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ottiliere · 2 years
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i am absolutely obsessed with your alpha dave because you just hit that itch for me when it comes to the idea of guardians being the worst version of what their kid version could become. i've always wondered that, if the alpha guardians had the same concept the beta guardians did, how would they be-- especially dave, cause the striders relationships with their guardians are always so like. volatile? just the idea of dave growing up with no one to give him proper attention or care or love, (1/2)
and instead of bettering himself he just turns to the constant attention and eyes of the public when he becomes famous, because he NEEDS attention, he needs people to want him and crave him and look up to him and shit. and alpha dave just going down this spiral of doing more and more wack shit to get the public's attention, doing hard drugs with nasty circles he shouldn't be getting himself in, cause he's constantly chasing after the euphoria of people "loving" him. thats all thank you for listening to me go on and on like a maniac. tldr alpha dave being the worst version of who dave can be is an idea i am absolutely obsessed with partially due to your interpretations of him. ur art and ideas are stellar about the striders (2/2)
oh my god I love you. yes this very much how i envision alpha dave to be and it really falls into my stringent devotion to the concept of "universal karma" i.e. where beta dirk strider was so aloof and in his own head alpha dave strider must exist as an extreme direct inverse of that. needy, demanding, overbearing. this man, much like beta dirk, was not built to be a guardian. I think he kind of sucks super bad and it's so awesome. i could go on and on and on about this but I already have another ask in my drafts about him that’s hit 1k words with no end in sight and who knows when that’ll be ready. thank you for your kind observations. picture me smiling at you right now.
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#alpha dave strider#ask#lucy art#I would have given him a coke nail here if I thought I could’ve make it look good#and also. like. tangentially. but very related.#the reason i view him as a cocaine addict isn't just because ohhhh hollywood superstar of course he does drugs#though that definitely enables his access#coke is a death trap for those with no spine and no self esteem because it makes you feel on top of the world.#if you're miserable and spiralling if you're insecure whether or not everyone in the room hates you you can snort a line#and abruptly perceive yourself to be the hottest shit ever#have read stories of many doing coke and thinking they're the life of the party only to be told afterwards that they were being a jackass#there are many such cases of diffident actors becoming cocaine addicts for these reasons#and that everyone hated them for being there#that's fundamentally dave to me#definitely a product of the environment. I think he has ALWAYS been quite insecure but in an environment like this the stakes are amplified#like it's a social game. everything is a social game there. and he is NOT a naturally confident man#the thing is with a lot of the high-profile coke addict actors the thing is like. they're alone. or they perceive themselves to be alone.#alone in hollywood afraid they're just not cutting it not fitting in with the scene not making ''friends''#which is really more attributable to the social scene being so cutthroat and highschoolesque#a bunch of self-centered preps who would be nobodies if they hadn't grown up in wealthy families and shit like that#and I don't think dave would've come from an upbringing like this at all. alienated this guy craves attention and peer approval#doses and mimosas.flac#this is almost opposite of my view of dirk and i often use dave as a tuning fork for him#i had typed up a whole essayramble here and when i saved tumblr wiped out half the tags. did not realize there was a limit.#i suppose i will save to topic i discussed for its own post. thank you all for reading my tags as usual#sorry i edited your three asks into two asks so this post wouldn't get super long. hope you don't mind.
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unganseylike · 21 days
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thinking about the time when one of my (randomly assigned) project partners messaged our group like hey everyone im sorry i cant do my part right now my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me. and we were all like omg so sorry let us know how we can help, etc. a month later i’m looking her up on instagram for something, and i’m like oh hey she still has pictures with said boyfriend up. i click on a post and. realize. ive seen this guy before. my roommate had been hooking up with this man. for some time.
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shorthaltsjester · 6 months
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nothing more morally reprehensible than a cleric (checks notes) using the key features of their class…? surely that can’t be where we are regarding analysis of character actions in cr at this point.
