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#and i dont feel like changing it so heres mine lol
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paper doll by flower face
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mobday · 1 year
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reigen getting more screentime, whore!!!!!!!
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qing ya ji is about the making of people 👍🏼
the way 阴阳师 is bestowed not as a curse but like a love letter 💐
#its generous. also the characters....like what a good movie. contained well met and slow practiced in its manuevers in what it shows#and what it doesnt. what a brilliant display of two characters and the people who surround them. the people in the background remain people.#i feel like i keep saying the same thing these days lol#a practice in seeing people ugh. you see me and i see you. the question is always changing. will you test me? will you follow me? will you#share a cup with me? will i lay down offerings? will you notice? will you pick them up? will you notice the same thing i do and move in the#other direction? what possible directions can you see that i cannot? will i learn from you as you do from me? what can i learn from such a#man like you? what can i remember from knowing you? men are so beautiful lmfao its kind of painful.#this movie is so effective at what it does ugh it will always be an impression in my heart#how did you teach me and in the teaching what did you learn. you gave me so much without even looking. i was speaking honestly from the#beginning. you figured it out eventually. we both did. isnt it such a relief to find people who you think about knowing for the rest of your#life. isn't that the point? you knew the point - but he cemented it for you for real. 'thank you. im a real yin yang shi now.' you taught me#well. you taught me well. ill see you again. ill see you when i see you. theres no real desperation here because the stakes are not high.#i can wait to see you again simply because i know i can. there is no hurry. there is no rush. there is no time i cannot i have that will not#touch your life. and yours mine. it is what it is. the removal of cost. what is delicious here is not the obsession its the patience but the#general knowing and acceptance that you will be there when i expect you to.#its so distinct - this kind of intimacy. from the US and the ''west'' and all that hypermasculine hyped up polarizing emotion thats all#surface and petty reflection. wheres the meat? the body is meat. you treat it like an animal farm. it is disinteresting and boring.#im so disinterested in whatever conditions relationships are stereotypically expected to take shape as.#bro its so simple. its existing and so it is deserving. it is existing. it exists. i dont have to say less is more or enough here.#it just fucking is! how else do u think u can understand it#soy talks shit#reminders#for me#writing
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hatredofdesire · 3 months
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Still Into You
[Yandere!Wriothesley x Fem!reader] Still into you — Paramore tw: obsessed/obsession, possessiveness, trapping reader, aggressive, playfully mean/cruel, ik the fandom has him as a hot daddy type of vibe but like... this is just the yandere type of shit on the mill yk? pls dont come after me LOL, shit is not proofread, i havent been writing often tbh been busy
merry xmas; heres a gift from me to you
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Wriothesley was a pain in the ass.
He was the definition of everything yet everywhere at once. This man would be there in the places you less expected him to be other than living in the Fortress of Meropide. If he wasn’t working and cleaning up after other certain issues, he would have you right back on his lap like a good little girl. Sure, you could be a pain in the ass most of the time, but he likes the bratty rude attitude.
…That is until you start acting up again and he must punish you for 'misbehaving'. Wriothesley believed it was the last straw when you said you wanted to take a break. 'See other people' from what you mentioned. He thought you were joking, trying to push his buttons again for attention, but you were serious.
“What?” The change of his tone could not hide his surprise as you asked to break up with him. Why would you break up with him? He had everything. Is it possible you were seeing someone else? Is that why you didn’t want to listen again? “That’s a funny joke, [name], you’re breaking up with me?” The older man crossed his arms, leaning against the wall.
"You make it sound as if we were a couple.” You calmly said, “I did my part of the contract, and you did yours. I only agreed to this until the end of time in the Fortress of Meropide.” You held no feelings, no attachments, simply cutting him off all contacts. That was what was agreed upon when he offered you an opportunity. “No. I’m not letting you go.” Wriothesley said firmly, ending the conversation with his refusal. “Why?” You weren’t going to end it at just that.
“You made it clear, no feelings. Aren’t you just eating your words back, Duke?” You hissed, clenching your jaw tightly to show your irritation. The man rolled his eyes, “You signed it but you never read the fine print sweetheart. You’re mine.” He was making it clear for your little silly head. You weren’t going to leave him. Hell no. Over his dead body. Were you serious?
Were you really going to just leave and drop everything just because your sentence was gone? Wriothesley stomped towards you, snatching your wrists roughly as he needed you to understand that he wasn’t going to let you go at all.
You tried to yank your arm from the man, his grip tight, his gruff voice taut as he explained it to you as if you were a child. "Relax, [name], just come back and be a good girl. Alright? Simple as that." Wriothesley chuckled, pulling you close— his other arm wrapped around your waist tightly, secured. "It seems bad, but think about it... Down here, you have the fortress of Meropide under your fingers, you have people respecting you, and most importantly— me."
You felt the jolt of anger coursing through your body, you did not want any of that. No, you wanted freedom. Freedom was simply impossible compared to being a roach scuttling around the underwater with the rest of the sinners. "I don't want—" Wriothesley's lips touched the outer shell of your ear, "That's the problem sweetheart, you may not want, but I need you to understand."
The gentle nudge woke you from your own sleep, the face you had grown to hate of all eternity. Yet he spoke to you as if your vow of silence meant nothing to him. So what if you're quiet? It's nothing different than the times he would force you to make a noise or two for his own entertainment? Or maybe when he's busy fucking you and making you take it in?
"Don't glare at me, sweetheart." The duke snickered, his palm caressing your face gently before gripping your chin in a rough manner. "You have everything, but you don't want it? Think about it, anyone would kill to be in your position and— and you have my favor." He murmured, his lips pressed against your jaw gently. The words felt like a mock to your dream of leaving this god forsaken place. You did not take kindly to being tied down a place like this.
Heavens forbid it!
"I want to go out." You were unable to hide the distaste in your tone, the ever growing hatred that this man would keep you here.
Away from prying eyes.
It sickened you to no end that this was the man you signed a contract with. "No. You can't leave, [name]." Firm, his icy tone ended the conversation, but you weren't done talking! Though, it seems he had other plans for you should you continue to this conversation. "I don't think you learned your lesson from yesterday." Wriothesley flatly said, his eyes darkening at the sight of your disobedience.
"Would it kill you to enjoy what you have right now? One last chance, [name]. I'm already being generous by giving you a choice. If it was up to me..." His lips trailed lower to your neck, "I would've taken it upon myself already." Hot heavy breath kissed your skin, reminding you that this was your fate.
Your lips dried, bile threatened to rupture— vomit on the man. Nothing seemed to come out as he traced your exposed flesh with his own lips. Just face it, be real [name].
Wriothesley is still into you.
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missdaytonawrites · 9 months
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tr@ck 07 • e. williams
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summary - perv!ellie hc's!
WC - 1k
cw/tw - as always, MDNI! 18+ content, ellie williams is a DAWG lmao, afab!reader, hyper-fem coded!reader, dub-con, mentions of marijiuana and paraphernalia, smut smut smuuuut, talk of strap-ons, fingering (r!receiving) and more lol.
