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widowswineapologist · 2 years

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Hello again and I hope your 2022 is happy and healthy!❤️ I am in self-shipping hell (Tank and Edward are playing tug of war and I’m stuck in the middle of it help) Could you please write Ultimis Tank and Primis Richtofen mushy headcanons of their s/o cheering them up on a bad day?

AAAA SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY I DELETED TUMBLR FOR A LIL WHILE BC I HAD NO SPACE ON MY PHONE-- I HOPE THESE R OKAY!!

warnings: uhhh depression nd slight suggestiveness. Also i did not proofread bc fuck that

Ultimis Dempsey:

- Okay honestly I think he's such a bitch whenever he's having a bad day. His sarcasm and overall assholery is amped up to 10. Probably gets into a lot of arguments with the crew too.

- Luckily for everyone else, you're Dempsey's pride and joy whether he's angry or not and he literally cannot help but smile at you whenever you try to cheer him up.

- He'll try to keep that gruff, tough dude persona when you start cracking jokes or being extremely sweet to him but the facade will just break after a few minutes.

- Tank totally does that thing where he cracks a smile and gets mad about it so he looks away from you.

- Literally say some stupid shit and he'll lose his fucking mind and then his mood is back to normal. You could just do some absolutely god awful impression of somebody and he'll straight up bust out laughing, it'll be cute. Do a horrible impression of one of your teammates and he'll join in. Needless to say, you both will throw SO MUCH SHADE.

- I think he would appreciate being distracted rather than directly comforted when he's having a bad day, yknow? But that isn't to say he won't appreciate a good hug or two. Just...not too many, okay? He's got a reputation to uphold.

- I personally think he's a little awkward with comforting people but he will definitely try to return the favor, to show his appreciation because we all know for a fact this motherfucker will be caught DEAD before he says "thank you for cheering me up" out loud.

- Also also,, there's another way to cheer him up if you're up for it 😳

Primis Richtofen:

- okay but when is he not having a bad day fr fr

- I imagine he's a lot more somber than Tank, but that isn't to say he ISN'T snappy. You know how bo4 Primis Richtofen is just a dick to everyone? He's prolly like that (cant blame him tho. imagine finding out everything u've been working so hard for is worthless nd ur crew wont care abt u even if u sacrifice urself to save their musty asses)

- He canonically has meltdowns (would they be called panic attacks? I've never had one b4 so I wouldn't know--) so I imagine he'd probably try to hide how he's feeling from you for the longest time bc he has to keep up that facade of he knows everything and has to do everything.

- You'd probably find out when looking for him around the grounds and you find him huddled in a corner sobbing and hyperventilating.

- Surprisingly, he'll let you hug him then. But get ready to be nearly crushed bc he's clinging to you and wont let go until he has no tears left to cry.

- Cheering him up is a difficult task bc he'll never truly feel better, but indulging him in his scientific ramblings, joking around with him, or offering to lighten his workload will make him feel better.

- But I think he'd catch onto what you're doing real quick, especially if you start asking abt wonder weapons to him so he can ramble his little heart out.

- I swear if he didn't love you before then, he would fall head over heels now. You're...going out of your way to cheer him up? When you have your own issues to deal with? Brb he's planning a impromptu wedding rn

- He won't ever forget it, and though he may be a little awkward himself, he'll definitely try to be there whenever you're having a bad day too <3

#cod zombies #tank dempsey #edward richtofen #richtofen x reader #dempsey x reader #tank dempsey x reader #edward richtofen x reader #*vomits words onto a text document and calls it writing <3*

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ezralva · 3 years

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Anyone who ever had similar situation with Adachi can immediately understand that this is fundamentally an act of self-preservation. The last defense he can control atm to prevent himself from drowning in guilt and self-hatred. Because for those with low self-esteem, it's much more easier to admit our own mistakes, weaknesses, and failures to ourselves when it had nothing to do or impacted anyone else. Because we're used to being disappointed or not having any expectations to ourselves in the first place. But the moment we realize that our 'incapabilities' will let down or hurt others, particularly those we care about, the guilt and self-blame that come after are enough to be paralyzing us.

