nadia fairchild for @buglaur 📚

so that was fast. my brain went absolutely haywire when i saw your req, laur, until i finally settled on her concept! in an effort to get her hair peppered, one of my gradients gave her this shock of gray, and i was just obsessed 💛

professor fairchild is one of the best history and literature teachers that britechester has ever seen, but quote tolkien incorrectly around her and she’ll actually throw hands. known for her no-bullshit attitude toward academia, nadia hides a personality and character in her that her students could never even conceptualize!

private dl — sim reqs open!!

Hiya guys 🦋 My name is Ashley and I’m a 27 year old female who prefers to use discord. I’m not looking to replace any of my old partners, but I have a new OC I just created today and I am absolutely dying to use him some more. I am a lit to semi-lit third person past tense rper and I tend to usually be on the long side with my replies. Especially with my new muse, he makes it easier to respond to longer things because he doesn’t talk much. He is big on body language so he talks a lot with that so I am very descriptive with his actions. He’s a bad boy with a terrible past and a drug and alcohol problem, I’m just wanting to put that out there for people who have those triggers. He is also straight, so please keep that in mind as well. He loves to get in fights and spends more time in jail than he does outside of it. I would love him to maybe have someone he meets through a jail pen-pal program and then they meet up when he gets out. Or maybe an old friend that he reconnects with after he gets out one time. Or even a girl who is even worse than he is and they become destructive and toxic for each other. The possibilities are literally endless.

I would prefer anyone I rp with to be 21+ due to the mature nature and the dead dove themes that could come up in this rp. I have a couple of ideas if anyone is interested and I would love to share them with you. I can send you TikTok’s that show the basis of the character that he is based off of and we can fangirl over ships and make headcannons. I am a very active role player; i usually give multiple replies a day when possible and I keep in very close contact with my partners on days that I wont be around as much.

If any of this interests you, please give this a like and I’ll hit you up on my main account!

like if you're interested and op will reach out

20 Questions

Tagged by the beautiful, amazing and talented @princessmisery666 Thanks bby!

1. Why did you choose your url?  umm...because I like pandas, the color pink and I am a nerd.

2. Any sideblogs? If you do, name them and say why you have them. I have...a few. I don't really post on them anymore though. Except for my RP blog and you'll never get that from me, dammit! unless you're a RPer that I accidentally sent a non-anon ask to by accident.

3. How long have you been on tumblr? 4.5 years.

4. Do you have a queue tag? Yep #i lost my queue

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place? I was super depressed and needed a life distraction and was in the middle of watching Supernatural for the first time.

6. Why did you choose your icon? I am a piccrew ho and I have way too many of them saved. But it's pride month...so...yay bi flag colors!

7. Why did you choose your header? Because...Sam and Bucky

8. What’s your post with the most notes? I think it's THIS Benny Appreciation Post

9. How many mutuals do you have? 120 i think. (Yes I just counted)

10. How many followers do you have? 1,857

11. How many people do you follow? 526

12.  Have you ever made a shitpost? Yes? I mean...is there a specific definition of "shitpost"? Because I think that's like half of what this hellsite is anyway.

13. How often do you use tumblr each day? OMG...all day? I'm constantly checking because I'm a greedy attention whore.

14. Have you ever had a fight/argument with another blog? Who won? The only thing that comes to mind is that one time when I tried to convince @princessmisery666 that she was, in fact, a Seb Stan girl by spamming her with Seb posts. I won.

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? Mostly annoyed

16. Do you like tag games? Yes! Attention whore, remember?

17. Do you like ask games? YES! A-T-T-E-N-T-I-O-N W-H-O-R-E!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? Um... @impala-dreamer @kittenofdoomage @negans-lucille-tblr @feelmyroarrrr are pretty big deals that I may have fangirled over having been followed by

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual? Yes! My wifey @princessmisery666 has my heart.

20. Tags? tag your it @ everyone who sees it and wants to play along.

Sooo, I posted this on Twitter but, here we go, double-posting back here too.

So, I'm going to challenge myself this week. I suuuuck at drawing X. It's not that he's hard to draw! No. He's quite simple. It's me. The problem is me. It's always been me. I start to doodle and then once it becomes obvious it's X, I choke. I never finish. T_T 

I blame most of this on my upbringing, because I was a fat kid (and now fat adult) I was taught I do not deserve to exist. I firmly believed for a very long time (and still do,) that I am more beneficial to people dead than alive. Why does this mean anything about X? This: I still have a horribly huge crush on that damned blue robot, & because of being told MY ENTIRE LIFE because I am a fatass I shouldn't even think about being involved romantically with ANYTHING. well. There y'go. There's also that my family found out eventually and teased me.

Like, my little sister, love her, but she's skinny as hell and retired professional cosplayer- she'd ether be in my corner or attacking me with our 'friends' growing up. My mom just rolls her eyes if I start gushing about X. (Yet she has gotten into BTS, the K-Pop group, and I am supportive.)

