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(Okay so I’ll start with RippleShock because it’s the least complicated and mostly stays to game lore.)

So RippleShock is basically where Suchong never died and actually left with Tenenbaum after she sent that letter to him (the only part of BaS I personally like and that I see as canon). When the war broke out and everything, they basically went did what Tenenbaum did alone in the 2 og games and Minvera’s Den

Suchong’s much more quiet and closed off and way he treats Jack, at first, when they meet him in the Medical Pavilion, with a lot of hostility and anger, even after he frees the Little Sister. But by the time Jack has learned about himself and his creation and Suchong and Tenenbaum’s role in such, he opens up about his regret, sadness, and guilt for Jack’s creation. He even talks about his past life in Rapture’s spotlight and why he left everyone he cared about when Jack get to his old free clinic

He makes kind of cruel and dark jokes when Jack looks through his and Tenenbaum’s apartments, the free clinic and Point Prometheus. Tenenbaum shushes him for his dark humor during these moments lol

After they leave Rapture, Suchong ends up in San Francisco and lives there quite peacefully though he still has to deal with the guilt, even when Jack had forgiven him. Tenenbaums comes to him, tells him about the missing girls and at first he panics then he clams himself for when Tenenbaum asks him to join her once more in Rapture, agreeing to go with her even though they are both old now

BioShock 2 is mostly the same but Tenenbaum and Suchong are both there and Suchong isn’t as hostile as he was with Jack, he has constant fear of getting killed by Delta in the short time they meet up. He also expresses guilt for his distinctness from Alexander when he first meets Delta as well, though it’s just a brief mention.

Minvera’s Den is quite different, being that Suchong understands Porter’s emotional state much better and uses the fact his father was killed during the War to connect Porter losing Pearl during the War. He also expresses a sort of kinship with Wahl’s current state of being in the DLC

RippleShock Yi Suchong is man who has dealt with so much and is just now a tired, sad, lonely and old man who believes he can’t do enough good to wash the blood from his hands..

Did I start SOBBING as soon as I got home from school today because I was overwhelmed? Yes.

How long did I spend sobbing? Around 20ish minutes

How long did I have from when I left school to till I had to go to work? 45 minutes…

I think it finally hit me that I’m a senior, I have to decide what I want to do with my life, and I have so much responsibility.

Some authors really be creating individual characters who are SO made for each other (wether platonically or romantically) in every single conceivable way and then just forget to make them interact smh…

“I’ll be fine i just need to uhhhhhhh idk kill” but like…what if i did haha

okay. yeahhh no it’s official. its yearly depressive episode time.

bipolar brigade rise up!!! those swifties couldn't handle it at the best of times 😒

Literally !! I cannot stand Taylor swift and I hate the swift ones even more !! i don’t think they understand the severity of it all I genuinely don’t remember anything from any kind of episode or swing my brain blocks it all out except for maybe vague memories and emotions after the fact !

I think I should get medicated for my adhd/depression not cause it’s like detrimental to my mental health or anything. I just wanna be able to model all of Luna Nova into Minecraft

Getting a good hit of indica that’s a little stronger than vapes I had last time after I ran out of my indica is Hallelujah Praise The LORD and that kid with ADHD

So funny how trauma will just kick you in the fucking teeth with the most random triggers.

hii cj id love to know more about the bottom right moodboard (red haired norma is everything actually)

Red haired Norma my beloved <3

TW for mention of Ava’s suicide and Cornelius being a sketchy guy, a sex offender, and literal criminal 🥴

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So this AU would take place after the events of 5x1. Ava doesn’t die on the operating table, Connor and Latham managed to repair the damage done to her carotid and surrounding tissue, though she needed a pretty substantial patch and stent. Ava lost a lot of blood and they still didn’t know if she would have any deficits to nerve or muscle function in her neck/face.

She was transferred to the ICU but by then the truth had gotten out and so she was under 24h guard with a member of CPD there at all times. Connor was at a crossroads because obviously he couldn’t forgive her for what she did but she was so vulnerable and almost died under his scalpel hours before. She had, for all intents and purposes, killed herself in his arms and that was something he could never forget. His feelings for her and the anger he felt mixed with shame that he didn’t see anything like this coming.

No one else was ready to forgive Ava, for obvious reasons. She’s a criminal in their eyes and they were just waiting for her to wake up and be sent to the prison hospital so everyone could have some peace of mind. Ava woke up days later, completely alone aside from Kim sitting in a chair by the doorway. She couldn’t find her voice, whether it be physical or psychological, and all she could do was cry silently. To Ava this was worse than death, no one knew the truth and she was still stuck in that damn hospital.

Once she was stable and they were sure she wouldn’t code on the way there she was airlifted to a federal prison where she was in a solitary hospital cell. It took weeks for her to get the energy to stand and she did have minor nerve damage that meant the impaired side of her face didn’t quite move right. That and the still healing cut on her throat reminded her of what she had done and how she failed.

