vivid street is like. THE most trans supportive place around. because of that, an (who is a trans girl to me) got her Transgender Realization really early on (her looking up to nagi so much certainly contributed too) meanwhile akito (trans guy) got his egg cracked quite early thanks to it, too. that, and social media, helped with cracking ena's (trans girl) egg too
kohane (trans girl) had no way of having vivid street help with cracking her egg, and toya (trans guy) realizing he was trans was assisted by the tenma siblings (who are also trans, tsukasa trans guy and saki trans girl) before he discovered it, but akito definitely wouldn't have his egg cracked if not for vivid street
also nagi was a trans woman send post
sorry for any and all mistakes i'm typing this whole half asleep with heavy eyelids at 10pm
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I just finished reading through all the vbs event stories that I've missed and finally figured out the difference between An and Kohane’s relationship and Akito and Touya's relationship.
An and Kohane’s relationship is primarily based on mutual respect. They want each other to be proud of them, and in order to achieve that they push themselves to reach greater heights so that they can be better than the other.
Akito and Touya's relationship, however, is primarily based on mutual trust. They push themselves to improve further because they want to stand next to each other, shoulder-to-shoulder.
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HPD An Shiraishi
A post where I diagnose An with what im considering my whole system has. Because girlie you are not normal and neither am I.
HPD: histrionic personality disorder. It's the least talked about from the four Cluster B disorders, and so I'm also talking about it and what relates it to An Shiraishi from what we feel ourselves.
First of all, similar to NPD, HPD is an attention seeking disorder, and I'm not going to talk about the difference much because i can fuck it up, but I see An a lot into this.
1- Attention seeking:
I'm calling it "spotlight" seeking in here a lot, for An, attention=spotlight, being the one in a stage and being the focus.
We do know An likes attention, (especially of two people, which I'll talk about it later), she loves the attention her town gives her, and got upset when she felt it being taken away as she felt Kohane was stealing it (even when it wasn't, An also knew it was quite a stupid thing, but it doesn't invalidate her feelings).
She wants people to look at her, at school she can be considered popular, she's a hall monitor (i forgot the actual word) so we know the teachers like her enough, she does sports, she is at the very least known.
At vivid streets there's not even a need to mention, everyone knows her, everyone "adores" her, she feels loved, because she has that attention.
She also hates when she's just called Ken's daughter, yes there is good reason for that, but also it shines the spotlight on HIM, and not her.
2- "Favorite person"
I'm sorry to use the term i think it's bpd specific but I haven't seen a term used for hpd yet so I'm sticking with it here?
Anyways, An has two people she desires the attention of even more.
Nagi and Kohane.
Nagi is the person that made An follow music, she wanted Nagi's attention in that way, she wanted Nagi to look at her and share the spotlight with Nagi, and got devastated when finding out that Nagi can't do any of that anymore, she's still seeking that Nagi attention, just in a different way.
Kohane is.. a complicated story, she wants Kohane's eyes on her, and can even get jealous of the girl, but instead of sharing the spotlight, for a long time she felt fear that Kohane was going to steal the spotlight, leave An alone, without attention and without love. As of the new event she's getting better, she got the win (and the attention) and now she knows they can share, but i dont think that little thing will ever fully leave her head.
While she loves Kohane, she can't help but wish that was her.
Even more when Kohane looks a lot like Nagi in her singing style, which An wishes it was her.
3- Competitive.
That isnt exactly a trait, but it can work as one here, because if she wins a competition, she gets attention, right?
She will do something she's scared of, just to win, just for attention.
So she competes with Haruka on basketball, with Akito on who's the best singer, didn't even think of having him as a partner until the vivids and the bad dogs teamed up because for her, he was competition for the spotlight, for her attention.
But even then, she never felt like those two were really a threat.
And also this whole post is me projecting and going "An, babygirl, you have issues".
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