#also like. fcg already cast turn undead around laudna he knew it wouldn’t destroy her.#like fcg does make fucked up choices fairly often but the cleric desiring to cast turn undead when there are many undead creatures isn’t one#also like. yes fcg was a shithead about it w his respect the gods comments but. very very specifically laudna Has been starting shit#in every convo even tangentially related to the gods laudna is the one who without clear motive goes Well What If Gods Bad Actually#which. sure . if u had a clear reason i’d be happy to follow the trail. i’d think it’s still a dumb claim but yk#like the few times when fearne has brought it up it’s been prodding the ideas the Others have in response#and when imogen has it’s been certainly self centered but that means it’s evidently motivated whereas with laudna it’s like. it seems like#she’s just trying to stir shit up which I Would Love if we got context for the Why#laudna is just as responsible for any situation where her and fcg are disagreeing as fcg would be . because they’re Both disagreeing#also of interesting note but. fearne and fcg are much more in the midst of an obvious disagreement. fearne is a changebringer Hater™ .#anyway my point is that a lot of fcg’s character at the moment is being a weirdo about religion so . don’t be shocked when he’s a weirdo#and also. it’s so so fucking stupid to see (jester voice) The Cleric™ cast turn undead and decide it’s more about interpret conflict#than it is. fcg has a very specific build that can be pretty restrictive in terms of beneficial battle actions. let them use turn undead#cr spoilers#cr tag
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fairmoephelia · 2 years
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i think it’s important to understand that isaac is simultaneously much weirder and much more normal than the rest of the coterie thinks and they will never once get it right. rey thinks isaac is about to start cutting off his own limbs? he just wants to make sure serif is armed for the fight, that’s all. the group thinks he might be vulnerable as he uses his new powers? he’s fine, he’ll just be extending his bones into blades. these conversations happen minutes apart. incredible
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theoestofocs · 1 year
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but the thing is, melanie hates jon because he is so very much like her.
they work in adjacent fields, they've got such similar temperaments - they both run straight for whatever supernatural horror they need to understand, they both suck at planning ahead (poisoned coffee, melanie?) and they both lash out as a primary defense mechanism - and jon wasn't qualified for his job, and martin's only "degree" was in paranormal psychology, so clearly the Institute was hiring from a broader pool than "qualified archivists." i can't imagine ghost studies are all that lucrative as a field. if melanie hadn't made it as a youtuber, what would she have done? we don't know a lot about her educational background but - she knows what it's like, to need to know. she walked into the Institute and got a job because Elias saw that he could use her.
If she'd had a legitimate encounter sooner, if she'd started her quest a few years early, if she'd come to the Institute to give her statement and stayed to use their library before Gertrude had died -
Or even if she just couldn't survive on a youtuber's salary, if she'd gone looking for job postings in relevant fields -
It could have been her. She looks at Jon, and she sees exactly who she could have been. It's only luck that it wasn't.
And that's the kicker, isn't it? It's luck, that she's in her shoes instead of Jon's.
And is she supposed to feel lucky? To feel thankful that she's had to suffer through attack after attack, Elias showing her how her father (her dad, who called her his little moth) died screaming, her body torn open by things that don't exist, her sense of self slipping as she ripped into flesh with no recognizable form, her trust violated as she woke up to two of the few remaining people who are supposed to be on her side cutting into her against her will - to feel lucky, because she had to gouge her eyes out just to have her body back in her control -
Is she supposed to be happy that she lived through all that? Is she supposed to be glad, just because she could have been Jon?
Nobody told Melanie she needed to feel sorry for Jon, or give him her sympathy, or any other kind of pity. She just wants to give it, because God, what he'd gone through -
(Thank God it wasn't her -)
- Fuck that, she isn't lucky.
She hates Jon, because she refuses to feel grateful for the horror show her life has been. (Because she's grateful, that it wasn't her; and she's furious, because - yes it was. she paid the price of the apocalypse in blood and scars and trauma, too. She wasn't Jon, and could have been - but fuck it, she was still Melanie. and the hell that she has lived through isn't nothing.)
It's just bad luck, that it was Jon of all people. It's just bad luck, that it was Melanie.
No one here is lucky.
