Daisy: You know after having spent 25 years alone and unloved I really thought searching for my birth parents would be the only way I could find a family but you know what this team is kind of-
Daisy: OK so at least one of my team is a traitor and my birth parents are alive they're just evil monsters. Cool cool cool I am once again not feeling very safe and secure
Daisy: Oh actually wait my bio parents love me? They want me? I can make a home here mayb-
Daisy: Oh never mind my mom just tried to murder me. And my dad is still a monster but he's agreed to have his memory wiped. At least he's still breathing I guess?
Daisy: Good news is I still have my found family parents so at least-
Daisy: Aaaaand found family dad is dead. You know what this is fine as long as I just have-
Daisy:
Daisy: Universe. Universe listen to me very closely. You bring back my found family mom right fucking now. If I have all four of my parents die on me I will destroy this world just like you all said I would
Daisy: OK good. We found a nice compromise. I get to keep one parent and don't have to watch four of them die. Oh hey it's my bio mom from another timeline where she didn't get tortured into insanity and could actually love-
My top five weird questions to get to know people better! (And what are my answers!)
1: If you had to comfort a friend who lost a person who was an asshole to you, would you do it? - I would and then I would tell them later on that the friend was an asshole to me. Sympathy first Savagery later.
2: If you had to choose one book/movie trope that you could actually experience for an entire week what would it be? - Enemies to Lovers all the way! I am a SIMP for this trope and I would kinda want to live in a book like simulation for a while!
3: If you had to choose a celebrity to binge watch an entire season of a show with, who would you choose and what would be the show? - I'm choosing Han Jisung! And we are gonna watch the entire first season of Hotel Del Luna while eating greasy pizza.
4: A flavour of ice cream you could eat for the rest of your life? - Butterscotch! Don't ask me why.
5: If a song was played every time you walked into a room, what would the song be? - This is HARD for me to answer cause I have a degree in music and my brain can't choose just one song. But if I had to choose, it would be either September by Earth, Wind, Fire or it would be Brooklyn Baby by Lana del Rey!
Im Tagging some people to do this, whom I hope they won't mind me tagging them! @heeliopheelia @astraystayyh @1-800-shedevil @whyyougottadothatbro @soobnny @shoverse @hyunsvngs @forjongseong @jaylaxies @eumpapas @chlorinecake @agi-ppangx @saturnandgold
Headcanon (spoilers S5!!!): The reason we don't see Dazai being suicidal (I don't remember a single suicide joke in S5) anymore is because during his time in prison he had therapy sessions with Fyodor and started to change for better. That is why he says to Fyodor "You can't kill me" because he doesn't want to die anymore. It's Dazai showing his appreciation for the therapy sessions by killing Fyodor. What a wonderful friendship.
ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.
it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.
but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.
people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored
More Phone content!! And yet again Tiktok decided to, not only steal my quality, but my lower spine as well ):<
(CW: illusion to Intrusive thoughts)
[ALSO!! important Disclaimer, Phone is based off of my own experiences with Misophonia and is in no way designed to represent the entire community, please do not take subjects I bring up and apply them to every Misophonic]
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On another note, this is actually based on an actual interaction I’ve had with a friend
Boy was I surprised to find out that this actually isn’t normal /:
On the only bright side I have an excuse to not join awkward family dinners
If you want more info on Phone and Misophonia it can be found Here!! but as always I urge you to do your own research on this disorder
Started with talking about going to the rehab clinic, then about the holidays that I spent at my parent's house. I told my therapist that there was a lot of sadness and that I saw "ghosts" of people I once was wherever I went. He asked me if I often see these "ghosts". I said yes 🙃 Then he asked me if I talk to them. That's when I felt my face turn really red and I also said yes (thinking that this was getting too much into the direction of DID). I don't remember the whole conversation right now, but it ended with him offering me to talk more about these parts of me in the future and figure out what they need - and that it's also something I could do at the rehab clinic (if they work with that).
This feels too close to DID. I'm scared I'll be diagnosed with it again, or ego state disorder. When I talked about these ghosts I literally didn't have anything along those lines in mind. I just chattered.
Another thing I remember is my therapist saying that me and all these people I once was could work together well and that I have a strong adult part who manages life things. Also, that the smaller parts probably can't get exactly what I needed back then because I'm no longer three or eight but that we could take a look.
This really sounds too much like a disorder with dissociated parts oml
repeating not my circus not my monkeys over and over again til i believe it (and still. add concerned to my app, which tells me i have experienced 33 unique emotions in the 16 days i have been using it)
misc travel prep stuff: poppin bubble while i wait for my covid test, finishing off the lentil soup (the parsnip crisps were a bit sad at this point but tamarind chutney my beloved 💛), i don’t have ice cube trays but i do have a whole bunch of cilantro and some novelty molds for ronan treats so here goes freezing in oil!!
i should start packing instead of adhd-led productivity (the hour i spent fixing my drafting table was probably not an hour i needed to spend today) but now that i decided actually yes birding after all, packing has become much less trivial 😔 but!!! sargent exhibit sargent exhibittttttttttt this is gonna be so good ✨
my ex is one of my best friends (in true lesbian fashion of course) and i’m their ‘witness’ for their autism evaluation so i’m staying with them for the week and their cats are ALL over me so i’m all sneezy and an allergic mess.
and they know about the kink so every time i have a sneezing fit they just give me this LOOK like they know how crazy it’s driving me
i am getting absolutely no work done because i am so distracted in multiple ways