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moreaugriffins · 24 days

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IDK who needs to hear this, but Egon and Ray aren't the only autistic og ghostbusters

Peter is too

Your telling me this man with two PhDs related to psychology, who always has the exact right thing to say to manipulate a situation to his favour (when it's a planned/known situation), but cocks up massively when it's an unknown situation, who has a massive reaction to getting slimed (more so than the others), who would rather joke all the time than take a situation seriously because wtf should he say

you're telling me this man is neurotypical?

nah

Winston's the only NT in this group (idk how he deals with these weirdos (affectionate))

#rambles #ghostbusters #the real ghostbusters #to be specific i guess #peter venkman #egon spengler #ray stantz #winston zeddemore #i've encountered a few autistic people like peter #it's mainly the focus on business and the intense interest in studying people and behaviour and the mind #but he gets so irritated and angry when he gets slimed #the same way i feel when oil or glue gets stuck on my skin #“but he's so good at social situations-” but that's just it!#he is!#because he studies people - studies their reactions - their interactions #a business chat always goes the same way so he can plan what to say to get the best thing out of it #when he flirts with women it seems to be the same way each time - like he's planned it - because he thinks it'll get a reaction he wants #and i dare say that Peter masks a lot more than Ray and Egon. i mean he was a probably more of a cool slacker type at uni and got on well #with more popular students (sorority house students? idk im not american) and yknow it was the 70s! couldnt exactly be fully himself #idk where im going with this - ive lost my train of thought #but yeah #peter is autistic as well and i'll die on this hill

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pizzpizzapizzo · 5 months

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something something eyeballs on clothes

#peppino spaghetti #pppart #pizza tower #does anyone still remember kyary pamyu pamyu #i do #i think this was originally supposed to be a part of the Halloween update clothes series #but i've since lost my train of thought #just take it

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channwie · 2 months

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i'm a twisted wretched thing who loves like a dog long euthanized, an ancient tomb ransacked and a coffin nailed shut too long ago —

why do i love like i'm dead and you've forgotten to mourn me?

i smile at the wind and the grass and food and empathize with clouds when it rains too much or too little and dust when it settles, i live in the cracked walls of my sister's cramped art studio, broken dishes set aside in my mother's kitchen, the scratched keychain on my father's belt loop waiting to be thrown away — i crave the act of being seen, relish in being the niche thing appreciated by the curious eyes and softened heart, the one thing you can't let go yet can't understand all the same.

i love desperately, pathetically, unrequited in paracosm.

i want to be touched but i am cold and curled fatally fetal in the centre of my room, four walls but two colored charcoal (i can't seem to move on from the idea of you) the other two apricot and forest green — i want to talk to you with my mouth full of citrus and acidic things but i don't want to hear you speak (if you do i'll know you love me less because you know me more)

i want to be loved (not entirely, not really but yes)

#pedir clemencia ✶#— on queue .ᐟ #initially queued for vday #but #idk i've lost my train of thought lately so i'll queue this randomly for feb #lately i've been descending back into a not so great place #and i think last of all places i'd speak about my inner struggles is here but #icel i might be on hiatus when this is posted but still #cherish the little things #please be kind to people #the world is so pretty #i dislike myself for being unhappy in a world like this where there is still so much good and so much light #but this sadness or this hurt is part of me too so i think it matters equally if not almost as much

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ereborne · 3 months

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Song of the Day: January 14

"Diva's Lament (Whatever Happened to My Part)" from Monty Python's Spamalot

#song of the day #two hours in a car + four hours in a different car + eight hours on the train + two hours in yet a different car(truck) and now home!#it was a good trip and I'm glad to have done it (actually there's a couple people I didn't get to see so I could've gone for longer)#but today was big stinky balls and I'm so glad to be home at last #the cats are very happy to see us and my poor plants. my poor plants. maybe actually I could not have been gone any longer.#I left such detailed notes on watering but it didn't occur to me to also specify that they should be allowed /light/ my poor plants #anyway our train stopped dead for half an hour outside DC while they changed motors and it was so dark and cold and boring #and I thought 'what's a song I might know all the words to that I've never tried to remember without backing. a nice test song'#and for some reason I came up with Spamalot! a very fun musical #I do indeed know all of the Diva's Lament though I couldn't get You Won't Succeed on Broadway all in the right order #Duncan did ask me what I was thinking about and I got to deliver a couple Diva's Lament lines deadpan #'they've been out searching for a shrub / out shopping for a bush! well they can kiss my tush! / seems to me they've really lost the plot'#no better nonsense than Spamalot