#tma#the magnus archives#tma meta#melanie king#linden's originals#i just have a lot of Feelings ok#tangentially related but one of these days i'm gonna write the post abt basira#bc i love to joke abt jon relying on the local lesbians to make good decisions! it is very fun. but also#incredibly inaccurate. jon made bad decisions (mainly due to a dearth of information and a wealth of fear)#but he didn't make better decisions when he let the wlw take charge!#basira was the one who convinced(/coerced? definitely pressured but details beyond that are lacking) jon into performing surgery#on melanie's leg. left to his own devices idk what jon would have done but it sure as hell wouldn't have been#''roofie my coworker to perform nonconsensual surgery''#if only bc that is Not something that would occur to him. & idc man it's a messy situation all around#there was no good choice there (there never was) but that? that wasn't the right one. and i think that's the other piece at play here#melanie didn't forgive him for that. i sure wouldn't. and she gets it - she does: there were no good choices -#but how is she supposed to care about the suffering that guy of all people went through? when it feels like it invalidates her own?#how are you supposed to feel about your reflection in a face that stars in all your nightmare memories?#melanie hates jon because he never gave her a reason to like him; and because he violated her (no matter how necessary it was); and#because she could have been him. because it's luck that it wasn't.#except there is no good luck in this world. not in this apocalypse - the one that's been going on for much longer for her - for them -#than since that final ritual. she's been living an apocalypse since she saw that monster in a hospital. and that matters too.#not one of them has been free in a long time. maybe ever#melanie can't pity him because feeling ''pity'' requires a level of distance she doesn't have#pity means ''there but for the grace of God go -'' but what grace?#there but for the grace of god go i? is she meant to thank someone for giving her the lot she got in life?#how is she supposed to feel glad about that?#she cannot pity him. and she cannot commiserate; those bridges have long since been burned. all that's left to feel#is a guilty kind of hatred and resentment. because in another life she might've been him; in another life still they might have been twins#linden in the tags
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heyclickadee · 5 months
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Weird confession, probably an unpopular opinion, but: I actually like a lot of the concepts and basic designs behind the costumes in the Rings of Power series more than I like the concepts and basic designs behind the costume in the PJ Lord of the Rings films (with the costumes for the rohirrim and the people in Gondor being the exception). Don’t get me wrong, the costumes in the PJ Lord of the Rings series look amazing. They’re gorgeous and, on the whole, better made than the Rings of Power costumes. It’s just that the there’s something very dungeons and dragonsy about the PJ Lord of the Rings costumes (especially for the elves), and I know that’s because there was a twenty year feedback loop where there was a slight DnD-ness to the PJ Lord the the Rings elf outfits which then just became standard Elf Clothes in LOTR fanart which then fed back into the people making art for the DnD handbooks, but still. And I’ll admit I’m biased—it just so happens that that aesthetic is one I don’t particularly like. So seeing the costumes in Rings of Power make a clean break from that was really refreshing. And they mostly look like clothes people would wear. And I love the ideas in the designs! Elrond’s brown cloak with the feathers? That’s a sweet little tribute to his mom. The gold dust makeup on Disa’s hands and her robe (which honestly looked better in action than it did in the promo shots)? Neat concept. Tar-Miriel’s crown (and all of her outfits, actually)? Stunning. I’m in love. I just wish the designers and costume makers had been given all the time they needed to really make every costume look as good as they probably looked in their heads.
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coralreefskim · 10 months
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Hi just wanted to let you know that I want to take a bite of your brain for your natsuyuu thoughts because you're able to put into words so many emotions that I hadn't, or just pointed out stuff that I makes me go 'oh!?'
Like Tanuma being a hard character to pin point character wise was something I hadn't really thought of but now it's like, who is he?? I know you but who are you? And your art related to this is adorable but thinking about it also makes me unwell.
Thank you for all of it. I look forward to whenever you post :D
thank you!! that's INSANE to me bc i feel i don't articulate them well fjjejdd. i actually really love reading other people's natsuyuu thoughts so i hope mine are at least somewhat entertaining lol.
but no yeah truly absolutely!! most of the natsuyuu cast is in some way mirrors/foils to one another, and there are a lot of parallel situations going on (sometimes in text, sometimes in theme) so they're really fun to think ab :] not to mention the Lore... can you believe we got One Hint of natsume's grandpa and then Nothing Else for several years. hilarious. midorikawa-sensei's rollercoaster has no end in sight and i'm going to perish from cardiac arrest.
re tanuma: YEAH. yeah. "i know you but who are you" is soooo right. i've been thinking ab it and like, i feel like he's just a really situational character who could do anything given the right circumstances, as long as he thinks he's helping (barring internal conflict. again, situational). kid's also Extremely Natsume Motivated, which is both convenient and hard bc he doesn't really have wants Outside of natsume (it makes total sense to me, but i can see why it'd feel lacking).