A/N - hey slay queens and kings and things, no i dont want to talk about the phantom fic lolsies maybe one day i'll just quit bringing it up! this is to tie you nasty bitches over while i work on this little surprisssseeeeeeeee oooooohhh. and also! yes i am abbys specialest little princess but i love me some of ellie. so here! maybe this will be the catalyst for an ellabs fic
"met a girl who likes my body, said she wants to break your teeth."
• its already established within the tlou community, that ellie williams is a PERV! but like.. in my head? shes pervy like..
• she stares for just a little too long when you change in front of her. literally has to talk herself down from letting at a low whistle upon seeing the swell of your breasts.
• always finds a way to get you into lingerie stores when you two go out. lowkey ends up picking out every piece you buy bc… you love listening to her.
• perv!ellie cannot watch you eat/drink certain things because of the implied sensuality. popsicles? nope. pasta? absolutely not. drinking out of a straw? she’s gotta go.
• she was 110% the first person who got you high. quickly making it a habit, because you are even more pliant when you get all stoned.
• speaking of? in addition to your astonishing obedience when ya’ get all fucked up, ellie williams cannot deny how much she loves watching you wrap your lips around a pipe.
• the first time you get high with her, your eyes glaze over and your nipples harden through your little tank. she would scoot closer and flick one, “look at that, doll!” you just giggle and she waves the pipe in front of your face. “ain't it silly the way this stuff works!”
• takes secret photos of you laughing, bending over, getting dressed.
• perv!ellie dances with you in the kitchen. dancing turns into wrestling, and she loves wrestling because of how close she gets to be to you.
• brings you around her friends to show you off, like she doesn't get upset when they very obviously eye you. “this one’s mine. so back off..” she would tell them when one asks your relationship status.
• she sneaks little touches to your thighs or waist when you sleep.
• one night when you wake up from her touch and ask “whats goin’ on, els?” she just hushes you and tells you that “all friends do this, silly.” as she pulls you closer, spooning you. “just makin’ sure you sleep reeeal good!” later that night she def lets a few fingers slip beneath your panties.
• i’m a firm believer in the fact that ellie used to get stoned and go people-watching, used to. now she gets stoned and goes “you-watching.” like, since meeting you, her favorite pastime has become sparkin’ up, and watching you! things like picking up your room, baking, doing your makeup or hair. its all so interesting, you are so interesting.
• she steals your panties 100%. and maybe shoves them in her face when she touches herself. :0
• always finds a way to bring up sex. she will, without a doubt, ask you blatant questions about what's happening in your sex life. all she gets out of you is your detailed explanation on how you masturbate.
• you would tell her sometimes it's difficult to keep going at a certain point and that you don't think you’ve ever made yourself cum.
• and when she hears that? her eyes go wide. her mind runs rampid with filthy ideas. she feels like she's dreaming when she asks if you would show her, and you say yes..
• she could see the hesitation in your eyes at the questions first proposal… but ellie, ever the charmer, prods until she hears what she wants.
• pulling you close and hushing you, she would say: “this is normal baby, cross my heart!” then throw her hands up in defense before leaning in to close the space between you two.
• after that, her hands are everywhereee!!! on your waist, sliding up your back then down to squeeze your ass, up again to tangle in your hair and then dropping the slightest bit to cup your face.
• when she reaches further down and realizes that you aren't wearing any panties she swears you’re trying to kill her.
• “forgot how to put on panties sweetheart?” she’d chuckle at you, then spit on her fingers and resume her assault on your core.
• her fingers inside and her breath on your neck make it hard for you to speak but, even then you manage to tell her, “no! didnt forget els!” and so she laughs some more, stops touching you and prys, “well then where’d your cute little panties go, doll?”
• in that moment, you let out an exasperated breath and come clean. “hnng! they got all sticky and hot when i thought about seeing you today, so i took em’ off!!!” you sound on the verge of tears.
• perv!ellie could no longer take it, she pushes you down onto your bed and starts to work on you. slender fingers circling your clit and she bites and licks at your neck. “yeah? got all excited ‘cause i was comin’ over?”
• when you dont answer her.. she gathers up a rather obscene glob of your arousal and brings it up to swipe across your nose, like you're a little puppy in trouble.
• “i asked you a question doll, its rude to ignore people.” all you could offer her was a long, incoherent string of whines with a possible “yes!” thrown in there somewhere.
• at that point, it doesn't take her more than fifteen minutes to finger you to completion, and have her strap on and ready for you.
• ellie fucks into you with nothing but unbridled stamina. never letting up, no, how could she? shes been waiting for this.
• and god, you look like heaven personified underneath her. she was convinced she could cum on the spot from that alone.
• after about 4 orgasms from your end, ellie has to literally pull herself away from you.
• perv!ellie could stay so deep in your pussy for hours on end, she would never leave if she didn't have to. she could work on you until you saw starts.
• the little perv quickly turns into a massive simp the second your head hits her chest and your eyelids flutter.
• “n-no doll, gotta clean you up.” but she just simply cannot stop having you near her, so she carries you to the bathroom and wipes you off.
• the encounter has you woken up a bit and when she gets you back into your room she lays you down, then searches around the floor for her pants.
• pulling out a joint and a lighter, she says “can’t just fuck you like that and not smoke you out after..”
• perv!ellie sleeps like a goddamn baby that night, the taste of you still on her tounge and her head on your tummy.
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hope the ellie giiirls love this! happy 4th to those who celebrate ✨
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thvhoe · 7 months
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Dont know if youve done something like this yet but what about oc wearing a lipgloss/lipbalm that tastes sweet and jk is ?? when kissing her bc “why do ur lips taste like___” ? Lol
I have! (Id link it but i just spent 10 minutes trying to find it😭 if anyone has it saved id appreciate it you sent me the link!) Anyway i really like this kind of asks so i decided to give it another go🩵
FOUND IT HERE
"Was about time you come out, huh?" Jungkook teases, leaning off his bike and walking a few steps toward you
"Sorry, Mrs. Chuu was explaining some steps to me," you quickly explain, placing a sweet kiss on his cheek
Jungkook nods, grabbing your bag and placing it in the trunk of his harley. He turns back to you, a smirk on his lips as he draws you close. "Missed you," he murmurs, his breath minty and warming your skin as he nuzzles his nose against yours, his eyes closing with a sigh. His lips meet yours in a gentle peck shortly after, but he pauses, his lips near yours again
"New lip balm?" he asks, his lips brushing against yours once again
You giggle at his question "Yeah, it's vanilla raspberry,"
He hums in approval, "change of plans," he declares, his voice low and husky, "let's head to my place and make out." His suggestion catches you almost off guard, and you can't help but let out a quiet "oh?"