When she could talk she was interrogated for hours, labelled homicidal by everyone in the hospital for what seemed like obvious reasons. Yet after over an hour of questioning she broke, tearfully explaining what happened to lead up to this.

She explains that Cornelius Rhodes had been involved in some FBI level fraud and corruption. She had found out by accident when she was in his office asking for money, he had left her alone for a while when an issue came up in the store and she happened to catch some emails pulled up on his computer. He caught her though, and Cornelius was quick to threaten her into silence.

It got worse as time went on. After a while he had collected information that might impact her career, such as her borderline personality disorder diagnosis and some violence charges in her youth that had been buried. He claimed that if Ava didn’t do as he said he would not only ruin her reputation as a doctor but target her family as well. He would force her to be a middle man in his illegal activity, making her do hand offs for money laundering and keeping her on a short leash when she was allowed out of his sight. The reason Ava didn’t have any friends in Chicago was not avoidance, rather it was Connor’s own father forcing her into solitude to cover his own ass.

He forced himself on Ava too, threatening to lie to Connor about them being together if she didn’t do as he wanted. Even more, Cornelius threatened his own son’s life to keep Ava under his control. He saw how attached she was to Connor and had no qualms about abusing that knowledge. None of their “relationship” was consensual, contrary to rumours that spread after the gala.

The final straw had been whispers of Cornelius running underground trafficking dens. He was flaunting Ava to his associates, pushing her into meetings and making suggestive remarks, bringing her to hidden locations full of girls. He was taunting her, threatening to sell her body instead of keeping her for himself. It was more terrifying than any of his previous threats and it caused her to fall into a BPD split so severe all she could do was lash out. That’s why she gave him the insulin and that’s why she tried to end her own life; she felt trapped and abused and had no escape.

A thorough investigation of Cornelius and his associates confirmed Ava’s statement. Her first degree charges were dropped and instead changed to a manslaughter charge, though no one outside was informed due to the circumstances. She underwent over a year of psychiatric rehabilitation in prison and sought out every type of reform she could. Threats on her life kept coming as more of Cornelius’ associates realized she had been the one to rat them out. It got to the point where the FBI agreed she could not be released for her own safety.

As her parole date approached she was prepared to be released into witness protection. She was to assume a new identity and everyone was informed that Ava Bekker had died in federal prison at 16:22. A lot of people at med were actually pleased to hear that news, still under the impression that Ava had been a cold blooded killer as the information about Cornelius’ crimes were on a need to know basis due to their sensitivity.

Ava dyed her hair and changed the way she dressed and acted. She changed her name and even her family believed she was dead. She could no longer practice medicine for the time being and was moved to Texas under WITSEC supervision. Her face and neck were permanently scarred from the damage she did that day and her psyche was no better. It felt impossible to rebuild her life when she felt that no one in the entire world knew or cared that Ava Bekker was still alive.

So this AU is about Ava being moved under witness protection and changed her identity to keep her safe from Cornelius’ posthumous wrath :)

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

ok mutuals. so we’ve established that i am extremely mentally ill about my job due to fomo and projection issues 🤪😻✨so i rarely let myself turn things down or take breaks or whatever. but im trying to be better about that and in the last couple of weeks like.. i took 2 days off last week and will take another one tomorrow and yesterday i started getting cr*mps so i pulled out of facilitating the orientation sessions bc i was like im in pain and this is one too many things and like.. if it sucks hit da bricks yk. but last night i got my p*riod and i didn’t sleep well and i feel so lightheaded and my cramps are horrible now… and it’s like. literally the only thing i have to do on campus today is orientation which is a nightmare anyway. so maybe i should skip it again and work from home today bc i NEVER let myself do that anymore bc im afraid to miss anything in the office (and also i don’t take anything like pain meds bc my family is insane 🤪 so i would be going thru cramps relying only on my heating pad and i do have one in the office but it’s obviously not the smae thing as like lying down with it and also if i do orientation then im flying solo for 2 hours ON MY FEET the whole time and this time id have to walk around a lot more bc of some of the changes we made). but then im like well ive come to work w worse cramps before and also i feel bad leaving my one colleague bestie alone in the office todsy (the other one is on vacation) esp bc im already taking another day off tomorrow. but then it’s like.. well i shouldn’t worry abt that i need to do what feels good for me. so idk that was kinda rambling and i was going to ask if u think i should stay home but i think typing that out… i am going to.

Kinda want to disappear from everything and everyone in my life and just not exist. Delete all my social media, break my phone, torch my house, and just fucking get hit by a car or something

Literally slipped my mind that I have to pay for my meds tomorrow!! 🥴🥴

ohhhh desperately need to leave this house before i kill myself I fear it’s coming 🤣🤣

i love not taking my meds and then complaining im experiencing symptoms. girl it’s your own fault