it's actually really funny bc tanuma's the natsuyuu character i've figured out the most. like. if i needed to write a tanuma writing guide for myself i could probs do it w extreme detail. tho lately my brain has somehow started associating tanuma w self-imposed debilitating loneliness so. well. he makes me feel ill
#i'm so sidetracked. i could talk ab tanuma for hours. if you mention tanuma i'll go into a tanuma rabbit hole. like right now#ik i literally just said that i figured out tanuma most but he's also tragically the hardest character to write bc. he's very uncooperative#when it comes to himself. the two times i wrote his dialogue i had to rewrite so much bc he kept deflecting compliments and conversations#kept going around in circles. i was the one writing but i felt like i was going insane. i had to change the topic entirely several times#so that i could get to the point of the comic. bc that was the FILLER dialogue. can you imagine. tanuma i love you but [shakes him]#possibly i'm so taken to tanuma&nyanko-sensei's dynamic party bc of how despite it still revolving around natsume in most capacities#they do genuinely enjoy each other's company for the sake of it. plus the fact that tanuma's started out being more candid w sensei#when there were things he couldn't ask natsume himself. could be the 1st (rough) meeting stripped tanuma's instincts to be 'considerate'#but regardless of the reasoning. idk. it's just nice :] tangentially related points to tanuma confronting yokai and immediately going#'if something happened to natsume i'll never forgive you!' kid. Please. that's kinda embarrassing. p sure it was sensei both times too.#sorry i talked ab tanuma so much i just remembered that was not the point of the ask. but. gestures helplessly. he's my nephew.#OH ALSO thank you for the ask you're vv sweet. natsuyuu makes me go 'oh?' a lot it's like throwing spaghetti on the wall. vv fun#i haven't been drawing as much as i'd like recently due to Circumstances that Persist so it's nice to know my natsuyuu rambles are like#idk ! it does make me a little sad that the tags are quite slow but i can't really complain#in any case!!! i hope you're having a lovely weekend :] please imagine a nyanko-sensei eating a tiny little biscuit#asks#niinnyu
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prophecydungeon · 10 months
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the more i chew over the mercs trilogy from rvb14 the more i think my initial reaction to it was kind of a complete misread actually lol
i had to dig through some old posts to find where i talked about it but initially i approached/read it as showing a pivotal, critical moment in felix and locus's history where they tipped over the line from being This to being That, and in that regard, the episodes are definitely still super fun and charming and Good but they also fall very flat. what exactly was pivotal about that? honestly, not much unless you want to do an insanely close read with some reaching. i guess maybe the whole "surprise, guess we're down to do a ransom and also kill a guy" part but... not really? they definitely murdered n+1 people at the club and are not new to murderizing (eg. the "mason wu, trained killer of men" comment). that was not a moral high ground situation in any way and nothing about it really points to it being The Moment that something changed fundamentally.
but what it was, actually - and i feel silly that i didn't read it like this at first - was honestly just a show that felix and locus did actually come from a place of doing net positives at some point in their lives. and that's not something to be dismissed! the fact that they weren't terrible horrible no-good dirty rotten mercenaries from the day the left active service is really interesting! and the trilogy showcased all of that in a super fun and charming and Good way and sometimes the point is just to show that things used to be different.
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opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months
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#its genuinely so baffling how different my life is from my sisters. like their lives r also v different but theyre more similar to#eachother than either r to me. like they talk abt i guess stereotypical stuff like fashion and hot dudes and celebrities and have big#friend groups and im sitting in the corner like. i draw and i work and i have brain problems. y do i gotta b the odd one out. i mean#probably a touch of autism tbh and more severe dyslexia than one of them but idk its a bit weird. the youngest is cool and nice but#the middle one is pretty mean. but theyre both really funny. idk i am enjoying not working and seeing new things but also it is slightly#isolating to not b able to connect with ppl. like no one connects with my interests and what i do for a job is weird so thry dont bother#to try to understand and like on one hand i get it but on the other. im genuinely interested in what ur life is like. do u not care abt#mine? idk. i just feel annoying when i talk abt the things i like. like my brain is very: i see one topic 》 here is tangentially related#fact. and my sister is like: 🙄 y do u kno these things? and mocks my dad for doing the sane thing. like cool thanks 4 making me feel#insecure. ill lock thst down with all the other problems youve made worse. thanks. but whatever im just being sensitive. maybe im the weird#one. i dont understand how othet ppl interact when im not there. like i dont get how 2 ppl have conversations. i wanna kno how ppls brains#work but i feel like thats not what other ppl r doing. so idk. im tired and i dont wanna go back to work. maybe ill see if i can move my#flight back a few days idk or maybe ill just suck it up and go back to my disaster life#unrelated
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freenarnian · 1 year
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orcelito · 11 months
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Honestly I have realized that 99% of my shipping of vashwood comes from trimax. Yea I vibed with it while watching tristamp but trimax is what took my utter heart and soul
It's to the point where I just don't rly enjoy tristamp vashwood that much anymore hfkshfjd like. OK? Those sure are some dudes. Not My dudes tho, sorry.