"What about lunch?" you ask
A smirk tugs at his lips, "lets order in, whatever you want," he assures lifting you up and placing you on his bike before you can complain "need to feel you lips on mine all night"
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alilarew23 · 6 months
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hey :) i rly cannot be bothered to DO anything for my manifestation w sp. i just wanna decide and say its done and think ab sth else, without entertaining opposite stories. is that ok? idk if thats changing self. i just rly dont wanna do anything. not so much as to change the 3d and get fast results but, bc ive been ‘trying’ for so long i cba. but i still ‘want’ it. i don’t wanna move on just bc i havent got it yet. i just dont wanna affirm that i am chosen or stop n feel how it feels to be chosen bc often i feel absolutely nothing. like, ‘how does it feel u went on a date w him last week?’ nothing at all honestly 🥹 so idk if thats changing self or is okay. at times i do entertain the opposite but ive decided thats stopping NOW. like… just stating its already mine n moving onnnn coz im tired of trying !! me in that relationship seems rly happy n carefree whenever i imagine her but physically i know im not always happy giggly bc i CBA but i still know i am her within? ik this a lot, sorry. i just know i am meant to have my dream relationship where i am cared for and loved. its about time i do this!
yup! decide with conviction that either you guys are already back together or are 100% getting back together--doesn't really matter imo, either way, it's a done deal--and don't entertain/give any attention/power to anything that goes against your decision. embody the best version of yourself and know it into being. you wouldn't be happy and carefree 24/7 in a relationship with him--no one is, even the most loved/in love person on the planet--so you don't have to be that now. just know (feel) yourself to be inherently loved, cared for, prioritized, etc. by the very fact of being you (you don't have to affirm this if you don't feel like it), and go about your life. if you've decided you're getting back together, you're getting back together. that's it. you're already at your end. no effort needed. plus, it sounds like you've "tried" for so long that your inner man/subconscious/whatev you wanna call it will be like oh she's done trying she finally accepted she has it lol here he is! (as long as you actually have accepted it). you are meant to have your dream relationship, you do have it, just be it.
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crushedsweets · 6 months
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i was listening to twin size mattress by the front bottoms and was like. hmm this is the most toby song ever
SO i was wondering do u have any songs that remind you of specific creeps? could be from lyrics or just general vibes yk yk
- 🌙 anon (im new here hi)
HII welcome. ok ok. so i listen to music in a very boring way and never analyze lyrics/artists/albums/etc. but for you i will try to change.
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also these lryics with toby oh wow.. wow. ok. wowwww. wow. ok. wow. STUFF UNDER THE CUT BUT KNOW IM DEEPLY WARPING THE ACTUAL MEANING BEHIND A LOT OF THESE SONGS LOL. i religiously listen to love songs so its hard
toby and honey by coastal club. (my fave song rn..)
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whether its from his perspective or not.. it doesnt even have to be romantic either. just his friendships with everyone around him, both from people like tim and brian seeing this SEVERELY TROUBLED kid. . . 'wide eyed..dying to get outside' feels very :((( yk. he was a kid trapped in a fucking horrifying situation all his life. or him looking at his friendship with nina. "youve got a way with me... alive and so full of life, i'm mesmerized by your love" etc. maybe jack or clockwork with the "i started laughing at the words you spoke, i kinda like you and your stupid jokes"... AGAIN I KNOW ITS A LOVE SONG but i see it applying in so many different forms of love. and i love love. also a ton of like, car and driving references which is um. lyra reference sorry
nina x clockwork and "a big brown dog named bagel" by nep
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ok this doesnt apply so much to my au(nobody is canon in mine but yk)... buttttttt... yeah. ugh. this is so nina @ nat. sorry guys ive been changed. one ask always diverts my attention at the speed of light. "I like the way she bites, the way she talks, the way she looks when I smile" is just SO FUCKING NINA ADORING NAT. nina just wants to be in the most fairytale coming of age movie ya novel lovestory and she says that her biggest dream in life is to get married. she wants to take care of her lover and give and give and give so fucking much and "I'll buy you a big old house on a big old hill And I'll grow old with my baby, 'til she's dead" is so very her. of course i chose clockwork cuz 'she's tall in the knees' and 'some green in her eyes' plus im a lesbian and havent fawned over sapphic relationships in months since i began my creepypasta return. LOL
eyeless jack and "downhill" by lincoln
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there r few words to describe the amount of guilt, horror, and devastation that jack feels after what he's done, all he's lost, and what he has to do to survive. he has a year of his life that he was literally possessed by a demon and went around fucking tearing humans apart and eating their remains. even as he's """recovering""" and settling into a cabin, his friendships with the creeps, trying to just feel okay. he's on his last leg, he can tell that people know he's a shell of what he was but they'll never know how warm, kind, inviting he used to be. "i went downhill at such a steep inline" ... yea he did his life changed immeasurably in a single night and it's never coming back. the lyrics "'Cause I was born into the world on a silken cloud / And I got bored of the world before I hit the ground" ... while he had a ton of pressure. he loved his life, loved his family, was the type to constantly express how grateful he was for everything that got him where he was. and then he hit rock fucking bottom because he wanted to chase a little excitement with the pretty girl inviting him to join a 'club.' poor guy
liu and "i'm not angry anymore" by paramore
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i dont think i need to explain this because um..... lols... liu just wants to fucking move on. he just wants to escape everything. he wants his family back, including the little brother he'd play catch with in the front yard for so many years. but he has his moments where it all comes barreling back, and he makes real fucking brash decisions - he lost his marriage because he spiraled trying to find jeff and moved to fucking alabama. so you know.
jane and "everest" by beabadoobee
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again, i dont think i need to explain this. maybe this could be mary(jane's wife) singing to jane, cuz she was one of janes main supports after her parents death. jane can only act strong for so long but she is so so so fucking sad and mourning and she was always so soft and gentle and sweet and she lost everything in a single night. she spent a short period of time filled with rage, as she would be, but her story eventually evolves into her just wanting to help others with their cases, be happy with her wife, take care of sally, grow old, make her parents proud. she's climbed mountains and is probably in the best place of all the creeps. holds her. i dont touch her character too often because i just want her to settle happily lolz..
ok thats all i got guys :3.. thank youuuuu thank youuu. sorry if my music taste is bad guys. LOL.
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Mine Forever?
Adrien Agreste/Chat Noir x F!Reader
Word Count: HELP MY STUPID SELF JUST REALIZED I NEVER PUT THE WC AND ITS BEEN 6.5 MONTHS
Started: November 2021
Finished: 5-13-22
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Request description: Where Adrien Agreste has a fiancée and they were engaged since they were kids, Y/n is the one who is cold and distant towards him but secretly cares for him. She just doesn’t know how to express her emotions. Everyone doesn’t know that Adrien was already engaged to someone else, by the time the reader accidentally discovered that Chat Noir was Adrien, they both started trusting one another. They always got each other’s backs, Y/n would help Adrien to sneak off just to save Paris. Whenever Adrien was badly hurt, from the fight, Y/n is ready to help him. They care for one another; she would always comfort him when he feels down when he has a tiring day. That’s why Y/n is the hardest to akumatize, even Gabriel tries to, but she trusts Adrien the most.
Edit: This just hit 400 notes today, 10/27/22. I posted this back in May. Honestly I'm shocked. (Dont stop liking it, it just baffles me because it's my hated child😭.)
