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#(also lol grey i THOUGHT i heard you mention Greedfall during the stream#but it was that one really loud fight where the music was being ridiculous#obv i’m biased toward encouraging that on your now-free days off#but maybe endwalker queues will have calmed down by then?🤞)

Oh my god that music in that flashpoint was ridiculous, wasn’t it? 😂 But yes, I managed to pick it up on Steam sale the other week, and have been playing it off and on, completely ignoring the main quest and just gallivanting off on side quests.

Enjoying the chill

Literal and figurative.

It’s been insanely hot but my office is very cold so I’m kind of glad I get to come here during daytime. Sure, beach life and summer fun would be great and I’m a bit jealous of people with paid time off but hey - if I had time off it would be +5 degrees and snowing right now so at least other people get to enjoy summer now that I’m indoors.

My derm appointment last Thursday didn’t go as I hoped. Turns out I needed the old scar removed and a bit of extra buffer skin around it just to make sure they got everything out the first time around. So now I have a new set of stitches and no sauna/swimming for 2 weeks. I’m sure this nice hot summer weather is going to stop the day I get my stitches off and lake water will go back to being +16... I have an inflatable swim-doughnut spare tire thingy in case I want to go to the lake from the waist down but this sucks majorly. Also trying to keep the tape on my back makes showering real hard and getting sweaty and uncomfortable means that the wound itches a lot and there’s a high risk of inflammation. This is the worst time of year (or decade - even century) to have surgery of any type. But hey - cancer would suck more right? Gotta try to stay positive although it does feel super unfair. Even if I did have time off I couldn’t enjoy summer... I guess it’s good that I’m working anyway?

For some reason I woke up at 2:30 am on Monday to an anxiety attack. I haven’t had anxiety in a while and everything is 20 times worse at night when you really feel like you’re gonna die so in reality it probably wasn’t that bad but still bad enough to wake me up. I got up, went to pee and tried to fall back asleep but the anxiety woke me up at 3:30 again. I got up, drank some water, stretched and browsed twitter for a while since I thought there would be no point in trying to force myself to sleep and only make myself feel worse. Eventually I found a comfortable position hugging my teddy bear with my back against other plushy toys and managed to sleep until morning. The anxiety was with me all day Monday and partially Tuesday as well but now it’s mostly gone. It might just be the heat and a continuous need to drink water because I can’t think of any other reason for it. Or then it’s just a bunch of different stuff that I’ve got on my mind like my boyfriend returning, work starting to pick up next week, my stitched back, my disgustingly dirty house because it’s too hot to clean etc. Anyway I haven’t had anxiety like this in over a year so it was a surprise.

The yard at our summer house is going through some transformations. We have a new parking lot built and the spot for my new little sleeping cottage is prepped. I might have a new house by the end of this summer which is both exciting and kind of sad as my old dear little house is going to get taken away. The new one will be so super cute and free of mold so it’ll be easier for me to breathe there. ♥

So last week I hung out with my friend on Thursday after my disastrous derm appointment and it was good to have company. This time around I don’t really care to watch out or be careful with my wound or the scarring process and paying no attention to it has helped it feel less sore I guess. I had keloid scarring on the previous scar as well even though I was so so so careful so who cares at this point if the scar is just going to keep growing anyway.. Anyway me and my friend went shopping and played ACNL. The weekend was a bit rainy so I spent Friday at home watching YouTube videos and Skype calling my Israeli friend while playing some Stardew Valley. On Saturday I went shopping with mum and dad and after lunch we drove over to our summer cottage. It was a rainy but very warm day. On Sunday me and mum wanted to make a blueberry pie and going to pick blueberries I saw a viper snake on the path to the house. That scared us real bad since we haven’t seen any snakes on our lot. They usually hang out near the bigger road but I guess either the abnormal heat or all the new cottages being built around has somehow screwed with their territories. Anyway that was terrifying but we managed to make a delicious blueberry pie regardless. 

On Monday me and my friends from ballet went on a picnic after I got off work. We spent the entire evening from 5 pm until midnight at the beach talking. We found out that one of my best friends from that group is getting married next summer and I’m SO excited and happy for her! We talked lots about weddings and the girls’ future plans now that they’re all high school grads and are going off to travel the world and go to college. I really hope we don’t drift apart.. I had such an amazing time and our little get-together was much needed. ♥ What’s better on a warm summer day than a picnic at the beach with some of my favourite girls and not a care in the world. ☼ Also wedding planning. ♥ ♥ ♥

So far I’ve been fine with the heat but last night was a bit tough. It was +30 in the house all night and I couldn’t really get a draft in because the air just wasn’t moving at all. Also, like a smart girl I made s’mores and monkey bread in the oven. Real hot. Everything was about to expire and I’m going on a diet starting August 1st so I have to get rid of all trash food in my house as soon as possible. It was bordering on uncomfortable but I managed to sleep so that’s fine. It was a sweaty and very warm evening watching mischacrossing 100% Breath of the Wild and play some Captain Toad Treasure Tracker.

My parents are coming back from the summer house today so I probably won’t go to the cottage today. I’m going to try and get a draft in my apartment but if it doesn’t work out I might have to come up with a plan B of what to do. Maybe me and mum can go for a walk/run. I could use it. I’ve been doing some squats and other body weight exercises at work this week. I’ve even napped a couple of times both on and under my desk. It’s hilarious but yeah - I misread my boss’ outlook calendar and she isn’t coming back until next week. A couple of my colleagues had an office chair race down the hallway yesterday so we’re all going a bit stir-crazy in here. Anyway I’m enjoying my time in the cool replying to the occasional request tickets and flowdock chat messages while watching videos on YouTube, listening to music, grinding the heck out of another Chip’s fishing tourney in ACPC + collecting gyroids, talking to friends, browsing Twitter/jodel/LinkedIN/Tumblr, watching twitch streams and taking care of other occasional stuff. Oh and taking long lunch breaks.