I finally realized that my werewolf kintype is indeed a trauma response, which is why it's so different from my coyote form. That's why it's so stressful when it comes out- it protects me when I've encountered one of my triggers.

Because I often feel powerless and afraid, my brain has created this thing that makes me feel powerful and feeds on my anger to make sure that I don't get hurt again. When the adrenaline rushes through my veins and my chest feels tight with anger; when I can feel fangs and claws and fur, it's only a way to protect myself.

Brains are so weird.

Your mere existence is a threat to me

Don't you dare get any closer, I'll rip you to pieces

My fur rises along my spine, lips pulled back to reveal my teeth

My senses are heightened and my body is poised to attack

I'm scared of you but you should fear me