Edit 2: It's 7/13/23. HOW DOES THIS HAVE 965 NOTES QUICKLY APPROACHING 1000😭 Honestly reading it makes me cringe but whatever floats your boat. Ill be back here for 1000.😂
Edit 3: IM BACCKKKKKKK. WE ARE AT 1,031 NOTES ON 8/2/23!!! FIRST POST OF MINE ALONE TO HIT 1000+
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Genre: Fluff, Fanfiction
Warnings: Arranged marriage(?), lil' bit of angst, brief mentions of blood/wounds, cursing(a bit)
A/N: I am SO SO SO SO SO sorry this took so long! Life just was one big punch in the gut after the other after this request came in, not including school. Also forgive me if this turns out to be garbage, I'm trying.😭
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2 years old
Your mother was taking you to the Agreste mansion today. For what, you didn’t know. However, it would change your life.
Born of a rich Paris family, it wasn’t uncommon for children to have an arranged marriage for when they got older. Your mother and Emilie Agreste have been friends since high school, and your father and Gabriel are business partners, thus at this meeting, they decided you would marry their son, Adrien, when you came of age.
9 years old
Growing up with Adrien was fun but also hard at times. He would spend a lot of time with that Chloe Bourgeois girl, and while you wanted to be like her, it was hard as you had a hard time expressing emotions. Mostly due to the fact that your parents were always busy with their work so you spent most of your time alone in the house or with Adrien. Adrien came home from the Bourgeois residence one day, you were with your mother while she was having a business meeting with Gabriel, so she sent you upstairs with him. He talked about how much fun he had with Chloe and you wanted to say how you wanted to spend more time with him, but, due to lack of emotional expression, you kept silent and gave him a sad smile. But it was worth it to see that look of joy on his face.
14 years old
Today was your first day of high school, and your mother had dropped you off at the Agreste home that morning so you and Adrien could go to school together while she went to work.
“Hello Nathalie,” you said as you entered the house. “Good morning, Miss Y/N, Adrien is in his room.” “Thank you, Nathalie,” you said as you walked past her. You knocked on Adrien’s door, and he opened it a few seconds later, slightly disheveled. You had an amused look on your face and asked, “Did I wake you up?” He responded with a mumble which you took to be a yes. “Adrien it’s 7:30.” (A/N: pretend they start school at 8am like in America lol) He opened his eyes wider, as coming to terms with your statement. “Crap.” He muttered, and quickly let you inside while going to get dressed in the bathroom. You sat at his computer, staring at the image of him and his mother, smiling fondly. You missed her, she was always so kind and inviting. When she disappeared, you comforted Adrien the best you could. Gabriel got stricter on him, making you want to smack him. Little did either of you know what would happen later that day, when Adrien got his miraculous.
15 years old (1/2)
It was Friday evening, you were sitting in his room waiting for him to get home from his Chinese lesson* when an akuma struck the city. You figured Adrien was safe since he had his bodyguard with him wherever his lesson was held. (*Pretend his Chinese lesson takes place outside of the house) After 10 minutes, the akuma was defeated. You had to use the restroom, and when you came back, there was Chat Noir standing in Adrien’s room. But he didn’t see you, and detransformed. Adrien had scratches on his face and a bruise on his arm. He turns around and sees you staring at him in disbelief. “Um- hey Y/N-“ he says awkwardly. "Adrien…how- whatever that doesn’t matter, what matters is you’re injured.” “How did you get this bruise?” “I tripped on the stairs running to transform, but the scratches came from the akuma.” "Okay let's get you patched up."
Needless to say, it was very awkward between you two that afternoon, but you swore you would always protect Adrien’s secret.
15 years old (2/2)
Hawkmoth attempted to akumatize you twice while you and Adrien were 15. Here's what happened:
1st time- Gabriel threatened to remove Adrien from school. You stood up to him but he basically kicked you out of the house so you couldn't see Adrien at home until you straightened up. Of course he was planning to akumatize you. It failed because Adrien called you asking where you were, he wanted to talk to you about a project.
2nd time- You saw Adrien and Marinette laughing and talking together. However illogical, due to the fact that you were secretly engaged to Adrien, you were worried he would fall for her and try to get his father to call off the marriage. You walk into class one day, seeing Mari and Adrien talking and then when they notice you, they immediately go quiet. You run out of the room crying, and slump against the wall somewhere. Adrien went after you, but while he was looking for you, Hawkmoth's akuma landed on your necklace Adrien made for you when you were 6. Upon seeing Adrien running toward you, you renounce the akuma. Adrien pulls you into a tight hug, and confesses that he loves you.
And that he was asking Mari for advice on planning a surprise party for you for your 16th birthday.
17 years old
While you were over at Adrien’s house studying one day, Hawkmoth released an akuma, so Adrien had to transform and leave. Unfortunately, Gabriel was planning this akuma and assigned Nathalie to check on you and Adrien every 10 minutes, to keep Adrien safe. “Y/N I need to go, Ladybug needs help.” “Then go, Adrien.” “But what about Nathalie- she’s going to come in here and find I’m gone.” “Listen I’ll turn the shower on and tell her you’re taking a shower.” It worked, Nathalie never found out, and Adrien got back in time.
18 years old
“It’s over, Hawkmoth!” Chat Noir yelled after landing in the basement.
Hawkmoth chuckled. “Oh? Is it really? There’s something I want you to see.”
Hawkmoth opens the coffin.
And there lies his mother.
You, the current holder of the horse miraculous, Ladybug, and Chat Noir all stare in complete silence.
“I’m doing this to protect her. Your mother…Adrien.”
Adrien looks up at his father, horrified. “H-how…”
“Join me, son. Use your miraculous to take the miraculouses of the Ladybug and the Horse.”
“NEVER. I’LL NEVER JOIN YOU AFTER ALL THE DESTRUCTION YOU’VE CAUSED TO PARIS, AND TO THIS FAMILY.”
The 3 of you then launch into a fierce battle against Hawkmoth for the final time.
22 years old
4 years later, you were getting dressed, putting on the white dress you knew you would one day wear. You and Adrien decided to get married, not because of Gabriel’s arrangement with your parents, but because you had been through so much together, and never wanted to leave the other’s side. Though you had once been worried about Marinette and Adrien falling for one another, you and her grew so close, close enough that she was your maid of honor at the wedding. Gabriel, however, while he was in prison, was allowed to view the wedding through a tablet. You were concerned that Adrien wouldn’t want his father present in any way, but he firmly stated that Gabriel was still his father, and he couldn’t imagine not having him present.
You reached the end of the aisle, walked down it by your father.
As you looked up at Adrien’s emerald eyes, you whispered silently to yourself,
“Mine forever.”
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Again I'm so sorry if this turned out to be garbage.
Please don't steal my work and remember to drink water and that you are loved!
@oyasumimosura thank you for sending this request in, I am so so sorry this took this long. My deepest apologies. And thank you for being my first fanfic requester.