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cottonraincoat · 16 days

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im gonna say something stupid

#breha and bail are like the good cop poster child of the empire like 'oh the empire can't be that bad it's got people like breha and bail'#sike they're running an underground rebellion.#'monarchy can't be that bad it's sometimes got good queens'#okay but her daughter is running away from every class ever about how to be queen #they're not above their determinations but still #i've lost my train of thought good lord how do you learn a language in twenty four hours #yeah she's losing it on main. sorry.

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zesty-alt · 2 months

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I like to logic this stuff out, to make sure I'm not being weird about trans men but simultaneously not like I'm putting them on some weird pedestal where I'm not supposed to sexualize their bodies etc.

My natural distaste for strict top/bottom dom/sub stuff comes in handy. It's all "oh yeah we're gay we're faggots fuck straight people" until you're like "suck a trans dude's strap" and then everyone's like oh I don't know about that. Choke on that strap boy.

#we are not straight people we do not need to do this #even with like cross-dressing stuff #to ME it's crossdressing is basically the most masculine thing you can do. Because it's crossdressing. Cross.#my love of calling men by feminine terms of endearment in a 'fuck what society says men can't and can't be' way #and even that's like. I'm catching myself. Obviously there are trans people into detrans stuff #vs my absolute hatred of detrans stuff locked in combat #not for me! Probably in part because I'm gay lol #I am not here for telling a dude they're a woman. I'm here to fuck dudes.#but there's also like. Something. I've lost my train of thought I've been drinking too much

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fonulyn · 11 months

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i miss having someone who was excited about my fics during the writing process and who cheerleadered me on and i could brainstorm with. the process is so goddamn lonely now.

#i also miss that friendship in general #but that train left the station #i just need to deal #sigh #but it's a process i'm still grieving #me and my wHINING #i've lost multiple friendships i thought were meaningful in the past year #and it sucks #one i feel i got taken advantage of in so i had to cut it #two just started ghosting me #and now i'm sitting here #wondering what the hell is wrong with me #that i'm so easy to abandon #i'll shut up now tho

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disabled-dragoon · 1 year

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Been tip tapping away at this essay for seven fucking hours now across two days and I’ve finally FINALLY hit the conclusion and I am at a W A L L

155 words left and not a single thought

Please

I want to sleep

#I could cry #the migraine I have #I've lost my train of thought #it never even left the station #this is the worst thing Ive ever written just LET ME END IT #PLEASE

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squeeb100 · 11 months

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Oops i accidentally played totk until midnight again

#' why am i so tired ' it's the damn game #it is SO fun #off the charts levels of ' ooh what's over there??? holy fuck im allowed to do this??? '#not a traditional zelda game and one of the two dungeons I've done was horrendously frustrating and a little stupid #but the other was incredible and so fun toget to #excited to see the others. I'm talking my time #spent TWO HOURS exploring a cave system the other dsy #i love it #i JUST replayed botw. just in the last few months. and this still feels so exciting #lost my train of thought anyway it is not a traditional zelda game but it's kind of the best #this feels like what zelda games were meant to be like from the get-go and deveover 35 years #listen i am a twilight princess stan. i GET IT #but this is just incredibly fun #also the genuine fear and apprehension this game has made me feel makes me feel like im 13 playing tp again #squeeb #totk #the legend of zelda

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forecast-rain · 2 years

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I feel like me saying "I hold many fond feelings towards you" to someone is almost like a declaration of friendship from me lmao

#cloud posts #mostly used when I'm not exactly sure what I'm feeling yet is but I know that I'm fond of said person #or don't exactly feel comfortable calling someone a feiend yet?#maybe #idk I've kinda lost my train of thought #but yeh #thoughts

