NSW is the representative body for all people living with HIV in NSW. To find out more go to www.positivelife.org.au

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rosebabearchive · 2 years

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My 12 Week Year Break Down

Week #2 Summary

Trying not to turn these into diary entries rather than goal summarizes is hard. I wanna tell y'all bout the tea and shit, but tryna stay focus on the topic at hand is hard.

Monday: Everything flowed just as planned, up until the evening. I had taken the super appetite pill which aids in the weight gain process by slowing down your metabolism. One of the side effects of it, is also fatigue. Keep in mind, I had not completed all my tasks for the day but I said fuck it, thinking I could fight off the sleepiness and BOYYYY was I wrong. I was out like a lighttt, so the last half of this day was spent sleeping, which did annoy TF outta me when I finally woke up. Might just stick to weight gain the natural way.

Tuesday: YES MA’AMMMM! Got my boo back, completed all the daily tasks (or habits) im supposed to be taking to achieve the main three goals, and even managed to do a side mission (bill for my dad’s company). The only thing thing I aint do was workout, which did make me feel some type of way, but my apartment gym is under renovation and after experiencing two weeks attending my pilates class, at home workouts don't do it for me anymore sooooo, we wait?

Wednesday: Spent the entire day at the library. Hit my calorie goal, hit my pip goal with trading, and got a good lil workout in

Thursday and Friday: Hate how bad news make me not wanna be productive. Only good thing that really came outta these two days was still managing to hit my calorie goals for the day. Ended Thursday drinking with wine and D**ck which I didn't deserve LOLL. Friday I managed to be a little bit productive while at my Dude’s crib but I should've done more. I be feeling like I beat myself up too much when in reality maybe I am doing a good job. Trying not to compare myself to others has been getting so hard.

Fuck Saturday

Sunday: No goals were completed at all. But I do like the fact that I have been more vocal about my goals, and talking to others about my passions and interest. I have always tended to be so reserved when it comes to things a I love but I’m glad I'm breaking from that shell.

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IM SO FAT. I started a new medication a while ago and its side effect is weight gain and I didn't actually think I would gain weight. BUT I DID. I haven't been able to stop eating so much every single day. without fail. I went from 114 pounds at the end of 2021 to 125 now. and I have NEVER weighed this much. when I walk around school hiding behind my oversized shirt I can feel the fat filled belly I created myself. but like I have been at least incorporating some healthy habits that would make me loose weight if I cut out the mass amounts of food I eat and my lack of walking/running. I have a fruit salad brown everyday and then at night time I do a 10 minute workout, which this stuff should help guide me to do more similar things, but I just cannot stop inhaling foos into my face. I need to stop binging but my literal medication I controlling me. I am supposed to be the one in control not a pill. I’m just so frustrated with myself and I always think I can do everything last minute and get away with that, but weight loss takes time, especially when its weight loss that needs to last and be sustainable. and its almost summer and I’m about to graduate high school in two weeks and then I can commit to adding running and gym time into my weight loss routine, but for now I seriously have to change my eating habits. I should not eat all day at school, and only eat my fruit salad mix and carrots and maybe a popsicle, and drink 128 oz of water everyday, and get at least 5,000 steps in everyday. things have to change, and they have to change fast or else I’m actually not going to be able to reverse my weight gain. I am disgusting and greasy and have to be skinny and dainty. I have nothing else going for me besides always having a thigh gap and I need to make my skinny body the thing I’m identified by. I WILL LOOSE THE WEIGHT BY THE END OF SUMMER. I need to stabilize my weight by this Sunday and then I will have a set starting weight to go off of then, and loose enough weight to get down to 110 or less, which as of now 10-15 pounds is very doable in 3 months. I will be truly skinny. nothing will stop me, and I will not stop myself. ok now I’m gonna go post a body check for progress pics. :D

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lovely-echoo · 3 years

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Sleepy Bois Inc x FranBow!Reader

In-game AU

Part 1/? Pt.2

Plantonic!SBI x Young!Reader

(10/11 years old)

OneShot/Drabble(?)

Genderneutral reader (they/them) 💜

INFO; If you haven't played or seen game play of Fran Bow then you can skip this if you'd like. If you don't care then go ahead.

Summary; Basically if you've seen/played the game you should know how this goes, you take place of Fran. So you go/went through the same things she did and you still have Mr. Midnight. This takes place while Fran is still in the mental hospital and then got teleported near the SBI.

Honestly I kept thinking about this but was afraid to request it to anyone so I'm doing it my myself-

If I get any info wrong, I'm sorry! I rewatched Markiplier's game play so it shouldn't be way off.

P.s not everything is described the same.