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helluvabossrewrite45 · 9 months
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Unhappy Campers Rewrite - Moxxie gets Mocked
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This episode felt kinda odd watching tbh, i didnt even know the camp counselors barbie was with was 19, i thought he was at least 16/17 (y'know, cuz of the 'teenagers are easy to manipulate' thing) and, why didnt moxxie say that millie is her boyfriend instead of brother? Their a married couple, he clearly wants to get the girls validation for some reason, he sees them fawning over her so why not just say that as this 'oh sorry girls, he's mine' thing instead of a brother where they'll probably not care anyway? They can still make a crude joke by the end, instead of incest, it could be like; 'kids perform sexual activity on camera' and like have some satire of puritan parents, the parents that dont care, how porn is more accessible or idk, something that will just make more sense.
Anyways, I plan on changing some things in the episode, like here where moxxie and millie are trying to make the kids confess the murder of their client who knows they were murdered but dont know who or what they even look like, hence the investigation. Meanwhile, blitzo tries to find barbie when he suspects why shes hasnt come out of rehab yet (since they made a promise of seeing each other one last time once she gets out of rehab) but it doesn't end well between them at the end which goes similarly except the counsellor is in his early mid 20s since i feel like that's the average age where you get those kinds of jobs like how many teachers i know that are in their early mid 20s and it can remove the potential predatory implication of barbie.
Hopefully i made the girls sound somewhat realistic to what a teenage girl like them would say since I'm still a teen myself though i dont hang out or talk with these kind of girls much before and my memory can be quite foggy so im just going off of what i know of like ai being this new trendy topic online since social media is a type of thing teens get into nowadays (me included) and of course, moxxie acting like such an exaggerated version of them because i can imagine that he's pretty out of touch with the youth, especially the human youth lol
(edit; I changed his age to being in his mid twenties now since it makes more sense for the character overall in this rewrite to be at that stage of age)
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stargloom · 9 days
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hey. i dont like doing this. and i dont want to be a tumblr bitch who's wrote a callout before. but i cannot in good faith continue posting in the same community as this guy and allow him to pretend to not be genuinely a sicko. but @/bloomingduskk (who im sure will change urls after i post this is. a prosh.ipper radq.eer trans.d alongside a plethora of unfavorable unethical things. most of which being too personal to share, but enough left for me to be uncomfortable with my own silence. tw for like fucking everything lol
I never wanted to be in this position, or ever have to be the author of something like this. I am not a confrontational person or someone who enjoys drama, i’m entirely someone who goes out of his way not to get involved in such things, but due to my past public friendships with this person, and his tendencies of covering his tracks and lying about me and my friends, i feel as if it would be cowardly of me not to at least issue a warning about this user, and hope my message is conveyed well. If this was solely a personal gripe, I would not come out with a doc publically, I have no intentions of being petty, and am purposely leaving out a lot of petty issues and things that have been done to harm me personally. I only intend to talk about the actual dangers he promotes, and provide counterclaims to the narratives he tends to enjoy putting out. 
Before going further, i will be addressing him by his url, or nothing at all, as i will not be calling him by the japanese name he chooses to go by as a white person. It is against my morals. I hope that my decision doesn’t make this document more confusing than it needs to be. 
--- bloomingduskk uses Japanese names as a white person, and has done so for a while. He currently uses the name “maki” , and for the last half of 2023, went by Kaede, despite the fact that i firmly told him not to due to it being cultural appropriation multiple times, and each time he gave me an excuse, before continuing to do it. This is not a targeted attack against him, as he has said before in regard to being told not to use a japanese name, but something that i would condemn no matter who the person was. He identify(s)d as transracial. No matter the mental health issues you may have, the entire concept of “transitioning” into an ethnic minority is racist and entirely unacceptable. Here was his response to that.
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And here is him self describing as transracial, and his pinned post on his old radqueer blog
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^^ his discord at the time, which i and many others have personal dms with, matched exactly with his radq.ueer blogs. he cannot fucking say this isnt him i will go insane if he tries to deny this shit. He has spoken about me under the guise that I am stalking him, despite never having me blocked on anything but an old art account, and also the fact that I have gone out of my way, due to having severe morality ocd, not to scroll through or look at his content. All screenshots were provided to me secondhand, and not from my own devices, due to how severe this situation was for me, a person with ocd who he knew has ocd. At the time of these screenshots, i specifically requested my friends to block out his usernames so i didn't obsessively compulsively make myself feel sick scrolling through his blogs. (the screenshots in question here are not mine, i own a samsung galaxy, this ui does not match. I added my own annotations to the second image though.) VV his self identification as a proshipper + some stuff he had on his propara blogs (heavy tw)
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^^ the first image here is in repsonse to an extremely long and thought out message my friend sent him during this period to this specific blog of his when it still existed.
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his response to this was full of lies and empty promises and excuses, and plenty of vapid words he has taken back. i dont see a point in including what he had to say about this purely because he was lying through his teeth.
his twt account was probably the worst thing of his that was shown to me. i do not want to include screenshots of the things he would retweet as they were all sexually explicit imagery and posting of pedophilia, rape, beastiality, severe abuse, loli/shota content, and general dangerous and exploitative philias. i do not want to make that content more reachable to anyone than it already is . this account has been deleted. but i have been given screenshots of him posting his art there. along with the most tame thing i think he posted there. yeah
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a lot of the harm he has done to my friends and i is extremely personal, far more personal than i feel comfortable airing out on a public blog that i've worked hard to distance a public personality from. so, i am not willing to spend time slowly outlining every single lie and harmful action he has done. that would make this post impossibly long, and i dont have the stomach to retrigger myself in this way. this has taken me two months to write, as i am deeply bothered by it and this entire event with him made me the sickest i'd been in a long while. do not fucking harass him. block him. im certain he's going to send himself anon asks pretending to be stargloom rabid fans or pretend to be my friends or whatever but all i want is for him to stay the fuck away from me and my friends and spaces where he pretends he isn't into vile shit. block him. dont interact. dont send him anything. just be careful of this cunt . i refuse to let him walk around as if he hasn't happily and enthusiastically promoted the most vile content one can enjoy.
im sure he's gonna scramble after this and probably start spewing revolting shit abt me which hes done at every single turn after me being upset. but he cannot pretend like nothing happened forever. thanks.
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Your photos are always so bright and HD! What graphics card do you use and what are your in game settings if you don’t mind me asking?? Could you also give some tips for somebody starting out to take photos in the sims 4 🪐😚
Thank you ♡
I have a low end laptop lol. But i use few tools and tips that help me take some good quality photos. I’ll share them in details so this is going to be a long read !! Sorry ahead and bear with me please 🥰
Let’s start with few things to enhance your in game quality first :
If you don't use HQ mod i recommend you check it out HERE !
Here are pictures without and with HQ mod ( click for better quality )
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Do you notice the HUGE improvement in details like eyebrows, skin, eyes and clothes, pretty much everything lol!!
I use HQ Mod Switch to turn HQ mod on and off as i wish. Be aware that HQ mod slows your game !! you can simply turn it on just when you need to take screenshots.