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sheliesshattered · 2 years

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I’m just so tired

#things with my dad are getting significantly worse. with terminal brain cancer that's pretty much the only direction things can go #but his mental state is deteriorating quickly. multiple massive brain tumors will do that to you but now it's accelerating #I described it to one of my siblings that it's like Dad's mind is a big jigsaw puzzle and for a year now it's been clear that #the once-whole puzzle is breaking into pieces. for awhile the pieces were still pretty big and he could still carry on a conversation well #he might not remember it 15 minutes later but get him talking about an old memory or something he's an expert on and he could just go on #I've been calling him twice a week for months now. since Mom first suggested we work on writing a book together #in the month since we decided to give that up as a lost cause Dad has gotten noticeably worse. he's gone from losing his train of thought #to talking complete nonsense in a scrambled combination of old memories and things he once read about -- smaller and smaller puzzle pieces #and as things have taken a downward term I know from talking to Mom separately that Dad is also having a lot of trouble with basic self care #balance and bathing and eating and knowing where he is and all kinds of things. all of which is made worse by his memory problems #and by the fact that he outweighs my mom by a good 100lbs. so when he fell in the tub and couldn't get himself out she had to call for help #had to have a church friend who is more than a foot taller than her drive over to help maneuver my dad out of the bathtub #he's also getting obstinate and angry and saying that my mom and my nb sibling who lives with them are the ones with mental problems #all of which means I think they're going to need in-home healthcare ASAP. if not a round-the-clock facility. it's coming sooner or later #but Dad still hasn't officially retired so he's still on his own insurance which apparentlydoesn't have any coverage for that sort of thing #so Mom has to get him to file the paperwork to officially retire and then get him on her insurance. hopefully without a huge confrontation #and I feel like we're running out of time. that he's going to need that care before all the paperwork has time to clear once its started #I feel like we've been barely surviving horrific river rapids and now I'm the ONLY one pointing out that there's a massive waterfall coming #ignoring it won't make it go away or take longer to get here. it'll just hit us with even fewer preparations in place #I have enlisted the help of siblings so hopefully we can convince Mom of the importance of getting the paperwork started #but Mom is so mired in her own grief and busy with work (and she can't quit bc of the health insurance) and unable to get the help she needs #that it's tricky to bring up any of this sort of thing in a helpful way. and all the while Dad is getting worse #meanwhile I'm trying to deal with my own grief and manage my own chronic health situation. and still call Dad twice a week just to chat #and holy hell I'm just so TIRED

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cosmojjong · 1 year

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crazy to me how i perceive my korean vs how others perceive it

#must be the imposter syndrome because i cannot explain it #also the fact that i feel like i'm stuck in a slump/the same level of korean #earlier my friends and i were talking and one of them said 'here we have a non korean speaking like a korean' and i almost cried #not because i was glad but because i felt EMBARRASSED #sometimes i feel really frustrated #from the outside it may look like i have it all figured out like i can speak it well effortlessly #but actually not i study so hard and been doing that for long #and i still never feel like it's enough #i don't know if this is something that every language learner feels like #been particularly bummed about how 'not enough perfect i am' versus how much friends hype me #i wish i could improve even more but why isn't it working??????#i think it's also my issue where i have my comfort zone and i like my wordings but theres much more grammar to use and #i shouldn't be afraid of trying #i lost my train of thought there i wanted to say much more but nevermind #i've had a shitty weekend and i think i want to scream about 26 different things at the same time #don't mind me guys #i also really miss jonghyun #and i'm so angry and hurt about time flying in many aspects of life #i cannot even catch up cannot even spread out my aspirations that it just keeps going #frankly i need a break to breathe but i cannot stop either #ANYWAYS. goodnight i'm so tired of thinking #i love jonghyun #didi rambles

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burymeinblack2022 · 1 year

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Something something nica being trapped in her body used as a puppet forced to helplessly watch chucky kill her entire family nica losing her bodily automomy against her will over chucky and once again being powerless something something etc....

#I've connected the dots (you didn't connect shit) I've connected them #This was going somewhere then I lost my train of thought when I started typing #Idk if I got my vision across but. Cinematic parallels... There's more than meets the eye #nica pierce #That said. Look how they massacred my girl !!!#Chucky #Chucky tv #curse of chucky #wow anna said something #anna's shitposts #She truly lost it all over him 😔😔#Also he did Tiffany so dirty too she would never do that shit !! Aughhhh not to mention it was sooo useless 😩😩#I had edited the post bc my second language nonsense got me but it didn't update it should now

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