#speculation nation#i'll still reblog the fanart if it's good. but yea it just ain't what im about anymore.#i feel like the worst vashwood perceptions r found within tristamp only fans anyways#(this post tangentially related to the post i just reblogged)#tristamp only fans see these two and are like 'this is the Angry Buff Dude and the Tiny Pixy Man'#which pretty much erases like everything they stand for? while also supporting racist caricatures.#not all tristamp only fans do this btw but i have definitely seen it much more around there.#meanwhile trimax vashwood is just like. this is an old married couple. theyre so hopelessly Goofy.#the angst is off the CHARTS. the love even more so.#they very genuinely love each other in trimax In Canon and that's what really gets me.#plus theyre pretty similar in height and build. Adult Men!!!! i like this ship for Adult Men!!!!!#idk this also relates to that post i made yesterday about fandom perception of vash being an innocent uwu virgin#despite being 150 or so years old. & they'll also make wolfwood some sex god or whatever#when comparatively hes been an adult for a MUCH shorter time than vash. my dude's still a pretty young adult ok#and you wanna tell me he's got more sex experience than the 150 year old dude????? ok...#lol im just complaining at this point. i have very specific views of my ideal version of this pairing#and a lot of fandom portrayals are starting to bother me bc of it.#so im just writing my own vashwood my own way. rn focusing on vash being a rounded person#yes having some childish aspects. but also some mature aspects. he's a goofy adult. it can exist simultaneously.#looking forward to when wolfwood finally comes in. i hope to do him justice.
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fnaffersblog · 8 months
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I'll be honest, I do think it's a little funny that so much of my internet history revolves around Five Nights at Freddy's, I'm still getting advertisements with the 2021 pre game drop, like, the October 2021 trailer for Security Breach, almost 2 years after said trailer dropped and a little over a year and a half since the game itself released.
Not even the RUIN Trailer. Just... straight up the original reveal trailer.
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boycattj · 9 months
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and ALSO what is your favorite shit ppl do in trans-character fics. curious for....no particular reason (<- lie) (🍉)
ok . tbh. and i've literally never admitted this before . but before i started reading byler fics (w a sizable handful of exceptions ofc) . i mainly only read smut fics???? cuz thats how i was introduced to fics in general so it just . was what i read . (which u can see if u go back far enough into my bookmarks . pls dont. for ur own sake. i havent cleaned it out because i am Afraid of what i may find and what memories i may unlock from however many years ago) so i dont really have . a lot of Fic Trope Experience .unless u wanna talk abt smut tropes bcuz Boy have i seen it all. and i hardly ever touch the dead dove do not eat shit . but i have a feeling thats Not what ur asking for ....
anyway. to actually answer your question w/o rambling: i like fluff . hurt/comfort . preferably w/o much hurt . i am sad and lonely and yearning . and trans. so. i think u might b able to figure it out from there lmao
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shadowsong26x · 8 months
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so rewatching the IWTV s2 teaser again and...
so there's that one very quick flash between louis detouring into another novel wandering through what may be a sewer and Fire Happening. the bit in the forest, where he's getting kind of beat up?
and i just.
gabrielle??????!!!!!!!
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pallases · 8 months
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got my nails done for the first time btw i fear this will become an addiction
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sawthatmountainburn · 8 months
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real talk, I was ready to not only settle for the first cishet man who showed any attraction to me but was even convinced I deserved to be with someone obviously shitty because I cannit be inflicted upon other people. years of bullying does shit to one's psyche.
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