I use This Gentle Cas Lighting ( IT’S A MUST!!)
Now, there are two ways to take good quality pictures that i know of and use :
OPTION 1 :
If you want something quick but does the job then this is your go to :
- SRWE :
Download the zip file and unzip it.
Run The Sims 4 game.
when you are ready to take screenshots whether in cas or in game ( i take mine in cas ) go to settings and change display type to windowed. Here are my in game settings.
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Open the SRWE file you downloaded earlier and run the app. ( Make sure you unzipped it 1st )
Click on Select running Application and choose TS4 game then Click open.
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in the Window position and size you adjust the width and height to your liking. Be experimental with it till you are satisfied. These are my settings :
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When you go to the game you will notice the change in resolution. Here it’s tricky a little because if you make the resolution too big, you might not be able to see everything on the screen, here is an example
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You can move around by clicking on the options in Align Window.
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It helps you navigate around the screen. I always go for Left + Top which displays this as a result :
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When it's set this way i get to see Traits properly to pose my sims before i take a screenshot .
Please bear in mind that my screen resolution is 1366x768. If your screen resolution is higher you dont have to use same settings as mine !!
FINALLY, you hit C on your keyboard to take screenshots. And you are done.
Tip : If you liked your SRWE settings and want to save them, click on Save Profile then name it so you can load it the next time you use SRWE, without having to type everything all over again. As you can save many profiles with different settings !! feel free
Ps : As you noticed from the previous last two pictures, using SRWE will display part of the screen and not all of it because the resolution is bigger now!! in this case i recommend you go to the screenshots folder of your game and check how the screenshots turned out while you are still running the game so you can decide if you like them enough or not before closing the game!
Here are pictures taken without and with SRWE ( using HQ mod in both )
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OPTION 2 :
If you have the patience and time, you should try rendering in Blender.
There are so many tutorials on youtube that can help you learn how to render. I’ll link you the one i liked best HERE !
TIPS :
This is my resolution settings for pictures in blender ( you click on Output Properties to set it )
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I dont use any lightning in blender, i use World Properties instead by clicking on color then setting the value to 1.000. If you want some cool effects you can have fun trying some lightning options ( watch the video to see how to do it ! )
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You can add a background in blender and change its color to your liking. I use transparent background beacuse it's easier to edit the image that way. To get an image with transparent background in Blender go to Render Properties>Film>Transparent
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I use Eevee to render my images. It is recommended to use Cycles for better/higher quality but it takes longer time and it can crash if your PC doesn’t support it ! So be aware please!!
HOW I EDIT MY PHOTOS TO LOOK BRIGHT!
I use Photoshop to edit my photos. I don't do much to be honest. i resize images when it's needed and adjust brightness/contrast, tone and color ( 70% of the time i just go for Auto Tone ) which you will find in Image.
Tips : you have some cool options in PS that can give you that bright effect, such as :
Inner Glow : You can find it in Layer>Layer Style. And here are the settings i use ( they are still adjustable depending on the clothes, hair and skin color of my sims ) :
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Outer Glow : you can find it in Layer Style as well. I dont have specific settings for this one. It totally depends on the picture and type of edit i’m going for. I dont always use it unless i want some really bright effect around my sims like In my Fairy post HERE.
You can get creative with other options in Blending Options, which you can find in Layer Style.
For the Glow effect to work properly you have to have a transparent background, or delete the background yourself ! it should look like this !
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after adding the Inner Glow + Outer Glow effect it will give you this !
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When i add a background (in a new layer) i dont make it 100% white! i go for this color to make the Glow effect pop a little !! and these are the color settings :
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ET VOILÀ LE RÉSULTAT.
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Lastly, if you made it till here thank you for taking the time to read all that ♡
I hope it was helpful a little. If my explanation was ambiguous or you have any more other questions, don’t hesitate to ask please!
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Hello, I absolutely LOVE your work you had popped up on my fyp the other day and I was like 😯 ,follow, lol but I wanted to ask if you could do a will solace x f!reader when the reader is suicidal/depressed and will comforts her so more fluff than angst if you can but still a little bit of angst like related to the subject yk? And if it’s to touchy for you to write you don’t have to but if you can that would be great! But that’s all, love ya stay healthy and hydrated!! 🙃 (also if you aren’t comfortable writing may I ask if recommendations on Pjo x reader blogs bc I can hardly find any so if you don’t write my request could you try to do that?) BUT LIKE DONT FEEL FORCED TAKE YOUR TIME AND IF YOU DONT WANNA DONT, DO NOT BY ANY MEANS FEEL PRESSURED!! LOVE YA!!!
Will Solace x Suicidal Reader
TW: Mentions of suicide, depression 
((I've noticed that there aren't a lot of just PJO x Reader blogs and that they're normally multi fandom blogs. 🤔 That was one of the reasons I made mine, but I can share some of the stories I came across and loved!))
Yours Truly (Leo x Reader) By: @repairgirl (really good writing for all the characters!)
Frank Zhang dating a daughter of Aphrodite, who keeps getting hit on By: @frickingnerd (Frank <3)
Funny Reader Inserts By: @reader-inserts-and-others-thing (It was hard to pick one)
Wiping off their kisses By: @noisyalmonddreamer (really funny!)
Will Solace 
-You didn’t want to get out of bed, you couldn’t find the energy too even though you had just woken up. You were just… So tired. You didn’t want to be here anymore… You didn’t want to face camp and have everyone give you worried looks.
-You just wanted it to be over… But just as you were starting the spiral you hear the door open. You cover your head with your blanket, not wanting any of your siblings to see you like this. Just praying that they’d grab something and leave.
-Of course you weren’t that lucky. You feel them sit at the end of your bed. There’s silence for a while before the person speaks up “Are… Are you ok…?” You go to quickly respond with one of your automatic responses but he speaks up again.
-”I mean really ok…” those few words changed everything as the response dies in your throat. You feel your lip quiver slightly as you fight back tears. With a shaky breath you move the blanket down to reveal it was Will at the end of your bed. 
-He gives you a sad smile but opens his arms for you to come hug him without another word. You hic softly and lunge at Will hugging him tightly. You didn’t even realize that you were crying but now that you were you couldn’t stop, the tears stream down your face as you sob into Will’s shoulder soaking it for sure.