(^ art by sunquids on twt)

CW/TW: mentions/includes of cussing, gore, death, blood, consumption of medication, sexual assault (brief mentions of Damian/The King)

Fluff/Normal

(Angst if you squint)

How you ended up there - How you met Philza and Technoblade

As you were walking around the hospital, you decided to take a pill to see if it'll help.

You watched as your vision blurred and some sort of demonic noises rang in your ears.

After a few seconds your vision cleared up, you took a look around the front desk.

The once dull and lifeless room had turned into this even duller and just plain deathly like room.

Blood was everywhere, random body parts of babies where thrown around. A skeletal figure was hung with what looked like an umbilical cord wrapped around its thin bones, it was connected to this baby covered by a blue blanket.

Just about everything looked grotesque.

Suddenly the floor ahead of you opened and this slimy black tentacle like arm grabbed you by the waist and pulled you in.

It seemed you may have passed out during your fall because you woke up to the sounds of hissing and supposedly two men.

Oh and let's not forget the killer headache causing the ringing in your ears. :)

You rubbed your eyes as you sat up, the light around you seemed much brighter than before.

You looked at the two men in front of you and then glanced down, you spotted Mr. Midnight!

His fur was spiked up and his ears were flat against his head. He seemed to be trying to protect you from the men.

Ignoring their presence you immediately scooped up your precious fur baby in your arms.

Your mind completely forgot about the fact there are two strange looking men in front of you.

A few droplets of water dripped down your (S/C) cheeks onto your (F/C) shirt/dress.

You started crying, so much happened in a short period of time and you found your cat you oh so desperately tried to find.

It panicked one of the adults. Said adult was an average tall man with slightly longer blond hair than average, he also had a green and white striped bucket hat. But what stuck out the most was the large pair of wings behind his back.

At first you thought that it was your pills fault but everywhere around you looked….

Normal?

It seemed like your meds wore off while you supposedly passed out.

But that doesn’t help or ease you at all. If the side effects wore off then how the hell did he have wings?!

The blond walked towards you slowly, like you were an injured puppy. His blue eyes roamed around your body, as if studying your every mouvements.

The other man who was beside him earlier seemed to tense up and looked at him as if he grew another head. He was on edge you assumed.

But he looked even weirder to you. He had long pink hair tied into a loose braid falling over his shoulder. Was it natural? He also had tusks peeking out from his bottom lip, they were large but not enough to be in the way. His skin seemed to be on the pinker side, it was roughed up with scars and calloused in certain areas. You noticed he had pig ears poking out his crown. Is he a king of sorts? Wait, that reminds you of someome... Oh! The king of course!

Ah yes, the king. You quite missed him actually, he was playful and let you use his cane- sword to get a key. But he didn't know about that part. You wonder if he's doing alright right know, the asylum sucks. And the shadow thing next to him said weird things to. Who exactly is the holy man? Why'd the shadow say he took off his clothes?

You couldn't dwell on it to much as you got distracted by the approaching man.

He reached out his hand to stop the winged male. “Phil-”

But the man named ‘Phil’ interrupted the crowned male by putting up his hand. He stopped his hand and let it limp to his side.

“It’s alright Tech, they seem harmless.” ‘Phil’ reassured, though ‘Tech’ nodded his head with a stern expression. There was still hesitance in his sharp red eyes.

‘Phil’ took the same hand he put up and reached it out to you. A soft and kind look in his eyes, you could’ve gotten lost in them if you weren’t careful.

“You alright there kid?” He asked, crouching down to meet your height from where you sat.

“Y-yeah, I think so…” You winced, your throat was hoarse and dry. You peered at ‘Phil’ as he took out this glass bottle with what you assumed was water.

He handed you the fragile bottle, he saw the look of hesitance in your childlike eyes. But something about them set off alarms in his head, they were dull. There’s nothing wrong with that of course! But they were too dull, at least for a mere kid.

He recognized a glint of trauma in your (Eye Shape) eyes, those beautiful (E/C) orbs had seen something they shouldn’t have. Haven’t they?

“Don’t worry mate, it’s fresh water.” He examined the way you handled the cork, you were inexperienced. He could tell you’ve never needed to do it, but why? It’s really the only way so far to keep water with you.

Did you not have any?

While he was lost in thought, you just had noticed he had an accent of sorts. Nothing wrong with it, you've just never heard of someone with it.

(^ Ignore that if you are british)

While the winged male was off in his own world the piglin hybrid watched as you sniffed the clear liquid in suspicion before letting your cat smell it as if you were looking for their approval.

To his surprise they did give it to you, the black cat nodded it’s head and squeaked out a meow. That strangely sounded like a yes- but he dismissed the thought. Probably was just the voices fucking with him.

You gulped down the water as if you hadn’t had any for months.

‘Why tf are they so desperate-’ ‘lowkey kinda concerned lmao’ ‘they look like they’d be an orphan tho’ ‘lmao maybe’ ‘idc about the kid, i want the cat’ ‘absolutely-’ ‘Nah fuck the cat, im allergic.’ ‘lol and?’ 'PFT ANY ASKERS???'