There's also the fact that I got pretty publicly attacked on Tumblr fairly early on because I noticed during the MVCI development, yeah. They fixed Chun Li's face? They also gave X an OBVIOUS pubic bulge and my X fangirl ass ate it up. So, I'm used to being shamed for this.

So... my husband totally ships humans/humanoids with furries. I ship humans/humanoids with anything that isn't the same species, robots, reploids, seamonsters, idgaf it's an awesome trope. (Hello Avatar and The Shape of Water, freakin’ A I still haven’t seen The Shape of Water but GODDAMNIT I WILL ASAP) Because of this we both ship the idea of a certain blue reploid with my OC. Yknow, my icon right there. It's an old-as-hell art I did eooons ago (20+ years) when I was roleplaying, managed to hook up with the X in said RP, things happened and my OC got pregnant. The X in that RP was the adopted brother of my dear friend, NovaStrike. Nova and her wife currently live with me, we drove down to NC to save them from being kicked out by Nova’s abusive as fuck parents at the start of the new year.

Anyhow, back then, Nova found out X and my OC had hooked up in that way and was IMMEDIATELY screaming ROLL FOR PREGNANCY!!!! long story short, the dice favored X being a dad. Annnd his RPer was totally ok with it. That's where my icon comes from. They had a little wolf-eared girl with brown hair and green eyes that we named Kasumi, as I was a big DOA fan, as well, and thought it was a cute name.

I bring this up cause even now, there is no mention of X anywhere on the original image. It's on my DA, but I don't even think I mentioned that there either. It's just my poor OC, beside herself that she got knocked up.. lol, also part of the wtf is how does that happen, but yah. I think back then we just figured "SCIENCE!!" and left it at that. Anyhow... I need to stop being so scared. I'm going to try to not be and get used to doodle my boy and not choke. -_- this is gonna be beyond hard.... but there's also the continuation of my memories of WAS, too. 

Those stories... my memories.. I refuse to let those die. That stupid RP club stopped me from committing suicide. If I didn't have a literal X hovering over me during some pretty emotional times in my life, I probably wouldn't be here. So, since X has saved my life in more ways than one, I will try, damnit. I will do my best. For today, a sketch of the next WAS memory comic. Our X had an apple tree and greenhouse. His special spot, and only people REALLY FREAKING IMPORTANT got to go there with him. Our Dr. Cain, Zero.. our Roll.. people like that.

Then I got attacked by another member- he literally tried to rape my character, cause I didn't want to date him. I got a few friends to come in and make him stop, but they told our X, despite my begging them not to. So here was 16 year old me, whom already, in case nobody was aware, I am an incest survivor, so I already had bad experiences in being taken advantage of.. this is a character I have a huge crush on and he found our someone else on the team tried to rape me????? Omfg. Now, I had to go to that tree. I was playing a cat-and-mouse game avoiding our X for a day before he finally cornered me and made me come to the tree with him to talk about what had happened.

I wanted to die, y'all. This started a nearly 2-week long stint. Once our X found out that? I had to deal with him checking in with me DAILY for nearly 2 weeks. It got to the point where I went to school teachers to ask for advise on what to talk about with "X", no joke. I didn't know anything about the person role-playing as X, and when they were on, they were strictly IC as X. There was no talking to his player... I was talking to the character, about some pretty heavy stuff, weather I liked it or not. There was even one convo I remember.. Our X had found out my schedule pretty fast- and was in the habit of IMing me (this was on AOL back in like, 96, 97) as soon as I got online after school. He would often ask what I had for my after school snack. I responded once, eh, cheese filled ravioli.. something. "X" again, completely and utterly IC, responds with "That's sounds good! Just a sub tank for me today, I'm afraid..." Again, I never spoke to his player. His player stayed IC no matter what. This of course made me go "#^@%#%##!!!!!!" mentally but I digress..

I think the biggest lesson "X" taught me during all of that, was it's ok to ask for help. I'm not going to be able to handle everything on my own, and the biggest one, during that especially, was it's NOT ok for people to take advantage of me. You take into consideration I was only 16-17 at that time, and in an abusive household and living with my abusers, and having my childhood hero telling me this? This is why he's so freaking important to me. This challenge will be hard, but I will see it through. I owe him that much, in the very least.