In this case, Adachi wholly believes that everything good Kurosawa saw in him so far is due to the magic, despite back in ep 1, the scarf scene, he literally heard how Kurosawa had paid special attention to him from afar. And it's still reasonable for him to think so because...

Despite having read Kurosawa's thoughts so far, unlike us audiences, one thing Adachi wasn't privy is the fact that Kurosawa had been pining for him for 7 years and that what triggered Kurosawa to deeply fall for him in the first place was his genuineness and Adachi just simply being himself without any motives or pressures to be worthy of standing beside Kurosawa.

Based on what we saw onscreen, it's highly likely that they haven't reached that deep conversation where they talked comfortably about what made them fall for each other and for how long, their weaknesses and fears, their past wounds and backgrounds..

As for the competition, it's another impactful trigger..In ep 9, Adachi decided to join after Kurosawa said he was cool, it helped boost his self-esteem and so he decided to challenge himself, in public this time, something he might have never done before. Adachi was probably expecting that if he got good result in this, it'd totally elevate his own self-image of being Kurosawa's boyfriend, that he isn't as hopeless as he thought before. And then he saw how Kurosawa became very invested and looked so happy with him proceeding in the competition that he didn't want to let him down by losing it. Unfortunately, it just spiraled downward after that...

On top of being disgusted by himself for 'cheating' (eventho it's not that much of cheating actually, he's just too pure!), he also had to accidentally heard this...And this is purely how I see it, Adachi actually wanted to impress Kurosawa with this competition, for once, with his own skill without relying on magic, and it motivated him to work hard on it even as far as cheating....only to hear that once again, that isn't exactly what matters for Kurosawa. Only Adachi's happiness that matters and I dare say that in this situation, his own happiness is the last thing Adachi had in his mind tbh. But.. It was too late for Adachi, because he already felt so bad for cheating and it made him think more badly about himself now due to that he couldn't even fake a smile or put up happy facade in front of Kurosawa and he just heard that's what Kurosawa actually wanted with this whole ordeal.

So he became more disappointed with himself that he couldn't even do one thing right for Kurosawa's interest, hence why now he regretted it. He thought it would've been better if he quitted earlier so he didn't have to cheat his way thru, at least he wouldn't have felt so guilty and useless like this at the end of it and can be a bit happier...

And it's another consecutive blow he had to his dignity on the same day, which lead us to this...

And this...

All of these which only validate his reasonings more, that he keeps on being at the receiving end of Kurosawa's kindness and hasn't been able to give back anything yet. He found out the 'one' thing Kurosawa wants from him thru his magic, that is finally exclusively Kurosawa's (and not just him trying to make Adachi happy) and that very 'one' thing would make him lose the said magic and after that, he believes he wouldn't have any other means to really know what Kurosawa actually wants by being in relationship with him, because Kurosawa will only do things that prioritize Adachi. So he became afraid and said he didn't know what to do.

Sadly, despite Kurosawa only has Adachi's interest at heart, his every action of always only focusing on how to make Adachi happy doesn't make it any easier for Adachi to figure out what Kurosawa expects from him as a partner, how to treat Kurosawa in return, and simply how to conduct himself in front of Kurosawa.

Despite always feeling inferior compared to Kurosawa, this is the first time he said that out loud. He believes he will just keep letting Kurosawa down in the future with his inadequacies and then the guilt and self-deprecation will just eat him alive. And going by his character, Adachi probably believes that he'd breakdown completely if Kurosawa ever had a change of heart once they were more invested than this. So he opted to retreat back to his shell instead. Again due to the fact he possibly hasn't really got a clue of how deep Kurosawa's love for him is.

As for Kurosawa, he understood that whatever he said at this point to convince him otherwise, Adachi wouldn't believe him and will just overwhelm him even further. Not until Adachi can see his values and the importance of his happiness for himself....So he gave him the choice regardless of his own promise in ep 7 that he'd never let Adachi go anymore. Because he can clearly see Adachi wouldn't be able to say it to him first.

Alas, this conversation might have turned out differently if Adachi wasn't at his lowest and was in happier mood....

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