Those were all different voices speaking and overlapping each other.

Technoblade sighed as he glanced at his father, he knew him on the back of his hand. He let him be and slowly walked next to Phil and kneeled down.

“What’s your name kid?” he asked, taking the empty bottle you had handed him. “(Y/n), (Y/n) (L/n)/Bow.” You bluntly answered, looking at him in the eyes. He noticed how bloodshot they were, I mean you did cry not even 5 minutes ago.

"What's yours?" You questioned tilting your head a bit in the process.

Unbeknownst to you, some voices in a certain someone's head were losing their shit, squealing and chanting ‘protecc tiny bean’ over and over again.

"The name's Technoblade, but you can call me Techno." Strange name in your book but your not the one to judge. You simply nodded your head in acknowledgement.

"That guy is Philza, but you can call him Phil." He pointed his thumb to the unfocused man. Technoblade or Techno- cleared his throat.

“You’ve got somewhere to stay? Where are your parents?” “Why can’t you mind your business?”

Techno’s eyes twitched in annoyance and his teeth clenched to hold back any crude words.

Although he noticed the flash of pain in those dull (E/C) orbs of the mentions of your parents.

He sighed once again, something you noticed he did a lot. At least, so far he did.

“Look kid, do you have a place to stay or not?”

And that's how you ended up meeting your new family. . . <3

I may include a taglist if anyone's up to be tagged lmao

#mcyt x reader #platonic x reader #tommy innit x y/n #technoblade x reader #philza x reader #wilbur x reader #sleepy bois inc x reader #sbi x reader #fluff #mcyt #fran bow #franbow!reader #reader as fran bow #mr. midnight #cat #tiny bit of angst #only if you squint tho

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yearnlark · 2 years

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gauze implies hurt underneath. scars are quieter but still say more than id like others to hear. i press my thumb to the bruise; think of you again. itch the scab from a scrape i dont remember getting. dont notice the new blood until i see it trapped under my nails. a bandaid means questions: what happened how were you hurt how much.

how much tylenol do i take for this pain in my head. how much acetaminophen can i cram into this hole in my chest. little pills dry-swallowed past the wet lump in my throat. i know too well how painkillers taste. i know its dangerous how much i want them to taste like you.

so the cap twists, carefully, slow and delibrate. bottle goes back into the medicine cabinet. only two against my tongue. count out the long dead hours between this and the next dose. wait to see if the pain dies along with the minute-hand. how long do i have to wait before the painkillers deaden-kill-dull the way these thoughts stab.

when they dont, i go back to the cabinet -- more bandages this time. for all there's no blood i can see, this is all too sharp too jagged. last time i wrapped my chest like this was to youthful-clumsy-breathless hold back my front, not to attempt binding back a spilling heart. but where my ribs should be im sure there must be a hole caved in, though theres no obvious outward signs.

avoid looking at the empty wound, avoid making eye contact with the mirror on the cabinet. wonder if you do the same in your own mirror. wish i could wrap you back against my skin, know that i shouldnt press you to this ache. how long was i your painkiller. how are you killing the pain now. is it working, is it working better than i did, did i ever even work at all, does anything ever work at all anymore.

sorry you think im some kind of antidote. sorry to leave you with your thoughts. sorry mine are all of you. sorry for the warning label you dont have: talk to your doctor if concerned about side effects, if concerned about possible drug interactions, if symptoms persist. sorry for the warning label you didnt read: talk to your doctor before use, dont take on an empty heart.

sorry for the blood in your mouth. wish it wasnt mine. wish it wasnt yours. wish it wasnt theirs. wish you hadnt been biting. wish i knew how to bite back. wish i wanted to. wish i could let you bite me again. wish i could just unclench every jaw in this mess and make us all let go. wishwishwishwishwish.

#cw blood mention #cw drug mention #??#ugh. god. idek how to tag this im so sorry #been thinking. Too Much!!#think im gonna post a bunch of the things ive been writing over the last while here #just to get it tf out of my damn system and my damn notes app #sorry to anyone who reads them; most of them are... not gonna be any good lmao. and the worst ones might be fuckin horrendously nonsensical #so. just... you Have Been Warned #shld probably tag this shit in case i end up wanting to delete it lmfao #uhhhhh. huh. wtf do i tag this.#bee speaks #guess that works for now?? idk. if you dont want to read these i dont blame u #you can blacklist that tag if you want to avoid these #sorry L; ik theyll probably hurt to read & i def dont want that:(<3 #wrote this 2day after reading too much richard siken!!#thats why the last little bit might sound familiar -- ''sorry about the blood in your mouth. wish it was mine'' and all that #poetry #?? ig. idfk

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