-Will rubs soothing circles onto your back and makes quieting comforting noises to you. “It’s ok… Let it all out.” he soothes you, making you cry even louder. You were so glad you had Will in your life… He was always there when you needed him the most…
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risetherivermoon · 3 months
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theory/interpretation abt dndads s2 of mine
life pre-code purple was probably post-apocalyptic. since it was before they swapped the planes around and we've seen what earth is like- it would make entirely a lot of sense if it was like a last of us/walking dead type apocalypse situation
i like to think that D.A.D.D.I.E.S. used to be some kind of refugee camp + research facility, and that everyone used to live inside the huge building and thats what all of the rooms w/ keys used to be for
i think that it makes a lot more sense that the twins are teaching their kids how to shoot guns if their lives are constantly at risk, with only concrete walls and finicky spells to protect them against the doodler's chaos
and i think it makes sense why the kiddads act the way they do, they're all still adjusting to a life that isn't dystopian with waste lands full of monsters/ zombie-adjacent creatures,
i think the need and want they all have for their kids to have normal lives makes even more sense too, praying that they don't have to be involved with all of the horrific things that happened after lark released the doodler
(and honestly lark as an entire character just seems like a guy so guilt ridden that he can't adjust to a normal decent life after everything that was going on because he doesn't think he deserves to have one-)
also- the spouses were most likely people the kiddads met when d.a.d.d.i.e.s. used to be a place for survivors to live and thrive, i think that if everything that happened on the titanic w/ marco & grant was pre-code-purple, then marcos reactions make a lot of sense, he's already seen the horrific doodler-pocalypse, so he isn't that frightened about being on the titanic
with everything that happened during the flashback to the doodler church, id say that was them all going on a huge stake out type thing to get information about how to stop the apocalypse in their own world
i see it as henry coming up with the idea for something like a refugee camp in d.a.d.d.i.e.s., they go with it and they help all of these people, and after code purple is enacted, he goes back to earth and does the best he can to do what he did before and create the remains of oakvale into something loosely akin to how he was helping back b4 code purple
this is probably badly spoken since im just spilling out my thoughts here (which there are so much of) but i wanted to talk abt it lol. i have seen other people say this as well, but i do feel like the general fandom consensus is that the kiddads just had normal lives when they were teens? which is a fun way to play w/ their characters but i personally dont see that as what happened
i just think its pretty obvious that code purple freakishly changed their lives-
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Hi Jen, please forgive me if this sounds deranged. I understand if you don't reply, but I don't know any older women like me to go to for advice. Also, please disregard this if i forget to press anon (paranoid lol)
I never thought I wanted kids, my fiancé says she doesn't (sometimes she says things that make me think otherwise, but im going to say she doesn't because I have to take her at her word)
The thing is that recently it's been more and more in my head. Im in my early 30s so I don't know if it's a biological clock thing, I know I should say it to her but im not sure if I should either because I don't want to cause problems in our relationship, but also I don't even know if I understand how I feel about it (this is made worse by the fact that, while we live in the same city, we have temporarily had to live apart for financial reasons while saving for a mortgage)
The thing is, I feel like I'm starting to really want kids, which I know I should say to her
But
I feel like I only want kids with her if that makes sense? If I was with anyone else, I wouldn't want to
I'm not even sure if I actually want kids at all. It's more like (sorry if this is gross or anything). i have this increasing... need for want of a better word? To have with her what straight people have, I wish I could get pregnant by her somehow, I wish I could make a person who is made of me and of her, this makes me feel guilty and pained and confused (just to clarify this is not sexual confusion, I am and have always been exclusively same-sex attracted) I guess I just am at the point where I love her so much that I want something that I can't have, im not sure whether I actually want kids or whether it's some hormonal thing but (I know this sounds weird) i3 guess I wish I could express our love in that way? But I'm kind of in my feelings and confused about it, I dont know where to start or whether to tell her or what I would even say to her about it. Also most of my friends are either younger (wouldn't get it) or straight (and it would be humiliating to me to go to them over something that they could do without a second thought)
Anyway, i thought I'd come here because I know you have a lot more experience than me, and i was wondering what you would do in my position
I am one of those moms who never wanted kids. I am a realist and understood from a pretty young age that kids are a pain in the ass. They are expensive, a lifelong commitment, noisy, unpredictable and invasive. I was raised around nephews and nieces and younger cousins .I saw women my age get pregnant in high school. I grew up in the 80’s where half the “After School Specials” were about the hardships of teen pregnancy and a fair amount of books for teen girls and sitcoms aimed at my demographic featured young women having and raising unplanned kids. I very clearly saw the writing on the wall and wanted NO part of it. I wanted MY LIFE to be mine. 
     I have 5 kids all adopted from foster care and the truth is I didn’t want ANY Of them. I stated in my dating profile that kids were a deal breaker. I communicated over the course of my second relationship that kids were of negative interest to me and my life. My mind never changed and in all truth I just got tired of saying no and we became foster parents. MY ex loved the “IDEA” of being a parent but not the actual work. I understood this about her which was one reason I pushed back for years before giving in and agreeing. I know, based on my parents and my siblings I would be a decent mom, I just didn’t want to be. My kids are all grown except my 17 year old. They are 25, 25, 26 and 23. I have a pretty good relationship with them. My oldest daughter has a daughter who is 21 months. I am not a wonderful grandma. I work all the time and we live hours apart. I am focused on my life and home and future because for a 17 year marriage I neglected it. My kids all know I was a reluctant parent because we have a very open and honest relationship.
      Parenting with my ex was horrible. I worked two jobs, budgeted, did the majority of the homework, bedtime ritual, morning prep and house work and I spent years being exhausted. I partially stayed with her because until the final adoption we could not legally be married so I had NO legal right to the older 4 and was not about to abandon them to my wife. 
      I am telling you this background so you understand that I have a unique and possibly skewed perspective about parenting as a lesbian. It is totally normal to be unsure about wanting kids. I would say most straight people also go back and forth between the emotional idea of having kids as an extension of love and of a good use of their compatibility and partnership, to have and raise a happy, healthy child (ren) AND knowing the stress of money, unpredictable times, and the fact that, no matter how great parents are , kids are people and they very quickly for their own idea, personalities and who KNOWS what can happen given those facts. The difference is just that lesbians can’t accidentally become parents so we have to either overcome the fear and want the kids more than we don’t OR stay childless. Many great parents did not get there with careful planning, just one day they are thrust into the role and step up to the task. 
     My advice is to keep talking to your partner about your thoughts." I think I might want kids” is not the same and “WE MUST have kids or I won’t be happy”. Communicate your confusion and insecurities about it and also the good things you see about becoming parents.  I highly suggest volunteering for Big Brother Big Sisters, or even getting a foster care respite license. When you do respite you are essentially babysitting kids so adoptive and foster parents can get a break. These kids can be everything from charming and sweet to struggling with mental illness and trauma (which is why it requires training).. You can get a lot of fulfillment, experience and learning moments plus you are giving exhausted caretakers a break. Offer to babysit a friend's kids. See if the local Girl Scout needs volunteers, A lot of nature centers run kids summer programs or weekend programs like birthday parties and always need volunteers. Consider taking some childhood or first time parent classes. All of this is to give you a well rounded perspective of how kids can be, which is sometimes awful but very often wonderful and sweet and even when they are misbehaving you can feel joy in watching these tiny people learn and grow. 
You are correct about the idea of biological children vs adoption. They are not the same. I know a lot of people want to believe that they are exactly the same connection and bond but in my experience that is a lie people often tell themselves.  The fact is, parenting a child that is not biological does take a little more effort to bond and connect. Eventually it strengthens and can be wonderful but it is unique. Not better or worse, just different. My kids were all older, 4, 7, 8, 10, and 16 when they came into my life so they were already established in personality and habits and world view so it took time to align with each other. We are now all more like friends than a parent/child relationship but perhaps that just happens with age and maturity.  Adoption is by far cheaper with more available resources (through foster care) than using a sperm bank or asking a friend to donate so one of you can be pregnant but each couple needs to weigh what works for them. 