FILL IN THE QUESTIONS/STATEMENT AS IF YOU ARE BEING INTERVIEWED FOR AN ARTICLE AND YOU WERE YOUR MUSE

TAG 10 PEOPLE TO DO THIS MEME, (REPOST, DON’T REBLOG)

TAGGED BY: i stole it bc i wasn’t tagged but it looked like fun TAGGING: no tags we die like rpers and steal it bc it's fun

1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? em 2. WHAT IS YOUR REAL NAME? emily paige mccarty 3. DO YOU KNOW WHY YOU WERE CALLED THAT? because that's what i want to be called 4. ARE YOU SINGLE OR TAKEN? single 5. HAVE ANY ABILITIES OR POWERS? i can write music if that counts as an ability 6. STOP BEING A MARY SUE/GARY STU. do you know what a mary sue really is and have a legitimate reason for hating them, or do you just hate them because at one point in your life someone made it seem like it was cool and edgy to hate on people who were having fun putting them in fanfiction while ignoring that tons of famous characters in books and movies follow many of the same tropes and aren't criticized anywhere near as harshly for it as original characters are? i'm genuinely curious. 7. WHAT’S YOUR EYE COLOR? blue, but they look a bit green from over-exposure to sunlight 8. HOW ABOUT YOUR HAIR COLOR? right now it's auburn with blonde balayage. my natural color is medium brown but that's just boring. 9. HAVE YOU ANY FAMILY MEMBERS? yes, but i'm not in contact with any of them except for my grandmother whom i live with. and my aunt vivian who lives in new jersey. 10. OH? WHAT ABOUT PETS? oh i love pets! i have a very small cat named tibby and a dog named remy both adopted from a local animal shelter. i also have (had??) a horse but he is back in california because literally where would i keep a horse while living in nyc. 11. THAT’S COOL I GUESS, NOW TELL ME ABOUT SOMETHING YOU DON’T LIKE. myself 12. DO YOU HAVE ANY HOBBIES/ACTIVITIES YOU LIKE DOING? other than riding which i can't do anymore, i like embroidery and other needlework, video games, reading, and yoga but people always kinda see that one as lame. i like it though. 13. EVER HURT ANYONE BEFORE? one time at band camp i accidentally smacked my boyfriend at the time in the face with my trumpet. we were walking to the field to rehearse our field show one morning, i yawned and stretched my arms out to the side, and i didn't know he was walking about an arm’s length away from me and i clocked him in the mouth with the bell of my instrument. luckily he didn't break anything, but he did chip a front tooth and have to go get it fixed. other than that, i’m sure i’ve emotionally wounded people before, but nothing else physical. 14. EVER… KILLED ANYONE BEFORE? no 15. WHAT KIND OF ANIMAL ARE YOU? i refuse to dignify this with an answer on the grounds that it sounds like being asked if i'm a furry. i'm not a furry. 16. NAME YOUR WORST HABITS. i can be kind of dramatic. well, no. i can be really dramatic. also i get really tense when i'm worried about anything. 17. DO YOU LOOK UP TO ANYONE AT ALL? my grandma 18. GAY, STRAIGHT, OR BISEXUAL? none of the above. asexual. 19. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL? yes. i’m going to community college. i'm planning on transferring in to juilliard in two years and majoring in music performance. 20. DO YOU EVER WANT TO MARRY AND HAVE KIDS ONE DAY? get married, possibly but it would probably be more for tax benefits than a notion of romance unless there was some crazy exception. absolutely not on kids. they scare me. 21. DO YOU HAVE ANY FANBOYS/FANGIRLS? not that i'm aware of?? 22. WHAT ARE YOU MOST AFRAID OF? i have anxiety. almost all of my problems stem from the fact that i'm scared of pretty much everything because of it. 23. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY WEAR? purple plaid shirt, this gray t shirt that says ‘start a jazz band’, some dark red cut offs, and a pair of dark green converse. my other go to is this plaid tank crop top thing, some light blue skinny jeans, and red converse. 24. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE? no. yes. no. maybe?? 25. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WET YOURSELF? i’m not answering that 26. WHAT CLASS ARE YOU? (HIGH CLASS, MIDDLE CLASS, LOW CLASS) kind of on the border between middle and low class. living with my grandma itself is more like the border between middle and high class, but having to pay for most of my stuff myself is closer to lower class. 27. HOW MANY FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE? this is going to sound pathetic but i...don't know. i know i have at least one, but i’m not sure that anyone i want to consider a friend wants to consider me their friend. 28. WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON PIE? i like pie. but i like cake better. 29. FAVORITE DRINK? oreo cookie milkshake 30. WHAT’S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE? new york city, because pretty much everything that's ever worth paying attention to happens here. oh and also my grandma’s apartment has a really pretty view of the skyline and i’m easily impressed by sparkly lights. 31. ARE YOU INTERESTED IN SOMEONE? maybe 32. WHAT’S YOUR BRA CUP SIZE AND/OR HOW BIG IS YOUR WILLY? i don't see why i should answer that. so i won't. 33. WOULD YOU RATHER SWIM IN THE LAKE OR THE OCEAN? ocean. speaking from experience, less chance of stepping on a fish in the ocean than in a lake. 34. WHAT’S YOUR TYPE? i don't have a set type. i just like who i like and don't like who i don't like. 35. ANY FETISHES? no. 36. TOP OR BOTTOM? DOMINANT OR SUBMISSIVE? no. if i absolutely had to say something, i’d be [REDACTED]. delete this. 37. CAMPING OR INDOORS? camping 38. ARE YOU WANTING THE QUIZ TO END? it was kinda fun for a while, but it got really weird toward the end. so yeah i’m ready for it to be over now.