     I would suggest putting off major discussions until you can see each other but if not, do it over zoom or facetime so you can see each other’s expressions and have a nuanced conversation. I would not make any major purchases like a house until you are settled a bit and you both are at least on the same page with kids. That page might be neither of you are sure yet or that you both think it should wait until life is less up in the air to decide together. If you land solidly in the “i must have kids” camp and she says “NO”, you might have your answer. Then you must decide between letting go of the need for kids or moving on from the relationship. The worst thing you can do is push someone who is expressing that they don’t want kids into having kids. This is a bad deal. 
I know this is a lot. Kids are a big deal to both the relationship and to the kids who are brought into that relationship, no matter now that happens. I wish you the best and I hope, together, you can talk it out and get some clarity.
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yxstxrdrxxm · 2 days
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And that... Is the end of Flawed.
Or the one I hosted for my silly event here anyway.
[ TL;DR under read more: The lack of interest and stress I got from irl matters led me to drop the event and ending it early, but! I have a blog made for the sake of continuing/restarting the event.
Please vote on the poll if you want it to be catered to the reader or stick to Yesterday, and be unbiased, too. Vote what you want, and I'll try and make it happen.]
CONTEXT UTC:
So, I know you guys have a lot of questions, and I can't blame you. I know the biggest one in your mind right now, which is:
Why did I end Flawed early?
The reason why I ended Flawed was actually multiple. Please keep in mind that these are for my observations, and overall I'm not blaming anyone for this. I just noticed it and thought I should bring it up lol.
1. Writing for days burnt me out.
Although Flawed is a passion story/project of mine, writing so much burnt me out. And by a lot. There were days I struggled to think of writing because I have other commitments to do, and sometimes its why polls came out super late or super early. I tried to compensate for it by posting 1 poll a day, but when it didn't work, I pushed myself to make more for 1 day.
I wanted so badly for the whole event to flow like a CYOA because by next month (April), I won't be free to host this as I used to with OLC. However, in that process, I burnt myself out to the point I needed to take longer breaks/forget this event.
It sucks. I would not recommend doing this if you think you want to (because it is NOT worth it).
2. Interactions were... Lacking.
This event is interaction heavy, and the reason why is because you guys control the story that Yesterday and others are in. Naturally, this also affects the characters and how I shape Flawed from start to finish. I have a plot line for it, of course, but the interactions were... Not there.
I noticed the usual ones from my mutuals, sure, but there were moments that I felt like I was simply posting to no one. It was unfortunate during the time with Diluc, where I had hoped that some of you would go, but due to complications (ahem, the votes weren't able to decide on going when the deadline was up), I had to write how it's supposed to go with some... Changes.
It also made me feel sad to see that there weren't much (if at all) interactions to Yesterday. Tinuvion received a fair bit, which is nice because he's a little shit (please bully him lol), but Yesterday after the first week and a half just... Didn't get any. At least, in my records.
I'm not saying this to guilt you guys to interact more, but I am saying this because it feels sad for me to see that unlike OLC, this... Flopped. I had a lot of responses + moments planned if it took off that much, but... Oh well. There's always that one story that won't hit for everyone.
And finally:
3. Maybe you guys wanted it to be catered to you, not to an OC.
I had a feeling that, from the start, Flawed may not take off.
Unlike One Last Call (which was a matchup event + story), Flawed was a CYOA but you guys aren't the main focus/MC, Yesterday (my oc) is. I was hoping that with this method, you guys get to play the omnipotent voice and see how far the story can go until it's conclusion.
However, as I hosted the event for the next few days to weeks, I realized that it was simply too difficult. Maybe I wasn't prepared to host this type of format, as ambitious as it is, but I realized that maybe, you guys don't deserve this format and I should've made it catered to a reader insert instead.
It was hard for me to swallow the pill that this event may not be fun for the majority. I knew that having an OC be the MC + canon characters interact with them may be flaky at best (esp the whole OC x Canon being... well. very much a huge "oh dear"), but seeing minimal interaction/interest than my friends were (and people I admire, too. Hi Harmony! o/!!) and realizing that maybe I shouldn't have done this just... Made me regret it.
For that, I'd like to say:
I'm so, so sorry that this event failed. I'm very sorry if you guys expected it to be like OLC: about the reader/reader insert format.
I know it's not right for me to apologize, but I feel that I have to. I let all of you down, and I don't want you guys to be disappointed in something that you all don't like to see in this blog.
So I decided that I'll run this event in its own blog, but here's the thing.
I don't know if I should keep Yesterday in the blog.
I have to open up a poll for this, so here's the options you guys have for it's fate:
If you guys want it to be a reader insert game (aka you are the main star, not Yesterday), I will set up a menu to BUILD your personal darling.
This means that you guys get to decide how darling will look, the gender, their preferences, and even their job. However, this will be for your darling, and if darling dies, you can't use them anymore.
PROS: This is catered to the reader, and thus, you guys are the ones to choose your own destiny. I won't be the one to decide this time, and if the majority agrees on a specific option, your darling will do just that. This is also more open for variety + reader/canon interaction because I know some of you would have a lot of fun being able to see yourselves in the story.
CONS: When your darling dies, you get the chance to restart. However, the game will continue on with a new darling you guys will have to make and the stats reset to zero. The characters will also mention your past darling, and you'll have to restart from scratch. I still need to tweak this, but just know that it is VERY tricky for you if your first darling dies.
If you guys want it to stay the same (Yesterday is the MC), the format will remain the same.
This means what you witnessed here in the blog WILL happen on the other blog.
PROS: You guys get to either continue or restart with Yesterday's story, and with newfound knowledge, you get to choose more options that were previously unavailable. This also opens up to you all being able to essentially shape Yesterday's outlook + what'll happen to them, because you are the one guiding them to their happy ending.
CONS: This one does not offer a restart like the reader insert (one try only), and this could result to another "this'll flop because many people aren't interested". We've seen it happen here, so please decide wisely.
If you guys want BOTH, the format will be different as you have the option to build a darling (reader insert) or stick to Yesterday's story.
This means there will be a new system for both options to be available, alongside new menus!
PROS: You guys get to have a chance of an 'easy route' or 'hard route' and all of you can use your experience/s to get your desired ending for either one <3 go crazy lol
CONS: If you choose one of the two options for both, the latter will be locked. That's the only consequence I have for this one tbh.
So yes, I'd like to say thank you, and sorry for the fail of Flawed on this blog. I wish I could give you all the quality like in OLC, but there were... Too many things to consider. Sobs.
If you guys still want to continue, please lmk. I worked hard on Flawed and I still want to continue, but this time, its a permanent event and will be on my own pace.
Thank you for your support. Again. And I'll see you guys next time (be it a random fic or the next event <3)
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